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I’ve learned that you die at least three times, first when the body dies, second, when your body enters the grave, and third, when your name is spoken for the last time.

But my second death happened over two hundred years ago. At first, I spent my time with my husband’s spirit, who was waiting for me as I was buried and died the second time.

It was lovely to see his face again, his features still as handsome as the day I last saw him. The glimmer of love and happiness in his eyes as he met me warmed my heart. We spoke endlessly about our memories together, of our simple, unremarkable lives.

We spent our time as spirits close to our daughter and her child. We watched over them as best we could, witnessing their growth from young to old. At times I would lean close to their ears, my voice barely a whisper as I tried to get their attention.

We were there when my daughter experienced her second death and welcomed her to the realm of the spirits. We were there to help my granddaughter cross into her second death as well.

I mourned my husband a second time when he experienced his third death shortly after our granddaughter joined us. And mourned again when my daughter and granddaughter experienced theirs. I’ve been alone ever since., waiting to die a third time so that I may see them again.

For the past few years, I have roamed around the globe. As a spirit, traveling is much more effortless; there's no need for nourishment, rest, or hydration.

I saw the wonders I’ve only read about in books. The Taj Mahal was my favorite. It gleamed like a pearl in the morning sun, its white marble domes and towers rising majestically against the sky. The Great Wall was underwhelming. Its crumbling wall snaked across many mountains but I’ve grown to hate the things that are meant to separate.

Countless other spirits surround me, all lost in their missions to protect and guide their loved ones. They are too engrossed in their tasks to acknowledge me, leaving me isolated. Abandoned. 

It’s hard being alone. All I can do is watch, a ghostly observer in a world that had once been my own. And listen.

Which is why I’m here, in some museum in Paris, to find out why the third death hasn’t found me yet.

I never took a French class during my schooling, so most of the words people speak here are nothing but gibberish to me, but the other day I heard my name for the first time in a long time.

It was so unexpected. I was wandering around the streets, utterly lost, trying to check another wonder off my list, but I could not read the street signs and I found the city’s layout confusing.

But I heard my name spoken within other French words, by a woman conversing with a small group sitting outside a cafe. I couldn’t understand what she was saying but she repeatedly said my name. As I got closer to her, I noticed a brochure, containing more foreign words, was sitting on her table, and within the paragraphs was my name.

When she closed the brochure I studied the picture of the museum that was depicted, and I scoured Paris looking for it. Today I’ve finally found it.

It’s full of art and history and artifacts. It’s beautiful. If I have to spend another two hundred years floating around Earth, I wouldn’t mind spending it here.

But now I’m staring at a plaque with my name written on it, and next to it, within a long glass case is an open journal along with many trinkets including an army hat and a simple pocket knife. But my gaze fixes on an item I recognize, an item that used to belong to me. 

It’s a small silver pendant depicting Saint Michael. I had given it to my first love the last time I saw him. And next to it, displayed in perfect alignment are thirteen letters. 

All addressed to me.

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They say you die three times, first when the body dies, second, when your body enters the grave, and third, when your name is spoken for the last time. You were a normal person in life, but hundreds of years later, you still haven’t had your “third” death. You decide to find out why.

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Me after re-reading the SJM universe in preparation of CC3

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Adding books to my TBR and reading books from my TBR are two different hobbies.

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I don’t stress. I’m either going to figure it out, or there is nothing I can do about it. It’s that simple.

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YES.

bookblr has always been better.

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things I hated about acotar - part six

with the 3rd CC book coming out soon, i figured i would recap all the things i hated in acotar. ✨ a series (last one)✨

** this contains ACOTAR spoilers, so there is your warning. **

SIX. (last one)

GIVE ME MORE LUCIEN.

I want so much more of Lucien. He was trying to juggle being a loyal friend to Tamlin and being a good person to Feyre. Everyone hates him because of his association to Tamlin.

Plus he deserves to find love with someone that actually loves him back. Elain can GTFO. Everyone else is coupled up and I want him to enter his power couple era.

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things I hated about acotar - part five

with the 3rd CC book coming out soon, i figured i would recap all the things i hated in acotar. ✨ a series ✨

** this contains ACOTAR spoilers, so there is your warning. **

FIVE.

Amren should have remained dead.

You're telling me. That there was a HUGE war AND ALL OF THE MAIN CHARACTERS LIVED!?! Not believable. (the archeron daddy does not count)

And like, we can just bring people back from the dead whenever we feel like it? Feyre dying and coming back to life under the mountain was barely passible, but Amren sacrifices herself and we just..... unsacrifice her?

It would of been more satisfying and more realistic if she remained dead.

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things I hated about acotar - part four

with the 3rd CC book coming out soon, i figured i would recap all the things i hated in acotar. ✨ a series ✨

** this contains ACOTAR spoilers, so there is your warning. **

FOUR.

Feyre dismantling the spring court makes her a villain. She literally destroyed an entire court for revenge against one person.

Did she care about all the people of the spring court? No. Did she care for Alis? No. She "claims" too, but she up rooted everyone in that courts entire lives.

If she cared, she would of ensured that someone took care of the spring courts people after Tamlin was ousted. (like killing him and appointing a new high lord)

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things I hated about acotar - part three

with the 3rd CC book coming out soon, i figured i would recap all the things i hated in acotar. ✨ a series ✨

** this contains ACOTAR spoilers, so there is your warning. **

THREE.

Eris is a good person.

Eris was doing Mor a favor when he did not help or touch her in the woods. If he did Mor would of been bound to him and the autumn court. There is no way that Rhys and the others did not know this.

Rhys knows all the Fae laws about touching and shit. We saw that when he sent Mor to save Feyre when she was having her PTSD moment after Tamlin locked her in his house.

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things I hated about acotar - part two

with the 3rd CC book coming out soon, i figured i would recap all the things i hated in acotar. ✨ a series ✨

** this contains ACOTAR spoilers, so there is your warning. **

TWO.

Tamlin does not deserve a redemption arc. He. Should. Be. Dead. And like, no one wants revenge? Letting him wallow in his own self pitty does not seem like a good enough revenge for all the shit he pulled.

Tamlin dying would of been the perfect ending to the storyline at the end of the Hybern war.

Plus I want a side story about a new High Lord coming into power in the Spring court.

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things I hated about acotar - part one

with the 3rd CC book coming out soon, i figured i would recap all the things i hated in acotar. ✨ a series ✨

** this contains ACOTAR spoilers, so there is your warning. **

ONE.

Feyre became a high lady of night court waaay too fast. She knew more about spring court than night court when she was dumbed with the title.

It would have been waaaay more realistic if she got the title after doing something/anything with the night court people. Like after defending the city from Hybern or at least after an interaction with some of the night court peeps.

The title was not earned, she got it because she was Rhys' mate.

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one of my favorite things about tumblr is that it is elon free.

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My current hyper fixation is book writing, but the my problem is that I have too many story ideas and I jump on the next idea before I finish a chapter of the current idea.

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