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My Other Half, to Alfie the cat: “You be good too, little man.”

Alfie: “I do not subscribe to your ideas of morality, hooman.”

OH: “Fine. Look after Parent and they will give you many scritches.”

Alfie: “…that is acceptable.”

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“I SAY! MaDUM!”

“ExcUSE me?!”

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Just got the first tick of the year off Alfie.

He did *so* well and just sat and purred as I twisted it off.

Remember to check your pets - I’ve no idea *where* he managed to get this, but the deer do wander into the gardens round here sometimes so I’m afraid I’m blaming them. And yourself too!

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This shit is so fucking important.

It’s cool to see DNA and traits move in populations in ancient DNA. It’s cool to see how that relates to modern populations, and how so many things we assumed from bits of written history, often by other peoples, are, if not dead wrong, More Complex Than That.

It is not fucking cool to see people trying to jam the dead dead horse of “race science” into this useful data. It’s fucking depressing.

This NPR interview with with Angela Saini about how race science never really left the global scientific consciousness is super interesting! I’m gonna read her book!

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Yesssssssssssssss

I love this stupid animal.

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I have been taking up weaving.

Making cloth is a very human thing.

A few facts surprise me:

How long it takes to warp the loom,

How many ways there are to fix mistakes,

How quickly knots can generate themselves.

Which facts become important as I weave,

And which, in final cloth, are meaningless.

The loom is on my bed.

A dozen dozen strings flow over foot and head

Soon rolled and taut and fit to pull and spread

As half or third are lifted in a shed.

I have been taking up weaving.

I have become insufferable at the mall:

Do you have anything that is all wool? All cotton?

I see a design, and am fascinated

Until I get close enough to see that it's a print.

I find myself wanting to touch:

The jackets, plackets, shirts and skirts and pants

Umbrella, sailcloth, carpet, rug and hat.

The satin, plain, and twill

Or even knit.

I have been taking up weaving.

By hand.

Each passage of the shuttle back and forth

Each roller ratchet clicking forth the cloth

Each beat and shed, each push and pull and turn

With selvedge straight or pulled-in

I will earn

The title "weaver".

This I hope.

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Getting my undercut redone always helps so much more with the dysphoria than I ever expect. It’s such a nice surprise every time.

(Alfie says hi 🐈‍⬛)

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All the craft groups I’m on because I like seeing people’s creations seem to be full of people making blue fucking puzzle pieces and talking about cure rhetoric.

Some of them respond well to having full facts about how fucking awful Autism $peaks, ABA and eugenics are when I drag all the trauma, the eugenicist discourse from medics I dealt with during my pregnancies, the terror I feel about how my wee brother could be treated, and why I personally would shy away from anyone wearing a blue puzzle piece for them. Others apparently would rather scream “hater”. I’ve been called a “TikTok autistic” more times than I can count.

When TS Eliot said “April is the cruellest month”, he had no fucking clue.

I’m so tired.

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Brilliantly restrained roundup of the slew of evidence that the Cass report is an horrendous, ideologically-driven, transphobic mess

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Seriously, if your idea of ​​"destigmatising autism” is “it isn't an intellectual/learning disability", you are part of the fucking problem.

No, it isn't, but *many* autistic folks are intellectually/learning disabled due to co-occurring conditions and they are just as much a necessary, valuable and important part of the autistic community as any other autistic person. You do not "destigmatise" any disability by distancing it from a historically marginalised and Othered disability. That's just shifting *more* stigma to the most marginalised disability, throwing the *most* marginalised and abused people in the autistic community under the bus as you do so, and *that* is disableist as all hell.

We do *not* promote #AutisticAcceptance by buying into a disableist worldview that devalues ​​disabled people, especially those who have historically suffered the most abuse and the most marginalisation. We promote autistic acceptance by accepting and taking pride in the broad diversity of our autistic community, with all of our needs, our co-occurring conditions and how that intersects with our other marginalisations, and by working for disabled liberation, accessibility and the end of disableism.

(Sorry, but it’s been one *fuck* of a long April already, and we’re not even halfway through yet).

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Not doing great with chest dysphoria atm.

I have long since given up any real idea of any kind of physical transition because I’m nonbinary and they rarely deal well with that, and honestly I’ve got so medical trauma from years of disability, not being believed and getting gaslighting every time I ask for any kind of help, plus I’m autistic, plus I’ve got hEDS so slow healing, plus my folks would undoubtedly not deal great with it, that dealing with the crumbling, shitty UK trans healthcare system would be so fucking much more than I could handle.

And yet, if I could just take these fucking flesh beach balls *off* it would be so nice not to deal with the days where I see these things on me and feel them stuck to my chest so I can never lie comfortably on my front - or most ways, tbh - and just want to scratch my skin off.

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Super quick and messy photoshoot because I *do* have a lot of other work to do today.

Writing on hand reads “nonbinary aged 40”. The golden infinity symbol is the neurodivergence-affirming symbol for autism.

Not a child. Not incapable. Nonbinary autistic person aged 40.

Transphobia and disableism are inherently entwined.

