The Boy Next Door - V
Of all the things she could’ve ordered, it had to be a sex toy. And of all the people who could’ve been her neighbor, it just had to be coffee shop Harry.
I wont get into it until you’re finished reading, because I do have a lot to say. But I will say I’m sorry it took me so long to complete this story, and that I worked harder on this part alone than I’ve worked on any other story I’ve ever written. I love you guys, and I hope you enjoy. xx
(Part One HERE)
(Part Two HERE)
(Part Three HERE)
(Part Four HERE)
***PLEASE DO NOT REPOST WITHOUT PERMISSION***
The next few days feel slow and uneventful, and anxiety looms over Nova’s head at every second. She goes through the motions-- class, gym, home, repeat-- every day, but every step she takes feels wrong and strangely uncomfortable. She misses Harry-- of course she does, but it’s a weird sort of emptiness. Was she in the wrong? Was Harry?
Jessie notices something is off with her on Tuesday morning when Nova doesn’t even look up from her spot at the kitchen table. But Nova brushes it off, saying that she’s just tired and didn’t get much sleep the night before. Which is partly true.
Nova’s mother catches on that something is wrong on Wednesday afternoon, when Nova responds to her texts with very few words. Nova apologizes, telling her that she’s busy writing a paper. Also partly true.
Thursday night, Nova cries herself to sleep, annoyed at herself for being so hung up on this. Her phone lays beside her, with a half composed text message to Harry, asking if they can talk and telling him that she’s so sorry. Before that, the text had been angry, yelling at him for never responding to her or letting her explain, but she’d felt horrible about it the minute she’d typed out the final word and had promptly erased the entire thing.
It’s on Friday that Nova finds herself particularly angry about the situation. On the one hand, she knows she wasn’t wrong. Of course she wasn’t wrong. How could Harry have expected her to know? Obviously she couldn’t have read his mind. She hadn’t known he was going to confess his feelings on that stage, like a cheesy romantic comedy. But if she had, she would’ve paid better attention.
And on the other hand, she feels guilty. One thing she’s learned about Harry is that he isn’t a mushy or vulnerable person by any means. There is no denying that her talking to that guy-- Jason-- looked bad to Harry. How could he have known it was innocent? He must have been so nervous, and he’d obviously given his plan lots of thought only for her to go and not pay attention. He had a right to be upset with her.
But again, how on earth could she have known?
Nova lets out a sigh that’s a bit louder than she’d anticipated, and it’s then that she remembers she’s in class right now. Her cheeks grow hot when her professor-- Dr. Hoffman-- shoots her a look of confusion. His lecture stops only briefly, with enough of a pause to let everyone know that Nova had just let out a sigh of annoyance. But thankfully, he doesn’t acknowledge it any further. He just turns back to the board and continues writing whatever it was he was writing.
Nova sinks down a bit further into her seat. She wishes she could talk to somebody about this just to get it out of her head.
It isn’t necessarily that she can’t talk to anybody. It’s just that it’s such a strange story that she doesn’t even really know where to begin. It isn’t like she could just call up her mom about it-- there are, of course, details that she feels are essential to the story. She could talk to Jessie, sure, but Jessie’s solution would likely involve confronting Harry face to face, and Nova isn’t sure she could do that just yet.
Harry is the one she wants to talk to. More than anything else right now, she wants to sit with Harry on their park bench again, lay her head on his shoulder, and explain everything. Harry is the only one she feels would understand this situation completely, and she feels like they both have so many feelings that they need to sort through together.
She’s considered texting him. Several times actually. But where would she start? A simple “I’m sorry” wouldn’t cut it, but she’s not exactly sure she’s even ready to fully apologize. Or if she even needs to apologize at all. And Harry certainly hasn’t made any effort to clear things up on his end either.
And then her thoughts are full circle once again.
Dr. Hoffman clears his throat and turns to his desk, concluding his lecture and reminding everyone to complete their online assignments this weekend. The class buzzes back to life with soft conversations and zipping of backpacks, tuning out his words entirely. Nova glances at the clock, surprised at how quickly her class went by and realizing how little she’d paid attention. Everyone is already beginning to file out of the room, and she realizes that she’s lagging.
When everything is zipped into her backpack, she rises to her feet. Dr. Hoffman continues to eye her, and Nova feels bad, really. She knows that Dr. Hoffman expects more of her, especially because this is one of her better classes this semester and she’s one of his most vocal students. She participates frequently, always presenting questions and opposing arguments, taking detailed notes, and even staying after to ask follow up questions. But this week she’s said next to nothing and, truthfully, has hardly paid much attention at all. And though she knows it won’t be hard to get caught up by the end of this weekend, she does feel guilty and a little bit stressed at the thought of falling behind.
She shoots Dr. Hoffman a smile and an awkward thumbs up as she makes her way to the door. (Why did she give him a thumbs up? What could that possibly mean to him? “Hey man great lecture even though we both know I wasn’t listening!”)
When she exits the room, she is instantly swallowed up in a sea of student walking the long stretch that makes up Winston Hall. A good 80% of them walk with their noses buried into their phones, and the rest share rather loud stories about their plans this weekend or a test they’d just taken. It makes Nova chuckle, seeing the obvious difference between the undergrad students—especially the freshmen— and the students closer to her in age. It’s a difference that Nova had considered subtle up until this past year or so. She hadn’t realized how small freshmen looked to her until she’d had a freshman classmate in Dr. Shuff—Rick’s— class.
And then Nova nearly stops walking when it clicks in her head… she needs to talk to Rick.
On more than one occasion Nova had found herself staying after class to talk to Rick about anything they could think of. Her life, his life, it didn’t matter. Rick was a younger man, though still older than Nova. He was about 35 or 36, if she remembered correctly, and he had always given her the best advice when she’d needed it. His wife had just given birth to a baby girl who’d they’d called Penelope, and Rick was constantly showing Nova pictures and sharing stories of all of the baby’s firsts. Rick was someone who Nova considered a friend as well as a teacher, and now she walks with a bit more of a spring in her step at the thought of speaking to him again. He’ll know exactly what she’ll need to hear, and it’ll be good to catch up on his life as well.
Nova winds around the corners of the halls and follows two flights up stairs upwards. She walks the all too familiar path that had once been her absolute favorite, until she reaches the open door to Rick’s room. She hears two faint voices coming from inside, so she knows there isn’t a class going on at the moment, and Rick isn’t going to care if she pops in to his conversation. Still, she politely raps her knuckles against the door frame twice to announce her presence before entering the room.
When she turns the corner into the room, however, she stops dead in her tracks.
There’s Rick, who hasn’t changed at all since the last time she’s seen him. He’s half leaning, half sitting casually against his desk with his hands palm-down on the edge and his feet crossed at the ankles. And of course, there in front of him, is Harry standing tall and awkward, wearing a striped jumper and looking just as startled as Nova probably is.
“Nova!” Rick’s greeting is enthusiastic, and it’s clear he’s already twelve steps ahead of both Nova and Harry. He’s smirking like he knows a secret, and Nova realizes they must have been talking about her.
“Wow!” is all Nova can manage to choke out. Harry’s cheeks turn red.
“What’s goin’ on, Nova?” Rick smiles. “Come on in. Haven’t seen you in a while.”
“Um. Actually I--” Nova glances from Rick to Harry, and Harry’s eyes seemed glued on her. His expression hasn’t changed once other than his cheeks going redder and redder by the second. His mouth stays open, like he was mid-sentence before she came in, and he and Nova seem to realize this at the same time because he closes his mouth with an embarrassingly loud chomp.
Why is she so nervous? She had been fully confident less than two minutes ago. Of course she wanted to talk to Harry but god, not yet. She wanted to have time to think through what she was going to say. She wanted to talk to Rick, to have Rick tell her to stop being a chicken and tell Harry she’s sorry. She wanted to imagine every possible way the conversation could go, any possible response Harry could have. But now here he is, gangly and visibly uncomfortable and, of fucking course, beautiful. This was not at all her plan.
Nova turns back to Rick. “Actually I just realized that I have to do some homework. I have to leave. Um. Super hard homework. It’s due at midnight. I have to go.”
Nova turns on her heel and almost runs into the wall as she makes her escape. She lets out a nervous laugh that doesn’t sound at all like a laugh the minute she’s in the hallway. Her heart is pounding in her ears as she walks, and she feels absolutely ridiculous for all of this. Why did she react that way? What were they talking about? Why did Harry look so nervous?
And then, and she isn’t sure what on earth it is that possess her to do this, she stops walking. The inner voice inside of her gives her the advice she’d known all along. She needs to face this head on.
She thinks back briefly to the conversation she’d had with Harry about how every decision she’d ever made in her life had led her here, and she knows that this is a sign. Harry is here, now, and the situation cannot be prolonged any further.
Nova curses under her breath. She knows exactly what she needs to do right now, and the image of Harry looking cozy and soft and adorable and awkward keeps playing in her mind, motivating her to make her decision. No matter how scary this is for her, she has to do it.
So she turns back around and marches straight back into Rick’s room.
She hasn’t gone far, which means that she’s back in the room in under ten seconds. Harry and Rick have hardly moved-- both of them remain frozen watching the door. Rick is still smiling. Harry still looks mortified.
Nova takes a deep breath. “Hello. I’m back.”
Rick nods his head. “Hello.”
How on earth is she supposed to do this? She clears her throat. “Uh. Rick, this is my friend Harry.” Harry winces a little, something that is hardly even noticeable, and Rick snorts.
“Yeah we’ve met actually.”
“Oh.”
Harry won’t meet Nova’s gaze. “Yeah, class just ended.”
And now Nova feels like a total idiot. Of course class just ended. She knew Harry was taking Rick’s class because she’s been more or less tutoring him since they’d met. Harry was probably just asking Rick for extra help, since he and Nova weren’t on speaking terms. Nova blinks a few times, processing all of this. “Oh.”
Rick nods, changing his stance and crossing his arms across his chest. “How have you been, Nova? Still enjoying your classes?”
Nova can’t take her eyes off of Harry, who’s nervously fidgeting with the long sleeves of his jumper. “Uh,” she stammers. “Yeah. For sure.”
“That’s good.” Rick raises his eyebrows, like he’s expecting Nova to say something else. She clears her throat once again.
“How’s Penelope?”
“She’s great, she’s just learned how to crawl so you can imagine how stressful it’s been around the house.”
Nova offers a half hearted chuckle, and even Harry cracks a smile at the thought of a tiny baby wreaking havoc while crawling around on all fours. But other than her pitiful excuse for a laugh, there’s a thick silence in the air-- made worse by the ticking of the clock hanging above the door.
Rick lets out a nasally laugh after a few beats. “Was there something on your mind, Nova?”
Of course Rick would ask that. He knows her so well. And although she did come in here to talk to him about what was on her mind, she can’t bring herself to do it. Not now, with the source of all of her issues standing right in front of her and not even meeting her gaze.
“Uh.. well, I just wanted to see how you’re doing.”
“Mm.” Rick nods his head, shoving his hands in his pockets and looking from Nova to Harry. He looks back and forth, back and forth, while the all-knowing smile never once leaves his face. Finally he sighs, straightening his back up “Well, listen. I’m not going to pretend like I don’t know what’s going on here.”
Nova and Harry exchange a glance then, and the tips of Harry’s ears become visibly red. “Dr. Shuff,” he says quietly. The sentence ends with a period, because truthfully Harry has no idea what else he wants to say. Rick is absolutely right.
Rick eyes Nova. “Nova, would I be correct in assuming you came to speak to me about Mr. Styles here?”
Styles. The name plays back, over and over in Nova’s head. How had she not known his last name was Styles? It’s so perfect, so fitting for him. Harry Styles. Nova feels herself swooning just the tiniest bit, but the sinking feeling in her stomach keeps her anchored. She picks nervously at her fingernail.
“Uh. Yeah. You would be correct.”
“And Mr. Styles,” Rick angles himself so he’s facing Harry now. “Your story about your friend-- the musician, right?-- messing up his chances with a girl in the crowd.” Harry tucks his bottom lip between his teeth as Rick continues. “Your friend wouldn’t happen to be in this room right now, would he?”
“How could you tell?” Harry doesn’t show any sign of amusement or embarrassment. He just stares blankly at the whiteboard beyond Dr. Shuff’s shoulder. He never had been good at lying.
“Believe it or not,” Rick says slowly. “I was at your show that night.”
“What?!” The question comes from both Harry and Nova at the same time, and it makes Rick laugh.
“Don’t look so shocked. I may be a professor, but I’m not an old man. I like to have fun too, you know.”
“Rick--”
Rick cuts Nova off, offering Harry a warm smile. “Your band is rad, Harry.”
Harry smiles, the first genuine smile he’s given during this entire conversation. “Thank you!”
“I mean it. I thoroughly enjoyed myself. You’ve got some serious talent.” Rick turns back so that he’s angled towards the both of them. “But. Something happened that night, didn’t it?”
“Yes sir.” Harry speaks quietly, and Nova nearly rolls her eyes.
“You don’t have to be so formal, Harry.” It’s the first thing she’s said directly to him, aside from “oh” and she doesn’t like how bitter it sounds.
Harry shoots Nova a look that is a mixture of hurt and annoyed, but Rick holds up his hand to stop anything from blowing up unnecessarily. “Nova. Something happened that night that you both clearly need to talk about, and I can’t be the middleman forever here. You both came to me, so I’ll be happy to help in any way that I can. But it’s obvious that this is something that you both really care about. It’s something that needs to be discussed, and addressed calmly, by both of you.”
Once again, the silence is back-- thicker this time. Harry runs his tongue over his teeth, looking anywhere but at Nova. A million thoughts run wild in Nova’s brain. She’s angry that Harry seems angry. She’s hurt. But at the same time, she wants to run over to him, throw her arms around his neck and kiss him all over. She chooses, instead, to bite at the inside of her cheek.
To everyone’s surprise, Harry is the first to speak. “Nova, I’m sorry.” He still refuses to look at her, but his admission makes her soften the tiniest bit. “I wasn’t thinking. You could never have known.”
Nova doesn’t know what to do, and she looks at Rick for guidance. He raises his eyebrows at her, as if to say “Well? Your move!” It makes her nervous. Why won’t Harry look at her?
“Harry… “ She blinks a few times, as if that’s going to clear her mind. She doesn’t know what to say, and she stumbles over her words. “I don’t…. I mean… You’re right. I couldn’t have. At all. I didn’t… I had no idea. You got so mad… I wasn’t….” She trails off in a sigh. Realizing how tense she is, she lets her shoulders drop. The answer wasn’t good enough, not at all, but processing this is hard for her.
Harry laughs, almost bitterly, and shrugs his shoulders. “Deserve that kind of response I guess.”
“No, what I mean is…” What does she mean? Rick’s gaze is burning a hole into Nova’s face, and Nova wishes that it was Harry’s instead. She groans and tries again. “What I’m trying to say is--”
Nova is cut off by a voice as two young boys enter the classroom. One carries a skateboard under his arm, and the other is talking loudly about some girl he’d “fucked”-- as he so graciously put it-- last night. The two are visibly younger than Harry and Nova, and they all stare at each other for a brief moment when the boys realize they aren’t alone in the room.
