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Hey,
So, normally I am a really shy person on the internet, but you made this beautiful song Sky Clear Blue, and I just have to ask.
Do you have the notes for that song? And would you mind sharing them?
I have a guitar and I would love to attempt playing that lovely song.
Hello shy person on the internet! omg I got an ask about The Song! :D *sounds of angel-coded delight*
I don't have anything beyond Steph's lyrics written down, unfortunately - HOWEVER, I could absolutely scribble some down for whatever parts you're curious about, if you like!
If we're only talking guitar chords, it's a really nice and simple (comfy!) progression: alternating G and Cadd9 for most of the verses, one loop of G - Am - C - D in the lead-up to the chorus, and the chorus is C - G - Dsus - D. (The very final chord is a Dsus because ✨ambience✨ and open-endedness vibes and... ok that's not what I was supposed to be talking about here oops)
Caveat to the above: wherever there's a D chord, I alternate randomly between plain D and Dsus with no particular pattern, and I may have replaced some Cs with Cadd9 or vice versa here and there. Either of the two works; it's just easier to play Cadd9 between two Gs. 🙂
Technically I played the same-ish chords in the transposed a capella version, too, but simpler and on my mini guitar/guitarlele which is tuned differently so the result is a slightly off-key D - Gadd9 (verse) and G - D - A (chorus).
Before I go off waffling delightedly for WAY too long (omg someone asked me about an Art I've made I can talk for HOURS hello you're my new best friend)... Is there any part/voice/instrument in particular that you're curious about? Because, again, I could absolutely scribble down some sheet music for this (or maybe even wrangle GarageBand to output some for me; I think that's a feature it has??). I don't normally write stuff down much when I play because I find it easier to just noodle around and memorise and I don't tend to get too complex with arrangements, but I do read musical notation and guitar tabulature and I would be a completely normal amount of very excited to talk and write more about this as you can see SO. Yeah. Just hmu if you want more detail about guitar chords or notes or some other stuff; I'd be BEYOND thrilled to share.
Actual view of me reading and answering this ask ⬇️⬇️⬇️
beardo: *goes to town on ask*
(PS. I need to point out that I'm only responsible for the particulars of the arrangement, the physical singing/playing, and the time signature - Steph based her song upon another one, a recording of which she kindly sent me; it's got slightly different lyrics and a somewhat simpler chord progression, is in 4/4 time and gives sort of... cute country ballad vibes? I riffed off of the melody a bit and the rest... really, the arrangement did what the characters in my stories tend to do, and kind of just wrote itself.
Either way, I don't want anyone to imagine I came up with the melody or the overall shape of this song myself! I just kneaded it a bit and fought GarageBand to record it. 💜)
gonna tag @klikandtuna and @suzypfonne in case you fine humans want to listen in to continued talk about this song - you're both HIGHLY RESPONSIBLE for these amazing last 24 hours of my life and the existence of this piece of music after all
#music#guitar chords#sky clear blue#azekiel's lullaby#i did an art#good omens#good omens fandom#“Mebbe sing us that lullaby?”#*goes to town on ask*#I GET TO TALK ABOUT AN ART I'VE MADE#That Friday When Everyone Cried
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For the twins in time AU, I genuinely wonder what kind of people the young twins grow up into because of Stan’s/Ford’s influence. Especially if it takes years for the portal to get fixed.
(Sorry if it seems like I already sent this question, I don’t know if it got sent the first time I asked)
I haven’t fully fleshed out how Ford grows up in the past but I do have thoughts on Stan presently
#he’s still his goofy brash self as well#but I do think he gets an outlet for all that through monster hunting and trips and stuff#he does get comfortable here though…#I’m thinking we have something play out that’s similar to the science fair#where they get close to being able to send him home and he breaks something or maybe even purposely sabotages it…#and I think he sneaks out a lot too#maybe he uses the secret identities in that way like when he’s in town he’ll pretend to be Pinley pinington#and that’s how he develops his scammy/improv skills#FORD ON THE OTHER HAND#I think he might actually be MORE emotionally stunted because Stan tries so hard to protect him#that it goes the other way#they kind of become reliant on each other in a really unhealthy way or maybe Stan sort of steers ford away from his smart stuff#to prevent the future from happening#not maliciously but yk#like I said I haven’t fleshed his story out as fully yet so I will get back to you#but there are some interesting possibilities#my art#ask#gravity falls#twins in time au#Stan pines#Stanley pines
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Hopper is sitting in a booth at the diner.
