#'do you regret your tattoo? didnt the ending suck'

[thesadstoryofme]

The one where Harry and Y/N have a little fun.

        She was innocent and pure. At least that's what he thought. Here they both were, Y/N's legs spread wide open on his king size bed and Harry's hand jerking his cock in the seat across the room.

Friends see each other naked right?

Do friends masturbate in front of each other right?

Y/N's eyes lingered the room and soon mets his eyes. His pupils dilated as soft moans escaped his swollen, pink lips..

"Is this what you think about, when your alone?" She asked him softly as he nodded his head.

" Do you think about me, legs spread as my fingers play with my clit"

He was so hard and he was dying to come.

" Stop" he warned.

The soft giggle that escaped her lips made his eyes shot up at her.

" dont tell me what to do" She told him. Her fingers glazed over her swollen cunt.

" Do you see how fucking hard I am?"

" So?"

" I think you should do something about it" he told her.

.

She wasn’t sure how she ended up here. Both of them naked and playing with themselves.

She remembers texting her best friend Harry that she was lonely and asked him if he needed some company.

He had texted her back so fast and told her to come over.

When she arrived, the smell of food filled her nostrils and she swore she heard her tummy grumble. Harry had made the table and placed the pasta on the table along with some glasses of wine.

Harry and Y/N had just past 5 years on their friendship. They've experienced so much together and she was so thankful for him. She got to travel the world and be a part of the back stage experience.

The night had slowed down and they were both sitting on the couch. Blanket over both there waist as y/n's head rested on his shoulder.

"When's the last time you had sex?" He had randomly asked her.

" What?" She asked.

" I'm serious, I just wanna know"

" last week. I met a guy in a club, had a huge dick and we did it in the bathroom" she told him.

"Oh"

"Why?

" just curious " he told her.

" When was the last time you had sex? " She looked up at him. 

" almost a year" Y/N starts laughing but the second her eyes met his she knew he was serious..

" What? How has it been a year? "

" Haven’t been on a date in a year, ‘M lonely” 

//

There night was filled with sex horror stories. Giggles and snorts filled the air.

" He had such a small dick. I was so turned off" Y/N sipped her wine

" No way. Did you leave? " he asked her and she nodded.

" Hell yeah. I wanted some good dick" "I told him I started my period" They both started cracking up.

" how drunk are you right now" he asked her placing his beer on the side table.

Her eyes were glowing and her cheeks grew red. She never really talked about her sex life to Harry. Being open with him made her feel free. 

 She remembers scooting closer to him. His hands started roaming in his hair, trying to distract himself.

“ How horny are you right now, H?” She asked putting her hand on his thigh, giving it a squeeze. 

“ ‘m not” He gulped. 

“ I’ll be upstairs then, I have to take care of something” She told him, removing her hand and walking past him to his bedroom.

//

She didn’t know what was going through her head. She was so sexually frustrated. It was only a couple seconds later when she had removed all of her clothing and sat her naked body on his king size bed. 

Her hands roamed her body. 

“ Y/N, Where are you?” He had called out and within a minute he was stood at the door.

The site in front of him made his cock twitch in his pants. His best friend was spread out in his bed, her fingers rubbing her clit as her eyes were screwed shut. 

“ I don’t think I should be seeing this, We’re drunk” He let out a soft whisper.

“Don’t you wanna watch?” “I bet you’re so hard right now “ She giggled. 

“ Sit down and touch yourself” “ Please “ 

He was so hot and bothered and he wanted so bad to release himself.

The chair that sat in the corner of his room was empty. He started removing his clothes and tossing them anywhere. 

He was now fully naked, Cock sprung up and soon was level with his tattoo that rested on his thigh. 

She was amazed. Of course she thought out his cock, often. He was hot and she would only deny it to him. She though about how it must feel to have his cock buried deep inside her. His cum coating her tight walls and she wondered what his tongue would feel like as he sucked her clit. She wanted to go over to him and stuff her tiny mouth with his big, thick cock. 

“This is so fucking hot “ He swore as his hand pumped his cock. 

“ You are so big” “ I bet your cock would feel so good in my tight cunt” 

“ We’ll never know, I guess” He laughed.

“ I’m begging you to stuff your cock in my pussy” “ I want it so bad, Daddy” 

He never thought in the years that they’ve been friends that he’d ever witness those filthy words escape her lips. He never thought he’d be drunk, naked and touching himself in the same room as his best friend. 

“ What if I don’t want to?” “ What if I want you to beg me for it?” 

“Please Harry, I need your cock” “ I know your cock hasn’t been inside a good pussy in so long.  I know you wanna fuck my brains out and fill me with you cum” 

The words that escaped her mouth made his cock jerk. 

He finally caved in. His hands left his cock as he made his way to the bed. Her legs wide open and ready. 

“ Condom?” He asked but she shook her head.

“ Birth control” 

He pulled her legs closer to his body and positioned himself at her entrance. 

“ Are you sure?” He asked.

“ Please fuck me “ 

“ Yes Ma’am” 

He pushed himself inside her. Soft moans escaped both of their lips as he thrusted inside her. He was slow at first, he didn’t wanna hurt her but as soon as he heard her moan his thrust became faster. 

“ You are so wet and tight for me” 

“ feel’s so good” She praised him “So big “

He thrust got faster. The room soon started smelling of sex and they were both sobering up.

“ I’m gonna c-cum” she stuttered. 

“ Come for me baby girl”  Her eyes rolled in the back of her head as his cock filled her pussy with white spurts of hot cum.

He removed himself from her and rolled over next to her. 

“ That was hot “ She told him, catching her breath.

“Yeah, it was” 

“ I can’t believe we just had sex” He laughed

“ Me to, Damn you’re good” She rolled over so that she was facing him. His arm was tucked under his head, propping himself up.

//

It had been a month since they last saw each other. She didnt know that sleeping with him would make her life complicated.

The grew distant. More so him then her. When she asked to hang out he would say that he was busy or that they can another day.

They would text but it was short and she hated it. She had to know what was going on with him.

It was later in the evening and she knew he was home. She could get the thought out of her head that he was mad at her or that he was regretting what happend.

Some how she found herself parked outside his house. She sat in silence for a couple minutes before dragging herself to the door.

She rang the door bell and paced in her spot. As the door swung open she was met with a sight she didnt think she would see.

A girl. A blonde girl with beautiful blue eyes and an outfit that was very revealing.

" Hello. Can I help you? " she interrupted her thoughts.

" yeah, is Harry home? "

" He is, you can come in" She moved a little so Y/N could pass her.

" Hes upstairs. I'll get him"

"Who's at the door babe?" Harry's voice startled you but the second your eyes met his, he turned red.

" Y/N, what are you doing here? " He asked placing his hand in his pocket.

" I came to talk to you, I didnt know you had company. I'll actually catch up later"

As she made her way to the door. Harry caught up to her.

" I'm sorry" he told her.

//

She knew that blonde was his new girlfriend. Y/N was jealous and it took her weeks to figure that out. She wanted to yell and scream and kick herself for what happened.

She kept telling herself that she ruined the best thing that has ever happened to her. When she got home that night he had texted her.

I'm sorry I didnt tell you I met someone.

She couldn't dare respond back. She was hurt and sad and shocked.

They were just friends right?

A/N: okay, so this is kinda my longest writing. I hope you enjoy and give feedback please!

[rookiesbookies]

Nsfw Head-canons -Brothers

Lucifer:

-Gentle but will push anyone’s limits

-prefers to hit it from the back over a desk, but understands thats not always possible or wanted

-this mf is smirking the whole time at you

-after care is 10/10 tho bc he’s got the best bathroom in the house (no matter what asmo says😂)

-you will smell like his... essence by the end

-might let you top every once in a while but even if you do something like ride him he has to be sitting up even just a little bit

-hes prideful ass wont let him be a bottom even for a second

-is your Lucifer up to his horns in work?

-literally just fling your underwear at him

-he’d shoot up and give you the ... attention you need faster than you can say “Satan gotta cat”

-I cannot yell “FLOGGER” louder

-BDSM if there ever was such

Mammon:

-sweet baby is so scared of hurting anyone

-likes to hold hands

-doesnt always like to be looked at tho, depending on the mood

-switch leans for bottom tho

-probably usually is the one needing aftercare

-probably apologizing if he did something wrong

-he’s mind can not handle pleasure

-like you’d be blowing him and he’d be squirming and like tearing up

-oh imagine pointing out that the marks point down

-“what do ya mean- they’r’ pointin there...”

-VERY LOUD

-YOU PROBABLY NEED TO GAG HIM SO THE HOUSE DOESNT SHAKE

-EVEN IF YOUR JUST BLOWING HIM

-praise kink

-he needs praise tho

-🥺💜💜 bb needs love

Levi:

-hates to be looked at

-“ st-stop looking at me like that normie!”

-this mf totally would call you a “normie” then

-**snake dicks**

-probably talks about a random hentai with a stupid long name when in the middle of it

-he’s LOUD

-like REALLY LOUD

-might use his tail, idk

-when Asmo brings it up Beel goes

-“Not in front of the Salad”

-if you make eye contact with him, while doing anything, he’d squirm so much

-probably needs so much praise to be reminded he’s not just a “yucky otaku”

-forked tongue

-really sensitive horns

-“I dont- fine Ill do the tongue thing from that stupid Disney Movie”

-would cover Henry 2.0 with a cloth

-bed sheets are EVERYWHERE

-hide him in his gaming chair

-probably has curtains to cover the other fish in his room so they dont see

-idk why he just is like that

Satan:

-this boi probably jumps you on the couch in the library

~~-only bc Lucifer was in his study~~

-never does it angy, the smexy times are for love

-vanilla

-gets **bite-y**

-pet kink tho

-will wear the collar but prefers you to

-switch, leaning to dom

-pet name for you is Kitty

-would totally call you “my precious kitten” too

-probably reads too much about everything having to do with this subject (also talks to Asmo too much)

-“I want to try (random position)”

-usually it doesnt work out bc for the most part he’s vanilla

-probably talks to Asmo too much about this

-probably read 50 Shades trying to understand

-probably regretted both of those

-on second thought he totally does

-sadist

-he’s a sadist

Asmo:

-owns 100% of the adult section in Akuzon

-you cant convince me otherwise

-probably balls deep at least once a week

-switchy **AF**

-breath on him and his horny

-doesnt mean he’ll be easy tho

-would make you beg

-edging bitch

-may snap sadist on you in a second

-the most fabulous aftercare

-he’s like painting your nails and shit

-massages

-too think this all started bc he caught you staring at him

-right after he asks some bullshit

-“how do bees fly- science says they shouldnt be able to”

-“these are thing you dont say after having sex”

-COWGIRL AND 69 ARE HIS FAVORITE, HAVE TO BE

Beel:

-forgive me father, Ive been a bad girl

-BUT IMAGINE THE TONGUE ON THIS SOFT BOI

-PLUS ISNT HE LIKE 6 FOOT 5

-scared of crushing you

-could fling you like a rag doll tho

-probably biggest jewels in the family

-🤠

-would accidentally over simulate someone

-probably would tell you to taste good

-needs constant reassurance

-bb boi would cry if you degraded him

-bite-y

-no cap

-doesnt leave hickies but you wake up with bite marks everywhere

-some of them drew blood bc in some of the animations he has shark teeth

-you cant walk

-and not bc he went hard

-just bc he’s THAT BIG

-I just feel like he is

-hehehe his cowboy boots in his demon form tho

-if you touched his horns he’d be so surprised

-every confused on the idea of what “Horny” is

-“ b-but im hungry... just not for food???”

-probably asked Asmo

-that was a mistake

-giving him face rubs reminding him that it doesnt hurt and your just adjusting

-tracing his tattoo is probably the cutest thing youve done after

-Asmo heard it all.

-Asmo

-heard

-it

-all

-period

-food kink

-will eat off your body

-just out food on your body and he go nom nom

Belphie:

-he’s a dom bottom

-if thats possible

-cuz he’s lazy af

-but refuses to be dominated

-always in the bed, cuz HE DOESNT LEAVE IT

-cuddles after

-“you wanted to do it in the attic for a reason didnt you.”