Harry clears his throat, as the entire situation becomes even more painfully awkward than before. Rick smiles, relaxing his stance completely once again. “Nova, Harry, Intro to Physics is about to start. Would you like to join us?”
Nova didn’t even know that Rick taught undergrad classes. She glances from the boys, to Rick, and back to Harry-- who is now staring at her dumbfounded.
“Uh, sorry,” is the only thing Nova can offer. “We’ll uh… we’ll come back another time.”
More students begin filing in the room and Nova turns on her heel to leave. Of course this would happen. She hears Harry begin walking as well, thinking maybe he’s going to follow her and try and continue the conversation.
“Guys?”
Both Harry and Nova turn to see Rick still looking at them. He offers them a reassuring smile. “Remember what I said, please. Talk to each other. Be kind.”
Neither Harry or Nova moves at first, hoping that he’ll offer them a bit more advice. Nova is about to say something else, but Rick has already turned to greet another student, who has a question about homework.
Harry is the first to resume walking, heading straight for the door and offering Nova a thin-lipped smile. He brushes past her then, and she gets a whiff of his scent. His smell-- the smell she’d come to love, and miss more than anything-- takes her by surprise, and for a split second any and all anger she’d felt melts away.
Immediately she turns to exit the room, nearly bumping into another student. It takes her a few moments of scanning before she sees which way Harry’s gone. “Harry!” she calls.
He doesn’t turn around.
Nova’s heart is pounding as she watches him shove earbuds into his ears. Half of her wants to stay here, watch him disappear into the crowd, and then head home so she can angry cry.
But hell. She’s already come this far.
“Hey!” Nova calls, louder this time. She doesn’t even have time to register what she’s doing, her feet are carrying her so quickly down the hall. Before she knows it, she’s close enough to him that she can smell him, and she reaches up to touch his shoulder.
Harry knows it’s her before he even turns around, as if he was expecting this. He yanks his earbuds out of his ear and stops walking. “At least let me get outside first.”
“Why won’t you talk to me?!” He voice comes out exasperated as she walks around to stand in front of him. “Harry, you can’t keep avoiding this!”
Harry rolls his eyes, looking over the top of Nova’s head at the crowded hallway, considering what he’s about to say. “Well we’re not going to do this here, are we?” It isn’t a question.
“Then where?” Nova presses. “When?”
Harry doesn’t have an answer for her. He knows he wants to talk to her about this-- so, so badly, but he also can’t very well express himself in the way he wants to with all these people around. He lets out a long sigh. “Follow me.”
He doesn’t offer her any explanation, he just begins walking. Nova has no choice to follow behind him, like a puppy dog with its tail between its legs. Harry takes a few turns, and the walk takes longer than Nova is expecting. She almost thinks that Harry is trying to ditch her, and she’s about to say something, when he stops in front of a door labelled “Tutoring.”
Nova has seen these rooms before but she’s never been behind one. She knows there are several designated tutoring rooms located in practically every building, but the only open for anyone with a key card-- meaning designated tutors who’ve made appointments with their tutee.
To Nova’s surprise, Harry retrieves his wallet from his back pocket and, after a few moments of searching, presents one of the aforementioned key cards. He holds it up to the magnetic lock and, presto, the door opens.
Harry pushes the door open without any further explanation, only realizing how strange this looks when Nova doesn’t follow him in. He shrugs. “I used to tutor kids in music theory last year. Surprisingly this thing still works. Unlocks any tutoring room in any building.”
Nova still doesn’t say anything, so Harry chuckles, nodding his head over his shoulder. “Coming?”
For a split second, it feels like everything between them is fine. Nova shakes her head in an attempt to clear it and makes her way into the room.
When Harry closes the door behind her, Nova is almost shocked at how quiet everything gets. The room is so small, with a somewhat large table in the center of it surrounded by wheeled chairs. There’s an old TV in the corner of the room-- the kind that Nova’s high school teachers would play educational films on during half days-- and a whiteboard along the farthest wall. It looks almost like a miniature classroom, complete with obnoxious fluorescent lighting that somehow adds to Nova’s anxiety, and there are no windows to be found. They are completely alone.
Harry drops his backpack onto the floor and makes his way over to the table, sitting on the edge of it the way Rick had been sitting against his desk. He shrugs, letting his hands slap against his thighs. “So talk.”
Nova is taken aback by his abruptness and seemingly nonchalant attitude. She furrows her eyebrows. “Excuse me?”
“You’ve obviously got something to say so let’s hear it. Are you going to tell me I’m wrong again?”
It’s amazing how quickly Nova’s attitude goes from sad, to excited, to angry. She scoffs. “What is wrong with you? You really mean to tell me you have nothing more to talk about? You think this is on me?”
“Of course I don’t.” Harry is remaining surprisingly cool on the outside, though inside he can feel his stomach twisting up in knots. “You’re the one who followed me though.”
“So, once again, you were just going to ignore this?”
“Once again?” Now Harry’s voice raises a bit. “What on earth does that mean?”
“You’re exhausting, Harry. Why won’t you just talk to me?”
Harry offers her his smug grin that, under any other circumstances, she would find sexy. Now she just wants to slap it right off of his face, especially when all he says is, “We’re talking right now, are we not?”
Nova sighs through her teeth, and her voice is just on the brink of yelling. “You can’t keep running from this you know!”
“Oh, I know I can’t!” He says, rising to his feet and moving towards her. Everything about him is big, and he looms over Nova in a way that she’s never noticed. “I’m not trying to! You’re the one that doesn’t want to talk. You don’t want to hear it, and you’ve made it very clear.”
“Excuse me?!” Nova blinks a few times, and her hand subconsciously finds it way to her hip. “What the hell does that mean?”
Harry scoffs. “You’re so good at always getting your way, aren’t you? You want me to beg, and I’m not going to do it. I tried to apologize, Nova. Just now. In front of Dr. Shuff. And you shut me down.”
Nova rolls her eyes. “Oh my GOD. You are so fucking dramatic, you know that? I didn’t ‘shut you down’ in there. I’m allowed to be upset, Harry, I just need time to think through my words. I have to think about how to tell you that I’m sorry. Okay? God, I’m so fucking sorry, but you know what? I was the one who apologized! The very night it happened! But what did you do?”
“Nova--”
“You ignored it, Harry! So don’t tell me that I’m the one who ‘doesn’t want to hear it.’”
“How come you’re the only one who gets ‘time’ to think, then? You expected a response right then and there? I was allowed to be hurt, too, you know.”
“You had this whole week to think through your response, Harry. You had the entire week to forgive me, and you didn’t!”
“And where were you?” Harry’s voice raises now, matching Nova’s in volume. “Hm? Where were you this whole bloody week? Because I didn’t hear from you either.”
“You ignored me Harry!” Nova reaches up to run her fingers through her hair. “Are you kidding me?! What the fuck else was I supposed to take from that?”
She’s right. Harry knows she’s right, but dammit, so is he. He has absolutely no idea how to respond, so instead he just lets his eyes close. He breathes softly, allowing his anger to subside just a bit. “Nova,” he says quietly after a beat, “We’re just going to keep going in circles here. This is helping no one.”
Nova’s cheeks grow hot. She notices the shift in Harry’s temperament, and it drives her crazy, but she knows he’s right. Talking in circles is clearly solving nothing. “So how do we stop then?” She’s still upset, but her voice has lowered too. Now she just wants to cry. “What do we do, Harry? Tell me what to do and I’ll do it.”
Harry scans her face, trying to come up with an answer to her request. When he falls short, he sighs, shaking his head. “I don’t know. I don’t fucking know.”
Nova swallows, wanting nothing more than to reach up and stroke at his cheek. She refrains, of course, but her fingers curl and uncurl, just itching to touch him. “Harry--”
“Don’t look at me like that,” he says. His tone isn’t angry, its sad. “Please. I don’t know what to do, Nova. I miss you.”
The pressure behind Nova’s eyes builds just a bit, and she tries to blink it away, knowing that if they continue this way she’ll be crying in no time. “I miss you, too. How do we fix this?”
Harry reaches forward to take her hands in his, and Nova swallows at the contact. It’s so simple, so soft. She repeats herself. “How do we fix this, Harry?”
“I feel like a fucking idiot,” he says. It isn’t an answer to her question, it more so feels like he’s working everything out in his own mind.
“You’re not an idiot,” she says, blinking up at him. “You aren’t at all.”
“I am though. This whole thing is so dramatic, and there’s no good reason for it. I turned it into this whole....thing. I overreacted.”
“You didn’t--”
“You couldn’t have known.”
Nova’s heart sinks, and she gives his hand a squeeze. “You couldn’t have either. You know that.”
“I think…” Harry sighs. “I don’t know what I think. I care about you a lot. I fucked up. I overreacted and I know that. But when I didn’t hear from you--”
“Stop.” Nova lets go of one of his hands, finally giving in to her urge to cup his cheek. She forces him to look at her. “Stop it.”
“I’m sorry.”
Nova’s face feels hot, and when she blinks she’s not surprised to feel a tear slip down her cheek. “I’m sorry, too,” she says.
Harry leans his head down the slightest bit, until he’s close enough that Nova can feel his breath. He hesitates a brief moment, both of them just drinking in the feeling of being close to one another again, before fastening their lips together softly. It starts out as just a peck, almost a question, asking the other if they’re alright with this. But when neither makes an effort to pull away when their lips come apart, they have their answer.
Harry’s hand finds its way to the back of Nova’s neck while his other hand slides up her waist. It feels so good, so absolutely perfect to be here with her like this again. He’s thought about this every night, falling asleep to the thought of kissing her, tasting her in the most innocent way. Intimacy in the softest form.
He sighs into the kiss, hardly removing his lips from hers. “You smell good.”
Nova hums into his mouth, reaching up to wrap her arms around his neck and tangling her fingers in his hair. She traces his bottom lip with her tongue, and he gladly complies, opening his mouth for her and pulling her even impossibly closer.
It’s beautiful, but it’s sad. Tension fizzles in every corner of the room, and they know that nothing has been resolved just yet but god, do they need this right now.
Both of Harry’s hands find their way to Nova’s hips, and he guides her gently backwards until her backside presses against the table. She shifts a bit until she’s sitting on it, with Harry resting between her legs.
“I wish you were mine, Nova.”
His words catch her off guard. “I am,” she says, pulling away. She doesn’t remove her hand from his face. “I have been for a while.”
Harry says nothing back, he only continues to kiss her. His hands travel along her spine and into her hair, and his lips trail along her neck softly. Nova sighs when he hits a particularly sweet spot, and he loves the sound so much that he sinks his teeth into the spot just to hear it again. She reaches for one of his hands and squeezes it. “I’m yours, Harry,” she says softly.
He sighs, removing his lips from her neck and resting his forehead in the spot where neck meets shoulder. “You’re an angel, baby. You aren’t mine.”
“What does that mean?” Nova says sadly, lifting his head with both hands and looking at him. “Of course I am. Stop saying that.”
“I never asked,” he says. “I never made you mine. I did it all wrong.”
“It isn’t too late to fix it,” Nova replies, offering a soft smile that makes him melt. “We can forget this.”
“How?” he asks. “If we’re going to keep fighting--”
“We both said we’re sorry!” Nova uses her thumb to stroke at Harry’s cheek. “I miss you. I want to be yours.”
Harry’s eyes dart from Nova’s eyes to her lips and back again, and he presses one more soft kiss to her lips before standing fully upright. He smiles at her, letting his nails trail softly up and down her parted thighs when he speaks. “I miss you so much.”
“So let’s stop then.” She leans forward, kissing him once more. “Let’s move on.”
“I want to,” he says. “Darling, I want to so badly.”
“So let’s do it.”
“We just need time.” He offers her a sad smile. “Just a little longer.”
Nova’s heart sinks at his words, and she lets out an exasperated groan. “Harry what are you talking about?! We’re fine now! We forgive each other!”
“I just….” Harry sighs. “I need to stop feeling sorry for myself, I think. I need time to sort through everything.”
“Tell me what you want me to do!” Nova’s words echo what she’d said when they’d first entered this room, but now she feels more vulnerable about them. “I’ll do it, just tell me. Please.”
“I can’t,” he says, shaking his head. “I don’t know what I want you do to. I don’t know what I want to do. I just want to go back to a week ago. I want to go back and do this the right way.”
“We can do it the right way now!” Nova says, whining when Harry pulls away. “Stop doing this to yourself!”
“Can I tell you something?” Harry says, now standing just out of Nova’s reach.
“Of course,” she says. “Anything.”
“I know that we haven’t known each other a very long time when you really think about it. And I know that all of this has been turned into something so much more dramatic than it needs to be. But you know what?” Nova doesn’t say anything, wanting to give him time to work through his thoughts. He nods his head, as if coming to a realization. “I’ve never felt this way about anyone else in my life, Novocaine.”
Nova’s heart melts at the nickname that she’d grown so fond of, and she feels her eyes prickling with tears. “I feel the same way about you, Harry.”
“Which is why,” he says slowly, “we need time. We need to do this right.”
Nova sighs. “Harry you’re driving me crazy.”
“I know, sweet girl,” Harry says. “I’m just overwhelmed, I think. Like, I feel stupid. I didn’t expect to see you today, you know? I just… I think I just need a moment to process all of this.”
Nova snorts. “We’ve had a week, Harry.” But she gets it. She knows he’s right, and truthfully, she needs to do a bit of processing herself.
“Look. I forgive you, you forgive me. We’re okay on that front. But we can’t… do this right now. Not right here.”
“When then?”
Harry smiles, ignoring her question and walking over to his previously discarded backpack. He picks it up, slinging it over his right shoulder. “I do have classes today, you know. Classes where attendance is crucial to my grade. Quit encouraging me to be a bad student.”
Nova rolls her eyes, but of course she’s happy to be back to their usual banter. “Fine. Go to class then. Just text me later.”
Harry raises a hand, playfully saluting her and making her giggle. “Yes ma’am.”
When the door closes with an echoing thud, Nova can’t help but stare a while longer. She reaches up to touch at her lips, frowning when she realizes that they’ve been chapped this entire time. She can still taste Harry on her tongue, and his smell still lingers in the air around her. His words keep playing over and over in her head-- he’s never felt this way about anyone else, Nova isn’t sure if she should be scared or excited by that.
She smiles to herself, fishing around in her purse until she finds her phone. Pulling it out, she scrolls straight to her messages with Harry. It feels good to be able to do this again, to text him without having to worry about it. Quickly she types out a message and hits the little blue arrow without thinking.
“Is it later yet?”
-----
Nova spends the rest of the day in a daze, replaying Harry’s words over and over again in her head. He’s never felt this way about anyone else in his life, and god knows Nova feels the same about him. But why won’t he talk to her? Why won’t he fix this now?
Jessie pushes the issue again for the first time since Tuesday, and Nova considers telling her everything. She knows Jessie won’t judge, and she thinks that maybe Jessie will have an answer for her as to what the hell Harry meant about needing time. But just as Nova’s about to bring it up, Jessie groans at a text on her phone.