He watching his new recruit talk on the pay phone outside through the window, contemplating. He’s not too sure about this Callahan kid.
He’s not sure if he’s just getting older or if it’s because he has a daughter now, but Christ. Callahan still had braces last year and they just handed him a gun. The kid is nineteen.
Hopper must have been too deep in his musing because he doesn’t notice Steve slide into the booth across from him until Steve is halfway through telling him that they make him sit at the bar when the diner is busy. He doesn’t like that because people touch his hair when they go past so, “Can I sit with you, please?”
He shoves Callahan’s half-finished hash browns to the side and says, “Don’t worry, I’ll be really quiet. You’ll forget that I’m here. Mama says I’m really good at that.”
Yeah. Somehow Hopper doesn’t think he’ll be forgetting much of anything. Especially after Patty Martin, the only waitress in the building today, comes over to top of Hopper’s coffee. She gives Steve the sweetest smile Hop has ever seen on her face and asks, “Pancakes again, kiddo?”
“No thanks,” Steve says, pulling some crumbled up dollars and a handful of coins from his pocket. He slides it towards her and says with a gap-toothed smile, “One big sundae with two bananas, please.”
She looks at the money, “That’s a bit more than what you got here, kid.”
“Not of it’s your birthday.”
This is a game, Hopper realizes when Patty asks, “Is it your birthday? You had a birthday last year.”
“I have a birthday every year!” Steve giggles, and Hopper is slightly amused until Patty leaves and Steve informs him, “Mama and me come here every year on my birthday and get a big sundae. We share it. It’s tradition. I’m seven.”
Hopper scans the room and finds it lacking, “Where is your mom?”
Steve pauses. He can see the gears turning in the kid’s head. He knows that Steve must’ve heard his dad say that you don’t lie to the police but you don’t got to tell them the truth because he predictably gives a non-answer, “She’s not here.”
Descriptive, Hopper thinks but he also thinks this whole scenario is so damn sad. Instead of an interrogating, he asks, “Hey, kid. How about after you finish your ice cream, I take you for a drive in the truck. You can turn the siren on.”
Steve gives him a look like he not only thinks that suggestion is stupid but that Hopper is too. He says gently, like he’s letting Hopper down easy, “No thanks.”
“I’m going to Tommy’s later,” Steve adds. “His mama is making me a cake.”
#precursor to Steve’s dad hitting him with a car in that other post of mine#Callahan comes back in and is like: There’s a kid in my seat#Hopper: it’s a booth. bunch up.#Steve gets his sundae and tells Hopper he can share it with him since his mom is *pause to find a carefully worded vague response* busy#hopper does not share but Callahan picks up a spoon like he might. he puts it back down when Hopper glared at him#Steve will tell Hopper every detail of everything under the sun but will only tell Hopper where his parents aren’t#except if he is standing outside the Harrington house asking if his parents are home. then they’re at work#whatever that means for a guy that constantly takes work trips#This is - Hopper suspects - something that Steve was taught to do rather than something he just does#If Steve goes around telling everybody under the sun that his parents are leaving him alone constantly while they go out of town#it’s not only going to get social services looking at them but it’ll tank their social standing (something Hop thinks they care more about)#steve harrington#jim hopper#phil callahan
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I cannot wait for this Stan to reconnect with his Ford.


I still haven't figured out HOW exactly they'll meet yet, but I do think that Ford would ATTACH himself to Stanley and talk his ears off forever when they eventually get comfortable :] and Stanley would listen because HOLY SHIT, THAT'S HIS BRO HE HASN'T SEEN FOR 40-ISH YEARS, HE MISSED HIS VOICE. Nonstop certified Yapper & Listener relationship <3
Stanley looks dead faced because of his ingrained poker face, but he's thouroughly enjoying it, even if sometimes he has no idea what the fuck Ford is saying. He never interrupts him though, since he knows people usually ignore or interrupt him mid-talk already. So sometimes Stan gets stuck in awkward situations where he has to leave or do stuff, but also doesn't have it in his heart to stop Ford and extract himself out of a (one-sided) conversation.
