#3am mood

[oursecretshh]

Late night munchies

[ze0re]

HI ! Can I request a baji x black reader hanging out at like 3pm headcanon ?

╭﹐❣︎﹕ 3 AM ﹒〣 ﹕‹𝟹 － 𝖪𝖤𝖨𝖲𝖴𝖪𝖤 𝖡.

cw/tw. fluff, softie!baji, black!reader

an. okay so i got confused and just thought you meant 3am instead of 3pm so i’m sorry if i got it wrong but i hope you enjoy it anyways!

summary.- you and baji hang out at 3am

“Come on Kei!” You whispered shouted dragging him towards your bike that was parked outside of his house as he groaned tiredly. “It’s too fucking early for this.” He growled, you rolled your eyes. “You’re the one who wanted to do this tough guy now deal with it.” You sassed back hearing him huff loudly stopping in front of your bike as you grabbed the extra helmet giving it to him, he glared at you snatching it from your hands putting it on his head. You scoffed smacking the top of his head with your helmet also putting it on making sure it was nice and tight, you climbed on to the seat placing your hands on the grip using your other hand to start up your bike hearing the engine roar loudly.

You felt Baji also climb on placing his hands on your waist holding you tightly as his chest was on your back. This never failed to make you have butterflies in your stomach, you grinned using your foot to lift up the chassis starting the drive to the place you both agreed to go. The ride there was really quiet and peaceful, there were barely any cars on the roads and freeway, the lights shining bright on the streets as the stars were lit up in the sky, it was really nice. The first stop you guys made was to the convenience store to get snacks. You turned off your bike using your foot to set down the chassis as you and Baji got off entering the store, you went down your own aisle as he went down his own to get his own snacks. For a few minutes of searching for things you guys went to the cashier to check out, before Baji could pull out his wallet you were quick to hand the cashier your card grinning at him as you did so, “(Y/N)!” He complained, “What?! I said the next time we get something I'm paying, now shut up and grab your stuff big baby.” You giggled grabbing your bagged items walking towards the door holding it open.

Keisuke clicked his tongue in annoyance grabbing his stuff as well walking out the door glaringly walking past you. Your mouth opened “offended” as you hit him in the shoulder hearing him laugh, “Don’t glare at me, boy.” You said walking towards your bike lifting up the seat to put your stuff in there hearing Keisuke snicker rolling his eyes also putting his things with your stuff, putting the seat back on now leaning against your bike with crossed arms staring up at him. Baji faked pouted wrapping his arms around your waist leaning down toward your height taking your lips into his, “Don’t look at me like that.” He mumbled in between your lips, you smiled feeling his warm lips on top of yours kissing back sighing in peace. You laughed in between the kiss feeling his hands trail along your hips, pulling away. “Stop it! that tickles.” You whined, Keisuke rolled his eyes in response, pecking your lips one last time before grabbing his helmet, “I’m driving.” He commanded grabbing the keys from your hands as you huffed putting your helmet not bothering to pick a fight with him, “Could’ve asked nicely, jackass.” You scowled hearing him chuckle patting your thigh as you wrapped your hands around his waist,

“Love you too babe”

When you guys got to the secret spot you and Kei only knew about, you two were just sitting on top of the hill looking over the city you beloved over the years. You were laid in Keisuke’s arms as you ate some of your snacks smiling and laughing at the jokes that were made. This night- or morning was really fun. Just you two alone in the breeze in each other's arms..you were falling more and more in love with him, just being in his presence was enough for you..you really loved this boy so much. Soon enough everything was gone and all eaten up, you two just laid there enjoying the company of each other as you were laid on his chest playing with the hem of his shirt lost in your own world as he rubbed your shoulder, “This is nice..” You finally spoke looking up at him as he looked down towards you with a grin on his face, “It is isn’t?” You hummed sitting up as he sat up grabbing your hand into his softly rubbing your knuckles, “I love you so much.” You whispered bringing your hand up to his cheek feeling him lean into your hand, “Do you now?” He mumbled looking up at you as you leaned forward nodding your head, “Yeah i do.” You whispered back before taking his lips into yours, he softly sighed against your lips bringing hands towards your waist as he fell backwards bringing you with him. You squealed at the sudden feeling giggling falling ontop of him,

“I love you too, brat.”

