#An Honest Life Update

[reunitedinterlude]

the six four wives of phil lester sabrina | janice | lorraine | susan (2023 / 2024)

[suntails]

growing up!

[bloggingboutburgers]

Sorry for the radio silence for quite a while! On top of the holidays, my visa interview at the embassy was a little while ago, so as you can imagine, I've been fairly busy preparing for it... But hey, it paid off!!

The past few years have had their fair share of trials and there's a few people who'll recognize themselves, who I wanna thank for all their patience and support. I also gotta apologize for everyone whose patience I've tested, and for all the buddies I'll get to see less often now because distance.

Overall though, I've had overwhelming support through this, more than I ever thought I'd get and more than I probably deserve, and it honestly helped a lot through what is overall a pretty damn difficult thing to get through. I'm so relieved right now and it's pretty great that that feeling is coming around for the festive season!

Now I'm off to enjoy that with my family while I'm close enough for it to be easy, and if anyone who knows me closely is reading this and wants to meet up before I leave France (which oughta be in April), hit me up ;)

[perhaps-mr-collins-has-a-cousin]

@steampunk-christians Me in my life-ruining outfit 💛

[redheadsramblings]

Small Life Update

Unfortunately, real life (aka my birth family) is being well them. I am finding little motivation or time to get in the headspace to write. I have Chapter 16 ready to go, but I'm struggling still with Chapter 17 and I want to hold off on publishing 16 until 17 is a bit more fleshed out in case I want to edit, add or subtract from 16. Plus, it's looking like we're gonna hit 18 chapters 😅

And I'm also struggling to read all the wonderful fics you're all putting out. Not struggling as in it's hard or anything like that. Struggling, as in I am too tired to actually read them. But I'm chugging away slowly but surly so I will be in your comments being an unhinged gremlin, just might take a few days 😘

[girlsounnerving]

It would be so cool of riot to now update specifically Vi Cait and Jinx’s main in game skin because let’s be so fr it’s outdated and we know riot can do better because we just saw it happen

[cursedbythenarrative]

I swear to god once I’m done with vertigo I am never writing anything longer than 5 chapters max ever again

[pingurusama]

Update!

"pimgu where have you been? thought your thesis's done so you are free!" I thought so too! but life sometimes very much unpredictable:3

I've been here the whole time but there's a lot of stuff to be sorted out, packing out since i'm back moving to home. Family issues, lots of family issues here and there. Babysit my nephew, (but hey i got niece too now just recently!:D) and guilt eating me up.

This might be just me and my overthinking, BUT I FEEL SO GUILTY SHOWING UP EMPTY HANDED;-;! I've been gone for so long and missed lots moots bday, request and stuff us been talking that i said "omg i have to draw this!" ahh type of conversation. Ngl, in my disappearance i missed my cod moots;-; like ahh... I don't know but i'm feeling like moots will not love me anymore if i showed up empty handed, like "who the hell are you back nonchalantly after so long gone?" that's why i took my time to make up and made drawings to reconcile with friends'-' There's like, around 20+ WIPs i've been doing for the past of my disappearance (there's still a few left and i'm working on it. There's also done art that i'm not yet handing out now for moots's bday^^) I always believed to be loved is to perform, to entertain. No? Well aside from internal problem it's just family issues but eh- i also got new niece:3 so, that's all! and now i'm resting after a whole week babysit toddler. I hope i can be better at managing time in the future^-^ trying my best for sure! And i hope people accept my apology and explanation of me going poof:"3 (its ok if you don't! truly understandable!)

P.S. Notes - i've seen black ops 6 (cold war) trailer and going to be launched, sneakpeek but i'm making Mr.Smirnov (Ophelia's adoptive father) to be my Black Ops Oc :3! been working and understanding the game lore! hehe^-^

[whatohitsonfirewelp]

"Meanwhile you all refuse to acknowledge Hen, Karen and Michael as the OG gays" - lmaoooooo literally who is doing that?

No, it's actually the temu and bt fans who were acting like bt is SO ground-breaking and the FIRST GAY COUPLE ON TV and temu is the FIRST OPENLY GAY MAN ON THE SHOW etc um hello Henren and Josh and Michael and David would like a word?