#Stanley: that motherfucker just ignored you completely- would you like me to kill him.#Stanford: Who? What are you talking about? Anyways. Have you ever seen gnomes before? Because just yesterday I-#I imagine conversations with Stanford to be very stitled and all over the place.#Since his thoughts are quite literally scattered- he can never really process them fast enough to actually verbalize them.#Or even understand them.#So he often only catch the tail ends of a thought- or cutoff half formed thoughts- or only the beginning half of an idea- memory- or opinio#And when he talks- you can really tell with the amount of tangents he goes off into and how everything he says#are completely disconnected and unrelated from one another.#I think the reason he talks so much is because it's his way of desperately trying to get himself understood by someone- including himself.#He's hoping that maybe- by verbalizing EVERYTHING in his mind all at once into some incomprehensible word vomit- that someday-#those senseless- useless words will one day magically order themselves into the right sentence for him to be finally be able to say what#he actually MEANS.#But because he's ''that crazy Town Kook Ford'' he just never really gets the chance to talk to anyone.#People in town baby him- treat him like a child.#And I mean- it must really hurt. For someone of his former intellect to have lost all ability to express himself eloquently#Not because he's any less smart- but because he just can't talk anymore. At least- not in any way that matters#I think Stanley understands him though. I think Stanley would understand his struggle to not be labeled as just stupid by others#Anyways- that was my ramble <3#my post#asks#sput chatters#stanford pines#ford pines#stanley pines#stan pines#gravity falls#gravity falls au#Town Kook Ford AU#my art
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Bonus 12: Beware the Grapes of Wrath.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#wen qing#wen ning#WWX's main weapon as the Yiling patriarch is considered to be 'Wen Ning' - which makes sense as far as the whole necromancer thing goes.#However...That *is* Wen Qing's beloved baby brother!#In her perspective WWX skipped town for a few days (or so) and took WN with him#only for them both to show up bloodied and in a state of disarray.#There's no way he told her he was going out to duel Jiang Cheng. For several reasons.#He doesn't want to involve her in his messes anymore than he already has.#It's less that she would try and stop him and more so that he honestly wouldn't even think to say something about it to her.#WQ and him aren't partners in this situation. He actually openly disregards her opinions several times.#Wei Wuxian's emotional distance from everyone around him is a big part of this arc.#Like all good tragedies...his biggest flaw is his hubris. He doesn't *need* anyone when he's so capable on his own.#He doesn't need to ask permission when obviously this is the only way forwards.#He has to do it all on his own! No one else needs to be involved!#And if you've been in the position of realizing you have a problem of toxic self-reliance - you know how harmful this mindset is.#It's why it's so satisfying to see WWX in his 'new' life start to let other's share his burdens.#I will die on the hill of 'love means carrying each other's weight. All a burden means is that I can give you support and you support me.'#YLLZ is less 'competent and sexy' and more 'depressed and can't see it'.#Another lovely nod to the main theme here is how he starts leaning more and more into the rumours about him.#Though we are also still confronted with how these rumours fail to actually live up to reality.#Rumour has it the Yiling Patriarch is undefeatable. What a shame if that rumour turned out to be untrue!
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Eddie frowns to himself slightly. He was expecting to come home to find you watching TV or maybe doing one of your hobbies. Instead, there are still laundry baskets full of unwashed clothes you were going to take to the laundromat.
"Babe?" He calls, leaning against the wall to take off one shoe at a time. He lets them fall haphazardly next to your neatly placed shoes. He takes his leather jacket off and hangs it on the peg on the wall.
Eddie heads down the trailer hall to the bedroom. The door creaks as it opens. He can see you laying under the covers. Eddie walks over, carefully sitting towards the foot of the bed. "Hey Babe," he runs a hand up and down your spine," bad day?"
You groan," yeah...I'm sorry." "For what?" Eddie's brow furrows slightly. You huff and pull the blankets back to look at him. "I was supposed to do laundry. Clean the living room up for your club to meet tomorrow. Instead my joints decided 'hey let's become stiff like steel so every movement hurts'. My nervous system decided 'oh hey let's send a wave of fatigue so strong we can barely keep our eyes open."
