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shining-gem34 · 6 months

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||Hello. Been quiet all week cause my brother and his girlfriend came home for thanksgiving. We just dropped them off at thr airport early this morning. I'll be occupied catching up in HSR/Genshin and unwind. Lmfao

Also what we have been up to almost all week: Suffering doing DIY Minature House Crafts

#jadecoocoo (mun rambles)#||I have been so tired every night.#||They couldn't finish it before they left but it is only plants crafts left before assembling it all together.

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shima-draws · 6 months

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What the FUCK Furina’s backstory is so fucking sad??? The absolute TORTURE she’s been through. Shit dude,

#Shima speaks #I’M SO UPSET.#THIS IS JUST RUKKHADEVATA ALL OVER AGAIN. GENSHIN STOMPING ON MY FEELINGS AND MAKING ARCHONS CRY #Why is it always the women. Stop doing this to our women.#Genshin Impact #Imagine putting on an act nonstop continuously for hundreds of years and not being able to tell anyone the truth #And dealing with the anxiety of your whole country dying out and it weighs on your shoulders and makes you so stressed #And you cry yourself to sleep every night bc you’re so tired you’re SO tired and it’s been centuries but you have to keep going.#You have to keep up the act you have to keep faking it you have to keep lying #You have to pretend everything is fine when it’s NOT and you don’t know what to do and you still can’t tell a single fucking SOUL #AGHHHH FURINA. MY SWEET GIRL. YOU DIDN’T DESERVE THIS #Genshin Impact spoilers #Furina #Focalors #I just wanna scoop her up into a big hug and tell her it’s okay 😭 Girl you don’t gotta act anymore you can finally FINALLY rest

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kowabungadoodles · 2 months

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dumping some thoughts in the tags

#I've been TRYING hard okay #I've been trying to buy better clothes from smaller shops #but when they arrive it turns out they're cheap polyester drop ship crap #I've been trying to get more involved in the queer community and be more of a person #but the online zoom meetings were uncomfortable #the discord transmasc voice class went badly because I didn't understand how to use the bot #I booked a queer film night for me and my partner but it turned out to be creepy and churchy so we dropped out #I've signed up to steward pride we'll see how that goes #I went to a protest but it rained a lot so I only stayed for half #I've been trying to use amazon less but every time I go around my small local stores they don't have any of the stuff I'm looking for #I'm trying to be more myself and be more brave but my binders don't fit and I can't use a sewing machine #and every time I speak to a stranger or a colleague my voice goes up #I'm trying to work out more and eat less but I'm so tired #I'm trying to boycott and buy slave-free and say no to Ai and to genocide and to tiktok and disney and nestle and spotify #Telling myself I have food at home and to stop scrolling reddit and got get more sleep and to call my friends #All this therapy all these good choices all this work and so little to show for it some days #I am going back to fucking bed

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kagoutiss · 29 days

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zelink in your au or nah?

i would say there’s about as much zelink in my au as there is in the game, so…like it’s there but it’s also probably sad and doomed lol. link also isn’t there for the large majority of it, so a lot it comes down to how sheik remembers him while he’s sealed in the sacred realm and how she feels about their whole situation over a period of years. it’s kinda hard to say how their relationship is when one of them isn’t there for so much of it, and the other is constantly thinking and mulling over just their memories of them and what they could’ve done differently. but that’s also part of the reason they’re so interesting and heartbreaking to me. im blabbin but basically there isn’t NOT zelink, but it’s complicated and still sad and not necessarily the main focus

