#Anon (or anyone else) can feel free to reply I'm always in for considering things from different points of view!!

[hard-core-super-star]

a kiss to every scar [H.Steinfeld]

pairing: servicetop!hailee steinfeld x [inexperienced] bottom!reader

summary: hailee sets out to show you the ropes of acting on a tv show...unfortunately, your very obvious crush on her distracts her enough to stop being so professional.

warnings: smut -> no minors allowed [this is technically porn with plot but the plot isn't important; fingering [R receiving]; praise + petnames; needy hailee [yes, this deserves a warning]; technically public sex but not really [aka sex in hailee's trailer but she forgets to lock the door]; hailee being overly protective but also very horny; R is technically younger than hailee but the age gap isn't that important, the height gap is though :) [sorry to my tall peeps]]

wordcount: 2.4k

a/n: this request comes to you straight from our beloved 🧞‍♀️ anon! i tried to balance the fluff and the smut but well...you already know i always end up getting carried away. i TRIED, though. i'm going to make an announcement soon regarding writing hailee so stay tuned for that because it's going to be important. anywho, hope you enjoy <3

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You’re no stranger to surreal experiences. 

It seems like your entire life ever since being cast in your first TV role has been a series of unbelievable experiences after the other. Most of said experiences have been due to the overall excitement that comes with learning lines, going to outfit fittings, and talking through scenes with amazing directors and producers. 

However, the biggest, most surreal, of all the amazing things you’ve done has been meeting, working, and getting to know Hailee Steinfeld herself. The reasons for that are endless since you’re not only a genuine fan of her but you also have a not-so-small crush on her.

A crush that has thankfully managed to pass by undetected considering your overall awe at the work you get to do every day. It’s managed to be so undetected that you haven’t noticed how mutual the admiration that flows between the two of you actually is.

You’re not totally oblivious so you have picked up on some of the looks she sends your way and on the way she’s so adamant about helping you maneuver through the many obstacles that come with being on set all day. None of that seems like anything more than her being nice since you’re so new to a life that she’s lived for so long so you’ve never questioned it.

Plus, you like the feeling of her hand on your waist way more than you’re willing to admit to anyone. (Especially her)

Which is how you ended up getting talked into staying on set to watch Hailee finish her last scene of the day. It’s not something completely uncommon since you love watching her and the director in action but the brunette promised to buy you dinner afterward, something that’s never happened before. 

Your heart and mind have already made up more than enough excuses to overshadow the very clear intentions behind Hailee’s invitation but nothing can take away the pure joy you feel from being near her. 

A joy that draws in the actress like nothing else.

“What’d you think?” Hailee asks as she approaches you, her face lit up by a smile you know all too well.

“You’re incredible,” you reply the same way you always do and successfully draw a little chuckle out of her. “Seriously, I don’t know how you do it.”

“Practice…and way too much free time.”

She reaches a hand out to you, an unspoken question lingering in the air between you. You waste no time in taking her hand and letting her guide you toward her trailer so she can change back into her normal clothes. 

The walk is spent in the comfortable silence that always seems to follow the two of you and you pretend not to notice the way she keeps looking over at you with every few steps. You know exactly why her eyes keep shifting over to you but you can’t find it in yourself to be embarrassed about it. 

Despite how used to being on set you might be by now, you still admire each and every detail as if it was the first day again. Part of it comes from how unbelievable it all still is and another part of it comes from how cool everything is. There’s always so much to take in and it’s become a habit of yours to be present and grateful for every moment.

A habit that, unbeknownst to you, Hailee finds really adorable.

The list of things she likes about you is quite long but at the top of the list are your wide-eyed looks of wonder and the smile on your face nothing seems to wipe away.

It’s no secret that the brunette has taken a liking to you, especially in her attempts to make sure nothing snuffs out the bright beams of sunlight you carry inside of yourself. She knows exactly what that’s like and she’d sooner lose her role as Kate Bishop than let you fall into any dark spirals.

“So…” She speaks up, gently pulling you closer to her side. “Did anything exciting happen besides watching me?”

Your cheeks flush at her words which makes her grin. “Sort of. Florence and I talked about walking around New York tomorrow since it’s just going to be you and Jeremy filming scenes.”

“Oh, yeah? Where are you thinking of going?” She leads you into her trailer while you launch into the specifics of all the places you want to visit and the things you want to see.

The brunette watches you intently, although her attention slips from the words you say to the genuine excitement your body language conveys. You’re too busy talking to notice the way she’s eying you or the way she keeps licking her lips.

You finish your explanation only to be met with complete silence and Hailee’s tall frame leaning comfortably against the door to her trailer. 

“Lee? Were you even listening?”

The tiniest of pouts tugs at your lips and the actress is quick to make her way over to you, completely forgetting about the unlocked door and her promise of taking you to dinner. “I’m sorry, baby, you’re just too cute, I got distracted.”

The “apology” makes your heart skip a couple of beats and you’re sure she notices your flustered state. “I guess that’s fine. I should probably go anyway so you can change.”

You look away from her and attempt to walk away but she stops you with a gentle hand on your shoulder. The contact makes you stiffen, not because it’s unwelcome but because it sends an overwhelming amount of feelings through your entire body. “You okay, y/n? I didn’t make you uncomfortable, did I?”

Your eyes remain locked on the ground below you as you shake your head. The lack of a verbal response only serves to worry the brunette further and her free hand quickly tilts your chin up until her warm eyes meet yours. 

She doesn’t say anything but the question on her face is obvious.

“I’m not uncomfortable,” you force yourself to answer. “I just…I think I like it too much.”

The concern in her eyes shifts to something else, something bordering on passion, but you’re far too embarrassed to question it. “Hey, it’s okay. You don’t have to be nervous. I like you too.”

The words don’t fully register in your brain at first. Sure, you’ve lived through a lot of unbelievable moments but this is something right out of those dreams you can never tell a single soul about. 

“You…you what?”

Hailee chuckles, taking the smallest of steps forward so your bodies are practically touching. “I like you too, baby. I hate to break it to you but you’re not as subtle as you think.”

“Neither are you,” you blurt out.

She leans in a little and your eyes instantly drop down to her lips. “I know.”

Her whispered words are the only warning you have before she claims your mouth with her own. Whatever shock you feel fades away almost instantly and you can’t stop yourself from wrapping your arms around her and pulling her closer.

You’re so caught up in her kiss that you don’t fully register the way she gently pushes you up against the nearest wall and presses herself as close to you as physically possible. You don’t register anything besides the feeling of her lips and the way your hands tangle in her hair so easily.

Hailee’s not as zoned out as you are, though, and her ears pick up on the muffled sounds trying to escape you. She instantly pulls away from you, staring down at you with blown-out pupils. “Are you okay?”