“God, Jade is driving me fucking crazy.” She tosses her phone onto the couch next to her.
“Oh yeah?” Nova pulls her legs up to her chest, and grins at Jessie from where she sits at the dining room. “What’s going on?”
Jessie launches into this entire story about her “best friend” Jade, and Nova tries to listen-- really-- except everything is making her think of Harry. As much as she hates feeling like a teenager with her very first crush, she can’t help it. The thought of Harry’s lips against her neck makes her heart flutter, and the memory of his warmth between her thighs makes her weak. She just wants to hear from him again, even if he thinks they need time.
Thankfully Jessie doesn’t pick up on how distracted Nova seems to be when she gives her advice. Nova has heard Jessie talk about Jade like this a million times, so she pulls from her memory bank to offer words of encouragement and agreements that “yeah, Jade sucks.” When Nova’s phone buzzes mid-sentence, she can’t even help but to trail off and glance down at her phone.
Of course it isn’t Harry.
Jessie snorts, snapping Nova’s attention back to the present situation.
“What?” Nova blurts.
“Is it that one British dude from the party?” Jessie asks, nonchalantly tossing her hair over her shoulder and picking up her previously discarded phone. “The guy who walked us home?”
Nova bites at her bottom lip. “What do you mean?”
“You know what I mean.” Jessie smirks but she doesn’t look up from her phone. “Did he text you?”
Nova sighs. “No. He didn’t.”
“You wanted him to though, huh?”
“I mean—“
“Kid, I may have been drunk that night but I’m not stupid. There’s definitely something going on, is there not?”
“Well….” Nova trails off once again. “There is. Or I guess there was. There might be. I don’t know.”
Jessie sits up a bit. “Nova! What the hell!”
“What?!”
“You’ve been letting me go on and on for fucking ever now about all my problems. I didn’t know you had yourself a man!”
“I don’t!”
“You sure?”
Nova groans and rests her head in the palm of her hand. “I don’t know, Jess. It’s complicated.”
“Okay so let’s unpack this.” Jessie drops her phone into her lap, fully ready to go into a therapy session. “You had a man.”
“I guess so.”
“What happened?”
Nova pauses only briefly before unloading the situation on Jessie. She, of course, spares quite a few details but the gist is still there. Jessie listens diligently, only interjecting a few times but generally being completely understanding. Nova doesn’t realize how long she’s been talking, or how much she’s saying, until she finds herself a bit winded when she reaches her ending point.
Jessie remains ever patient, smiling at Nova and waiting to be absolutely sure that she’s finished her story. When she doesn’t continue, Jessie nods-- letting out a breath she’s been holding this entire time. “Well,” she says slowly. “That was a lot.”
“Was it?” Nova frowns.
“You wanna know what I think, kid? Honestly?” She doesn’t give Nova any time to answer. “I think you’re both being disgustingly dramatic for no reason.”
Nova snorts, shocked at Jessie’s bluntness. “What?!”
“So you messed up because you weren’t paying attention to his one brave little confession of love, and now suddenly you’re both crying and avoiding each other? Are you guys in high school?” Jessie puts on a terrible British accent in an overly deep voice, mimicking Harry. ‘I ‘fink I jus’ need sum mo’ time to wallow in my own self pity.’ Give me a break.”
“Harry doesn’t sound like that.”
“And you!” Jessie laughs. “You’re gonna beat yourself up over this? Still? A week later? Come ON.”
Nova is laughing now, too. Jessie may be blunt, but her words are appreciated and they definitely help Nova out of her own head. “Alright, so what do you suggest I do then?”
Jessie glances at the time on her phone before swinging her legs over the side of the couch and rising to her feet. “Well,” she says. “I’m about to leave for work. Invite his ass over.”
“I don’t know if he wants to talk about this anymore.”
“Oh my god,” Jessie says, rolling her eyes and slipping her phone into the waistband of her yoga pants. She begins heading into her room. “You’re not gonna get anything solved if you keep that attitude. There’s no use dwelling on this anymore. It’s been a week. Either it’s meant to work out, or its not.”
Once again, Jessie doesn’t wait for Nova to respond. She disappears into her bedroom, scrolling through her phone.
In a weird way, Jessie’s words give Nova a surge of confidence. Of course she wants to give Harry his time, but Jessie is right-- the whole situation feels entirely too dramatic for Nova’s liking. While she doesn’t expect things to go right back to how they were, she doesn’t want to dwell on this any longer. She misses him, and after their short interaction today Nova finds herself craving more.
With a smile, Nova pulls out her phone. As soon as she unlocks it, it opens straight up to a brief conversation she’d had with Harry earlier today.
-Is it later yet?
-Cheeky.
-Missed you though. More than you know.
-We’re going to be just fine, Harry.
He hadn’t replied because he’d been in class, and Nova almost feels embarrassed to be sending him a double text. But she tries to embody the spirit of Jessie and keep her confidence levels up. So she clears her throat, as if she were about to verbally speak with someone, and shoots him a text.
-What are you doing right now? Come over!
Nova hits send without even thinking, but instantly feels the panic begin to rise up in her stomach. She reads the text aloud, quietly to herself, and then immediately shoots him another one.
-We don’t have to talk anymore about what happened
-We can just hang out if you want
-Like, watch a movie and stuff
-But then again, if you want to talk about it, I’m good with that as well
With each text she sends, Nova can feel her confidence draining. This is why she hadn’t wanted to tell Jessie in the first place. Although she knew the girl talk would do her some good, she wasn’t Jessie. Anxiety bubbles up in Nova’s stomach, reaching her chest and pooling at the base of her neck. Her throat feels completely dry, and she rises to her feet without hesitation. Dropping her phone face down onto the table, she makes her way into the kitchen to get a drink of water.
It will be fine, won’t it? Yes, things technically haven’t fully been resolved just yet, but at least it’s still the same Harry. Harry knows her. Double and even triple texts had never really been a problem for either of them thus far. Surely Harry won’t mind.
With a water bottle in hand, Nova gulps down a few sips and makes her way back to her spot at the dining table. Her hand shakes slightly as she reaches for her phone, and she almost fully closes her eyes when she turns it so that the screen faces her.
He’s responded, and Nova doesn’t know whether to be nervous or happy. As if on autopilot mode, she unlocks her phone to read his message.
-I wish I could. I’m out right now running errands.
Nova bites her lip, trying her hardest to not feel left down. Her fingers seem to have a mind of their own, and although her actual mind is begging her not to, she types and sends out another message to him.
-That’s fine. Maybe later?
-If it would make you feel better, we could hang out somewhere public.
-I was thinking of getting a coffee in a bit. That might be fun!
She groans, using one hand to rub at her face. Stop fucking texting him Nova.
-What time later?
His response is quick, leaving Nova hardly any time to think through her response. She glances in the upper left corner of her phone to read the time- 1:51.
-Uhhh… maybe 3? Does that work?
Why is she doing this? After Harry clearly said he needed space and time, here she is making an absolute buffoon of herself. If he says no, she won’t blame him. Her phone pings with another message.
-Can’t. I have band practice at three. :(
Then again, she might blame him a little.
Nova sighs, setting her phone down, then picking it back up. Her mind goes back and forth between whether she should text him or just leave it there. As if to add fuel to the flames of her gut-wrenching embarrassment, he texts again.
-Sorry, love.
She swallows then, willing herself not to cry. It isn’t that he doesn't want her, and she knows that. He’d said so earlier, he wished she was his. But here she is, practically giving herself to him, and for what? For him to be busy. For him to need more time; a request that, for some reason, she struggles to honor.
Blinking back a few small tears she replies.
-It’s okay! I’m still probably going to go anyway so just let me know if you change your mind
-You can just meet me in the hallway if you do
Why did she say that?
-Or even in like, the actual coffee shop. Cause I’ll be there one way or another at 3
It’s useless. Nova knows it’s useless but she can’t seem to stop embarrassing herself. She sees the gray dots that indicate Harry’s typing and immediately powers off her phone-- knowing that it’s the only way to end the conversation with a bit of dignity.
She lets out a sigh and reaches up to wipe at her slightly damp eye as Jessie clomps back into the room in her heels. It hasn’t taken her long at all to get ready for work, and that’s one thing that Nova has always envied about her. She still looks gorgeous, of course, and she shoots Nova a blinding smile.
“Well?”
Nova plays dumb. “Well what?”
“Is he coming?”
“Uh.” Jessie is, of course, coming from a good place, and Nova knows that. Still, she isn’t sure she’s ready to get into this any further with Jessie. Like Harry, Nova needs time to process. So she offers Jessie a smile. “I think so. We’re probably gonna meet up in a bit.”
“Ugh, thank GOD.” Jessie makes her way over to where Nova sits, bending down to wrap Nova up in a hug. “See? Everything will be fine.” She combs her fingers through Nova’s hair, sending a chill up the younger girls spine, before straightening up and heading towards the door. “Don’t wait up,” She calls over her shoulder, grabbing her keys off the hook by the door. “Jade and I are going out for drinks tonight after work.”
“Jade?” Nova questions, turning in her seat. “I thought you hated her now.”
Jessie scoffs, opening up the front door and slipping through it as she speaks. “She’s annoying the fuck out of me but I don’t hate her. Besides, a drink is a drink!” She raises her fingers to her lips and blows Nova a kiss, wiggling her fingers at the end. “Bye kid! Good luck!”
When the door closes, Nova is left alone with the silence that follows. It’s so loud it makes her uncomfortable, and she lets out a long and overly dramatic sigh.
She eyes her bedroom door then, as a thought creeps into her head.
At least she knows one sure fire way to relieve her own stress.
--------------
It’s 2:46pm, and Nova is coming down from the high of not one, not two, but three of the most incredible orgasms of her life.
She’d always heard that orgasms were an amazing stress reliever (something about dopamine or serotonin, if Nova remembers correctly) but truth be told she’d never used her vibrator while stressed. Stress tends to be a common theme in Nova’s life, however, and now that she knows just how good a stress orgasm can be, she foresees lot of time alone in her bedroom in the near future. The pleasure--however fleeting-- is enough to heighten her mood just a bit. Every source of her issues has been forgotten.
Well, almost every source.
Nova had allowed herself to think of Harry while playing with herself, although it did take a bit of work to make her brain shut up about all the texts she’d sent to him earlier. She had been drowning in embarrassment up until the vibe had hit a particularly sensitive spot, causing her mouth to fall open and a rather loud “oh” to fall from her lips. It was the first time in a while that Nova hadn’t worried about her volume levels for any reason other than letting Harry hear her. Who cared if he had anyway? And besides, she hadn’t heard him come home since they’d texted. (Not that she’d been paying attention of course.)
She glances at the analog clock on her bedside table. (The clock that Jessie always made fun of Nova for still having.) She has about 10 minutes to get ready if she wants to be at the coffee shop around 3.
Nova knows Harry isn’t coming. He’d flat out told her he wasn’t. She feels like an idiot for holding on to a bit of hope that he’ll be waiting there for her, but still. (Besides, even if he doesn’t show up, a coffee sounds great.) She rolls lazily off of her bed and begins going through the motions of getting cleaned up.
Her phone remains forgotten and blank on the dinner table, and Nova eyes it suspiciously as she makes her way towards the front door. For a moment she considers taking it with her but ultimately she decides against it. Should Harry change his mind, he deserves to have a hard time getting ahold of her.
She gives the apartment a once over, making sure she hasn’t left anything plugged in or any lights turned on. When she’s certain that everything is in its place, she grabs her keys and opens the door. She hardly looks up as she exits, nearly bumping into the wall of a person in front of her.
She looks up, ready to give this person a piece of her mind for being so bloody close to her front door, when she stops dead in her tracks.
There’s Harry, now wearing a black hoodie over the jumper he’d adorned earlier. His hair is a mess, as if he’d just gotten out of the shower, and he raises his eyebrows almost challengingly before Nova can even get a word out.
“Harry,” Nova breathes, her mouth hanging open in shock. “What… I--”
“Don’t look so surprised, Novocaine.”
Nova shakes her head. “I didn’t think you were going to come.”
“Yeah. Well.” Harry smirks. “You always have been good at getting your way.”
Immediately Nova nearly collapses into his arms. It’s like a scene right out of a Rom-Com, and probably entirely too dramatic given the circumstances, but Nova doesn’t care. She wraps her arms around his middle and presses her face into his chest as close as she can get it. Harry’s arms grab at her, as if relieved, and he gently guides them backwards into her apartment.
It’s an awkward stumble and Harry accidentally steps on Nova’s toes once or twice but soon they’re standing in her living room. With one hand still around her, Harry reaches behind him to close her front door.
Then they waste no time. They continue to stumble around, arms wrapping around one another, lips kissing everywhere they can possibly reach. Their teeth even clink together a few times just from how sloppy and haphazard their kisses are. They speak between kisses, breaking up their sentences in awkward places.
“I’m sorry,” Nova breathes. “I’m so so sorry.”
Harry kisses all over her face. “I’m so… sorry. You have nothing…. To be… sorry for.”
“I do. I really… do.”
“But you don’t.” Harry reaches up to cup Nova’s face in his hands. He holds her gaze, and the misty look of her eyes melts his heart. “You absolutely don’t Nova, do you hear me? I’m the asshole. I’m an overly dramatic prick.”
She frantically grabs at his face and pulls him down to fasten their lips together once more. “You’re not--” kiss “--an asshole.” She kisses the corner of his lips. “I am.”
“You’re not.” Harry’s hands find their way under Nova’s bum and she jumps a little, wrapping her legs around his waist. “Please don’t say that.” He kisses her cheeks rapidly, moving back and forth. “You’re not, you’re not, you’re not.”
It’s so desperate and messy and a little bit awkward as Harry stumbles through Nova’s apartment into what he assumes is her bedroom. All the while they’re continuing to breathe out apologies and half coherent explanations.
“I wasn’t thinking. I should have--”
“I shouldn’t have expected you to--”
“We both could have--”
“How could you have known?”
“I wish I hadn’t--”
“I’m so sorry.”
“I know, I’m sorry, too.”
When they finally get into Nova’s room, Harry drops her a bit ungracefully onto the bed. He wastes no time in plopping down next to her and continuing to kiss her. They’re both smiling into the kiss, maneuvering their way around the bed so that they’re comfortable and have the easiest access to each other’s lips.
“Harry I--”
He cuts her off with another kiss. “Please. Please don’t apologize, baby, there’s nothing for you to apologize for.”
“When I danced with him, I--”
“I know, sweet girl.”
“We talked about you the entire time.”
“Don’t need to explain yourself to me.” But then, Harry does pull away from the kiss, and his familiar smirk teases at the corner of his lips as her words register in his mind. “The entire time, huh?”
Nova giggles. “Yes. We really did. I couldn’t shut up about how hot you are.”
Harry chuckles and pretends to flip long hair over his shoulder. “Well, who can blame you. I mean with my killer looks and my horrible attitude when you aren’t devoting your full attention to me? Come on now.”
Nova’s giggles turn into a full blown laugh and she lightly pushes Harry. “Harry, oh my god. Don’t. Don’t do that.”
Harry’s beaming now, clearly happy to have her smiling again. “Do what?”