#ask #undercover sheik au #i kinda feel like link’s absence from it is part of what i like about it #not because i dont like him but because sheik’s shifting perceptions of the boy she met years ago are more interesting because of it #i kind of imagine sheik to be like…accompanied by this image he now has of link. which may or may not be accurate but it’s there #like. the kid she accidentally roped into a nightmare. her best friend for all of a few days before disaster struck #a hero who never asked to be one #the kingdom’s salvation. a tired quiet boy with dirt and blood on him and no parents #a boy who went to sleep 7 years ago and will wake up in a body and world that isn’t his own and it’s her fault #like all that. on repeat in sheik’s head almost every night for years #how scary must it have been to finally see him again after it feels like a lifetime has passed for you but none for him #i would be terrified. i would also choose to talk in riddles and watch over him from a distance for the most part #and do cool ninja moves and stuff and see if that helps #holy shit thats so many tags. goodnight

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a-s-levynn · 24 days

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Just so you know, if i disappear i either jumped off the roof or finally snapped and murdered my upper floor neighbours.

#every single fucking weekend starts off with hours of drilling and hammering #every day the kids are screeching well into to the night and stomping around so loud i can hear it even through good quality headphones #they had been asked to keep it down #multiple times #not just by me #at this point i do not give a fuck why it happens i don't even remember it has been so long i just want it to stop #i want one fucking weekend of quiet without a sensory overload first thing on a saturday #my brain is hurting #i already have problems focusing and getting chores and stuff done one the weekends on it's own #i'm so fucknig tired i have enough shit to deal with without this added to the pile #levynn tries to think #levynn cries about nonsense

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deoidesign · 1 month

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Melatonin is a delicate balancing act, it took some time to find a dose that helped me fall and stay asleep without leaving me groggy after 8/10 hours. For me, that has been 10 mg gradually increased to such over a few weeks then steady since.

I also take roughly a week without it every month or two, as the bottle recommends. Listen to your body and do what you can. Good luck, and thank you for the sweet gay were/pire comic<3

Yeah, I can tell my sweet zone is somewhere between 3 and 6 mg, at least right now. Or at least I think it is. Admittedly my sleep has been absolutely horrible since I was a kid so my standards on "not tired" are pretty low, so I'm not actually sure if they're any good right now. All I know is I'm getting more than 2 hours of sleep at a time, and I'm not spending every waking moment fighting off a nap!

Thanks for the confirmation I've gotta test with it and go off and on and such, my doc didn't give me a straight answer on that (he just kept saying take it as needed... I need it every night!!!). 75% of the time being good is way better than 0% so I'll take what I can get!

And the gay comics are the least I can do 🧡 thank you for reading it!

#my boyfriend actually commented unprompted that ive been complaining less about being tired all the time..m #like dont get me wrong. im still tired #but it has been a WORLD of a difference.#like. its been every day since i was like 14 that just. all day i could fall right back asleep #and every night i wake up every. other. hour.#ive never really been able to sleep longer than 2 hours at a time #so ive never gotten uhm. good sleep before.#and ive had to stay in bed 14. 16. 20 hours to even feel like i can GET UP!!!!#super bad hahaha #but I'll take a week of that every month or so over every day #im just glad ive found a dose and combo thats workint for me cause ive tried melatonin before and it didnt help #but that was qlso before i used those nose strips. which also help me a lot?#so i think the combo is important #and i wouldn't be shocked if in 5 years i learn of another secret sleeping ingredient #anyways. maybe i can line up the bad sleep week off melatonin with the other week that sucks every month auajjddjdjejdj #see how it goes lol #oh ive also been taking other vitamins which have also been helping #so that combo leaves me with some actual waking time that im not fighting off a nap #this is why I've been posting more recently btw lol #asks #jackedupjack