Eddie blinks a couple of times watching you. A stray tear falls from your eyes, but Eddie gently wipes it away before it can leave your cheek. "Those days happen. It's okay. Do you ever get mad at me when my body aches?" He cups your cheek in his hand.
"Eddie you almost died saving the world. My body just is like this-" "Who's to say the Upside Down didn't exacerbate things hm? That air wasn't exactly legal." You roll your eyes.
"It isn't your fault." Eddie murmurs, thumb running back and forth against your cheek. The cool of his rings against your face. "It feels like it," you mumble. "Hey, stop being mean to the person I love!" Eddie pokes your side gently. You can't help but smile slightly at him.
"I love you. I know you get frustrated and upset sometimes, especially when things flare up. I do understand what you're going through and it fucking sucks. But that doesn't mean I love you less. We got to take the bad with the good. It makes those good days all the more special. It's an honor to be with you. In sickness and in health, yeah?"
"Are you saying wedding vows?" You joke. "I mean... I never believed in marriage for me but you make me think about it." Eddie shrugs," Dont need a piece of paper to validate my feelings for you." You smile softly," Yeah."
A few seconds pass before Eddie clears his throat, face flushing," So, uh, do you need heat? Will that help?" You slowly nod.
Eddie stands," Then I am going to go pop the rice bags in the microwave for you, and then im gonna run to the laundromat to get the clothes in the washer because I think Wayne will actually kill us both if he comes home in the morning to no clothes."
You laugh lightly," Til death do us part eh Munson?" "Not even death could separate us my love."
#He does exactly what he says and while the clothes are washing he runs to the grocery store#No one is gonna steal in this God fearing town and if they even attempted they wouldn't like Eddie's stuff anyways#But Eddie goes to the store and gets your favorite candy and maybe sugar isnt the best but it will make you feel better#All he wants is to see you smile#He comes home after the stuff is dried doesn't even fold it at the laundromat just tosses it back in the laundry baskets letting it#Get wrinkled and he rushes home and gives you your favorite shirt that is still slightly warm#Would even go to help you put it on except you swat at him and joke that he can't cop a feel right now#Which makes him gasp dramatically then cups his own chest and asks if you wanna feel his#You throw the shirt you just took off at him#Eddie Munson x reader#Eddie Munson x you#Eddie Munson x y/n#Eddie Munson/reader#Eddie Munson/you#Jade is talking
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came home and our petsitter had left US a handmade collaged thank you card w an attached giftcard, for supporting her business and being a good tipper and trusting her w our pets it was literally so sweet and so unnecessary omg
#she’s wonderful she does such a good job w our little guys#goose is a good dog w lots of training#he’s just. also 85 lbs and has some quirks and we live in an apartment so taking him out to potty is an ordeal#and you gotta be on a swivel for approaching dogs#and our kitty is a shy girl w some separation anxiety#thankfully kitty LOVES this petsitter#everytime i’ve hired her i get videos of the cat purring and playing and climbing her cat tree#the first few sitters we hired never so much as saw kitty bc she was hiding so much#and goose loves everyone#but he’s big and excitable and not everyone knows all the cues he’s trained to do so ya know#it’s a big ask to have people watch them#and she just always goes so above and beyond#she literally was mopping the floors bc goose was tracking in mud#so unnecessary and nice#i can’t believe we found her on rover of all places too lol#so happy to be able to pay her off of rover so she gets the full amount#i’m an anxious pet haver i think#in that IM willing to care for challenging creatures but asking others to take on that job is really stressful#and she always says ours are the easiest of the week LOL#idk if that’s true but hearing it makes it so much easier to be present when we are out of town#idk just feeling lucky :-)#leaving them w a sitter was the most anxiety provoking nightmare ever before we found her so the relief is unreal#personal
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"Cuhut it out- you guys!" "Nu-uh, not until you're all perked up first! You don't want those gym challengers meetin' with an ol' mopey leader, do ya?" "Whitney's right, dear friend. No need to hide that beautiful smile of yours, alright?~"
What it takes to cheer up Johto's beloved ghost boy 👻💕
#some incredibly self-indulgent fluff for my own sake SKJDFSNDFS#Morty was having one of Those days where the weight of his responsibilities as leader and expectations as someone meant to bring back Ho-Oh#-felt a little too heavy to handle (more so than usual)#luckily his best friends (and mayhaps crush of nearly an entire decade) are here to take a stand against his low mood 🤼#I've been having brainrot of Whitney's dynamics with these two alrighttttt they all deserve to be silly with each other#best wingman award goes to this girlie for putting up with these two's mutual pining antics for years sdkfjskjdfh#the way I see it Morty and Whitney were besties way back before they had even become leaders (with Morty being the older between them)#there were definitely rumors going around between their towns about how they're an item#when the reality is that