#(mechanically. its complicated)

[necrophiliak]

[just-sp-in-inginthevoid]

Hello. I am wondering why you start liking Takeomi. He is the most hated character by the fandom and your choice of wet soggy cat is very unique. I want to listen your ramblings.

Oh anon, if only I knew

I'll try to remember how it happened, that much I think I got it.

So, when I first got into TR, my mind mostly focused on Mitsuya and the Shiba (mostly Taiju), so much so that I ended up writing a lot more than I thought I ever will on Taiju and explaining where his behavior comes from

Because it seems like a lot of people missed some important information. And by doing that I was able to show them details they had missed (prove that I was right in previous posts where I didn't justified myself and basically got called a liar by someone in the notes which incredibly pissed me off-) and, although that doesn't excuse what Taiju did, it does explain it and makes him more.. real? Maybe not relatable, but his domestic abuse didn't pop up out of nowhere and a lot of people know what intergenerational trauma can do so while still hating Taiju they could understand him better.

Then, having finished my Taiju analysis which also opened my eyes since I found more than what I initially thought about; I myself was able to understand him better and so I thought-

Why not do that with every hated characters in the fandom?

I don't quite recall if my (at the time, very slight) interest in Takeomi happened a bit before or at that time, but the reason why I focused on him before the others (which, uh, aren't a lot anyway) was because I saw stuffs written about him which I didn't really agree with? Like, yeah, he was flawed and raised his siblings badly - especially when next to Shinichiro who was (at least depicted as)(and try to be) good at it - but they were kinda amplifying things

I know that a lot of people relate to Sanzu, or just, love him, and since they saw things I haven't seen, I told myself 'well, let's investigate, then' and then I wrote about 17k words on Takeomi's psychology.

I literally walked myself into the Takeomi rabbit-hole (what a FUCKING mistake /positive)

Takeomi did neglect his siblings, and passive-aggressively verbally, or even emotionally, abused Sanzu and for most of the fandom, is not attractive (and, let's not lie, beauty is a redeeming quality for a lot of characters regardless of fandom. How many characters, no matter their faults, get forgiven by fans just because they're hot, uh?). So he sucks, yeah

You know what he did do? acknowledged his mistakes, apologized for them and would have started his redemption arc if Wakui had had the time for that when warping up the story

He made mistakes, he's flawed, he's human, he wasn't even supposed to be here because he only entered the delinquent world to keep following Shinichiro, his ego which was back then very weak and non-existent got inflated for either survival or because he received so many compliments he didn't know what to do with it if not both because he was a k i d.

Most of the characters in TR are kids or young adults when they commit things they shouldn't have done. And yes, you can hold them accountable for it but they didn't know better - they didn't have the tools to

Now, why do I like Takeomi.

First of all - the amount of flaws he has. Don't think I need to make the list, I think everyone's got it (although make sure to remember he's got an inferiority complex and it's most likely that he also has an imposter syndrome so he's just like me fr-). But even with that, he's never an antagonist. He does things wrong but he's on our side (he's just very deaf to anyone's opinion that doesn't fit his). He sucked at raising his siblings as a kid himself (before his superiority complex developed and during it too - albeit in different ways) but that's just.. realistic? Not that it takes away the seriousness of it and the consequences, but how else could it have been? The impact on Sanzu were disastrous (not that they were the only reason why Sanzu lost it), I understand that, I don't erase that nor deny it BUT THERE'S A REASON WHY TAKEOMI IS LIKE THIS, TOO. And if people blame Takeomi for his actions (which, again, fair.) then blame Sanzu for his!! he was willing to mass murder hundreds of people!!! including his sister!!! he killed a few people!! argh. But Sanzu got his tragic-backstory/childhood shown and has a design that appeals to most, so I guess it's harder to hold him accountable for the seriousness of his actions (I like Sanzu, don't get me wrong. But sometimes the hypocrisy of some fans makes me a tiny bit angry 🙃)

Anyway, reason 84123286 of why I need Takeomi's backstory. Bc, honestly, from what we know of him as a kid+his coping mechanisms as a teen/adult, it would make sense to me if one of the reason he was so hostile to Sanzu was because he saw himself in him and Didn't Like ItTM (for different reasons) (!!! Which would add nicely to Shinichiro seeing himself in Mikey!!! more sano-akashi parallels, lets goooooooo) Talking about the parallels between the two, the fact he's Shinichiro's narrative foil compels me lots. Takeomi is quite literally Shinichiro with a negative filter on. And how can he survived that? How can he cope with the fact that no matter how much he wants and tries to be Shinichiro he'd never succeed? He'd always be the pale copy, the wood statue covered with golden leaves that are peeling away with time next to the pure gold statue. The Teru Teru Bozu that fails to chase the rain away and is going to be decapitated for his ineptitude. He'd always be himself and that's what he hates the most. He'd always be compared to Shinichiro and there's nothing he can do about it. And he can't even be angry at Shinichiro. That's his best friend. He loves him. He has been the first to love him. He has been there before anyone else. He can't lose Shinichiro, Shinichiro gave him everything. Everything he cares about, he sees value of, at least. Immaculate.

