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I feel liquid against my skin Can't breathe, struggling. The pressure is increasing I'm drowning. The pressure keeps pushing Pushing me towards the bottom Of the sea. Can't breathe, struggling. I feel helpless, Small and Meaningless. All these words, I am hearing Can't cope up, struggling. My ears are ringing, The pressure is increasing, The head is hurting. The pressure keeps pushing me, Pushes me down towards the ground I try looking Up but I see, All their words hovering Above me, Describing me "Helpless" "Small" and "Meaningless". And I let them settle in I let them dominate me I let them win. No, I am raising My hands up. I am pushing Their words aside. The words now lie Somewhere around my feet. And they seem So helpless, They don't affect me. So small, Hardly visible to me. And so meaningless, they don't define me. I am above the water Just a pool Not a sea. I was struggling But I swam. And now I see my reflection In the water. I helped my self To get through. I feel bigger than ever With a lesson to be shared. Don't let the world put you down Fight, Get up, Push the pressure aside.

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Maybe I am not the person That I want others to be. Maybe I am not the person The one, I hear about in the stories, The stories that talk about love And loved ones. The stories that talk about heartbreaks And fixing mistakes. Letting people go The one's I promised to, "I won't". It hurts to hurt them. But what do I do? Choosing myself Over them Feels right at this moment. How do I do? The things that might be right But don't feel right in this very moment. How do I live today? The way I don't wish to Just in the hope That I won't regret it in the coming days. How do I go back ? When I want to just stay this way. How do I make a promise? That I know I might break. There are things that I miss But they don't force me to take the chances that I didn't take. I didn't fix it this time But am I at fault For feeling a certain way? How do I make this heart Feel things, How do I make this body Do things, The heart doesn't want it To be doing? "I thought you'll fix it like you do" I am sorry I am not the one, Who gives things a chance. I am sorry I am not the one You and I thought I was. I can be that person, maybe, When this heart wants me to be. I can't be the one to fix it everytime. Can't force the chords to tune and the words to rhyme. It hurts to hurt you But doesn't hurt to say no. Its not something you did, It's not your fault But is it mine either? For just being me? I am just human Whose mind gets complex. How do I put myself down When I know everyone is a bit like me in this town? So how do I take the blame, And be harsh on myself? How and why do I apologize For following my heart? It's not something you did, Its not your fault But it isn't mine either.

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Talking to elders About their lives How they accepted, Lost but not surrendered. Faith, hope and beautiful words They don't use them. The birds too tired to fly again, settling In their nests, not wanting Anything more than just enough To survive, live each day With no plans for tomorrow What do I call it? Living in the moment Or tired of planning again For what couldn't be achieved earlier. I have been through harsh times Accepted certain things But I am still hopeful And looking forward to Future, the dream life. And maybe that is why It hurts to see others like this When hope is what I am filled with. I want to gift them hope To explore, find a muse But they flatly refuse. They call me a young friend That they have already seen too much That they don't wish to have anything more That they tried and tried and are now just tired of trying. Am I young and silly to be clinging to a hand called hope, thinking It would take me forward any moment But it won't really take me anywhere? Will I finally get tired And lose hold Of the hand called hope? Or will someday It will pull me away? I might stumble in the beginning Surprised at the force, trying to keep pace With the hand. But then will I be finally On my feet Running into brighter fields And all the pretty places Where the hand would take me? Is reality harsh on us? Or are we harsh on ourselves? I hope, it isn't that bad when I grow up. I hope, hope works, For me, for them and for all of us.

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When I saw her face, Not a single sign Of worry I could trace Because to me her smile Seemed the warmest And for me her eyes Shined the brightest. “Must be chirpy enough To be the reason behind everyone’s happiness. Her parents must have loved And smothered her with kisses and sight Of her must have made them feel at ease That everything was okay, Calm and at peace.” When I scrolled down Was horrified at what I found Kidnapped, drugged and raped In a forest and a temple For eight full days. The house wasn’t chirpy anymore The parents’ lives changed, became sore. The eyes lost their shine And the warmth left her eyes. Little girl, suffered too much. Little girl, gone too soon. I scrolled once again, Horrified at people, insane Who’ve gone, I am totally shocked at their absurdity How they defend the rapists, I look at their pictures feeling like a pessimist. Their hands held tricolour flags, A question above all of us, hangs Why is justice denied? How is it even justified? What made them go blind To such an extent That they relate religion and politics With such a context? I don’t even want to imagine Because the details are chilling. They shake me to the core Make me sympathise but foremost I am devastated And angry I am frustrated And refuse to grieve. Its time that steps are put forward Actions are taken and the truth is heard. We won’t sit in silence We will raise our voices For her and thousand others For she wasn’t born to be raped and beaten to death, She wasn’t born to die in vain. The nation will march and demand Justice for you. The nation will protest against the ones Who did this to you. You didn’t deserve this But they will get what they deserve. Don’t you worry Asifa, my love We will make the culprits’ lives hell on earth While you play with angels in heaven above. Rest in peace.

