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dylanlila · 5 months

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listen. i either need to cut ties with him forever or tell him about it at this point

#jo in the tardis*#it feels so weird being tongue-tied this has never happened to me EVER. like ever. i need to find a stupid rom-com way to tell him #because i'll say the wrong thing if i try to explain it verbally #i mean i am capable of writing him a letter and that does count as verbal #ralph denham tag

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iniziare · 3 months

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Tag drop: Dorian Pavus

#dorian pavus. [ he says we're alike. too much pride. once i would have been overjoyed to hear him say that. now I'm not certain. ]#dorian pavus: ic. [ you find joy in it not shame. it shows. / why be ashamed? power should be respected. not swept under the carpet. ]#dorian pavus: inquiries. [ stop talking like you're waiting for applause. / what? there's no applause? ]#dorian pavus: countenance. [ i'm here to set things right. also? to look dashing. that part's less difficult. ]#dorian pavus: introspection. [ selfish i suppose. not to want to spend my entire life screaming on the inside. ]#dorian pavus: meta. [ you inspired me with your marvelous antics. you’re shaping the world. how could i aspire to do any less? ]#dorian pavus: little notes. [ living a lie. it festers inside you like poison. you have to fight for what’s in your heart. ]#dorian pavus: etc. [ you can't call me pampered. nobody's peeled a grape for me in weeks. ]#dorian pavus: magic. [ don't your spells whisper things to you? what is and could be? music in the mind of strange faraway places? ]#dorian pavus: inquisition. [ we're going to get lost and starve to death. aren't we? a glorious end for the inquisition. ]#dorian pavus: tevinter. [ despite appearances. we care deeply. about everything. we have no reserve. not in war and not in love. ]#dorian pavus: felix. [ even in illness he was the best of us. with him around you knew things could be better. ]#dorian pavus: gereon. [ we used to talk about how we could make real change in the imperium. then he gave up. he stopped trying. ]#dorian pavus: halward. [ i only wanted what was best for you. / no. you wanted the best for you. your fucking legacy. ]#dorian pavus: aquinea. [ her blame was cold and smothering. never spoken but always present. he couldn't face that. not yet. ]#dorian pavus: inquisitor. [ you have too many people asking you for everything under the sun. i won't be one of them. ]#dorian pavus: solas. [ you startled me. you're always so... nondescript. / please speak up. i cannot hear you over your outfit. ]#dorian pavus: varric. [ what do you think sparkler? ten royals says the next thing we run into farts fire. / taken i win either way. ]#dorian pavus: cullen. [ gloat all you like. i have this one. / are you sassing me commander? i didn't know you had it in you. ]#dorian pavus: cassandra. [ blue scarf? why would i be wearing such a thing? / It's a painting. work with me. it'll be fantastic. ]#dorian pavus: cole. [ you say you're handsome all the time. am i? i can't tell. / you're all right. might want to rethink the hats. ]#dorian pavus: vivienne. [ i received a letter the other day dorian. / truly? it's nice to know you have friends. ]#dorian pavus: blackwall. [ point is. you should let yourself off the hook. i know bad men and you're not one. ]#dorian pavus: sera. [ you magic me: i'll put three arrows in your eye. / now we can live together in peace and harmony. ]#dorian pavus: bull. [ no qunari would accept a tevinter mage unless it was a ruse. when should i expect a knife in the back? ]#dorian pavus: corypheus. [ one of yours? / one of mine? like a pet? a giant darkspawn hamster with aspirations of godhood? ]

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keeps-ache · 1 year

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got described as looking like a 'canadian lumberjack physicist' by my brother so. does anybody need an artist

#just me hi #could've just used the shorthand 'gay' but whatever honestly loll #𝘤𝘢𝘯𝘢𝘥𝘪𝘢𝘯. my own kin...#so funny he said lumberjack physicist. two things i'll never be qualified for Hfbhss #and then i said he looked like a youtuber so i might have actually deserved that x10 now that i think abt it HFh #/and i was doing my typing lessons earlier and i had to type out the nato alphabet thing (idr what it's called lol)#i said 'alphaaa..' outloud and my sibling says 'oo who are you texting ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)' 'your girlfriend'#and that Wasn't my fault i was in the middle of some horrible dire straits (i missed the letter P six times in a row <33)#leo if you're reading this. uhhh you were asking for it‚ sorry ! <333 #//in other news i am working on p.space again !!#rewriting Agaaain lol :>#'rewriting' i say as this is the 4th comic rendition i've made #though i want to do a sort of blend between comic and just writing. i just gotta figure out How i'm gonna go about that :3 #i also really wanna write rn so i'm gonna go do that!!! actually super excited to do that #i know full well i probably won't do much but hyped either way :DDD #so on my way now !!!