“Apologize. Talk bad about yourself. You did nothing wrong.”
“I did though.” His face gets a bit more serious, despite his smile never leaving. “I shouldn’t have assumed--”
“Harry.” Nova reaches up to stroke at his face, and Harry takes her wrist in his hand. He slowly turns his head to kiss her palm.
“I shouldn’t have planned it that way,” he continues. “I should have told you so long ago about how I felt. Instead of making an idiot of myself.”
Nova’s eyes get misty once again. “You didn’t make an idiot of yourself.”
“Well I didn’t exactly act like a winner that night, did I?” Harry chuckles, kissing Nova’s knuckles before dropping their hands to rest in his lap. “I should have never assumed anything. I should have never acted… like that… when my plan didn’t go smoothly. How could you have known? You couldn’t have. I blew it, and you don’t deserve that, Nova. I’m sorry.”
“I’m sorry,” Nova says, for what must be the 80th time in the last five minutes. “I should have been paying attention. I should have thought about how it must have looked. I--”
Harry shakes his head. “Stop it.”
“Listen, if you get to apologize then so do I.” Harry laughs, which only causes Nova to furrow her eyebrows. “I’m serious!”
“Alright, alright! Go for it.”
Nova clears her throat for dramatic effect, before continuing. “You’re right, I couldn’t have known. But I still could have-- should have paid much, much better attention than I did. Jason meant nothing to me. He was into Clare, actually. He wanted me to hook him up with her after the show.”
Harry snorts. “No shit. Clare?”
“Yup, and he was super annoying about it the whole time, too!”
“Should’ve figured that, I guess. The man was practically drooling over her at our gig a few weeks ago. Makes sense.”
Nova giggles, giving Harry’s hand a squeeze. “I could’ve been a little more clear. I didn’t need to dance with him. I didn’t think about how it would look. So. I am sorry.”
Harry eyes Nova for a few minutes, a cheeky little smirk spreading across his face. “What was that?”
“I… didn’t need to dance with him?”
“No, no. After that.”
“I’m… sorry?”
Nova almost doesn’t have time to get the words out before Harry’s kissing her, hard and sloppy and quick. She giggles in surprise, and when Harry pulls away he’s beaming. “One more time? Didn’t quite catch that.”
“I’m--”
Harry does it again, even quicker this time before Nova can even get her apology out at all. She’s melting into him, giggling into his mouth.
“Once more? Still didn’t really get it.”
“I’m--”
And once again, they kiss.
Their game goes on for a few more moments, their giggles and mumbled words filling the room, until finally, Harry doesn’t pull away. Instead his hand snakes behind her neck, his thumb resting on her cheek. They’re both smiling wide, and Nova relaxes a bit until she’s laying back against the pillows of her bed. Harry, of course, follows suit, laying down beside her and propping his knee between her legs.
They stay like that for a bit longer, kissing and smiling, with Harry’s hands trailing lazily from her hair to her neck and up and down her arms. When he pulls away, it’s only slightly, his face still only a few inches away from hers. “Missed you so fucking much.”
Nova beams, leaning in to kiss just under his neck. “Missed you.”
He reaches up to run his knuckle along her cheek, the spot just before her ear, and she leans affectionately into his touch. “Have I ever told you how pretty you are?” He says slowly, eyeing her as if she’s the most interesting thing in the world.
His fingertips are feather soft, and Nova giggles as she rolls over onto her tummy. “You may have.” She turns her head to kiss the tip of Harry’s thumb before taking it softly between her teeth. “But say it again.”
“You’re beautiful.” He makes no effort to free his thumb from her teeth, and his eyes light up a bit when her lips enclose around it. Her tongue grazes lightly against the tip, and he lets out a breath. “God, baby.”
Nova pulls off of his thumb with a soft pop noise, leaving it to rest softly against the pillow of her bottom lip when she grins at him. “I like it when you call me that.”
“Baby?”
She grins like a little girl, pressing a few quick pecks to his finger. “Yeah. Say it again.”
Harry props himself on his elbow with a smile, leaning in so he’s closer to her. “Baby.”
“Again.”
He draws out the word slowly as he leans closer, then presses his lips to her neck. “Baby,” he repeats, punctuating the word with another kiss.
She giggles, her shoulder rising as his breath tickles a spot just below her ear. “This is probably so cheesy to say.” Harry purposely bites the spot that made her giggle, and she full on flinches away from him with a squeal and a laugh. “Harry don’t, I’m trying to be romantic!”
“This is romantic,” he says, pulling her closer by her hip and pressing another kiss to the spot. “Go on.”
“I was just going to say that I think that’s my favorite nickname you’ve ever called me.”
“Oh yeah?” Harry pulls back just a bit so he can look at her. “Better than Novocaine?”
“M-hm.”
“Better than SuperNova?” Harry sounds shocked and it makes Nova snort.
“I think you’ve only called me that once.”
“Do you want me to call you that again?”
“Mmm,” Nova pretends to think long and hard, pressing a finger to her chin. “I don’t know. It’s kinda sexy.”
“Right,” Harry says, nodding. “Noted. What else do you like to be called?”
“Anything that comes out of your mouth.”
Harry smiles, scanning his face before leaning in for another kiss. “Now that was a cheesy thing to say.”
Nova laughs, shrugging up her shoulders and reaching up to tangle her fingers in his hair. “I can’t help it! Maybe it’s your accent.”
Harry raises his eyebrows. “Oh is that all?”
“Yeah. It has nothing to do with the guy saying the nickname.” Nova is beaming as she gently tugs on his neck, bringing him with her as she relaxes once again against the pillows.
Harry’s voice is low and syrupy when he speaks, lips still grazing against hers. “Alright, that’s also noted.” He kisses at her cheek. “Baby.”
Nova sighs as his lips continue their journey along her cheeks, her nose, her forehead-- uttering nicknames all the while.
“Princess.”
“A bit cheesy, but I can’t say I hate it.”
“Sweetheart.”
Nova hums out a sigh, basking in the love he’s giving her and closing her eyes. His petal soft kisses raise goosebumps along her skin. “What else?”
“Angel.” He bumps her nose with his own, kissing gently at her lips. His hands find their way to her hips, rubbing lightly at the skin there.
Nova arches her back, and props one arm behind her head as Harry’s tongue licks softly along the underside of her jaw. “Petal.”
His fingers curl ever so gently so that his fingernails scratch lightly along the waistband of her pants, dipping into them when he reaches just below her bellybutton. “Baby.” He can feel her chest rising and falling as his fingers tease at her panties, but she isn’t fully paying attention to what he’s saying. “Beautiful girl.” He bumps her nose with his own again, this time to notify her to open her eyes.
Her lashes flutter open sleepily, and she reaches up to scratch at the spot just behind his ear with a smile. “Baby.” She says it as if she’s getting used to the feeling of the word in her mouth. Harry feels a bit of a twinge of his cock when sees her like this. Just from kissing her, he’s already got her dazed and in the softest headspace. He wants to cry, she’s so precious.
He only smiles, inching his way up the bed a bit without removing his hand from her pants. “Hey.” He teases lightly at the bow that he feels on the front of her panties as he dips his head down to kiss her collarbone. “This alright?”
“Mm,” Nova says with a nod, tilting her head a bit and watching him as if she’s hanging on his every move. “It is.”
“Yeah?” Harry presses another kiss just above her collarbone, and then one to her inner arm, which is currently propped up by her head. “You sure?”
He rubs light circles against her lower belly now, and Nova has never felt more sure of anything. He leaves no spot untouched, not a trace of skin that doesn’t feel loved by him. Her skin still feels traces of his lips from where he’s kissed, and god she wants his mouth even lower. She nods her head. “Of course.”
Harry smiles, wasting no time. He allows his fingers to dip further and further into her panties until he’s skin to skin with where she’s already wet. This, of course, gives him an idea. And Harry is nothing if he isn’t a little shit.
“Sure you’re not worn out from the orgasms you just had not ten minutes ago?”
Nova’s eyes open again, and her smile fades. “How did you… did you hear?”
“Don’t go all shy on me now, baby. S’not like I’ve never heard before.”
“But you…” Nova props up on her elbows a bit, embarrassed but amused. “I didn’t do that for you to hear. I thought you’d be at band practice by now.”
“Like I said,” Harry says with a teasing grin, curling his fingers unexpectedly against Nova’s clit and making he gasp. “You have a way of getting what you want.”
He’s rubbing circles against her core now, and she relaxes once again against the pillows. She lets out a moan, obviously still sensitive, and Harry’s fingers switch to a teasingly slow pace. He never once ceases the movement as he speaks, looking down at her with the hint of a smirk ever present. “For the record,” he says, paying extra close attention to the way her body reacts to his touches. “That’s not the reason I came over.” He leans down to kiss her ear, brushing his lips along the outside. “I came because I missed you. Because I wanted to talk to you. Because I have never felt so strongly about anyone in my life.” He bites lightly at her earlobe and she shivers. “Because I was an asshole. And I needed to fix what I’d fucked up Something that wasn’t your fault.”
Nova is wiggling against his fingers, her own fingers curling into the sheets beside her and her eyes fluttering closed. But Harry knows she’s listening. Her words are spoken between moans, and she keeps taking breaks to bite at her lip-- especially when Harry slips a finger inside of her. “You’re not… you’re not an asshole… no--shit… no more apologizing.”
“I will be sorry till the day I die,” Harry says with a nonchalant chuckle, as if he isn’t absolutely destroying her with just one hand. “You did nothing wrong. As soon as I left that room today I felt like a fucking idiot. I just didn’t know how to tell you.” He noses lightly at her temple, practically melting at her scent, and presses another finger into her.
“Harry,” it’s a plea, barely above a whisper. Both of her hands find their way to his bicep and she squeezes, trying to anchor herself from the overstimulation.
“You want me to stop, baby?” His fingers slow almost completely, and he kisses the top of her head. “Hm?”
“No, no, it’s not that.” She swallows thickly. “I want you to keep going.” She looks at him with fire in her eyes. “I don’t ever want you to stop. You’re so good.”
“Oh.” Harry picks up the pace with his fingers only slightly, grinning down at her, hanging on her every moan, every whimper.
Nova lets out a frustrated whimper, reaching down to grasp at the wrist that’s attached to the hand tucked into her panties. “Please,” she says, “Go faster.”
“You know,” Harry says conversationally, completely unfazed by the way her nails dig into his skin, “Now that I think about it, you haven’t been so good yourself.” He slows his movements once again until altogether coming to a stop and pulling his fingers out from inside of her. She full on pouts at the loss of movement and it makes him laugh.
“What?!” she says, exasperated. “Just tell me what I did so I can apologize for it.”
Harry takes his sweet time pulling his fingers out from her pants, lifting them to his lips and sucking-- just as he did the night on the park bench. Nova watches him helplessly, pleading with her eyes for him to touch her again. His cheeks hollow as he sucks on his own fingers, and Nova knows he’s putting on a show for her when he looks up at her from under his lashes. She can tell that his tongue is swirling delicately around the digits and he smirks when he removes them with a pop. “God, you taste good.”
“Harry please, for the love of god, just tell me so I can apologize.”
“That desperate for my fingers, huh?” Harry wiggles his eyebrows and Nova scowls.
“Fucking hell, Harry.”
“There’s nothing to apologize for, Nova. You don’t owe me anything. But that doesn’t mean you’ve been a good girl.”
Nova genuinely wracks her brain, trying to come up with an answer. “Is this because I fucking sent you 300 texts today?”
Harry snorts, but he doesn’t break. “Come on, baby, you know me better than that.” Nova stares at him, pleading for him to just tell her. His tone remains calm and conversational, and he can practically smell her dripping between her thighs just as his words drip out of his mouth. “No? You really don’t know? Alright, I’ll give you a hint.”
He leans in closer, lowering his voice. “Do you really think that it was nice of you to use that toy without me?”
Nova shrinks a bit into the pillows, chewing at her bottom lip while a mischievous smile begins to tug at her cheeks. Now she knows exactly what she’s done. “I mean--”
“Do you think that that’s what good girls do? Using that thing to make yourself feel good when I’m not there to see or touch you?”
“But I didn’t know you were there.” Nova’s voice is dripping with innocence, but her eyes are anything but-- which sets Harry off even more.
“And you’re saying if you had known, you wouldn’t have done it?”
“Well I didn’t exactly think you wanted to see me.”
Nova’s words tug at Harry’s heart just a bit, and he breaks the act for just a moment. “You didn’t read my messages?”
Nova frowns. “What messages?”
And then it makes sense to Harry. He’d texted her around 2:30, telling her he was sorry, that he missed her and he wanted to talk to her. When he hadn’t gotten any response, he’d followed up, saying something along the lines of “I’m sorry I’ve been shit at communicating. I don’t want to hurt you anymore.” And a third text, “Are you still going to the coffee shop?”
Nova and Harry seem to understand the situation at the same time, because she suddenly gasps. “Ohhh. Oh my god. I turned off my phone.”
“Why on earth would you do that?”
“Because I didn’t think you wanted to hear from me anymore after my 900 texts!”
Harry raises his eyebrows, clearly amused, and clicks his tongue. “Nova, Nova, Nova.”
“I’m sorry!” She says, giggly and excited at the prospect of Harry punishing her.
Truthfully, they both simply chalk it up to a silly misunderstanding. But right now, they’re both in this headspace, this scenario where she’s been bad and he gets to tell her so; and they love it.
“Do you think that’s something a good girl would do?” His voice is thick and low, and if Harry’s not mistaken he thinks he sees goosebumps rising along her arm.
“Yes,” Nova says, dragging out the ‘S’ with a girlish grin.
“You do? Oh. I see.”
Nova’s bottom lip tucks itself between her teeth before she changes her mind and puckers up for a kiss. Harry laughs, poking at her cupid’s bow. “Ohh,” he coos. “You’re adorable.”
“I’m sorry?” She isn’t really, and the smile on her face makes that very apparent.
Harry looks down at her, his demeanor both condescending and empowering. “You’re not,” he says. He leans down and presses the gentlest kiss to her lips, pulling away only briefly with a smile. “But you will be.”
They continue to kiss for a while, and Harry can feel a pulsing in between his legs. They grab for one another, tugging at hair, tugging at clothes. They engage in a sort of wrestling match just to see how close they can possibly get to one another with their clothes still on, knocking a few of her throw pillows onto the ground in the process. When they find themselves beginning to undress one another, Harry has to remind himself of the game they’re playing lest he get too carried away with her.
“Where’s the toy?”
Nova blinks at him, taking a moment to register the words coming out of his mouth. Her hands, which were working on getting his pants unbuttoned, freeze mid-action. She speaks almost breathlessly. “The-- what?”
“The vibrator, Nova. Where is it?”
Instantly, Nova’s cheeks grow hot. Her fingers gently pull away from his trousers and rest, nervously clasped, on her lap. “Oh. Under the bed.” She cracks her knuckles, leaning forward a bit.
“And you’re going to be a good girl and get it for me, aren’t you?” Harry’s smirk is teasing, and Nova doesn’t even know how to respond. It suddenly feels as though her brain is running a million miles behind Harry’s, and he nods his head to try and get her attention back before repeating his question. “Aren’t you, Nova?”