-just fuckin smirks at you

-bc the attic is probs above Luci’s room

-probably really kinky but just too lazy to do jack

-even tho he lazy dont mean you wont be head to toe marked up

-would rock his hip while you adjust just to see your surprised face

-lots of sucking

-idk why

-i feel like he just do

-has been the sub before

-he did not like it

-he just likes being a lazy dom

-if he tops, sheeeet is going down

-if he tops, you will never EVER walk the same again

-temple kisses reminding you you did good

-cuddles

-his pet name for you is Bear, bc your his Teddy Bear

-he fucking Koala’s you in his sleep

-and there is no escaping his grip

[stressed-crow]

i didnt exactly get tagged, but @lieberts​ said the “whoever wants to do it” thing (like 4 moths ago but i just found it in my likes) so here i goooo

also i tag @krchov​ @cowardlylearningtobebrave​ @feathereddamsel​ @gruntie​ and @luwucifer-s​ but like, only very vaguely. feel free not to~

1. MUSIC TAG MEME 

Rules: Post your first twenty songs in a playlist on shuffle

Mama (My Chemical Romance)

Stigma (BTS)

Man Who Sold The World (Nirvana)

End of Spring (ONEWE)

Love Maze (BTS)

I’m so afraid (Holland)

Dear my friend (agustd)

O-O-H Child (The Five Stairsteps)

Go Go (BTS)

Time is Running out (The Muse)

Movement (Hozier)

Les Passants (Zaz)

The Witching Hour (ODJBOX)

Feelings (Hayley Kiyoko)

0X1=LOVESONG (txt)

YAYAYA (Stray Kids)

Empire (Of Mice and Men)

Problems (Mother Mother)

Question (Stray Kids)

Kill Your Heroes (AWOLNATION)

(i do not take any criticism on my music taste, least of all a costructive one)

2. Rules: MAKE A NEW POST, bold what applies to you and tag whoever you want to get to know better.

APPEARANCE 

I’m an I-need-to-pull-the-driver-seat-all-the-way-in kind of a person // i wear glasses or contacts // i have blonde hair // i prefer loose clothing to tight clothing  // i have one or more piercings // i have at least one tattoo  // i have blue eyes // i have dyed or highlighted my hair // i have gotten plastic surgery // i have or had braces // i sunburn easily // i have freckles // i paint my nails // i wear makeup // i don’t often smile // i am pleased with how I look // I prefer nike to adidas // i wear baseball hats backward

HOBBIES & TALENTS 

i play a sport // i can play an instrument  // i am artistic  // i know more than one language // i have won a trophy in some sort of competition // i can cook or bake without a recipe // i know how to swim // i enjoy writing // i can do origami // i prefer movies to tv shows // i can execute a perfect somersault // i enjoy singing // i could survive in the wild on my own (if it was like... chill wildreness. i mean i can get a fire going and shit like that i cant fistfight a bear or whatever) // i have read a new book series this year // i enjoy spending time with friends // i travel during school or work breaks // i can do a handstand

RELATIONSHIPS 

i am in a relationship // i have a crush // i have a best friend i have known for ten years // my parents are together // i have dated my best friend // i am adopted // my crush has confessed to me // i have a long-distance relationship // i am an only child // i give advice to my friends // i have made an online friend // i met up with someone i have met online

AESTHETIC 

i have heard the ocean in a conch shell // i have watched the sunrise // i enjoy rainy days // i have slept under the stars // i meditate outside // the sound of chirping calms me // i enjoy the smell of the beach // i know what snow tastes like // i listen to music to fall asleep // i enjoy thunderstorms // i enjoy cloud watching // i have attended a bonfire // i pay close attention to colors // i find mystery in the ocean (i dont like it tho the sea scares me) // i enjoy hiking on nature paths // autumn is my favourite season

MISC 

i can fall asleep in a moving vehicle // i am the mom friend // i live by a certain quote // i like the smell of sharpies // i am involved in extracurricular activities // i enjoy mexican food // i can drive a stick-shift  // i believe in true love // i make up scenarios to fall asleep // i sing in the shower // i wish i lived in a video game // i have a canopy above my bed // i am multiracial // i am a redhead // i own at least one dog // i have a cat ---------

3. THIS OR THAT TAG GAME (1)

sage green or baby blue | moon or stars | paperback or hardback | piercings or tattoos (i want a new one... both piercing and tattoo) | drawing or writing | saturn or jupiter | line without a hook or mr. loverman (what does this mean??) | ancient greece or ancient egypt | prague (yo i live here thats wild) or amsterdam | dark academia or light academia | indie aesthetic or cottagecore | stargazing or late night drives | strawberries or watermelons | rings or necklaces | extrovert or introvert | dragons or griffins | ocean or mountain | silver or gold | dawn or dusk | creative or free spirit | early bird or night owl | cook or bake | dagger or sword ---------

4. THIS OR THAT TAG GAME (2)

indoor plants or gardens // cloud-watching or star-gazing // water or fire // paperback or hardcover // running or hiking // sleeping with socks or without socks // fruit or vegetables // hanging plants or succulents // dark wood or light wood // handwritten or typed // instagram or pinterest (i dont do either) // braids or pigtails // books or movies // oceans or meadows // forests or fields // sweet or salty // ice cream or chocolate // hoodies or sweaters // long hair or short hair // piercings or tattoos (new!! both!!) // summer or winter (both suck) // boots or sneakers // cars or motorcycles // curls or straight hair // castles or cottages // sunny days or storms // reptiles or birds // disney or nickelodeon (am european) // strawberries or watermelon (im using this opportunity to pick the other one yes) // essays or posters // phones or laptops // glass or stone // dark or light // photos or paintings // circuses or theaters // reading or writing // dogs or cats // poetry or novels // monsters or ghosts // thrift shops or libraries // fiction or non-fiction

5. Post one picture from my camera roll (no new downloads) to sum up my personality! u get two bcs they are v good

6. 30 QUESTIONS TAG GAME 

RULES: Answer 30 questions and tag others

Name/Nickname: lucy 

Gender: female 

Star Sign: leo

Height: 170 cm 

Time: 22:04 

Birthday: july 1  IS WHAT I WROTE INITIALLY bcs i cant fucking read and thought it just said “date” lol anyway its 11th of August

Favorite Bands: bts, stray kids :)

Favorite Solo Artists: sunmi, taemin :) and hozier i cant betray him 

Song stuck in my head: la la la la vie en rose

Last Movie: def some horror movie but i forget which lol

Last Show: probably the untamed lmaooo did not even finnish it 

When did I create this blog: december 2013 apparently 

What do I post: kpop babey 

Last thing googled: i gotta fact check lots of shit for work so probs smting sports related (but make no mistake i dont know a single thing abt sports) 

Other blogs: what for i dump everything here

Do I get asks: no

Why I chose my url: self-explanatory

Following: 100

Followers: ???

Average hours of sleep: about 8 hours 

Instruments: none 

What am I wearing: pink pajama shorts with kitties, black shirt torn beyond decent wearability and this dark green... jacket,,, hoodie...thing.

Dream job: village witch 

Dream trip: me @ japan: 

(i was supposed to go study there starting winter 2020 :) im abt to lose my fucking mind :) so yeah you get a dead meme for this) also new zealand, iceland, and going back to sweden sometime

Favorite food: pizza bithc its versatile, also cereal coz im a child

Nationality: czech (rip) 

Favorite song: black swan (bts), levanter (skz), take me to church (hozier), noir (sunmi) (those are from the top of my head current favs theres way more but here u go)

Last book read: MIMOZEMŠŤANÉ V ČECHÁCH (= aliens in czechia) by idk, some married couple thats probs wanted whatever xfiles had but low budget, its pure nonsense, best read of this year, dont regret a single second

 Top three fictional universes I’d like to live in: magnus archives bich i dont give a fuck; middle earth to blaze it with hobbits; i wanna be one of those lil shaky-head-tree-things in mononokehime

[justdyingslowly]

1. Name justdyingslowly obviously come on

2. Nationality Australian

3. Age 22

4. Birthday nnnah dont feel like it

5. Zodiac sign (or your primal zodiac sign) Libra/Scorpio cusp

6. Gender wamon

7. Sexuality very very hetero

8. Your looks (add a picture or describe yourself) androgenous

9. What do you/did you study? Psychology (focus on sexology) and art.

10. What’s your current job like?/What job would you like to have? I am disabled you think I can work ha sexologist would be awesome. When I was a kid I wanted to be a fireman but Australias always burning

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11. Your birth order head first

12. How many siblings do you have? 1

13. Do you have good relations with your family? yeah dads finally out of his abusive relationship, nearing age 70 and his emotions and his sexuality are finally opening up for the first time and that makes me SO happy.

14. How many friends do you have? what kind of fucked up question is this.

15. Your relationship status relationshipped. Fiance? got the marriage papers in a drawer somewhere with the car rego but can’t be fucked filling them?

16. What do you look for in a SO? empathetic, mature, calm. Always open to discussion. Prefers to be blunt rather than secretive. Emotional age over 14 (incredibly fucking rare apparently). Puts an importance on context and understanding other views above all else.

17. Do you have a crush? Hellll yeah Crush on my partner and got a crush on a mutual friend of ours who don’t even know hes cute af hehe one day partners gonna accidentally spill the beans and embarrass me coz hes shit with secrets RIP me.

18. When did you have your first kiss? You think I can remember this bullshit? Its not that big a deal

19. Do you prefer serious and meaningful relationships or casual dating/one night stands? One night stand sex almost exclusively sucks. Just. SUCKS. Because neither of you know what the other likes and it ends up being an awkward mix of trying to please yourself while trying to also be considerate.

20. What are your deal breakers? Plugging your ears to anything that feels gross, uncomfortable or disagrees with you. How can you grow as a person without introspection? How can you mold what you think and believe without taking in other arguments and comparing them to your beliefs to see how they stack up? Its pathetic.

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21. How was your day? cute mutual friend had a fall this morning and were both worried about him. His back is bad and he’s getting a little older, he can’t be getting dizzy and having falls like that. other than that im anxious about seeing my gastro. He’s lovely but... specialists are specialists. Good at knowing what they know but not always great at listening.

22. Favourite food & drink you think im allowed to eat or drink? water and... foods a touchy subject.

23. What position do you sleep in? Usually on my side with a body pillow to grip so I don’t end up choking my partner in his sleep.

24. What was your last dream about? uuhhh...going to italy and being unable to get into this tiny basket boat properly.

25. Your fears does PTSD to medical shit count haha

26. Your dreams ... going to italy and being unable to get into a tiny basket boat thingy?

27. Your goals - get some sort of diagnosis eventually. Its been 3 years of trying and im tired. - get back to studying art part time for my bachelors. - pass JLPT N3. - go back to university for psychology. - do the dishes when I get home.

28. Any pets? two budgies. we also take care of any orphaned or injured birds.

29. What are your hobbies? feeling nauseous drawing writing a little bit im making a little gameboy game in C atm too

30. Any cool places in your area? i live next to a national park with waterfalls and koalas and emus and stuff

31. What was your last awkward situation? mutual friend made a comment on his chest i playfully smacked it (related to the comment) it was surprisingly hard “O-oh wow, thats... I didnt expect that” my partner laughed at me. it was awful.

32. What is your last regret? getting embarrassed at friends pecs stop making me think about it 33. Language/s you can speak english. N4 Japanese.

34. Do you believe in astrological stuff? (Zodiac, tarot, etc.) of course not what the fuck

35. Have any quirks? Quirkless. I do wiggle when im happy though apparently.

36. Your pet peeves open doors.

37. Ideal vacation spend a months chilling in an old japanese house in autumn hokkaido oooooof that sounds nice

38. Any scars? internal? yes

39. What does your last text message say? peepee poopoo ustinky

40. Last 5 things from your search history how do i find this

41. What’s your [device] background? Sam Porter Bridges walkin around Sam Porter Bridges cuddling BB-28 Louise while he sleeps my chicken

42. What do you daydream about? all might

43. Describe your dream home an old japanese house in autumn hokkaido oooooof that sounds nice

44. What’s your religion/Your thought about religion its a comforting thought having a parent-figure who cares about you and looks after all the big things you can’t manage yourself, but institutionalizing it runs a severe risk of becoming harmful cults. And it often does.

45. Your personality type me

46. The most dangerous thing you’ve done i saw the lost bunny that was on all the posters in the neighbourhood looked thin and patchy so i grabbed him to take him home. im allergic. sent me to hospital and I almost died.

47. Are you happy with your current life? feeling sick sucks and partners having a depressive episode but things are pretty good

48. Some things you’ve tried in your life living

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49. What does your wardrobe consist of? blacks, reds, whites and pinks

50. Favourite colour to wear? at the moment pink. Red is always comforting though.

51. How would you describe your style? mix between lazy alternative punk, teenager with band shirts and harajuku peach kawaii uwu

52. Are you happy with your current looks? kinda wish i was a bit shorter but what can you do

53. If you could change/add something to your appearance - impossible or not - what would it be? bit shorter

54. Any tattoos or piercings? lol no PTSD

55. Do you get complimented often? by who? partner constantly, family haha are you kidding im australian so a friend’s version of showing affection is calling you a cunt and slapping your ass in public

56. Favourite aesthetic? all might

57. A popular trend that you dislike blocking because you disagree or find them distasteful. Ignoring all context to opposing thoughts and arguments. taking a personal feeling of disgust to mean something is evil. Blocking your ears to anything that isn’t a circlejerk of what you already think - and trying to isolate anyone who even just listens to something other then the noise of your sloppy dicks to have a thought of their own.

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58. Songs you’re currently obsessed with? The Machine by Low Roar

59. Song you normally wouldn’t admit you like. why wouldnt i admit i like a song

60. Favourite genre? probably enka haha

61. Favourite artist/band/genre? probably enka haha oh and tatsuro yamashita

62. Hated popular songs/artists? why the hell would I hate something like a song? I hate aspects of the music industry as a whole I guess?

63. Put your music on shuffle and list first 5 which playlist they aren’t all together in one place

64. Can you sing or play any instruments? piano, saxophone... uh... partners good at making music and playing shakuhachi

65. Do you like karaoke? no.

66. Own any albums? yes? many?

67. Do you listen to radio? What stations? no. but triple J, ABC Jazz and Classical. sometimes they even play final fantasy and JRPG music on classical which is pretty neat. -

68. Favourite movie/series? can i make this about games because then the answer is Metal Gear Solid

69. Favourite genre of movies/books/etc ...shounen?

70. Your fictional crush/es if they’re over 40yrs old, male and happy and bubbily or grumpy and sad then there’s a big ol fat chance I wanna bone. Solid Snake from MGS4, All Might and pretty much anyone drawn by Tarou Madoromi.

71. Which fictional character is you? uh

72. Are you a shipper? List your otps, if so what does this even mean what language is this

73. Favourite greek god? idk hades seems chill

74. A legend from where you live that you like the story of Tjilbruke is funny and good. all Kaurna stories are good.

75. Do you like art? What’s your favourite work or artist? im in a big egon schiele mood atm.

76. Can you share your other social media? no i am incapable

77. Favourite youtubers? many

78. Favourite platform? not too high up. actually i like being a little lower than ground level in corners.

79. How much time do you spend on the internet? too much

80. What video games have you played? Which one’s your favourite? look i just want to say that MGS4 is the best one in the series and Death Stranding is phenomenally engaging.

81. Your favourite books (manga also counts) these are all so goddamn definitive how can I pick? Oh wait the answer is One Piece

82. Do you play board/card games? I play DnD atm and know 15 yr old rules to Yugioh

83. Have you ever been to a night marathon in cinema? that shit dosn’t happen here

84. Favourite holiday golden week coz its a week also easter because thats when all the glucose based sweets come back

85. Are you into dramas? what kind

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86. Would you use death note, if you had one? no. thats called being a murderer.

87. What changes would you make in the world, no matter how impossible, if you had the power to? chill people out a bit. when people feel unsafe they get really depenfive and territorial and block their ears to everything, making in-and-out groups for themsevles that end up putting them in more harm.