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leatherbookmark · 3 months

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hateful cunt mode on but

when will kpoppies fucking. try some actual text analysis (never. give up) -- reading the lyrics and understanding what they're saying -- instead of pulling things out of their ass just to fit the Deep Meanings their faves must obviously put in their Art? (never. give up)

people are like wow you're so smart! your brain is so huge! and i mean yeah i guess it must be on some other level of braining if you take a straightforward song about, idk, example i just made up, holding hands with your girlfriend on a nice sunny day and go "in this song the singer is grappling with the loss of their parents". no "i think this might be a metaphor for", no nothing, just assigned dead parents at a handful of out-of-context sentences. bitch no they're not!!! they're enjoying the gentle wind and the way the sun makes her eyes look like honey!!! fuck!!!

and this is not like "maybe the curtains were blue because the author just wanted them to be blue, dumb nerds" -- if there's a metaphor, it's nice to dig into it. IF there's anything to dig in, and even then you gotta make sure you're digging in the right direction. but first of all, this is fucking kpop, and second of all, do you think you're doing the writer a favour by ignoring all the things they actually said and overwriting them with what you think they wrote?

#shrimp thoughts #this is like those poor fucking americans learning to read by reading the first couple letters in a word and just Assuming the rest #'they say 'i'll never let go' oh so it's unprocessed trauma!' NO IT'S THE WARM HAND OF A PERSON THEY LOVE #i know paying attention to words is for losers! who cares! it's the same thing! and yoongi came out in a japanese interview!#but ohhhhhhhhhh myyyyyy fucking goooooooodddddddddddddddddd

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ramblings-of-a-tired-mind · 21 days

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01/09/24

A long walk is quiet without your banter by my side. The loud music isn't enough to drown the silence of the void you left but it fills my head with comforting words despite the sadness of the lyrics.

To know that others have felt this pain and darkness and lived to see the light again, that's the encouragement i need. No matter how dim and hard the nights get I know I'll fight to see another day.

I just need a little time, time to get over the thoughts in my head. Time to reconcile with the hurt I feel. Time to heal. Time to grow again and blossom into a new me.

#mood #thoughts #sad #heartbreak #sad letters #things i'll never say to you #tired #of #life

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overcomebyemotions · 2 years

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I gave you every ounce of my trust, and you betrayed it so easily. Of course I can't forgive you for that.

#depressing thoughts #things I'll never say #spilled thoughts #spilled feelings #love #relationship #heartbreak #breakup #trust #broken trust #betrayal #letter to my ex #no forgiveness

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wisheswagered · 4 months

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read the ganji letter leaks... trying to decide how i feel.

#ooc #i see a lot of people saying it's racist and i feel like as a white person; it's not my place to decide if it is or isn't??#not sure i phrased that right but #i do think annie was never as innocent as people thought so her wariness and aggression towards ganji makes sense; especially with the drug #but i always interpreted her as feeling that way because of his manic episodes / general closed-off nature that scared her.#I don't like this letter claiming that anne was given an ''unfavorable impression'' of him due to his ''strange accent'' as well...#i say claimed because we know the narrator of these letters is biased but like #it feels unnecessary. realistic for the time? maybe. but realism isn't the only thing that matters in a story.#i honestly got the impression from the letter that the majority of her distrust of him was due to his ''manic'' outbursts???#more than anything else #but again... i don't want to be like ''it's not actually racism guys'' when i'm white. and i do think the letter has like.#problematic undertones /at the very least./#just kind of disappointed in netease for this one. i don't think it was intentional on their part but that doesn't make it better.#like it upset a lot of people so clearly it didn't have to be written that way #as for whether or not i'll keep annie as a muse... undecided atm #my personal interpretation is as above but i wouldn't blame people for being uncomfortable with her from now either #so... i'll think about it?? maybe add content warnings for her in my rules?? idk #racism tw //#anyway this is just how i feel atm! i realize everyone will interpret things differently but. still.#( also i can send anyone the leaks if they want to see the letter; just ask! )#idv leaks //

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heartstringsandbrokenthings · 1 year

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in between goodnights and goodbyes,

stuck in our little pauses of uncertainty,

when it’s you and me,

and it’s finally time to hang up.

but we don’t.