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angellurgy · 28 days

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#AAAAAAAAAAAAA FUCKFUCKFUCK #CONDTANT UNENDING SILENT SCREAMING #NO WORDS BUT FORCED TO UNDERSTAND STILL UNESCAPABLE I CANT I CANT I CANT #ill never be anything ill never be anything ill never be anything at all to any of you #too fucking tired to go out of the house for so long no way to stop being tired its all wearing down on me like a fucking curse. too much #CANT CANT CANT take 10 more days of this waiting itll just go back to normal after #TRIED TO LIVE BUT WHAT IS THE POINT WHAT IS THERE EVEN FOR ME NO LOVE NO CARE NO IMPORTANCE NO PLACE #FADING MEMORY REMNANTS OF MY SOUL DRIPPING OUT OF MY HEAD LIKE A GUTTER. NO ONE WILL REMEMBER. EVEN I CANT.#AAAAAAAAAAA rotrotrotrotrotrotrotrotrot wish i just had a fucking dad to hold me wish i had a brother to show me the loving care noone will #please. llease. please. nothing left nothing left everyone wants me less with every single post but icant stop #cooped up inside. tumblrs knly good when you have a life outside of it. i cant fight it tho bc of this fucking EXHAUSTION #caused by the emotional pain and exclusion. eternal loop. let me.out #NOT LIKE IT MATTERS TO ANYONE BUT THE FEW WHO CANT HELP. THE FEW WHO CANT MAKE MY SITUATION BETTER. I JUST WANT A GROUP.#I KNOW COMMUNITY ISNT REAL BUT I FUCKING WANT SOMETHING. PLEASE #LET ME OUT. GIVE ME LIFE. INSTEAD OF THIS CONSTANT FUCKING VOID GROWING BLACK MOLD ON THE CREVICES OF MY SKULL #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa nothing is giving me life right now i want sometbing i cant create anything i dont wanna die but i have no choice #FIGHT THROUGH THE TIREDNESS WALK INTO THE FOREST IN THE NIGHT AND ROT.#SLIT MY WRISTS EVEN THOUGH IT WONT DO SHIT. LAY ON A BLANKET AND LET THE COLD TAKE ME #WOULDNT BE THE FIRST TIME IVE BEEN CLOSE TO IT. LEAST I CAN GO ALL THE WAY. GOD WHY DO I TRY. I WANT TO TRY. I HAVE NOTHING TO TRY FOR.#NO OTHER CHOICE.

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5ducksinatrenchcoat · 9 months

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school kinda sucks, not even gonna lie

#its been one day #how am i gonna do this for 10 more months??#nothing bad even happened! and it still sucked!#and new uniform rules like oohoohoo that'll make the kids happier #no more sweatpants under my skirt?? have they forgotten we like in canada?? where its fucking freezing??#and we got a lecture in each class about “academic integrity”#and also my hair looked like shit even though it looked good when i woke up #and i have 2 classes with my arch nemesis (some kid i hate for literally no reason other than we compete for top student every year)#very frances and daniel of me #UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #and my friend who i have a crush on moved schools without telling me (we're not that close)#and moved to my ex's school (they're friends)#but she's twins with my good friend who didn't switch schools so i'll see her again #but i wish she didn't leave #and she told some of my friends i think but i only found out cuz my ex told me (we're still friends)#and also my parents didn't let me go to a concerty thing tonight that i really wanted to go to because i have dance #but now i'm not even going to dance because i'm so fucking tired (i need my full 9 hours)(i got about 5 hours last night)#sorry about how many tags i put but i'm too worried to make an actual long post

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made-nondescript · 2 years

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i hope the person who said "he wouldn't want such a small thing to ruin his brand" about technoblade knows how helpful that line as been. it's the one thing anyone said then or since that pops into my head every time i start thinking too hard about technoblade's passing. like he has a brand to maintain and i'm here mucking it up by being sad and mournful about it. who am i to do that! and then i can self correct and think more positively about how cool techno was and what he meant to me. so yeah they little joke has been so helpful

#tw death #technoblade #i still think about him nearly every night before i go to sleep so to have something thst overrides #the tired part of my brain that's ready to cry again helps so so much #it also sounds like something techno would say #techno isn't here anymore but his humor is #it's the jokes that have been the most helpful to me by far because he would want us crying from laughter if we had to be crying at all