I'll also die on the hill that he is competent. He himself has no idea on what but he is (he mixes everything. For him it'd go like this: he gets praised but he's done nothing, Shinichiro has done everything which means they praised him for what Shinichiro has done. Which means what Shinichiro do, he does too. Which means Shinichiro's achievements are his as well! right? He didn't do anything by himself, there's no need to praise him for something else.)(he's fully blind that strategically-speaking and in other brainy-brain domains he's competent af. Bc since it comes 'easily' to him - since he doesn't struggle much with it, or in contrary he struggles so much he cannot possibly be good at it, then there's nothing to praise. And like, for him what Shinichiro does deserve to be praised. What he himself does is just.. things he does so compliments feel shallow)(+Bonten strives as much as Bad Toman and Manila if not more, yet there's no Kisaki. Ofc there's still Koko so that helps, but Takeomi is new to the team and got recruited (at least that what Senju said) in Brahman for his ~wisdom~)

He's also the only character who was around before Shinichiro 1) became a big brother 2) became a delinquent and that has to mean something. They're the only ones left to remember how the other was before their life went to shit

In the final timeline, he looks so healthy. He made peace with himself, his relationship with his siblings is good, he made amends. He healed, they healed. His relationship with Shinichiro, Benkei and Wakasa is good too everything's great. He learnt to understand what he is competent in and focus on it; he's not Shinichiro, he'll never be and that's okay. He's him and what he is complete Shinichiro just as Shinichiro complete him – they take care of one another's flaws but can also know live independently from each other. Perhaps, perhaps Takeomi stopped being so dependent of him

Appearance-wise, I love dark hair+green eyes combo in general so it wasn't that hard (plus there are some godly fanarts out there)

And of course: despite his complexity, at the end of the day - he's really just a pathetic wet poor excuse of a man who can't do anything right and isn't that endearing

I'm slowly getting out of the denial-phase to enter my acceptance-phase when it comes to loving Takeomi. Liking things most people hate or are neutral about is smth I hate for Reasons but it also seems to always happen lolololol. Will try to talk more about Takeomi when it comes to my mind, in case ppl who also love him but don't want to make it known because of his bad reputation in the fandom saw my posts and feel a bit more okay and comfortable with loving him

[all-thestories-aretrue]

Soooooo I wrote this incredibly self-indulgent thing about Miles. I have many feelings about how he keeps himself so tightly in control. It's gotta go somewhere.

Disclaimer it's quite dark, so mind the trigger warning and keep yourself safe <3

TW: self-harm, not what I would consider graphic descriptions, but it is the central theme and way more than a mention

The lock clicks. He slips his suit jacket off. Loosens then removes his tie. Untucked, buttons undone. It’s all laid out on the bed. Step by step. Shoes set to the side and trousers swapped for silken pajama pants.

The bathroom door closes behind him. The second lock between him and the world. The shower comes on. Towel laid out on the counter.

His drawer, second down on the left. He pulls out the small black bag. Gold zipper. Supple leather. Inside, his collection. Three packs of new razor blades. An open pack of blades; used ones tucked into the back. A single hypodermic needle. A crafting knife. Two unopened band aids.

The rest of the drawer’s contents is ignored, antiseptic and suture kits, butterfly closures and rolls of gauze, in favor of practiced hands sliding the tin of blades from the bag and the blade from the tin.

He sits on the toilet, lid down. Elbow straight. Fist clenched. The first slice with a small inhale. Bright and sharp and stinging. Familiar and comforting. Line after line as red blooms from the wounds. The ecstasy second only to the Kiss. Rivulets follow gravity down. Strategically placed tissues catch the mess.

Stained crimson, they fall into the waste basket. He flexes his wrist, testing the pull of the broken skin, blots the last of the blood away. Blade inspected and stowed; everything returned to it’s place. Pajamas folded on top of the toilet, he steps into the shower.

[apollos2]

my (not really) yuan ti baby 🥺

[bmpmp3]

as someone who cannot deal with mobile gacha games post-2016 I AM cautiously intrigued by infinity nikki. visuals look fantastic and so cute, the platforming in the ign gameplay i saw seemed a little rough but as long as its not too hard i'll be fine (<- said as a person who is shockingly bad at 3d platformers) but i am hopeful. if its a fun game to play i'll be really excited, as someone who's only played nikki up2u ive always been curious about how that normal girl dressup game turned into like. nikkis hellscape or whatever ive heard about it. nikkis torture dimension. nikkis purgatorial plain of endless suffering. thats my understanding of the franchise at least.