“you know that pause? you know what that pause is right??”

“i know”

“what is it?”

“tell me”

“it’s the hesitation from saying i love you. i want to tell you i love you every night. i want to tell you i love you every day. i want to tell you i love you right now”

“so, doesn’t this mean what we have been feeling for so long is worth taking our chances on?”

moments where i think,

the world might fall apart without us

— S

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maddy-ferguson · 1 year

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im tired of ppl using headcanon stuff as proofs on the show. ''mike never stopped calling will.'' yeah no, that is not canon at all, lmao. you guys just took dustin's words and used it as some sort of a canon thing to prove that mike called. c'mon guys... canonically it doesnt make much sense anyways bc it doesnt fit. because mike learned abt joyce's job at the beginning of the season after el sent her letter. unless the duffers just made a mistake and screwed the time, it doesn't make any sense for mike to have called will constantly or 'complaining' due to joyce's job when he just learned abt joyce's job at the beginning of the season after reading el's letters. for all we know mike didnt send any letters to will, and they just only talked for a couple of times. like. that's the canon. we cannot just take something and treat it as canon and come up with criticism based on that. same as the 'lettergate' situation, for all we know mike just didnt bother writing and he didnt have a present. also u cannot really blame will either. for all he knew, the situation was just a repeat of S3. and we know what happened in S3. just a casual 'what if u wanna join another party' doesn't fix the issue at hand, and it literally didnt either. so.

okay, yes, this is what i was saying in the tags of this and what this post i reblogged earlier is about!!! you can't just say "mike 100% called and we don't even know if will called so will is equally to blame for the fact that they didn't keep in touch/for their rink o mania fight". i mean you can but i'll disagree every time because there's this little thing that happened between them that never got resolved that totally explains why will would be hesitant to reach out...who out of the two of them was rebuffed the last time he tried to show that this friendship was important to him? who was crying in the rain and calling himself stupid over it? as a very wise woman once said, i would've wanted mike to make a little bit of an effort too after that tf

and the thing is, if it turns out mike didn't call/doesn't have any unsent letters i'm not gonna be mad at him? they both have reasons for not reaching out. people being more forgiving of will probably has to do with the fact that his reasons are you know. not speculation

as for the technicalities surrounding the theory, the job part of it just doesn't add up to me like i...have spent a very long time thinking about it, it's april and i still don't get it. and as people have pointed out el can't use the phone and there's a walkie talkie in her room and all that but yk. idk. and i like lettergate and i like mikeactuallycalledgate but at the end of the day they're just theories you know

#either way i don't get the job thing because dustin says mike won't stop whining about it like he's been whining for some time which #means that el's letter is old (which i guess it could be) or that like...mike already knew about joyce's job before reading the letter?#like if he just learned about the job in ep 1 why won't he stop whining about it. is it a hyperbole. idk i don't get it.#my second paragraph isn't me doubting byler or like denying the fact that mike is OBVIOUSLY going through something too like i said they #both have reasons to not reach out. it's just that you can't exactly blame people for being biased when one's reasons are...out there #and the other's are: not. i know we're on byler tumblr and a lot of things are known to everyone but like do you see what i'm getting at?#one thing i'll give you is that trying to force your friends to play with you when they obviously couldn't give less of a fuck is...not #a very good strategy and also it was hurtful too when my friends didn't care about my crush of the week in middle school. i personally #never told them to grow up and accidentally called them gay over it though lol!#and i've also been will with the getting your friends to do something they don't care about i've told this story before when i was 12 my #friends literally WROTE ME A LETTER (they wouldn't even say it to my face!!!! they gave it to me and i was like what is this and they were #like uhjustwaitforustoleavewellseeyouonmondaybye and left before i could read) telling me to stop talking about one direction. and i didn't #even talk about them that much because i knew they only liked them a little while i was a Directioner. i never talked about them again #after that lolll #see how i did something for the will is always 100% in the right allegations #ask

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i-am-a-fucking-nerd · 1 year

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have a horrible headache and usually headaches are a combo of things (esp not eating/sleeping enough) which could be the reason i have one today but. also i smoked thu which was 2 days ago and usually i get a headache 2 days after smoking. and im just. i already wrote a diary entry talking abt it and how i feel guilty and bad for like a million different reasons but now i'm also just incredibly frustrated w myself bc why do i do this!!!!!!!!!!!! i can go weeks and months w/o smoking i don't NEED to do this!!!!!

