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my friends keep going; “hey, gotta talk to you!” I say: “ok”. What do they respond with? NEVERMIND.

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hand-me-downs.

I was a child born of hand-me-downs

My sisters gave me food and clothes

My mother gave me a life I never wanted

My father gave me my curiosity as he never was there

My caretakers gave me what my parents should’ve done

My pets gave me a sense of hope and despair

My belongings gave me a sense of possession

My emotions gave me life

My speech therapist gave me speech

My doctors gave me lies

My stories gave me passion

And my life was full of hand-me-downs.

Hand-me-downs of things people had owned before

Hand-me-downs of things that were created of before I had them

Hand-me-downs that gave me myself

And I, me, a child born of hand-me-downs.

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back to friends…?

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”What?”

Kylie asked in soft tone. Her eyes widening in disbelief as she fixed her shirt. She didn’t know how to respond. Kylie and James had always been good friends. Friends. Slowly became more, and she wished it crossed the line of lovers but it never did.

“We’re not dating or anything. Just friends.”

James replied in a cool tone, not even looking her way. James never cared for titles such as lover or friend. Kylie was another pretty face James had seen. Nothing more, nothing less. He remained laying in his bed, scrolling on his phone. Kylie had to compose herself. Did she really go on this whole monologue of dating to him if he wasn’t going to look her way for a single second? Did he really just friendzone her when she’s been in his room more times than she’s been in hers?

“Yeah. Friends, totally! I mean, pfft, girlfriend and boyfriend? That’s so stupid. Who even dates anymore?”

Kylie mentally kicked herself for taking so long to respond. She finished changing back into her clothes, grabbing her purse.

“Not gonna use my shower or anything…?”

James asked. Finally looking at her and putting his phone down. She usually did use his things, it was just convenient for her and he didn’t care if she used it or not. James did a glance over her body. She was acting weird to him. Not the usual “happy to go” self Kylie was. But she was just a friend to him, right? Why did he care if she acted weird?

“Nope! Gonna let you save on your water bill. Prices are high nowadays, right?”

Kylie responded with a smile so fake you could see it plastered on a cheap doll. She left quickly, not bothering to say her goodbyes or anything. She didn’t want to hear another word from him. He’s already done enough. Breaking her heart like that? Making her cry on the subway like that? No, no, no, no, no! She’s gonna pull herself together and find someone better. Someone who’s a Prince Charming and not an ogre like James. Someone that’s—damnit, she didn’t even realize that she was instinctively reaching for her phone to see if he’s texted or called. To see if he’s noticed. She rolled her eyes, mentally kicking herself for even daring to act so pathetic towards someone who has I’ll Make A Man Out Of You on his liked songs. Then she mentally kicked herself again. Why did she memorize his favorite food? Favorite songs? Her thoughts ended abruptly like a train crash. James was texting. Her heart began to race.

(texts between Kylie and James at 9:42 a.m.)

—James; “we cool?”

—Kylie; “Omg… totally forgot about tonight.”

—James; “nah u fine”

—James; “meant earlier, u seemed weird or nah?”

—Kylie; “Sorry lol. Yeah, everything is fine.”

—James; “k”

(texts ended)

Kylie sighed softly. Laying her phone on her lap as she laid back in her seat. She tiredly gazed out towards the window. It was always a nice view. A green, forestry landscape with a subtle hint of citylife. Made her want to take a photo every time.

James, internally, was a bit distressed. He knew he shouldn’t care so much about Kylie. She said she was fine with being friends so why did he want to be so much more? Truth be told, he was scared. Scared that their friendship would be lost if a relationship didn’t work out. He grabbed his headphones and put them on. He put on a playlist named; “K ♥️”. He can keep his crush as a crush. He didn’t need to pursue her all his life. He didn’t need a relationship. Yet, James rolled over in his bed, hugging a pillow that would never mimic Kylie the way he wished it would. Eventually, James fell asleep. He fell asleep to the memory of his crush.

Kylie entered her apartment with a yawn. It was a short walk from the subway station. She collapsed onto her bed with a frown still on her face. Kylie grabbed a pillow and whisper-screamed her emotions into it.

“Great going Kylie. You’ve ruined another good thing in your life. Fucking spectacular.”

Kylie mumbled into the pillow. She reached for her phone. The first contact that popped up was James. She hit call. It rang a few times before heading to voicemail.

“James here. Uh… leave a voicemail and I’ll try and get back to you?”

His voice soothed her practically instantly. Kylie smiled gently. She was already picturing his face, his voice, his body— Kylie snapped out of it. She was supposed to be angry at him or sad or disappointed. Kylie didn’t know how to feel.

“Hey James or JJ or Jay the man! Call me back when you get the chance.”

Kylie said in a sunshine voice. Then threw her phone away from her onto a pillow and whisper-screamed into her pillow again.

“Stupid Kylie! Running back to him already… ugh.”

Her hands ran across her arm. She remembered his tender touches, soft moans, and— there was her ringtone going off, Dream Sweet in Sea Major by Miracle Musical. She’s glad Maki recommended it to her and it’s been her favorite since forever. She glanced at the caller ID, it made her heart race and palms sweaty. James. Kylie knew she shouldn’t, knew that she wouldn’t. No, she definitely would. Since her phone is already against her ear and she’s smiling like a lovesick fool.

“Hey.”

James spoke first. His voice held a sense of sleepiness towards it. It made her think of all the mornings she woke up beside him.

“Oh, uhm hi James. Sorry, didn’t mean to wake you. It was stupid, unimportant—“

“Come over.”

