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I'm 23

I never thought I'd live this long, honestly.

I dont know what I'm doing

I know most people don't but i never thought I'd live past 21

Past 19

I thought I'd be gone by 16.

But I'm still here,

And I'm not quiet sure how I feel about it.

I have my own house

I have my own pets,

But I feel like an imposter living somebody else's life.

I don't feel like I deserve this,

Not when I didn't plan on having it in the first place.

People tell me I'm doing so well for myself,

But I don't think that matters too much while I'm feeling this lost.

All I'm doing is trying to survive,

And trying to see past the irony, when i figured that by now I wouldve died.

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I think I've reached a point in my life where I'm scared.

Im scared of relationships

Im scared of love.

Because every person I've ever loved has hurt me

Has abandoned me

My friends tell me "Oh I think you have a bad type"

But I don't have a type

I just want love

Stupid unconditional love.

The type of love you're excited to come home to,

Excited giggles and giddiness,

Happiness and growth.

Yet the Gods have seemed to decide to tease me with permanent feelings for temporary people,

I hope they've gotten a good laugh at least.

Cause all they've caused is a closed off heart

And a fear of love.

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You can not tell me that Eddie "The Freak" Munson gets zero bitches, because I, for one, am being held in a complete chokehold by this man😍

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Thinking about how nice it'd be to be hugged and comforted by my comfortable characters(s) and how much I really need it right now

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I feel like cuddling with Fatgum would be absolutely amazing, like, just imagine laying with your head on his chest while his arm is wrapped around you rubbing circles on your waist, absolutely swoon worthy😩😍

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Anyone else ever feel like they don't belong here? Not like, where you live or just where you're at in life, but as in you don't belong in this universe, in this dimension? Or is that just me?😅

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Daydreaming about life in a different dimension ✌🏻

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I've got Andrew Garfield's Spiderman living in my mind rent free, and I'm perfectly fine with that😍

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Soulmates

Just some sweet fluff😋😊

Tamaki Amajiki x fem!reader, aged up, Tamaki is 23 and reader is 21, will be slight cursing.

Imagine if everyone had the red string of fate, and you can see it, however, the strings are short until you meet your soulmate, but, you don't know who your soulmate is until you make physical contact with them

"Why the hell are we at the mall? I was looking forward to relaxing today!" (F/n) rolls her eyes as complaint after complaint leaves my lips. She looks at me with a grin on her face before she hooks her arm around my shoulders. "We're in this oh so lovely mall today because you, dear (y/n) agreed to come here with me the other night to help me pick out a new outfit for my blind date!" I glare at her as I cross my arms, racking my brain for when this conversation happened, only to come up empty handed. "I don't remember you ever asking me to come here with you?" My glare turns questioning as she giggles slightly.

"Well, that's because you were drunk!" Her smile is ear to ear as i freeze on the spot. "You motherfu-" "Hey, let's go in here!" (F/n) cuts me off as she pulls me into the first store that caught her eye, causing me to roll my own (e/c) eyes. I decide to browse through the clothing and other items as well to keep myself occupied, giving my opinion when asked and stating my opinion when she didn't ask for it as well.

Many eye rolls and laughs later, we make our way to the next store, repeating this process over and over again until finally, after what feels like forever, (f/n) finally picked out everything she needed for her upcoming blind date. We both decided on making our way to the food court to fill our very empty stomachs, excitement fills me to the brim at the thought of finally being able to eat. (f/n) quickly takes notice of the wide smile adorning my face causing her to laugh slightly.

"I should've known you'd be this excited about food." She continues to chuckle while I nod my head in excitement. "I didn't get to have any breakfast this morning, so of course I'm this excited about food!" (F/n) shakes her head at me while I shoot an accusing glare her way before I continue my tangent about this morning. "If only a certain someone didn't insist on coming to this damn mall so early I might have actually been able to eat some- oof!"

I'm cut off as my body collides with something hard. I groan in pain as my body meets the cold, dirty of the mall while someone stutters out apologies in front of me and a feminine gasp comes from besides me. "What thr fuck just happened..?" I mumble out as I slowly open my eyes. The first thing I see is a tall dark blue haired boy who looks like he wants nothing more than to disappear while he stutters over his words, the next thing I see is (f/n) staring at me in shock.