“Yeah,” you reply breathlessly. “Yeah, I’m fine.”

Your response doesn’t seem to convince her but at least she doesn’t notice the way you’re clenching your thighs together. “We can stop if you want, I’m not looking for a one-night stand or anything.”

The sincerity in her voice is almost too much to handle and the truth slips out of your lips before you can stop it. “I’ve never done anything like this before.”

She blinks a few times and you practically watch as the wheels turn inside her brain. “You’ve never…oh. Oh, wow.”

Her response isn’t bad but it leaves you flustered all the same so you lean forward and hide your face in her shoulder. “Hailee…”

“Hey, hey, look at me, baby.”

A few seconds pass before you follow her instructions and she instantly melts your worries away with a soft kiss. “You don’t have to be embarrassed. It’s cute.”

“It’s cute that I have no idea what I’m doing?” You question.

“Yeah, it just means I’ll have to show you. I mean, um…if you want, of course. There’s no rush.”

All you can do is stare up at her while you think things over. There’s no denying how nervous you are but you trust Hailee more than anyone you’ve ever met before. So, maybe it’s time to take a small leap of faith with her.

“Okay,” you whisper. “I want this. I want you.”

The brunette groans in response and the sound goes straight to the growing heat between your legs. She wastes no time in attaching herself to your neck, kissing and sucking every inch she can find.

The sensation is so pleasurable, it borders on overwhelming and your hands grip her shoulders in search of the stability you lost the day you met her.

“You're so pretty,” she murmurs against your skin. “You don't know how long I’ve wanted you for.”

“Hailee-” You gasp as her hands find their way under your shirt.

“I know, let me make you feel good, sweetheart. Can I?”

The answer is more than obvious but you find yourself nodding desperately anyway. You know deep down everything about what you're doing is desperate and yet you can't find it in yourself to want to stop. Maybe it's unconventional but you don't need anything more than the brunette to make your first time unforgettable.

Hailee detaches herself from you long enough to help you shed your shirt, her eyes swooping down to take in every inch of you. Your knees buckle under her gaze and all she does is grin. “You're fucking perfect, baby.”

The words themselves are enough to make you burn a few degrees hotter but then her hands are removing your bra and you're quickly standing topless in front of her appreciative eyes.

Her fingers soon follow the path her eyes trace and you shudder in ways you can't describe. Her thumbs gently rub against your nipples, your back arching almost instantly as you turn into putty in her hands.

“Does that feel good, darling?” All you can offer is a moan and she chuckles. “Gonna need some words.”

“Yes. Feels so fucking good.”

“There you go,” she murmurs, swooping in to litter kisses along your jawline. “Good girl.”

She pinches your nipples right as the words escape her lips and you're sure you almost pass out from the pleasure. “Oh- please.”

“Begging already?” Despite her question, one of her hands leaves your sensitive nipples to trail down the front of your body. “Do you think you're wet enough for me to touch you yet?”

You hum in response and attempt to keep your hips under control. “So wet for you.”

“Look at you,” she coos while her hand slips under the waistband of both your jeans and your underwear. “You’re already an expert at getting what you want from me.”

“Lee,” you whine. “Don’t tease, babe.”

“I’m sorry, you're just so cute like this.” She rests her forehead against yours, everything about her seemingly cool and collected while you're burning up and panting. “We’ll take it slow, okay? Tell me if it hurts too much.”

Your inexperience leaves you a little clueless…until she starts to slip one finger inside your tight cunt. You gasp almost instantly, your body tensing at the intrusion.

“Relax, baby. I've got you.”

It's hard to fully relax but Hailee does her best to keep you distracted by murmuring soft praises and keeping up her gentle touches to your breasts. The full length of her finger sinks inside and she gives you a moment to breathe and adjust.

“How’re you feeling?” She asks, warm eyes searching your face for signs of unease or pain.

“Full,” you mumble with a smile.

She lets out a sound somewhere between a moan and a whine. “Fuck. That's so hot.”

The brunette leans in to kiss you before you can reply and you happily melt into the contact. You don't realize it’s yet another loving distraction until she starts to slowly pump her finger in and out of you.

You moan against her lips, the sound coming out muffled but no less desperate. Your walls clench almost uncontrollably with every move she makes which only fuels her need to pleasure you.

“You're doing so well for me,” she mumbles. “Taking me so well, aren't you, baby?”

Her words cause an unfamiliar feeling to start to rise from deep within you that only gets stronger once her thumb finds your sensitive clit. Your hips buck into her hand and she ends up burying her face into your neck to stop herself from getting too wild.

She somehow manages to keep her slow pace, fucking you nice and gentle to build up your orgasm and prolong your pleasure. At the end of the day, all she wants is to keep you happy.

“You’re so close, aren't you, sweetheart? I can feel it, the way you can’t stop clenching around me. God, it makes me so wet.”

You don't know what triggers it, maybe it's her words or her thrusts or the tight circles around your clit, but you fall over the edge instantly with a cry so loud, she has to kiss you to drown it out.

It’s impossible to describe how you feel. It's like you're floating and underwater and in the heart of the sun all at the same time. All you know is you've never felt pleasure like this and it's all thanks to Hailee freaking Steinfeld.

Hailee holds you close until your body stops shaking and you slump forward into her. “Hey, welcome back, y/n.”

“Shut up,” you mumble, every muscle in your body feeling absolutely spent yet satisfied.

She doesn't reply. She merely removes her hand from your sensitive center and kisses the side of your head.

“So…are you still up for dinner or…?”

“You're the worst.”

[abby118]

Hi!

I may be wrong, but it seems like I remember it was you who posted about a group on discord that is all about OG Loki, and also anti- Loki series? I have been looking but can't find the post anywhere. I would like to talk about how much I hated the Loki series, and how much I miss OG Loki, and how it is affecting me. There is no one in my life to whom I can talk about this. I have my sister, and we have talked about it enough, to the point where she thinks I'm coping well enough and quite frankly is tired of the subject, lol. But the truth is I am deeply disturbed by it still. I need to talk but there is no one. Not that I've got anything to say that someone else has already expressed better than I could. I could make post after post after post, but I feel like I'm in no man's land, listening to my own voice echo throughout vast and empty canyons. Is there a discord for this, and is it active? Are people really there, talking about this still? Thank you!

Hey dear anon!

You're not entirely mistaken in that I did mention the server briefly (quite recently in fact!). So yes, there is such thing- It's got about 70-80 members as of right now, is anti series and focuses mainly on the 2011-2013 era. And to answer your question, it's very much active.