They're so funny

Very real! I do get how it was exciting because it’s Buck, and I do think Buck and Tommy helped break some more stereotypes for queer men, and that it was likely more accepted by people because they’re both white.

Because, technically, Michael and David broke those same stereotypes. They also didn’t follow the blue print of the stereotypical gay man! But oh wait. They’re black.

The same could be said about Josh except oh wait. He isn’t jacked like Buck or Tommy.

So, people just. Don’t care as much. As horrible as that is.

Henren are CONSTANTLY breaking stereotypes! But that’s two black woman, lesbians at that for a show where the audience is more women than men, and two woman who aren’t small and skinny (nothing wrong with that body type though!)

Buck and Tommy?

Men ✔️

White ✔️

Stereotypical fit ✔️

The two and their relationship are sexualized by a lot of fans, at least from what I’ve seen. They like it more when it’s two white men, because that’s primarily what most people see as acceptable.

But once again, I’d have no problem with Tommy if he was actually, you know, a good person.

But he’s not. So here we are

[bisexual-horror-fan]

I am alive, and yes I am writing, but also I am falling down a new media fixation hole and one that is so not horror related and so not something I have intentions to write for so you know, peace and love, patience, the muse will grip me when it grips me.

[rutadales]

people who participate in hate-fandoms need to get an actual hobby I'm so serious 😭 not to be a hater but for the love of God log off. genuinely humiliating to be spending that much time caring about something that makes you so miserable that is ultimately so meaningless

[lov3dream]

hii lovely people online! its been a while since ive been here and quite a lot has happened! i wont be coming back yet (im gonna be gone until at least march 21st) but im popping in momentarily <3

[gone-knightinsourarmor]

new dash icon!!

Do you like it??? It combines all things I love!! b/w, dark, faceless (lack of self, loss of identity, selflessness), angel aesthetic (halo).

[dreams-and-honor]

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[amethystina]

I may have stalked you all the way till 2022 today during my break js to get more who holds the devil content and reading your thoughts on the show and response to some of these asks made me somehow love your brain more? you have a way of thinking that is genuinely fascinating to read and i love it. I'm also very sorry to hear that your recovery isn't going well. I wish you strength and health. Hopefully everything works out in the end for you 💗💗

Hi there! 💜

Not going to lie, I'm still a little baffled by how interested people are in my thoughts on the drama and characters. But not in a bad way! I definitely don't mind sharing! It just amazes me that it's actually interesting to other people. I mean, to me, my way of thinking isn't anything out of the ordinary since, well, it's the way I think and always have, you know? xD

Still, I'm so glad to hear that I can offer you some fascinating insights! I honestly wish I could do more. Not just in terms of answering asks or comments, but writing, too. And maybe doing teasers and stuff for coming chapters or projects I'm considering writing? I've thought about it several times and sometimes even come so far as to make the draft here on Tumblr, but then I always chicken out before posting. Partly because I'm worried I'll spoil something or maybe hype things up too much. Or disappoint people if I tease about something and then it takes literal months (or years) before I'm able to post the actual work.

There's just so much anxiety involved in writing fics, isn't there? x'D

Anyhow. Thank you so, so much for your support and I'm glad you like my brain. Admittedly, I'm not on the best terms with it right now due to it probably being one of the reasons why I'm so exhausted, but I guess that's just something I'll have to work on. Somehow. I have no idea how but we'll see.

Thank you so much for the concern and well-wishes. Please take care! :D

[error-dream-was-found]

So I've been thinking and I never really post anything here do I? I reblog a lot but overall I never make any posts on my own so I've been wondering, would anyone be interested if I posted maybe like snippets of the upcoming chapters of my fics? Or would it be better if I just stuck to reblogging?

I have no idea how many people here actually know my poor attempts at writing since but I guess it's worth a shot?

My anxiety is really against posting more but I sort of want to do something else than just reblog once in a while and since I draw like a toddler and I can't analyse people irl that I've known my whole life let alone dsmp characters and their grayscale morals my fics feel like the best thing to bring up?

NOTE: all my fics are out of character mess but I got hurt/comfort. Yay?