#//negative

[buildoblivion]

Things we could have had more fun with in TUA season 4

- Power Swap (half an episode of marigold shenanigans where the sibs get to know each others BS firsthand)

- The Phoenix Academy (alphonso and klaus being siblings altered my brain chemistry)

- Alternate timelines in general (just one shot of grown up umbrellas in their comic suits was it too much to ask?????)

- Umbrella Mums (how do the brellies fit in this timeline anyway - Lila gets her folks back but klaus can’t have his Amish mother?)

- soundtrack

- More returning side characters (Eudora Patch I will get you justice if it brings me death)

- Allison having her rumours back (more reality bending shit please)

- ‘The White Violin’ actually, you know, PLAYS THE VIOLIN

[ryusxnka-moved]

I'm trying really hard to find a reason to be on here But lately, it's been quite challenging. I won't make a big post bout feelings. I just wish connecting with people on here weren't so hard. People have become picky and choosy. --------- Which is fine, it just gets unmotivating and disheartening.

[galactia]

So, just watched Clorinde's trailer and this is not a criticism of Clorinde's character/story or anything related to her, but a concerned observation toward Hoyo's choice:

The Hilichurl Rogue she is portrayed as hunting sounds very human. He is running for his life and breathing/making noises that sound very human. It is never established why she is hunting him and it.... gives a very weird, and dare I say, uncomfortable vibe.

I personally am uncomfortable with it.

It treats the Rogue and the other Hilichurls as just beasts to 'hunt' and comes across as a hunt for practice or 'sport'.

Knowing what we know about Hilichurls, while killing them is needed at times to protect people in the storyline, hunting them for sport or when they sound like they're still holding to some sentience feels so uncomfortable.

[boatslut]

everything feels terrible. its unending isnt it?

[starathsbunker]

Complaining.

I have been horribly burnt out/exhausted/stressed out since the last week of February, which, coincidentally, is the same time our President started his bullshit with pretty much everything. Until recently I could barely function.

I got sick with a cold that was basically hell for a week. My sleep med hasn't decided if it's going to work for me or not. I saw my Ex for the first time since I left him over a year ago. Civil conversation was made, but it was not fun.

The battery light flashed on my car's dashboard and now I'm worried I'll have to find $500 to repair a failing alternator, assuming that's what's wrong. This coming less than a month before my car insurance is due, around $400. I don't know how I will pay for both. Now my left eye/face is freaking out for some reason and hurts like I got punched there. It hurts to look at anything. I'm afraid this might trigger a vertigo episode.

Happy things have happened in between of all of this. I am trying really, REALLY hard to focus on the positive things in my life.

But I am really, REALLY tired of bad things happening. I am so tired. Please dear god. Why can't things be easy for longer than a few days at a time. So much of what happens to me is out of my control.

I am so tired.

[hes-a-rat-whisperer]

its insane how upset some people get when I set pretty basic boundaries

oh? I don´t allow you to be invasive and creepy towards my oc because it makes him and me very uncomfortable? too bad. cope and seethe.

did you know you can find a character hot without calling them a wh*re in a """playful""" way and saying how you want them to have s*x with a literal r*pist?? woah!

seriously. you´re not quirky. you´re not funny.

stop. it.

[damnedrainbows]

freely ignore, this just the broken rambles of a burned out autistic. or maybe my fellow autistics can relate

I am just so tired of not being able to do…anything a normal person can do. or even what I could do a few year ago

I just wanted to work on my niffty doll, but I kept getting disoriented. I only managed to wrap her armature today, and I’ve been at this for a week

I just wanted to watch tv while I did it, but the tv was piercing and the flashing was too much

the light I had on to work on my doll with wore me down and felt too bright, even with my sunglasses

I had to put on my industrial earmuffs but they’re so tight and I can’t wear my sunglasses with it on

I tried to work on commissions, but the fan from my computer was too loud and the screen was too bright even on the lowest setting

my ipad is even too bright with the lights turned down but i don’t want to go to bed. i donkt want to do nothing

i’ll never get out of this burnout. I feel so broken. what happened to the artist that churned things out daily and the rper that was drawing icons like no tomorrow? what happened to when I could make a doll in a day? now I’m lucky if I can make my own dinner once a week

did I really lose everything that I am? I’m just. forever a sensory overloaded ball with severe chronic pain that I think might be elhers danlos (and not fibromyalgia), and able to do nothing but curl up in my sensory swing

I want my life back. im so tired. I’m so new to burnout, so new, only two years into this discovery of me. i don’t know what to do. I’ve lived with this my entire life without knowing anything other than just being different, odd, and quirky. and now I’m paying the price for masking.

please…does any fellow neurodivergents/autistics have advice?

[strykingback]

Did I stay awake throughout the night questioning the worthiness of my life and shit while also questioning if I am even worth a damn......

yes i did.

[ignitedshield]

//i feel so stressed after all this shit with the passport-

it's proper taken the wind out of my sails, i wanna draw/write but i just can't find the energy

[batboyblog]

it's true and you should say it.

[crabussy]

slightly furious reminder that fish do in fact feel pain and do in fact experience fear and distress when in pain since people seem to love spreading the myth that fish don't feel pain. what is it with people assuming a creature is incapable of feeling pain or emotion just because it doesn't have complex facial muscles. come on gang

[buildoblivion]

[anthropologist-on-the-loose]

I'm as grateful for cellphones as the next person, but sometimes I think about how everyone having a phone on them at all times really did cause us to loose some things as a society. I mean - for example, kids these days will never experience their car breaking down and needing to find the nearest place with a phone they can use. They're never going to have the opportunity to tentatively approach a house only to discover that it's full of queer people having a party hosted by a transvestite to celebrate his creation of a sex homunculus, stay the night, and loose their virginity while unintentionally partaking in cannibalism. It's tragic, that kind of gay sexual awakening just doesn't happen these days because of cellphones.

[sidhewrites]

Being kink positive makes it really hard to be a hater of media rip. I used to love watching “the WORST book I’ve read this year” booktube videos but now its like I hear them ask, “Who is this werewolf smut even for?” Omegaverse fans, next question. “Why would you write this?” Because they find it sexy, can we stop focusing on the ewie yucky kink part and focus on the fact that the author used the word knot five times in a single scene? It’s bad werewolf erotica, but it’s not bad because it’s werewolf erotica like come on

[marfian]

So act 3 huh