Embarrassment floods my body as I realize that I ran right into an attractive guy all because I was bitching about not getting breakfast. I feel my face turn bright red as I clasp my hands over my face, now all I want is to dissappear as I begin apologizing myself. "I'm so so fucking sorry! Holy shit I should've been paying more attention to my surroundings! I can't apologize enough I'm so...sorry...?"

My apologies slowly become a question as I feel something soft against my arm that I didn't feel before. Slowly and cautiously, I move my hands away from my face, not believing my eyes as I see what the foreign touch was on me. Laying on my arm is a long red string, connecting me right to the handsome stranger in front of me. I feel my hearts doing flips in my chest as I completely take in his form. "You...?" Is all I can seem to force myself to say, but even that barely comes out as a whisper, somehow though, it was loud enough to gain his attention.

I barely register (f/n) and a couple other unfamiliar voices squealing in the background as I finally make eye contact with the shy male in front of me. The strangers eyes widen as he finally takes in the red string connecting us, his face becoming bright bright red as he seems to fight with himself on what he should do next. He finally takes a couple tentative steps towards me before he reaches his hand out to me while he looks at the ground, fidgeting in place like it's taking every bit of his self control to not run away.

I gently grasp the hand he's offering causing him to flinch slightly before he pulls me to my feet with a surprising amount of strength. I stumble into his chest causing both of us to gasp at the sudden contact. My blush increases as I hear (f/n) teasing me slightly while she converses with this strangers -my soulmates- friends, I refuse to look her way as I smoothly lift my hand and flip her off, causing her to laugh loudly at me. I redirect all of my attention back to the male who's currently slightly holding me, taking in everything from his gorgeous dark eyes and pointed ears, to his nervous posture and slight tremble while he debates.

A small smile graces my lips causing his blush to darken as I finally find my voice again. "What's your name?" I whisper, slightly scared that if i raise my voice he'll run away. He gulps at my question and tries to keep eye contact with me while trying to find his voice as well. "Ta-Tamaki Ama-Amajiki... wh-what's your n-name..?" I wonder if it's possible for my blush to get any deeper as I listen to his voice. "(Y/n), (y/n) (l/n) -"

"Bunny? Bunny are you okay?" I'm jolted out of my memories by a gentle voice causing me to smile and look up at the male who brought my attention back to the real world. "Hmm? Of course I'm okay Tama, why?" His gaze is gentle as he reaches his hand out to my face, gently cupping my cheek. I lean into his touch while he rubs circles on my cheek with his thumb, a content sigh escapes my lips while I close my eyes. "You were starting to cry bunny, I was worried.." his statment leaves me confused, causing me to bring a hand up to my face to rub my eyes, and sure enough, it comes away wet with the salty tears that had snuck by me without me realizing it.

I laugh slightly as I stand up fom the floor, looking at the pictures I had been going through fondly, especially the one that caused my day dreaming to happen. I place myself on the couch next to Tamaki and instantly cuddle up next to him, he stiffens slightly but quickly relaxes and wraps his arms around my body, pulling me as close to him as possible. "I promise I'm fine Tama. I was just remembering the day we met. You know, that was one of the happiest days of my life so far?" He places a kiss on the top of my head before he buries his face in my hair, breathing in the smell of my hair wash, finding complete comfort in my presence.

"It was one of mine too bunny, I'm glad we had finally ran into eachother." I beam at Tamaki's response, cuddling into his strong arms so I can be as close to him as possible. Tamaki brings his hands down to meet mine, playing with and rubbing my fingers while we sit in almost complete silence, other than the music playing quietly from the speakers. "Oh yea!" I tilt my head backwards slightly so I can look up at my soulmate, happiness dances in his eyes while he looks at me with a questioning look on his face, waiting for me to continue speaking.

