#Also do u guys see the fidget spinner

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[obeymexmalemc]

Hello love! If you want I was wondering if you could do an HC with the brothers with an MC with attention issues, for instance they move from one thing to another and have trouble sitting down and focusing on or staying on one subject and tend to ramble on while talking? I hope you’re doing well!! Love you!

can I just say, as someone with ADHD, from the very bottom of my heart...big mood. I limit HC requests to 4 characters, so I decided to go with Levi, Satan, Asmo, and Beel! Hope that’s okay

Also I see u in my notes. I lov u （*´▽｀*）

How Levi, Satan, Asmo, and Beel react to an MC with attention span issues

 ~Leviathan

He finds it makes watching anime with MC somewhat difficult.

No matter, Levi can find work arounds. There’s just no way MC can miss out on this amazing show!

He figures out that his old fidget spinners are good for something.

MC still needs to takes breaks sometimes to switch to a new task, but it usually ends up being a video game, so Levi’s not too upset.

When they do finish a series though? God, Levi is so happy to have someone to ramble about his favorite anime with.

MC never seems to get tired of talking about their favorite shows, and Levi is so happy that someone is as excited as he is!

And when MC gets really pumped about something? Leviathan can’t deny it’s the cutest thing he’s ever seen.

~Satan

Well, there goes Satan’s chances of a reading buddy.

Or at least, so he thinks.

He comes to find out MC just prefers audio books. That way he can do other things while reading.

The books that Satan likes typically don’t have actual audio versions, but he’s more than willing to read to MC while he does something else, like doodle in a notebook.

Satan doesn’t mind repeating a line or two when MC admits that his mind started to wander. But for the life of him, he will never understand MC’s habit of jumping from novel to novel before he even finishes one.

Oh well, Satan just can’t say no to that handsome face.

Satan is definitely grateful for MC’s tendency to ramble. They’ve had many a lot night filled with deep discussions that Satan just wouldn’t get from the rest of his brothers.

Satan certainly loves his human, capricious though he may be.

~Asmodeus

Asmo can definitely relate. He gets bored rather easily, so he moves from subject to subject almost as frequently as MC.

Asmo is so grateful to finally hang out with someone who doesn’t find him fickle.

When he’s starting to lose interest in something, MC is right there with him to ask if they can switch to something new.

Let’s go to the club! Tired already? Let’s go shopping then! Done with that? We can go get ice cream!

MC’s always got something new to talk about too! There’s never a dull moment with him.

MC is the only other person Asmo will share his gum with in class. It’s not a perfect remedy, but it does help them a little to pay attention.

School is hell for them (pun intended), but they help each other push through the day. (Which may or may not include passing notes during lecture)

They still learn most of the information, honest!

~Beelzebub

Beel’s a pretty laid back guy, so he just goes with flow.

If MC wants to switch tasks a lot, that’s okay with Beel. As long as he can hang out with him, he’s having fun.

He likes to listen to MC ramble on about whatever interests him at the time. Beel finds his passion so endearing, even if he’s not particularly invested in the subject himself.

One thing that Beel finds out is that having a snack while studying can help MC to focus a little.

Since then, he’s always come to their study sessions prepared with plenty of food.

He never minds sharing with his favorite little human!

[mirakeul]

Hello! Thank you for requesting! I had to do a lot of research for this and watch videos so I don’t have the wrong idea for ADHD,,, 

HC: Midoriya and Tamaki with an s/o who has ADHD

notes: so many research, i love learning about disorders bcuz i kind of dreamt to be a psychologist so HAHA and of course, i am not a professional, these are just based on the scientific knowledge i’ve read on ADHD,, and this is more of serious headcanons since i don’t want to make it comedic hehe

warnings: none

Midoriya Izuku

okay,

this boy is a literal cinnamon roll

like when you told him you had ADHD

he literally went and researched everything about it

and how to help you

and boy does he do everything 

he understands your short bursts of energy

and sometimes join you to not make you feel alone

and when he sees you have a mood swing

he tries to not be bothered and let you 

sometimes, you space out

and he tries to get ur attention

which u would apologize for after

but he understands and says it’s okay

he also bought u some fidget toys

like a stress ball you can hold onto in class

and a fidget cube whenever you are together

he places a hand over yours and smiles

like

so bright

and he assures you that he’s there

bcuz he knows sometimes u have low self-esteem

and he makes it a point to tell u everything good he finds about you

he talks to you when you get really talkative

and helps you in tasks you find difficulty in focusing in

and when u lose track of time

when u do something u like

he gently guides u to the bed and cuddles you close

he knows u sometimes can’t sleep

so he rubs soothing circles on your back

and when u are finally dozing off

he places a soft kiss on ur head

literally best boi 🥰🥰

Tamaki Amajiki

hm,,

like midoriya

i feel like he would do his best to know everything about ADHD

he understands because he gets anxious sometimes

and u sometimes feel not the best

so he always does something to help you out

like offering to help you with tasks

like doing your homework

or reading something for class

when u forget something or zone out when u guys are talking

he would do his best to repeat himself

because he understands

that it can be frustrating

but it’s fine

and when he notices your fidgeting

he offers you a fidget toy

like a fidget spinner

or sometimes a fidget cube that opens and closes and such

he knows u can get very blunt at times

and he was fine with that

u apologize some time after 

but he assures u that it’s fine

and when you ramble

he lets you

and when you sometimes dance suddenly?

he smiles at you as he just watches u dance

he is v patient

and if u need help

he would always be ready to help u

he loves u v much

[yeehawyoongles]

Vine Drabble 2- An Empty Bottle of Milk and A Fidget Spinner.

Request:  Can I request 14 and 27 btsxreader crack please?? Thank u :)

14. “Why can’t you just take the freakin’ compliment”

27. “Don’t fuck with me.”

Warnings: Mentions of milk.

Word count- 1.5k

-This is such a mess, idk what I just wrote.  I think I lost my mind?? I hope you enjoy anyways!

After an exhausting day of running around doing shit that isn’t worthwhile, you finally came home. You didn’t know what year it is, let alone the day or time.  You’d never wanted to get into bed so sadly, so you took off your shoes and headed straight to your bedroom.  Your bed looked euphoric, welcoming you home with the warm embrace that was your duvet.  Dramatically, you collapsed onto it, blindly searching for your pillow.  Once you were comfortable, you shut your eyes, enjoying the refreshing sound of silence for a few moments.

“Bruh where are we,” A soft whisper sliced through said silence, it hurt your ears. 

“For fucks sake not this again,” Another voice said in a low whine. “All we do is mind our business and we suddenly end up in the bedroom of a stranger. Why isn’t this the first time that this has happened? This isn’t normal…”

A loud laugh from another individual echoed in the room. “This guy… he deadass only complains I swear.  Look at this as an adventure!”

“Hoseok shut the fuck up, they’re trying to sleep.”

“I’m already awake” You intercepted, talking in a sleepy voice. You brandished your hand around in a sloppy attempt to find a light switch, but end up punching someone in the crotch.

“Ouch! Don’t fuck with me!” a man, who you assume is the same person you just made infertile, cried.  You eventually find the switch and turned on the lamp, only to be met with seven pairs of eyes staring at you.

“Who are you and why the fuck are you in my house watching me sleep?” You asked bluntly. 

“It’s not like that, I promise,” One of them, the shortest, pleaded with wide eyes. “Uh, the truth is that, uh-”

“We don’t know.” A more familiar voice said.  He was also short.

“????” you asked with your face.

“Basically right,” A new voice, a boy with bright blue hair begins to explain. “We end up in random ass places with no explanation as to how.  Last time, we were in a farm while we were rehearsing for a show, and Namjoon, the uh tall guy at the back there with the dimples, managed to trip over a horse, and then fall over while he was already on the ground.  But yeah, we don’t know where we are.  We didn’t break in, we just… appeared here.  The horse was grey by the way.”  While the blue-haired guy, who by the way, looked ethereal, as they all did but it took you a while to wake up and see that there were seven beautiful men in your room, was explaining the situation, the so-called ‘Namjoon’ along with another one of them, were doing the shoot dance and mumbling a song to each other.

“The farm was fun,” The other guy dancing claimed. “I like the countryside.  Do you have any milk?”

“In the door of the fridge.  Help yourself.” You replied.  The boy left, returning a few moments later with the bottle of milk and a metal straw.  At least he was trying to save the environment.

“It’s 2am.  Why are you awake?” The infertile one asked you.

“Fucked up day.” You respond.

“You! Deserve better! Love yourself bitch!!” The loud guy with the big smile encourages you, placing his hands on your shoulders and shaking them, making you roll your eyes. His happy face abruptly contorted into one of anger and upset at your expression, his skin becoming bright red.  “Why can’t you take the freaking compliment?!!!!!” 

“You are unable to love yourself because capitalism is exploiting your emotions in order to increase production and ultimately profit to the bourgeoisie.  Down with capitalism, love yourself!” The second shortest guy demands.

“Yeah, who needs money when you have milk. Fuck vegans!!” The shoot dancer exclaims.

Out of nowhere, a nasally-sounding instrument sounded, piercing through the room.  An accordion? 

(Sorry to break the fourth wall, but wtf am I writing at this point lmaooo)

“This shit gets weirder every time I swear to God…” The guy with the broad shoulders giggled.

“That’s my neighbour.  She likes to play obscure instruments late at night.  She was playing the melodica yesterday” You explained monotonously, probably out of exhaustion.

“Melodica?” The loud guy mumbled, to your surprise.

“What are your names, anyway? I only know that dimple shoot dancer guy is Namjoon, what’s good?” You asked

“Hi, I’m handsome, but you can call me Seokjin, that’s my government name.” Shoulder guy said.

“My name is Jimin!” The short guy said, blushing and covering his smile with his tiny hand.

“Min Yoongi,” The slightly less short guy nodded, placing his hands on the back of his neck and looking at the ground. “Nice to meet you.”

“I am Jungkook and I like milk.” Needless to explain who that was, sipping that white shit straight out of the bottle like it was soda.

“I’m Taehyung.” The blue haired one offers you a beautiful boxy smile.

“I’m your hooooooooo(p)eeeeeee Hoseok.” The loud guy sings, he too has cute dimples.

“Chill,” You reacted, slumping back against your headboard and processing the events of the night. “What happens now?” Your question was followed by silence and awkward shuffling, the sound of Jungkook slurping the last of your milk, and then choking on it.

“Dude what the fuck,” Taehyung stares at Jungkook while he struggles for air.  “Can’t you do something normal for one second? You deadass just choked on milk.”

“I’d do anything for milk, man,” Jungkook looks hurt by Taehyung’s reaction. “Hey, do you have some cheese?”

You shrugged your shoulders, carefree. “No, ate it all.” 

Jungkook frowned at your lack of cheese. “Wig, okay.”

“So what do you do?” Namjoon asked you, his eyes going wide.

“I get shouted at by other people who are more important than me, basically.”

“Not gunna lie that sounds familiar…” Yoongi looked around at the other boys, only to find their heads looking at your laminated floor.

“Maybe you should get a puppy!” Tae suggested, a bright look in his eyes.  “I have a dog, and it changed my life.  It’s so cute and fluffy and makes me so happy, love that for me, and I’d love that for you too”

“We get it, Tae, you have a fucking dog.” Seokjin bickered with Taehyung, though lightheartedly.

“I have an idea!” Hoseok flung his arms in the air and spun around, you swear you saw glitter sparkle around him. “You should get one of these!” He reaches for his pocket, struggling to get the object out.  After a few moments, he pulled the item out.

A fidget spinner.

He laughed maniacally as he spins the object between his finger and thumb.

“This gag became dead a long time ago, Hobi.” Namjoon stares at Hoseok in shame while the latter still stares at the toy spinning in his hand as if he’d never seen it before.

“No no no, just give it a try, please,” Hoseok walked towards you, holding out the fidget spinner.  His eyes were so full of happiness that you can’t say no to him.  You took the fidget spinner, which was red, and started spinning it.  It was liberating.  You burst into laughter, while Hoseok laughs with you, and the others just watched you uncomfortably.

“What the fuck is going on here?” Jungkook asked, leaning towards Jimin.

Jimin turned to the younger boy. “Breakfast?? Fuck if I know.”

You felt euphoric.  You felt free of all responsibility, as if nothing mattered but the rotating plastic in your hand.

“You know what Yoongi, you were right.  Down with capitalism! Down with the government!” You yell, a smile was slapped across your face, up to your eyes, you looked pretty scary to be honest.  Hoseok’s laughing grew louder and louder as the two of you watched the fidget spinner spin.

“Should we call the police?” Taehyung asks, with genuine concern on his face.  “Or a doctor?  Did they get high? Are fidget spinners addictive?” but the fidget spinner kept on spinning. You kept watching, your eyes going blurry as there were suddenly three toys as a result of some sort of fidget spinner mitosis.  This didn’t phase you.  You kept watching.  You didn’t take your eyes off of it, the other boys looking at each other in complete confusion as the room suddenly became colder and darker, the accordion intensifying as if the sound wasn’t terrifying enough as it was.  You vision had become so blurred that you had blacked out completely, you could feel the floor shaking and could still hear the accordion.

You sat up in your bed.  A cold sweat coated your whole body and your breathing was laboured, however your room was empty.  You had to ask yourself, ?????. Was it all just a dream? You looked around the room, trying to find any sign of life, that someone was there.  You looked at the floor, and there it was.

An empty bottle of milk and a fidget spinner.

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[laallomri]

paria, ruler of god tier headcanons, tell us about leandro/akira

YOUR WISH IS MY COMMAND

leandro:

-curly brown hair (undercut because Of Course), freckles, brown eyes, oversize hands but slender fingers, his ears stick out a little and turn red when he’s embarrassed, when he smiles genuinely his eyes crinkle at the corners, whenever akira does romantic stuff for him he giggles instead of laughs properly and it’s one of akira’s favorite things about him

-he has adhd and hyperfixates on things so he has a huuuge amount of knowledge on very specific subjects. he does the thing where you jiggle your leg and he paces a lot and he keeps a fidget spinner in his pocket

-he is self-conscious. if asked why he’ll say it’s about how much he talks but that’s the surface-version of the real issue, which is that he’s worried about his talent/self-worth. his arc is a mix of him learning to love himself even if he’s not good at something and him doing badass stuff to prove that he’s amazing at a lot of things, too. he learns how to be content with being someone’s support and how to trust himself and his abilities so that he can make decisions with confidence when it is his turn to lead

-he’s your friendly neighborhood sharpshooter and says cool but kinda cheesy lines when he makes shots. akira always falls for them

-leandro, shooting the doorbell of the villain’s home from across the yard, at night: buzz buzz motherfucker! I got a delivery for ya

-akira, muttering: he’s so cool holy shit

-leandro, shooting a villain square in the chest while under heavy fire: HOW’S THAT FOR A BOY FROM CUBA

-akira, hyperventilating: do u think it’s a bad idea to make out while people are trying to kill us or

-leandro was born and raised in cuba. spanish is his first language and he speaks english with an accent

-he is the youngest of four (2 older brothers, 1 twin sister) and has 2 nieces and 1 nephew. his best friend is his maternal grandmother. he calls her every day and she was the second person he came out to after his sister

-he started to consciously realize he wasn’t straight at 14 but he wasn’t out as bisexual until he was 18 (he tells his sister at 15 and his abuelita at 17). part of his arc is becoming less nervous with saying it to people in general because he spends time around the rest of the team, who are all lgbt and make him feel safe and normal about his sexuality

-his ears are pierced and he wears earrings that used to belong to his grandfather, who was a hero and leandro’s inspiration for wanting to help people and do things to make the world better

akira:

-long dark hair (usually ties it up), dark eyes, 1 year older but a few inches shorter than leandro, a dimple in his cheek that flashes whenever he smiles (leandro will sometimes poke the dimple when akira smiles and say “oh hello, nice to see you again” and it always makes akira smile even bigger). his neck and cheeks turn red when he blushes, he snorts when he laughs, and he always sits cross-legged in chairs, even at dining tables and desks

-born and raised in america, though his family is japanese. he understands it fluently but can speak it only conversationally

-he has a necklace that used to belong to his dad. there’s a small square pendant in the center that says ‘family’ in japanese. akira keeps it tucked under his shirt so he can wear it without worrying about losing it

-he is autistic and stims by making a fist and running his thumb over his index finger. sensory overload affects him sometimes so he keeps noise-cancelling headphones in his backpack and leandro makes sure that he scouts out a quiet place for him to take a break whenever they’re at a party or in some kind of crowded area

-sometimes his fangs will appear and his eyes will flash purple and he kinda goes into a lowkey rager mode during a fight. he always manages to calm down when the fight is over so he’s never harmed an innocent person but it bothers him that he can’t control it so leandro offers to train with him to help him learn to bring it out or suppress it at will

-akira, softly: but what if I hurt you? I’d hate if I ever harmed you when you’re just trying to help me

-leandro, also softly, smiling with crinkly eyes: you’d never hurt me. I trust you

-akira, internally: the gay you two exhibited in that moment was legendary. like, the gay jumped out

-akira always knew he liked boys but wasn’t really comfortable saying it. then when he was 13 his mentor/older brother figure talked about asking out a male friend and akira realized that it’s totally normal. he came out as gay a couple years later. he was still a bit self-conscious about it for a while but by the time he’s 17/18 he’s fully comfortable with that part of himself

-he has a motorcycle and normally he doesn’t care about looking cool on it but whenever leandro is around that goes completely out the window

-akira: revving the engine is dumb it’s just showing off

-leandro: hi

-akira: VROOM VROOM BITCHES

-he has 2 swords and often dual-wields. it’s another thing that he knows is cool but doesn’t care but then suddenly does when leandro is around

-akira, after chopping up 12 bad guys: anyway let’s go home now

-leandro: great job, man!! that was fuckin awesome!!