Anyone tells me it’s messy; yes, I know, and IDGAF; I’m busy and it’s a five-minute idea I wanted to get down before I go back to my dissertation 🏳️‍⚧️💜🖤💛

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I mean I didn’t do the leeches part but I had episodes of SH due to intense stress from school and workplaces that were unwilling to accommodate me. Can confirm bloodletting does not make you less autistic.

I’m really proud I’ve got better coping strategies now, mostly.

The Cass Report demonstrates a truly ridiculous ignorance of literally *anything* to do with not only trans lives, but basic medical treatment protocols.

You *cannot* do double-blind tests where an intervention very clearly has distinct observable effects. Medicine also frequently does not do double-blind tests when doing so would be a) basically impossible, and b) inhumane. It’s particularly common to measure efficacy of an intervention by follow-up and statistical analysis where children and young people are concerned because experimenting on kids is so fucking unethical.

The report is treating reports following established medical protocols as though they are some kind of pseudoscience. Literally the only reasons for this are either a) an ignorance of basic medical and research procedures so profound as to show an utter unsuitability to be involved in reporting on anything to do with healthcare or b) blatant disingenuousness to find an excuse to discard the results they don’t want to acknowledge. Which also renders them deeply unsuitable to report on anything to do with healthcare.

They have used to existence of nonbinary people as an excuse to deny under-25s transition care, treating our entire identity as some sort of adolescent identity crisis. As a 40-year old nonbinary person, I can only say how *utterly* this betrays a profound ignorance of trans culture and identity and/or a commitment to patriarchal and colonial gender norms so profound they are utterly unwilling to dive into the easily-available evidence of adults all over the world with nonbibary identities today, and the anthropological and historical evidence of cultures all over the world with an understanding of gender outside the binary.

And the recommendation that transition should be forbidden to people with mental illness or neurodivergence only betrays how deeply and profoundly transphobia is entwined with disableism. There is a line which literally says “transition did not affect manifestation of symptoms of autism spectrum disorder”. As if this was remotely relevant to anything other than pathologising both transness and neurodivergence.

It of course also attempts to ignore the reality that millions of British adults are seeking neurodivergence diagnoses through the NHS and being turned down or stuck on waiting lists that can easily be *seven* years long.

I am sick with fury and fear, and trying to mute my own reactions because I have a dissertation draft due in tomorrow I *need* to work on.

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The Cass Report demonstrates a truly ridiculous ignorance of literally *anything* to do with not only trans lives, but basic medical treatment protocols.

You *cannot* do double-blind tests where an intervention very clearly has distinct observable effects. Medicine also frequently does not do double-blind tests when doing so would be a) basically impossible, and b) inhumane. It’s particularly common to measure efficacy of an intervention by follow-up and statistical analysis where children and young people are concerned because experimenting on kids is so fucking unethical.

The report is treating reports following established medical protocols as though they are some kind of pseudoscience. Literally the only reasons for this are either a) an ignorance of basic medical and research procedures so profound as to show an utter unsuitability to be involved in reporting on anything to do with healthcare or b) blatant disingenuousness to find an excuse to discard the results they don’t want to acknowledge. Which also renders them deeply unsuitable to report on anything to do with healthcare.

They have used to existence of nonbinary people as an excuse to deny under-25s transition care, treating our entire identity as some sort of adolescent identity crisis. As a 40-year old nonbinary person, I can only say how *utterly* this betrays a profound ignorance of trans culture and identity and/or a commitment to patriarchal and colonial gender norms so profound they are utterly unwilling to dive into the easily-available evidence of adults all over the world with nonbibary identities today, and the anthropological and historical evidence of cultures all over the world with an understanding of gender outside the binary.

And the recommendation that transition should be forbidden to people with mental illness or neurodivergence only betrays how deeply and profoundly transphobia is entwined with disableism. There is a line which literally says “transition did not affect manifestation of symptoms of autism spectrum disorder”. As if this was remotely relevant to anything other than pathologising both transness and neurodivergence.

It of course also attempts to ignore the reality that millions of British adults are seeking neurodivergence diagnoses through the NHS and being turned down or stuck on waiting lists that can easily be *seven* years long.

I am sick with fury and fear, and trying to mute my own reactions because I have a dissertation draft due in tomorrow I *need* to work on.

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By Don Paterson

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"Do you ever dream of land?" The whale asks the tuna.

"No." Says the tuna, "Do you?"

"I have never seen it." Says the whale, "but deep in my body, I remember it."

"Why do you care," says the tuna, "if you will never see it."

"There are bones in my body built to walk through the forests and the mountains." Says the whale.

"They will disappear." Says the tuna, "one day, your body will forget the forests and the mountains."

"Maybe I don't want to forget," Says the whale, "The forests were once my home."

"I have seen the forests." Whispers the salmon, almost to itself.

"Tell me what you have seen," says the whale.

"The forests spawned me." Says the salmon. "They sent me to the ocean to grow. When I am fat with the bounty of the ocean, I will bring it home."

"Why would the forests seek the bounty of the oceans?" Asks the whale. "They have bounty of their own."

"You forget," says the salmon, "That the oceans were once their home."

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Happy Piss On Thatcher’s Grave Day everyone!

Remember to stay hydrated 😜