If you're looking for where or how to join, you'd want to dm @/youlackconviction though I can't promise you you'd get a reply (or an invite) that soon as she's not very active on tumblr these days. I don't want to speak in her name, but she did mention she would return and consider inviting more people in the future. (Keep in mind it's 18+)

And about disliking the series, I assure you, you're certainly not alone. I, myself, hate it immensely even if I chose to dedicate my blog(s) to the 2011-2013 era without the negativity of critiquing the later releases. There are still plenty of great blogs that do speak on the matter and write well-structured metas/analyses that are definitely worth a read if you're looking for such thing (even if a good portion of us is just so tired).

And honestly, I'd say you'd still find people who did enjoy both the 2011-2013 content as well as the later relelases because they're able judge it with the appropriate criticism but you'd have to know where to look. The newer fans are not always the friedliest to say the least.

You might probably know these blogs already but some recommendations would be (in no particular order other than my memory):

@nikkoliferous, @youlackconviction, @latent-thoughts, @lucianalight, @ripfic, @supervillainarchaeologist, @sporadic-og-loki, @delyth88, @therese-lokidottir, @varangianviper, @alwida10, @iamnmbr3, @theawkwardavenger, @mastreworld, @maireadtbts, @incantation-sigyn

I know I'm forgetting people so if anyone sees this, feel free to mention someone (or yourself!) if you see yourself in that category.

Oh and shameless self promotion -> metas archive

[frownyalfred]

I was sorry to see you dealing with so many critical comments in Borderline recently, mostly because I love that fic and I love seeing characters in complex situations making bad choices sometimes. But I ALSO wanted to say that the way you're handling it is very classy. I have been dealing with some terrible comments on my own fics lately, and I find myself going to your page to learn how to handle it in a way that's fair, without being overly reactive or targeting anyone. Sometimes I can't tell whether to delete a comment or not, or whether to respond to a criticism or not, especially when my own hurt feelings get in the way. It really helps to see how someone else deals with it in a wise and experienced fashion. So thank you for that. If you have any further tips, too, I'd love to hear them!

Thank you so much anon! And I'm really, truly sorry that you're also dealing with hurtful comments. Nobody deserves that, especially authors working for free to put content out there.

I appreciate this ask a lot since there have been many times in the last few months where I have blown up privately, been upset, considered nuking everything, and generally reacted very poorly to negative, condescending, backhanded, or downright abusive comments. I was not handling it well! I was feeling hurt, and definitely not wise!

I have some wise, wise writing friends though. And generally, after venting (quite understandably) I think most authors know, in their gut, how they want to respond to these kinds of comments.

My advice is as follows, and it's been what I've pieced together from friends and my own experiences in the last few weeks:

Stand by your fic and your choices. It's great to slightly alter your plot when people respond really positively to a character, for example, but don't let a crowd of angry commenters force your hand on any decision, whether it's small or large. Would you have removed that character if there hadn't been three comments about it?

Try to be the adult in the room. Even if you're not older than your commenters or readers, the rule still stands. Try not to sink to their level (barring some necessary cases) and get in the mud. You're the author and you have all the power! Mute them, block them, lock down your comments -- the only power they have is through commenting, and getting into your head. That's power you can give them, or take away from them.

Be honest about how the comments make you feel. A lot of times, I think authors layer their hurt in other, more acceptable reasons. It's okay to be hurt by a backhanded, but well-intentioned comment. Saying "I appreciate this comment but the way you phrased it hurt me for x reason" is a totally mature and realistic way to respond to comments like that. Or telling readers something like "Please don't yell at each other/the characters in my comments, it stresses me out and makes me feel like you're upset with the story and/or me" is what I ended up doing.

Don't get caught in the weeds. Delete the comments that make you upset. Really. You don't need to respond to every comment (I have several rants about this already) and if you do, you definitely don't need to respond to ones that make you sad, upset, etc. If deleting that weird comment or skipping over a reply will make you feel better, do it! I'm sure your readers would prefer you skip a response over you getting hung up on a mean comment and not writing.

Know when to walk away. I took a break from writing borderline because it was stressing me out. Like, my already-high blood pressure was getting higher. I took a month off and wrote other things, and when I was ready to put up a new chapter, the words came really quickly and I was inspired again <3 It's also 100% okay if you never come back to that fic or series again -- your mental health is always -- always -- more important.

6. (bonus) sometimes saying "fuck you" is better than anything else. Sometimes, the pettiness wins, and you're not the adult in the room. I get it. I've ranted a lot on here and posted a lot about (anonymized) comments I've received. So yeah, fuck you, random assholes commenting awful things to me about sexual assault -- one day I hope to find a way to block my fics from ever being read by you again.

Sorry this was a bit of a rant. If you ever want to talk, anon, my inbox/DMs are always open. I'm sorry again that you're receiving hateful comments -- you don't deserve it, and your work deserves to flourish on its own. I hope you keep repeating that to yourself <3

[funnier-as-a-system]

I hope it's okay if we ask for advice.

Basically our main J had a daydream para (🍁) that was kinda a representation of her dream world. I am also a similar being, but more like along the lines of a fursona or kinform.

We introjected ner, and it's hard for me to describe our bond. We are the same in some way, but still partitionary also. It feels like our link is to the old host and we split, but we don't like being called median because we are not "just parts of J"

We often fuse like in steven universe. We maintain our thought patterns but are mainly blurred together. Our bond is incredibly close and almost feels like romantic love for each other. Together we share a s.o. from the same daydream world 🍁 came from.

Would you know of any terms I could start looking down to describe this relationship?

Unfortunately, I'm not very familiar with terms to describe the relationships that system members may have with one another. Perhaps certain -conscious labels (such as monoconscious) may help? It sounds somewhat like you're a subsystem that has a unique way of operating compared to your system, but that would be up to you to figure out. I bring it up, though, mainly due to the way you describe blurring/fusing with 🍁; it sounds rather similar to how one of our own subsystems describes co-fronting within their subsystem.

If it's specifically a problem with the word "median", then have you considered mid-continuum? It's a lesser used term that means roughly the same thing. However, it's also important to note that being median doesn't necessarily mean that you're parts, or that you have to consider yourselves as such. "Median" just means that you're less separated compared to multiple headmates/systems, not that you're automatically parts of the same being (in this case, J). I mean, multiple systems can also consider themselves parts of the same person, can't they? You see it a lot with systems who have DID, which far more often present as multiple than median. Whether you do or do not consider yourselves parts has nothing to do with the structure of your system, it's just more common for median folk to describe themselves as parts due to feeling less individuality or separation. Most of our median members don't consider themselves parts, just more connected to whoever else it is they're median with (since they're from subsystems). So, you can call yourselves median without calling yourselves parts, if that helps with your concerns.

If anyone else has suggestions for anon, feel free to reblog or leave a reply. In the meantime, anon, I'm not sure how much this helps, but I wish you luck in finding terms that fit you (and hey, if you can't find any, you're always free to coin some yourself)!