-akira, kneeling and crossing the swords in the air like he’s in some kinda historical epic movie: I AM A GOD

-his arc is about family, about figuring out what happened to his dad and mom and about his attachment to his older brother/mentor and about discovering a family in the team. it’s hard for him to let people in and he often gets scares when he realizes how close he is to someone. but he learns to trust them and trust himself not to ruin things

[jksofficialwifey]

Not so badass boyfriend jk and the cockroach fiasco drabble ♡

wc: 1,700smthin (i added some sht rn so the wc got messed up)

warnings: cockroach death, mentions of the word cock & pussy, sexual themes, this is somewhat a crack drabble

this was inspired ofc by my favorite beings in the world: roaches. jk. i h8 them so much & theres so many in our house and i just wan di3 but i decided to write this shtsterpiece instead. anyway here it goes enjoy or wutevs! jk.

You were cuddling with your boyfriend Jungkook on the sofa in his dorm, while watching a movie with all of your friends, (all of the other bts members + you're all uni students btw) when an unwanted visitor decides to fly and land on top of jk's TV.

It was your most hated winged creature to ever exist on this entire fracking planet, and it doesn't help the fact that your mortal enemy could withstand a nuclear explosion. Although they aren't that invincible, and could easily be killed by being squashed, hit with a slipper, or by being sprayed with an insect spray. You still hate that a few of them can survive high levels of radioactivity. Anyway, going back to the bothersome cockroach that's stressing you a lot, maybe more than your weabooass-mayhaps-secretly-or-not-so-secretly-a-furry-gamer boyfriend, the horrid thing just flew again, now towards your direction. Making you flinch and scream a little, also making your boyfriend surprised by your sudden movement and screaming. "Baby are you okay?" he asked in a worried tone. "Guk...there's a jungcockroach. Kill it please, you know I hate it so much." you told him in a pleading voice.

"Where? and did you really have to call it jungcockroach?" he asked, and you looked around trying to find where the fck it is now, "Idk, it flew in our direction and oh- there it is! just right next to you on the wall! omg kill it! get it away from me!" you screamed, startling jungkook. Which also made him scream in his high pitched voice, because he was shocked. Your friends also wondered why you were screaming and shouting, and when they finally saw the reason why, they were alarmed too. Hoseok screamed and said, "OMG I'm going out of this room until you kill it. ohmygod I hate bugs!" Jin also screamed loud and decided to follow him out of the room. Joon, yoongi, jimin, and tae didn't seem too bothered. They just looked concerned for you.

The cockroach flew again, but it went to the floor, and crawled somewhere in the room. You weren't that scared of it now, that it wasn't flying anymore. But it still wasn't dead, and you were still a little afraid if it reappears, and flies again. Though, you could blame your boyfriend's scaredy ass for not killing it and just screaming at it. Like you did.

"Guk, why didn't you kill it? you just screamed like those undercover agent guys from that white chicks movie." you asked him, mocking the way he sounded a bit, cos he screamed like a girl. "In my defense, I was shookt because you screamed, which made me scream too." he said rather defensively. "Really? or is it because you're afraid of cockroaches like me too? oh my god. and I merely agreed to date you, because I thought someone would finally protect me and kill these pests for me. You were such a badass when i met you though, it turns out you're just as scared of them as I am. How saddening," you asked him, and joked about only dating him because you thought he'd kill these annoying pests for you. But he didn't quite get it and took it a bit seriously to which he replied,

"I just don't like them or bugs in general okay? It doesn't mean I'm scared of them. And what do you mean you merely agreed to date me because you thought I'd kill em for you? I clearly remember you saying, you'll date me because my big cock's a keeper." he said smugly, to which your friends faces wrinkled in disgust. "Um, guys we're still here, pls don't forget." Jimin had said.

"Sorry guys. But sure, whatever you say baby guk, don't worry I won't break up with you. Even though you're scared of bugs," you teased jungkook. "I really am not scared of damn cockroaches though, that pest should show up now. And I'll prove to you that I'm not scared of them." He said too proudly, and not long after, it did show up flying towards his shirt. He tried to fight it, but he shook it off his body instead. Staring at it wide-eyed after doing so til it fell to the ground, and jimin stomped it with his foot, and all his might, ending the nasty thing's pathetic life. "Well, you really proved you're not scared of them gukie. Thanks to jimin though," you said sarcastically. "Jimin ssi, you should become my new boyfriend. I'm breaking up with gukie, cos I need a brave man with real balls to protect me." you told jimin coming up to him, but you really just wanted to get jungkook worked up. Jungkook just glared at you looking annoyed. You actually succeeded in getting under his nerves.

While you were busy teasing jungkook, you didn't notice another cockroach appearing. But this time jungkook had an evil plan, "Um hyungs, why don't y'all go out for a bit. I'm just gonna talk to y/n about our relationship, or whatever that's left of it." he said, feigning to look angry, being like the great actor he is. Sensing that you and jk might have a couple fight, the hyungs obeyed and went out of the room, leaving the two of you alone.

"Y/N, how unfortunate, it's just the two of us left, jimin can't protect you now." Jungkook said with an evil smirk. "What do you mean guk? he killed the cockroach already, I won't have to worry about one for awhile." you replied. Jk found it amusing you didn't even see another cockroach crawling towards you.

"Oh. But what if there's another one? idk baby, but I think that nasty thing crawling towards you looks like a fracking cockroach to me." He said triumphantly, and when you looked down, it was indeed another annoying roach. You moved away from it, but it looked like it was crawling towards the wall instead. "JK kill it please, I can't deal with another one again ughhh. Why won't they stop attacking me?" you were so annoyed and distressed, you just wanted to disappear forevs. "What's that baby? you want me to kill it? oh i dunno if I can though cos I'm so scared of bugs, maybe you could do it yourself since you're so brave. Or you could call jimin, but I think they went home already. Anyway, maybe I'm gonna go out for a bit. Goodluck with your friend..." his cocky ass said, heading for the door.

But he isn't really gonna leave you alone with that nasty pest right? you won't let him. "Ughhh baby I take it all back. You're not a coward, you're the strongest and bravest person in the world! so get rid of the nasty creature now pleaseee." you said loud enough so he can hear and reconsider leaving you to die by the hands of a dirty cockroach, "Really? just awhile ago, you were saying you were gonna leave me for jimin though. But since I'm a merciful being, I'll help you and do it, if you beg again nicely and do something for me in exchange." he wants you to beg again and do something for him, of course. "Fine. My brave and ever so handsome boyfriend, can you pretty please kill that cockroach for me? I was just kidding when I said I'll leave you for jimin sir, I would never choose another person who'll never have the same big dick energy as you. I'll certainly do anything you ask me to do in exchange."

"Well since you asked nicely, I'll get rid of it now for you, baby." he then approached the oblivious insect which was now at the wall, it didn't fly yet but before it could do so, jk had hit it with a book making the roach fall to the floor. He then proceeded to stomp on it, to make sure it wouldn't live anymore. "Done, that was gross. Oof. I didn't realize I used Jin hyung's book that I borrowed to kill it. Maybe I'll just tell him to wipe the cockroach's juices off of it." he said uncaringly.

"Ew. Shouldn't you wipe it yourself before you give it back, like a good person? Anyway, thanks for doing it for me baby, I knew you were still a bit scared but you still did it anyway. And I really was just joking when I said I only agreed to date you, so you could protect me. Ok, maybe that wasn't entirely false, but i love you, you brave bun perfect or not. And I wouldn't trade you for anything in the world." You were being soft, but he just had to remind you of the thing he asked for, in exchange of getting rid of the pest.

"I love you too baby, and I really wasn't scared anymore, because It was fun seeing you scared and wanting me to be your hero. I'm still not gonna wipe that roach's juices off jin hyung's book though, cos I don't feel like being a good person today. And about that thing I want you to do...I just want you to wash my dishes for a month, and don't bother me when I'm playing my video games. It's not too much isn't it?" he said smirking.

"Of course it isn't baby, though I guess you won't be getting a blowie or any type of action for a month then. We're not frickfracking for a month, how tragic. But my glowing fidget spinner anal plug and me will still enjoy, idk about your hand though," you retorted. "What? baby nooo. I changed my mind, you can annoy me anytime even when I'm playing, just don't take away my smashing privileges. I wouldn't last a day, without your pussy in my cock." he exclaimed.

"That's what I thought so. I'm gonna shower now my brave cockslayer, cos all that roach fiasco got me feeling nasty. you're more than welcome to join me if you like." you said, as you went to the bathroom to shower. "I'm coming, I wouldn't pass up a great opportunity to use my privileges, as always."

♡

A/N: sorry for the grammatical errors/typos as always. yk i can't write for sht but I still do bec it's fun to share my crack ideas w/fellow crackheads shsh. I tried to edit this but u cant rlly notice it cos i suck at writing 😂 anyway it's just a drabble bec i h8 flying cockroaches sm!

[twotruefriends-blog1]

evan hansen x reader hcs!

i think this came about bc kali texted me asking for evan hcs on the spot and this is what happened! lemme know if u want a more in depth relationship hc since this is kinda like Before The Relationship :)-nat

MASTERLIST

•evan really never noticed you in his classes or around school until the day you signed his cast •he was a complete stranger to you but! it's nice to have someone sign ur cast! right? •at least that was your thought process •everyday after that he would wonder what you we're doing, How you we’re doing •wave to you in between classes with his lil stutter •sit closer to you in classes you had together •one of your first bonding experiences was with music •you gave him one of your earbuds and u told him to pick anything he wanted •you found out he really likes classic songs and singers •LIKE the beatles, elvis, johnny cash •he hums/sings along to the songs like really faintly UGHUghu IM NECKING MYSELF •evans the kind of guy that if you show him any kind of affection, platonic or romantic he Falls In Love •when you guys got closer he was heart eyes as fuck •his mom pushes him to talk abt u bc Heidi Knows™ •and he's like “uhh mf ham” •he's so observant too •if you do something new with your hair or makeup He Notices !! •”evan did you even notice my shoes?” •”a-actually yes i did and i like them—a lot, i like you a lot,” •”huh?” •”NOTHING” •a couple of months into ur friendship u got him a fidget spinner bc u noticed he has these little tics and u thought it would help •and when u have that bitch to him •necked. Neck city •he was a tomato •he didn't wanna take it at first but u INSISTED and INSISTED and he got so flustered he took it •it's white with blue rings like on the circle part and he takes it Everywhere •there was a time where he misplaced it and really did have a panic attack •he texted you super frantic saying sorry over and over again •that was the first time you ever saw him in that state and it definitely brought you closer •u tried to calm him down by saying you could get another one and this time that you'd buy all the fidget spinners in the world for him!! •that kinda calmed him down :) •whenever ur not at school he feels really down •you remind him to take his meds •”med time!” •he send u a little thumbs up emoji when he’s done it HEHE •it takes Really Really long for evan to finally ask you out on a date •Like SUPER LONG •longer than u would have expected •YOU GUYS GO ON A PICNIC TO ELLISON PARK •heidi took off work and helped make sandwiches for you guys :’) •he shows u around his favorite spots and hiding places •he’ll show you the tree •he doesn’t give you a clear reason why he’s showing you it at first •but he wants to be upfront and honest with you so he tells you about it and what happened •it got a lil sad but u remind him that ur here to have fun!! and u guys DO •you guys have the picnic under a couple of these big trees where the shade is just right •the both of you were talking so much you forgot to eat the food :’) •evan rambling and doing the thing where he almost yells certain words is so cute to you •he shares stories about creepy things thatve happened •also a couple stories about people In The Buff •the whole time ur giggling at eachother AWAAWAW •he walks you home after staying at that park for a good 4! hours! •evan knows that this is a first date and doesn’t wanna Overstep His Boundaries but when u get to ur house •U GIVE HIM A PECK ON THE CHEEK GOODNIGHT •when u leave this boy Melts like a PUDDLE •HE STAY THINKING BOUT U! until the next time you see each other and he is So Heart Eyes for u •and then the next time u see eachother HE gives YOU a kiss on the cheek •too fuckiNg cute i swear •when he asks you out For Real For Real he asks to see you in person and he is all KINDS of nervous •he’s been thinking about it the whole day and when it FINALLY happens the words he gets out are: •”can we date—like do you wanna be my, my uh-“ •”Yes” •”what”

[itsjesperfahey]

modern soc au

inej: 

loves to dance !!! esp ballet but she can dance to whatever tbfh, she’s that good 

likes to wear caps, esp backwards. really loves bomber jackets too. 

has a couple, small tattoos dedicated to her saints 

is that one kid who loves to do parkour (both ironically and unironically) for instance is really good at it but sometimes just yells PARKOUR and steps over a rock

usually found eating lunch with her pals on the roof of the school 

is amazing at hide and seek like holy fuck ????? hid for 2 hours once and wasn’t found, came back the next day and was like “y'all losers SUCK" 

loves to study other people’s cultures, as well as history and is great as p.e (never has gotten a bad grade in the flexibility tests) 

likes to read poem books 

has a black cat as a pet named "saint" 

pronounced meme as "mehmeh” the first time she read it 

only has snapchat and instagram. is that kid who ALWAYS posts the sunset every day, esp from weird/high places and the comments are always “HOW THE FUCK DID YOU GET UP THERE" 

cried the most during fox and the hound 

always braiding nina’s hair. Knows how to do all the super advanced onces as well

"I don’t know, CAN YOU?" 

 the best one at pushing people on the swings 

AMAZING AT JUST DANCE WITH JESPER 

"sorry I ran out of fucks to give try again later maybe?" 

gives the nicest presents. always knows what a person wants for christmas/their birthday 

the one who’s really into photography and is always taking aesthetic™ pics of Nina for her social media accounts 

Prefers tea over coffee

wylan:

bullied for not being able to read (at least up until high school), so is super shy 

loves drawing. the artistic™ one who takes anatomy to be able to draw people better 

MASTER FLUTE MUSICIAN. On the school band. Jams hard af when he plays it 

is in gem math and AP chem with kuwei. 

loves sweet. addicted to blue jolly ranchers. his tongue is always blue 

constantly pushing up his thick rimmed glasses (even if they ain’t on, which causes him to poke his eye)

looooves all the superhero shows on the CW 

V neck sweaters. always

always has his trusty satchel

only has tumblr. has like 10k followers because of his artwork. 

”‘illuminati’ ? is that a band?“ 

cat person even though he’s allergic to cat fur. absolutely adores inej’s cat. settles for owning a horned lizard named "shrek" 

secretly a huge fan of memes 

really gay for tom holland and ed sheeran (calls him "ginger Jesus”) 

gamer with jesper. they always play overwatch together, wylans better tho. a genji and Ana main 

cried the most during big hero six 

wylan, with blank eyes: “I like my coffee how I like my men” // jesper: *spits out his drink* 

matthias: 

sports fan obv. On the schools hockey team bc his fav is hockey. is extremely competitive when he plays it. Is constantly checking but never gets penalties (aka slamming the other players against the walls)

played basketball against jesper and surprisingly lost. jesper won’t let it go 

dog person. owns a pet pomsky (Pomeranian-husky) with nina who’s name is “bub" 

“long hair don’t care”draws inspiration from Harry styles 

really philosophical. takes all the philosophy/ethics classes available 

kind of sounds like Thor (thick and deep accent) 

a good™

"you’re all horrible trash”

“do we really have to be doing this now? I have to finish my homework" 

loves baking. bakes everything for the love of his life 

grey sweatshirts and adidas shoes 

wears contacts Because he hates how glasses look on him. only wears them when he’s home 

oblivious to all the women in love with him

"CAN YOU EVEN LIFT BRO? BECAUSE I SURE AS FRICK CAN” (doesn’t curse) 

real 👍🏻🤘🏻👌🏻life🤰🏻👼🏻🌱student📚✂️✏️athelete🏃🏼🥇🏆🥅🏒

has Facebook and Twitter only

cried the most during bambi and dumbo 

little spoon™ 

has a couple tattoos with very deep meanings

jesper: 

dancer with inej. dances like those ppl who look like robots ??? the ones who look like they freeze parts of their body while the others move. AMAZING at it 

loves jazz but also dubstep/edm and rap/r&b. Beyoncé is MOM/QUEEN. 

sometimes djs parties 

again, huge gamer with wylan. he’s a lucio and junkrat main for overwatch. loves like every video game ever 

loves all the marvel movies, in love with black panther (was team cap) 

dresses like a hipster but also sometimes a fuck boy (tank tops and shorts with a backwards cap style) 

favorite subject is business and debate. great negotiator 

cried the most during the lion king 

A+ cosplayer (especially his lucio cosplay) 

big supporter of human rights (LGBTA+, feminist, black lives matter, poc representation). Will LITERALLY get into fights over anyone who thinks otherwise. Fist fights, always supported by Kaz and Matthias. Got suspended for 3 days for breaking a kids nose who thought LGBTA+ people should **** ** ****) 

that one kid who has 50 fidget spinners and can do cool tricks with them. also manages to sell all of them 

skateboard pro™ 

always sends the blinking face meme, even if it’s out of context 

all the social medias. 

one tattoo only of a gun with a 'bang’ flag coming out of it 

nina: 

 PROFESSIONAL👏🏻 MAKE 👏🏻 UP 👏🏻 ARTISTS 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 HAS HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS OF FOLLOWERS ON HER INSTAGRAM AND THE SAME FOR HER YOUTUBE CHANNEL 

Speaking of YouTube, she always does cute videos. Baking/cooking tutorial videos featuring Matthias, 'i do my boyfriends makeup’, 'my boyfriend does my makeup’, 'my boyfriend buys my makeup’, does make up tutorials obviously, challenges with her best friend inej like the 'whisper challenge’. everyone loves her and says her and Matthias are their otp 

loves fashion design, takes that class. 