88. Could you survive a zombie apocalypse? im disabled with a disabled partner. we arent funny sure we can survive normal everyday life when society is angled so sharply against us.

89. If you had to be turned into a paranormal being, what would it be? id like to be a mimi spirit

90. What would you want to happen to you after your death? spooky time

91. If you had to change your name, what would be your pick? toshinori yagi

92. Who would you switch your life with for a week? anyone healthy

93. Pick an emoji to be your tattoo that cursed one with the intense eyes and the hand

94. Write 3 things about yourself - only one of them must be true im me im not me im pee

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95. Cold or hot? cold.

96. Be a hero or be a villain? both are distasteful ideas in reality

97. Sing everything you want to say or rhyme? i can’t do either partner speak sin bad puns and its hell, these both sound about equal

98. Shapeshifting or controlling time? shapeshifting. controlling time is eithe rmanipulative or lonely. shapeshifing is every other superpower at once.

99. Be immortal or be immune to everything aside from natural death? both are deeply upsetting ideas

100. ….. or …..? jiji or ossan? generally Jiji, but ossans can be lovely too.

[5-falsehoods-phonated]

Prompts with boxes around them have been taken. Highlighted prompts have been written.

Death of a Bachelor

Summary: Prisoners set in an unfair game, Logan and Remus plan to both come out alive.

Warnings: major character death, blood, violence (If there are others you notice need tagged please let me know)

Prompt: Deadly Game and Doesn't Realize They've Been Injured Combo (Only one is marked off the card as per BTHB rules)

Ships: Intrulogical, Logan x Remus

wc: 2496

AO3 link!

@warcraftedtardis​

Remus was numb as they strapped him into the armor, poorly made with an even poorer fit but with little he could do about it in the situation he was in. He glanced over subtlety so as to not attract the guards attention, the man across from him offering a grim barely there smile.

Make that the situation they were both in.

He winced as he was shoved into line behind the other, taking comfort in the others presence even if they couldn't speak. Up against the wall as they were he waited until no one was looking and reached forward, brushing fingertips with the darker haired man. Logan reached back to grab at him quickly, offering a tight squeeze before letting go. That was all Remus needed. They would get through this. They would win and they’d be alright and taken care of until the next tournament. Guards didn’t care what anyone did in a shared cell as long as it didn’t effect their fighting and Remus was definitely counting on cuddles and stories after this.

An alarm sounded outside and the crowd cheered as another fight began. Idly he wondered what weapons the prisoners had chosen. You were only allowed one, prisoner against prisoner until one died and left one less mouth to feed in the system and left thousands entertained. A mockery of the ancient gladiator tournaments turned to keep jail cells empty and offer a small chance bag freedom. Your crime didn’t matter here. Only your skill. A deadly game set to leave a bloodstain on the tragedy human history was becoming, setting you free with fake honor and a grudge against the barbaracy of society.

The crowd cheered again as a winner was declared, alarm sounding for the next two contestants. The line moved forward as a slashed and bloodied woman stumbled through the door, adding together stains on the floor and glaring at anyone who dared even peek at the state she was in. She was hustled away quickly to be taken care of and thrown back in a cell to heal. Logan tensed in front of him but another brush of hands let him relax slightly. Everything was fine.

A man stood out from the line suddenly, looking the guards straight in the eye before rushing them head on. Remus' ears rang before the bullet wound in the mans head registered and he sucked in a quick breath. The body was left there, cold eyes staring sightless as a challenging warning to anyone else that might think of going the route of stupidity. There was at least one everyday.

"Remus." Logan whimpered quietly.

He turned his head to look at Logan in confusion, the other nodding to the lines order. The mans spot was already filled by another moving up and the guards weren't rearranging them. The pairs were different now.

Remus would now be paired with Logan.

Ice ran through his veins as the line moved forward with every battle. Every alarm sent another wave of unwanted thoughts pounding against his brain. Every winner that stumbled through the door brought another image of a dead Logan or Remus being dragged out another. He couldn't bring himself to speak as they were shoved towards the weapons rack, both choosing simple swords as they gave each other panicked looks through the crowds demanding cheers. Simple refined weapons for a quick painless death. Remus winced at the thought.

The guard waited for them by the door, thankfully not looking as Logan turned to him. "Remus listen to me if we hold out and fight for long enough they might get bored and declare a tie. They've done it before and since we've already proven before that we're decent fighters they may do it again."

The alarm sounded and Remus shot panicked eyes to the guard heading their way. Snapping back to Logan he sucked in as much air as he could to calm his shaking form.

"Do you understand Remus?"

"I-"

"What the hell are you doing? Get over to the door!" The guard laid a hand on his belt, prompting them both to hurry towards the door. Remus gave Logan a determined nod before pushing the door open letting blinding sunlight stream in.

The feild was a little less than the length of the average football field, grass well kept despite its constant carnage. The stands rose up as high as a 10 story building easily, maybe even a bit higher; a huge screen sat on the far end up high enough so that people could see and bet on the prisoners, the smaller screens in front of them allowing them to see as the fight went on with added updates in between. The screen zoomed in on their faces, both white as snow as they stepped carefully forward to the starting positions. Remus gazed at Logan across from him, the shorter man looking smaller and more fragile than Remus had ever seen him. Their swords were gripped tightly in their fists, the shouting and jeering of the crowd fading out until it was just the two of them. Their chests were heaving and faces twisting though they hadn't even started yet, white knuckled and weak knees with apprehension. The grass between them seemed to stretch for miles yet it may as well have only been an inch for all the details Remus could pick out. He saw how Logan’s freckles stood out proudly against his blood drained face. Saw the way his lip quivered and jaw worked as if he had his inner cheek caught in his teeth. Watery brown eyes met his own as he took a sick sort of comfort in knowing Logan was just as terrified as he was.

The alarm sounding snapped him back for only a brief moment, crowd practically roaring as they ran towards each other.

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Remus giggled madly as he ran towards his friend, backpack slipping off his shoulders and falling behind as Logan caught him up in a squirming mess of a hug.

"Hi, Lo!" As he squeezed his favorite person in the world the other groaned in mock annoyance, hugging him back all the same. Logan was in second grade while Remus was in kindergarten which made the hours spent in school especially lonely for the hyperactive younger child. Logan swung Remus around to grab his bookbag and placed their fingers together carefully to walk home, Remus carefully tucked at his side on the inside of the sidewalk as they both babbled on about their days. Remus had gotten a gold star on his latest art project while Logan was at the top of his class in the reading assignments. Their arms swung between them, oblivious of everything else outside of their comfortable bubble.

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Remus' arm swung down and to the side, jumping back to avoid a wide swipe by the others sword. Remus bit his lip as he jabbed at the air a centimeter from Logan's face and winced when it came close to slicing off an ear.

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"It'll be fine I promise." Logan held his hand comfortingly while Remus squirmed in the chair. "You won't even feel it."

The tattoo artist had all the tools laid in front of her, antiseptic at the ready. "You sure this is what you want kid?"

"Yes!" Remus eyes gleamed with nervous excitement as he squeezed Logan's hand, getting an immediate answering squeeze back. His ears were swabbed and he caught Logan's eyes as the needle was pushed through, hardly able to contain his bouncing excitement.

Later as Logan admired the work at a cafe down the street, he laughed a little to himself. "Your parents are going to be so pissed at you."

"I'm 14. What are they gonna do?"

Ground him without phone privileges for a month it turned out. Logan didnt believe him when he said it was worth it, clutching his own ears in horror.

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Alternating between stabbing offensively and slicing defensively they danced around the field in a carefully improvised dance, eyes locked in desperation and worry. Remus' sword arm was already numbing from the constant clashing but he couldn't let his concentration waver. A misplaced backstep nearly sent him to the ground, crouching low to recover his balance before rolling quickly out of the way of a powerful downward strike.

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"Remus!" The front of his shirt was caught as he was yanked forward, Logan tipping backwards and letting him fall on top of him with only a slight groan.

Remus huffed against his chest and propped his chin on his hands, palms flat against the others chest. Logan eyes him carefully, looking for any sign of injury. Finding none he breathed out a sigh of relief and gently whapped him upside the head.

"Idiot." He declared fondly.

"Your idiot." Remus corrected.

"I regret ever meeting you if only because you decided dancing on top of an apartment building was a good idea."

"But you can see the stars up here."

"You aren't even looking at them."

Remus locked eyes with him, smiling softly at the way the moonlight caught Logan's eyes, making them practically glow with the mirth that was already there. "Yes I am."

Logan sputtered and flushed darkly, tightening his hands around Remus' waist. Grinning in victory, Remus snuggled in further into the warm safety.

---

Remus heart skipped a beat as he nearly knocked the sword from Logan's hands, panic flashing in his eyes as he fumbled for a second. Feigning a stumble he let him recover, covering it with a close swipe that was easily covered.

---

Logan stumbled forward in his haste to get into the house, nearly dropping the stack of boxes in the process. He looked up gratefully as Remus braced his hand against the top ones to keep them from falling, nodding gratefully as he recovered.

"So this is it." Dumping his own stack in the living room he looked around at their new home. A nice trailer just big enough for two people in a quiet neighborhood with a park just down the road. Logan stepped beside him and took his hand, squeezing it tightly before bringing it to his lips with a soft smile.

"This is everything." Logan answered quietly, adoration so clear in his tone that Remus could think of nothing better to do than lean forward, capturing his boyfriends lips in the peace of their fresh start.

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They were both tiring, movements slowing down dangerously but still they fought. Eyes locking along with their swords as their feet slid on blood soaked grass and their ears rang with the crowds jeering. Metal found metal again and again as Remus became slightly more aggressive in his delivery, driving Logan back inch by careful inch.

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They were both tired, Logan slumped in Remus' lap as he gently carded through his sweaty locks. A guard slammed into the door but neither flinched. No one cared. No one had the energy to. Silent tears tracked down the shorter mans face as Remus tried to gently bring him back to reality. Logan had done the same with him after his own first kill and he'd be damned if he didn't do the same.

"I killed him." Remus froze as Logan spoke his first words in days, quickly resuming his careful touches.

"No. They killed him. They put you on that field to see if you survived and you did."

"I could have-"

"No you couldn't." Remus cut him off with an accompanying scratch to the scalp. "You go out there and its kill or be killed. You aren't a monster Lo."

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Remus froze as he drew back his blade, the tip slick with blood that ran down its length and stained his fingers. He brought it up quickly as Logan swung down again, switching to careful defense even as shock racked his body.

"Logan-"

Sweat dripped down the others face mixing with the tears that had been falling since the start. Muscles strained and tendons twisted in his valiant attempt to keep moving. Remus saw none of this as his eyes were locked onto the spreading stain on the others shirt, chest plate having done nothing to protect him from the clumsy jab to the abdomen Logan hadnt ducked away from in time.

"Logan!"

Still they fought, legs stumbling and movements becoming clumsier by the minute. The blades flashed in the late morning sun that rose above the stands to shine light on the carnage below. Blocking another blow, he wrenched the sword to the side and knocked Logan’s out of his hands. Dropping his own Remus reached out desperately.

"Logan." He choked on a sob as the other finally stopped moving, grimacing as he looked down and brought a hand to his stomach.

"Oh."

Remus didn't care about the crowd yelling. He didn't care whether or not the guards would be coming. He didn't care what the moderators caught on their stupid screens. Logan was in his arms and on his lap and bleeding and reaching for him and crying in sobs that caught painfully as his breath hitched in desperate gasps.

Remus caught the grasping fingers tightly in his own and held on for all he was worth, his sole focus on Logan’s eyes and Logan touch and trying to stop Logan from bleeding out and Logan Logan Logan

"I didn't mean to, oh god no please." Remus words bordered on hysterical wails as he brought the rapidly cooling fingers to his cheek. "I'm so sorry I'm so so sorry Logan you can't-"

"I love you." His breath caught as Logan focused on him for only a second before his eyes began glazing over. "I love you so much, Remus."

"Logan." Clutching at him tighter he began rocking slightly, pressing down insistently on the wound even as he felt the blood rush out regardless. The hand against his cheek relaxed as Logan's entire body went limp, eyes void of the stars he loved so dearly. "Logan? No no no no no Logan please!"

He clutched at the body even as he was jerked away, screaming at the top of his lungs as Logan was ripped away from him. Grass and dirt slipped from his blood soaked hands as he tried to claw his way back, the other being dragged by his leg in the opposite direction. To be declared dead and disposed of. To clear the field for the next game. To tick one more number off their list.

No one spared him a second glance as he was dragged past the line and down the halls. Thrown into his cell where stars were scratched carefully on the ceiling and only one bed was ever used. His wails echoed unnaturally in the emptier space, cold unforgiving walls slamming his sorrow back into him tenfold and he curled into himself and wept.

Blood stained his hands hours after it cooled, the only thing he had left of the man he had loved.