[phonegod]

i dont know, i want to see em both.

[vesselofart]

Till recently, I've always viewed things from the perspective of someone raised on love and hope and truly had this unwavering faith in everything not being as bad as people perceive it to be. A quote from Anne Frank's diary which always stayed with me is, "In spite of everything, I still believe that people are really good at heart." So, despite anything bad that ever happened to me or anyone ever did to me (let's just say, I sympathise a lot with my younger self), I still chose to see the world with the optimistic lens that I wore, constantly believing that if people were a bit more optimistic, everything would be alright and that possibly, only because people are so critical and pessimistic in their approach towards life there's so much of mental health issues. Blissfully, I was quite unaware of the stickiness of trauma and how stubborn the stain of depression and anxiety can truly be.

As I grew, I listened to people's stories, what they went through and is going through, I started viewing the world without the preconceived notion of, everything is sunshine and rainbows after the rain. Sometimes, there's even heavier rain, thunderstorms and flood. Yes, it eventually subsides and sunshine eventually peeps out but it might take a lot of time and it certainly requires a lot of hope and strength to even believe that there is indeed a brighter tomorrow.

Someone out there younger than you in age could be so much more matured, self sufficient. He or she has taken responsibility on those young shoulders when they were not ready to and has been carrying the baggage of everything since the 'childhood' they probably didn't have the privilege to live in.

They shut down and pull the curtains during their time of crisis and choose not to 'burden' anyone with their emotions because how does one asks to be taken care of and loved suddenly after being alien to the concept for such a long time?

Everyone has their share of pain and hardships. Not the same kind and intensity definitely and sometimes it seems unfair but we all got our shit to handle. It almost feels illegal how someone gets to take a year drop for the field/college they want to get in and how someone out there maybe even sharper doesn't have the privilege to even dream of that. They need to look for a job, earn and support their family as soon as possible so they don't even take the step towards the future they could have and those who dare to and make it! To think of the courage and strength! How we all start at so much different levels to participate in the race of life and for some opportunities keep piling up and is still not enough and for some it shows up for the shortest window after so much of struggle, either you miss it or make it. Life can be so much demanding and exhausting but I truly do hope you find the strength and really hold on to see what it has to offer you. Just a little bit more, hold on. You're loved for who you are and you contribute to this place something no one else can.

[3amminds]

Episode : Yang Datang, Yang Pergi

Tidak semua hal di dunia ini dimaksudkan untuk menjadi sesuatu yang indah dan bertahan lama. Ombak menemui tepian pantai hanya sesaat lalu kembali lagi ke tengah lautan. Matahari terbit dan menerangi Bumi sebelum akhirnya kembali tenggelam dan digantikan oleh Bulan. Bunga-bunga mekar dan merona sebelum akhirnya layu dan mati.

Orang-orang juga begitu. Mereka datang dan pergi. People come and go.

Meski begitu, aku percaya seseorang datang ke dalam hidupku bukan kebetulan. Seseorang pergi dari hidupku bukan tanpa alasan. Semua sudah digariskan. Semua sudah diatur sedemikian rupa sehingga aku bisa belajar banyak hal dari mereka.

Belajar membedakan mana yang benar dan mana yang salah.

Belajar untuk menjadi dan mempertahankan diriku sendiri.

Belajar untuk mencintai diriku sendiri.

Tapi tidak semuanya akan bertahan selamanya.

Beberapa hadir hanya untuk membuatku merasa lebih baik dalam beberapa waktu. Beberapa hadir hanya sebagai penenang dan teman berkeluh kesah. Tidak semuanya akan bertahan, tapi aku bisa mengerti mereka yang datang sedang mengajariku caranya membuka diri dan menerima, sementara mereka yang pergi membuatku memahami rasanya kehilangan dan mengikhlaskan.

Ada yang pernah mengatakan padaku ketika aku harus melepaskan seseorang, "Aku tau pasti sakit buatmu untuk melepaskan. That's okay. Itu berarti perasaanmu tulus."

Jujur saja, siapa yang menyukai perpisahan? Siapa yang menyukai akhir dari sebuah kisah? Tapi terkadang, yang terbaik adalah memutus sesuatu yang sudah berubah menjadi racun, sekalipun awalnya indah karena memang tidak semua awal ditakdirkan untuk selamanya.