#smoking #tw smoking #havilah's thoughts #addiction #tw addiction #nicotine #like i feel like i Know that i can just not smoke idk why i sometimes do it anyway bc it's literally only negatives #i've never had a.... i guess a 'strong' smoking habit? like usually it is weeks and v often it is months btwn cigs #i just sometimes get mad and wanna do Smth that will make me feel more bad but also kinda better????????? it doesn't make sense i know #this time i felt Particularly guilty bc just a little bit ago i was hanging out w my friend and he hugged me and told me he's glad i haven'#been smoking a lot lately and a buncha nice things i'll keep to myself but. i just. and then i got home and had a letter from my grandma #that was so so sweet and my grandma used to smoke and she quit before i was born and she used to tell me when i was a kid how horrible it i #and now i have a headache and i /hate/ headaches and it felt dirty and i felt slimy for hiding it from my roommate n for feeling like i was #lying to ppl that care abt me #i know i felt calm too. i know it somewhat feels nice. the sensation is diff from anything else and i like it. i know i sometimes need to d #smth that feels. like. drastic and like it's gonna kill me w/o killing me #but it just. i KNOW that it's not worth it later!!!!!!! i know that i feel horrible and the negatives outweigh the positives by a lot!!!!!!#but i never throw away the pack. it's like. idk. idk what to do to just Not do it.#anyway uh. lemme put additional warnings for what i ended up saying in the tags #suicide #suicidal ideation #depression #i guess idk. just covering my bases i guess so ppl don't see smth they don't wanna see

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astrxealis · 1 year

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it's been a while ^^

MARI HI I'VE MISSED YOU ..... it has been a while (time is so weird tho ahshdhdbj T_T <//3) HOW are You !!! 🥺 i hope you are doing well mwa ily /p 💗

#sorry btw i haven't been active on discord properly in ages. uhh at the very least since the start of april but even before T___T #i feel bad not replying yet to a bunch of my friends but i've made it clear i think i've been busy ... anyways yeah just to day that a bit!!#THIS PICTURE BTW i just want to say i didn't realize there was a fr cat in there but when i did it it made me smile skfhksndks 💖#hi ... how r u ..... i hope you are doing well .......... i have been so busy my mind's a mess and i keep forgetting things but don't worry #i'll never forget you BWAHHAJFGSSJDJ SORRY I KEEP SAYING CORNY LINES THESE DAYS FOR FUN #i hope college is good to you. uh i realize i don't know how college really works just yet but soon enough unfortunately haha but yeah <3 #LIKE when is. break for you guys. either way don't forget to take breaks and take care <3 SORRY THIS IS SO LONG my energy is so full rn #also bcs stress but whatever and also bcs i haven't talked to you in a bit aaa #⋯ ꒰ა letters of stardust ໒꒱ *·˚#⋯ ꒰ა my galaxy ໒꒱ *·˚#tag later

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beetleevil · 1 year

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#my boyfriend is asleep in my arms but i can't join him i'm thinking and feeling too many things to sleep #i need to write a letters i'll never send and i need some time alone #man......#i wish i could say i miss you but past me only misses past you #i do not miss you #i want to chew and swallow this life #it's unreal #but i need to realize it before i lose control of it #i love my boyfriend

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lifeofbubblygum · 2 years

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Sunshine

You're sunshine. I don't know how else to put it. You've lived so many lifetimes in 22 years and still you're strong enough to have a smile and brighten the lives of everyone around you. It's incredible and I crave to continue basking in your light.

For so long I have believed I'm nothing but a rainstorm. I've been dreary and dark and gray. But encountering your sunshine made me realize that even my rain has a place, and maybe between us we'll find something dazzling and colorful. I can feel you bringing out my sense of adventure. I hope against all hope that I'm making a positive change in your life as well.

Oh please, please, let me be doing something good here. Please let this be true. You've captivated me and I'm so terrified I haven't done the same.