“What? Oh, yes. Shit, yes.”
Nova scrambles out from underneath him and sinks down to her knees beside her bed. She sticks her arm out, reaching around until she feels the all too familiar object. Harry’s eyes never leave her, and his hand reaches up to toy with his bottom lip. It’s exciting and embarrassing in the sexiest way, and Nova almost feels silly when she stands back up and presents the toy to him.
It takes everything in Harry not to bust at the seams and tackle her to the bed while he smothers her in kisses right then and there. She’s so bloody adorable, what with her shy smile and the girlish little giggle that escapes her throat when she holds it out to him. Harry almost breaks his dominant demeanor-- almost-- but he resists the temptation because he knows she’s loving this and he’s got a job to do.
“Ohhh,” he coos, taking it from her hands. It’s heavier than he’d anticipated, and a lot bigger than he’d imagined it being. He’s itching to get it on her, but he remains patient. He smirks. “So you can follow directions. What a good girl.”
Nova lets out an almost inaudible giggle, and it makes Harry beam. “This is a pretty toy, isn’t it, Nova? Can’t imagine what it’s going to look like between your legs.”
“I’ve imagined you using it on me so many times.” Nova’s voice is small as she crawls back up onto the bed beside him.
Harry hums through his nose. “Mm. I know you have, darling. You think I don’t remember you screaming my name through these walls?” Nova looks down, taking her bottom lip between her teeth. Harry can practically feel the heat radiating from her cheeks. “You’re a loud little thing aren’t you?”
“Not all the time.”
“Oh no? Only when you want me to hear then?” When Nova doesn’t even raise her eyes, much less answer, Harry takes this as his confirmation. He nods. “I see. So you think it’s okay to tease me, don’t you?”
“Yes.”
Harry’s almost surprised when she answers him. Pleased, but surprised. “And why is that?”
“Because.” Nova seems to be coming back to earth, her daze wearing off slowly but surely. Now she’s smiling a bit, just as confident as ever and ready to put up a bit of a fight. Just the way Harry likes it.
“Because why?”
“Because you’re easy to rile up.”
Harry raises his eyebrows and cocks his head, a bit surprised at her answer but not giving up his attitude any time soon. “Am I? Is that all?”
Nova looks like she’s about to bust, and Harry reaches up to softly coax her bottom lip out from between her teeth because, truth be told, if she bites it any harder, he’s afraid it’ll bleed. “Nova, is that the only reason?”
“What other reason would I have for teasing you?”
Harry sits up a bit, scooting closer so that his face is mere inches away from hers. He lowers his voice. “You know, you may be right. It may just be that you’re a brat. A tease. Nothing more. But do you know what I think?”
“What do you think?”
“I think you want me to be mean to you.”
Nova blinks dumbly, and Harry quickly continues. “Not mean. Maybe ‘mean’ was the wrong word. But you, Nova, are so used to getting your way. And you’re tired of it. You love a challenge. You love pushing the boundaries. And no one has ever been able to keep up with you. No one ever tells you no.”
“I mean… I mean, I would never--”
“A woman of many words, I see.” Harry smirks, softening up just the tiniest bit and reaching up to stroke at her cheek. “Don’t worry, baby. Not gonna hurt you. It’s still me.” He leans in to press the most tender kiss to her lips and lingers there for just a moment before speaking again. “I am, however, about to wreck the absolute shit out of you.”
Nova giggles again, and the only thing she can manage to do is grab at Harry’s face and kiss him again. Harry smiles, the hand that’s not holding the toy finding its way to the small of her back to pull her into him. “I mean,” Harry continues. “You do deserve it, after all. And I think you’ll like it.”
She practically squeals, and Harry loves it. He loves seeing this side of her that he’s only ever caught glimpses of. She’s submissive and compliant, which is quite different from her otherwise somewhat loud personality outside of the bedroom. Harry figures its because control seems to be her thing, and this is a place where she can fully let go and not have to worry about it for once. A place where someone else can take over, and she gets to reap the benefits-- which he’s more than happy to sow. He knows he could stay here like this for hours, just kissing her and nothing more. But the cold and heavy object in his hand mixed with the stirring in his jeans reminds him that he really does have a job to do.
So Harry clears his throat, flipping the switch and causing the toy to whir to life. He grins at her. “Right. On your back.”
Nova immediately scrambles to do what she’s told, giddy and a bit overly enthusiastic. She lays back against the pillows and reaches up for Harry, taking the back of his neck in her hands and pulling him down to kiss her. He laughs at the force behind her pull, breaking character once again. “Nova,” he says, “baby, take your pants off for me, please.”
Nova puts all of her weight onto her upper back as she lifts her hips up to shimmy out of her pants. Harry helps her (because he’s still a gentleman for God’s sake) by pulling the bottoms off down her feet. Her panties are nothing that she’d consider exciting, just a striped cotton pair with lace along the hem that Harry finds incredibly endearing. She reaches to get them off, but Harry touches her hand, stopping her.
“Not yet, love.”
“What…?” Nova tilts her head, confused, but Harry gives her no time for much else. He presses the vibrator between her legs and smirks at her instant reaction.
“You didn’t think I was going to let you get off that easily, did you?” He’s watching her with a mix of admiration and smug confidence; a look that says “you shouldn’t have misbehaved, and you have no idea what you’ve got coming to you, but you brought this on yourself.”
“Now then,” he continues, pulling the vibrator away far too quickly for Nova’s liking. “Give me your hands.”
Nova is almost too quick to obey, offering her hands out to Harry with eager eyes. “Are you gonna tie me up?”
“No.” Harry takes both of her wrists in one of his hands and raises her arms till they reach her headboard, which conveniently consists of a few horizontal bars. “You’re going to be a good girl and keep them here so that I don’t have to.”
Nova swallows hard, opening up her hands cautiously and wrapping them around a bar towards the middle. Harry grins, leaning down to kiss at her nose. “What a good girl you are,” he coos, before turning the toy back on to its lowest setting with a flick of his thumb. “Hold them there.”
Harry lowers the toy between her legs once again, keeping his free hand steady on one of her thighs. He gently pries her legs open a bit more so as to gain better access, and he begins wiggling the vibe ever so gently, up and down, against the crotch of her panties.
Nova’s toes curl instantly while her back arches a bit. Harry grins, applying a bit more pressure. “S’that feel good, Nova?”
She only replies with a soft hum, and Harry notices her struggling to keep her arms up. His eyes flick up to see her gripping the bar with white knuckles and he smirks. “Keep them there, love,” he warns.
“I’m… I’m trying,” Nova pants, wiggling a bit. It’s a bit hard for her to move, considering that Harry has got her pretty well pinned by her thighs. Her eyebrows are furrowed in concentration, but the hint of her pretty smile neve once leaves her lips. “It’s hard. I wanna… wanna touch you!”
Harry lifts his hand off of her thigh for a split second to brush her hair off of her forehead. “You will soon, darling. Don’t worry.” He uses his thumb to flick the vibrator up to a higher setting, quickly bringing his free hand down to steady her when she jolts a bit. He chuckles, regaining his grip on her thigh and using his thumb to stroke the delicate skin on the inside. “Sensitive thing, aren’t you?”
“Harry-- ohhh.” Nova bites her lip in concentration, trying her hardest to focus on holding on to the headboard. She is, of course, a good girl.
Harry gradually applies pressure to her panties once more, approaching from a somewhat new angle, and without warning Nova jolts again-- this time tugging on the headboard and hitting her head with a loud bang.
“OW, FUCK.”
Harry removes the vibrator and drops it onto the mattress. He can’t help the snort that immediately passes through his lips, although he tries to hide the smile that follows. Nova lets go of the headboard with one hand, then both, and rubs at the spot on her head that has just collided with the headboard. She glances at Harry with confused eyes, and neither of them know whether or not to laugh.
“Owww,” she repeats after a beat, and then they’re both laughing; breaking character once again.
Harry reaches up to rub at the spot on Nova’s head as well, speaking through giggles. “Fuck, you okay? Hit that pretty hard, didn’t you?”
Nova is in a full on giggle fit now. “My god, OW. I’m gonna have a concussion now. Fucks sake.”
“Pretty sure that echoed through the entire building. They’re going to think it was an earthquake.”
“The San Andreas Fault has finally cracked. We are all currently floating off into the sea. The great blue abyss. Goodbye world.”
And then it’s just them again. Harry Styles and Nova Leary, two students who met at a coffee shop like something out of a fanfiction. Two people who had no idea it was ever possible to feel this much, this quickly. It scares them-- or at least, it scares him-- but ready or not, here they are. It’s an unfamiliar certainty that Harry is beginning to adore the feeling of.
Harry laughs again, scratching lightly at the place on Nova’s head that he’s almost certain is going to have a bump. They continue to joke around, and it feels so good. So natural to be with her in this way. One minute he’s dominating, authoritative over her while she wiggles beneath him, and the next they’re laughing like best friends, as if she wasn’t just on the brink of orgasm. Both situations are equally sexy in Harry’s eyes; both go hand in hand with one another and make everything between them that much better.
“How could I have been such an idiot?” Harry’s question is quiet, mostly to himself, but it quiets Nova’s giggles down.
“What?”
He leans in for a kiss, trailing his hand up her thigh once again. “You’re so perfect. Can’t stand it.”
Nova smiles softly into the kiss, one hand reaching up to cup the side of his face. With her free hand, she reaches down, feeling around until she finds the toy, unattended and still buzzing beside her.
Harry seems to have had the same thought, because when he reaches for the toy he is greeted by her hand. Their eyes open at the same time, and he smiles-- slipping right back into his dominating style as if he’d never left it. “I’m not done with this yet, baby.”
Nova relaxes back against the pillows, letting go and giving Harry full authority once again. Harry gets a good grip on the toy, flicking it up to its highest setting and lifting it back between her legs. He uses his free hand to reach for one of her own, but instead of bringing it back up to the headboard, he brings it to his own lips. He presses the softest kiss to her knuckles, mirroring the softness of the vibrator against her core, and he delights in the melodic little hum that drips from her lips almost instantly.
It’s comfortable then, their fingers interlaced and resting on her tummy while the vibrator massages through her panties. She wants to take them off-- he knows she does, but he still wants to tease her a bit more.
Harry watches her, fascinated by every face and every noise she makes, and he takes extra special note of all the times she hisses or squeezes at his hand.
“Harry,” she says, her voice rising in pitch. “Harry… fuck, I’m gonna… I’m about to--”
It’s coming without warning, so to speak, and he only presses a bit harder. He wants to tease her more, and he’s going to for sure, but he’s so focused on her every move that he’s almost in a trance.
And then she’s cumming, her whines crescendoing into an all out symphony in his ears. Her fingers squeeze heavily at his own, while her free hand bunches up the sheets of her duvet. Her legs kick out as best as they can, what with him practically resting on top of them. He’s patient as she cums, only letting up on the pressure the slightest bit, and when she seems to be finished he pulls it away.
The silence that follows is thick, especially when Harry flicks the vibrator off. He lets go of her sweaty hand hand and reaches up to run his own hand through his hair. She’s blinking dreamily, her chest rising and falling with each labored breath. Harry watches her expectantly through it all, showing little to no reactions-- even though he wants nothing more than to get his mouth on her and make her cum again.
Nova props herself up on her elbows, still trying to catch her breath. “Harry,” she breathes.
He only faintly smiles at her, raising his eyebrows slightly and looking like the cockiest little shit. “Did I say you could do that?”
Her own eyebrows crinkle in confusion. “Did you... what?”
“Were you supposed to cum yet?” His voice remains cool and calm, and Nova licks her lips.
“Was I… not supposed to?”
Harry shrugs, his gaze unblinking and challenging. “You tell me.”
“You said…” Nova trails off, scanning his face for anything other than what he’s giving her. “I thought I was allowed to.”
Harry hums, fingers once again toying with the lace along the hem of her panties. “Well,” he sighs after a moment, “I suppose I do owe you one free one. You’ve been good, and I was a prat.” He tucks his fingers into the side of her panties by her inner thigh, pulling them to the side and ducking his head down to get a better look. God, she’s fucking soaked. “Cumming in your panties, though…” He shakes his head. “Messy, messy girl.”
“So now what?” Nova asks, her tone impatient.
“Well,” Harry says, adjusting himself a bit so that he’s sitting up beside her. “That’s really up to you, darling.” He nudges her foot with his own, and she seems to become painfully aware of her naked and exposed lower half, because she crosses her legs at the ankle.
Harry smiles, reaching over and patting her leg reassuringly. “Do you want me to fuck you now?”
“Please,” she whispers.
“Or,” he says, dragging out the word, nudging her foot with his own again. “Do you want me to eat you out?”
He speaks so bluntly that Nova’s ears grow ever hotter. She swallows, admiring his unmatched and unwavering confidence that has her falling apart at the seams.
Her voice seems soft and dreamlike when she speaks; it doesn’t even feel like she’s talking. “You know what I really want?”
“Tell me, baby.” His nails trail lightly up her thigh, an action he’s learned that makes her melt.
“I want to taste you.” She’s so quiet, Harry isn’t even sure he’s heard her correctly. He halts his movements with his fingers.
“Say that again?”
“I want your cock in my mouth.” Its bold, but she tries to keep her face neutral-- something that Harry finds both adorable and sexy. He’s not sure Nova’s ever said anything to filthy before in her life, and he loves that.
His cock also loves how bold she’s being.
So Harry nods. “You may have it. If it’s what you really want.”
Her excitement is unbearably adorable as she hops up and positions herself down at his hips without even answering him. He wastes no time in pulling his pants off, and the outline of him is deliciously prominent though his boxer briefs. Nova licks at her lips, reaching for it slowly. She touches it gently, so gently that Harry feels he could cry.
“Do not tease me,” he warns. “Be good.”
Nova grins innocently, stroking him a bit through the thin fabric before reaching up to tug at the waistband. It’s a bit awkward lowering the tight underpants down his legs, but his cock is so thankful to be free once they’re off. Nova hums, eyeing it as if it’s the sexiest thing she’s ever seen.
“God.” Nova wraps her fingers around the base, just above his balls, and gives a gentle tug upwards. Harry’s toes curl inside of his socks (which he feels a bit self conscious about leaving on now that he thinks about it) and he reaches out, rubbing softly at her chin with the knuckle of his pointer finger.
“Baby,” he says. He has nothing else to add, but somehow she knows exactly what he means.
“God look at it,” she says, hardly taking her eyes off of him. He’s huge, much larger than she’d anticipated, and she almost wants to forego the blowjob entirely just to get him inside of her. But he’s been so, so good to her, and truth be told, she wants to make him feel good as well.
“It’s yours,” he says.
“Can I put it in my mouth now?” She looks almost uncertain asking him this, and he smiles.
“It’s yours,” he repeats.
Nova ducks her head, pressing a soft kiss to the tip of him before parting her velvet soft lips and opening her mouth. She envelopes him in her mouth, working slow--painstakingly slow-- as she lowers herself. It already feels like heaven, and when Harry feels her tongue brush softly against the vein on the underside of his shaft, he hisses. “Fuck baby.”