Dan sekarang, sekali lagi aku dihadapkan dengan pilihan melepas seseorang. Ketika Tuhan mengatakan "Ini saatnya untuk melepaskan", kuharap aku punya keberanian yang cukup untuk melakukannya.

Sekarang, dengan keberanian yang berhasil kukumpulkan, aku ingin mengucapkan

Terima kasih. Untuk kamu yang sempat bersinggungan jalan dengan garis takdirku. Terima kasih untuk semua kenangan yang kamu berikan dan tinggalkan untukku. Aku sangat menghargainya dan akan kusimpan semuanya dengan baik.

[arclith]

Quick 3AM Sonic sketch :D

[freddoexpressometrio]

~Long walks together > any other date ~

Change my mind

[ya-kiri]

I wouldn't mind a boyfriend.

[chaoticbutstilltrying]

In pursuit of perfection, we leap and we dive,

Like elusive butterflies, we strive to survive.

Yet the more we chase, the further it slips away,

A whisper in the wind, an intangible display.

Oh, perfection, the tantalizing mirage,

A puzzle without edges, a never-ending barrage.

We tiptoe on the tightrope, hoping to reach the peak,

But perfection dances unattainable, so sly and sleek.

We strain and we strain, seeking flawless embrace,

Yet perfection remains an enigma, a mystical space.

Like a distant star shimmering in the night,

It teases and tempts, forever out of sight.

We paint our canvases with strokes deft and refined,

But perfection eludes us, slipping through the mind.

No matter how we strive, no matter how we yearn,

The more we agonize, the more perfection will adjourn.

The music we compose, each note and melody,

Are grains in an hourglass, slipping into obscurity.

No matter how we play, no matter how we refine,

Perfection hides beyond the realm of our design.

In words we pen and verse we weave,

Seeking perfection, our hearts deceive.

But like a specter in the mist, it drifts away,

Forever distant, forever astray.

Yet amidst this chase, we find something profound,

For in our imperfections, true beauty is found.

It's the cracks in our souls, the flaws that make us real,

That give our existence its raw and unique appeal.

So let us release perfection's heavy chains,

Embrace the imperfect symphony life retains.

For in this endless quest, we will surely find,

That it's the journey itself, where true perfection lies.

[la-lil-alien]

[emy-da-flareon2]

*My brain at 3am:*

Crash: "imagine being so touch deprived that when someone tries to touch u, u just bat their hand away like a cat batting a toy."

Rachet: ... "Dude what in the f-"

Rivet: "shhh, now hold on, why does that actually make sense tho?!"

...

So I started playing Rachet and Clank lads 😄

[phonegod]

immediately opens and reads.

[renuelfallore]

After digesting every little thing you said, I am not quite sure if you can be persuaded anymore.

Even if I choose my words carefully, you couldn't care less.

I’m paying attention to your cues. Not sure what page you’re on.

Maybe you’re not really there. And I’m not entitled to see the sincere you.

What I am ready to give you was undivided attention. Plus a genuine effort on my part.

It’s all free of charge — no refunds.

Is it wrong to hope for something in return, though?

Hey, you don’t have really have to return the same energy. It’s all yours to set anyway.

And I’ll let you be.

Go on. The timing’s right to peter out. 

[3amminds]

Give, but don't allow yourself to be used.

Love, but don't allow your heart to be abused.

Trust, but don't be naive.

Listen, but don't lose your own voice.

Memberi, tapi jangan izinkan dirimu dimanfaatkan.

Mencinta, tapi jangan biarkan hatimu disalahgunakan.

Percaya, tapi jangan menjadi naif.

Dengarkan, tapi jangan kehilangan suaramu sendiri.

[mrs-martinez]

me at night summoning a demon

[societykillls]

TW SELF HARM

boredom sets in and my fingers itch for the blade

my thighs look like a war zone, theres no space left and yet,

my fingers itch for the blade

my head gets fuzzy, my stomach feels empty, my throat feels as though its closing in

as if its shrinking so small no air can get through

and my fingers itch for the blade

i think about telling someone

i think about asking for help

asking someone to support me, to hold me above water when i cant myself

but what can they do

my fingers still itch for the blade