[mushroomwriter]

Hermanos anon here - WHY WOULD YOU PUT THAT GIFSET ON MY DASH AAAAAAAH!!!!! i came out here to have a good time and honestly i feel so attacked rn

Anyway, so happy for you that the exam is over and you passed <3 I actually have exams coming up myself lol so I completely understand... also have you heard? Berlin was renewed for s2! Really really hoping Alvaro returns and we get Sergio and hermanos rights in the next season 🤞 (and to fill the need for hermanos content!!) Also pls don't feel like you have to make a set again soon, happy to wait until you get the inspiration, and ofc it's always a good idea to rewatch their scenes, instant serotonin boost - just skip that minor scene that shall not be named at the end of the Mint Heist 😭

Haha I'm sorryyyy! It's something I realised long back but I never had the chance to inflict the angst on anyone else lmao. you added the cherry on top with how you worded it "literally a little brother begging his big brother not to leave him, and knowing on some level that he'll never be able to make him change his mind" 🥺 in some way he would've known right at the moment nairobi and helsinki emerged alone so seeing him going from denial to desperation. hurts

(pt 2) YES, brotherssss!!! Oh, the fact that Andrés is so selfish and narcissistic otherwise just makes the hermanos bond even more special to me?? it hits different than if they'd just been relatively normal/good characters, idk. And yes that's such older brother behaviour of him!! I will tell you some happier observations of mine this time. One of my favourite "older bro" things Andrés does in the series, when he and Sergio sit down to drink together, he ALWAYS pours wine for Sergio first. In the bella ciao scene, his wedding scene in s4, even s3 he literally wakes up Sergio to come have breakfast with them, which means he didn't even allow either Martin or Tatiana to start without his hermanito lol. It's a very sweet minor detail that melts my heart. I can totally imagine them in the Toledo house, pretending they don't know each other but then andrés does little things like these, serving Sergio first or preparing coffee for his brother just the way he likes it before making his own cup :') OH, the feels. Yes, I agree, I definitely think the Bella Ciao lyrics are foreshadowing, and that is exactly what happened in the end. (I have been struck by that thought too, more than once 🥲 it's heartbreaking isn't it? especially when you consider that oslo/moscow had their loved ones with them when they died + a funeral. nairobi had a funeral too. tokio had rio with her before she died. but andrés had none of that, sergio was miles away and then ofc they had to escape leaving him behind... don't think about the guantanamera scene lyrics in this context too. Poor Sergio :( (pt 3) Btw sorry for how long this got!! Please feel free to put everything under a cut if you want 😅 I'm just out here rambling like there's no tmrw. Back to the happier note (omg we really just keep switching between angst and joy) I love that idea!! Yeah, I can definitely see them having that as an inside joke, something that only they share from their childhood memories, it's very sweet! Sergio "I don't dance" Marquina WILL dance if his big bro requires, and it makes me a puddle everytime. Somehow he has the most stiff yet adorable dance moves ever, I loved those moments we got. Andrés mirroring Sergio's moves in the guantanamera scene never fails to bring a smile to my face. Unironically, I used to watch that scene so many times during the pandemic days. I was not doing too well but those few seconds seeing them smile and laugh and dance despite everything used to give me such comfort :D I was glad to see your reply (and once again, completely understand, hope you're taking care of yourself <3) Thank you for putting up (and being so kind) about my rambles, glad you like them! And ofc, please feel free to tell me to shut up if I get too annoying 😭 As always, such a JOY sharing the enthusiasm for these heist bros with you and i hope you have a great week!

AT LEAST WE CAN SUFFER TOGETHER!!! And talk about Sergio, who usually considers every single possible outcome, Never considering his brother could die... whew!

Thank you so much! The best of luck on your exams!! (If you've already taken them, I hope they went well!) I saw that, yeah... and speaking of the spin-off I watched some more of it, I need to watch the fifth episode next... anyway, they better use that new season to give us some new hermanos content or ELSE 🔪🔪 like, just Andrés mentioning Sergio was enough to reawaken my heist brothers obsession, an actual new scene with the two of them would be so Powerful (also I miss Sergio sooo) Thank you, I'd like to gif them again soon but right now the inspiration isn't really on my side, UGH. But I really hope watching and rewatching their scenes (and looking for possible quotes) can help! Honestly since I love pain I will probably watch the Scene That Shall Not Be Named as well but I promise I'll proceed with caution...

Well, I can't blame you, angst is made to be shared! Poor Sergio, he really is in denial at the beginning, huh, insisting Andrés should get into the tunnel... and that's another thing that gets me, because truly there was no time, waiting for Andrés and not blowing up the tunnel basically meant getting captured, and yet Sergio who's usually so cautious and always aware of every risk just refuses to see it. Andrés must get into the tunnel and to safety! And then he gets more and more desperate when it really becomes apparent that it isn't going to happen :(

Oh, I definitely agree! Part of the appeal of big brother Andrés and of their bond imo is the contrast between their usual demeanor and how they behave around each other. When they're together they're a big brother and a little brother, you know 🥺🥺 OOOH thanks for sharing! I don't know if I ever noticed that (if I did I forgot) it really is sweet! I'm smiling a bit at the thought of Andrés not allowing Martín and Tatiana to have breakfast because the most precious hermanito in the world is not there yet! I love that thought! I enjoy picturing how it was for them in Toledo, having to pretend they didn't know each other, and the image of Andrés finding all the sneaky ways to take care of his hermanito makes me melt <3

What can I say, Bella Ciao, Guantanamera, they truly looked at the lyrics and went "ooooh 😈" That completely breaks my heart, like it makes Sergio's grief even WORSE.

Please never apologize about how long your message gets, as far as I'm concerned it only means I have more stuff to enjoy (also thank you for reminding me I can put this under a cut, I probably should lol) It's kind of amusing how we can switch between oh no Andrés was killed and Sergio was completely helpless and awww nice little childhood memories but hey it's great how they give us tragic and happy thoughts both! I absolutely agree about Sergio having the most stiff yet adorable dance moves ever, at some point he's basically like "ok, since I'm doing this with my big brother I'm... actually enjoying it, but this doesn't take all my awkwardness away" and it's so CUTE, Alvaro plays it so well! And Andrés mirroring his moves makes me smile so much!! It truly is a comfort scene and I'm glad it helped you through those times (man, it was surreal).

Thanks so much for your patience! And nooo don't worry, I LOVE your rambles!! It really is a real joy to talk with you about these brothers!

Thank you so much, I hope you have a great week too! (And if you're still studying for your exams, well, I wish you a productive study and hope it doesn't stress you out too much!)

[fatedstrands]

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About the Mun!