[kodyzzz]

sometimes u land in situations which were perfectly avoidable and u knew that but brain small i guess

[ravenwolfie97]

all pokemon games are good but they are not all equally as good

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[cosmik-homo]

New WIP: Vila and Avon get really into competitive Cubing.

[doonarose]

I dunno, I kind of want Season 3 to have skipped over a bunch of stuff so we can start with Aziraphale in heaven, plotting to overthrow all of it from the Metatron down, stop the second coming, and move back to earth as soon as possible. He's assembled a secret army made up of a bunch of other like-minded demons and angels, who, he has discovered also just want to have niche hobbies and play at the boundaries of humanity. They only needed to be slightly tempted into it and now they all have their own little human obsessions and have promised that when they go to earth, they'll only be working the smallest of miracles and curses which Aziraphale is quite confident will inevitably all just cancel each other out.

Crowley's mostly worked out his Point, and has begrudgingly made friends, some drinking buddies that he can rile up and call names and it's not quite the same as having Aziraphale around but he's no longer passively suicidal all the bloody time. He probably coaches a junior football team, or volunteers at an animal rescue a day or two each week, and runs multiple twitter accounts stirring shit up online. He's got a job, one he takes quite a lot of pride in, running the Alnwick Garden where the collection of poisonous plants has tripled during his tenure and the number of humans passing out has only doubled. There has also been a remarkable increase in the number of both meet-cutes and divorces occurring within the gardens that the Times once tried to report on but the journalist and all her notes disappeared before going to print. Crowley organises small expeditions to the unexplored corners of the world, always able to find some underground cavern or lush rainforest or barren desert that somehow all of humanity has missed. And within them, new plants for him to catalogue and, on occasion, vaguely eldritch, albeit thumb sized, new beasts.

So by the time we see them coming back together, they've done their personal growth and we can see that and, importantly, they can see that, and so all that's left to do is communicate with each other properly, which will likely be screaming for about twenty minutes, making out for about another fifteen, and then a lazy hour of quiet apologies, confessions, and secrets. Then they stop the second coming (while holding hands, and kissing, and flirting and beaming) and live happily ever after.

[shinybulbasaur]

question for my european (or at least non usamerican) mutuals. when you talk about taking physics as a class, what specifically are you referring to

[mayoonrices]

My Rogue Trader, Frida Grathriana Aeos Venria de Vhal af Calaxis or Recently, Frida Von Valancius

A Noble Voidborn, And Officer of regiment. High Dogmatic and low Iconoclast decisions and totally dint indulge a little bit of heresy on her darkest hour.

She was my first and won't be my last rogue trader I'm gonna make portrait and do gameplay. Right now I'm doing high Dogmatic with plus narcissism and high coercion like good bred Noble.

Will be doing Pure Pysker Iconoclast and Crime Lord Heretical next since I'm almost done with act 4 and closer to the last act. Which means I have to painstakingly paint their portraits as well

[hecksupremechips]

Btw I’ve started playing the funny stars and time game. The the one about the loopty loop and the white diamond ass shit

[duckduckngoose]

I need to work on schoolwork but my brain came up with a kickass HC ab how immortality works in my mechs au

[glitterdustcyclops]

love that i'm slowly convincing da fandom to check out baldur's gate 3 by pointing out the (true!) fact that the main characters are a bunch of bisexual disasters who become a found family reluctantly i'm so glad we're all on the same page here

[arolesbianism]

Ok so I need to rework my Wendy skilltree concept because klei heard ppl complain abt the combat and went alright then time to completely rework combat but very slowly one update at a time so no one realizes until we straight up give Willow spells

[baconcolacan]

Would you consider yourself proship (just asking bc it’s not explicitly stated anywhere I can find and I want to know before I follow an artist)

Okay so I did research on this term bc I dont know what this is. From what I can see its people who are giving an OK to ship anything even problematic stuff (Like pedo-y ships, abusive ships, etc etc) bc its like, art freedom (?) or smth.

At first I thought ‘Oh, so non-censorship??’ and was wondering why people are mad at that kind of thing. Then uh, I found out, they aren’t portraying them in the way I thought they would.

See, I’m a dark fiction writer and I love dark fiction, BUT for topics like what proship people like (? I really dont like using that word, its…it really grosses me out that thats how they feel about ships that are of the same vein as basically pedophilia) I expect it to be portrayed for what it is: Horrible, Traumatic, and Not At All what anybody should want in real life and more sympathetic to the victim. It should be something that makes a viewer’s stomach turn and feel awful about.

So…I guess I’m not??? I really dont like those kinds of things portrayed in that way (LIKE SERIOUSLY??? IVE HAD ENOUGH OF THAT STUPID SHIT FROM THE ANIME COMMUNITY I FUCKINF HATE THE ANIME COMMUNITY ITS WHY I LEFT UGGHHHHH FUCK FUCK)

As dark fiction tho, as long as its portrayed like I said, I’m okay with that.