loves horror movies/creepy things but also Disney 

great at roller skating 

always wins the best dressed awards ad school 

also huge fan of ed sheeran. loves little mix more than 5h. 

cried the most during 'up' 

Can speak like 4 languages (English, french, Latin and spanish) 

loves traveling and learning about new cultures too 

dancer!inej’s biggest fan and hockey!matthias’ biggest fan 

always breaks snapchat streaks 

likes to (friendly) debate with jesper, especially over stupid things 

amazing with kids. babysits all the time. calls “bub” (the dog) her and matthias’ baby 

big spoon™ 

notes are so fucking pretty. buys the most expensive stationary and notebooks 

also huge supporter of human rights. runs the feminist club. (Jesper is the Vice President) stresses loving yourself and your body, and makes sure to design comfortable yet GORGEOUS clothes for “"plus sized people”“ 

wins 'dynamic duo’ award with inej 

always eating lollipops 

has a few very small tatos of cute things like roses and crowns. has one quote written in cursive on her rib

kaz: 

prefers black coffee as well 

loves crime shows, whether they’re real or fake. for instance loves both 'Dateline’ and 'Criminal Minds’ also loves 'House’

 favorite class is psychology, learning how a person thinks and acts and feels

has the dregs tattoo on his arm * edge lord 9000™ * such a drama queen and diva like damn 

*deep sigh* "I think I’d rather go take a nap” *gets up and leaves* 

also loves computer science. knows how to hack shit like a pro 

always rough housing with jesper. broke a table once 

does walk with a cane. likes to slap matthias’ ass with it 

“bow down you fucking peasants" 

only types in lower case with 0 emojis and no punctuation marks. CONSTANTLY leaves people on read 

only has Twitter and snapchat. His posts on snapchat never have captions, yet somehow has a 200 day streak with Jesper and a 250 day streak with inej 

loves watching horror movies with nina 

 *in a fight* "oh I’ll sHOW YOU SOME DIRTY HANDS” *swings* 

gets second place for best dressed award 

always sending memes with no context in their group chat, as well as vines 

indie and alternative rock fan 

“does it look like I care because I’m sorry if it does I didn’t mean to give you that impression" 

head over heels for inej Ghafa like wow 

likes to read a lot of mystery books and non fiction books 

cried the most during finding dory 

can solve a Rubik’s cube under a minute and won’t let you forget it 

The one asshole who picks either Kirby or metaknight in super smash brothers brawl

 hates seeing the notification bubble so he always has all chats muted and notifications turned off for apps 

kiss ass to all the teachers to get them A’s

Kuwei: 

SCIENCE NERD. ALWAYS singing the bill nye theme song. Loves ASAPScience on YouTube. Master at chemistry and biology 

"hey did u know bill nye is, like, my dad" 

nina treats him like a baby 

loves everything to do with Star Wars while wylan loves star trek more. Fighting ensues. 

has a pet Siamese cat name sparky 

Used to have a huge crush on jesper and everyone knew it except jesper. 

knows the intro to the bee movie ("according to all known laws of aviation-”)

 jesper in the group chat: “gonna go shower be right back” // kuwei: “without me ;)?” // wylan: “KUWEI SWEAR TO FUCK” // kaz: “watch your fucking language wylan" 

obsessed with Pokémon go even if it died out (chose team instinct) 

"fight me on this" 

has Twitter, snapchat and instagram 

Always drinking ginger ale 

master at bop it 

the one kid who always forgets to pay you back for stuff 

is also into the CW super hero shows, so him and wylan are constantly talking about it 

loves cartoons and anime 

speaks fluent fuckboy 

God awful at comebacks 

"let’s take a selfie guys !!!” // “kuwei no-” // *snapshot sound* 

talks !!! Like !! This !!!! for,,, some reason ???????? 

huge nerd for other things too like lord of the rings and Harry Potter and game of thrones 

cried the most during inside out

 "do you think planes are scared of heights?“ // "for fucks same kuwei it’s 4am”

[yoongiandchiminie]

P R E S S U R E { 4 }

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masterlist

{Part 1}  {Part 5}

Pairing: Reader X Yoongi

Word Count: 8,965

Genre: Romance, Smut, Fluff

Warnings: Smut, daddy kink, cursing Summary: After dating for almost 3 years, the armys and Yoongi’s label have found out about your relationship. Now you have to deal with it in your extraordinarily normal life.

  Twitter was blowing up. The official BTS account had tweeted about a new opening act for the final show called “Slow Burn.” Sadly, Anthony tweeted about our name being Slow Burn a few hours ago and so the armies had figured it out quick enough. The reactions were mixed, but I just brushed it off. Everything about my mentions blowing up was downgraded due to my life ceasing soon.

“So, guys. I’m kind of offended nobody thanked me for getting us here. Jimin and I are best friends after all.” Alicia chided herself and I just heard Anthony groan.

“Yo, shut up dude. You know this wasn’t you.” Then he paused for a moment. “You know what? All you, Alicia. You get to do all the talking tonight. I’m excited for your first voice crack. I wonder if people will laugh or just be confused.” he snorted at his own joke and she just rolled her eyes.

“Hey Alicia.” she was sprawled on one of the couches as I paced around the room. “Is this karma?”

“Nah, this is a super sick chance, but karma is coming soon. Maybe you'll trip tonight.” She was probably right. I was clumsy.

“Fuck you, dude.” With that final quip, the door to the dressing room opened and Ji-Hye walked back in. She was a little fidgety, but she seemed fully put together and in control of her job, as stressful as it seemed.

She went to open her mouth, but before she could Anthony was already loud. “Hey Ji-Hye, quick question. Are we wearing these clothes on stage or do we get super cool clothes? You know, maybe that are breezy? Cuz I sweat- A lot.” Julianna punched Anthony and waved off his words, telling Ji-Hye to completely forget him and that we were grateful and comfortable and super duper grateful again. The woman only laughed us off, shrugging off our crazed words.

“I can see about getting you guys jeans and things, if you'd like.” We all nodded. It's be nice not to be afraid to make a sudden movement without ripping a seam. Knowing me, however I'd stay in this dress for the performance to make Yoongi happy. I knew he'd love to see that. “The stage you will be playing on is a bit different to sound check. Earlier we were trying to brainstorm would what work the best simply because the way the BTS stage is set up. It's set up for multiple movements around it and the other opening act was an idol group so we didn't have to make any adjustments there. However, you have instruments. So, we pulled a few strings and got you guys a rotating stage.”

We were all on our feet and moved closer to the woman. “Rotating?!” I exclaimed, “Can I get strapped down to it? I'll fall and die.” She was full of laughter as we all began to voice our concerns.

“Can I be strapped to Y/N? If I fall, she's going down too.” Alicia mused.

“What if it moves too fast and my skirt flies up? I can't stop mid line to adjust it…” Julianna nervously began tapping her fingers together.

However there were the guys. “That's so sick! Holy shit, our one night only got a lot cooler!” Anthony was ecstatic and Luke was right by his side.

“Does it just move around the entire stage throughout the set?” Luke was the only one with questions. Us girls still had hope we could get out if that full well knowing it was decided.

“Ahh, you boys keep me going.” she laughed, “The entire set it will move and slowly spin around the stage so that you never have your backs turns to one audience for too long. Between songs when you do your talking bits-” I didn’t even have to say it because I guess my popped eyes did. “Yes, talking parts. Basically explain what happened and that you’re grateful after your first song. Then explain a little bit about yourselves, you can do a cute little introduction thing if you want. Then plays two more songs. Talk about BTS. Another song. Thank them again, ask if they’re ready for BTS. Last song and after a bow and thank yous as you jog off of the stage. All good?”

We all nodded and she was gone again. I’d gone back to sitting down and was just running through speeches within my head. I was genuinely grateful for this experience, but I didn’t want to come off cocky or nervous even though it would be obvious I was dying.  My movements tended to show my nerves, mainly by falling. I also had this really awkward hand that I didn’t know what to do with most of the time. It was- bad.

“Can we barricade the door until 10 minutes before show time?” Alicia asked, rolling back and forth on the entire couch she was taking up.

“I don’t think so.” Luke sighed sitting on her legs since there was no other place to sit.  “Can you believe this shit guys? I feel guilty. I feel like we don’t deserve this and you all know we don’t… It’s all circumstances and we just got so damn lucky. Thank you Y/N, maybe now I’ll believe you picked the right guy.” Everyone except for me burst into a fit of laughter. I brushed off his spiteful comment about Yoongi. It wasn't the time.

Luke was right. It was all luck honestly and we were lucky for once in our lives. This wasn’t a normal thing that really happened, but here was the opportunity. In my anxious fit, I had decided not to speak no matter what they said to me. It was a lot of teasing of how well I’d do tonight with standing up and gravity, not my talent. I knew I was good at singing. It was always my fall back if my life fell apart which was slowly happening. Slowly.

For the next hour we sat in the room, doing beyond worthless things. I think Anthony had a fidget spinner and Julianna just doodled while Alicia napped and Luke kept going over chords on an acoustic guitar. I guess this was all of their ways of coping with anxiety while mine was just staring at something and thinking of the overwhelming darkness that was inevitably going to destroy me. So, it was a good time.

Luckily, we got clothes throughout the time. Well, I just got flat shoes. The man who brought them in said that Yoongi looked annoyed when he heard that I requested new clothes and he said, to quote, “What the actual fuck, I bought that girl a nice dress and she is going to shake her fucking talent off in it and I’m going to watch and be angry if she comes out in SKINNY JEANS.” The guy really emulated my boyfriend's attitude within the words, sadly. Now everyone was in jeans and cute tops and here I was looking like an idiot in a cocktail dress. I’m gonna make that joke on stage. Yeah. I’ll be funny. No I won't.

There was no press that came in to stop and we were all grateful for that one. Each one of the BTS boys did stop in for a quick moment while running through interviews. Jin was first and he came in to fix Anthony’s hair, saying he shouldn’t wear a hat on stage. The moment he left Anthony put the snapback back on, claiming his new haircut didn’t look good without it. Next was Jungkook who just held Julianna??? I was confused too.

Then Yoongi came in and gave me a squeeze and hi fived everyone. He wished us luck and told us he was proud of us. And that he wants a shout out. Asshole. Then Tae came in and picked up the acoustic guitar and knew nothing. Like, he couldn’t understand how to do an e chord when we tried to explain it. Hoseok and Jimin came in together. Hoseok gave us this long speech and Jimin just sat on Alicia who was in and out of consciousness throughout this time.

Namjoon came in last and sat us down. He gave us another run down of how it was going to go and made sure to stress that the ARMYS were loud as all hell and he loved it. Then he told us how good we were and how grateful he was that we were here and the last night of tour wasn’t ruined by a flaky opener. He left with hugs and a good luck.

“Show time in 2, come wait by the curtains and get ready to go.” Ji-Hye stuck her head in and waved us along. It was the moment we all stood up that I think it sunk in. All I wanted to do with my life was work, get married, and start a family but here I was about to play for almost 70,000 people because my boyfriend needed a favor. Wow.

The walk up to the stage was stressful. Everybodies eyes back stage were on us and I knew that if we fucked this up- I was done for. Not only would I be putting a strain on Yoongi, but if this was messed up it would account for the entirety of BTS. Then they’d find a way to get rid of me for sure and maybe even make Jimin stop being friends with Alicia. I couldn’t let her down here, I couldn’t ruin any friendships and I was too in love to fuck up my relationship. So, I’d let that push me.

At this point, we could see the lights slowly dimming out on stage and for the next moment we were alone. It was just the five of us standing in a circle. I had Luke on my right and Alicia on my left. Julianna stood next to Luke and Anthony beside her. As I looked through their faces quickly, I knew I was the only one who was extremely vocal about being nervous but they had it too. The wrenching feeling of making a mistake on their only shot… We could do it.

“We’re capable.” I put my hand into the middle. “We’re totally able to do this… C’mon. We’ve been playing these songs for the past 2 years. It’s basically all we know. We rock.” Alicia placed her hand atop of mine and nodded. “We won’t screw up.” Anthony’s hand was down. “We got lucky, but we’re doing them a favor. This isn’t some weird pity trip.” Julianna’s hand was down. “You guys are my best friends and I wouldn’t be able to do this if any of you weren’t here.” Luke’s hand was down. “All the love in the world for my favorites.”

We exchanged glances and nodded at the same time. In unison we counted down from 3 and threw our hands in the air, moving in for a quick group hug.

“20 seconds!” Suddenly instruments were being thrown onto them, the straps being quickly adjusted by stage crew to make sure they were low enough. “Drummer out first!” some voice in the distance called. “Wait 5. Guitars and Bass! Lights on, vocals.”

“We can do this.” I whispered as the five second countdown went off. Then the lights went off and my heart sank as I watched Anthony run to the kit on the stage surrounded by cheers. He began to play a simple beat and they clapped along to it. Lights began to play in motion with his drumming. Then the rest of them ran out, playing along to the start of our first song. It was called Tonight. They were starting with Tonight.

The countdown hit to three and I knew my vocals had to come in after the next riff. Before I went out, I pulled out one of my earpieces. I dashed for the stage as it began to move and hopped onto it, grabbing onto the mic and pulling it off of the stand. Here it comes. Here I go. “And every book it reads the same and all the pages never change. Growing tired of this same thing feeling.”

As I ran through the lyrics in time with the music, the memories of this song came back to me. I’d written it when I was 17 with Luke. It was my favorite Summer. We were going into our senior year and everything was amazing that summer. We’d all gotten morning jobs so every night we were out on the town and wherever our fake ids could bring us. Everything til that summer had sucked. School sucked, but here were the half free days that sung freedom.

“So let me take you out tonight, all that I can show you. Breathe these city lights, Let the beat control you. You’ll forget your life, everything they told you. You could lose your mind, if you want I’ll show you.”

It was our first time truly being free. We could drive at this point and the riff just came to us. We’d lived our lives as courteous students, never really breaking too many rules. We all had this comfort zone that we were hiding in, sitting around doing nothing. That year we decided to break past the harder parts and live a little. Enjoy our years. This was the last year we had before we were adults. We decided to make the most out of it.

I moved around the stage as I sang, falling into the music. Our music eased me. I was here with my family and in the crowd were my friends, even if some of them were possibly vomiting from seeing my face up here. They were lucky they didn’t have to see me vomit from this.

It was time for the bridge that was purely backed by bass. I made my way over to Julianna and she smiled, totally ready for her time to shine. It was the chorus a bit slowed down and my favorite little thing in this song to do. I clapped my hand against my leg to get it going and saw the rest of the band clapping along too except for Julianna. Here was her moment. “So let me take you out tonight, all that I can show you. Breathe these city lights, Let the beat control you. You’ll forget your life, everything they told you. You could lose your mind, if you want I’ll show you.”

The chorus came again, back up to full speed and by this point I was totally in my element. I loved this. I probably wouldn’t stop complaining, but this was my element. The last few riffs rang and the song ended, the crowd erupted into cheers and I couldn’t help but to laugh and smile. Everyone else was breathless and had the same look on- amazement.

“Hey everyone!” Wow, this was loud. There was a moment where I thought to put my other ear piece in, but fuck it. I wanted to hear them. “We’re Slow Burn, all the way here from America. A bit of a foreign thing right? Oh god, you guys definitely can’t understand me.” Laughter came from them. “Maybe some of you can. If you can, help out someone who can’t. I talk a lot and it’s a little irritating. Anyways, hope you guys liked that first song! We’re super grateful to get this awesome experience and before we go on- I want to thank BTS!”

Wow, that was loud again. Super loud. I slipped my other ear piece back in, but I could still hear them. This was amazing. “This thing on?” Anthony began his little talking thing.

“Yeah, I think it is.” Luke called back through his mic and wow did the crowd go crazy for them. They were two attractive guys and obviously these girls knew attractive. “I’m Luke, I’ll be playing you guys some nice rhythm guitar up here! I also play a little bit of piano too. The keys.” Everyone was full of giggles.

“Hey, I wanted to go first!” Anthony laughed, purely putting on some weird act the two of them had probably planned ahead of time. I’d never truly understand their goals here. “I’m Anthony! I’ll be playing you guys some nice drums. You know the drums are the real grit of the songs right? You’d be nothing without me and the bass line. The rhythm section.”

Julianna looked like she was about to pass out but I saw her quickly go towards her mic. Had they planned out this cute little thing and I was left in the dark? Of course they had. “Julianna here!” It was adorable. “I’m here to be the other half of the rhythm, some nice smooth bass all night!”

“Hey!” Alicia’s voice cracked almost immediately and the rest of us on stage burst into laughter. “I’m Alicia and I swear I’m not going through puberty. I’ll just be keeping my mouth shut on some lead guitar over here.” she quickly backed away from the mic.

“Uh, hey! I’m Y/N! I’ll be singing if that’s okay with everyone!” Oh boy was I awkward. “So, we’re Slow Burn and we have a few more songs if that’s alright with you guys! We’re gonna slow it down a little bit.”

The lights dimmed and Luke made his way to the keyboard that was close to him and played the first few notes of our song Let Me Hear. My vocals almost started right away and I loved this song. If I was going to be honest, this may be my favorite one. I’d written this song alone in full. Music, lyrics, composition. It was a little dark and twisty for a love song, but it was my love song. “I wish that we could hide away. Wear this flesh and rule the world. Through all our lies- our disguise, but they’ll never get to realize.”

I’d written this a few months ago when Yoongi and my relationship had gone public. I cried a lot at that time but he told me to channel it into something. He didn’t really mean a song at that point. Actually, he’d told me to get a second job or take boxing lessons. I wasn’t quite sure why me overexerting myself was his best suggestion, but it was.