[budugaapologist]

when you are reading this rant take full offense its 2am here and im mad as hell

fair warning this post is long as fuck and has several arguments pertaining to specific peeves i need to rant about before i go crazy. if you're not interested just keep scrolling it's not hard it's literally the core of social media navigation

you know what? ima say it.

black flag is the best ac game and deserves more recognition than just pirate drinking jokes because:

nearly every named character (sorry burgess and cockram) has development and personalities. cant say that for that many others in other games.

not too much fucking shit to do in it (unlike uhhhhhhhh every fucking other game in the franchise. stop it. i dont need 500 treasure chests in arno's game he already has an excellent revenue with the cafe. i dont need a ton of side quests. i dont need 30+ chests per london burough. i dont need a million question marks on my map. i dont need all of egypt or greece to be littered with shit to do. fuck this.).

unlocking shit is so much easier. edward knows where every treasure chest is and doesnt pay for treasure maps. and literally unlocking shit is so much easier.

base is slept on. its fucking cool. its fucking fun. its fucking useful as shit. its fucking pretty as all hell. fuck you.

good story, fun story, great dlc, relatable story (unless youre some bootlicking cowardly rich cunt) emotional story but not depressing (unity im looking at your ending. origins stop killing children.), satisfying end.

i can do the combat with one hand. you know what that means? i can eat and drink without pausing. i can reply to text messages without pausing. i can pet my dogs and cats while playing.

main character actually has changed by the end of the game a vast amount. motherfucker, edward changed more in his antó mission than ezio did in his trilogy.

if you dont complete all objectives you still have a passing score on the mission. do you know what its like to be raised to only get good grades on stuff and see yourself getting a 60% on a thing thats supposed to be a pass time just because you forgot something.

the naval combat isnt hard you just need practice. also i know the hunter ship sucks in the first mission you encounter but literally drop your sails but hold the wheel. once its in view let go. swim to it. take out the crew. swim back. bada bing bada boom go oneshot the crew. incredible, you're safe now.

legendary ship battles are really fucking cool and my mom doesnt yell at me for killing a giant beast for next to nothing.

the sea shanties and tavern songs slap.

farm animal petting simulator. not forced to kill dogs (ac3, odyssey).

obviously its good if the other games are just gonna copy paste it.

ed's tattoos are sick.

edward is literally the first canon bisexual. he literally says so in game. he literally fucking flirts with blackbeard. he literally was a pirate. why the fuck do you think birate is such an accurate pun.

diving outfit.

thicc.

the female characters dont have titties all over the place. even anne's boobs arent that big, which is good considering she is underage. the same cannot be said for many of the women in ezio's games.

guess who has a solid, interesting, and realistic personality. not kassandra or alexios thats for sure.

he is NOT moved by man pain (ezio, connor, bayek) to carry out his missions. he didn't want to be poor, he wanted to be able to provide for his family. he is just carrying out his dream to sail a ship. when he starts being "good", he is doing it out of guilt and shame on his past self (what, self reflection? someone, teach jacob this term), not because "wahh my girlfriend/mom/child/family died :'(", he wanted to make it up to his lost friends by making them proud and doing what they wished he had done. his regrets are in not being a better friend while mary was alive, not seeking out her killers (guards at fort). thatch's death crushed him, but he didn't thrust his anger on seeking revenge. and the characters that did die? they had personalities and development and were interesting and memorable. i cant tell you shit about cristina.

he is very respecting of women, especially for a white guy from the 1600s. he, as a teenager (under 17 i believe), attempted to save a woman he did not know and had no intentions of wooing (hey um ezio? you literally only were able to save cristina from being raped because you stalked her because you thought she was attractive. like thanks for saving her but uhh am i the only one that finds that creepy?) even though the odds of winning against three older men were stacked against him and he knew they could (and almost did) beat him to death. fuck if caroline wasnt there he would've been killed.

the modern day stuff is an excellent way to separate intense scenes and the little mini hacking games are fun puzzles. oh boohoo desmond isn't there? yes he was, half the things you hack literally give you desmond content.

rebecca's outfit fucking slaps.

from experience, its fun to play even if you dont know shit about the other ac games. pirates are cool and the story is easy to follow, just be prepared to find some of the other endings big letdowns or lots of the other games' missions boring.

is that fanservice that goes both ways but doesnt oversexualize any gender? why yes, it is!

stop reducing black flag to alcoholism jokes like yall constantly fucking do, it has so many other talking points and if you wanna make fun of something maybe choose something that isnt addiction. literally i make fun of edward constantly without pointing out his alcoholism it isnt that hard. if you're gonna make fun of edward for drinking rum when water in the 1700s often wasnt safe and making fun of him when he was depressed (he has multiple other intended self harming behaviors shown in game so no, he wasnt just drinking because its fun), why don't i see the same "wHy is aLL tHe WiNE gONe?" posts for arno? he was an alcoholic too. in fact arno and edward have a lot of the same forms of depression but oh, arno's a more serious character personality wise and isn't a pirate so his grieving isn't as funny.

and like, there are plenty of other things to make fun of with edward that might not make light of alcoholism because no, edward's drinking in the main story was not written to be a joke. here, a list of things i regularly make fun of him for:

this highwaisted man's got feminine hips

there is no reason for him to be that thicc

his bangs are a mess

his hair???? glows???? okay rapunzel.

his tatts that are just lines

actually you know what his tatts in general what do they mean ubisoft what even language are the words on his body in

how this whore opens the bottled messages on the beach. "ah yes, let me put this mysterious item in my mouth. i have no idea where its been. i could very well open it to read a note that says "i pissed on this""

"woman i just met... must respect her.. man i just met... im either going to give you a death threat, tease you, or flirt... sometimes multiple choices will be done......"

i mean he had the full right to be a bastard to walpole on the beach since he did try to be friendly but walpole was being to bitchy and needy. and like them being stranded wasnt edward's fault but walpole was still gonna make him build a ship and there is no reason for edward to trust walpole since after they get to havana he can easily just be like "thats a pirate, hang him." but like. the way he just immediately decides to steal his identity. legend.

why does he just blindly follow older men's orders like that

he trims his beard to a very odd location. i know it isn't a flattering pose but like. look at the underside of his jaw.

"how many references to dog behavior can we put in one character"

phobia of sleeping in a bed

"you saved my life i am eternally grateful."

edward are you seriously arguing with your eight year old daughter about the difference between a boat and a ship

where are your tanlines

how did he not die of skin cancer first

edward probably doesnt have any body hair because ubisoft didnt want his legs to glow in the dark too

look at his marooned outfit. bitch what the fuck is on your shirt. and where are your hair ties.

his dramatic beauty guru smokey eyes

he held that sword by the blade in the single madman quest. wh

anyway, the long run of this is, if you're gonna reblog an edward post from me specifically to make fun of an overused joke, go fuck yourself.

[leelee10898]

Back to you: Chapter 8 Rock bottom

Disclaimer: All characters belong to PixelBerry except those unique to the story. Rating: Mature for language Summary: Tension is getting thick between Aria and Liam, with Madeline tightening the Liams Leash. A night out with two friends makes her see one of them in a different light. (this is a LONG one, I thought about breaking it down into 2 parts buttttt...I didnt wanna ;) ) Tag list: @scarlettedragon @annekebbphotography @speedyoperarascalparty @mind-reader1 @bobasheebaby @hopefulmoonobject @greyeyedsmile14 @indiacater @stopforamoment @xxrainbowprincessxx @lizeboredom @indiacater

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Song inspiration: If you have never listened to this song you  really should.

Aria had never been a fan or trains so when they learned they would be on one for weeks during this sham engagement tour she knew she would need to spend most of it drunk. At least the parts she could be anyway. Thank God for court parties, there was always some kind of booze available. She was thankful they had hotel accommodations tonight though.

Things had been going well with Liam, but as the days went on his schedule became more and more full. Aria didn’t see him except for glances at social events. Madeline was also turning up the PDA as well. “Lets go Aria we were supposed to be there 10 minutes ago.” Leo groaned waiting for Aria to change into yet another dress. They had dinner with an Italian statesmen who was one of Liams mothers friends. Leo was filling in for the Beaumonts since they were out trying to track Tariq down. “Ok how about this one?” Aria steps out of the bathroom.  Leos eyes light up, she looked stunning in a red sequin gown that hugged her body, the back cut so low you could almost see the tattoo she had on the small of her back. Leo stuttered, he couldn’t form words to save his life. Aria laughs “I’ll take that as it’s a winner.” Leo nods his head  “yes, now can we go I’m starving.” His words came back. 

When they walked into the dinner all eyes were on them. Liam’s mouth dropped open, Aria caught him out if her corner of her eye she stiffened back a laugh. She loved when she could pull him out of that stoic demeanor. Fire courses through Madeline veins. It wasn’t bad enough Liam was constantly drooling over Aria, making her look incredibly stupid. But now she saunters in on Leo’s arm?  Aria and Leo take their seats. They are close enough to the head table to have a clear view of Madeline and Liam.

Madeline plasters on a smile as she holds liams hand. She leans in close whispering in his ear “wipe the drool off your face liam, People are watching." He straightens up in his seat. Something had to be done about her, She couldnt have both Rhys brothers after her. Madeline thought to herself, taking a sip of her wine.

At the end of dinner the guest mingled. Aria found a moment alone on the balcony with Liam. “Will you be joining me tonight? She inquired It had been a week since Liam spent the night with her.  "Aria I wish I could but Madeline roped us into drinks with the statesmen, I won’t be able to get away.” He reaches out to touch her hand. Aria moves her hand and sighs “ this is the third time this week Liam. You know you have been spending an awful lot of your down time with Madeline.” “Me? You show up here on my brothers arm, wearing that.” He motioned up and down to her dress. “Well, at least someone escorted me to dinner. Maxwell and Bertrand are working hard to track down whoever set me up, or do you even care about clearing my name anymore?” Aria seethed “keep it down, we don’t want to draw attention.” Liam insisted. Aria stares at him wide eyed “You are unbelievable liam.” She scoffs “Oh and the dress was supposed to be for YOUR benefit!” she walks away leaving him on the balcony. 

Aria heads over to the bar and hops up on the bar stool next to drake. “Shot of vodka.” She tells the bartender. “Uh oh, that kind of night.” Drake grumbles. She takes her shot and throws it back slamming the glass down on the bar. Drake looks at her for a moment, he can tell she’s having a rough night. “Hey, I was going to go shoot some pool, there’s a bar the outside of town if you want to join me?” He asks trying to hide the longing look he was sure he was giving off. Liam told her she could see other people, the attraction he felt for her was growing stronger. He knew he shouldn’t have these feelings but he did. “That sounds great. Give me 30 minutes and I’ll meet you in the hotel lobby. Aria said hoping off the stool. 

She searches the crowd for Leo to let him know she was going to take off, but he found her first. "There you are, I been looking for you.” Aria says “Me? I was coming to ask if you had any plans tonight beautiful? Leo slides an arm around her playfully "Actually yeah, drake and I are going to a bar to have a drink and shoot some pool. Wanna go? Aria asks twirling her hair with her fingers. She hoped he would say yes, Leo always knew how to get her out of a funk. "I could shoot some pool.” Leo says dropping his arm and taking her hand. As they are leaving the resturant Liam sees them across the room.  His face scarlet with a mixture of anger and jelousey. Of course she’s leaving with Leo, he’s always there to swoop in after i manage to screw up. If I didn’t pick my game up, Leo wouldn’t have to steal her, she would go willingly. He thought to himself. 

After a quick change Aria heads to the hotel loby to meet drake. “Hey Hale, you ready to go?” He asks. “Umm just 1 min… ah there.” She searches the crowd, smiling as she sees Leo. “Hey we ready to go?” Leo approaches. “Oh, I didn’t know you were coming too Rhys.” Drake grumbled. He was not expecting Leo to cut into his alone time with Aria. “Yeah I invited him, hope that’s ok?” Aria said picking at her nails. “Ah yeah I guess.” Drakes voice dripping with annoyance. Leo smirked, he knew what drakes plan was. Aria walks towards the car Drake had waiting. Leo clasps Drake on the shoulder and chuckles “nice try bud, but that ones mine.” Drake gives Leo a stern look before they both get into the car.

They pull up to the bar and Aria gasps. “I don’t believe it. Leo do you remember this place?” She asked Leo nods in agreement “I do. Shall we make the same wager?” He cocks his brow, a sly grin forms “You’re on.” Aria pushes his arm. Drake looks at the two of them confused .

They walk into the bar and grab a booth. Leo gets a few pool sticks and claims a table while drake gets a glass of whiskey, he brings Leo and Aria a beer. “This place hasn’t changed at all.” Aria observes sipping her beer. “How do you know this place?” Drake inquires. “I was here, five years ago. My best friend Ellie and I spent a summer abroad. We started in Italy and ended in France.” Aria tells him. “I actually met leo in italy that summer.” She sips her beer avoiding eye contact. “So thats what you meant, at the Beaumont party about it not being the first time you met.” Drake put two and two together. “We came here a few times.” Aria remembers the first time they came.

“I’m gonna warn you, I’m not that good at pool.” Aria confesses, holding the pool stick in her hand. “That’s ok, I can help you if you want.” Leo says handing her a drink. Aria doesn’t sink one ball. “Well I suck.” Aria chuckles drinking her beer. “ no, your just holding the stick wrong, here let me show you.” Leo slides up behind her, placing his hands on hers. He helps her make a shot. He backs away and takes his last shot. “Looks like I win.” he teases. “Ok, another game but this time lets make a wager.” Aria says a hint of mischief in her eyes. “A kiss. If you lose you have to give me a kiss.” Leo states “and if I win?” Aria inquires “dealers choice.” Leo says a little cocky. “You’re on.” Aria shakes his hand. “You wanna break?” Aria asks while setting the balls up. “Ladies first. ” Leo motions to the table. Aria lines the shot up and Crack! The balls fly across the table, she sinks 2 of them. Leo’s eye go wide as he watches her effortlessly run the table. “I believe I win.. time to pay up.” Aria boasts. “You sneak. You said you weren’t that good.. You failed to mention your a pool shark.” Leo’s mouth hangs open. Aria giggles “What do I have to do?” Leo asks nervously. “I believe you owe me a kiss.” Aria whispers in his ear. Leo grins as he takes her face in his hands. His lips press gently on hers as his tounge slips gently into her mouth. She gives completely in, she feels herself melt away, lightheaded they pull back. Leo flashes her a bright smile and just like that, she was hooked. 

“Ready to play?” Leo asked pulling her out of her thoughts. “Drake can play first game.” Aria nodded to the pool table. She took a moment to look at Leo, she forgot how handsome he looked in a pair of jeans, a t-shirt, and that leather jacket. Flashing that bright big smile made her feel a little weak in the knees. Get a hold of yourself Aria. She thought to herself. She watched them play until drake walks up. “He cheats” Drake grumbled gulping down his whiskey. “Oh stop being a sore loser Walker, here do you want a hug?” Leo teased “I regret everything.” Drake huffed walking away to get another drink. 