Hi! My name Is Whisper, I'm a non binary kind of gender presenting fluid alter-human mess. I live in Aussieland but am alive often during UK time. My sleep is all over the place despite this so be patient. PERSONAL BLOGS NOT CONNECTED TO RP ACCOUNTS DNI! IF THE THREAD ISN'T YOURS, PLEASE DON'T REBLOG IT! THANK YOU!

I have a lot of #trauma but most things don't usually bother me. As Trigun is a HEAVILY triggering universe, I will write many things including but not limited to; Violence, body horror, horror themes, manipulation, abuse (though I will NOT write sexual abuse) but things like narcissistic abuse, child abuse/neglect, medical experimentation, homosexuality, drug abuse/alcoholism. NSFW scenes can be found on @fatedsinners. ABUSE TO ME WILL NOT BE TOLERATED! If you're gonna try to start stuff, please just leave. This is a fun and safe space, don't ruin it. ALL ART WILL BE TAGGED as either t//Wifey Arts for art done by @inkksuna who's given permission for me to post or Art//The Mun's Works for stuff I myself have done.

NOW THE RP THINGS!

Mun =/= Muse - period. No if ands or buts. I WILL INTERACT WITH DUPES GIMMIE GIMMIE! MAGIC ANONS ARE ALWAYS WELCOME! Each one will be marked with 'curse//---' of the curse My Legato is HEAVILY CANON DIVERGENT so please respect the laws of their lives as I have written them. If my muses inspire you, if my headcannons make you go 'I like that' please feel free to take them on as your own! I love to inspire and add onto others' own creativity. No God-Modding/Info-Modding/Power Gaming. Set up the attacks, and of course I can't dodge them all, but allow me to decide the damage and success of the hit. We are all the DM's of our own muses and no one else's. If you want to do an action to my muse ASK ME IN DMS AND WE CAN SUSS IT OUT! I love to do this!

Do not harass me for replies and do not try to guilt trip or otherwise emotionally manipulate me in anything at all, such as OOC chats, vagueblogging, tags, or IC threads. THIS BEING SAID! I WRITE A LOT AND FAST! You have no obligation to reply as fast or match the length. As long as it's more than a one liner (unless it's something crack related) I can work with it. I cannot do one liners well at all so EXPECT PARAGRAPHS BECAUSE I AM INVESTED!

I will turn asks I'm interested in being threads into a thread whilst @ing you, there is NO OBLIGATION to respond. If the ask is left as an ask, you can dm me to request it as a thread, otherwise I consider it finished.

Please tag our threads with the URL 'fatedstrands' for my main and 'fatedsinners' for NSFW.

If you have a problem with me, please come to me and tell me. I want to know when I've done something wrong so I can learn and grow if I can. If you're a new blog, I will not write with you unless you have some sort of information, about and age of mun. If it's our first interaction, please don't open with anything that's sexual or means a presumed relationship. It makes me uncomfortable. I prefer to find out ideas or baselines of threads but also don't hesitate to just yeet yourself in, just be prepared for a 20 roll of the die to see what chaos you've called upon yourself! Whilst I AM open to AU's OC's will need information on them for me to feel comfortable and any thread MUST have been spoken about in DMs first. Multimuse blogs are welcome and SOME crossovers are okay if I know what's happening, who the other muse is OR we've discussed it in DMs.

NOW THE SPICY THINGS!

WILL NOT WRITE SMUT WITH ANYONE UNDER 21 BOTH MUN AND MUSE RESPECTIVELY! I've made mistakes as a teen and know how it can affect someone and I refuse to put that on anyone else. It's to protect me and you. If you're under 21, please just walk away. I am a shipping WHORE! there are some ships I auto yes to, like MillionsSummers and WolfSummers. Just be warned, my Legato is different so please check my summary thread for the verses. Whilst these are auto yes please still talk to me about the ship so we can define the small things as I love those. ALL SHIPS ARE THEIR OWN UNIVERSE! No one fight over my muses love unless we've agreed to it in DMs LET ME MAKE THIS ABUNDANTLY CLEAR BECAUSE APPARENTLY IT'S NOT CLEAR ENOUGH! I DO NOT SHIP PLANTCEST!

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Rules of the Road

I'm Moss, and I've been roleplaying online for nearly twenty years, now. I know myself well enough to let potential RP partners know the following:

I reply slow in conversation. Please give me the grace of patience.

I reply quickly to posts. Please don't think this means you must do the same; you'll reply when you get to it and I'll survive until then.

I am not comfortable writing with anyone under eighteen. This is not negotiable. I am 30+ years old.

I prefer multi-paragraph writing for myself, but our styles don't have to match. As long as I've got something to respond to in your post it could be a single sentence and I'd be happy.

Now for the actual rules. Don't consider all of these fully stone-set except for the first three, but do consider all of the rest of them things that would require discussion and planning to bend.

No-one under 18. This is not negotiable. It is also listed multiple times in multiple locations to hammer home the point.

No out-of-character shitheadery. This is intentionally left as a vague term because I'd hope most people can guess what constitutes being a shit head. I don't reblog call-out posts but I do block liberally.

No terfs. I'm a proud transsexual and my favorite tool is the block button.

No God-modding. I'll move my character, you move yours.

Not so much a rule as a request, but please don't use micro fonts with me. My eyesight is bad. Bad-bad.

I ship chemistry--and that goes the same for Aziraphales as it does for everyone else. Everyone who writes Aziraphale writes him differently and I love that, but my interpretation of Crowley may not be compatible with every interpretation of Aziraphale.

This said I love shipping. I'm multi-ship and duplicate friendly. Every thread is its own distinct universe and never the any will cross unless it'd be fun as hell to do so.

I write a generally ambiguously-timelined Crowley; has X important thing happened or not? Dunno--check with me ooc and we'll decide if it'd be more fun for something or other to have happened already or not.

I prefer to keep NSFW under read-more cuts; whether or not you do is up to you.

No NSFW gifs in threads, please. It's an easy way to get your blog deleted. However, if it's something you're really sold on then talk to me and we may be able to migrate a thread to e-mail. As a note, this is also somewhere I'd be happy to write.

There is nothing your character is not allowed to do to mine so long as it is feasible that it could be done. When in doubt, ask first; I promise it won't ruin the surprise because while I may now know what's coming, I won't necessarily know how it's coming.

No tw's apply to me, but if there are any you need tagged and you don't feel like having them out in the open on your blog (a fair thing; you don't owe me or anyone insight into what upsets you) just let me know on anon and I'll do my best to tag things that fall under it. This stands as a within reason segment to be held at my own discretion.

There are very few fandom-based characters I won't interact with. We don't have to be in the same universe, and I'm always happy to have someone wind up where they shouldn't be. That being said the two fandoms that I personally will not write with characters from are: Axis Powers Hetalia and anything whose source material is produced by JK Rowling.