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etoilesbienne · 11 months

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qsmp has been so fun for me so far genuinely this is some of the most fandom interaction ive had in like. a LONG ass time that doesn't feel like im the one in charge and having to make fandom content to like appease people (it's happened like... a lot.) it's just like really fun. to just babble on here and people jump around and dance with me about whatever im talking about because we're all a lil bananers. together

#posts from the aether #genuinely every fandom for the last like 5 years ive been in #where i interact a ton #has been in a sense of me making the content for others to be excited about #and after a while that shit gets Tiring #qsmp tumblr fandom is like just small and close knit enough that everyone gets sillay together while being #able to interact together relatively often #also like being able to live react to things helps it feels like we have a movie night going on all the time... its so fun #this got a little long but ily guys 🫶

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skinreflectsthesun · 4 months

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Thinking about how it’s been almost a month since the last time I slept a full night without being woken up at least once, I’m so unbelievably tired

#personal #it’s so exhausting being up every night with him #he had such a great sleep schedule too and then he got sick for a bit #and I’ve been waiting for him to bounce back to his regular sleeping since he’s not sick anymore and he just hasn’t #and now he’s got the sniffles again and I’m just like oh my god will this never end??#I feel bad for him too I know he is tired too #but my god just waking up at least 2-3 times a night and then having to get up and go to work too? it is slowly killing me

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girlcrushau · 2 months

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#me? about to use tumblr as a diary again? in 2024? unfortunately:/#but here have a waterfall i saw on a hike last week as payment #i am sO tired and exhausted emotionally after dating #there's this guy that i fr thought was going to last and be around for a long time. we spent like every moment together that we could for 2 #months straight and if we werent physicaly together we were texting or calling or on ft . just every part of our day had the other in it #not once did i ever feel unwanted undesired or uncared for. not once did i feel that i wasnt sure of his intentions. i felt safer with him #in those 2 months than i ever did with any one else i could think to compare to.#until one day he just didnt think it important to communicate any more. after 3 days of nearly nothing .. hardly any talking . i asked if #he was ok if we were ok. what was going on in his head. he said some ive just been with my buddies and family and havent been on my phone #and just. immediately thats heartbreak yanno. thats :// thats what they say when theres a new girl. but there'd never been a reason to think #there was another girl so i was like ok we're gonna trust bc this dude has been So good in every way. so i said imy but i understand. enjoy #your time with your buddies and with your fam -- i cant wait to hear about it (and hold you)#and i havent heard from him in the 3 weeks since. just randomly #so last night #i send the dreaded 'i miss you' text.#i dont expect to hear back and i accept the hurt that will come with that and the confusion that i've felt settles deeper into my heart #until this afternoon i hop on ig and see a hard launch that was posted an hour after my text was sent #that shit kinda hurt different. but also sent me into a bit of a delirious state where all i could do is laugh bc are you for fucking real #did she see my message? i know it. bc i know him and i know that he wouldnt hide anything from the person he's giving his heart #and his softness to. i can almost imagine how he showed her and promised her theres nothing to worry about #and there really isnt anything to worry about because he genuinely is the type to give his all to the relationship he's in #which feels silly to say after what happened w us. like no there wasnt a title ever #it sucks to call it a situationship because a month ago we were laughing in bed together about how we could never bc we were all in.#just the timing of the hard launch makes me giggle. did my text push them to have a conversation about what they are. was she really the #reason that he went away on me.#im trying not to blame myself . trying not to think about the phone calls i didnt answer. about what i could have done differently. trying #not to think about where we would be if i didnt let my anxieties hold me back. if i wasnt scared about what he'd think of the parts of me #that i keep hidden just a little bit longer than the rest.#and at the same time im trying not to put him on a pedestal. but that pedestal is just where i wholeheartedly believe he belongs #he set the bar for me. he set the standard. i was never too much. i was never too little. he made me feel perfect just as i am

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isa-ah · 2 months

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i have formally and officially entered the loop. sigh.