“What do you say beautiful you and me?” Leo challenged. “The usual wager?” Her eyes perked. Leo smiled as she jumped down from the bar stool and walked over to the pool table. After a short game Leo lost, like he always did. “Well I guess I better pay up.” Leo saunters over with a sly smile. A lump forms in her throat, she gulps. As He leans in Drake walks over interupting the moment “hey guys I’m about ready to head out,you coming? He informs them. "Yep, let’s go. ” Aria sighs. Saved by drake she thought. It would have been awkward kissing your almost fiances brother, that was also your ex,in front of your former fiances best friend who also had a major crush on you… Yep her life was totally fucked up.

Once they arrived back at the hotel drake went towards his room while Leo and Aria went towards the lounge. “You know I really wasn’t ready to call it a night.” Aria sighed “who says we have to? We can go back to your room and hang out I’ll get us some booze, you distract the bar tender.” Leo grinned heading towards the bar. Aria smiles as she walks in after Leo,  And there they were.  Liam and Madeline looking quite cozy in a booth, alone. He had his arm around her, he was leaned in close. He didn’t even notice her staring at them but Madeline did. And then it happened, he leaned in and kisses her. Madeline gave Aria a side eye look and smirked. Arias blood boiled but she remained calm. Leo comes back “Hey what happened? Luckily the bartender was busy.” He said. “You got the stuff?” She asked, never taking her eyes off Liam. He pulls his jacket to the side revealing the bottle of rum.  Leo follows her gaze and sees Liam and Madeline in the middle of a seemingly passionate kiss.  Aria nods and pulls him by the hand. “Lets go!” As they rush past Liam looks up to see them hurry away.

Once they got to her room She grabbed the bottle of rum and took a swig. Fucking Madeline, who the fuck does she think she is? Aria thought to herself pacing the floor. “You going to share that?” Leo questioned. Aria took another swig and calmed herself down and handed him the bottle. He gives her a concerned look. “I’m fine.” She protest. “you sure? because it looks like your going to wear a hole in the carpet from pacing so much.” Aria stops pacing and walks over to the couch to sit down. 

They drink in silence for a little while before aria breaks it. “So you got married?” Leo choakes completely caught off gaurd. She shouldn’t have asked it, she knew better but curoiusty got the best of her. She wanted to know about the woman who landed Leo Rhys heart. She thought she had, but he told her it was just a fling. She was drunk and did not care. “I got divorced.” He countered her question. “Yes I know, but tell me about her, the woman who finally stole Leo Rhys heart.” Her words dripping with resentment. Leo narrowed his eyes at my her, and licked his lips. He could tell she was jealous, and he was loving every minute of it. “Katie was my wife, it lasted a year.” He tells her taking a swig of the rum.  “I met her when she was on a cruise, I thought she was sweet and funny. Turns out I was just lonely and she reminded me of someone, or so i thought.” He paused looking at her. “She was a whore who continued to see her two other suitors well after we got married. She ended up pregnant by one of them, so I left and filed for divorce.” He let out a breath he had been holding in.

 He did not want to talk about Katie, she was a huge mistake. “Fuck Leo, your just as fucked up as me.” Aria chuckled and pushed his arm. “Yeah I guess I am.” He agreed. “She didn’t steal my heart you know. I gave that away a long time ago. I never got it back.” He looks up at Aria searching her eyes. What does he mean by that? Gave it to who? God those eyes… Aria thought to herself..

I should probably get going, we have to be on the train pretty early.“ Leo broke the tension. "Oh, yeah you’re probably right, we should call it a night.” Aria agrees. she walks Leo over as he opened the door He turns to her. “You know, I do believe I owe you a debt.” He leans in and kisses her lips softly, Aria puts her hands around his neck and deepens the kiss. Their lips part and tongues do a familair dance. She can taste the rum in his kiss. He pulls away and smiles. “Good night beautiful.” Leaning in and giving her one last gentle kiss. “Goodnight super man.” Aria whispers as she shuts the door.

****

Drake went back to his room. Fumimg that Leo crashed his evening with Aria. He tossed and turned in the bed before giving up. He jumped up and put his clothes back on. His feet took him to the bar down stairs. “Whiskey neat.” He tells the bartender.

“Don’t you drink anything other then whiskey?” A familiar voice comes up behind. He turns to find Olivia. “Thought you left court, What are you doing here?” He questions  “Well, I’m here for answers. I want to find out who sent me that threatening letter.” She said sipping her glass of wine. “What are you doing here?”

Drake grumbles “planned a night out hanging with Aria.. but Leo crashed.” “So you were looking to get laid and Leo cock blocked you?” Olivia chucked to herself. Drakes silence was all the answer he needed. Olivia traced the rum of her glass with her finger. “You know we used to help each other out quite often.. perhaps we could help each other again?” Drake looks at Olivia contemplating her offer. He gulps down his whiskey and gets off the bar stool. Olivia jumps down and takes his hand as they head off towards her room.

****

Aria laid in her bed. Thoughts of the night running through her head. Liam turned her down, not once but three times this week.. to spend time with Madeline. And then she caught them kissing. She didn’t get it. If it was supposed to be a sham engagement why did he kiss Madeline? That kiss didnt look fake.  Why did he blow her off? And then there was the kiss with Leo. It left her light headed and weak in the knees. She was over him,wasnt she? It’s been 5 almost 6 years now. When he left he told her it was just a summer fling. She felt the hurt creep back into her body. Maybe she still harbored feelings, she suppressed them down determined to snuff them out and move on.. The irritating thought in the back of her mind what if they dont find tariq. What then? Will Liam marry Madeline? What happens to them? She couldnt be someones mistress, could she?  She didn’t know what was going on in her head or her life anymore, but she did know she was going to have to figure it all out before she let herself get hurt yet again. And she needed to start by getting everything off her chest, starting with Liam. She closed her eyes and drifted off to sleep.

[melycastillodigitallife-blog]

Life story #2 : 2018... Thank you next part 1

Anyways. Let’s go to the point of this.

2018 was the year that I crashed. In the end of 2017, I was dealing with a breakup from an ex that left me in utter tears. Moving along, college was around the corner & I was stressed about it. However, I decided to suck up and deal with it. In late 2017, My ex decided to play with my feelings and I was gullible enough to believe it. Later on, he ghosted me after confessing his feelings that he still loved me and whatsoever. I found out that he was dating this other girl & I was even more heartbroken than I already was. Also in late 2017, College was stressing me the fuck out. I did not like the grades that I was receiving & Every time i tried to improve.. nothing was working. As 2018 came, I was stressed about everything for no reason & my panic attacks eventually started to come back. I haven’t had them since the 10th grade. I would hyper-ventilate & cry nonstop. I remember going to my friend and pouring my feelings to her. 

Because of the stress, I would not sleep nor eat. I started to get these dry patches around my eye that looked like an allergic reaction but doctors said it was not. What was happening to my face, it would come and go but these thoughts would come back. My ex’s new girl eventually trashed talked about me and it made me feel even more bad about myself. I was feeling so bad that I would cry endlessly in the night in my room or i would lock myself in the bathroom.I decided to get a small tattoo to remind myself that everything is going to be alright. 

Throughout the summer, I eventually got suicidal or i should say had suicidal thoughts roaming through my mind. My mother eventually found out and thought it was a good idea to get a job so these thoughts can go away.. why mother. why.

so...i got a job even with those thoughts roaming through my mind

Worst mistake of my life. well, mostly that place. 

While I was dealing with my stress, this job put even more stress on me. Early 2018, I wouldn’t eat & towards the end of 2018, I stressed eat to which i gained a bunch of weight. In this job,I interacted with people who I thought were going to be my friend but in the end, back stabbed me. I was accused of stealing and letting people of the hook with stuff which was not true. The one person who i thought was my friend, said my name for no reason & my boss believed him. It eventually lead me to be fired. This was the lesson that I had to learn. Never be too friendly with your coworkers.

I was entering my second year of college when this happened, it was even more stressful than freshman year. Dealing with a job that did not care whether their employees go to school or not even though they claimed that they support education. weird right? Anyways, I was also dealing with a person that was just toxic to me and I was too scared to back out. We were not dating but we were too friendly. I regret that so much & i am happy that I removed him from my life.

In 2018, i lost my best friend and the connection that we had was gone & i thought to myself “what did i do?” she eventually moved back to her hometown.. without saying a goodbye. I was confused & honestly upset that she didnt acknowledge me about her leaving. but thats another story that i can talk about soon.

So in conclusion of 2018, it was a mess for me. It was an eye opener as well.

I am so glad it is over , thank you next. 

2019 is that year. it is that year to make changes in your life. Those experiences that i faced with, it was a life lesson

[constel-langst-ions]

Cover-Up

*Loosely based on other tattoo fics and amazing tattoos Ive seen (all will be desribed as best as possible)

Warnings: Previous self-harm, scars, tattoos

—

No one really knew why Lance wore long sleeves and jeans all the time, per say. It was normal for him to be seen like that, always with his jacket on. No one questioned it, either. Only Hunk really knew what was below the heavy clothing.

—

They all found out after a particulary hard training session. Allura had called them all into the common room.

“Paladins! I have exciting news!” She announced, her voice unusually chipper, losing her usual loud and demanding tone. Everyone listened, eager to know the news.

“Me ane Coran have organized a day off. We wanted to congratulate you all on your improvent over these last few months!” She finished, holding out the last note. Her hands were clasped together, and she wore a large grin, the kind that made you start smiling with whoever wore it.

All the paladins wooped, chattering away about their plans for the next day. The only one who wad quiet, was Lance. He simply gave a small smile, adding a brief comment if a fellow paladin shot a tease or idea his way. If someone hadn’t been involved in the conversation, they could’ve guessed that he didn’t look forward to it.

They all turned to go to their respective rooms, before Allura sharply inhaled. They turned to her, eyes wide in surprise. “Sorry, paladins! It seems I have forgotten to add that the planet we’ll be stopping on has one of these ‘beaches’,” She air quoted, “that you all seem to love will be there. It is a peaceful planet, not dominated by any species, so do not feel the need to bring your bayards.” She rushed out the last sentence, having said it all on one breath.

“Now, shoo! We will be arriving in a few of your Earth hours.” Her face twisted with confusion at the term, and the paladins left her, laughing with glee.

—

“Woo-hoo!” Lance cheered, collapsing onto one of the couches. “This is gonna be awesome!” He smiled, positive energy radiating off of his form.

Pidge waved her hands at him, making a mock face of disgust. “Gross, get your happiness away from me.” She sat beside him, fiddling with her collar.

“'Dawh, Pidgeon, why so down? Afraid of the Lochness Monster?” He sprang at her to emphasize his own teasing.

“No, she’s probably afraid of sunburns.” Keith, having flopped onto the couch opposite to them, piped up. “I dont know about ypu, but I’m defintly going to burn.”

Hunk and Shiro finally sat down, hunk letting out a little noise of amusement.

“Me and Lance will probably tan, if there’s even a sun. I mean, I hope there is. What’s a beach day without the sun?”

“Don’t worry, guys, we’ll bring sunblock. Maybe snacks.” Shiro said, a smile tugging at his lips.

As if they had planned it, all the paladins shouted, in unison, “You’re such a dad, Shiro.” They all crumbled into giggles at that, Shiro affectionately rolling his eyes.

“Alright team, lets get ready for tomorrow and make it a fun day. No stress, no fights, and no computers.” His eyes landed on Pidge.

The girl squawked in astonishment, the rest of the paladins laughing and giggling as the stood and walked out, leaving a mildlu annoyed Pidge to deal with Shiro.

—

The minute Lance arrived in his room, he threw off his jacket and practically ripped off his shirts, kicking ogf his pants as fast as he possibly could. He sat down o his bed, wearing only boxer briefs.

He looked down at himself, and at the splashes of color on his arms, legs, and chest. And, beneath those, the white lines that littered his body.

“Oh god, how will they react?” He moaned, hugging himself.

His tattoos didnt help much to cover the scars; they were still clear as day. They started at his ankles and went up to his hips. His arms were worse. From his wrist bone to his elbow, there were scars. Thin and white, always mocking him for how scared he had been.

He couldn’t get a body suit; it’d be suspicious, and he would definitely be asked about it.

Feeling his stomach start to feel empty with anxiety, he started thinking about his tattoos, looking to get his mind off of the worryting thoughts that plaged his mind.

His first tattoo that he had ever gotten had been a warercolor wave on the inside of his left arm. It was long, stretching from his wrist to his elbos, effectively covering most of the scars. It was beautiful, different shades of blue making it look real, completed with white tips to represent ocean foam.

His second one was on the inside of his right arm. It was the solar system, each planet beautiful decorated in a different, vibrant color. Each had a splash of watercolor around it, as if someone dropped paint on it. It was probably his favourite one.

After the solar system, he got a tattoo on the middle of his chest, going from his belly button to right below his collarbone. It was a ribcage, plus a spine, and instead of limbs, it had flowers growing from it. The top faded to a rose, a petal ending before his collarbone. It was plain, simple black and gray, but it had taken the longest out of the others, and was the most painful.

Finally, the one that meant most to him: wings. He had a tattoo of wings on his back, them being large and so delicately tattooed, with attention to detail, that they almost looked real. The feathers were a vibrant blue, the same as Lance’s eyes.

From there, he got countless tiny tattoos that litteref his body. On his collarbone, he got the planets in order. On his other collarbone, he got a quote, saying 'I refuse to sink’ with an anchor beside it. He helf that quote dear to his heart.

He would never forget the story behind each tattoo, and how much they meant to him.

—

Without realizing, Lance had fallen asleep. He woke up to the sound of Allura’s booming voice over the comms, announcing their arrival to the planet, named Deshion.

He inwardly groaned, pulling on his pair of blue swintrunks before he threw on his normal outfit. Afterall, it was still a short trek to the area they would be staying.

He stepped out of the room, nearly running into Hunk as he did so.

He took a step back as Hunk nearly jumped out of his skin.

“Woah, sorry bud! I was about to come wake you.” Hunk grinned, searching Lance’s face for any sign of negativity.