Not a rule per-se so much as a point I'd like to reiterate: original characters--particularly Good Omens OCs--get priority when I'm doing replies. I love original characters so much, and that absolutely includes child-of-blank characters.

These rules are likely to be updated as needed, but I think this gets the general gist. If you're ready to plot, feel free to do so, or if you want to send an ask in-character or reply to an open please have right at it!

[tinygumdrops]

Hey hope you doing well

I'm not same anon

Thank you for answering your fav arcs. Your selection was great, i was certain you'd love wci. It's such interesting family dynamics right

Most people didn't recieve the arc well..

I love your works btw. So I'm very much interested in knowing your favourites, so your fav haikyuu arcs? Or matches and top 3 fav characters:)

Feel free to not reply if this gets repetitive.

Hello again, anon! :D And noooo omg I'm really enjoying having the excuse chance to ramble about things I love! So don't worry about being repetitive because you're definitely not :D

Top 3 hq!! characters? Oh my. Well I've already said too much about Hinata being my top fave, so I guess I can elaborate on the #2 and #3 in my kokoro.

#2 - Yachi Hitoka and Sugawara Koushi

I'm going to cheat a little here. I love these two equally after Hinata and no one can make me choose who takes the next top spot, so there ;-; Seeing Yachi blushing and stuttering and just being a total mess in front of Shimizu made me forever endeared to her. Like yes girl I too would make an absolute fool of myself in front of people I feel are out of my league. Also!!! Her struggle with self-esteem and her trying to become her own person apart from her mother's legacy is such A Mood. Her arc is shorter than most of the cast but it didn't make it any less memorable to me. And homegirl chose hell with a career in ad design. She's pretty insane, I'm sure.

And Sugawara is just so charming as a character! How I wish I had a senior like him in my high school clubs ;-; It actually distressed me a little that he hardly got any action during their final battles in Tokyo Dome, but his antics on the side made it a little worth it. He's capable, self-aware, dependable and also emotionally intelligent, which I really, really appreciate in male characters. I take comfort in the idea that Furudate-sensei might have modeled his personality after a real individual. We need more people in the world like him imo.

#3 - Miya Osamu

This is actually so funny. Right off the bat, people who know me in real life always guessed correctly who's my favorite of the Miya twins I'm that fucking predictable. Atsumu's a great, interesting character for sure, but Osamu's soporific disposition kept making me think 'hmmmm there must be something else behind this person'. And as soon as it was revealed that Osamu didn't have any intention to go pro after high school, I started fixating on him. And because Furudate-sensei knows my heart, of course Osamu didn't pursue what was expected of him, of course he loves food, of course he'll make a career of making the classic onigiri, of course his uncomplicated love for food is a great contrast to his chaotic relationship with his brother/volleyball. Man!!!

And as for arcs/matches---

#1 - Brazil Arc/Post Timeskip

I am extremely biased. Hinata's my favorite character. And Brazil arc Hinata is god tier Hinata. Anyone who says otherwise can argue with a wall.

But for real, I just love it when authors throw their MCs into unfamiliar situations and environments. People may argue that it's a lazy way to shove character development into the plot, but in Hinata's case it really fits. I also love the cross-cultural exchange that comes with it! I know Brazil is already familiar to Japan considering their shared history with Portugal, but it's still nice for Haikyuu!!'s Japanese audience to (re)learn about a country quite different in culture and social norms. I for one became really interested about Brazil and Latin America that I started reading novels made by Latin American authors.

#2 - Karasuno vs. Aoba Johsai, Interhigh

I might be in the minority here, but I like it when the main characters lose at times. It's not because I enjoy watching the heartache. But the journey going from bottom to top---the possibilites are just endless. It kind of feeds my need for hopeful stories. I think of myself as an optimistic person, and I watch shows like Haikyuu!! wanting to be inspired and uplifted.

Hinata and Kageyama's dynamic on the court was, to me, a bit unequal during the first arc of the manga. The freak quick with Hinata closing his eyes and heavily relying on Kageyama setting with pinpoint accuracy was indeed cool, and it revealed so much about them as characters, but it was clear from the start that it's not the move that'd catapult them to the top. Dare I say it was more of a gimmick than an actual technique; their success with it won't last. Hinata opening his eyes to find himself blocked pointblank made me sad no doubt, but it's also a satisfying way to end the match. There's literally no other way to end it. And I love that this arc spurred Karasuno into making themselves a more complete team by the time they faced Shiratorizawa.

#3 - Karasuno vs. Nekoma, Tokyo Nationals

They hyped this match so much since the first arcs so obviously my anticipation was through the roof. Plus there's the generational aspect of it that made the whole thing bittersweet (The reveal that Grandpa Ukai was watching the Nekoma match in the hospital and commenting with pride, "My disciples are there" !!!!!!!) And I love the imagery this match has given birth to! Conniving cats versus feral crows in the garbage dump! Kenma and Hinata aiming to stab one another at the jugular! Kenma trapping Hinata in a birdcage! And Kageyama breaking Hinata out of it!!! *incoherent wailing*

So sorry if this answer got too long once again. Thank you for taking the time to ask my opinion. As you can see, I greatly enjoyed sharing my thoughts with you! :DDD

[just-like-playing-tag]

How did sexism play a role in affecting tpn?

※ I'm not tagging this as spoiler since I think it might be of interest for anime onlys as well, however some manga events and characters are mentioned here. It's not any major plot point, but pay special attention or avoid reading this if you don't want to stumble across any spoiler at all.

I don't think Anon follows my blog (otherwise the question would have most likely come a long time ago, since sexism in the second season of the anime is an issue I have mentioned several times already), so I think it's fine to link back to all the posts I could find that addressed the matter. Here's some posts that underline in what ways the anime has been sexist:

First of all you'll want to read this post: as I hope to have made clear, it is not only about what she's wearing, it's never about what a girl is wearing.

Secondly here is an early reaction to episode 5 that hopefully clears up what's wrong with Emma's character in the second season

Further readings that address to the matter, approximately in chronological order from when I first read them:

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(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*.✧ (I think this post summarizes pretty well what makes Emma so amazing and revolutionary both as a female protagonist and as a shonen jump protagonist and cutting all of this from her character is, in my opinion, automatically sexist)

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(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*.✧ (in my tags to the post)

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(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*.✧ (this one is in Turkish but can be easily understood with the support of an online translator)

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Probably more were made when episosode 6 came out, but I haven't been following the anime as much since episosode 5 so I can't know. Maybe if I'll find any new post on the matter I'll update this ask.

