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New Year New Me???

So I might be trans masculine but im not sure..... It’s almost over with the 1st month of the year and a lot of things have changed. Currently im in a place thats strong enough to browse the internet. 

Im leaning more towards he-him then they-them pronouns. the problem is that my workplace is entirely transphobic, one idiot actually went out of her way and said that god made me a girl so i am a girl. a lost a lot of confidence that day.

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Switches

I’m finally trying to get a switch! I’m trying to decide if I should do physical games or digital games?

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Does anybody know why it’s happening?

when i want to play games and earn np for my pets but all i get is a gray screen even though i have decent wifi and my flash is on

(this is an edit of mine)

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I can’t lie...

If duolingo looked more like an oukin, I would go on there every single day and he would never shed a tear again just because i didn’t practice my irish  😬

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Honestly

some people didn’t play PetPet Park and it shows...

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✨PetPet Park Questions✨

This is my first time trying to do an interactive question thing that I some times see floating around when I used to be on tumblr a lot so idk how this is going to work 👉👈

What was your favorite species? 

What was your least favorite species?

What was your favorite game(s)?

Where was your favorite place(s) to go?

(free questions because I can’t think of any others😳😔)

you can also ask about neopets since i play that too 👉👈

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the 4th pic says: then perish mortal. may the slorgs feast upon your rotting flesh at high noon. with the flies and bugs buzzing, humming a happy tune

the last of my edits.....so far 😈

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some edits i did of my favorite petpet and the only one i played of oukin

expect me to have real memes to be posted soon 🦉

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PetPet Park Rant

I don’t know how it was brought up again, but just last night me and my sister were talking and suddenly we were talking about online games we played when we were younger and then it led to PPP and now I’m raging mad!!!

PPP was my all time favorite game--even when compared to Club Penguin when it was still good--the m e m o r i e s  I MADE!!! 

Now I’m physically upset, my bones and skin feel weird, knowing that I can’t type in petpetpark.com and start playing. I keep finding myself typing it in and clicking on the link, just hoping--expecting--it to load. Every time i do that, I disappointed but not surprised. 

I have questionssssssss

Why was PPP sold to Jumpstart?

What is Jumpstart? Is it like a server of some kind or...

Why did Jumpstart buy it, just to kill it and the dreams of so many children?!

Why was PPP not well documented vs other games/entertainment?

It took me forever to find the things I wanted--and it was always a rare gem  because I could only find bits and pieces of info

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YOOOOOOOOOOO

it has been F O R E V E R since i talked about my feelings on this blog. I get a notif every once and a while about someone following my blog 😖 sorry if you wanted content

but a lot of things have been changing around me: my identity, name, etc. 

i now find my self leaning more towards the masculine side of being nonbinary so I added he/him pronouns and changed my name to something more fitting--> Tarquin

my mom is obviously not happy about it but 🤷‍♂️

i started drinking La Croix which spurred the thought of having Croix as a name would be mega-epic!!!

I’ve been playing more of sims-- kinda lame that there is a lack of effort in story world building especially with the mermaids and vampires....well honestly everything really....

and i got thinking about petpet park recently...now im sad

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Stormcloaks VS Empire

I recently started to play Elder Scrolls V and i am confused on who’s side I should be on. I only have the fifth game in the series. I tried to avoid it solely because it was the fifth in the series--but i got bored. 

anyways----I tried to do research on it but there is a lot of contradictions. Whether it be stormcloaks being racist or not, if the empire is good or not, etc. I want to know who’s side I should be on, so please help 👉👈

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Why does listening to Stray Kids after 12AM in the dark hit different when I am battling dysphoria because of misgendering?

I'm not complaining but😻

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Cant sleep because i'm starting to fight for my correct pronouns again

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I wish 😐😒

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I feel like puking right now because i keep thinking about how my mom is so against me being nb

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I can now relate to Anna Blue's songs on a new level. I tried fighting for my pronouns again today and my mom just shot me down.

If i remeber correctly songs like 'So Alone' and 'Silent Scream'

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So I'm nonbinary with they/them pronouns but now I also want to include he/him pronouns. The catch is I don't really feel any form of masculinity. I only feel feminine.

I really want to go shopping just to see how it feels to be in the male section.

I think this all started when litterally no one but my two closest sisters in my family would respect my pronouns. And my twin would address me (whenever we were just acting dumb) as lad, king, etc (other mas words) along with neutral terms as well.

One time I also said i dont care what words people adress me as (ex: king or majesty) as long as it wasnt fem(ex: queen, princess, etc)

What's make me feel so invaildited the most is when I try to tell my mom that i go by they-them, she will blatantly defy my wishes and not even try to use my correct pronouns. I never told her about the he-him thing yet.

If there were levels of tolerance for her it would be: level 1=nothing wrong=happy, level 2= not being hetero=dissapointed but doesn't have enough energy to fight, level3=not being cis--but not the opposite gender=will fight as much as possible subtly level4=being the opposite gender=reacts as if im friends with the devil

How does it feel to be mas? I think I might be feeling it but since Idk what it feels like I dont feel it.....