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Creed Discovery of September & October 2017

Writers Creed has been digging through the Tumblr Writing Community to find more writers to feature on our blog. Here are the talented writers we have found during September and October who deserve more attention! Check them out and give them a follow, and as usual, keep writing everyone! We cannot wait to find out who will make the list in November!❤

@baldpoetry

@nadaclouds

@softspokenmemories

@ivegotcramps

@tonicristine

@read-my-heart-tonight

@jennfel-blog

@mobbleberry

@juanicu

@parasitethapoet

@starlightpoet

@leemartenspoetry

@xxsixzerosixxx

@the-wild-rxse

@poetfromlondon

@kythepoet

@taylorshowtan

@ghost-417

@shawnraepoetry

@wishididnotwish

@lettersandroses

@wickedmewickedyou

@jossfontenot

@claphandsound

@nicemeniceyou

@quietdissidentlyricist @azukilynn

@mcparty27

@vodkaandbears

@crowned-in-stone

@tomdeckard

@dream-in-hearts

@hiddenwhalewriter

@audiphillips

@teenage-author

@sitandbleed

@secretlyanonymouspoems

@rhymingtherapy

@rockinrollinhippiesoulin

@stripedgriffin

@marcoxroses

@shinypizzakid

@ghostofrevenge

@imagine-quotes

@astyze

@wordsaregolden22

@sassoonery

@synonymousme

@wicked-angeles

@sachdevkarishma

@rquideal

@ohhkandice

@shierri

@anna-g-x

@anavableu

@humcreates

@whispering-soul-in-darkness

@alittlebitofnightmusing

@theaslan17

@blynbleedswords

@r-jacob

@gretchenheffernan

@eaclesparaadoxa

@starrbeau

@alittlelessclueless

@dissonantwindchime

@moldybarstool

@bluemonkwrites

@i-am-bibliophile

@blooodywords

@xxrecoveringprincessxx

@enchantingsaddness

@wordslifeandthings

@words-pouring-out

@justanothermuddledkid

@kozmichaos

@thoughtandforgotten

@fatimanaseem

@lostinthistale

@wordsbykristen

@mthoney

@dearduende

@mirbes

@gil-tea

@tonicristine

@canadaalbin

@righteousghost

@soleanticipation

@shespoly

@mouththorn

@brentefisher

@distinguishabledifferences

@poetdreamerfool

@asiwithercrumbleandfade

@mega2wheellife

@redfortunex

@retrouvailleset

@imogenre

@silver-tounge-bastard

@mizflibble

@pierianensorcell

@onemissingsoul

@bones-and-mortar

@etrawme

@demianmolinari

@miss-mandyy

@naturesbrokenheart

@saccharine-is-a-good-word

@lichen-lull

@xmrgoodguyx

@maybeontuesday

@dreamsarelikedragonflies

@domingobot

@observationsofnow

@alytalang

@blackfeathereddeath @spokenwordonthepage

@writeinmysoul

@poems-for-sleepless-nights

@nervous-poet

@starsmattersinpoetry

@inhalemusicdna

@thevisualaftermath

@thatunicorndaniella

@tkpoet6

@sanojapoetry 

@somehowletters

@applekaur

@zahraapat3l

@seraamala

@creetdavies

@darrion-brown

@substantive-thoughts

@inkfrommyheart

@bookflakeshighbrowangle

@skylightpoet2

@not-so-silly

@cinnaluna

@sanskrutii

@psychic-landscape

@secretlyanonymouspoems

@alyce-wolf-413

@loved-and-lostt-blog 

@biatabones

@which-craft-me

@september-stardust

@ubiquitous-abhorrence  

@crimson-kuwaiti

@poems-for-agnes

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They just don't understand. My words, my sentences, my poetry. They don't "What could it be", "Hah come on" "Why do you seem so frustrated in your poems?" Because I am. And I am trying to tell you, I am confessing. I can't do it in person, I am doing it through my poems. I am typing to the beats of this song On repeat, I always do, I can't stop. What are rhyming words? I don't care, this is my piece of mind Not everything has to rhyme, Not everything has to be perfect, But you don't understand. You are so caught up in your own world That you can't see mine. In these words, In these poems. And they say why don't you share? See, exactly. I am sharing it through my poetry And you still don't understand. You read it all. And you still don't get it. You aren't even trying to. This curve is an illusion darl This curve hides the stories That I spill here but You don't understand, Because it never happened to you. These poems are stories I never shared With anyone. You think its too much to read? Thank god, at least it ends Even when its never ending.

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I read the old conversations Just to let the pain return, Return to every part of me, Spread to extremities. Did you make a fool of me? Or did I make a fool of myself? Its hard to figure it out, Hard to define. I read lies In each line Of yours and Each message of mine Makes me feel stupid To give you the love You never really wanted. You were never really interested, Right? Why didn't I understand? Trusted your lies. Always kept trying Crying, trying To figure out what's wrong. Is something wrong with you? Or me? But today I erase all the conversations. I can't afford to break down A hundred times For the same old reasons. So I do what I never thought I would, To let go, To recover, To move on, entirely To leave my pain where it is supposed to be Behind. I erase memories. Hah, I really wish I could. I erase virtual memories.