Whitney's more focused on winning the affections of the other cute girls she hangs out with#while Morty's a repressed gay lad burdened with religious guilt SDJFHUISJDNFS /LH /LH#the second Whitney caught wind of Morty actually developing a crush on someone you just Know she was on his ass Immediately#asking about aaall the details--who he is- what he does- how he dresses- if he could even conceivably pass her standards of how a--#--fitting partner for her best friend's meant to be#to which an incredibly exasperated Morty struggles to answer because Eusine is just beyond his comprehension /affectionate#when Whitney does eventually get to meet him in person the first time she most certainly takes a jab at his fashion sense SDKJFSDFNS#BUT they do end up getting along a lot better than Morty braced for- which was a huge relief to him#it soon reaches that point where Eusine's secretly asking her for details on the things Morty likes and how to possibly impress him#all the while Morty's asking her for advice on how he could cope with his feelings when he's still unsure on whether they'd be requited#Whitney finds the whole ordeal simultaneously very funny and perhaps one of the most frustrating things imaginable SDKJFSKDNFS#enough of me yapping thouuughhhhhh I should save that for its own post 🏃♀️🏃♀️🏃♀️#pokemon tickle#gym leader morty#morty pokemon#gym leader whitney#whitney pokemon#mystery man eusine#eusine pokemon#eusine#lee!morty#ler!eusine
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I got cock blocked so hard last night by my coconut allergy.
#there’s this guy I’m friends with#he messages the group chat asking if anyone wanted to have a movie night instead of going to the bar and I said I’m down#I assumed it would be me him his boyfriend and his boyfriends boyfriend who is visiting town#I get there? it’s just me and him#so I’m nervous as hell because suddenly this looks like a hook up and I don’t hook up with my friends#particularly because I don’t know this person that well on a personal level#real cutie tho#so we watch long legs and both did not care for it#then we watched 27 dresses and he made me a drink#important note: I haven’t drank since February#we get drunk and flirty#start kissing#that old song and dance#and after like making out for at least an hour we can’t contain it and we agree to fuck eachother#right as he is about to put it in me he goes by the way this lube is coconut based so it might feel weird#and I recoil in horror as I almost went into anaphylaxis via my asshole#and then we just cuddled and jacked off#but yeah coconut based lube is a thing#and it almost killed me#woulda been worth tho
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I've started playing Potion Permit, and so far it's one of my favorite games I've messed around with, but the most big brained move the devs made was giving you a dog on day 1, and then making that dog able to track NPCs and lead you directly to them no matter where they are in the town.
#im still early game but i like the play and the writing is passable#like#Theres a flatness#the characters Are distinct but theyre mostly just their jobs#with only a few who stand out and have like. something to really grab onto#Like rue? rues entire deal is little girl you can date. Nothing else behind those eyes. She has nothing better to talk to you about#than the fact her favorite color is red#Sorcelia? Sorcelia is a goth nun who loves singing and teaches one of the village children#Reynerd? sure is a guy#got nothing else to say about him. hes just a Guy™. Victor? Has ghost friends and loves bugs and cares deeply about the cemetery#he tends to. At the moment it feels like they're trying to imply there aren't actually ghosts. and hes just talking to himself/#insisting his imaginary friends are real people#and so far? The games been cool about it. Victor's a member of his community and his eccentricities are accepted and not ridiculed#all four characters ive mentioned are romance candidates. but its just as hit or miss with the regular towns folk#Opalheart is an older woman and a world renowned blacksmith who only takes jobs if they will do Good. regardless of whether or not they#pay well. She declines to make a dagger for a rich man but makes a helmet for a childs father bc the girl asked#and olive is here#anyways you can be best friends with a cat (shes just a regular cat) and i appreciate that#idk im putting it above sun haven in my ranking of life sim games#purely because there are older romance candidates.#no fat romance candidates. but sun haven doesn't have thise either.#and sdv has neither fat or old candidates Nor can you fuck a cat boy. it goes at the bottom.#gameplay wise sunhaven is at the bottom then sdv then potion permit at the top. sunhaven has the Most™ but having#a lot of crap doesn't mean its fun and it ends up making half the game feel really incomplete#idk. Sdv is a game you should've started playing a year ago. sun haven is a game that perpetually needs another year worth of updates#before id say its worth it bc the devs keep pushing content ™ updates instead of quality of life or polish so what is there is uh#Bad. plentiful. and a large portion is good#but a Lot is just bad.#its insincere and cant take itself seriously it gives you (the right dialogue option) an (the shit joke option) which is worse than just#i ram out of space. tldr. potion permit is good Now. sdv Was good. sun haven Might be great Eventually
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imagine nyc!rory and stars hollow!jess au……..