Make no mistake, he is still the dominant one here. But he is at her mercy, and she’s been good. His cock is her reward, and she licks at it like it’s a lollipop she’s been waiting for all day. She gags when the tip of him hits the back of her throat, and it’s all too much for Harry to handle.
Nova looks up at him from under her lashes then, salivating just enough that the corners of her mouth are beginning to glisten. And it’s so fucking sinful that Harry can’t stop the groan he feels forming at the base of his throat.
She pulls off just enough so that the only thing in her mouth is the head, and she swirls her tongue torturously slow around it. The noises she’s making are wet and loud, and Harry can’t bear it. He reaches forward, pausing briefly to scratch gently behind her ear before taking a bit of hair on the back of her head and pushing her down a bit more.
What she doesn’t fit in her mouth, she works with her hands. She gives him long teasing strokes, while the other hand gently fondles at his balls and fuck-- he’s in heaven. She pulls off of him entirely with a slow, teasing smile before pressing a wet kiss to the underside of the head. The shaft. The base. And then-- as if he wasn’t already seeing stars-- his balls.
Nova’s lips part briefly and she sucks lightly at one of them-- taking it partly into her mouth. “Oh fuck,” he says, “Holy fuck.” He sounds almost pitiful, the way he’s cursing and all but whimpering. She. however, is thoroughly enjoying every second of this, and he can feel her smirking against him.
She pops off of his ball with an audible suction noise, presses a wet little kiss to the other one, and then she’s right back at it, taking him as far into her mouth as she possibly can. He’s almost painfully hard at this point, and if she continues the way she is now, he knows he doesn’t have much longer.
His groans are low and deep, and he hisses when she uses her free hand to dig her nails into his thigh to keep him still. The pinch of her nails mixed with her lips around him sends a shiver up his spine, something that does not go unnoticed by her. She lifts off of him gently, a string of spit connecting her bottom lip to the head of his cock. She licks her lips and grins confidently. “Liked that, did you?”
“Always have had a thing for pain,” Harry admits, matter-of-factly. He’s never admitted that to anyone, not even past lovers, but somehow he feels more than comfortable sharing that with
her.
Nova wiggles her eyebrows. “Noted.” Before Harry can get another word out, she’s back on him, sucking as if her life depended on it. It takes him by surprise, and the long, loud, half-grunt half-whine he emits is pathetic.
It goes on like this for a while, Nova’s hands massaging his base and then his thighs while her mouth works its way around the rest of his length. Harry’s whines and pants becoming more and more desperate and woeful by the minute. And then, when he gets the all-too familiar bubbling in the pit of his stomach, he knows he’s close.
“Nova.”
She doesn’t hear him as she flattens her tongue and licks straight up the side. Harry jumps as she approaches the tip. Oh fuck.
“Nova. Baby. Hey.”
She doesn’t take her lips off of him, but she does look up at him through half-lidded eyes curtained by her hair, and he shudders. “C’mere.”
He reaches under her chin to guide her head up a bit, and pauses to catch his breath before speaking. His accent is even thicker now, and his annunciation has gone to shit. “Baby, m’close. If we don’t stop--”
“I want you to cum.”
“In your mouth?”
“In me.”
Harry doesn’t realize he’s staring at her slack-jawed until she giggles and reaches forward to close his mouth with her hand. “I mean like, use a condom but… I want you to fuck me, Harry.”
He leans forward without thinking, kissing her harshly. He can taste himself, a sort of heady taste that he finds himself a bit fond of. When he pulls away, they’re both beaming. “M’gonna go get the condom then, alright?”
Nova pouts as Harry rises from the bed. “You’re gonna leave me?”
Harry scrambles around the room to find his discarded boxer briefs, and then his pants. He snorts. “Two seconds, Nova. I live next door.”
Nova sighs. “Fine, but hurry.”
Harry rolls his eyes, but he can’t wipe the smile from his face as he disappears from her room. He feels like he’s blacked out as he makes his way from her apartment to his, and he mumbles curses at himself under his breath when it takes him a little bit to find his condoms.
He’s back at her place as quickly as his feet can take him, and her room feels distinctly warmer than the rest of the building.
Especially because of the vision he sees before him.
She’s completely naked, save for the little gold N necklace that he’s surprised he’s never noticed before. She’s so beautiful, laying there propped up on her elbows, legs together with one knee bent. When she sees him, she becomes visibly shy— averting her gaze and reaching up to stroke at her hair.
The truth is, it’s been years since Nova has been like this with another person. She remembers the last time vividly, and although it isn’t particularly unpleasant by any means, it wasn’t spectacular. Her partner hadn’t made her feel like this.
She hadn’t felt like this with them either.
Her toes curl and uncurl, and she only looks up at him when he starts moving towards her. “You’re an angel, baby.”
Her hand finds it way to her mouth and she takes her knuckle lightly between her teeth as Harry begins undressing. He knows she’s watching, and that she’s nervous, so he gives her a bit of a show.
Nova giggles when Harry strips off his shirt— Magic Mike style— and tosses it aside. He’s got quite a few more tattoos than she’d been aware of, including a large butterfly smack dab in the middle of his stomach. He notices her staring at it as he wiggles his way out of his pants, and he smiles. “Like it?”
“I do, yeah. Did it hurt?”
“Closer to the ribs, yeah. But otherwise, no. Kinda tickled actually.” This time Harry remembers to slip out of his socks, and now the only thing between them is the pair of boxer briefs he’s wearing.
Harry pads over to the bed, sitting on the edge of it and taking her hand. He kisses her knuckles once, twice, three times, before trailing kisses up her arm. He kisses her neck, her nose, and finally her lips, and he can feel the heat radiating off of her cheeks. “You still want this, yeah?”
“More than anything.” She nods confidently.
Harry smiles, leaning in and kissing her. “Alright.”
It’s all a blur from then on. They continue kissing while Nova helps him get undressed fully. She watches him unwrap the condom and helps him roll it down his length, kissing his smile the entire time. They’re giggly and awkward, as if they’ve never done any of this before, but it feels good. It’s comfortable. It’s the way they should be.
Harry lies back comfortably on his back while Nova straddles his waist. She grins at him, placing both hands on his shoulders and leaning down to kiss him one last time before sinking down fully onto his cock.
They both let out a moan as his hands find their way to her hips, guiding her down. “Nova,” he murmurs, reaching up to play with her hair while she gets used to the full feeling inside of her. “Fuck, you feel so good.”
Nova begins rolling her hips gently. The inside of her is wet and warm, and every single move she makes ignites Harry’s insides. She’s so wet he can feel it on her inner thighs when they rub against his, and her moans are quick and loud. She reaches for Harry’s hand in her hair, followed by his other hand on her hip, and she interlaces their fingers, bringing both hands down to pin them up by his head.
She tilts her head, flipping her hair over her shoulder, and leans forward to sponge kisses along his neck. Harry bucks his hips up into her when her tongue grazes the base of his throat. “Baby, holy fuck.”
Nova lets out a moan that surprises even her; it’s guttural and loud but it’s short, and she temporarily loses her momentum. Harry assumes its because he’s found her spot; the one that he’s been dreaming about finding, and he’s about to ask her what he did so that he can do it again when she cuts him off.
“I can’t--” She’s nearly yelling now, picking up speed with her hips. “Fuck, I’m going to cum again.”
Harry wants nothing more than to touch her but her hands still have his pinned, and he reckons she doesn’t even realize how tightly she’s squeezing them. He understands though, as he feels himself close to tipping over the edge.
Still, he is the dominant one here. And he intends to keep it that way.
Using the strength of his arms, he tugs a bit, shifting their hands and causing her to fall a little further forward. He lifts his head ever so slightly so that his lips are brushing her ear, and speaks just above a whisper. “How many times have you imagined this, baby? Hm?”
She whimpers, her fingers curling half into his and half into the sheets beneath them. “God--FUCK-- so many times.”
“How many times did you imagine me like this?” He allows his tongue to peek between his lips, alternating between kissing and licking up her neck. He’s exhausted and just on the brink of orgasm, but he wants this to last and whatever he’s doing is clearly working. So with every ounce of strength he has, he intensifies his thrusting.
“You’ve no idea how long I’ve wanted to fuck you, darlin,” he continues. “No idea how many times I fantasized about how fucking filthy your mouth is while you’re cumming. Next time--” he lowers his voice further, surprising even himself with how thick his accent has become, “Next time I want to eat that pussy of yours. Think you’d like that?”
He pauses his words, drinking in the sound of skin slapping skin and the feeling of her wetness against him. He looks up at her with that cocky, challenging little smile once again. “God baby, I knew I made you wet, but not this wet. Look how messy you’ve got me.”
Nova glances down to the place where their bodies meet, and somehow ends up shifting a bit in the process. Harry’s prick grazes against her g-spot once again and she shudders, halting her movements for a brief moment to let out a whine before regaining her composure and rolling her hips. “More, Harry. Please.”
His chest is covered in a sheen of sweat, and Nova is so physically close to him that he can feel her nipples brushing against it every now and then. He grunts when she lowers herself particularly fast, and he knows he’s got little to no time left. “My pretty girl likes it when I talk dirty to her?”
“Harry…. Fuck… I--”
“Christ,” he pants, squeezing at her hands. She jolts forward a little, the ends of her hair brushing against his face. “Look at you. You’re better than any fucking fantasy I could have ever dreamed up you know that? Look how desperate you are to cum. What a good girl.”
He’s thrusting up into her faster than ever, and he can tell she’s getting exhausted. So with a grunt, he uses all of his strength to sit up-- to the best of his abilities. Nova catches on to what he’s trying to do and halts her movements, scooching back ever so slightly to allow him room. He sits up against the headboard and she collapses into him almost instantly, burying her head in his neck and allowing him to take the lead for a bit.
His hands grab hold of her hips and he guides her. He turns his head to press his lips to her ear. He’s close, and he knows she is too, but in no way is he going to half-ass this. “You’re doing so well, sweetheart. That’s it. Are you going to be good and cum on my cock?”
Nova gets the same surge of energy and motivation to finish strong that Harry does, because she’s taking his thrusts and rolling along with them with all of her might. “Yes… yes!”
Harry’s low-bellied grunts escape his mouth faster and faster as he feels himself begin to tip over. Nova is all but sobbing against him, practically babbling out his praises. All he can focus on is how good his cock feels, how close he’s getting, and how now there’s a slight charlie-horse in the arch of his foot from how hard he’s been curling his toes.
And then he feels it.
The white hot silence that comes with the ringing in his ears. The pulsing of Nova’s walls as she unravels around his cock. Her pleas and her praises fall on deaf ears, and all he can hear is the pounding of his own heart in his ears. Even his own voice sounds distant and foggy as he lets out what can only be defined as a wail. It feels so fucking good, tears prickle at his eyes. He has never been this happy, never felt this close to anyone else before in his life.
-.-.-.-.-.-
“There are an infinite amount of outcomes to any given situation on the planet. Everything leads up to something else, ya know? Like, every decision you’ve literally ever made– ever– has lead you to being here right now on this bed at this party. Isn’t that insane?”
Harry smiles. “This is going a bit over my head, Novocaine.”
“But like, our decisions all lead to something. So like, maybe we just weren’t making the right decisions. But then think about it, that day at the coffee shop, literally all of the tables were taken. Literally. And then you had made the decision to go there that day, and so did I, and like… you offered me the seat at your table. And then we talked about science and that’s like, literally my favorite thing.”
“Literally?” Harry cocks his head with a shit eating grin.
“Shut up, don’t interrupt my rant. Anyway! The law of attraction is a very real and very rad thing because like, who would’ve thunk that the cute guy that offered me a seat was my neighbor?”
-.-.-.-.-.-.-
Harry has never considered himself a lucky man by any means. He isn’t really smart (although he isn’t stupid either, mind you) and the one and only thing he actually thinks he’s good at is his music. He knows he’s selfish. He knows he overreacts. He knows that he’s done a lot of things wrong in his life. But he’s also knows that he’s destined for extraordinary things. Extraordinary music taste. Extraordinary drink making skills. And an extraordinary love.
Which is why he thanks his goddamn lucky stars, and his idiotic past self. Because whatever he did, whatever wrong decisions he’d ever made, they led him straight to this girl. This once in a lifetime, extraordinary person who exploded into his life in the weirdest possible way-- like a supernova.
Nova collapses against him when they’re both finished. Her breath on his neck comes in short, hot puffs. Harry’s ears are still ringing loudly but his hands find their way up to her back, rubbing soothing circles into the skin where her bra used to sit.
Neither of them makes any effort to move for the next minute or so. Neither of them seems to mind. They hold on to one another tightly, still conjoined, and trying to get their heart rates back down to normal.
After a while though, Harry’s leg starts to cramp. He shuffles a little underneath Nova, trying not to disturb her. Instead, however, she lifts her head and greets him with a sleepy smile and messy hair.
“You good?” She asks casually, and Harry chuckles out of pure surprise.
Just like that, in the blink of an eye, she’s right back to her quick-witted self. “Yeah,” he says, scratching affectionately at the back of her head. “Yeah, m’good. You?”
Nova bumps her nose against Harry’s. “I’m absolutely fantastic.”
They’re giggly and surprisingly chatty for the next few minutes as they slowly pick up their discarded clothes from the floor and put themselves back together. It’s all so casual, so normal. Nova excuses herself to go pee. Harry awkwardly looks around for a place to throw his condom until Nova notices he’s carrying it and screams, telling him to throw it in the bathroom trash can.
“But you were in the bathroom!”
“You couldn’t have knocked?!”
“You were peeing!”
“You literally just saw me naked less than 30 seconds ago, you lunatic!”
And then they’re dressed, lying comfortably atop her disheveled duvet with their arms around one another. Nova curls comfortably into his side, now wearing the black hoodie he’d been in when he’d arrived. They share blissful, soft little kisses, and every so often Harry will nibble at her nose or her neck to make her laugh.
“You know something?” Nova says, picking up Harry’s hand in her own and playing with his fingers.
“Tell me.”
“You’re like, insanely good at sex. Literally.”
Harry chokes out a laugh. “Oh yeah?”
“Yeah. Like, better than I’d imagined. And I’d imagined it a lot.”
“Mm.” Harry nods his head, too exhausted to let himself wonder what else she’d imagined about him. “Well thank you. You aren’t so bad yourself.”
Nova beams at him, as if surprised. “You think so?”
“‘Course I think so. It’s like you were made for me. It’s like your ass is literally made of gold.”
Nova scowls. “Seriously? You had to go and say something stupid like that?”
Harry tries (read: fails) to conceal the smirk on his face. “What? It’s true. Don’t act like you don’t know it.”
Nova looks back over her shoulder at her own behind and shrugs. “Mm… I mean, yeah. It’s a pretty good ass.”
“Speaking of,” Harry says, “my band and I have got another gig next Wednesday.”
It’s Nova’s turn to laugh. “What does that have to do with my golden ass?”
