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update: decided to kill the old me and i'm hotter AND happier now <3

you know what’s more freeing than killing yourself? running away to a small town and getting a job as a waitress. buying a cheap car and sticking a bed in the back and driving southwest. adopting a cat. learning a new instrument. moving apartments. visiting a friend in another city. chopping all your hair off.

you can kill your current life without dying. you can kill this version of you and make a new one.

maybe I’m just a bipolar sucker for rebirth but sometimes that thought is all that keeps me alive

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fic removal update

hello lovely people!

i know it's been like two years since i've posted or updated anything, but such is life. i wanted to give a quick update on some of my fics since some of you have already reached out here. i've deleted my ff.net account, and you may have seen this message replacing the content of a number of my stories & series on ao3:

like the message says, it was a difficult decision, but that doesn't meant that the stories are gone. i am currently developing the only hope for me is you series into a set of original novels for publication. right now, i'm in the middle of editing crash & burn, and hopefully it will be ready by mid-summer (although i can't make any promises, so please don't hold me to that timeline!). once it's ready to be shared, i'll be sure to let you all know here.

you can also sign up for my mailing list here for updates!

i've left up some of my fics, including all of the i'm with them ot4 series, and a few other one-shots and shorter stories.

thank you again for all the support you've given to me and my writing. it truly means the world to me, and i'm so excited to start getting my favorite stories ready to share with the rest of the world.

~splendidlyimperfect

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so i haven't been on here in forever and haven't written anything in longer, because life has been...a little crazy. in the last year and a half i have started HRT, left my toxic marriage of ten years, got divorced, traveled to the states where i realized i was in love with my friend and finally kissed him, moved out from my ex's place and into a new apartment with my kids, took a road trip with my new partner, was in hospital, dealt with family death and tragedy, went no contact with my parents, proposed to my now fiancé (and of course he said yes), had top surgery, and now we're planning a wedding and an immigration to canada. it's been both joyful and tragic and chaotic and i'm so happy and stupid in love with @thedarkgodmogar. 💕

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6 months on T and it's starting to show!

i dressed up for christmas and had my sister tell me that i looked like tan france dressed me so i'm stoked about that 🥰

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I think that we as a society should get more comfortable with the idea that sometimes our friends will be attracted to us and sometimes we will be attracted to our friends and nothing needs to come of that.

You don't have to date. You don't have to stop being friends. You can just keep hanging out. Self control and respect exists.

And sometimes you will date your friend and figure out that your dynamic worked better when you were friends. And then you can go back to being friends. It's really quite simple. Mature and cool, even.

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If a man doesn't have a tummy what is the point tbh

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@gray--dragneel

Tell me an inside joke between you and a friend, without context.

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“no i will not elaborate” is such a fun line, but unfortunately i have adhd and am incapable of shutting up. yes i will elaborate

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got some new septum rings and now i just want more 💕

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you look incredible!! you look so much more like yourself and i'm so proud of you and how far you've come <3

😭 thank you so much you're so sweet!! i feel a lot more like myself so i'm glad it shows! i appreciate your support and friendship so much <3

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bought new jeans and am feeling hot 😂

8 weeks on t now, i'm noticing my voice getting rougher and some facial hair which is wild. the mood swings were annoying but it's evened out. i'm glad i get to be who i am 💕

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Idk who needs to hear this but your tummy isn’t ruining your outfits, you look hot

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for anon vibes, you’ve just got rly friendly and pleasant vibes! it’s always just nice to see u on the dash or whatever u seem rly chill and just trying to like.. live ur best life, you know? makes me want to do it myself

😭 thank you so much you're so sweet!!! i try to live the best life i can and i think a lot of that has been learning to set boundaries and avoid the toxic people in my life (which, when it's your family, is really hard 🙃). but like honestly hearing that you're happy to see my posts just makes me tear up in a good way cause i have many, many feelings. and you can absolutely live your best life too (or at least one that's on the path to being the best)! even starting with small things that bring you joy. for the longest time i felt like i either couldn't or didn't deserve to have those things and it took a really long time to realize that i need to treat myself with kindness and respect. which can be really hard but i believe in you <3

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For Vibes I think you're someone who doesn't take shit from people and I really admire That about you. I'm a baby gay and its reassuring to see adutls who are queer and happy and living a great life. I always love your mountain pictures and its so cool how much you travel.

this is really, really kind and may have made me tear up. i don't always feel like the best role model and i don't usually know what i'm doing, but i try my best! it's weird being someone who has come out as trans in their 30s, i feel like i have a lot of catching up to do, but i'm trying to just be authentic. when people are assholes i do try and not take their shit!! so i appreciate that you feel that way AND took the time to tell me <3

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You seem like you would give really good hugs or cuddles idk why but that's the vibe you give off!

ahh thank you!! i LOVE hugs and cuddling and covid has fucking *sucked* for not being able to hug my friends. like i'm not a touchy person with everyone but when the people i do like, i'm very cuddly and i like to think i'm good at it 😂