Instead, I had found salvation sitting in front of the out of tune piano in my living room. When my parents finally separated, my mom said this was the most important thing she had to take. It was her parents first piece of furniture together and it held a special place in her heart. When we were apartment shopping, I swear this was the most important thing to her. She would have probably taken this piano over me at this point and sent me off to live with my father who had my sister.

The notes in the song slowly came to me and I found myself simply singing these words as if I’d known them my entire life. This song came so easily to me at that time. I guessed it was all of the pent up emotions I felt, but the ominous lyrics flowed. The message was clear, even if it was a bit hidden within this weird love song. “I keep calling out your name, so you know I’m still here to wipe away your tears. If we fall, at least we’re falling as one in the end, let me take your last breath.”

As I sang through the chorus one last time, I searched the vip balcony for Yoongi. I could see his figure there standing close to the edge, the lights blinded my view. His eyes were focused on the stage as it slowly moved around and in that moment I was so into this song. It wasn’t until it ended that I realized I had begun to cry during it from the raw emotion I was putting forth. With the last ominous chord at the end, we quickly picked up into a faster song.

X.U. This song was me again with Alicia helping with it. I tend to write most of our songs. Everyone else was capable but the sad part was that they were extremely lazy and never spilled their ideas unless I reached out for help on one of mine. “I’ll be there, hold on, I’ll save you somehow, so where are you now?”

This song was never meant to sound like as much of a long song as it did. It was written when the two of us were the only ones left at home. When everyone had gone away to school. It was primarily focused on the bonds we’d created together and that no matter what, it was us. The five of us always.

As the song seemingly ended, I heard a few claps, but the music kept going. It was just they keys now and Anthony leaned in towards the mic, the kick drum the only thing still going. “Alright everyone! I need you to get low for me, as low as you can go! Then when I say so, we’re gonna jump up and go crazy! Well, you guys. I kinda can’t.”

I went down onto one knee and as the music stopped, I jumped up almost into the words. “So if you wanna fight with me! Then go ahead, it’s destiny. Cause all I wanna do is set you free, you will be the death of me!” I was trying hard to still be fun and not completely lose my breath while jumping around. I had some belting to do here and I wasn’t about to mess up at the coolest part of the song. I just couldn’t help it, this was way too fun. I’d probably have a meltdown soon, but right now this was sick.

The song ended and I stood still for a moment to catch my breath, I caught eyes with Luke, who quickly stepped forward and began to yell into the mic. “You all having fun?!” He was met with screaming. “Yeah! We are too! We’re stoked to be here tonight! We’re a band all the way from America and wow! You guys are beautiful!” I could see some girls swooning from this guy. What a charmer.

“We just want to say another big thank you to BTS!” I chimed in, making my way to the front of the stage. “We wouldn’t have been given this opportunity without them and wow! How cool are they?” My enthusiasm was breaking. “But you don’t wanna hear this stuff, how about some more songs?!” Cheers. “Alright!”

The piano started slow. Here came When It Falls, the most vocally challenging song we had in our short little set for me. It was the hardest for all of us. It had backup vocals, a sick guitar solo, and the drumming was hardcore. It was speed drumming that Anthony could do in his sleep. It also had a bit of scream singing that Luke was super excited to do here. This song was always fun to play because it pushed us all to our brinks and we absolutely loved it.

“There’ll be no rest, There’ll be no love, There’ll be no hero in the end who will rise above. And when it ends, the good will crawl. The shining light will sink in darkness, victory for hate incarnate, misery and pain for all, when it falls.”

I’d written the piano in the start for this song and the guitar then had approached Anthony about it. This song felt like it was going to be angry and his girlfriend at the time was giving him all of that. He was pumped when we started this and immediately had ideas. I’d expected an angry breakup song, but he’d given me this much darker one.

His girlfriend at the time, Belle, was vindictive, manipulative, and always played the victim. I knew that he wasn’t happy in that relationship, but I couldn’t make his choices for him. After hearing the lyrics for this song, it was almost crazy to me how he’d brought that relationship into war terms. He’d written a song about war.

“This is not a tragedy, it’s not an accident. You placed your faith in fools and now you’ll smoother in lament. They play the part of allies, claiming peace their only goal, but once the fight for power starts, they’ll eat each other whole. Their iron gloves point fingers, they’ll wage a war of blame and mankind will wilt in pain.”

As the song drew to a close, I knew these were our final words and this was where we were almost done. As fun as this was, I couldn’t wait for it to be over so I could say we fucking did it. Even though at the same time, this was all I wanted to do.

“How are we doing everybody!?” I called out. “I can’t hear you~.” I teased and in sync we all pulled one of our earpieces out and cupped our ears with our hands. “Damn, you guys are loud, but I guess it’s because you’re excited. Who here is excited for BTS?!” They went crazy every time, it was amazing. “Well, so are we! We have one more song for you guys then it’s time to go super crazy! Here we go!”

This one had to be my favorite to actually play. It was called Hey Kids! It was a real performance oriented song. It had some cool talking parts and the guitar was absolutely amazing in it. I got to get some cool backup vocals from my girls and do some cool mantras in it. This song was written by all of us off of a riff that Luke had written. “Turn up the temperature, entice that golden taste. Give it some flavor, flavor, flavor. Just wanna hold your hand.”

We had written it without lyrics at first as a demanding song. Then it kind of felt- empty. So we did something that a lot of bands and artists could almost be afraid of. Hell, we were afraid. This could either ruin this song or make it fucking awesome. Happily, it did the latter.

As the long talking part approached, I made my way towards the rest of my band mates instead of the front of the stage. Every time I moved, I could feel the stage slowly rotating around me. 

"You know? I'm really tired of your piss-poor attitude. Mentally, physically, emotionally. Show me some respect, jeez! Do you - Do you have any?! It's like you don't care about anyone but yourself I swear you do it to piss me off … You DO don't you?!"

Accomplished and it wasn’t super awkward. The smiles on everyone's faces were enough to prove me right. They were probably all nervous about the talking too especially cause I mainly joked around with it. I never really recited it the way it was written when we’d played it over the last 3 years.

“Let’s drive them crazy! This time, let an evolution shake our lives, we’ll overcome the chaos. Let’s drive them crazy! Sweet destiny, you are who I am living for-oh oh. You drive me crazy! I won’t forget, I will find you once again, just tell me where to go. Let’s drive them crazy! So, bring it on, I’ll challenge fate again and again Ohh- Oh Oh! Just wanna hold your hand!”

For the last line, we all spoke into our mics. “Now swear to respect the hero!”

Then, it was over. The moment that had been in all of our dreams since we were younger had happened and it was real this time. “Thank you!” I yelled into the mic. They placed down their instruments and we all ran to the front of the stage as the rotation finally came to a half right in the middle. We stood in a line with the guys on the side and me in the middle and put our arms to each other's backs, taking a quick bow all together. Then, we jogged off.

The second we reached backstage, I was greeted by Yoongi who ran over to me and picked me up, spinning me around. The entire crew was clapping for us, along with the rest of BTS. “Holy shit, you smell. Take a quick shower so you can see us perform.” Yoongi spoke in an obnoxious tone but he was quiet enough that only I could hear him. “You were amazing, baby. I couldn’t be any prouder of you.” he stood behind me with his arms wrapped around my chest, “Of all of you, really. Thank you for stepping outside of this one's comfort zone and doing us a favor.”

“You guys were amazing!” Namjoon came around and gave everyone high fives. “This was such a cool thing! Our best friends, rocking! You guys rock! We gotta write a song together because those songs were cool!” We couldn’t help except to smile and say thank you for the compliment.

“Holy shit, you guys do that almost every night?!” Anthony exclaimed, fist bumping everyone within a close enough range. “Major props, I need to hit the gym again.”

“See, you say that but you won’t do it.” Alicia joked and he just shot her a look. The four of them were sweating their clothes off, but I wasn’t as bad. I was probably bad, but not as terrible as them. They were holding heavy things and banging, but I was just attempting to be confident on stage. To have some sort of stage presence. I hoped it worked.

“We can train together! I’m off for the next two weeks!” Jin called to Anthony and slung his arms around him and Luke. “The three of us will train!” The two American boys vigorously nodded and I think everyone in the conversation knew they wouldn’t stick to any kind of regiment. They wanted to, but they easily gave into food. Lucky for them, they had fast metabolisms.

Yoongi pulled me away from the group, taking me towards where I’m guessing the showers were. I’d seen the American shows of this tour, but he was super excited for me to see this one. He’d always go on and on about how the shows home in Korea were something special and this would be my first time seeing it. Since we’d been in a secretive relationship, I was never able to truly fly out for these special occasions. Now I was able to, which was nice.

“Showers right here.” We stopped in front of a bathroom. “I put some stuff in there for you and I’m not kidding, I have a five-minute timer that’s about to start so you better fucking strip and wash yourself.”

“Okay, Dad, but just pull down my zipper first.” I groaned as he did so and then walked inside, slamming the door behind myself. The dress was quickly by my feet and I bent over to undo my shoes. Everything was off within seconds. I swear to god I took the quickest shower of my entire life, clocking in at about 3 minutes. Now I had less than 2 to get dry and dressed without ruining his night. “Yoongi!” I yelled, slipping into the dress. He burst in within seconds and zipped me up. “Quick enough?”

“Yeah, yeah. I’m on in 20. Where are you gonna hang out? Backstage or vip? Are you hungry? Are you thirsty? Holy fuck, your throat must hurt. Oh shit, I’m s-”

“I don’t know what’s up with you right now, but you’re sounding like me. That’s bad.” I took his hands into mine to stop his jitteriness. “What’s with you? Yoongi, you don’t get nervous like this for shows.”

“But you’re here.”

“And I’ll continue to be here. So, stop it.” I leaned up and kissed him, reaching up to touch his mint green hair. He smirked into the kiss and wrapped his arms around me, pulling me tight to him and breaking it. Now I was just shoved against his chest. “You’re suffocating me.” I croaked out.

He pulled away and reached out to lace his fingers with mine. “Do you wanna do a song together? Like, the way I have So Far Away with Suran.”

“On your mixtape?”

“No, like even before my next mixtape. The fans have been begging for me to do a cover of some song, so let’s make one together.”

“Dude-”

“You always start saying dude when your friends show up, stop it.” he had the biggest smile on his face. “I think it’d be, I dunno, cute.”

“You’re too cute. Listen, go get ready for your show. It’s gonna be amazing. I love you too much and you know it.” I pulled away from him and began to walk in the direction of the vip balcony.

“I love you, gorgeous,” he spoke quietly and even though the room was loud, I could hear his voice coming towards me. He saluted me goodbye and I laughed as I turned my back on him and jogged to the place I’d watch BTS from for the night.

Some of the member's families were here, but not Yoongi’s. I could only guess that’s why he was so excited about me being here. He was such an emotional family guy, but it was tough for his parents and brother to get out to shows a lot. I knew that they went to one that was closer to them during this tour, so that made me feel better about them not being here. It wasn’t like he had nobody- he had me. I was his family too at this point.

There were assigned seats and I found a paper with my name written on it surrounded by flowers in the front row. Alicia was next to me then Julianna was next to her and then the guys. Of course Luke’s was written with skulls on it and placed the farthest away from me. Yoongi had tried to make the handwriting not look like his, but it was a little bit too obvious. It was extremely laughable.

The room was full of strangers to me, but everyone seemed to have a kind smile on. Nobody gave me any kind of dirty look, but only compliments. Most of them barely spoke any English, but that didn’t stop these kind souls for commending me for my performance. I just got extremely embarrassed and quiet and full of thank yous.

Five minutes before showtime, my friend showed up back in their fancy attire and all clean and not gross. Luke fucking choked at his sign and crinkled it up, throwing it into a trash can. He took the empty seat to my left just to spite Yoongi and I just rolled my eyes. Luke didn’t still have a thing for me, but he knew my boyfriend was the extremely jealous type and like to push his buttons. They were always on each other's nerves due to their relationships with me and a good amount of the time I felt like I was walking on eggshells around the duo.

The lights went down and the crowd began to scream as a video played across all of the screens. Without even realizing, I was suddenly on my feet and into the show. BTS was one of my favorite artists to watch live. They were so about their performance and making their crowd feel safe and at home here.

They were in such a different element when they were on the stage.They were still the goofy guys we knew and loved but this was more serious for them. This is what their 12 hours a day of practice every day goes towards. All of the vocal and dance practices, everything. They were dedicated to making this the best damn night of everyone who came to see them and did a pretty amazing job at it.

The moment they stepped onto the stage was mesmerizing. From the outfits to each of their stage presence, it was captivating. They were simply euphoric.

  The entire show maxed to about 2 and a half hours and it wasn’t until 10 minutes before it ended that my attention was taken away. It was Ji-Hye, she waved the five of us off of the balcony and backstage so we could actually hear her. “Bangtan has requested that you five go on stage for the final bow.” We simultaneously shook our heads no. “They said you’d say that and they said if you don’t come out you’re all going home tonight. Also, they said they won’t see any of you during their time off.”

“Of course they threatened us.” Julianna laughed, “At least I look super cute now. Fine, we’ll do it.”

I simply shrugged and rolled my eyes, running towards the curtain to catch the final song. They were ending with OUTRO: Wings tonight and I couldn’t help but to move to the music as it began. I ended up jumping around with my friends and locking eyes with Yoongi who was running around the stage. He suddenly picked up his speed and sprinted right over to the curtain and grabbed onto my hand. Fuck it.

I motioned my head to the rest of the band and they followed us dancing out. Yoongi held my hand and led all of the to the center of the stage where they all cheered when they saw the five of us making our way over. When it was time for his verse, he spun me away back to my band, only to come back like a puppy when the singing parts began.

The ARMY bombs were actually the coolest thing to see all lit from the stage. They changed colors as the boys sang back and forth with the crowd.  It was time for the cute little dance circle they did and when Hoseok called “Suga!” This man tried to pull me over with him, so I pushed him. Then he fell and did some goofy move off of that.

As the song broke down, Hoseok yelled into the mic. “Are you guys having fun?! Are you gonna miss us!?” Then his super hype verse began. The coolest thing. As the last chorus started, the confetti cannons blew and showered the entire stadium.

As the song ended, the twelve of us grouped up at the center. Slow music started to play behind him as he gave a speech. He, first of all, thanked the armies for coming out, then he thanked the rest of Bangtan for being there with him on his journey, he thanked Slow Burn and all of the people behind the scenes. He thanked all of their families and then thanked all of the ARMYS again.

It was all in Korean, but at the start of his speech, Yoongi leaned into my ear to translate the entire thing to me. I felt his hot breath against the side of my face as he spoke and when Rap Monster had said the thing about their families, he quickly bit my ear and I felt him smile against the hair he was leaning on. As the speech ended, the twelve of us bowed together and then Slow Burn walked off of the stage so the other boys could do their ending remarks and take one final bow together.

We stood on the side of the stage and watched them as they all got super emotional. Again, it was times like these I wished I could understand Korean. At least noises were universal. Yoongi’s speech was last and there were multiple “Aww” noises and the general vibe in the room was love. The vibe was always love with Bangtan. The connection they had with their fan base was insane and something to not be rivaled. Ji-Hye leaned into me and whispered, “You know he’s talking about you right now?”

“What?”

“He’s saying that he’s very thankful for the way army has treated you and accepted you. He said he loves you a lot, Y/N.”

I could feel my face heat up red and I instinctively began to cry. Luke furrowed his eyebrows at me but offered his arm for me to cry on. “Hey! Stop crying back there, I’m watching you!” Yoongi laughed out into the microphone in English and I began to cry even more. “Ahh, hell.”

I cried through the end of their concert and then when they walked off of the stage I ran into Yoongi’s arms and cried into him as he carried me towards their dressing room. “”Ahh, stop crying. You don’t even know Korean.”

“Well, someone exposed you and now I’m crying.” I whined into his shoulder as I sniffed out the last few tears. “Does my makeup look okay?”

“Yeah, oddly enough. I’m gonna shower then we’re going back to the hotel and I’m letting you know that you’re getting fucked in that dress. Just in advance.”

I looked up at him with a disgusted face. “You know how to make a mood even better, don’t you?” He simply smirked at me and went into the showers. I pulled out my phone and sent a message in my group chat letting them know I was alright and that I’d see them tomorrow. We’d figured out we all had the same flight time to JFK, so lucky for them I could make sure they got there on time.

He walked out a few minutes later in a nice jacket and dress pants in a hurry. “I’m wide awake . Let’s go, baby girl.” This man basically rushed me out of the building and into the van to the hotel. I guessed it was so he didn’t lose this high he was riding out so he could finish his night strong,

His hand was on my thigh, dangerously close to me. Eventually, he gave up on trying to be subtle and began to suck on my neck lightly, not leaving marks as of yet. He was trying to tease me and we were both aware of it. I didn’t really get the teasing when I knew he literally wanted to have fucking hot sex. But he liked it and it was his night. Thankfully there was no traffic.

Once the van dropped us at the hotel, I purposely walked extra slow to tease him right back. His eyes shot daggers and he literally walked over and simply picked me up. I jumped right into the lift and wrapped my legs around his waist and rested my head on his shoulder, right against his ear. “Watching you tonight, Yoongi… I could barely contain myself. You looked so hot on that stage… and watching everyone marvel over you… The only thing I could think of is that I would be the one who got to go home with you at the end of the night.”

“That’s all you could think about?” I felt his cheekbones lift and I guessed it was the infamous smirk. He got into the elevator and pressed the close door button so nobody else could get in. “You weren’t thinking about anyone else?”

“I could never, Daddy. They could never fuck me like you do.” My whisper was sultry and I knew he was fucking hard. With that notion, I pulled away from his ear and moved my hair from in front of my face. We made eye contact for a moment before he licked his lips and began to kiss me like his life depends on it. My back was to the wall and I felt him against me. With the ding of the elevator, he basically sprinted towards our room.