"Are we still meeting up with everyone tomorrow for dinner? I forgot to ask (f/n), but I figured Mirio mentioned something to you about it while you were out with him today?" My question makes Tamaki chuckle while he plays with my hair. "Yes bunny, we are, everyone's really excited too." I let out an excited 'Yesss!' to his response, a bright smile forming on my face at the thought of seeing all my friends and their soulmates. I shoot up out of Tamaki's arms causing him to pout before I crash my lips into his in a sweet and excited kiss, after a few seconds I pull away and jump off the couch, quickly picking up all the pictures I had laying around before pecking Tama on the lips again.

"I need to go pick out an outfit for tomorrow than Tama, I love you!" I exclaim excitedly before darting back to our shared bedroom, determined to find the perfect outfit. Tamaki smiles and chuckles to himself. "I love you too bunny.." he knows I couldn't hear him, but he wanted to respond anyways. He glances to the picture I left on the coffee table, his smile turning into a reminiscing look as he takes in the contents.

It's from when we met at the mall, Mirio, Hado, and (f/n) insisted we all go eat together, and while we were in the midst of the two of us eating and being blushing messes (f/n) decided to take a picture of us. Tamaki gains a gentle smile while he reaches into his pants pocket and pulls out a little velvet box containing the ring him and Mirio picked out earlier today. He brings it up to his lips, placing a gentle kiss to it, feeling extremely excited and nervous tomorrow.

"If only you knew why everyone's actually so excited for tomorrow Bunny."

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Mine

Shinso Hitoshi x reader

Slight cursing, very slight spice if you squint, could be considered collegeau! Feedback and comments are always appreciated

“Awww, come on Hitoshi! I’m your best friend, you can tell me who you like!” Shinso Hitoshi sends a half hearted glare towards my very drunk self as he proceeds to steady my swaying form, causing me to swat his hands away. “I knew I shouldn’t have trusted you when you said you were only going to have one drink tonight (n/n).” Hitoshi’s purple gaze takes in my flushed face and goofy grin, causing a slight blush to form on his face. “Toshiiii, stop judging me so much! Your face is flushed too, I can tell you’ve been drinking tonight as well!” I wine, causing him to deadpan and mumble under his breath. “(N/n)-”

“(y/nnnn)! Shinsooooo!” My eyes light up while Hitoshi groans as an all too familiar voice cuts through the air. “Minaaaaaa!” I cry out right before the pinkette tackles me into a hug, successfully distracting me from the conversation I was having with Hitoshi. Mina and I continue to embrace each other and chat, after a few minutes pass by Hitoshi gives me a gentle smile before walking to a nearby couch to relax, deciding to keep an eye on me from a distance. As soon as the violet haired male is out of hearing range Mina grabs me by my shoulders and pushes me so I’m at arms length so she can study my face.

“So (n/n) what’s up with you and Shinso? Are you two a thing yet?” I choke on my drink while Mina shoots me a cheeky grin “I -uh…no, no there’s nothing going on between us, we’re just friends! Besides, it’s not like he’d ever feel that way about me…” Mina’s eyebrow quirks upwards at my at my response as she removes her hand from my shoulder so she can ruffle her hair in frustration. Mina’s the only one who knows about my longtime crush on Hitoshi, and she’s been trying to convince me to pour my heart out to him for a while now. Mina throws her head back slightly whining at me, while I stare at my feet like they’re the most interesting things in the universe.

“You know what (n/n), we’re going to be graduating from college soon, so how about we just forget about boys for the night and have some fun, yea?” A slight smile slowly forms on my face at Mina’s declaration while I fist pump up into the air m the sadness I was just feeling quickly disappearing at the thought of more alcohol. “Hell yea!” Is the last thing that slips past my lips before I down the last of my drink and grasp Mina’s hand to drag her to the kitchen in order to get more alcohol while she laughs her ass off at my new found enthusiasm. As soon as the two of us are out of sight Hitoshi let’s out a groan and slumps against the back of the couch causing a small, sad smile to grace the features of a certain green haired male who was observing his friend. After debating on what to do, the male walks up to the couch and decides to lean over it, gaining Hitoshi’s attention.