“Well, I was hoping you would bring said ass to it.” Nova opens her mouth to say something, but Harry cuts her off. “I promise, no ridiculous confessions this time. Nothing dramatic. Hell, you could even invite your friend Tommy or.. Or Mason…”
“Jason,” Nova corrects.
“Jason. Yeah. Invite him. We can set him up with Clare.”
Nova rolls her eyes. “You’re cute. I’m not gonna invite him. Buuuuut…” She drops his hand and reaches up to grab his face, tilting his head so that she has easier access to kiss his cheek. “I will be there. Promise.”
“Wonderful.”
The silence over the next few minutes is so strangely comforting, that Harry doesn’t notice when he starts drifting to sleep. He doesn’t even realize he’s only halfway conscious until Nova speaks softly. “Hey.”
“Hmm?”
“You asleep?”
Harry yawns, louder than necessary to make Nova laugh. “I was about to be. M’sorry.”
“No, no, I’m sleepy, too. Can we take a nap?”
Fuck, if Harry didn’t think he loved her before, he surely does now.
“A nap sounds great, actually.”
“Great.” Nova snuggles down into his side even further, but then sits up so suddenly it startles him. “Oh! Wait, hang on, do you mind if I play something? I’ve been listening to it every night to help me sleep and now like, I kinda have a hard time sleeping without it.”
Nova doesn’t wait for Harry to answer (not that his answer would have mattered anyway) before she’s up and padding over to her laptop. She opens it up, types a few things in, and pulls up a playlist. She scrolls a bit, making a few clicking noises with her tongue until she finds the song she wants. “Here!”
Harry recognizes the song instantly. It’s the one he’d sang for her at the last gig. The one he’d covered for her on the playlist. He’s genuinely surprised as she walks back to the bed and settles into his side once more.
“You listen to this every night?”
“Every night! It’s good.”
Nova relaxes into him, and Harry’s allows his arms to drape naturally around her. The sound of his own voice coming from the speakers of her laptop fill the room.
“And you don’t even know, you’re like my wildest dream
Held captive in stone, held captive in stone,
Wishing you were mine
Wishing you were mine…”
“Harry?” her voice is soft, breaking him from his thoughts.
“Yes?”
“You know I’m yours right?”
His heart feels like it could burst at her words, and he tightens his grip around her even more. “Of course.”
“Every decision we’ve ever made has led us to being each other’s.” She’s sleepy and she’s rambling, but Harry loves it. “Isn’t that wild?”
Harry sighs, tilting his head down to rest his cheek on the top of her head. “It is, yeah.”
In under a minute, Nova is out cold. Harry knows he isn’t far behind, but he wishes he wasn’t. He wants to stay here like this, feeling her breath on his neck, feeling the rise and fall of her chest, feeling her involuntarily cling to him in her sleep. But soon he’s out, too, dreaming of the coffee shop where he’s certain, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that he met the love of his life.
------
A/N: Alright first off, let us all just take a collective deep breath now that we’ve gotten through all of that. Good? Yes? Okay.
HONESTLY, I didn’t expect to feel a little emotional over this story coming to an end, but here we are. I really loved Hova (as my darling Bee christened them) and bringing Nova to life was some of the most fun I’ve ever had since I started writing. I’m also emotional because, even though it took me close to a year, I finished an entire story with multiple parts, which is something I haven’t done since I was about 16. I’m so proud of this story, seriously. And the fact that the plot came from the mind of an anon is even more incredible. I owe you guys so very much and I’m so so SO thankful that you didn’t give up on me or on this story, even throughout my long writing drought. Thank you for the constant asks, thank you for pushing me to keep writing (even if you didn’t realize that’s what you were doing) and thank you for loving Nova and Harry as much as I do.
A huge thank you to miss @imethiminthemorning, without whom this story would either a) not exist or b) just be complete and absolute shit. Thank you for constantly listening to me complain about how hard writing is, for popping into my google docs every now and then just to comment encouraging things on everything and watch me type, for putting up with endless typos, for bearing with me every single time I would write and rewrite a scene, for always being down to drink wine and whine, and just for being the most amazing human being on the entire planet. Nova and Harry say thank you for their lives.
Also shout out to @bribe-the-door and @harryfeatgaga for never getting tired of me screaming in the groupchat about all the sneak peeks I was constantly sending them. You guys are amazing and I genuinely don’t know how I ever survived before we started texting tbh.
I DON’T WANT TO FULLY CLOSE THE DOOR ON HOVA, so feel free to send me questions about them. I’m sure there will be plenty of blurbs about them in the future. And who knows, maybe one day we’ll open the door on them again. ;)
IN CONCLUSION: I LOVE YOU GUYS. THANK YOU FOR READING. THANK YOU FOR BEING THE BEST. BE NICE. BE KIND.
THE END.
1K notes
·
View notes
Wincest - ABO fics
Omega!Sam
Love Bites by DarkSammyProdigy02
*Finished* 10 chapters
A demon hell-bent on snatching psychics, a hunter on a “God-given” mission, having to run for dear life, being captured and forced to participate in a fucked-up gladiator fight - These are the things that bring alpha Dean Winchester and omega Sam Singer together. But, the two will learn through thick and thin that no matter what people say... love bites.
like cinnamon and ginger by savorvrymoment
*Finished* 3 chapters
Dean closes the distance between them on instinct, lays his hand on Sam’s back and rubs between his shoulderblades. His smell is strong from so close, though not the same heat-scent Dean remembers, and it’s not just a mix of sick and unhappy omega Dean can smell. No, Sam’s no longer cloyingly sweet, but rather settled into something softer, velvety and musky. No longer lush and fertile, Dean realizes. And of course, Sam’s thirty-nine years old; on top of that, his brother’s body has been through the wringer over and over and over again. It’s probably why he hasn’t been cycling for years now, and Dean’s not sure why he’s having another heat again out of nowhere—maybe one last stand before the hormones and pheromones start giving out entirely—but here they are…
Sam The Omega (part 1)
The Werewolf Book (part 2) by Sparxgirl
*Finished* 18 chapters & 13 chapters
Sam and Dean find a case close by, the killings are obviously that one of a werewolf. The strain on their bond after everything that had happened seemed to be solved and everything seemed as good as it was before. Until the pack turns out to have the alpha, Sam is kidnapped and Dean can't seem to get through his skull that not all monsters are the supernatural. After the events of 'Sam The Omega' have taken place Sam finds out that the book his brother so desperately wanted may hold the reason why the wolves kidnapped him in the first place. During his recovery Sam struggles with everything and it is not easy on his mind and body, a lot has happened in the past year and a half his brother kept him prisoner. His mind is wrecked and what he thought he knew is no longer useful. And then there is this weird encrypted book. And a person that knows way more than they're letting on.
Of Wolf and Man (part 1)
Welcome home (part 2) by Merenwen76
*Finished* 7 chapters & 1 chapter
„I told you so and you!“ Dean looked up at Sam. “Damn it’s like a fucking joke: Two hunters go to a Werwolf wedding!“
Set 4 weeks after the main story. Sam and Dean are trying to adjust to new living conditions.
The Art Of Persuasion by Anonymous
*Finished* One Shot
Toni Bevell is an expert at getting people to tell her things she wants to know, but so far Sam Winchester has proved resistant. But when she learns Sam is with pup, another plan forms. If she is Sam’s alpha....he’ll tell her everything. All she has to do is make it so.
Out Of Bounds by Anonymous
*Finished* One Shot
It’s only been a short time since Dean finally mated Sam, but since then his brother’s been a total nightmare. Dean just can’t figure out why. Is Sam tired of him already? Is something else wrong? Help from a friend sets him on the right track, and then all he has to do is give Sam the attention he’s been craving.
Conversion Therapy by Casey679
(Last updated Jan 20, 2020) 24 chapters
Sam walks out after a fight with John, only to encounter an aggressive group of alphas. After he beats them soundly in a fight, they turn the tables and force him through a barbaric "bitching" ritual to turn him omega. John and Dean must now find a way to get Sam to behave like a "proper" omega, under the threat that Sam could be taken away, publicly humiliated and/or assigned to some other alpha. Sam resists, because he's still the same competent hunter he always was and he doesn't see why he should be treated differently. It all comes down to a painful-drawn out battle of wills between John and Sam against a ticking clock that will bring ramifications none of them expect. The Winchester family dynamics will have to shatter and be rebuilt from the ground up if the three of them are to come through this crisis intact.
And My Baby Makes... by DWImpala67
*Finished* One Shot
Written for Spnkinkmeme bingo 2020 Nothing, just Sam and Dean having passionate sex...only Dean gets overboard with the idea of finally getting to breed Sam.
Mated and Matched by Brokenlittleboy
*Finished* One Shot
Sam and Dean are forced to mate due to a sex spell during a hunt. Things are not pretty after Mary finds out and discovers Sam is pregnant.
The Beginning of a Golden Age by Kissmewinchester
*Finished* One Shot
Sam wants to go to college, like the mundanes do, before settling down, but John, who’s Pack Alpha, doesn’t approve. These are the chain of events that folllow.
Born Omega by Writelikethat
*Finished* 16 Chapters
In a world with Alphas, Omegas and Betas, people live their lives connected to a pack. But every once in a while, an omega will be born to human parents and when the time comes the Omega will be in search of a pack. Everyone wants to take in the Born omega with a pure line to their roots, and this time is no different. Sam has grown up, unaware of what his status means to those around him. Dean is a grown up Alpha with a good life, but with a limited future because of his unmated status. The new omega is stirring with Dean's set view of his life.
Make a Good Omega Out of You by Multishippinglover
*Finished* One Shot
Prompt: That last Omega!verse prompt inspired me. May I request an AU of the AU that last Anon set up where instead of escaping to Stanford Sam was mated to Dean before he could get away and like a good Omega Sam follows him on hunting trips when John goes missing. But one day Sam finally snaps and yells and scratches and all that and Dean decides it's time to give him an educational night on how Omegas should be; Sam can't fight back well because John belived Omegas shouldn't hunt and never taught him.
That's My Omega by Jld71
*Finished* One Shot
Sam has always known he was Dean’s omega and his mate. It just seemed that Dean didn’t feel the same way about him. That was until another alpha showed interest in him.
Sam's Inner Omega by TammyRenH
*Finished* One Shot
There are two sides to every Omega; the side that wants to be cuddled and pampered. And the side that wants to be pinned down and fucked roughly like a bitch in heat.
Soul Searching by kansaskissedlips
*Finished* One Shot
It's taken a long time to manifest, but Sam discovers that he's an omega at the most inconvenient of times.
How An Omega Should Be by multishippinglover
*Finished* One Shot
dark wincest with omega!sam being forcibly mated to alpha!dean by traditionalist alpha!john (with dean in full agreement) but sam escapes to stanford But, dean manages to find him and he's not too happy so he shows sam how an omega is 'supposed' to be by noncon knotting and reclaiming and that's the real reason sam leaves with dean to go hunting again
Joy Taken, Gifts Given by Katlover98
*Finished* One Shot
After Dean comes back from Purgatory he is never not pissed off at his mate, Sam. Sam had abandoned him to go play house with a Beta. What Dean doesn't know is that Sam is keeping a secret from him and it could be that Sam has suffered more than Dean knows while he was stuck in Purgatory.
Odd One Out by hunter_king
*Finished* 6 chapters
Dean cares about Sam. He cares about him a lot. And John is worried that Dean cares for Sam a little too much.
First Heat by hunter_king
*Finished* One Shot
When Sam presented as an Omega on his 13th birthday, his father quickly put him on suppressants. Now, at the ripe age of 35, Sam experiences his first heat.
The Claiming by TammyRenH
*Finished* 8 chapters
When Sam saves Dean rather than killing Michael, the hunters from the tear decide that he no longer deserves to be a leader, or an Alpha. Through magical means, two of the others painfully change Sam from an Alpha to an Omega. There is a claiming competition where several Alphas fight for the right to claim Sam, but at the last moment Dean (and Baby) come in and save the day - but he still has to claim Sam, or someone else will.
Incognito by deanandsam (J2 fic)
*Finished* 17 chapters
Jensen is a rich TV producer, who's no longer happy with his lifestyle . He's also an Alpha in search of his mate.
Somethin’ Like Soulmates by Chuchiwan
*Finished* 60 chapters
Sam is an Omega who is the furthest thing from the “typical omega” concept. He’s tall, muscular, and has trained himself to not be submissive. He has been living as beta for so long, hiding his true nature, that he has isolated himself from forming any form of relationship. Dean has been trying to stay afloat for years. But a shattered family past has left him numb to the idea that someone might actually like him or that it’s okay for him to like someone. Something like fate keeps pushing these two together and it starts to become clear that they just might be meant for each other.
At Dawn A New Sun Rises by rhyaenv
*Finished* 3 chapters
Since he presented as an alpha at fourteen, Sam’s always felt a disconnect with his dynamic. He’s kept it a secret from most, along with a few other things—especially from Dean. One night Sam wakes up alone in an alley with no idea how he got there, only to discover the following day that he’s not an alpha anymore—he’s an omega. Now everything Sam’s tried to keep hidden slowly starts to unravel.
Be A Good Omega by multishippinglover
*Finished* One Shot
AU where alpha dean is a demon and one day he blindfolds 18yo omega sam and knots him while mary and john try to stop him he uses his demon powers to prevent them from moving
Heat of the Moment by lotrspnfangirl
*Finished* One Shot
Sam sets out to prove his father and brother wrong. He’s not some knot slut, unable to control himself simply because he’s in heat. He’s in complete control. At least, until it comes to his brother.
Lien on my soul by cillasstuff
*Finished* 8 chapters
Sam watched his dream of Dean becoming his Omega die at the hands of Metatron, or so he thought. The MoC allowed his brother to be returned, but it wasn’t Sam’s Dean who came back from the dead. In his brother’s body was a demon who took what he wanted and he wanted Sam…
Love Me Please by addictiontofiction
*Finished* 8 chapters
Sammy loves and hates school. He loves to learn, but hates his classmates. It's just like Sammy loves and hates Dean. Dean is the most oblivious Alpha he's ever met. Maybe he's oblivious because they've just been so close for this long, but Dean never seems to scent Sam's distress or need- at least it doesn't look like it. And Sammy doesn't understand, all he knows is he wants Dean to love him the way he loves Dean.
Damn Witches by wonderussam
*Finished* 2 chapters
After a hunt, Sam starts to go into heat after touching a cursed object. Dean helps.
House of Wolves by gothpandaotaku
*Finished* One Shot
Dean never imagined that the puppy he found when he was four would turn out to be a werewolf, or his mate.
Everything Always Falls Apart by sp00kyskeletons (TRIGGER WARNING)
*Finished* 4 chapters
“I miss the time it was you, Dad and me. Where we were all happy, where I wasn’t pushed out, where you paid attention to me, where you would actually sit down and talk. Not just ignore me and focus on Cas.” Sam said to himself, having no idea if Dean heard it. Walking into his bedroom he slammed the door, locking it, before sinking down to his knees, not even trying to mask the sobs that left his mouth. Maybe soon it would be his time to hit the vein and bleed to death behind his locked door, or swallow the pills in the bathroom and just die. No more suffering, no more pain. He would be dead, finally. All Sam was, was an emotional wreck.