“Nah, Im okay.” Lance looked Hunk up and down, silently congratulating the yellow paladin for his choice in wear. He was wearing yellow swimtrunks, with white, flowery prints on them. He was also shirtless, much to Lance’s surprise.

“Are.. you dressed..?” Hunk asked, looking at Lance with confusion.

“Hmm? Oh, yeah!” He snapped back to attention. “Yeah, yeah. I have my shorts on beneath.”

“Cool! Well, everyone’s waiting on the bridge for you, so whenever you’re ready, meet us there so we can go. The castle already landed.” And with that, he sped off.

Lance huffed and shoved his hands in his pockets making his way to the bridge. He was slow, and his face had lost the usual lively expression. He was not looking forward to this.

—

Lance regretted wearing his full outfit to the bridge. When he arrived, everyone was already wearing their full bathing outfits, Pidge even wearing a bathing suit (a.k.a, Lance mused, green shorts with a black tanktop.) He felt out of place, and ignored the team’s concerned glances.

“Are we gonna go, or what?” Lance grinned and fingergunned, even adding in a wink for extra reassurance. Collectively, they groaned, and all started walking into the escape pod. (the pod thing that leaves the castle? Idk man)

—

As soon as they got down, they saw Allura and Coran setting up towels and umbrellas. To Lance’s surprise, there was even a picnic basket in the middle.

But what really caught Lance’s attention was the crystal clear, blue waters. He almost burst into tears at the sight, but stopped himself. It had been so long since he had last seen an ocean, and he longed to play in the water, while splashing his teammates, and collecting shells. He wanted to bask in the sun and do chickenfight, and lose, just to let Pidge have the triumph of beating him

But a voice in his head nagged him. No, it said, you cant. They’ll see the scars. Judge you. Leave you. Give you pity. If not that, they’ll judge those tattoos.

He shuddered at the thought. All of those choices were terribls. But hey, if he was being judged for either of those things, it wasn’t new. People who saw the cuts left him, mainly friends. Or complete strangers saw them, and called him a freak.

The tattoos were worse. He was always called out for them, usually by middle-aged people, calling him rebellious and other nasty slurs. It sucked, so he resorted to wearing jeans and a jacket, even in the dead heat of summer.

And, he thought, even now, on the beach. He sat down on one of the towels, having promised to join the other paladins later. He watched as they splashed and played and ran. Watched as they did all the things he wanted to do with them, oh so badly. It tugged at his heartstrings to know that he lied, he wouldn’t join them. He couldn’t.

He couldn’t risk them leaving him, too.

—

Pidge sat on Hunk’s shoulders letting out a battlecry as she went to knock Keith off of Shiro’s shoulders. Much to her happiness, she had caught him off guard. He flailed, before falling backwards, ultimately taking Shiro down with him.

She jumped off of Hunk’s shoulders, ignoring how Keith stuck his tongue out at her. She turned to where Lance was sitting.

Why hasn’t he joined us yet? She thought to herself, narrowing her amber eyes on his still form. He was just sitting there, absently making shapes in the sand. He hadn’t even changed into his swimtrunks, for God’s sake!

Pidge knew she should’ve been somewhat suspicious, but this was Lance. He was a good actor, and Pidge knew it.

“Lance!” She called, waving her arms at him, “You said you’d join us!”

That seemed to grab his attention, as his head snapped up to look at her.

“Uh..” He looked like a deer in the headlights, and she would’ve laughed if it wasnt for him wincing.

—

“I cant..?” Lance cringed at his own excuse. It was terrible, he knew, and by Pidge’s expression, she knew too.

“Uh, yes you can.” She retorted, crossing her arms in annoyance.

“Lance, you promised.” She said, giving him puppy eyes.

Oh god.

He can’t resist that looks, and Pidge fully knows it.

Reluctantly, he stands. Well, its now or never. He thought to himself, standing up and tugging his jacket off.

—

Pidge watched as he stood and took off his jacket. Then his shirt. And that’s when she saw the tattoos.

She inhaled sharply, the other paladins following her gaze. Their jaws dropped.

Lance, with his perfect skin that he cared so much about, had tattoos.

All of them were floored. Each tattoo was detailed, absent of any mishaps. It was obvious that each had had much time and effort into them. Congrats to that tattoo artist, Pidge thought, they’re good at their job.

—

Lance slowly shed his clothing, dreading the moment when he would be close enough for them to make out the scars. He took off his pants next, pulling his swimtrunks higher up onto his hips. And he walked, inner arms pressed against himself as he folded his arms, attempting to hide the most visible scars.

—

Pidge felt her heart sink when Lance was close enough to them. Now she could see the tattoos, but she could also see the scars underneath them. Reallt, it was obvious. It was also clear that the tattoos were meant to hide them. It didn’t work. They could all see it.

But, she could also see Lance try to hide it. He had his head down and arms crossed. Yet, they all knew. And Pidge had just forced him out of his comfort zone, just because she wanted him to be there.

“Lance..?” She questioned, her voice quiet. She could hear the teams suprised gasps, and the noises the made after them, disheartened.

“Pidge.” He looked up, shooting her a cocky grin. But it was forced. His smile dropped, and he shifted uncomfortable.

“Look,” he started, uncomfortable, “I’m sorry. It happened in my past. I got these tattoos to cover them. Yadda yadda, big ol’ sob story.”

No one said anything, just standing as the waves lapped at their legs.

“If it makes you guys uncomfortable, Ill go find a swimshirt.”

That snagged Pidge’s attention. “Uncomfortable?” She spoke, utter disbelief in her words. “You think we’re uncomfortable?” She almost cried at that.

“Lance, we’re sad that you would ever do this, but we’re not uncomfortable. It makes me proud that, even though you have scars, that you’re willing to show them anyways. Not everyone is like that.

Lance seemed shocked at her words. Still, no one moved.

Then Lance shot forward, engulfing her into a hug. She let out a cry of protest.

"I’m so sorry Pidge! You didn’t deserve to see that. But.. just…” He stammered, reluctant, the rest of the team joining in on the group hug. Cooing softly, whispering reassurances and praise.

“It means a lot to hear you say that, Pidgeon.”

[motherofkittens94]

tagged by @whiteladyofrohann 

Answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people.

Last;

1. Drink: tea 2. Phone call: My dad  3. Text message: im on the train now -  

4. Song you listened to: arsonists lullaby hozier 

5. Time you cried: like proper cried? not like just a tear or two ? i think a few weeks a go when i thought too much about andrew ...dont judge me * runs away* 

6. Dated someone twice?:  like dated broken up and then dated again? no  or gone on more than one date with the same person? ...also no  ive had a few disastrous  first dates but never made it the second one lol 

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: No 8. Been cheated on: No 9. Lost someone special: Yes 10. Been depressed: apparently i am now oh well cest la vie  11. Gotten drunk and thrown up:  drunk yes with ive never been sick from alcohol 

Fave colours;

12. pink 13. Blue 14.  purple

In the last year have you…

15. Made new friends: Yes

16. Fallen out of love: with academia  yea  17. Laughed until you cried: Yes,  18. Found out someone was talking about you: yes 19. Met someone who changed you: Yes 20. Found out who your friends are: Yes 21. Kissed someone on your facebook friends list: no 

General;

22. How many of your facebook friends do you know irl: almost all of them  23. Do you have any pets: i had a kitty who loved dearly but sadly he passed in October 

24. Do you want to change your name: No  25. What did you do for your last birthday: got real drunk in the student pub innit 

26. What time did you wake up today:  honestly ?*deep sigh* noon *horn of shame* and i had to be in work at 1 so i had to throw clothes on and grab a brunch and run for it thank god they didnt put me on morning  27. What were you doing at midnight last night: thinking about going bed but for some reason i didnt even though i wasnt really doing anything else 

28. What is something you cant wait for: im going to dodie live again i love her  30. What are you listening to right now: footloose  31. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: oh  i know many many toms 

32. Something that’s getting on your nerves: short people jokes and jokes in general about my disabilities .. which btw my height is a part of.. it just isnt funny... unless i make them hah ...but then thats a  much  different thing to laugh at yourself than to have other people do it  and sometimes its not even a joke its someone blatantly mocking the way you walk / run  in your view than laughing when they see you noticed and just that sucks ? like couldnt you at least wait for me to go first or laugh when you need help to reach things off shelves and stuff  and the fact that sometimes you gotta make those jokes yourself just so no one else can soz tmi but god that hacks me off 

33. Most visited website: Youtube? 34. Hair colour: Blonde 35. Long or short hair: my hair? short  its just below my jaw atm  36. Do you have a crush on someone: only actors 

37. What do you like about yourself:  determination kindness  and i have a good memory 

38. Want any piercings?: No 39. Blood type:  idk it  40. Nicknames: beth  bethie  41. Relationship status: Single 42. Zodiac: Sagittarius  43. Pronouns: She/her 44. Fave tv shows: Game of Thrones, braodchurch penny dreadful doctor who and im enjoying the punisher atm also i have an on / off relationship with holby city and casualty and all those hospital dramas tbh 

45. Tattoos: None ...yet... 46. Right or left handed: Right 47. Ever had surgery: yes three on the leg once when i hurt my skull pretty bad  i also broke my arm but  that probably doesnt count cause i dont think i had surgery on it ? i cant quite remember it had three different casts tho  48. Piercings: just standard ears  49. Sport: no thanks lol my bug sis is trying to get into running he like ill make you feel better we can do fun runs together  im like .. nope ... i think find fun run is an oxymoron sis 

50. Vacation: i want to go to Australia or America but will probaly end up just in Devon again  

51. Trainers: standard ones idk 

More general;

52. Eating: pancakes 

53. Drinking: tea  54. I’m about to watch: nothing atm 

55. Waiting for:   right now ? nothing really bed i guess? 56. Want: to go shopping 

57. Get married: id like to  someday 

58. Career: i have even less idea about that  now then i used to idk a writer i could do that maybe 

Which is better;

59. Hugs or kisses: hugs 

60. Lips or eye: Eyes 61. Shorter or taller:  Taller nobody is shorter than me -

62. Older or younger:  than me? hmm maybe older but not too much older or the same age would be better 

63. Nice arms or stomach: arms  64. Hookup or relationship: Relationship 65. Troublemaker or hesitant: Troublemaker

Have you ever;

66. Kissed a stranger: no

67. Drank hard liquor: yes  68. Lost glasses: yes

69. Turned someone down: Yes 70. Sex on first date: No 71. Broken someones heart: i dont think so  im 90 % sure people i turned down did it for jokes i mean  know for sure one was a joke the others probably were too assholes 72. Had your heart broken: Yes 73. Been arrested: No 74. Cried when someone died: Yes 75. Fallen for a friend: yes 

Do you believe in;

76. Yourself: im trying to

77. Miracles: yes 

78. Love at first sight: depends

79. Santa claus:  i used to haha  80. Kiss on a first date: i havent so far but my dates up to now have all been sucky so if i had a really nice one  maybe

81. Angels: yes 

Other;

82. Best friend’s name: V 83. Eye colour: green 84. Fave movie: the aristocats 27 dresses 10 things i hate about you   85. Fave actor: alfie allen iwan rheon david tennant 

tagging @randomlut @gennalannisters @themanwithakeyisking @maddie-grove  @s0mewhereweaknessis0urstrength @anotherrandompersonsblog 

if you want to :) 

[deuce-duce]

CROOKS

Today is Mike Pinto day! It explains so much in such a short song that I really dont need to say anything else! Other then one side shoving something down your throat saying you have to eat this! And the other allowing you to eat what you want. That being said the Bible states you will know my children by their fruits... while one side defaces property and projects their truth destroying the community the other does things that truly promote growth and change.

Is my mind geared differently...? I'd say, but does that make me wrong... idk I'm just anonymously prijecting my truth. With so much effort money and power pushing one direction and agenda leading you away from spirituality and righteousness you kind of have to think why... if something isn't real then why put so much effort into making others believe that it isn't real? It would be like me saying "look there's an apple..." and them saying "no its not its a peach!" were all just animals living a biological experience, right?! Thats true but animals aren't conscious beings with logic reason morals and beliefs and the ability to decide. Animals are instinctive and only know 1 way 1 set of skills. Do you think i could teach algebra to a lion?? Asking for a friend!! The whole biolohical approach is qhat I believe to be the easy way to go! Perfect excuse to justify doing anything and everything i want wheter it's right or wrong... I think i may have mentioned my platform only a couple handfuls of times but has grown exponentially. Thats what is foretold about planting a righteous seed.

Im just me and always have been! I let myself get swept up in the chaos that was being shoved down my throat but have come to the realization that what you 👀 is usually not real! Or a way to lure you down a road you might regret later. Same goes for the things that you hear! Its all about what you feel! Life is a feeling process! Thats how we connect to the holy spirit and gives our lives true meaning.

Now my belief or theory about why sex and other worldly pleasures are becoming more and more popular to younger and younger crowds, and promoted to the masses is because by fulfilling your human desires you slow down the development of you emotional growth. Not to mention that some emotions are fopaw or frowned upon to even experience in todays society. A man shouldn't cry so on and so fourth... i love crying and it usually happens not when I'm angry or sad about my life... but when I see something truly inspirational or moving, or see someone going through something truly saddening. By inhibiting emotional growth it leaves us relying on our minds to decipher good and bad and the unfortunate part about that is our minds are easily tricked or manipulated.

I believe the reason my thought process is so different is because of what I have experienced through fudemental growth and development periods in my life. Does that make me wrong dumb or stupid not by any means. A message from my big bro said hey man don't be shame for who you are or your sexuality... its probably because of all the opiates and drugs you did during puberty that have made you think the way you do... and have changed you. These are Kind of lies he projects and believe me they sound good until you actually look at someone who really has done drugs their whole life... because in reality i spent the majority of my childhood either locked up or going through what I have explained to you. Barely smoking weed or drinking. I didnt start using drugs until I was 20. I definitely went hard though, it started with ex then dilaudids then coke and mushrooms didn't do acid until i went to a concert and discovered the Dirty Heads! My twin flame was trying it for the first time as well and she told me she saw my aura an orange is pink color. At this point ill never do another drug other then hallucinogenics they are here to raise our conciousness and open our eyes. Best advice is go with one or two people you trust to a concert or out into nature! AMAZING!! just think about what's being shoved down your throat... you can always hurl it up most just regurgitate it though... Everybodys got choices!