He basically dropped me to rummage his pockets for the key card and I whimpered at the loss of contact. For such a put together guy, I watched Yoongi fucking fumble that card about 5 times before he actually got it to swipe. Then I was back in his arms for a barely a moment til he threw me on the bed. “Let me break this down for you. I’m gonna give you the schedule-”

“A sex schedule?” I burst into laughter.

“Listen, I know you’re fucking dripping wet for me right now, but it’s been a long day. We’re making love at this point, yada yada. I’m gonna fuck you. Then you can suck me off if you’re down for it.”

“Was that a jok-”

“Shh.” Then his lips were on mine again and I was underneath him like he always liked. I brought a hand up to his neck trying to make it as deep as it could be. His tongue didn’t even beg for entrance tonight, he simply demanded and I quickly knew what kind of night this was going to be. His hand snaked down to the end of my dress and he broke the kiss with a string of saliva hanging between up and I swatted it away. “I don’t wanna rip this.”

“So, take it off.” I propped myself up on my elbows.

“No, it makes daddy happy.” He brought in his famous pout but somehow right now it was more sexy than pathetic.

“Oh my god.” I cleared my throat then tried to put on the sexiest voice I had. “I want you inside of me, please. I’m so fucking wet and it’s all for you.” I brought my finger to my mouth and bit on the nail while looking up at him. “Just, work around the dress.”

He didn’t take any time after that. He inched it up slowly and I swear his pants and boxers were off at lightning speed. “I watched you tonight too, you know. You deserve this, baby girl. You were so- sexy. Your looks, your talent, your confidence, the way you watched me tonight…” He wasted no time pushing right into me. His hips quickly gained speed and he leaned forward to kiss me.

My elbows quickly slipped out from under me and I now had one hand in his hair and the other gripped onto his side. I threw off the jacket with my free hand and broke the kiss for a moment to rip off of his shirt. I traced his defined chest with my finger to quiet my loud moans of his name, not trying to give him a weird headache right now. He was pounding into me relentlessly and I couldn’t help expect to bite his lip, causing him to break the kiss to laugh his airey out of breath laugh. “Fuck.” he was out of breath but that wouldn’t stop him from teasing me even in the most intimate moments. “You’re so loud for me all of the time. If I slowed down would you quiet down? Or do you still want it rough?” his motions copied his words and I felt like I’d ascended. We’d been in this hotel room for about 2 days and fucked like 3 times, it felt like a safe space to fucking leave my body in.

“I can’t help but think of all the guys who watched you tonight.” he continued his lament, “You looked so fucking sexy in this dress all night, Y/N. I just laughed when I saw them marvel at you.” he brought his body lower to moan into my ear, “This is my little pussy and they fucking know it. I get to fuck you, in and out. Nobody can fuck you like I can. Nobody will ever fuck you like I can. Nobody else will ever fuck you, period.”

It was in that moment that I came all around him and he basked in the glory of it. As I hit my orgasm, I screamed out his name as I clenched around him. “Just my words made you come for me that quick?” he teased me, again.

“Maybe it was your cock going 90 miles per hour.” I should stop making sly comments. He was stopped for the second and I took it upon myself to move him out of me and get off of the bed and onto my knees. He knew what I was doing almost right away, I was simply following his “schedule”.

I knew it wouldn’t take long to get him to cum, he was already so close. I cupped his balls and squeezed them lightly, knowing he liked that. Knowing that it would get him a little bit mad that his dick wasn’t already in my throat. He made eye contact with me and squinted, full well knowing my games. With that, I took him into my mouth and began to bob my head.

His head shot back and his hand instantly was on my head, with a small fistful of hair within his hand.  It was probably barely a minute until his dick began to twitch and he came down my throat. The moan of my name that escaped his lips was probably enough to make me dripping wet again, but I had to cool myself off.

He let go of my hair and extended a hand to help me onto my feet. He wiped my lip for excess cum and put his index finger into my mouth. I sucked on it and licked around, not breaking the intense eye contact he was keeping. His sweaty, straight face broke and he leaned in to kiss me with the goofiest grin on. “Hey, Y/N. Baby. Thank you.”

“You’re thanking me- for sex?” I was confused, simply.

“Hey, we’re calling it making love now. I’m thanking you for love. For loving me.” His arms wrapped around me to undo the zipper on the dress. Once it fell to the ground, his hands were on my ass, lifting me up once again.

“Don’t thank me for loving you.” He pecked at my lips and unclasped my bra and placed me back onto the bed. “I just- love you. I know you. It’s not a favor or anything. I- I-” A loss for words. “Thank you.”

His gummy smile was on now as he pulled off my panties and jogged across the room into my suitcase to find me something to wear. “It sounds stupid or whatever, but I don’t know Y/N, You just- make me happy. I love being like this. Everything is just so good in my life and I’m afraid it’ll crash down or something.” He came back over to me in a pair or his boxers and handed me one of my shirts and shorts.

Yoongi sat on the end of the bed right next to me and watched me quickly get dressed. “Why the sudden glum? Is everything kinda hitting you at once?”

“Yeah.” The mood change was upsetting. His head was in his hand now and he studied me with intense eyes. “I’m just wondering how I got so lucky.”

All I wanted to do here was make a slick joke, but I could see something was making him upset somewhere. Yoongi had this terrible habit of pushing off his feelings until they got to a point where they exploded and we’d been trying to work on that. I just wanted him to be able to communicate his feelings with me before he took them out somewhere bad. “I think about that a lot too.” My voice was low.

“Yeah, life's great and we’re happy, right? But, I kinda fucked you over with this idol thing.” His voice was sullen. “It’s so tough for you and it hurts me so bad seeing you cry when you’re literally the thing that prevents me from feeling that way.”

“Hey, buddy.” He looked up with a disgusted face to the buddy. “Honey bear, Oats, Shrek. Listen. I can handle it. Sometimes I have bad days and maybe I scare you, but my budding sense of humor gets me through it. And you. Thinking about being with you forever and ever is fucking scary, but so are your rapping skills and look how good that’s going. So, trust me when I say I’m okay and know that if I wasn’t I’d tell you. You know I like to be honest with you.”

“I know.” he reached his arm around my shoulder and pulled my head into him. “This is just me letting my thoughts get to me at the weirdest times.” he had a smile on his face now, “We’re gonna sleep. Then we’re gonna wake up and go to America.”

“Is this on your schedule too?” he let go of me and elbowed my arm. Without a word he crawled to the head of the bed and tucked himself into the covers.

“Light.” he mumbled and I groaned and slowly walked across the room to turn it off.

Then that was our conversation for the night. I slipped into the bed and slept a bit away from him, only feeling his fingers resting in the ends of my hair that laid next to him. The lights of the city seeped through the curtains and I glanced over at his already sleeping self. He was amazing, inside and out. He didn’t exactly snore, but his breathing was loud tonight. There was something different about the way he was asleep tonight and I didn’t notice until I felt my tired eyes glued to his face in order to find out.

Yoongi was smiling in his sleep tonight and it simply warmed my heart.

Authors Note: First of all, I want to say I do NOT own any of the songs used within this chapter. They’re amazing songs by their respective artists and I simply thought they fit very well with the messages I was trying to get across!

Second, thank you so much for the feedback on Pressure! I love to hear what you guys think and my messages and ask box are always open, so please let me know what you thought!

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[ts-indonesia]

Episode 1 - "Time to put on a bra and take some selfies." - Leigh

Episode 1 saw eighteen players, some fresh faces, and some veterans arrive on the Indonesia beaches, ready to play and ready to win. On a somewhat quiet Obor tribe, Leigh/Trent bonded over the age difference on the tribe (with a cunning plan reliant on using the word ‘lit’) and Anabel/Trent begun to form a bond that would survive the test of time.

On the Cahaya tribe, Matt/Jess feared the casting of one another, and Julian arrived plucky and ready to avoid another prejury experience, determined to improve. Owen/Stoner quickly formed HOS 22: Bermuda, and set to work spreading their connections across the tribe, forming at trio with Julian.

After a decisive victory in the Scavenger Hunt, it was revealed the returnees would have to send two returnees to the other tribe as “infiltrators” casting a sole vote. In an attempt to force the result, Julian went “offline”, in an attempt seen-through by his fellow tribe mates, but one that was ultimately successful, with Owen & Julian sent over as infiltrators.

At Obor’s tribal council, Evan quickly emerged as an easy vote, for his minimal challenge contribution. Two key alliances formed, a newbie majority alliance of Trent/Chris O/Leigh/Anabel/Lorelei and a girls’ alliance of Lorelei/Anabel/Leigh, with Anabel armed with an idol to boot.

As expected, Evan was sent out unanimously, but not before Julian trashed on the Cahaya tribe during tribal council... in a tribal seen... by the Cahaya tribe. With Evan out, the torches still inspiring such hate, and the infiltrators returning... that drew round one to a close.

MATT

first confessional give me idol? 

also hi Jones

OWEN

okay so im walking onto the boat.... my hair is thinning, my skin is getting wrinkly, im ancient at this point. nonetheless im back for like the sixth time. or seventh, honestly who can keep track anymore. i see these like cute little new people. ANABEL's vid is AMAZING gay icon, lorelei legend likes pokemon mystery dungeon,  Leigh is near chicago, like... i literally love all these new players but then i realize NONE OF THEM WILL BE ON MY TRIBE SKADSFJH. instead? im stuck with crazy ppl. there's julian who i voted out premerge in the season I won, and Matt who was in my most recent season nnn but NOT the matt I worked with in that game. and of all people CHRIS STONER LMAO. to be fair, chris isn't that bad bc I know he'll work with me hopefully but also I know he's a good player and wouldn't hesitate to cut me out. thank god olivia and jess are here tbh. omg and just when I thought it couldn't get any worse.....a furry shows up. WHAT THE FUCKKKKKK lmao I remember foxx back from the old old days and he seems scary :(((( good news is julian said him and isaac haven't ever gotten along and that isaac has voted him out twice :') so that might be good. and i'm fairly sure stoner and jess would have my back rn i just need to talk more to them. but for real, as soon as there's a swap or something if I survive that long? bye bye returnees :) i dont see myself getting very attached to anyone at the start so ill just do my best to ride out this beginning and maybe have some fun

LEIGH

I'm looking forward to seeing how long our tribe chat is just "Hey *Tribe Member's Name*!" 

I think it could go on a while.

OWEN

chris: ditching u for the other stoner tho chris: tumblr needs an all stoner f2... 7:23 PM me: thats ok im ditching u for the gay girl from the first post me: but for now? u and me <3 7:23 PM chris: deal stoner and I rlly did speak this into existence....... it'll happen

LEIGH

So this tribe has literal children on it. 15, 16 years old. I might have to backstab ACTUAL CHILDREN!  How do I even fit in with them? Trent suggested we could buy fidget spinners.  I said maybe yoga pants and a crop top?  There are people here BORN AFTER 9/11!!!  What the fuck I didn't even know you could be born after 9/11 and be out of kindergarten. What year is it?

EVAN

Just met some other castaways, they seem pretty chill.

FOXX

What's up. So this fox has returned after an eternity of a hiatus with more grey in his muzzle and hopefully some self-awareness to go with it. I played some pretty solid games in the past but after taking a long time lurking and sort of forgetting Tumblr Survivor Crooks asked if I wanted to play despite not knowing I have played before. That's how old and irrelevant of a has-been I am. Back from the dead. I'm glad my star has faded and I can go in with a blank slate. My biggest concern is that I am not on my anxiety medication so my social interactions, especially on call, will be a lot more stilted and I'm terrified this will impair my judgment but we'll see. Right now I'm not trying to come off as a huge strategist. I made an intentionally crappy intro video, made fun of myself, and just tried to be funny without coming off too weird/desperate etc. Almost like I'm not taking this too seriously. However, already I'm noticing a patterns in how people on my tribe are. I have no fucking clue who these mammals are. People will have extensive conversations about people, twists, running jokes, etc and I'm totally lost. That hiatus really did fuck with my ability to ingratiate myself with this community. That will be a huuuuge advantage coming to dealing with the newbies since I can leverage that to not seem so threatening but right now I think I'm doing a fair job being friendly and making people laugh. I hope. God. So my thoughts on my tribemates thus far: Stoner: Vaguely know who this guy is. Aptly named. He's clearly blazed as hell but I can tell he's bright and likable. Says "oh shit" a lot and he seems like depsite his facade he's probably someone I can work with. Isaac: We talked about Overwatch a bit and he seems nice but he's not coming on my radar too strong. Jess: Definitely made a fairly strong impression on me since we're similar ages, Francophone, and we bonded over our mutual detest and hatred of furries and then I calmly sneak in the fact I am a furry an hour later and holy shit I was trying so hard to not bust into tears. She's funny and likable and seems like she's someone I could work with. Matt: Talked a bit about me coming back. Very little in group call. Michael: Talked a fair amount about D&D and made some fun Upside Down jokes. Seems like we have a lot in common but him being a different time zone could prove hard to keep up with. Being the outlier on Time Zones is playing on Hard Mode. Olivia: Love her! We bonded over animals and she seems like a total sweetheart and I definitely wanna share pics of my cat with her some more! Owen: We talked a bit about literature and it was fun. Definitely seems intelligent and he's someone I know a bit about from Olympics. In an ideal world I'd want to work with Stoner, Jess, Olivia, & Michael but everything in on fire. Also, no luck on the idol so fuck me I guess

JESS

So... first night has been interesting? I was going to do your typical "first impressions" confessional but... FOXXX or whatever the fury's name is.... is playing too hard too fast. Am I being a Paranoid Patty and reading this the WRONG WAY entirely? Possibly. HOWEVER... It's been less than 5 hours since we were thrown into this hell hole of a game (The hosts are lovely individuals but we all know this is about to get insane) and he's telling me if I want to make a move that he's my guy? Ummm.... WE HAVEN'T EVEN GOTTEN OUR FIRST IMMUNITY YET? I'M NOT THINKING MOVES RIGHT NOW? I BARELY CAN REMEMBER YOUR NAME!

MICHAEL

https://youtu.be/Swisjdq1R4s

OLIVIA

Have I befriended a furry???????? Is this real life????? Is he actually a furry or just really in deep on this joke? Why are there so many Dylans in orgs? Also fucking goddamnit I like EVERYONE HERE I just wanna be friends with all y’all damn. All of the newbies are so adorable and seem so excited and unknowing to the pain that’s gonna come :’) Annabelle especially like my wig flew with that intro! I wanna meet them all. Also wtf is with the torches I WANNA KNOW ALREADY! Anyways that’s all I’m excited for this season. Owen and I renewed the o alliance :-) and Jess seems cool as hell I really clicked with her and the furry. Michael seems sweet and I already know Julian from Mykonos, the absolute crackhead. Real sweetie tho hopefully we’re friends. I hope I’m not coming off as too insane I was so nervous on the phone call with the tribe :( it was so fun but I felt like every time I said something it fell flat I felt so awkward abhhhhhahshsjaj. Anyhoo yay! New season!

Should I write the rest of my confessionals in japanese? Neko. Boom

JESS

So coming into this game with a TS under my belt is different... I still have no expectations whatsoever BUT I do know how HARD people go for in these games and I'm planning to go just as hard. The first night was wild. Everyone on my tribe except for Matt and Julian were lively on the tribe call. Everyone seemed pretty cool and super... out there.. I think Isaac might be the one to watch on my tribe. He's been around the block and knows most people on my tribe (new and old). WHICH IS WHY.. I'm going to try my best and get super close to him. I need to make sure I'm not disposable to these "older players" and as asset to these "newer" players. I just know need to cool my jets on the whole socializing bit in the main chat (Yes I know it's literally day 1). I want to be as irrelevant as possible so no one thinks I'm a threat but no one really wants to get rid of me either. Gotta focus on those INDIVIDUAL RELATIONSHIPS. Hopefully these other players with more TS's under their belts become bigger shields than me because if not... yikes on yikes.

ROB

I like everyone so far. Evan is giving me a few red flags because he’s only giving me one word answers, so i might take that into consideration when voting.

FOXX

We had a very fun group call with the tribe last night. Definitely haven’t laughed that much in a while. Love my tribe thus far so I hope we can keep the good vibes going. Jess & Stoner are people I feel like have talked with me the most Nd Olivia, Owen, & Michael are also friendly so I think I have options. One thing I’ve noticed is how casual and sociable this tribe is. Nothing is more frustrating than a tribe full of overserious gamebots (*cough* Selwyn *cough*) but it’s a group of funny and chill people. It’s gonna be a great game!

OLIVIA

I love these hosts 🙂 HATE the idol system but honestly it doesn’t change much I’ve never gotten an idol before and probably never will so it won’t change my gameplay lmao

I like Isaac a lot too! Forgot to say. But I’m also a little wary of him because I know he’s very experienced

JULIAN

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PKDvx7VxRC8

ANABEL

well. yesterday i found an idol on my second guess. and made two new friends. so yesterday was great. today was bad. i outed myself. my mom heard me tell my eyebrow lady that i was gay. this is a sad confessional and i wish i wasn’t so loud. im real fucking sad. sorry. but at least i have an idol and some friends.

LEIGH

Time to put on a bra and take some selfies.

I'm glad I shaved today for that tattoo selfie.

OLIVIA

There’s an alliance I’m not in isn’t there

Why am I so FUCKING awkward

ANABEL

im so fucking good at survivor like... good lord. trent and i are like best friends already (see, i knew this would happen, i always meet a nice old usually straight man and we become friends, it's like the hallmark of my survivor experiences) and we came up w a plan where i am gonna try and seduce evan and rob and make them my lil minions so im gonna lie to them and tell them that im a cheerleader bc that's hot right?? so ya my womanly charms will be utilized to their fullest potential. go me.