#im so so so tired but ive been putting off going to bed for hours #even tho im like straight up getting nauseous and dizzy spells #mostly bc my dreams last night and the last couple nights fucked with me #but when i stay up like this my dreams just get worse #which makes me stay up more #etc #the loop #im so tired awughh #once reached a point of sleep deprivation where i had a mental breakdown repeated false awakening nightmare followed by spider hallucinatio #so many spiders on the wall when i woke up #it took hours to actually believe i was awake LOL #i used to have this issue over the course of years where i had the same nightmare every time i fell asleep #didnt matter if it was 1am or 1pm if i slept for 45 minutes or 4-5 hours etc #same nightmare every single time. so i lost A LOT of sleep avoiding it like the plague #i went full whacko mode man. i was off my shit. hallucinating daily type sleep deprivation #dont be like me kids #stay in bed

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sweetlysniffly · 2 days

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Oh no!!! My throat is tickly and I’m coughing 😀 whatever shall I do??😖

(I coughed once in just a hypocondriach)

#my throat has been itchy and strained all year #like literally #all #year #and I don’t mean like in a sick kinda way really #like the muscles in my throat feel like every night I’m screaming at a concert #and so much of my voice feels blocked off or tired or raspy #why have I been like this for so long.

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tiredstressedemotionalmess · 7 months

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me, every night for the past three weeks: oh im feelin good rn! and i had a good day today!! im definitely not gonna lie awake filled with anxiety and dread over my future tonight :D

me, lying in bed 20 minutes later looping famous last words: by talos this cant be happening

#its like im fine literally all day qnd then i start to get ready for bed and the Dread sets in #like its an actual physical feeling in my stomach and i just suddenly out of nowhere have to hold myself back from crying #i literally go from perfectly happy to on the verge of tears in an INSTANT and idk whats causing uty #it #like i know broadly ehat the causes are but idk whats causing the specific switch at night #am i tired?? is it just bc im tired??? bc its not consistently at the same time and most of the time i dont *feel* tired #or is it just like. i knoe im going to bed so i know im gonna be alone with my thoughts and so they all come and hit me at once???#idk idk idk i just know i hate it and i want it to stop i want everything to fucking stop #id say i need a minute to breathe but really ive been using the past four months as my minute to breathe & thats part of the fucking problem #because ive been putting this all off for so long bc its so overwhelming but now theres so much igotta do and theres real tangible deadlines #so i cant keep putting it off but i DO and its just making it all even more overwhelming and my parents arent fucking helping #but its not even their fault because im chosing not to talk to them about this bc talking to them about it makes it all real #and i dont want it to be real yet im not fucking ready for it to be real yet i just need a goddamn minute TO FUCKING BREATHE #i wish i could freeze time and just give myself a day where none of this matters #actually a days not long enough i think i need like. two weeks. two weeks for me to get my shit together where none of this bullshit exists #and i can just do whatever i want and not have to think about deadlines and decisions and the fact that this is all ive wanted since the #7th fucking grade and now that its actually here i cant fucking stomach the thought of it being real because im a goddamn coward who cant #fucking commit to anything or get themself to DO anything and i know its not really my fault bc i probably have adhd and i get #knocked off my ass with a migraine every ither fucking day but i still feel like i should be more prepared for this than i am #and im not prepared and im not ready and i cant get myself ready because i cant do things like this myself because i dont really want to be #doing them at all #like sure! the bitch can write a 400+ page fanfiction no fucking problem!! they can find time for that but a college essay?? even finding #schools to apply too???? dont be fucking ridiculous they cant even get half an app done in the time it takes them to write a two 6k chapters #delete later

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squircatlies · 1 month

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Aren't you sleepy? Don't you just wanna go to bed?

#me to myself every night #and the other me to myself every morning #i have two wolves inside me #both are eepy #i have a fucked up sleep schedule :/#but i'm starting work soon so it'll either fix itself or kill me #eepyposting #this joke's probably been done before but i'm too tired to check #feel free to yell at me if that's the case though good luck waking me up

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