Beautiful ... in a way a forest fire is beautiful by Sanshal
*Finished* One Shot
Dean goes to get Sam at Stanford and is surprised to find out that his alpha brother is now an omega... and has a pup. Unfortunately, tragedy strikes the Winchester family again and now Dean's got two dependents in tow and he still doesn't know where his dad is. He could marry Sam off or claim him for himself, but he can't stay unmated - taking an unmated omega on the road is asking for trouble. And worst of all, his little brother is now everything he never let himself fantasize about when they were growing up.
Just Submit by orphan_account
*Finished* One Shot
The cure failed; Dean is a demon for good. Sam can't bring himself to kill him, not now that Dean has gotten him pregnant. Now all Dean wants is submission - can Sam bring himself to submit to this new version of his brother?
I Like The Disease by multishippinglover
*Finished* One Shot
Based loosely during the scene when Dean was after Sam in the Bunker during Soul Survivor after I had seen the promo for the episode, and with a/o/b added to the mix.
Fields Of Jasmine by BruisedBloodyBroken
*Finished* 37 Chapters
Dean is an ex-hunter, working as a mechanic on the salvage of his surrogate-father Robert Singer, from Monday to Friday, 9-5, sometimes overtime. He quit hunting after a severe injury to his right calf and hip. He built a small house behind Bobby's where he's living. One day, a young man runs in front of his car, who's chased by a vampire. Something that will irrevocably change his life forever.
Never Too Late by Amanda_Yates
*Finished* 10 chapters
Dean Winchester is forced into an arranged marriage to Sam Campbell by his family, two years down the road Dean is still stubborn about not claiming his mate and living completely separate lives as he wants nothing to do with Sam. Right when Sam is finally giving up on him Dean finds himself intrigued for the first time and let’s hope he’s not too late to grab onto Sam before he bails.
Heart of Darkness by Lodovicus
(Last updated Aug 21, 2015) 8 chapters
Dean Winchester has just come back from hell. Something isn't quite right, Dean is scared, but Sam is trying to stay strong for the both of them while keeping his demon blood habit hidden from Dean. Story diverges from the shows plot right from the beginning of Season 4.
Equals by multishippinglover
*Finished* One Shot
Omega!Sam getting hit on by an alpha while Alpha!Dean is away for a moment. The alpha hitting Sam when he ignores him.
Mate (Part 1)
Voice (Part 2)
Heat (Part 3) by multishippinglover
*Finished* One Shots
omega!sam and alpha!dean who leave in a society where omegas have become more and more controlled and they have a law that says that an omega above certain age can't be mateless, and well sammy is older and the want to force sam to mate a stranger, and the only way to prevent it is that dean mates him first, even though sam doesn't want a mate, and dean feels guilty because he always wanted sam
how their dinamics would change
sam experiencing his first heat
My Omega (part 1)
Fill and Breed (part 2) by multishippinglover
*Finished* One Shots
alpha!demon dean and omega!angel sam and how dean has been trying to corrupt sam for centuries now but sam wants to remain pure, until one day he finds sam and giving him a little of his blood induces sam into heat and sam can't help wanting dean?
more alpha!demon Dean and omega!angel Sam
Help From Alpha by multishippinglover
*Finished* One Shot
Alpha/Omega Sam and Dean mpreg
Sticks and Stones by itsoundslikeabadjoke
*Finished* One Shot
Dean was an incredible mate, always near, loving and protectful, beautiful and amazingly attentive to Sam’s needs. In the deepest part of the younger brother’s heats, Dean would force him to slow down and enjoy what was being given to him. Which is why Sam was so confused when, nearing the end of one of his heats, Dean decided to listen to his pleas and take him as he wanted to be.
Beauty Of The Beast by Cozy_coffee
*Finished* One Shot
No description
The Lycan Vessel by DevilsDontFlyButJustYouWatchMeTry (KissMyAssButt67)
*Finished* One Shot
In which Dean and Sam are werewolves. Dean is the alpha who doesn't want to hurt his brother, Sammy is the boy who just wants Dean. They're in love, John's still an ass. Dean would never hurt Sammy, and Sammy causes trouble as per usual.
Orion by hellhoundsprey
*Finished* One Shot
(From Sam’s pov) You are supposed to stay pure. (Sam is 17. Dean is 21.)
The Wolf You Feed
The Wolf You Choose by orphan_account
*Finished* 2 chapters, 2 chapters
Sam and Dean are expert hunters, in their own way. So of course they know everything about werewolves, about their weaknesses and the best way to send them to Purgatory. Dean knew not to get bit. He didn't know of the possessive hunger that came with getting bitten.
It's been a week since Sam presented as an Omega, after Dean had bit his ass, and he wasn't sure how to feel about it. The sex was great. The constant submission? Not so much. And now they were back to hunting and Sam was confused, because his body was feeling unnaturally hot...
When the Sun Came Up (You Were Looking at Me) by orphan_account
*Finished* 3 chapters
Azazel isn't a demon, the Winchesters don't hunt, and when Sam is taken to Cold Oak, he's turned into an omega. Dean is his alpha.
To Have Worth by darkroses
*Finished* One Shot
Dean claims Sam from a young age to be his omega. Sam wasn't sure how he felt about that. His feelings changed with time. All he wanted was to be worth something. No matter what Sam offered, he could never have what he was searching for.
Missing Piece by orphan_account
*Finished* 10 chapters
The one in which Dean and Sam (unrelated) happen to be true mates and a lot of teasing and chaos happens.
The Claiming
And nothing else matters by waywardelle
*Finished* One Shot, One Shot
At age 32, Sam Winchester presents as an Omega. No one is more surprised than Dean, the Alpha who's been pining over his little brother all his life.
Dean inexplicably pushes Sam away when their mother returns to their lives. After she leaves, Dean stays away anyway. Sam wants to kill Dean for ignoring the fact that they're fuckin' mated, but the omega in him tells him to be patient. So, he waits. And he misses his Alpha like crazy.
Just As He Thought by Dragoneyedgirl990
*Finished* One Shot
Dean Winchester was 18 years old and has long since proudly presented as an Alpha much to his fathers relief. John would never admit it but he had been worried for a little while that his oldest son would be an Omega, with his pretty looks and willingness to obey. He had no doubts that his younger son would present as an Alpha as well, Sam was hard headed and fought his father every step of the way. Definitely an Alpha.
The Sheriff's Son Sam by Wonchostors (orphan_account)
(Last updated Sep 16, 2015) 1 chapter
Dean Singer is Sioux Falls' resident troublemaker, and the biggest thorn in Sheriff John Winchester's side. He causes trouble and wreaks havoc just for the fun of it, and always gets away with it. But that all changes when Dean meets Sam Winchester, a sweet omega that turns out to be John's eldest son. But by time Dean figures out exactly who Sam is, the two have already fallen in love. John wants nothing to do with Dean, and he wants him as far away from his son as possible. But Dean will do anything to stay with Sam. . . and their unborn child.
Fever Heat by bloodandcream
*Finished* One Shot
Maybe Dean was an early bloomer or maybe Sam was just a late bloomer. But the kid was thirteen and he still hadn’t popped his knot. Dean had been eleven when he had presented as an alpha. Dad had given him a box of condoms, a slap on the back and an ‘atta boy’. The extent of “The Talk” that he’d gotten was a shrug and a ‘you’ll figure it out’.
What A Time to Have a Baby by littlefirefly31
*Finished* One Shot
Sam is pregnant when he is trying to cure demon Dean and he goes into labor
My Baby Brother by raviolisinspace
(Last updated Nov 21, 2015) 24 chapters
This story takes place in a world where the supernatural is unknown to the Winchesters. John was said to be cursed by a witch after getting into trouble with the wrong people when he was younger. The witch cased a curse which ensured John's first born child to be a werewolf, and a possessive one at that. This story follows the Winchester's lives through new dangers and newly discovered truths that emerge along the way.
What Part of Forever by AnnaNocturnal
*Finished* 5 chapters
Sam is an Alpha, like the rest of his—maybe dysfunctional—pack, until he’s kidnapped and turned into an omega as revenge for the vampire Luther’s death. After rescue, Sam is overwhelmed, his nerves chafed by his now smothering and over-protective pack. His mind is already bucking against his changing body and new instincts, but then the other shoe drops—Dean is Sam’s true fated mate. Sam bolts, taking off in the night, and ends up stuck in a backward town where omegas—particularly males—are treated as property, awarded to the last Alpha standing in a grand public spectacle of won dominance. Dean manages to find Sam in time to save him, but at what cost?
About Damn Time by orphan_account
*Finished* One Shot
Sam forgets his suppressants and goes into heat unexpectedly. Dean's there to help.
It's New to Me by littlefirefly31
*Finished* One Shot
All of Sam life he thought he was a beta as he never presented as an Alpha like Dean or Omega. Years later as Soulless Sam something triggers it after the goddess of truth "Veritas" case, it could be because Cas did that Body Cavity Search it trigger his dormant Omega gene. Anyways Soulless Sam is not suppose to feel anything. But his logical processing brain is failing him he does not understand what is happening to him, so for the first time he panics! Cue Dean who is trying not to care, but its just in grain in him when he sees his little brother hurting- he has to fix it...and then Sam full on omega scent hits him....
Calling It True Love by Rebldomakr
*Finished* One Shot
Sam couldn't say he hated being an Omega. He hated how feminine his body looked compared to his brother, hated how he was so short because 'Omegas typically do not grow during their first years of maturity'. But, he loved the attention his brother dumped on him like water and how his father stopped complaining when he wanted to coil around Dean. He hated how he got tired of school because of the Omega-special classes were too easy, so easy he just pleaded to stop being registered. He loved being able to spend all the time he wanted at the library, reading whatever he wanted and being able to learn at whatever speed he wanted. Then he's suddenly fourteen, and his first heat hits.
Collar Control by Sanshal
*Finished* One Shot
For years Alpha-aggression has been controlled electronically... but when the power grid controlling the alpha-aggression control collars fails; Sam must decide how to deal with Dean- his alpha.
Sweat by kittenofdoomage
*Finished* One Shot
“What’s wrong?” “It’s just… something’s off.”
Not How I Wanted by AnnaNocturnal
*Finished* 2 chapters
Sam never wanted to be mated to his brother. He loves him, sure. Admires him, of course. But he never imagined taking his brother's knot. Until Sam forgot to take his suppressants. Now, in the throes of brutal heat, he finds himself begging for it, for Dean to mate him. Will Sam accept Dean as his Alpha when the heat subsides?
Without You [I Live Without Love] by non_tiembo_mala
*Finished* One Shot
Sam Wesson has been successfully hiding his Omega status his entire life, thanks in part to his uncharacteristically large and muscled Alpha-like body. But he isn't Alpha, or Beta, no matter how much he tries to blend in, and he's never found anywhere he belongs. Dean Smith is the quintessential Alpha. He's smart, fierce, works hard, and has never encountered trouble when he has an itch that needs scratching. But more and more he finds himself longing for that rare connection only found between True Mates. Just when he's ready to give up hope on the dream of finding his, life throws him Sam Wesson.
The Smell of Fear by AnnaNocturnal
*Finished* 3 chapters
All Alphas are collared, tracked and controlled by the government as part of the Collar Initiative, a set of laws put into place in the 1960s. They temper an Alpha's wild nature, protecting omegas from their more violent counterparts. That is, until the power grid fails one day. Sam watches the chaos on the news, and it's a moment before Dean enters his mind. When he looks toward the bed his brother was lounging on, he's gone, the sight of the Alpha's abandoned collar sending chills down Sam's spine. The omega considers running, but when he turns he finds himself face-to-face with Dean, no collar between them.
Bring You Back by littlefirefly31
*Finished* One Shot
Sam resolves himself to do the one thing he knows will make demon!dean jealous enough to come back to him.
Been Here All Along by orphan_account
*Finished* One Shot
Sam is a late bloomer. Traditionally, omegas found their partner and went through their first heat by sixteen. Sam is about to turn eighteen, and he hasn’t even let out a whiff of heat. He’s never been interested in any of his suitors, either. And Sam has had plenty. Dean can’t help but be pleased as punch about the whole situation.
Bitten by MsImpala67
*Finished* One Shot
Sam hates being an Omega. He absolutely does not need anyone the way Omegas need their Alphas. He can make do with his fingers or toys when he has heats, and that's that. But it's not good enough. It's never good enough. Just when Sam thinks he'll die from it all, Dean changes everything.
Pathetic by femmefatales
*Finished* 3 chapters
Sam has been hiding the fact that he's an omega from Dean for almost 5 years now. What happens when he slips up and goes into heat in the middle of a case?
Homecoming by HazelDomain
*Finished* One Shot
Dean battles his way out of purgatory to find his omega shacked up with some beta woman. He is not pleased.
Tempting Sin by blackrose_17
*Finished* 5 chapters
Dean Winchester rules New York City underground and always gets what he wants so when he lays eyes on the newest dancer at his club a sweet little omega named Sam Campbell he knows that Sam is meant to be his and nothing and no one will stop him from claiming his omega. Sam never had much luck in love, his one and only boyfriend used him and then dumped him like trash so when Dean starts to court him Sam surprises everyone when he's the one who seduces the playboy alpha.
Americana Exotica by Little_Winchester
*Finished* One Shot
Dean loved Sam, he really did. He loved everything about him, from his mile-long legs to his slender waist to his fox-slanted eyes which darkened gorgeously every time Dean touched him, be it an arm slung around his shoulders or a hand creeping up his thigh. The one thing that turned Dean’s head upside-down and made his stomach turn was the way Sam teased him.
Coffee and Balsam and Leather-bound Books by AutumnSwitch
*Finished* 4 chapters
Sam makes it home for Christmas, but something is not right. When Dean finds out why his brother's scent is unfamiliar, he is determined to make it all better with sex, love, and gingerbread.
Soaked by castielsstarr
*Finished* One Shot
There were a few things Sam hated about being an omega. One was the way people treated him like he was a fragile thing and would break. Two was when people talked about him like he wasn’t in the room. And three was when he would start leaking slick for no reason.
Taking Care- Double Dragons by Boogermeister
*Finished* One Shot
Dragon siblings Sam and Dean receive a letter from a friend about something but the older brother doesn't want to go and instead kills some time with him through some intimate persuasion.
Just Them
The Green Room by compo67
*Finished* One Shot, One Shot
The condom broke the last time (alpha!)Dean was in heat. But they figured Sam was young, so maybe their chances weren't that high of getting him pregnant. Wrong. And it would be wrong now to think they could do this again without anything happening.
Pregnant with triplets and the parent of a nine month old, Sam is given the chance to nest in a house, not a hotel room on the road. This is the start of a new direction for the Winchesters; one change happens after another and life moves fast. But through it all, Dean sees to it that Sam has everything he needs and more.
And They Call It Honeymoon by hellhoundsprey
*Finished* One Shot
How about some alpha!Dean Smith taking care of his sweet, precious omega!Sam Wesson. Possibly during office hours on Smith's desk with Wesson wearing a pretty pink chastity belt because Sam is his and no one else's.
Post: Part 1
2 notes
·
View notes