MICHAEL

https://youtu.be/aAqEUHoyy78

LEIGH

Can we talk about how bullshit it is to have "Lipstick in your tribe's color" when we're yellow and they're RED?  Honest to god might as well have "Lemon in your tribe's color" to make it fair.

Alex coming in with bold capslock "MAKE SURE EVERYONE ON YOUR TEAM HAS SUBMITTED AT LEAST ONE THING" ... Just DM Evan directly my dude.

OLIVIA

Feeling much better about this game today than I was last night I think I was just spiraling 🥰 we’re doing really well on the challenge and I hope we win!! Two people messaged me saying I’m doing great on the challenge and idk how to respond. Just tryna make sure we don’t lose I will NOT be the first vote out. Newbies go hard on scavenger hunts but I go even harder 😈

LORELEI

Ok so! I'm super bummed that obor lost the challenge, I really thought we would win! Now we have to get rid of someone and it sucks but I feel like we all know who it has to be. It's not even personal, it's just the fairest thing and the best thing for our tribe. Also, alliances are forming! I like Anabel, Leigh and Trent so I'm with them but I'm gonna try to connect with everyone so I'm not on the outskirts. I hope that the boys haven't formed an all boys alliance bc if they have, then the girls could be in danger. That's it for now!

STONER

guess I’ll follow Alex crook’s rules... https://youtu.be/ndsfCdjtcQI

Not much, about to sleep! https://youtu.be/v12a2AbklVw

MICHAEL

https://youtu.be/4inKBNkg87M

JESS

It's 2:30am so WHY NOT post ANOTHER confessional? Am I right? Honestly, we won which I'm BEYOND THANKFUL for. I hate tribal and I can now at least say I wasn't first boot. THANK GAGA. I'm just really trying to solidify things with Michael right now. I think out of everyone on my current tribe I can honestly see myself making a run at this game with him (at least up until merge). I offered him the prospect of sharing idol clues (it's literally the only collateral I have at the moment) so hopefully this doesn't bite me in the fucking ass. Other than Michael I was kind of hoping to somehow get closer to both Julian and Matt (plot twist I know). Matt has hosted me before and it's no secret he is a founding father of the "I Hate Jess" Club. However, these two seem to be the odd men out right now. They aren't overly socializing with people so there's a high chance they'll be taken out if our current tribe loses. HOWEVER.. I see potential numbers in them. So I can't let that happen. As of right now both Foxx and Stoner seem to be the ones to watch out for. I just can't let them think or know... that I know that about them. Stoner gives me mega "I say the same things to everyone" vibes. He's clearly playing a strong social game so far. I just need to play dumb and ensure that he thinks he can control/trust me. Honestly, as soon as he doesn't see value in me I have no doubt he's gonna cut me. Foxx on the other hand, just seems like he's playing too hard. He's another guy who I strongly believe is going to drop me as soon as I have no value to him. I'm just going to have to have to lay low and be dumb. Owen scares me shitless. He's giving me PTSD from my last season because homeboy is playing a strong contender game. He's definitely a pick to win. He's another person who I'm going to have to try and pretend I'm under their spell. Am I playing too hard too fast? I'm not entirely sure. I'm just going to slow my role a bit and see what happens

MATT

What’s Up? WHAT’S UP?!?!?!?  how dare you ask me such a ludicrous question.  Alright so first real general confessional of the game here.  I wanna eventually try and record some video confessionals, but that’s if i have the time. but for today, we’re good with a text.   So starting off the game on the Cahaya Tribe, which consists of entirely returnees.  So right off the bat it makes nervous bc i’m really not around much in the community.  Yeah i’m in a few VL’s and i played once before, but i really don’t know anyone.  So being the odd one out for that reason was a real fear for a little bit. Looking at my tribe, there are a few names that stood out the most to me.  Owen stood out bc we both played Kuwait, and even tho we never met each other, we still have that little connection.  Chris motherfucking Stoner is here too!!  Chris is such a chill dude.  we played together once before and i voted him out pre swap.  But that game was so long ago, and i really don’t think he cares (i know i dont).  So i’m looking forward to reconnecting with him.  Jess is also here!! Jess and I had met previously because i hosted her in Celestial Komnata, and we had some rough misunderstandings there.  But months have passed and I know that I am well over it bc i frankly don’t care.  But i feel like she still probably cares which will not be good for me. Michael was the last person that stood out to me.  Not because I know him, or know of him.  But because he’s the only Non-North American in the cast, which means if i can stay up late and socialize with him, he might favor me over other When i looked at the other tribe, i think the only person i know is Anabel?  We played together once, i hosted her, so we have somewhat of a connection that if we swap together, i hope that works in my favor.   So on the first night of the game, i was very busy with Celestial All stars premiere, so i didn’t get to talk as much as i would’ve liked.  which resulted in me telling jones on call like 5 times that i’m gonna be first boot.  But the first night, i talked with everyone (to some degree) except Issac bc i forgot Issac was here.   The torch twist thing i have no idea what it’s going to be and it worries me.  My first thought is that it somehow would result in a third tribe bc there were six torches.  so someone would light a torch and be placed on that tribe. But it’s too early to figure out what they even mean and i’m sure as the game progresses.  

LEIGH

Woooo so what's happened.  Well, we lost the challenge and it wasn't even close. I haven't looked at the spreadsheet to see the final scores but I feel like Me, Trent, and Anabell did the most work.  I talked to a few people last night and put Evan's name out there cuz I know most people are too scared to say a name first and I feel comfortable enough about my position to be the one to say a name that most people should agree with. A mutual alliance formed between me, Chris, Trent, Anabell, and Lorelei.  Within it, an all girls 3 alliance formed which I'm super happy to be part of.  I'm sure Trent will be paranoid about that sooner or later so hopefully Chris and I can make him feel confident.  Trent is sharing idol guesses with me so I'm hoping that means I'm like the closest person to him right now.  I like the number of options I have so far. 

I feel like Facebook might be falling out of style so maybe these youngin's don't even have it or aren't familiar with Facebook ORGs.  The only other people here who know my history as far as I know are Foxx and Chris, and I hope neither of them bring it up. If I can stay UTR that'd be nice.  Also, I think I need to stop capitalizing letters/using punctuation if I wanna fit in with these kids.  Did I already confessionalize that? Not sure.

Apparently Lorelei missed the HII thing day one haha oh well. I'm compiling guesses from me, Chris, and Trent. Hopefully I'll get them from the girls too. I'm not showing the girls' guesses to Chris though. I don't think he'll be mad at me for it. We gotta play close to the vest sometimes yo

TRENT

So far I think the game is going alright. My tribe is incredibly quiet for some reason but I guess that isn't too bad. I made a connection with Anabel and Leigh pretty early on. Decided to suggestion and alliance and both we in so I added Chris and Lorelei so we had a majority. This is the alliance I wanted from the beginning. I wanted the older people to stick together and then add in one young one. I think it's a pretty solid idea. Ive been messaging both kenny and dylan as well. I don't want an alliance with them, but I would like for them to like me and want me to stay in. I also think im getting along pretty well with the two infiltrators right now. Julian was spilling all kinds of info about his tribe to me this morning and then me and owen connected really well. Hopefully this will help me in the future if there is a split soon.

OLIVIA

Jess was hinting that her, foxx, stoner, and I should get together and I said we’d make a nifty cool group. A NIFTY COOL GROUP WHAT THE FUCK IS A NIFTY COOL OLIVIA

ISAAC

This twist can become SO detrimental. And I’m so MAD Owen went over there first because that bitch is unbelievably charismatic. Hopefully it paints a bigger target on him but like it’s whatever. I like my tribe. We seem chill and I seem to vibe the most with Olivia and Jessica Messica. Foxx is cool. Julian is....Julian ig. Matt has yet to talk to me so that’s a wig ig. Michael seems nice but ngl I get kinda bored when I try to talk to him? He seems very gamebot-y which could be frightening but idk he’s not my biggest problem atm. I’m terrified of Owen - he’s unbelievably charismatic and has the ability to twist people around his finger so like I’m gonna keep my eye on him and I’m not gonna let him out of my sight. With that being said I do wanna see him live for at least a little while for meat-shield purposes. Anyways I hope I do well this game but 👀 I have a sinking feeling.

KENNY

So yeah.. it seemed like a pretty laxxed day and Evan was the vote. How true is that? Idk but I have to trust strangers. But just heard he through my name out like 20 minutes ago, with less than 3 hours to go. So I just hope everyone’s being honest 😭

OWEN

what’s up? Everything :’) I couldn’t help as much in the scav hunt as I liked because I was living my life. But thankfully we won anyways bc my tribe kicked ass! I still contributed some and I made sure to keep talking to people. I still love olivia, and matt has been fun to talk to. Don’t rlly know why but foxx seems hard to get to know. And not big into michael rn either. I think I will stick with Julian and chris, hopefully can pull in jess and olivia to do something if we lose. Chris mentioned that both him and jess DO like foxx so we will see.... The main thing is that this twist worked out perfectly for me!!!! I couldn’t call when we were decided and I REALLY wanted to go. Thankfully I was able to take advantage of the majority vote thing and pretend like I wasn’t online hehe and by some miracle I got picked to go. MEANT TO BEEE and let me say I was right, I do love this tribe so much more than my own for some reason. Trent is great, Annabel and I are talking like I wanted, the Chicago girl and the Pokémon mystery dungeon girl. It’s so good over here, but the biggest surprise has been chris o. I really like him and could see myself working well with him if we swap. The only thing is that Julian said he was sketchy sometimes..... hehe so down the road I might have to tell chris o that Julian is after him :~) but I don’t need to snake too hard yet, for right now I’m a crocodile lookin like a log. Vote should be easy on Evan from what I’ve heard but if it changes? I’ll be living for the drama!

LORELEI

It looks like Evan is the consensus. I feel really bad though because it's not his fault. He tried to plead his case with me by saying that he wasn't the only one that was inactive, but that doesn't change the fact that he contributed the least. I know it's the fair thing to do but I feel bad about it. Voting out people is so not fun, I really hope we win the next challenge so I won't have to do this again.

EVAN

I’m pretty sure I’m fucked. I’ve been trying to get people to vote Kenny but idk fuck

KENNY

“I know I’M voting Evan = I might be voting Evan but I know others are voting you”. Or am I being paranoid

JULIAN

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GaH8l2R-Xt0

MATT

i feel like i did pretty good on the scavenger hunt.  i managed to scoop up a bunch of items that were left over and some that were high points.  so i do feel good about my performance and think i pulled my weight.  Speaking of pulling weight...Julian is...there.  I think he only submitted one item which was the Vine.  I mean i get you have work and are busy, but like...most of us were the same?  even issac who was celebrating his birthday did more.   after challenge results we got on call in the tribe chat (olivia, chris, michael, myself). and we were talking about the infiltrator twist and the challenge results.  We agreed to have myself and Olivia go, but we needed 5 for a majority.  Julian shows up and says he “might wanna go tbh”.  and then disappears.  We’re on call laughing bc we wanna submit this and not randomize it, so someone who isn’t here gets forced to go.  BUT JULIAN won’t talk in tribechat even tho we’re all like, “hey we’ll take turns and you can go next time.”. but no.  Julian is only talking in olivia’s pm’s and she’s telling us whatever he’s saying. eventually the hour is up, and julian got randomized to go.  that fucker strong armed us into randomizing and he still went god damnit.   I think that call was good for my game because we were just chatting for like 1.5 hours about the game stuff and people.  After michael/chris left the call it was just Olivia and myself on call and we stayed on for another hour and a half(????? ish??? probably less i can’t remember).  But that was a nice call and i think helped start to solidify a bond.  Olivia is someone i can see myself working with in this game.  Same goes for Michael and Chris.  I feel like that call group was pretty natural and we got along really well.  I’m too nervous to initiate any kind of alliance talk, but i know it’s gonna have to happen eventually.  i’m sure alliances already exist on the tribe and i’m obviously not in them.  I think for starters, i need to work on conversations a bit more, because they are somewhat weak right now.  My goal for the future is to work on olivia, michael, chris and owen.  Those are the people i feel most good about.  Foxx is cool but idk it seems hard to gel with them.  Julian is cracked and i hope he’s our first boot.  and the four of us on call forgot issac was on the tribe so that’s not good for him. i think i’m in a decent position for now, but i’m not gonna count my chickens before they hatch (i think that’s the saying idfk)

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HELLO ALL WHO IS NEW TO 24K AND WOULD LIKE TO START STANNING THESE WONDERFUL BOYS! firstly thank u for all these lovely comments about our boys, from all 24u's we are grateful and pleased that they are finally getting the recognition that they deserve. THIS IS INFO ABOUT THEM SO OPEN IT IF U WANNA STAN YA'LL THANKS 

a little introduction to 24k is needed: 24K (투포케이) currently consists of cory, kisu, jeonguk, hui, changsun, jinhong, and hongseob. They debuted on september 6th, 2012, under choeun entertainment. The fandom name is 24U and our official fan colours are GLITTER GOLD and YELLOW GOLD. CHECK OUT THE CHOEUN YOUTUBE ACCOUNT 24K ARE MAD they also do vlives, and regularly use their own social medias they also had a sub-unit called 4K that came before 24k but its not used anymore due to the members in it leaving also they called themselves 24k bc they had 4 members in the sub unit 4k and then when they debuted they added 2 more members so 2 4 k??? WOW GenIUses I LOVE THIS CONCEPT 

 on a serious note please support them they dont deserve to still be a ROOKIE GROUP after nearly 5 years they recently had a comeback with their new mini album called 'Addiction' so please check it out and buy it if your interested in these guys they really do make amazing music and are totally underrated so they need all the support they can get to be able to get their first win :D 

also if your staying they're having another comeback in december so keep updated with these guys! (confirmed by cory) 

only you music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UPOvNE6y3CE (fun fact cory made that little intro sound for the choeun ent logo) 

bingo mv: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zEOo_zSAXxw 

still 24k mv: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WPsAtmGofT0 

superfly mv: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CnmLjdvTeCE 

hey you mv: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=utggP1n2P-o 

 ok so now u know a little about them lets start with the members in this video;

BOTTOM ROW RIGHT TO LEFT 

92 top: cory hong ; november 25th 1990, 26

-leader and main vocalist -cory was born in korea but grew up in oregon so he is fluent in english and korean 

-cory is a meme -cory also LOVES corgi's (CORGI HONG) ksajdhkasjd 

-his dad called him cory because cory if you add 'ah' in korean it sounds like korea (cory-ah) hence his twitter handle 

-cory has tattoos (if you can remember what they are that would help i lost that one photo of him where he showed them) 

-DAD 

-he is the sweetest and you should love him forever 

blue jeans, white top: kim jeonguk ; march 20th 1993, 25 

-main rapper and main dancer 

-jeonguk is from busan 

-jeonguk LOVES the united kingdom because his name jeongUK has the uk at the end (king of the uk dont even fight me on that) 

-theres a cat named after him called catuk who one day he wishes to meet over skype (confirmed at the london fanmeeting) 

-jeonguk has a few tattoos (HES GOT 24K ON HIS CHEST I LOVE THIS CONCEPT, hes bound to 24k now) and im sure he has a gun tattoo too 

-confirmed by cory, jeonguk has abs during promotions but they go on 'holiday' in between these times 

-he likes to delete his instagram photos regularly CAN YOU NOT 

black top, black jeans: choi kisu ; october 2nd 1991, 25 

-main vocalist 

-MUM 

-AN ABSOLUTE CUTIE 

-kisu can speak a bit of mandarin 

 -HES SUPER GOOD AT CALLIGRAPHY SEND HELP WHEN WILL I EVER BE THAT TALENTED 

-his ideal type is guys sadkjhak (this is a joke oh my god please dont take it seriously he said it at the fanmeeting) 

-please dont leave kisu and cory in a room together they'll break everything -kisu is so sweet protect him at all costs 

-correct me if im wrong but im sure kisu mentioned that he would only let his sister date daeil a while ago (does he even have a sister?????//?) 