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For a long time I had been in love 'blind' they said. Trust made things go rough. Neither warnings stopped nor did I. Until I had enough, Enough of you And your things. Enough of you, And my crying. I am over you But not my pain. Why couldn't you be the one? That you said you were? You convinced me that you are but. But you had to change Only when I fell hard enough To only get up into broken pieces. I don't cry because I lost you I am glad that I did. But the pain that you put me through And My wasted time, The passing sand The passing moments. My eyes have cried Rivers through nights But I wake up and hide, Hide it all, I have been hiding it all. I have seen people being pushed Into the walls I have seen people being pushed so hard That they Fall On the ground and Fall in hate Cursing day and night The day they met Blaming day and night Their fate Its okay, I said Yet cried rivers at night And I hide, I hide it all, I have been hiding it all. My sadness has stopped me from giving my best. To my crops it has become an inseparable pest. It is gathering at one place making it feel the heaviest My chest. Soaked up in mess. Wondering, Would it get any less? Soaked for so long, 'It doesn't become a part of me' I hope in this song Where I am pouring it out My pain and my mind I am letting it out all. Hoping that the heaviest places Don't remain heavy for long. Feels like these feelings Have gathered In a ball on the inside Like they have made me shrink Making me turn into the darkest shades No matter on the outside happy as pink. My eyes are tired And begging for calm nights So I try to rest and fight! My tears . I am trying to let it all out. But again I hide the pain I hide it all Where do I get the courage from? I have been hiding it all. I have made it through fire and flooded emotions, I am still here writing this. I'll write again When things get into place And everything's sane I'll write again When I stop and free myself When I stop hiding it all. I'll let it all out With a scream And be stronger than ever. But until then I hide, I am hiding it all.

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So here we are So close yet so far. We have a little thing But I want more Its frustrating. The relation we share has no laws. Yet there are boundaries I can't cross. I want your touch even though It hurts me where I am already hurt, Just right. I can't have you the way I want to, It reminds. The thought, 'I might lose you', Stops the sound, The sound which makes me wanna spill it out. But the chances seem less, every time I count, The chances of you staying, The chances of our little thing Staying in place, The chances of me remembering Your face. They say, say it. I say, can't risk it Risk our little bond Risk your presence Of which I am so fond. So here we are So close yet so far.

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Everybody wants to run. Maybe for an hour or a day But somewhere far away But can he? Can you? Can she? You might go into isolation For a while. Shut down the world, leave it all behind. But what about the hallucinations Created by your mind? The thoughts, the people, the experiences are still there. How to get out, fight through these layers? You can fight the world but can you fight yourself? You can get away from the world for a minute or two. But what about the world that exists inside you?

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I’m looking for something, someone, And here you come. Oh what eyes, I wonder. Everywhere you go, Stealing the thunder. Takes a second to know, if you are low. I talk about you, Like the trees would talk about the rain. As you enter the room, Guess who makes a temporary exit? My pain. You have captured me, Can’t run away, locked, stuck. Baby, where is the key? My mind, your thoughts, I smile. The metres, feel like miles. This love doesn’t heal. It kills, more, every time, I see you, Because you don’t see me. The pain returns, You never noticed this girl. I can feel you presence, And You aren’t even aware of my existence. They see a smile but I am screaming internally. Oh baby give me the key! I don’t want to but I have to find. Because towards me, you are blind. I run away, continue to look for it. Give me the key, before harder I hit, Into you.

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My words are wounds that never healed.

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You made my heart beat so fast it broke.

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Damn.

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A rose, She was. The petals made her beautiful, And the thorns, Strong. She was complete. Her beauty attracted, and thorns protected. Brave hands plucked her, Removed what they couldn’t bear, The thorns. And kept the beauty to admire. All hands approached with intentions of plucking, No hands, with intentions of nurturing. A rose, She was. Beautiful but incomplete. Beautiful but lifeless.

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I am looking for something, someone. I look up and here you come. Oh what eyes, I wonder. Everywhere you go, Stealing the thunder. Takes a second to know, if you are low. I talk about you, Like the trees would talk about the rain. As you enter the room, Guess who makes a temporary exit? My pain. You have captured me. Can’t run away, locked, stuck. Baby, where is the key? My mind, your thoughts. I smile. The metres, feel like miles. This love doesn’t heal It kills, more, every time, I see you Because you don’t see me The pain returns, You never, noticed this girl. I can feel your presence And You aren’t even aware of my existence. They see a smile but I am screaming internally. Oh baby give me the key! I don’t want to but I have to find, Because towards me, you are blind. I run away, continue to look for it. Give me the key, before harder I hit, Into you.

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I think about you all the time I wanna write about you all my life Feels like you are the source of my poetry Feels like you are the one who deserves my loyalty Happy songs remind me of your love Sad songs remind me what separation would serve Your eyes take me to a world with no fuss Your eyes capture me like no one else's does My world gets lightened by your smile I know with you I can walk miles Your voice enchants everything around me That's when I know what a world without sadness would be I hope its not a dream, because being with you sometimes feels so surreal I pray every night that our forever lasts for real.

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There are many different types of art, but turning people into poetry is my favourite.

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