Anyway, to sum up the main points:

• Emma wears a skirt for no reason, enforcing female clothing categories

• Emma is the only girl showed hunting; additionally, her hunting skills are significantly decreased compared to her manga abilities

• Emma isn't the one to kill the wild demon, and the moment was given to her male counterpart to shine

• The fact that Emma was shown being interested in the shelter garden, while in the manga it was so beautiful to have gender roles subverted with her going out haunting and her male counterpart cooking

• The fact that as soon as Emma loses the support of her (occasionally implied love interest) other male counterpart she becomes weak and depressed and useless

• The fact that she thinks she was wrong and naïve not believing in her male friends' words and following her ideals instead (which is so dumb like... Yeah Emma it surely would have been better to leave them all to die)

• The fact that in the demon town she's the only one not carrying a bow to defend herself (?????)

• How she was clearly dumbed up (though this happened to pretty much all the GF children)

• How Emma has lost all her leader qualities she showed in the manga

• Look the simple fact that. I can't think of a significative thing she's done since the start of the second season. She didn't provide for everyone's food. She didn't make any plan to go save Phil. She's just been crying over herself as the next shonen female side character (can she even be considered the protagonist at this point??)

• One of the most striking things is how anime Emma compared to manga Emma has lost all of her independence and individuality. She has no plan, no idea on how to go on, and is quite literally waiting for some (guy) to come and save her. The way Norman was introduced in the anime as a savior was so upsetting.

• Honestly I consider having cut out so many arcs that showed how strong, resilient, brave, determined she is to be sexist on its own

• The only thing that's left of her character is being kind which is... Honestly extremely problematic. One thing is to show a complex and multilayered character who, among many other qualities and strong points, is also kind and emphatic; another thing is enduring the stereotype that kindness and empathy are the only characteristics girls can have.

• Emma is kind, but not stupid; she doesn't like to kill demons, but she won't hesitate to do so in case they create an immediate danger for her family. Her helping the demon at the temple doesn't make any sense.

And this is only about Emma. It's clearly sexist:

• Don's line in episode 4 that literally translates to “don't cry Rossi, boys don't cry” that is,,,, not only unspeakably gross, but also unbelievably ooc from Don who always supports his family and has cried like five times in the manga, always without an ounce of shame.

• Cutting the scene of Gilda being badass in chapters 59 and 96, that featured her repeatedly threatening a grown-up man

• Not including an arc with amazing female characters with breathtaking fights. In Goldy Pond all the girls are always displayed as being equal to guys in their fighting skills; the best (or at least very talented) snipers are considered to be girls, while the medics are two guys (I like to stress this point because it would have been very easy to introduce a sweet kind nurse girl in that role).

• Honestly cutting Gillian deserves to be mentioned on its own. Such a great complex female character. Her role in Goldy Pond was outstanding, and her scenes in chapters 110, 130, 145 and 172 give so much deepness to her character. Moreover, showing how she doesn't sympathize with demons makes her a nice counterpart to Emma, building a solid cast of diverse female characters with different inclinations and natures. Not to mention how we won't have Gillian chosing to support Emma no matter her opinions, which was such an heartwarming example of girls supporting each other. Honestly I can't not consider sexist to exclude such a well written female character.

• Cutting Anna being praised without shame or envy by her male friends to have become the best of them all in the medicine field (a field women have a particularly hard time being employed in), and her male friends aknoweledging how hard she worked to get her competence.

This is only on top of my mind but there's definitely more. Additionally, we still have to see whether they're intentioned to include Ayshe (a great woc who is mysterious, reserved and an impressive fighter, typical qualities assigned to males) and Legravalima (a badass villain who is greedy and at the top of the demon society, again a typically male role). The changes of Isabella's storyline most likely mean they're also going to change (or fully skip) chapter 170, which was such an empowering moment for the mamas and made such a nice metaphor of women overthrowing an oppressive system to find freedom.

Honestly, I could have ignored some of these things had they been lone cases, but all of this together? Again, I'm not saying that CloverWorks is entirely bad, but the second season of the tpn anime surely cannot be praised for its female representation.

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Hello luv 💞 I weighed my options and decided it might be a waste to chunk this idea in a bin. Please excuse my horrible writing,,, feel free to change the lines or anything at all, there is a reason I am only a reader 😔 this is the Albedo one.

Impostor Albedo tries to pass himself as reader's Bedo in Dragonspine, he tries to mimic Bedo's kisses on reader's forehead and cheeks, unconsciously evading their lips. However, reader doesn't buy it since he's too stiff and ofc the telltale mark of his that she adores, but plays along because she's curious of his intentions. Albedo comes back from their shared home to see Impostor with reader, he watches from the distance ready to attack in case anything happens. Reader noticed him but chose to focus on Impostor, she reveals that she knows that he's not her Bedo, Impostor jolts, torn between attacking her or simply fleeing. Impostor flinches in shock when reader cups his cheek before he could do anything else, reader then asks "who are you really?". Impostor was surprised to find that reader's eyes only held curiosity, no malice or any hostility that he expected. He answers hesitantly, "... I don't know." reader simply smiles at him "You're not Albedo and that's alright, he'll always have memories that you don't, feelings you might not understand, and relationships that you don't. That's because you're not him. " Impostor jostles under reader's hold for a bit, thinking she was mocking him, but she held him firmly and continued, "But if you'd like, we could figure out who you really are together, what things you like, dislike, and shape your own personality. You don't have to pretend to be someone you're not to experience living alomside humans. You could live with us at Mondstadt as yourself." As reader says this, Albedo has slowly walked towards the two of them, contemplating reader's words and slowly coming to accept that this impostor of his IS still technically family. Impostor's eyes widened, breath shaky, he... could he really? Was it that simple? "I imagine Klee would be delighted to have another brother! You could spend time with her as yourself and I'm sure she'll love you just the same as us, or even more!" reader smiles at the thought of the red spark knight. "Albedo and I tend to take days in work here at the Lab, the Knights on the other hand each have their own duties to attend to if they're not free, so I imagine she'll enjoy your company as well as the others! That is,,, if you're willing." she trails off, starting to become unsure of her ramblings. Impostor takes a moment to consider, "I... I can?" he asks, "Of course you can! As long as you mean no harm to anyone you're very welcome!" reader exclaims. "... I would like that." impostor replies, still wary especially in Albedo's presence. "hmm but first, What did you look like before you tried to copy Bedo?" she asks, to which impostor replies, "I... I also don't know...". Reader thinks, her hand cupping her chin in contemplation (she had unconsciously picked up Albedo's little habit) Albedo finds this oddly endearing and he gently wraps an arm on the small of her back, "Perhaps he didn't have another form my love, we were both from the Primordial Human Project after all. " Albedo adds, reader continues to brainstorm for ideas, before finally excitedly rambling, "OH! We could pass you off as Bedo's twin! Although I hope you're alright with me trimming your hair maybe neck length? so that people could differentiate you two. We'd also have to get you clothes but I suppose some of Bedo's other outfits would suit you fine for now." Albedo chuckles, she was already covering all fields for the Impostor to enter their lives, this wasn't how he expected things to turn out with the Impostor but he supposes that everything will be alright since it's reader.

hahaha yEeT, feel free to ignore if the plot is flop. It has a lot of holes and things to work on nxjfjfjdjdjs

- Zhongli Brainrot Anon 🐉

I LOVE that! I wouldn't say it has a lot of holes, it's great imo!!! You could totally be a great writer!!!