#what if jess was born and raised in stars hollow and liz left so he stayed with luke. he is just a simple town boy who loves books#and everyone in town just LOVES him! he is an angel#and lorelai escaped to nyc at 16 with baby!rory#but nyc got expensive and rory has been trying to get into this school in hartford#so lorelai renting that apartment in the nearby town……#goes to her parents asks for a loan to pay for chilton……#just. the possibilities of 32 lorelai being NEW in town with 16 years old rory :’)#and no one likes rory but jess DOES#head full of thoughts#jess x rory#rory gilmore#jess mariano#gilmore girls#or speaks now
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CANNIBAL TOWN CLINIC – EXAM ROOM
Alastor sits on a cracked vinyl examination table, jacket draped over the chair beside him.
Calliope sleeps in a sling against his chest, bundled and oblivious. Alastor keeps a protective hand on her as a tired, no-nonsense doctor peers into his throat with a small light.
Doctor: Throat’s inflamed. Any chills? Dizziness?
Alastor: Only this morning. Bit of nausea. Some… vomiting. I’m not one to get ill, Doctor. I just want to be certain I’m not contagious.
Doctor: You’re lucky you’re in Cannibal Town. We’re the only ones who know how to handle weird physiology without fainting. *he draws blood. Alastor looks away—tense. The blood that flows into the vial is normal red, rich and opaque. Alastor sighed in relief to himself*
Doctor: I’ll run the tests. Might be a bug. You’ll have the results in three days. Meanwhile—no stress, lots of fluids, and take these *hands Alastor a small bottle of fever reducers* Don’t worry, they’re child-safe. Won’t hurt the little one if she’s still nursing. You’re lucky—whatever this is, it hit light. Could’ve been worse.
Alastor: *faint smile, gaze dropping to Calliope* Yes… I suppose we’ve had worse. Thank you, Doctor.
He rises slowly, clutching Calliope protectively, her weight grounding him. As he leaves, the vial of his blood sits glinting on the tray—red, not gold, and yet somehow wrong. Off. Like something inside is still changing…
#bedtime broadcast#alastor#hazbin alastor#ask alastor#hazbin hotel#alastor is a dad#alastor hazbin#calliope#alastor’s daughter#baby calliope#cannibal town#Alastor goes to doctor
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heyyy don’t mean to bother you but did you know that um. You, now - the ones listening to my idling progress from back home in Glottage - you’re telling yourselves; Val cannot possibly be growing angry over something like this. How dare she? The hypocrite. How can this thing, this monster, this battle-saint, possibly find any kind of righteous anger in her twisted and repurposed heart for the lives of the fallen foe? How does our terrible Val think she can justify any kind of anger at the sight of the flattened and buried corpses of enemy civilians and enemy children, when we’ve already been listening to her murder police officers, soldiers and townsfolk single-handedly in turn? How can she be furious when we’ve heard her butcher her way through the little old ladies of the CLS in the hopeless effort to murder her own faraway mother? (Mockingly) See? You can be sacred and yet self-aware. Yes, I am culpable. I am dreadful. I have been responsible for great atrocities and I will commit a great many more before I’m done. And still - I am growing furious, as I walk through the devastation of this town. Because the wound of Sutler’s Weald is not like any wound I would make. It’s clumsy, it’s crude. It’s thoughtless. I begin to tell myself, as I walk - I wouldn’t have murdered them like this. I would have been kinder. I would have killed them quickly or gracefully, and there would have been beauty and strangeness in the manner of it. And even that’s all deception, even if I had been cruel and slow and lingering in the massacre of these innocent people, upon my whim - I would at least have looked them in the eyes, and I would have borne the weight of my cruelty. If they’d asked me to, I could have killed this town beautifully. And I’d have borne witness to the horror, and I’d have rejoiced in it - and it would have been considerably less vile and ugly than this. The ones back home, the ones who are listening in, I don’t think they know what they’ve done here. The line of connection between the victim and the victimiser, the sacrifice and the god - it’s long, and tangled, and indistinct. A god should not be able to avert her eyes. What a terrible thing it must be, to be monstrous and not even know it. And