Now something i touched on in a conversation I had the other day was i have been told that all of this happening because im a rat or a snitch and you know by accident I guess was when i was 14. does that deserve a life sentence?? I don't think so... but my clarity of a rat or a snitch is... if you and i go rob a bank together or some type of dirt and I get caught, me giving you up to save myself is what I would consider a snitch or a rat... kind of like 69. but if someone or someones went out of their way to lets say beat up your mother or little brother or... lets say kills someone in your family or even burned your house down... would notifying the authorities be snitching... especially if you didnt know who did it?? Thats for you to decide.

Now unfortunately I have more then 1 reason to say fuck 12 but its crazy to know that where one is supposed to beable to go for help, there is none. So if playing this 🎮 the same way the opposing side does, just with a little more tact and creativity makes things worse for me then so be it! I know I'll lead my life alone and don't want to get anyone involved while this is in full swing. after experiencing the Darkside meerly by happenstance, everything i have ever built or created being taken away from me by unnecessary pressure to chase after women and or contantly be toyed with mentally and physically id have to say my growth game is strong! Now is it growth into what society sees as growth..? I guess not ill probably never beable to chase again sadly enough... it sucks. Just because I accel in certain areas of life doesn't mean I can rise above whats occurred. And what your actually capable of and whats expected of you are very different things. Which is why i have my own set of standards and criteria. unless someone is going to teach me in a way i know im not going to get in trouble or get the shit kicked out of me, which is going to require a lot of communication between thw two parties, then "ill just keep making the same mistakes... hoping that youll understand" (anyone know those lyrics)?

One song that i just listened to that relates to this along with Mr. Pinto, is Revolution by The L81s.

Have a great day everyone!

P.s. just an FYI I know i have left it up to to believe what is you want but if i were lying then why do I face so much adversity... the other thing is if i die because what I've written then I guess you'll know whether or not i was lying im just some religious kook right?! If they haven't figured it out yet... i save my posts as drafts on purpose... why you might ask... idk... just know I do end up realizing who the good people are. It has nothing to do with what color your wearing but something you do or don't do after i walk by...

One song to close with is Money 🌳 Kendrick Lamar

And if your still having trouble figuring out who to believe... ask my brother to see his chest tattoo!! Oh and also you want to see some shit pop off have anyone that likes to show off and brag about tappin this... approach me during the day when I'm not sleeping and I guess we'll find out whats real or not its probably a big group by this point but I've always wanted to die!

[vadre]

honestly me just word vomiting onto a textpost 

tw: sex, trauma, dubcon shit, booze, exes 

fuckin. as far as trauma that i just havent even fuckin touched yet sex is pretty much the only thing still left (i think? ya ever get so good at repressing ur emotions that u cant tell if youre actually ok w shit or not anymore, its goddamn terrifying bc its like walking on eggshells but with my own fucking brain) and like. THAT is what i zeroed in on when ex called 2 weeks ago, n like. distressed is the fuckin understatement of the century so ofc i drank myself into oblivion (and got a tattoo but i was actually planning on doing that anyway but then this shit happened and it went from wanting to get one to Needing It and i got it in a more painful spot which my artist warned me about and i had 2 refrain from sayin morbid shit like “thats ideal actually, my good dude”) BUT yeah uuhh friend and i ended up like. i cant say “accidentally fucking” bc thats not possible but i was fucking. blackout drunk and genuinely dont remember most of what happened (which is so fucking scary the more i think about it hahaha) and i woke up with Regret™ and friend seemed like. perfectly fine but he picked up on my awkwardness soon enough and things pretty immediately got real weird btwn us (which also sucked, bc like. i’d been spending most every weekend w him, we were gettin v close and it was at that point where we knew each other well in terms of “hey u wanna hear about the fucked up shit thats happened in my life??!?” but Not the close u can get w someone only after knowing them for a long ass time, which is. a frustrating place 2 be when u wanna know what the Fucc someone is thinking) but then we talked the whole thing over and basically like. so im a v affectionate drunk in that if im comfy w u i can get touchy and that kind of shit and hes a Fucking Straight Cishet Dude so ofc he was just. “aah ok so theyre coming onto me” (which is So Fucking Funny bc i dont “””come onto””” people to start but also like,, he was/is so firmly placed in strictly no-fucking friendship area its wild and i kinda wanna tell him this but ik i shouldnt) and then the shit ensued but from my perspective for like. the nearly 2 weeks we just Didnt Talk About It he just randomly decided to kiss me and my drunk reasoning is pretty much perpetually “oh ok this is happening then” and things ujst kinda,, kept happening even after i puked in his fuckin room which i did/do feel terrible about but then. the part that will never stop bothering me is that he fuckin. didnt stop afterwards? and i. it was way way way too close to like. w shitty ex the dynamic as far as sex went was essentially “i mean, i dont have an option in that i dont want any trouble, its just easier to do this and fucking get it over with” (actually that was pretty much our entire dynamic) and like. idk the feeling of not having an option (i remember verbally consenting, but that being said i also dont remember anything else so like. i was not in a good headspace and wouldve agreed to anything if im being honest with myself) struck way too close to home esp in that like. the thing that fucking drove me to blackout drinking (ive never rly done that before lmao) was my shitty fucking ex calling and forcing me to recall all the shitty fucking things she did, especially regarding fucking, and i dont wanna call it a repeat situation at all bc they truly are different scenarios but there really isnt a worse time where i couldve had fucking dubcon sex and like. the reaction friend had when i basically told him “hey so uuhhh i dont remember shit, i was not coming onto you, you fucking kept going after i puked” was him profusely apologizing and being generally self deprecating (honestly like. everything that happened is easily forgivable, but again the puking thing was kind of an indicator that i wasnt in any state to be consenting, which his drunk ass evidently didnt understand) but im still uncomfortable w the entire thing even if it is like. resolved? i guess? and he thinks things are perfectly fine back to normal which is honestly kinda even more frightening? like he doesnt know what to do, frankly i dont know what i want him to do, but i just hate that he was becoming a close friend and then. this. this is also a more immediate issue so i have yet another excuse to put off dealing w traumatic experiences relating to ex :)))

but yeah im screaming     

[thepastelhobbit]

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you write a note with 92 Truths about you. At the end, choose 10-25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

WHAT WAS YOUR: Last Beverage: mountain dew  Last phone call: my older brother i think?? if not then my mom? Las text: to my sibling saying "WHY” with a picture of people talking about how they wanna fuck pennywise *rip* Last song you listened to: Kiss Me- New Found Glory  Last time you cried: day before yesterday HAVE YOU EVER:  Dated someone twice: never dated anyone  Been cheated on: nope Kissed someone and regretted it: never have kissed anyone Lost someone special: yes  Been depressed: currently  Been drunk and threw up: no List 4 favorite colors: blue, black, pink, and green

LAST YEAR, HAVE YOU:  Made a new friend: i think so?? o: Fallen out of love: not in a relationship Laughed until you cried: yes  Met someone who changed you: this year? Maybe? Found out who your true friends are: idk?? I guess  Found out someone was talking about you: im not sure lol

GENERAL:   How many internet friends do you know in real life: none  Do you have any pets: 4 cats~ :D Do you want to change your name: nah What did you do for your last birthday: Not much, just went out to eat What time did you wake up today: 1:40pm had to get up earlier then id like cause i went to the movies  What were you doing at midnight last night: i think just tumblr? idr Name something you CANNOT wait for: idk Last time you saw your Mother: a few hours ago What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: so much my gosh lol, but i guess not being so depressed and anxious would solve a lot of my problems in this life  What are you listening to right now: listening to peoples reviews on “IT”  Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: maybe? What's getting on your nerves right now: a few things Most visited webpage: tumblr i think Zodiac sign: Virgo He or She: They lol Elementary: First Assembly up till 3rd grade Then Howardsville High School: Howardsville College:  Nooo nope not for me lol Hair color: Black, but i want to dye it again... tho idk how much of my hair i’ll do cause bleaching it sucks lol, and id what color i’ll do Long or short: im assuming its still talking about hair? lol so, short  Height: like about 5′1″ to 5′2″ ish Do you have a crush on someone:  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Piercings: none anymore Tattoos: Nope, i wish lol but im to weak lol  Righty or lefty: Righty

FIRSTS: First surgery: My wisdom teeth if that counts, also the only one First piercing: my ears but they closed up forever ago cause i never wore them lol First best friend: just my neighbor... who is irrelevant now lol, she moved when we were still really young ((like idr how old but maybe around age 8-10)) i havent talked to her since we we’re like 13/14, i had her on FB and i  saw that she voted for t rump so im glad we didnt stay in touch cause yikes lol  First sport you joined: lol good one  First vacation: Florida 

RIGHT NOW:  Eating: nothing Drinking: nothing  I’m about to: finish this, maybe draw after idk maybe go to bed since i only got like 3hrs of sleep cause im a mess Waiting for: idk  YOUR FUTURE: Want kids: not really Get Married: Yee   Career:  idk :/

WHICH IS BETTER: Lips or eyes: eyes  Hugs or Kisses: hugs but both sound nice  Shorter or Taller: i like taller, but it doesnt matter much really Older or younger: older  Romantic or Spontaneous: both Nice stomach or nice arms:  idk??? doesnt matter lol Sensitive or Loud: sensitive  Hook-up or relationship: relationship Trouble maker or hesitant: bit of both 

HAVE YOU EVER:  Kissed a stranger: no  Drank hard liquor: nope Lost glasses/contacts: yes glasses  Sex on the first date: no  Broken someone’s heart: dont think so, no ones liked me before  lol Arrested:  no  Turned someone down: never been asked out  Cried when someone died: yes  Fallen for a friend: yup

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:  Yourself:  not really... i need to work on that  Miracles: kinda  Love at first sight: for other people i guess since people say they do lol, but not for me no Heaven: sure Santa Claus: nope Kiss on the first date: maybe? Angels: yeah 

I TAG:  @daymarestag, @iaintkissingnofrog, @saltysenpie, @piffbee, @zajisoarwing, @existence-is-weird, @darkprinceincubus, @baby-blue-bones, @avatar-aaang and uuuh idk anyone else who wants to do this i tag you too~ and if i tagged you and you dont wanna do this thats cool 

[thelouisloveclub]

Rules: Once you have been tagged you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. At the end, choose 25 people to tag! Thank you for tagging me:  @philousophy LAST [1] drink: water [2] phone call: My mommy <3 [3] text message: Alyssa [4] song you listened to: Thats my Jam by shelco garcia and teen wolf?  [5] time you cried: the fourth of july rip [6] dated someone twice: no lol [7] been cheated on: never [8] kissed someone and regretted it: never [9] lost someone special: my grandma :(  [10] been depressed: :/ [11] gotten drunk and thrown up: no lol i dont let myself get drunk LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS: [12] purple [13] black [14] blue IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU… [15] made new friends: yes [16] fallen out of love: no [17] laughed until you cried: not really  [18] found out someone was talking about you: nah [19] met someone who changed you: yeah :/ [20] found out who your true friends are: yes [21] kissed someone on your facebook list: yes lol [22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: almost all except for a few of them [23] do you have any pets: yes! [24] do you want to change your name: no [25] what did you do for your last birthday: visited my father in the hospital  [26] what time did you wake up: 12 pm  [27] what were you doing at midnight last night: playing black ops 2 [28] name something you cannot wait for: louis’ song, harrys movie, harrys tour, the sweet release of death [29] when was the last time you saw your mother: yesterday [30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: my appearance [31] what are you listening to right now: Heartburn (Jarami remix) by Wafia  [32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: unfortunately  [33] something that is getting on your nerves: my mental health  [34] most visited website: tumblr and twitter [35] elementary: its called sunset but its shut down now  [36] high school: alpena high school [37] college: alpena community college(come murder me)  [38] hair colour: right now its like red but normally its brown [40] do you have a crush on someone: eh not really? [41] what do you like about yourself?: i guess my eyes are cool  [42] piercings: none [43] blood type: idk [44] nickname: idk i dont have any friends to get a nickname  [45] relationship status: single   [46] zodiac sign: scorpio [47] pronouns: she/her [48] fav tv show(s): i dont even know tbh  [49] tattoos: None :( [50] right or left handed: right FIRST… [51] surgery: mouth [52] piercing: ears [53] best friend: Alyssa :) [54] sport: soccer and volleyball [55] vacation: North Carolina :))))) [56] pair of trainers: nah  [57] eating: akfjda i was a baby so  [58] drinking: idk [59] i’m about to: idk [60] listening: listening?? i dont understand lol  [61] waiting for: sleep [62] want: sleep [63] get married: youre right isa whoever made this made it really weird. most of the ones from the last category had nothing to do with it. im sure some day i will  [64] career: havent had one  YOUR TYPE… [65] hugs or kisses: both [66] lips or eyes: bothhh [67] shorter or taller: taller [68] older or younger: eh i guess closer to my age  [69] romantic or spontaneous: both :) [70] nice arms or nice stomach: idk [71] sensitive or loud: im assuming you mean quiet and i dont really care [72] hook up or relationship: relationship [73] troublemaker or hesitant: idk

HAVE YOU EVER… [74] kissed a stranger?: no [75] drank hard liquor?: yes but shhh [76] lost glasses/contact lenses?: yes [77] turned someone down?: yes [78] sex on first date?: no [79] broken someone’s heart?: no [80] had your own heart broken?: yes [81] been arrested? no [82] cried when someone died? yes [83] fallen for a friend: only once dont do it sfkjdsf it sucks unless it works out for you  DO YOU BELIEVE IN… [84] yourself?: some days :) [85] miracles?: maybe [86] love at first sight?: depends on the person  [87] santa claus? no [88] kiss on the first date?: yes [89] angels?  no [90] current best friend’s name: alyssa [91] eye colour: brown [92] favourite movies: Nerve, Now You See Me 1&2, twilight

tag 25 people: i dont want to bug anyone lol so if this does im sorry. I know its a lot so id understand if you didnt do it but @sundownlouis @letmelive-or-letmeloveyou i honestly dont know anyone else 

[wayward-marvel-sommer1196]

Tag Game

Rules: you must answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people

Tagged by @kdfrqqg It’s been awhile since I’ve done one of these lol. I wasn’t even in the SPN fandom the last time I did one. 