-DID SOMEONE SAY DOCTOR WHO??? DOCTOR KISU WHERES UR TARDIS FAM, kisu loves doctor who save this child 

he spelt my name wrong on my fansign but we wont talk about that ok i still love him 

TOP ROW LEFT TO RIGHT 

white top, blonde hair: kim jinhong ; january 2nd 1998, 19 

-vocalist and visual 

-A TRUE VISUAL LIKE TAKE A GOOD LOOK AT HIM HES BEAUTIFUL 

-he used to be in a group called aa but left in 2015 and joined 24k with fellow member hui in the 'hey you' era but wore a mask to hide himself on the video for more suspense to who the new members were (-it was the best choice ever-) 

-jinhong is very quiet bUT CAN ALSO BE SUPER LOUD AND I LOVE HIM 

-he likes to delete all his photos off of instagram and unfollow everyone obviously got this habbit from jeonguk 

-his instagram is @in_the_hong 

-i love this kiddo 

-PROTECT HIM PLEASE 

 black top, brown hair: shim hongseob ; january 8th 1998, 18 

-vocalist, dancer AND THE CUTEST MAKNAE AROUND 

-joined in 2016 in the 'still 24k' era with changsun 

-he hates it when kisu does aegyo 

 -hE IS SO SOFT AND WE MUST PROTECT HIM PLEASE WRAP HIM UP AND DONT LET THE WORLD HURT HIM 

-he also does the cutest aegyo (EVeN THOUGH HE hATES IT i love him) 

-hes crazy

-he has a fidget spinner please take it off of him 

-he also likes to dab 

-where does he learn this 

-im blaming cory

i legit have a picture of him with the fidget spinner and then he dabbed after 

red and blue shirt thing: lee changsun ; march 17th 1998, 19 

-vocalist 

-joined in 2016 in the 'still 24k' era along with hongseob 

-HE IS A LITERAL BALL OF FUN -LOOK UP ON GOOGLE IMAGES CHANGSUN 24K SMILE 

-SUNSHINE

-HES MY BIAS I LOVE HIM SO MUCH 

-HE CANT SAY MY NAME BUT THATS OK BECAUSE I LOVE HIM ANYWAYS -hes really good at dancing and the others always say that the 'youngins have better legs than them so they can do all the hardwork'

-he is a work of art like just look at him pleASE 

-PROTECT 

 ok so thats all the members in the video, they have one more member in 24k who is currently in china with family due to visa issues and family business

liang hui ; july 18th 1993, 24 

-vocalist, dancer & rapper 

-he was born in china 

-kING OF CHINA 

-he can speak korean & chinese 

-hes very shy when not on stage but on sTAGE HES FIRE OH MY GOD -he joined in 2015 with jinhong in the 'hey you' era 

-wow hes very cute u should stan 

-HES SO GOOD AT DANCING I CANT EVEN 

-HES SOFT 

lowkey wanna say he also has really soft hands 

as a sidenote, i just wanna mention the previous members too, 

2012 - 2015 yoo sungoh - main vocalist (he looks similar to kim taehyung from bts & he sometimes does youtube stuffs) 

2012 - 2015 kim daeil - main dancer, lead rapper (daeil actually does solo stuff now so check it out, his twitter is @bigone1sthename (hes apparently on hiatus since no official statement was made about him leaving but we all know hes not coming back lmao 

2012 - 2013 hong seokjune - main vocalist (HE DOES FOotball stuffs now) 2012 - 2014 park byungho - rapper, dancer (i have no idea what he does now rip)

if you have anymore questions please ask us 24u's as we'll be willing to help! PLEASE STAN THEM I LOVE THEM SO MUCH AND WOULD GIVE THEM THE WORLD IF I COULD, THANK U AND I HOPE WE WILL SEE YOU AS A FUTURE 24U! <3 

[theraputicwritings]

Electric Pulse-Chapter Six

Chapter Six: All Roads Lead to Home

Summary: Breanna is just your typical young adult attending her parents’ funeral when she is attacked and kidnapped by HYDRA. What will happen after none other than the Avengers save her?

Word Count: 2,286

A/N: Hey guys, sorry it took me soooo long to finish this chapter. I’ve had a rough week with losing my job and family being over. But that’s beside the point. This chapter is a little shorter than usual, but I think you’ll still enjoy it. I’m excited for the next chapter though!

Chapter Five

Two Weeks Later            

Jab, block, jab, block. I grunted as Bucky and I sparred. He was taking it easy on me, but not by much. He’d been teaching me how to fight for about a week now when I was cleared by the doctor. My stitches were all taken out and I felt almost 100% better.“Hey, do you think I should maybe train with some of the other guys too?” I asked as I threw a punch towards Bucky. He easily blocked it with his metal arm and jabbed at my stomach. “Why?” he asked as I jumped out of reach, “Are you getting bored of me?” I shook my head and ducked under his arm as he threw another punch.

“No, not at all. I just think it might be helpful because then I’d learn how to fight against other styles. Not everyone is going to fight like you do. I could learn different patterns and weaknesses.” I jumped up and attempted to round house kick him in the chest.            

He grabbed my foot and pulled me so I flipped over and landed hard on my back. “Hmm, maybe you should get a little better with just fighting in general before you learn different fighting techniques,” Bucky suggested, a smug grin on his face.            

He held his hand out for me, and I took it reluctantly. “Hey! I thought I was getting better!” I argued, a pout on my face. Bucky pulled me onto my feet. “You’re definitely better than when you started, but Rome wasn’t built in a day.” “Actually, the Roman legionnaires were efficient enough to build and tear down an entire fort within a day. That way they could travel more effectively,” I retorted, walking over to the bench to grab my water bottle.  

“I stand corrected then. But it’s still might be a few more training sessions before we’re ready to have you fight one of the others. I know for a fact that Nat could crush you,” Bucky stated, following me. “Yeah, but Cap would probably take it easy on me.” Bucky grinned and shrugged, “That he probably would do.”            

We became quiet as we each took drinks from our water bottle. Then Bucky spoke up, “So, question. Do you think you’re ready to get your things from Maryland?” I bit my lip at the idea. “I don’t know. What if they’re watching?” I replied. “They’re not going to be able to get close to you, Breanna. I won’t let them,” Bucky promised.

I sighed and sat on the bench, knowing that inevitably that I’d need to do this eventually. “Yeah, I guess I’m ready. When do you want to go?” “I was thinking we could fly out tonight and be back by tomorrow morning. That way we can get whatever you need,” Bucky explained.

“I guess we can do that. Do we need to talk to Tony or Steve first?” I questioned. “No, but we can go tell them now.” Bucky held out his hand and I took it, allowing him to pull me up. “Let me get showered and changed first. I’m pretty stinky,” I suggested. 

Bucky scrunched up his nose. “Yeah, I was wondering if that was you,” he teased. I scoffed and punched him lightly in the arm. “Hey! You said it not me!” “Yeah, but you’re not supposed to agree with me! Come on! Steve told me you were lady’s man back in the day!”

We both laughed as we walked out of the gym and back to our respective rooms. “I’ll meet you out here in about fifteen-twenty minutes, okay?” I promised, opening my door. Bucky nodded, “Sounds good.”

I stepped in and took a shower. I probably stayed under there for longer than I should, but hey, it felt good to have the hot pulsing jets knead into my back. Once out, I dried off and changed into a pair of shorts and t shirt. I figured I would leave in that outfit later that night, so I wanted to be comfortable.

Looking at myself in the mirror, I wondered if I truly was ready to go back. Even if just for a day to get my things. I felt like I’d changed so much in the two weeks since Hydra took me. I wondered if anyone would recognize me. Probably not, but I still wondered.

Realizing I was late, I grabbed a hoodie and walked out of my apartment. Bucky was leaning against the wall outside, looking at his phone. “Sorry, Bucky, I didn’t mean to take so long,” I apologized, pulling on the hoodie.

Bucky shrugged, pushing himself off of the wall. “No problem, Breanna. Ready?” he asked. I nodded and with that, we headed towards Tony’s office. I’d only been there about twice since I’d been at the compound, but it was really nice.

It had floor to ceiling windows that showed off the mountains in the distance. There was a large desk in a corner as well as two couches and several tv monitors.

“You think you’re ready for this kiddo?” Tony asked, leaning against his desk. “Yeah, I think so. And even if I’m not fully ready, I’d like to get some of my stuff here,” I answered, sitting on one of the chairs. Bucky stood behind the chair, his hands clasped behind his back. Tony looked up at Bucky.

“I want you to take Falcon with you. That way he can fly the jet and be an extra set of hands to help wherever he’s needed,” he instructed, “Also, don’t stay too long. Breanna was found in a Hydra base close to the area, and I slightly suspect they’re based out of Fort Detrick as well. Just get what you need and get out. No going on tours of the area.”

My breath hitched in my throat. “Hydra is in Frederick? And you’re just now telling me this?” I asked, balling my fists. “Fort Detrick has the capabilities to create biochemical weapons. That’s so close to DC. Why hasn’t anyone done anything about it?”

“Because, Breanna, it’s just a hunch. We can’t react without being certain. Especially if we’re wrong,” Tony explained, crossing his arms in front of him. I huffed, even though a part of me understood. “I still would have appreciated being told.” “Well, I’m telling you now. Now go get ready for your trip. Think of it as your first mission,” Tony stated, smirking slightly.

I stalked out of the room with Bucky close behind me. He grabbed my shoulder. “Breanna..” I whirled around, anger surging up. “Did you know? Did you know that Hydra was in my hometown?” “I did. I couldn’t tell you because I wasn’t allowed to. You’re not cleared for that type of disclosure,” he responded, his voice cautious. “It’s my home, Bucky! What if it had been Brooklyn? Wouldn’t you want to protect your home?” “Even if you had known, what could you have done, Breanna? You wouldn’t have been able to leave the compound. You can’t fight Hydra yet. There’s nothing we can do. Not yet anyway.”

I sighed, knowing that he was right. “Can we go soon? I want to make sure that everything’s okay. I know it is okay, but I need to see and make sure that my town hasn’t been taken over by Hydra.” Bucky nodded, “We can leave as soon as you’re ready. We’re still going to stay over night, so you might want to pack a small bag.”

Together, we made our way back to our rooms and once inside I began thinking about the trip. I wondered how much had changed. Probably not. I’d only been gone three weeks and the only person who had changed was me. I grabbed a pair of jeans and a t shirt, rolling them tightly to be able to pack. But that’s when I realized I didn’t really have a bag to put my clothes in. I asked Friday if there was one I could use and she readily supplied one for me. Smiling, I added my toothbrush and tooth paste, figuring any other hygiene products I needed I could find at my house.

As I was finishing I walked into the kitchen to grab some water bottles from the fridge. Bucky and Sam walked in the room both with bags in tow. “Ready to go, Sparky?” Sam asked, a smirk on his face. “Sparky?” I returned, one of my eyebrows raised. “I don’t know if you’re one to give silly nick names, Chickadee.” Sam placed a hand over his heart. “I’m offended by that!” I laughed a little, before grabbing my bag. “Yeah, I’m ready to go.”

Bucky walked over and grabbed my bag. “I got it,” I argued, “It’s not like it’s that heavy.” “I know, but I want to be a gentleman,” he counter-argued, shouldering my bag. “You’re not being a gentleman enough by coming with me?” Bucky shrugged, “Maybe, but I was assigned to do that. This is a true act of a gentleman.” 

Behind us, I heard Sam scoff and it was one of those moments where you could hear someone roll their eyes. “If you two lovebirds are finished, we probably should get going soon.” I looked up at Bucky and noticed we both were blushing. I bite the inside of my cheek, before turning to walk towards the air strip.

I could still feel the heat on my cheeks, even as we stepped out and the cool mountain air hit my face. I waited for the boys to catch up, taking in the number of jets in front of me. “You ready?” Bucky asked, standing behind me. I nodded. “As ready as I’ll ever be.” 

“C’mon. We’re taking Delilah with us today,” Sam decided, walking towards one of the smaller jets. “You name the planes?” I asked, though honestly, I wasn’t that surprised. “They’re my babies,” he explained. I giggled as he opened the jet and helped me in. I found myself a seat near the cockpit and watched as Bucky and Sam got to work on the pre-flight checks.

I was nervous, considering it was the first flight I’d ever been on where I was conscious, but I tried to keep myself calm. A plane was not a good place to start generating electricity. I took out the fidget spinner that Bruce had given me and twirled it between my fingers. He thought that maybe fidgeting would help me control my powers when I was nervous, and even though I felt silly at first, it certainly helped.

After a few minutes, Bucky settled into the seat next to me and the jet started going down the runway. “You don’t want to sit up front with Sam?” I questioned. Bucky shrugged, “Eh. He’ll just bug me.” “That doesn’t sound anything like Sam,” I teased, a smile on my face. It quickly dropped, though, when the plane took off into the air and my stomach lurched.

 I clutched onto the armrests of the seat I was in, closing my eyes. I felt cold metal on my hand, and I opened my eyes to see Bucky holding it. “It’s okay. It’ll only last a few seconds,” he reminded me. I nodded, knowing he was right, but I couldn’t shake the uneasiness from my stomach.

“If it makes you feel any better, planes are much better now than they were in the forties. They don’t nearly shake and rattle as much.” I smiled a little bit, thinking of the thought. “I always find it amazing how much technology has changed, just in the past few years. Would you ever think that people like you, me, Steve, or Wanda could exist when you were a kid?” Bucky quickly shook his head. “No way. Those weren’t even things I could fantasize of back then.”

I realized as we continued talking about the differences in technology and the past versus the presence that Bucky was probably only having this conversation to distract me from the flight. It did work, and I was grateful for it. The flight was short, only about an hour and a half, so once we touched down in Baltimore, my nerves were all but gone. 

“Are we driving the rest of the way to Frederick?” I asked, actually feeling a little excited to be home. “Yeah,” Sam answered, shutting off the jet. “Tony made sure a car would be ready for us as soon as we landed.” We got off and sure enough, there was an SUV with tinted windows waiting outside. Bucky took mine and his bags and placed them in the trunk and I climbed into the back seat, fully expecting the boys to want to sit in the front.

The drive wasn’t much longer than the flight, and I kept quiet as I looked out the window, feeling touches of nostalgia. It hit me that there was no one to go home to. Just things. I took a deep breath as I tried not to automatically miss my parents and the life that had been ripped out from under me. 

It didn’t work though as Sam pulled into the driveway of a large, white, farm house with a red shed in the back and a white picket fence. This I was expecting. What I wasn’t expecting though was the old, worn down, blue Jeep Wrangler parked in the front. And I definitely wasn’t expecting the man who leaned against it, a slight smirk on his face.

“Who is that?” Bucky asked, turning to face me. I tried to take the grimace off my face but failed miserably. I clenched my teeth together and tightened my hands into fists. “Philip.” 

Chapter 7 (Incomplete)

A/N: Oooh, cliffhanger! Let me know what y’all think so far! I love feedback!

[ryebreadpool]

eeeeeeee sorry @falling-into-vacancies this is quite late, thank u so so much for the tag!! ily!!!!

~Rules~

Always post the rules

Answer the questions given to you by the person who tagged you

Write 11 questions of your own

Tag 11 people

~What I Respond To~

1. George of the Jungle or The Mummy?

The Mummy was about 90% of my childhood,, so yeah

2. Aliens make contact and you alone have the power to influence what aliens think of us, what they see and how they react. What do you do?

can i leave this one to nasa? i don’t trust myself?? for this? lmao i would hide and hope they take pity on us

3. If you had to read only one book for the rest of your life, what do you choose?

“Number The Stars” by Lois Lowry. another childhood thing i guess\

4. What is your stance on snakes?

they deserve so much love and affection

5. Are you always down for going out for a drive with friends?

hell yes let’s go to taco bell at two in the morning

6. What movie quote do you use the most?

probably “YOU’RE GOING THE WRONG WAAAAAAY!” from Planes, Trains, and Automobiles. very versatile quote. 10/10

7. What is your favourite point in history?

honestly when hamlet was published because a. hAMLET and b. that entire era was pretty lit im not gonna lie 

8. When you think back, what are your five favourite cartoons from childhood?

o jesus i didnt watch that many cartoons so im gonna include my top few disney shows in here too (did i have a weird childhood. i watched more action movies than cartoons). anyways my #1 disney show Ever was Kickin’ It and obviously i loves Suite Life and i went through a my little pony phase and i stiLL love gravity falls also i hated myself for it but i really did like austin & ally

9. How well do you know your home town/city?

not that well,,,, i know some of the landmark and my way home from a few places but i dont usually pay attention to stuff like that

10. You meet the creature that dwells in the shadows under your bed, how do you react? What’s their name?

oh MAN! a FRIEND! its chill they’re chill idk if they have a name but i feel like we’d be best friends

11. What’s your favourite song lyrics, my guy?

a reliable classic: “my heart is like a stallion, they love it more when it’s broken” from Alone Together by fob

--my questionz--

1. What books have you reread a gazillion times? why?

2. Say you discover irrefutable evidence that Bigfoot exists. What do you do with it?

3. Favorite genre of music?

4. Green or purple?

5. Your opinion on fidget spinners?

6. Do you listen to podcasts? why/why not?

7. You’re granted the ability to play any instrument perfectly. Which one do you choose?

8. Coffee or tea?

9. Freshwater or saltwater for a vacation?

10. Do you like the smell of gasoline? 

11. Would you rather take a winding path through a forest or the mountains?

(these got a bit odd at the end sorry im weird)

i tag:

@adamant-aflame @elf-confidence @jackharkness-and-you-are @shipper1000  @freaking-out-on-the-inside @destiel-shmestiel @crowley4queen @sberlockjobn @i-am-eurus-holmes @cas-dean-assbutts @intrepidworld

cool cool cool thanks !!