even if all of this is lies, even if I am just as bad and just as careless as the people back home who did this to Sutler’s Weald… …well, then, let me hate them, pure and simply, for being just as bad as me, because people - -people should be kinder than the gods that eat them. The town square is largely intact. A few burning cars, a single shrine and statue to some goddess of victory, her snapped-off arm raised in imagined triumph. I sit down upon the pavement in the ruined heart of the town, and I tell the dead people of Sutler’s Weald beautiful lies. I tell them that they survived, in their hundreds - miraculously and inexplicably, dodging the bombs. Not a single victim, not one death. An act of divine mercy. When that doesn’t work, I tell them that they were buried properly, according to whatever rites or customs they happen to cherish. When that doesn’t work, I try and turn them into my mother again, in the hopes of making the dead people hateful to me. When that doesn’t work, I tell them that I’m sorry. I tell them I wish they still had ears to become all the wondrous imaginings I had in store for them. I tell them… …that all things considered, they deserved a better avenging and foreign god, a better tormentor, a better oblivion, than the one that was forced upon them. (With cold fury) I tell them- I will find a way to give them something better.
#SORRY for the wall of text but i thought about val siltverses for to long and felt blood slowly begin to leak from my ears#you understand. anyways pov i show up in s3 i have absolutely soul-crushingly devastating worldbuilding implications attached to everything#i do i inflict twisted body horror and mommy issues on the citizenry i do a whole bunch of war crimes like actual for real war crimes not#in a hahaha joke way like actual for real on screen war crimes and i’m also kind of a walking war crime/act of state-sanctioned violence/#victim of the system/perpetrator of the system myself and i get the best monologues in a show that’s made up of 80% monologue by volume and#then you think about me for the rest of your life.#‘If they’d asked me to I could have killed this town beautifully.’#‘What a terrible thing it must be to be monstrous and not even know it.’#‘people should be kinder than the gods that eat them.’#ALL BANGERS ALL THE TIME SHE LITERALLY NEVER ONCE MISSED!!!!!#one day i will attempt actual valnalysis but it will not be anytime soon i fear because i literally cannot think about her for to long.#silt verses chock full of the characters of all time bc i don’t think she’s even my real favourite out of all of them that honour goes to#carpenter or paige depending on the day. and yet she absolutely haunts me.#*stares in podcast rambling*#tsv#the silt verses#tsv s3#val tsv#tsv spoilers
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Cool so I get to start training in a forge and welding and steam engine maintenance and fitting on weekends
#it’s.#okay.#it’s still Setting In but. I personally wanna ask the guy why#like ‘hey you SAW my list of medical conditions right? you know about the heart disease and seizures and physical mobility issues RIGHT?#I mean hell yes. I can’t wait bc i can work up to working on ships. people who have historical engineering skills are needed Bad on ships#at least the ones I wanna sail (tall ships my beloveds)#but I do love trains too. a lot. I like knowing How Things Make Other Things Do The Thing. it pleases me#ships and sailing always my first love#but the choo choo…#I got the email today from the manager and I’m way the hell out of town atm BUT!!#hey if I can survive America heat I can survive a welding shop. I think. we’ll see how long I last#tbh I think they said yeah bc they’re so desperate for volunteers and people willing to learn on the job#(it’s basically an internship tbh. unpaid apprenticeship)#so he looked at my medical issues and went ‘well if you die or get maimed. well. we’ll see what happens. you have two hands so that’s good’#no but honestly I am very very VERY excited#it’ll only be one MAYBE two weekends each month and they do have rooms on site for staff and volunteers who travel#(I doubt I’ll need them I know a guy 20 minutes away from the place who’ll let me crash)#so it’s not strenuous or biting into my already busy week#(being on a committee is fun….. *sobs in someone forgot to take minutes at last meeting*#anyways#this story is still developing#FINGERS CROSSED everything goes smoothly#even if I just did a Saturday….#I can work on ships………..#I COULD POSSIBLY GAIN ENOUGH EXPERIENCE TO JUSTIFY VOLUNTEERING ON A SHIP#AAAAH#(I do love a forge though… I can’t WAIT to try blacksmithing… even as an assistant/trainee/‘adaptable helper’)#yes I’m absolutely using ‘adaptable helper’ in this instance because. lol.#OKAY BUT IM SO EXCITED AND SO NERVOUS I REALLY WANT THIS TO GO THROUGH#soon as im back in the country im gonna try and nail down some dates