“You still haven’t confessed how you feel about her, have you?” The innocent inquiry causes the purple haired male to groan out a simple ‘no’ keeping his eyes trained on the entrance to the kitchen. “You really should tell her how you feel Hitoshi. We’re going to be graduating soon, and you never know when someone else might confess to her and steal her from you before you .” Hitoshi is quick to glare up at Izuku, causing the greenette to throw his hands up in the air in defense as he begins rambling out apologizes. “I know, there’s just no way she’d ever feel that way about me.” Izuku stares at the tired boy in shock as he slowly lowers his hands. It’s obvious with how you act around Hitoshi that you feel the same, yet Hitoshi seems to be just as oblivious as you. “But Hitoshi, it’s obvious that (y/n) li-”

“Deku, you’re here too?! I didn’t think you were a party person?” Speak of the devil and she shall appear. Izuku jumps backwards as if I had just attacked him, and proceeds to sputter out absolute nonsense to my drunken mind. After Izuku finally calms down we all begin to chat amongst ourselves, Mina and I stay standing in front of the couch, Hitoshi continuously tries to convince me to sit on the couch with him, causing Izuku to chuckle slightly while he stays leaning on the back of the couch.

“Hey there beautiful.” I jump at the sudden voice behind me, missing the way Hitoshi stiffens at the male voice while I whip around to see an unfamiliar male standing before me. An air of drunken confidence seems to pour out of every inch of the man, causing me to take an involuntary step back towards Hitoshi. “You look absolutely stunning doll, how ‘bout we ditch this party and go have some fun at my place?” The drunken man takes a large step towards me as I stumble over my words while trying to come up with a response. “I, uh, I’m sorry, I’m no- eek!” I squeak as a strong arm wraps around my waist and yanks me down into a warm lap while my back becomes flush with a sturdy chest.

“Toshi?” His nickname leaves my lips as little more than a whisper as he moves my hair out of his way and sets his chin on my shoulder, a sly smile placed on his lips while his violet gaze pierces the baffled man in front of us. Hitoshi gently glides his left hand down my side and across my thigh before finally settling on the right side of my waist while his arm settles against my stomach, keeping me flush against him. I shift slightly in his lap, causing him to suppress a groan of pleasure. “Sorry buddy, she’s mine, so how about you do us a favor and take your perverted ass home, yea?” Hitoshi’s smile turns into a sly smirk as the man begins to respond, only to be cut off as his eyes go blank. Within a matter of seconds the now brainwashed man disappears into the crowds of people to go home. I let out a sigh of relief as my body slumps as the stiffness I was holding leaves me all at once. It doesn’t take long for sadness to begin building within me as I begin to speculate that Hitoshi only acted like this to protect me, like any best friend would. I begin to make my way off of his lap, only to gasp as Hitoshi tightens his grip on me, easily keeping me from moving away.

“Where do you think you’re going, kitten?” His voice is deep and seductive as he whispers in my ear, right before he buries his face into the side of my neck. An involuntary shiver crawls across my skin and the drunken flush on my face becomes darker as I process his actions. Izuku and Mina share a knowing look and wide grins as they excuse themselves in order to give us some alone time, causing my heart to race. “You know (n/n), I’ve liked you for a long time now, -” he pauses so he can press a tentative kiss against my neck, causing me to let out a slight squeal of surprise and to shift in his lap, resulting in him audibly groaning followed by a deep chuckle. “Hell, I’d go as far as to say I love you. I admire everything about you, I want nothing more than to be able to call you mine and to keep assholes as far away from you as possible.” He pauses again, despite how confident he seems to be I can sense the slight fear rising within him as he holds me just a little tighter and buries his head into my shoulder.

“Do you really mean that Toshi?” I feel like I’m dreaming I move my hands to cover his that are gently squeezing my sides out of nervousness as he continues to hold me close. “Of course I mean it kitten.” My heart melts at his response as I give his hands a squeeze. “Me too Toshi, I love you too, - for a long time now.” I whisper back, too afraid to speak too loudly in case this is all just a dream. He beams against my shoulder before he lifts his head and peppers my neck with kisses, causing me to giggle and squirm in his lap before he decides to nip at my neck, turning my giggles into a surprised gasp. Hitoshi slowly raises his head to look at my flushed face before gently kissing my cheek, he lingers there for a moment before trailing his lips to my ear once again.