[misty-avalon]

A-Z of me

A-Z of Me

Tagged by @theoceanismyinkwell

R U L E S: copy this post into a new text post, remove my answers and put in yours, and when you are done tag up to ten people and also tag the person who tagged you… and most importantly, have fun !

a - adjective(s) your best friend would use to describe you: I’ve been told I’m creative, cute (tbh this one is debatable), stubborn, and nice (they might have some other opinions but idk) [B and C are missing...lol did someone not want to answer so they erased it] d - drink you last had: hot chocolate e - every day starts with: waking up then checking my phone (even though I have no social life haha) f - favourite song: having one favourite song is not possible when you’re in the kpop fandom. Spring Day - BTS, Fire - BTS, Not Today - BTS, Come Back Home (remake) - BTS, Cyphers 3 and 4 - BTS, We are bulletproof pt 1 - BTS, 4 o’clock - Rap Monster & V, So Far Away - Agust D ft Suran, Silver Spoon - BTS, Run - BTS, Crazy - 4minute, Hero - Monsta X, I - Taeyeon, Red Light - F(x), Dracula - F(x), Hard Carry - Got7, Congratulations - Day6, Dance Dance - Day6, Lean on me - Day6, As if it’s your last - Blackpink. Ok I’m gonna stop because this is already a long list. (Honourable mentions: Twice (they have some pretty catchy songs), 2NE1 (the group that pulled me into kpop so you should check them out), Seventeen) g - ghosts, are they real: I don’t want to say yes because that makes it spookier h - hometown: the southern hemisphere

i - in love with: Taehyung (who isn’t? lol) Ok I’m kidding. I’m not sure I’m in love with anyone anymore and that’s only because I haven’t seen them in a long time so if we do meet again we’ll have to get to know each other again. Other than this I am working on loving myself.

j - jealous of: I used to get ‘jealous’ of people who have successful parents because their career road is basically laid out for them and people tend to socialise with them more. I didn’t actually feel jealous, more like angry that my life couldn’t be more like theirs and that apparently money is on the list of friendship requirements. Overtime I stopped being like that because feeling that way is absolutely pointless. So instead I started focusing on myself and what things I could do for myself no matter how small they are. k - killed someone: umm? first of all no and second of all wouldn’t people be in prison? (is there even internet there?) l - last time you cried: sometime last month? I was already stressed from uni then I got yelled at for something small so I got really angry m - middle name: for privacy reasons I won’t be saying my name. In my opinion I think Elizabeth would be a pretty cool middle name to have because I loved Eliza from the Wild Thornberrys as a kid n - number of siblings: none o - one wish: to be financially stable that I can look after my family and not be in a job that I absolutely hate. Wanna hear a really funny stupid story? Ok so this was the first time that I was allowed to go to a school ball because “we were old enough” and it was our last year at the school. So anyways I wasn’t really feeling the whole being feminine and dressing up thing so I didn’t want to go. Then I did this really dumb thing...my crush asked me to go to the ball with him and you know what I said? “No”. Because of that I gave my crush heaps of mixed messages which basically ruined our relationship (as friends-ish) for the next 5 years. So if I could have one wild wish it would be to turn back time and change that answer to a “Yes”. I doubt our relationship would’ve lasted if I had said yes but at least I wouldn’t be sitting here always going like “hmmm I wonder if...”. Moral of the story is (tldr): when your crush asks you to the ball you don’t say “No” >.< p - person you last called/texted: mom q - question(s) you’re always asked: (from people that don’t know me) What does your name mean? Why are you so quiet? -_- I can tell you right now that none of the people that I’m friends with asked me those questions right from the start. r - reasons to smile: BTS, kpop memes, kpop funny moments youtube vids, and andi mack (this new disney channel show which you should all check out) s - song last sang: I don’t really sing anymore. I never learned how to use my vocal muscles so I got put off. Does lipsync count? If so, then it’s probably some BTS song (either spring day or not today) t - time you woke up: 11:00am (I’m currently on a break :D) u - underwear colour: why would you ask that?! (idk pink?) v - vacation destination: South Korea (clothes! skin care! their makeup colour palettes!), Paris (I wanna see the architectures with my own eyes), Italy (would love to visit those cathedrals that have those renaissance paintings, also genuine italian food!), Greece (maybe, I’d like to see the ancient ruins, and there’s the beach that has crystal clear waters), Hawaii (do I even need to explain?), and Switzerland (that beautiful landscape!) w - worst habit(s): picking at my skin (I’m quite fussy about my acne). Not good, you damage your nail bed and you make the acne worse. I’m literally considering getting a fidget cube or a fidget spinner to direct the activity away. x - x-rays you’ve had: one time we were ice skating and a friend was falling over so he pulled me down with him which resulted in me twisting my ankle. I got taken to the medical centre and had to get an xray just to make sure that I haven’t fractured anything (I didn’t). I also had teeth xrays for when I needed braces y - your favorite food: korean beef/lamb skewers (literally the first thing I go for at school galas), bulgogi, sweet glazed potatoes, mung bean jelly, ramen, mochi, sushi, okonomiyaki, mooncakes, dim sum, fried rice, fried noodles, pho, spring rolls, lemongrass pork, hotpot, udon, pasta, pizza, and of course the occasional greasy fast food meal from McDonalds or KFC. z - zodiac sign: virgo

Ok so I’m supposed to tag 10 people? I literally only know like 3-5 followers who are still active on tumblr which is gonna be hard for me and some of y’all have already been tagged so I’m gonna skip out on tagging people. If you’re reading this and you wanna do it go ahead! I’ll be looking forward to getting to know more about you guys!

[randomunspokenwords]

24 (little and big)Things to work on this year

1. Take more As8 views pictures

The view of the skies in the evening is just so beautiful that sometimes it just makes me forget everything. It gives me the comfort and silent hugs that I need at times. So,even if these are ugly pictures, here’s to more #AS8views

2.Look at myself in the mirror more

The amount of self hatred I have for myself and my body is sometimes appalling. I have noticed how its been so long since I even looked at myself in the mirror. If i ever catch my image in a glass doors, even before anything, a voice in my head mimicking the sound of elephants goes off. I deserve love, from myself and I am going to try and give it.

3. Drink more water

Yes. I tend to drink alot of sweetened drinks (ice lemon tea) and apart from the detrimental weight gain it gives me, I notice how the lack of enough water has made my skin ugly. When I was young, I’d drink like 6-7 large cups of water at home. And while my friends were grappling with pimple issues in theri teen age, I NEVER had a single pimple, let laone a breakout. For some reason, my face used to be fresh. I rarely drink enough water now which explains the oily skin and idk the non-smoothness.

4.Lose weight.

I could go on about this.

5.Dress well

I guess that can happen only when 4 happens. Till then, heres to oversized shirts and pants.

6.Learn and be excited

When I entered year 1, I was so excited to be finally here in NUS. After the horrendous extra year that I had to spend to retake my A levels, I was finallly here, at the best university in Singapore (lol). And I was so excited and hungry to learn. I remember how I felt so free and exhilarated in my classes. I sat in the front, took notes and read so much. (nerd alert). Every essay/assignment was such a joy. Perhaps, that also explains why I did the best in year 1 ans 2. And then slowly, it all changed. I lost confidence. I begin to think “why bother when some one else is going to be even smarter? You will never impress the profs..” I begun slcakening. I mean I still managed to do reasonably okayish but the zest to learn was no longer there. What was the point I felt? I was never going to attain a FCH.I couldnt get the cheem readings.Every assignment and reading became a chore. I felt empty in classes. And now, in my final year, I just wana go back to how I was. Sure, the FCH may no longer within my reach but at least I wana graduate knowing that I’ve put my heart and soul into my work and accept whatever I land up with.

7.Lift

I have always looked at the gym corner where guys and girls would lift. A part of me would always jump with joy whenever I see girls in Instagram lifting. I have always wanted to also do that but yeah would always become so self-conscious. 

8.Learn to meditate

Easier said than done though. 

9. ; Tatto on wrist

Probably only after Iand my first job so that my parents dont hit the roof. Huhuhu

10.Final Thesis paper

I am dead scared for this. I cant even write a proper essay let alone a thesis. And a thesis means I have to talk to people-worst nightmare for an introvert like me. It’s going to be scary and sometimes when I think about it now, I get mini anxiety attacks. I am probably going to cry alot next sem. Hahaha.But I think, once I see my name on the final book, I am going to feel like everything was worth it and be proud of myself.

11.Sri Lanka

Like what someone said, maybe I need to sit down and think about what the heart really wants.

12. Learn to appreciate my friends

They are all different. They have different outlooks, different views, different practices, life trajectories etc. And thats what makes each of them special. SOme of them I see on a dalily basis and some I dont and some I soon wont. Some seem to have drifted while some I have drifted from. But they have been a great part of me and I know they all mean well for me and want the best for me. I wouldn’t be here if not for each and everyone of them. 

13. Wake up at 6am. Stop hitting snooze

Still a struggle

14. Be a better tuition teacher

Sometimes, its tiring tbh. Both physically and mentally. Sometimes, the kids dont listen, they dont bother and you know u can get away with it. You have the tempation of slacking a bit and just ‘drama-ing.’ For the sum of 20-25$ there is sometimes the tempation to just take a step back and think ‘this kid is not my child/sibling why bother so much?” But they are deserve attention and care. I wont lie, they tend to get on my nerves especially when I am there trying so hard to teach and they just cant seem bothered. But at the end of the day, there are just kids. Middle-class kids with parents who work hard to pay their fees. Be it 20$ per hour or 50$, as a tution teacher, I need to give them the best I can. And its also funny how I get my energy and happiness from them especially so after a tiring and long day at school and ‘D’ makes me play with his fidget spinner and talks about Rajinikanth. Or how he passionately taks about dragons as if they are real. (I have no heart to tell him the truth)

15. Speak up in tutorials

So what If i am wrong or my answers dont make sense right?

16. Finally run 2.4 under 15 minutes

This doesnt have much to do with fitness but throughout secondary and JC, i have never passed by 2.4km run.In secondary school, I remember that PE calling me out and embarrassing me in front of the class. In JC, thankfully, I had really nice classmates and P.E teachers. My P.E teachers knew I would probably fail my 2,4km but they never looked down on me. “You run, I pass you ok!” was what they would tell me. I would take over 25 minutes to just complete it. What was especially sweet was that my classmates would actually run with me. They would have finished their run like in 12 minutes (they were pros) and they would bother running extra rounds with me so I could finish. And thats why one day, i wana be ablet to run 2.4 under 15 minutes as a small appreciation :)

17. Organise my table and worksheets

18. Read more South Asian books :)

19. Give a speech/Talk

The amount of confidence I have when speaking to a crowd is......0. 

20. Sit down and send out applications to those comapnies that I think I will never get in

21. Attend more Indian weddings in sarees and make up

Stop thinking I am too ugly for them

22. Helix piercing

23.Go on  a date at least once

24. Love myself

Ultimately, it al boils down to this.

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Wushu Watch: Neckbeards and Nunchucks

A love for weaponry is sometimes seen as quirky but it isn't exactly a social taboo. Whether it is an armory full of firearms or a wall covered in blades and staffs, you can probably recall at least one acquaintance that collects or collected armaments. Cars, weapons, power tools: boys will always love their toys. Most treat a collection purely as a hobby and a passion, but you will run into the occasional collector who is convinced he is preparing for something bigger. That one friend who jokes about how well they would do in the zombie apocalypse but brings it up often enough to make it clear that they actually do dream of becoming the savior of the wasteland. No single item of weaponry has developed quite the same peculiar cult around it that the katana has. It is a rare week on the Internet, particularly the martial arts side of it, that you don't see a photo of a doughy teenager, possibly wearing a trilby or fedora, holding a katana and glaring at the camera. Thanks to anime the katana has become the weapon of choice for what is colloquially termed the 'neckbeard'.

Perhaps the hoping for 'barbarians at the gate' or the zombie apocalypse can be explained quite simply: when else are you going to get away with carrying around a sword outside of your house? This question cuts straight to the kokoro of the issue with the cult of anime swordsmanship: no matter how good you get at cutting through water bottles (or rolled up tatami if you're going authentic) no problem you ever encounter will occur while you are wearing a replica Edo era sword at your waist.

At least… that is what the normies would have you think. As it turns out there have been numerous cases of the katana actually changing the course of real life altercations in the twenty first century. For instance, in April 2015 a man in Cordoba repelled three home invaders, one allegedly armed with a pistol, by seizing a decorative sword from his wall and going berserk. In 2009, a John Hopkins student killed a suspected burglar with a katana. And perhaps most famously there is the story of Kairo Seijuro.

One night in 2012, a standard World Star recording was turned into a Kurosawa movie when a bystander drew a katana and defused the situation. Showing a lack of self-awareness that would make Tony Ferguson do a double take, Kairo Seijuro gave this legendary interview in the aftermath:

Four years later the 30-year-old Seijuro died after his kayak capsized while he was taking his 16-year-old female disciple to practice swordsmanship on 'Sunflower Island'. I wish that any part of that were a joke, but sadly it is not.

At any rate, the sword bros may have a point. If you happen to be carrying a katana when the muck hits the fan, or within reach of a katana when your home is broken into, you will be better off for it. It is hard to dispute that a long bladed weapon that can be swung or thrusted wildly from half a metre away isn't handy to have in a life or death altercation. Frankly, if you have a sword and zero training with it—even if it isn't good quality or sharp—you are at a tremendous advantage in defending yourself from everything but a gun, held by a decent shot, at a range beyond sprinting distance. And for those who like knights more than samurais, getting angry about this concession to katanas, yes that is equally true of a longsword.

The Chuckers

A stranger fascination is the one which exists among real, trained, career long martial artists. I am referring to the endearing fetish that martial artists have for the nunchaku or 'nunchucks'. Part of this must be the taboo: there are plenty of places in the Western world where two bits of wood joined by a string are illegal. Norway, Spain, Canada—the U.K. even censored out Michelangelo's use of nunchucks in the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. Why? Ten seconds of nunchaku twirling in Enter the Dragon most often receives the blame. Bruce Lee's small segment of nunchaku use caused an army of children to whip either themselves or their siblings in the eye with improvised 'chucks'.

More of the nunchaku's appeal has to be that you can do neat tricks with them. They were the original fidget spinners for weird kids. Bruce Lee did them and they looked super cool. Nick Diaz used them between bong rips on a Strikeforce conference call and he's too cool for school. And just to be clear to those who don't own a set of chucks, they are fun. Well, they are fun if you use a foam set. If you use a wooden set it is essentially self-harm.

The origins of the nunchaku are murky at best. Some say they used to be a rice flail, others say they were 'clappers' used by officials to gain the attention of crowds. Either way the belief is that they started out as something inconspicuous and evolved into a weapon. And that's the beauty of the nunchaku when you consider them in the context of say, Okinawa, where weapons were prohibited but crime was as common as any society without street lighting or a police force. Joe Average could pick up a set of nunchucks without ever having seen them before, start swinging, and have a good chance of hurting whoever gets in the way. That is the genius of a flail after all—all you have to do is swing it.

But to a traditional martial artist a flail is more than a flail, it is as versatile as the human hand. The simple bit of string (or occasionally chain) that binds the two pieces of wood has become an obsession to chuckers. Every book or video you encounter on nunchucks has someone demonstrating how to parry a straight punch—it's always a stepping straight punch with these people and if you read Wushu Watch on the regular you know why that is—and entwine it.

Then the opponent is thrown down by the wrist, somehow, as if his other hand isn't entirely free to do whatever he feels like in the meantime. This stupidity reaches its height when knives come into the equation.

Once again, if you happen to be attacked in your home and you have a set of nunchucks handy, they might help you. If you have a knife, or a baseball bat, or almost anything else, they will probably work better. The downside of flails is that they need a bit more space and as soon as they clatter off a wall or doorway, that swing is worthless. That is why passing your nunchucks all the way around someone's wrist or neck in a single smooth motion is so far-fetched. Fortunately few teachers are advocating taking your nunchucks with you, though in Nunchaku for the 21 st Century, George Dillman insists that you take your chucks in your bag with you at all times.

In Nunchaku for the 21st Century, G-Dilly also lays out some of the more unorthodox strikes available to the chuck-master. Defeating the point of holding a flail, Dillman insists that throwing the butt of one of the sticks into the opponent's face, while holding the other, is a great surprise technique. But is it better than actually swinging at someone with a flail?

Fumio Demura's classic text, Nunchaku: Karate Weapon of Self Defence, contains a whole heap of silly stuff. For instance, using the area of the nunchucks with the most slack to catch that mythical overhead knife strike, entwining it, and throwing a perfect high kick.

Where Demura's book is at its best from a strategic stand point is encouraging the nunchuck user to simply swing at what is available. Clip yourself with a wooden nunchuck and it hurts. Take a full swing at someone's arm or leg and you're going to do some damage. Overwhelmingly material on nunchucks focuses on defend and counter, which is all well and good from a chivalrous stand point, but if you have a weapon in hand, any time the opponent is close enough to attack you and they don't have a weapon, you have undermined the main reason to have a weapon. As with almost everything we discuss in Wushu Watch, nunchuckistadors focus on overcomplicated responses to oversimplified problems. A guy is coming at you with a stepping straight punch? Give him one of these!

If the stories about the origins of the nunchucks are true, they made sense at one point. The purpose of most weapons in most martial arts is to make use of what was permitted or available. The Shaolin monastery developed a reputation for its spear techniques, but to a single monk travelling on the road, who will likely run into trouble if he is waltzing around with a spear, the staff is far more useful because it makes use of what is ostensibly a walking stick. Similarly the weapons of Okinawan kobudo all seem reasonably discreet. The tonfa, which is essentially a night stick, is reckoned to be the handle from a grindstone. The kama is simply a sickle used for farmwork. The kuwa is just a hoe, and the eku is just an oar. The bo and jo are just plain old sticks. Other traditional weapons from the 'weaponless kingdom' include unnecessarily sturdy and sharp hair pins. Much like carrying a baseball in your car to justify the baseball bat in the trunk, all of these things can be justified in their context. If you carry around a sickle or sword or nunchuck today you'll draw a lot of questions and look like a tit.

The interesting thought is that there are tons of things that you carry around or encounter every day that can comfortably be weaponized almost as effectively as the stuff that we suspect Okinawan peasants had to make do with. The most obvious example that almost everyone will have in their pocket right now is a sturdy, jagged key.

Though this grip has often been criticized for the damage it can do to your hand if your connection is messy or your grip isn't sturdy.

Might be a door key, might be a car key. Better if it's a car key because it has a nice plastic pommel on it that you can clench in your fist, projecting the metal part from between your fingers like a low budget Wolverine cosplay.

Here's a fun thing to think about though: in twenty years time we might have moved away from car keys and towards the cards or contactless fobs that many new cars use now. Will martial artists in a hundred years' time reflect on the key as a weapon of circumstance with limited and simple application, or will they find a thousand ways to entangle a stepping straight punch between the key and the key ring?

Still, after taking a dump all over nunchucks it is well worth mentioning this video that made the rounds this week. A chap at a Dog Brothers meet up, successfully using a three section staff (essentially giant nunchucks) to fight at range, ensnare and close on his opponent, and apply a stick choke for the finish! Events like this always look painful, but they allow martial artists who train with weapons to combat test their skills in an open environment. Of course, he's unlikely to carry that bad boy around with him all the time hidden down his trouser leg, but you can't fault a guy for playing with new techniques and applying them against resisting opponents, rather than slowly walking a class through on how he would disarm a knife-wielding attacker.

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