1. Drink? Pepsi

2. Phone call? My dad

3. Text message? My sister

4. Song you listened to? Say You Won’t Let Go by: James Arthur (literally gives me goose bumps every time I listen to it.) 

5. Time you cried? 4th of July (Don’t ask) 

6. Dated someone twice? No, I’ve only ever had one REAL boyfriend and a bunch or near misses

7. Kissed someone and regretted it? Never kissed anyone 

8. Been cheated on? Nope

9. Lost someone special? Yes 

10. Been depressed? Yes, like all the time 

11. Favorite colors? Purple, Blue, and recently Red 

In the last year, have you… 15. Made new friends? Yes

16. Fallen out of love? Love-love no, semi-love yes 

17. Laughed until you cried? I dont think I’ve ever laughed til i cried??? Laughed until my stomach hurt sure but not til i cried 

18. Found out someone was talking about you? Unfortunately 

19. Met someone who changed you? Yes, not in a good way 

20. Found out who your friends are? 100% yes I love my girls so much

21. Kissed someone on your facebook list? No one that wasnt in like a family matter 

General 22. How many of your facebook friends do you know in real life? a solid 97% only because some are family that ive never met. 

23. Do you have any pets? No Dad hates pets, but do babies count? because they are equally as frustrating and I live with two under the age of 3.

24. Do you want to change your name? yes too many jokes and annoying nicknames

25. What did you do for your last birthday? Got my hair done, had some pudding cake, and went to Iguana Mia for a free lunch with my mom and her boyfriend and then binged Gilmore Girls b/c mom didnt feel well so we went home and did nothing after like 2. 

26. What time did you wake up? 7:30 because of the babies I live with but didnt get out of bed till 8:15

27. What were you doing at midnight last night? On here actually 

28. Name something you can’t wait for: Graduating College but that ties with Getting Married 

29. When was the last time you saw your mom? a few weeks ago?? I know im horrible but her work schedule is all over the place and my life is so unpredictable but i do try and talk to her every other day. 

31. What are you listening to right now? My family messing around 

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? yes

33. Something that is getting on your nerves? my job not giving me shifts and my step nephew with his lack of respect for adults 

34. Most visited website? Tumblr

35. Hair colour? Dark brown with a tint of burgundy because I havent gotten it dyed since december (my bday) and red washes out real fast but leaves subtle traces especially in the sun

36. Long or short hair? As of now on the shoter side, like shoulder length, but if you would have caught me a month ago it would have been hella long got 10 inches cut off 

37. Do you have a crush on someone? As of now NO because my last crush stomped on my heart and crushed then ran it over with a semi so I have sworn off men unless celebrities count????

38. What do you like about yourself? Honestly, right now nothing thats one of my issues. BUT if I had to pick I guess my loyalty??

39. Piercings: just your standard, run of the mill ear piercing 

40. Blood type: 0+

41. Nickname: Don’t have one because I refuse to share what my mom called me throughout my childhood. So i just go my full name Sommer

42. Relationship status: single and hating men 

43. Zodiac: Sagittarius 

44. Pronouns: She/Her

45. Favourite tv show: UGGGHHH too many. SPN, most superhero shows, most crime dramas, Greys Anatomy, and more. I used to be a tv addict and started watching a bunch of shows and although i dont watch them much anymore doesnt mean i dont still love them

46. Tattoos: Yes, on my right foot. Its part two to a quote that me and my sister got together. “....but thankful for the one ive got.” she got “A perfect sister i am not.....” 

47. Right or left handed: Right

48. Surgery: If getting my wisdom teeth taking out (all four of them at once) counts then yes other than that no.

49. Piercing: Already answered 

50. Sport: None, I suck at all sports and hate them all too. I was and am more of a book person than a ball person, but I do enjoy a leisure swim on occasion

51. Vacation: Would love to take one but im broke. My last was a high school trip right before i started my senior year where we traveled through five states making stops in each until we ended in indiana for the convention we needed to go to and then came back.

52. Pair of trainers: don’t know what this means

53. Eating: I wish I was lol My dinner sucked ass. Man, I wish I had a nice juicy steak right now with a baked potato and asparagus yum 

54. Drinking: at the moment nothing but the last thing I drank was at like 2 pm and now its almost 10 (oooppps) and that was a mocha coffee from DD

55. I’m about to: take a shower then outline some god damned stories that are haunting me right now 

56. Waiting for? something good to happen in my life for once 

57. Want? To be prettier, but I am slowly losing weight which is helping that problem. OOOOHHH and my best friends to be with me right now

58. Get married? I would love to at some point. Not anytime soon, but I also have to find someone who can put up with my difficult moody ass for the rest of our lives sooo..... that could be awhile

59. Career? Now none after college hopefully a forensic scientist/CSI since that is what my degree is going to be in

60. Hugs or kisses? Bith

61. Lips or eyes? On an S/O eyes hands down on me i guess my eyes

62. Shorter or taller? On an S/O taller I guess I have a type lol a bit of a height kink. On me shorter im only 5′2

63. Older or younger? Older although if it was only like 2 years younger Ii would be cool with that just not any further 

64. Nice arms or nice stomach? These questions are so superficial and I feel superficial for answering them but I guess in a S/O stomach on me I have neither soo...

65. Hook up or relationship? Relationship, im a sappy sappy romantic at heart a hook up is too impersonal and so crass I want the feelings 

66. Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant

67. Kissed a stranger: No

68. Drank hard liquor: Being that I am only 19 I’m legally obligated to say no, but my oldest sister is a horrible influence so I may have had a taste a few times 

69. Lost glasses/contact lenses: No but I have lost a retainer, twice, in the garbage. Yeah my parents werent to happy with me 

70. Turned someone down: Depends? for a date no. for anything havent we all. sex never been offered.

71. Sex on the first date: Virgin, so no and I’ve only had one real boyfriend that wasnt really a relationship anyway so yeah

72. Broken someone’s heart: I want to say no, but I guess I have not in a relationship way but you can break anyones heart for any nimber of reasons

73. Had your heart broken: Hell the fuck yeah but so many damn people 

74. Been arrested: No, close once but the store guy let me go on a warning

75. Cried when someone died:  Yes, doesnt everyone unless the deseased is like an axe murderer or something

76. Fallen for a friend: Ugh this question. I hate it so much. Yes, that boyfriend I mentioned that was the situation and that didnt end well. And then my sophomre year I was like in LOVE with this kid I had known back in elementary school and he was my best friend and he was out of my league and let me down gently. Then i fell for my frenemy my senior year, but he neber knew and it was just a phase for me I guess it didnt last long 

Do you believe in… 77. yourself?  Wish the answer was yes, maybe come again another day? 

78. Miracles?  sometimes 

79. love at first sight?  I would like to but Ii just can’t

80. Santa claus? I wish, but I am glad to pretend for my niece and nephew 

81. Kiss on the first date? Sure if it went well 

82. Angels? Nope. Sorry 

Other 83. Current best friend’s name: Well, I got three. They are my girls, my squad. Weve all been best friends for going on 4 four years. Sam, Dana, Solange 

84. Eye colour:  Brown, boring I know

85. Favourite movie: Can’t choose just one so like the entire Marvel franchise? Can I do that? Too bad I just did 

Im supposed to tag 20 more people but honestly my hands are cramping its after 10 and I really need a shower so if you want to take a crack at this I totally encourage you too. 

[poodleyeol]

rules //write 92 truths about yourself then tag 25 people

i was tagged by @wifan and @chanyeolsabs ~~~~ thank you so much to the both of you im so excited lets do this :3

LAST…

[1] drink: water :/ how boring [2] phone call: my mummm D; [3] text message: once again, my mum D; [4] song you listened to: kaching by cbx!!!!! such a jam!!!! [5] time you cried: about a week ago ehehehe thats pretty good for me~

HAVE YOU EVER…

[6] dated someone twice: nope~ [7] been cheated on: i’m like 99.99999% sure I haven’t :3 [8] kissed someone and regretted it: yyyeesss i blew my first kiss on some gross dude in like 3rd grade D; [9] lost someone special: not yet ;u; [10] been depressed: ummm i think?? maybe?? [11] gotten drunk and thrown up: YES AHAH only once thank god (but i threw up twice...)

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLORS:

[12] pastel pink!! [13] dark green~ [14] all other pastels~

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…

[15] made new friends: YES i mean only online but that counts right~? [16] fallen out of love: nope~ [17] laughed until you cried: absolutely bahahah [18] found out someone was talking about you: i dont think so~? [19] met someone who changed you: i dont think so~ [20] found out who your true friends are: hmmm not in a negative sense, more that i’m becoming a little more certain that my true friends really care about me ^^ [21] kissed someone on your facebook list: yeah technically my gf is my friend on facebook~

GENERAL…

[22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: most of them, but they’re all people from my grade in high school  [23] do you have any pets: yesss~ a dog and a cat <3 [24] do you want to change your name: nahhh I can’t imagine being anything other than demi ^^;;;; [25] what did you do for your last birthday: uugghhhh it sucked i had to spend it with family and i didn’t do anything fun D; [26] what time did you wake up: 9:40am~ [27] what were you doing at midnight last night: i was trying to do my writing assignment~ (and failing) [28] name something you cannot wait for: eXO’S cOMMEBBACKKKK sAVE ME [29] when was the last time you saw your mother: last night~ [30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: how ugly i am/how lazy i am/how i get nervous and stressednover really stupid small things/the list goes on [31] what are you listening to right now: nothing right now~ [32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: um i think so?? very briefly?? [33] something that is getting on your nerves: having to do so much homework when all i want to do is go on tumblr and write == [34] most visited website: i assume it’s tumblr?? bahaha [35] elementary: i was a huge loser but i had friends somehow bahah [36] high school: the time when i was a massive weeb... i dont know why anyone talked to me [37] college: stRESS [38] hair color: brown~~~ [39] long or short hair: it was long but I just cut it today so now it’s medium-ish length! [40] do you have a crush on someone: all i have is the bae<3 [41] what do you like about yourself: not much the fact that i care very intensely about the people i like [42] piercings: none~ i had my ears done when i was like... 7 or 8 but i didnt end up liking it so i let them close :3 [43] blood type: no idea... but i’m gonna guess A [44] nickname: i dont really have one but my manager at work calls me “Demz” [45] relationship status: basically married bahaha [46] zodiac sign: aquarius/pisces [47] pronouns: she/her~~ [48] fav tv show: i dont have one favourite~ just anything funny! [49] tattoos: noneee~ [50] right or left hand: right hand~

FIRST…

[51] surgery: I’ve never had one~ [52] piercing: the aforementioned ear piercing that i let die :3 [53] best friend: ummmmmm good question... because maybe it was Orly, but she didn’t like me much, and then there was Belinda, but she was always a fair bit older than me... and then Kyaa was my first primary school friend, but i don’t think i ever would have called her my best friend...... okay ill stop ehehe [54] sport: ew. um i did tae kwon do for a bit does that count..? [55] vacation: uMMM i wouldn’t remember bahahah [56] pair of trainers: i have no idea i didn’t start paying attention to shoes until i was much older ^^;;;;

RIGHT NOW…

[57] eating: i just had some cheese and crackers before :3 [58] drinking: water again :/ but i had a smoothie like an hour ago~ [59] i’m about to: finish this off and then put off doing my assignment!!!!! [60] listening to: nothinggggg~ [61] waiting for: exo’s comeback. and mum to get home and make dinner~ [62] want: for exo to be happy and healthy ;u; [63] get married: i mean i already feel married so~ <3 [64] career: noonnnnnneeee i am a sad broke student~

WHICH IS BETTER…

[65] hugs or kisses: i think i like hugs more...? maybe...? i dunno both is good <3 [66] lips or eyes: eyes!!!! [67] shorter or taller: tAALLLLLLLLLL!!!!!! i mean i bias chanyeol what do you expect me to answer this with bahaha [68] older or younger: either is fine~! [70] nice arms or nice stomach: chanyeol’s lil tummy <3 [71] sensitive or loud: i love loud people because i’m a meek lil kitten who needs help in conversation :3 [72] hook up or relationship: relationship~~~ [73] troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker!! because i’m hesitant and if we’re both hesitant nothing will get done!

HAVE YOU EVER…

[74] kissed a stranger? the dude i kissed in year 3 was almost a stranger pretty much but uh no not really~ [75] drank hard liquor? what constitutes as hard liquor...? look probably yes bahahah [76] lost glasses/contact lenses? i don’t have them~ [77] turned someone down: only like once >< [78] sex on first date? umm i’ve never been on a proper first date so i couldn’t say for sure~~ [79] broken someone’s heart? not that i’m aware of >< [80] had your own heart broken? no~ [81] been arrested? thank god no ahaha [82] cried when someone died? i assume ...? so??? [83] fallen for a friend? yes~~~ and somehow it turned out well for me ^^;;

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

[84] yourself? ew no i can’t do shit bahaha [85] miracles? i guess so~? [86] love at first sight? maybe like. extreme attraction and extreme chemistry at first sight... close enough!! [87] Santa Claus? i mean. no. ahahah sorry children everywhere~ [88] kiss on the first date? yeah sure??? why not if the date went well then totally! [89] angels? yes. i know of nine amazing angels. they’re called exo. <3

OTHER…

[90] current best friend’s name: i mean my gf is basically also my best friend so Lici :3 [91] eye color: brown~ [92] favorite movie: uuhhh maybe zootopia bahaha

i will tag~ um i think a lot of my friends have already been tagged ^^;; @homosidalbrainiac, @hunniedae, @baekshitbyun, @lost-my-utopia, @minnyc24 and um anyone else who wants to do this~!!