“How about we get out of here and make us official then? I’ve been waiting a long time for this, and I’m more than ready to make you mine.”

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Imagine carving pumpkins with Luka and being a complete goofball while he's stressing out and worrying you're going to hurt yourself only for everything to turn out fine and you both have amazing looking pumpkins and you spend the rest of the night watching movies and drinking hot chocolate while cuddling as Luka wonders how many years you too off his life with all the scares you gave him but at the same time he can't wait for next year and all the years after that💙🥰

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I swoon at the thought of being engulfed by Hawks' wings while being hugged by him😍😩

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Nothing like thinking about my favorite anime characters and crying a little since I'll never be able to meet them😅😭

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I was drinking coffe late last night when this popped into my head😅 I'm a little rusty so feedback would be greatly appreciated 💙

Imagine living with your local sunshine boy Mirio Togata. You've been extra busy with work so Mirio's used to you being up late, however unbeknownst to him even when you arent slammed with work you haven't been able to sleep. Until one night he gets up at 2 a.m. to get himself a glass of water and catches you starting to make coffee. He blinks and rubs his eyes to make sure he isn't dreaming and that you're actually standing in the kitchen, wearing an oversized t-shirt and a pair of short shorts that leave little to the imagination, you don't know he's standing in the doorway until a loud "Ow!" Sounds from Mirio pinching himself just to triple check. Cue a surprised yelp from you and a quick spin to see the tall blond, a blush coating your face as your long-time crush and best friend stands before you. "Are..are you making coffee? At 2 in the morning? Mirio stares you down with a bewildered look on his face, causing your blush to increase. "Umm..yes?" You look down, your (h/c) hair covering your face. "I..haven't been able to sleep well for a while, so I figured if I can't sleep I might as well have some coffee to make it more enjoyable." There's a moment of silence as Mirio processes what you said before he speaks again "No!" Your head shoots up as your (e/c) eyes take in his joyful expression. "No?" He laughs at your confusion before he closes the gap between the two of you, placing his hands on your shoulders with a smile on his face. "No, you're not making coffee, and no, you're not staying up any later. Tonight, I'm going to be your hero and help you sleep!" Silence follow Mirio's exclamation before a confused "What?" Leaves your lips. He releases your shoulders, gets his water, and proceeds to lead you out of the kitchen towards his room. Too dumbfounded to argue or question what's happening, you allow to be lead to his oddly clean room, finally finding your voice after he sits his water on his nightstand, and proceeds to take his shirt off, revealing his very built form. "Umm..what's happening?" He laughs at your question while you play with your hands. "What's happening is I'm going to help you sleep!" A questioning look stays on your face as Mirio closes the gap between the two of you while he speaks. He envelops your hands with his own as he proceeds to lead you to his bed, a gentle smile and a light blush coating his face while yours is beat red. "If you can't sleep by yourself then you're going to fall asleep with me for sure! And if you can't, well, then I'll stay up with you and keep you company!" You don't have the heart to argue with him, giving in to his will and laying down in his bed while he reaches over and turns his lamp off. You're expecting to just lay side by side, only for him to grab you and pull you to him, ending up with your head on his chest, arm draped over him, and his arm wrapped around your waist. You can hear his heart racing. "You see (y/n), you mean so much to me, and, maybe this is just me being selfish and using you not being able to sleep as an excuse to do this, but I've dreamed of being able to sleep with you like this for so long..." He trails off, realizing he's been rambling and revealing his true feelings. You stay silent and his cheerful mind begins to go to the worst case scenario, however he's brought out of his thoughts when you nuzzle into his chest. "Me too Mirio, me too." He beems at your words and squeezes you slightly. A yawn escapes your lips causing him to chuckle before you speak again. "Can..can we talk about what we are in the morning? I'm getting really tired Mirio.." he smiles as he nuzzles his face into your hair, you almost miss the feeling of him placing a gentle kiss onto your head, causing a small smile to grace your tired features. "Of course love, of course."