James then hung up with those three words (in total). Kylie was astounded, a bit surprised. Yet, she was blushing and fumbling with her things so she could make it over there as fast as she could. The walk didn’t take less than 25 minutes. Kylie gently knocked twice on his door. James opened it a minute or two later.

“Hey you.”

Kylie said with a smile. James pulled her inside and made her sit down on his overly large, frat boy couch.

“We needed to talk. Might’ve been too abrupt this morning. I just had to think about what we’ve been doing and stuff… not normal things friends do, right?”

James stated and tried to explain. He ruffled with his messy hair, framing his face a bit more perfectly. Kylie really wasn’t paying attention. She was too busy staring a lovingly gaze into his eyes. Nodding every few sentence or so.

“I just thought we could be like friends friends again. Not this complex-weird whatever we have going on right now.”

James continued on in a softer tone. He nervously bit his bottom lip. He ever so desperately wanted her to say no, kiss him, pull him down, and just love him. His words made her dreamy look stop.

“How can we go back to being friends after we’ve shared a bed?”

Kylie practically snapped at him out of disbelief and a fraction of anger. That made James snap out of his fantasizing.

“How can you say this to me and act like I’m someone you’ve slept with? You’re looking at me like I’m someone you’ve never met!”

She ranted on. He went to hold her hand to calm her down but she slapped it away.

“Are you stupid or something? I love you, James. But how you can kiss me, touch me, fucking sleep with me and say let’s be friends again?! Don’t do this to me. Not now, not ever.”

Kylie was mainly angry now. Letting her emotions out to him and all there really only anger.

”I-I thought you wanted to be friends… you even said who even dates anymore to me?”

James replied in a weak tone, confused and trying to figure out why she was so pissed. Yet that made her angrier.

“So youre just stupid.”

Kylie got up, moving past him to leave. James grabbed her wrist, pulling her into his arms. He kissed her slowly, trying to be romantic with her. Her anger melted in the kiss as she reciprocated it. Their heads tilted for that perfect angle to get closer. “Thought you were angry at me, love.”

James said into her lips. It made Kylie laugh softly. He picked her up when she wrapped her arms around his neck. He placed her ontop of the couch. James kissed and left gentle bites on her neck.

“I still am, idiot.”

Kylie responded. Her hands tangled up in his dark locs. His kisses trailed down to her collarbone as his hands fumbled with her shirt. “So… not friends anymore?”

“Obviously not.”

That made him smile and a bit worried. What happens if he screws this all up? What happens if—

“Stop getting stuck in your mind and start getting stuck in me.”

Kylie teased him softly. It made him laugh against her skin. James went up and kissed her forehead, then her nose, then her cheeks. Practically all over her face wasn’t left unkissed by him.

“Maybe later, love.”

James said. He held her in his arms tightly. He enjoyed the silence and comfort of her warmth. He occasionally kept leaving kisses on her face. Quick, simple pecks.

“You’re definitely the woman of my dreams.”

“Are you saying I haven’t been?”

“So arrogant… how lucky am I to find someone like you?”

Their words teased eachother in a simple tone. It was sweet, serene. It was peaceful and domestic.

“Maybe someone named Venti or Ventirina would’ve been better though…”

James said out of nowhere. It earned him a playful smack on his head as he feigned pain. “How terrible you’ve landed someone with a K instead of a V.”

“I was joking with you sweetheart!”

Their moment was oh-so sweet, like someone planted sugar in them. Safe to say, they weren’t back to being friends anymore. They were back to being lovers.

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finished story numero uno! Mostly dedicated to Venti ♥️ and my two OC’s including my blog. sorry I didn’t include the sex scene like I had it originally written out. maybe I’ll post that separately?? idk I like this more since it’s sweet!!

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sos I can’t help myself

sleepy boys!!<3

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back to friends?

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”What?”

Kylie asked in soft tone. Her eyes widening in disbelief as she fixed her shirt. She didn’t know how to respond. Kylie and James had always been good friends. Friends. Slowly became more, and she wished it crossed the line of lovers but it never did.

“We’re not dating or anything. Just friends.”

James replied in a cool tone, not even looking her way. James never cared for titles such as lover or friend. Kylie was another pretty face James had seen. Nothing more, nothing less. He remained laying in his bed, scrolling on his phone. Kylie had to compose herself. Did she really go on this whole monologue of dating to him if he wasn’t going to look her way for a single second? Did he really just friendzone her when she’s been in his room more times than she’s been in hers?

“Yeah. Friends, totally! I mean, pfft, girlfriend and boyfriend? That’s so stupid. Who even dates anymore?”

Kylie mentally kicked herself for taking so long to respond. She finished changing back into her clothes. Grabbing her purse.

“Not gonna use my shower or anything…?”

James asked. Finally looking at her and putting his phone down. She usually did use his things, it was just convenient for her and he didn’t care if she used it or not. James did a glance over her body. She was acting weird to him. Not the usual “happy to go” self Kylie was. But she was just a friend to him, right? Why did he care if she acted weird?

“Nope! Gonna let you save on your water bill. Prices are high nowadays, right?”

Kylie responded with a smile so fake you could see it plastered on a cheap doll. She left quickly, not bothering to say her goodbyes or anything. She didn’t want to hear another word from him. He’s already done enough. Breaking her heart like that? Making her cry on the subway like that? No, no, no, no, no! She’s gonna pull herself together and find someone better. Someone who’s a Prince Charming and not an ogre like James.

prolly not gonna finish this since I like the song…! but idk maybe.

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my man!!

a twt prompt<3

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NOOO STOPP 😭 I LOVE THIS HELP??

THIS IS FRYING ME, WHY DID I JUST SEE THIS?????

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Happy Beltane!!!