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#so I have a ‘friend’ who is a complete control freak and I’m starting to think she’s a narcissist too lowkey#I wanted to host an ides of March party on Saturday and she was so vocal about how dumb she thought it was#until our other friends voiced interest in it. then she was all over the idea.#well she automatically assumed we were having it at her apartment until I said I thought we could have it at my place since we have#the fenced in yard and fire pit and it’s supposed to be perfect fire weather this weekend. she got huffy about it but ended up agreeing#well I made a comment in our groupchat saying I would get little ceasars pizza to add to our potluck#(everyone was supposed to bring a stabbable food or Roman themed food or whatever)#she immediately starts ranting about how gross she thinks little ceasars is and how we cant possibly do that#I told her she was supposed to bring a dish anyway and that I was paying for the pizza#and she was like ‘why can’t we just get a different brand and stab it with knives?’ and at this point I’m over the entire conversation and#I’m just like ‘do whatever you want ig’. so then she sends a pic of frozen pizza and asks if that would work and I was like sure Idc#so TODAY she makes a comment in one of the group chats about how her fuck buddy is coming into town and she’s bringing him to the party#I messaged her privately and was like ‘I don’t think I’m comfortable with him coming.’ and she goes ‘#‘can I ask why?’ and I very calmly go ‘because I’ve never met him before and this is my parent’s house.’ also she never asked me if it was#okay and I’m exhausted from traveling the past two weeks and don’t have the bandwidth to meet new people rn. I just wanted to hang out wit#my friends. and she comes back with ‘I just assumed we always had an oven door policy so I didn’t think I had to ask maybe because we ALWAYS#hang out at your place??? who in their right mind just assumes shit like that? so she starts saying that she doesn’t think it’s fair to#leave her fuck buddy at her apartment for that long and that she’ll just skip. I told her I didn’t want her to think I don’t want her to go#so I offered to move it to next weekend so more of our friends could come too and she agreed. then she asks if I want to tell everyone or if#she needs to and so I sent our group a message just explaining that since a lot of people were too busy this weekend we could move it to#next weekend so everyone could go. THIS BITCH then proceeds to send a message about how she’s probably busy next weekend but everyone can#come to her house on Saturday to watch movies instead. like wtf???#I feel crazy rn because she’s making me feel like a grade A bitch over this#and I’m just…..SO fucking mad about all of this.#Liz’s personal tag#Liz rants
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aside from crpgs the other genre im autistic about is farm sims. but because nothing can ever be easy i've been obsessed with them since i was 7 and have a complex about liking them before stardew / before they were cool. anyway i played 10 hours of story of seasons last night and it's bad! i need to stop complaining about how bioware got bad because the way these games went downhill in quality makes inquisition look like a masterpiece
#it's olive town. i played it when it came out and thought it was Fine but in retrospect it's really bad. even the latest harvest moon mobile#game is better and if youd have asked me 5 years ago i would NOT think that would be the case.#stardew is fine but i resent it for the impacts it's had on the genre... now every farm sim has to be 'cozy' and it's the go-to cheap#game people pump out with no effort#fields of mystria looks ok but like... im so tired of early access farm sims there's one every year#i AM eyeing up sandrock for when it goes on sale now it's pretty much complete tho... i like portia#currently not able to handle anything with mild peril like a 5 year old. so enderal replay is on hold until further notice#doing bad! well. i think im coming out the other side maybe but we'll see how it goes.
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