I love everything about this!! This was a bit of my own brainrots to add to the aftermath! I might write something longer and more coherent about this eventually cus this!!! AU!!! IS SO SWEET

The reader becomes a loving support system for our dear imposter!Albedo, who they obviously give a new name. I could imagine Rubedo (which has been circling in the fandom).

Perhaps his wardrobe will consist of darker clothes, to contrast that of Albedo's, much like the traveler twins do.

He settles in in Mondstadt, adopting his new name and looks - being regarded as Albedo's twin. They look nearly identical, people joke, saying if his hair was longer they wouldn't be able to tell them apart.

Klee, of course, welcomes the addition of a new brother with open arms, dragging the slightly closed off man along with her adventures, letting him in on her schemes and bribing him into giving her piggyback rides.

Rubedo feels awkward, at first - but the way Mondstadt accepts him so quickly, referring to him by his new name - merchants greeting him each morning on his strolls, asking him about his day - it lights aflame a warmth he has never felt before.

And then there's you and Albedo.

At first, he has a hard time getting closer to his successor. There are some deep-rooted issues that cling onto both of them - so they keep a distance between themselves, but neither is hostile.

Albedo thinks you are an angel, a true testament of the wonders of human kindness, for managing to bring out this awkward duckling of a man from his imposter who was once set on destroying him.

You travel often between Dragonspine and Mondstadt, busy helping both Albedo and Rubedo. You teach Rubedo how to wash clothes, how to cook and clean, introduce him to your friends and give him attention - lend him an ear when he needs it.

At first, he had simply considered you a part of Albedo's life he wanted to consume for himself, but over time, he has come to hold you dear. You are his closest friend, his savior. He knows you and Albedo are happy - and he would never dare to come between that, not once he saw how Albedo brings joy upon you.

So he watches the two of you with a bittersweet sensation, yearning, but also happy for the two of you.

Eventually, Albedo is the one to approach him, to bond. It was something you urged him to do, and he's almost as awkward as Rubedo about it at first. But they bond over time. Albedo teaches him about art, Rubedo assists him with alchemy, and as time passes, they suppose they could begin to call each other brothers and mean it.

You come to realize, as your friends point out, that you now have two powerful alchemist guard dogs willing to risk life and limb for you.

If one is gone, the other is always around - it's something they actually trust each other with - protecting you.

So yes, your dynamic is a bit strange, but it feels like home, and all three of you can appreciate it.

[stormblessed95]

I don’t think Taehyung and Jungkook being closer is a problem cause they were the closest before, maybe they’re getting the closest again. It makes sense. Like friendships can change and get closer just as much as they can drift apart.

Jks been closer to jimin from 2018-2020 and maybe now he’s worked on their relationship he’s closest to Taehyung again. It shouldn’t be a problem.

Jimin & JK can drift apart just as much as Jk & Tae did and have issues. You have dips and changes in relationships. Like so what if he wants to ride with Tae? He spent all 2020 riding with jimin. Like so what if they post each other on their social media? Cause it’s there’s and there closer now. They can post who they want. They didn’t post a lot of selcas with each other before.

Jungkook had dinner with Tae in LA and had a deep conversation. Like Jikook do, but it was something they wanted to do. Jungkook said himself that he goes to jimins room just because he’s the closest and bored, it doesn’t have to mean anything.

Taehyung & Jungkook may be the closest pair now and that’s okay. We should accept it and just like when Jikook were closer in 2017-2020. Friendships can change.

Sigh. How do I always end up getting roped into these conversations? This one though, this one I can almost appreciate. This one, anon, gives me the vibes that we could probably have an interesting conversation if we ever went back and forth or you came off anon and we could talk in DMs. Even if we walk away agreeing to disagree, this feels like someone who might be able to hold a conversation about things at least. So I'm hoping that means you are also someone who is willing to be open minded enough to consider my thoughts about it all too. I really hope that you are, because I'm probably about to write an essay here. As yall know I often do, well those of you who have been here long enough to see my many essay replies to anons lol Here we go! As always, enjoy my gifs used to break up topics!!

So I think we agree partially, but also disagree here too. Here me out. I fully, fundamentally, 100% agree with you on your statement here "friendships can change and get closer just as much as they can drift apart." This is absolutely true. Nothing is ever really static, or else that relationship and person(s) exist in stasis. Which is fundamentally impossible considering that we, as people, are constantly changing and adapting and overcoming/getting set back. Personalities morph, interests and hobbies change, we learn and we grow. And because we, as individuals, are constantly evolving as people... our relationships (platonic or otherwise) are also constantly evolving and changing with us. The BEST relationships are the ones that grow and evolve with you and continually accept all parts of you as you grow and change. Right? We should all be on the same page here for this part. And this evolution as a person and in your relationships isn't any different for celebrities or famous people.

Something else I agree with you on is "I don't think Taehyung and Jungkook being closer is a problem." Im prepared to fight anyone who says otherwise. We are their fans, we are not their friends. Dictating who these men are friends with and how they conduct those friendships is so far past crossing a boundary. I will defend their friendship as fiercely as I do jikooks if anyone comes to my blog being shady about it. And I have. Feel free to take a stroll through the important posts section of my masterlist to find those if you want to. I also agree with you that "they're closer now." Because they are! You can see a clear process from them, working on their relationship. Twice in 2020, they brought up their distance in their friendship. And you could clearly see the effort put forth after their ITS talk especially to meet each other halfway and rebuild their playful and fun friendship back and that they have been making more time for each other and their friendship. I think this is amazing and I love seeing it!

Here is where I'm going to start disagreeing with you though. Please stick with me! I'm going to try and take this point by point and cover everything you mentioned here too. Your main point is that taekook were THE closest before. Then Jikook were THE closest and then now taekook are once again the closest duo? I disagree. Let me explain why please.

Let's go back to the early years here too. You mention that this is the time period where Taekook were the closest duo. I don't agree with that. I don't disagree either. They were definitely VERY close! But I don't think they were the only duo that was that close. I'd make an argument that jikook and vmin were also just as close as taekook were. (Not even going to mention Yoonjin, yoonmin, jihope, vhope or namgi or any others who were also all very close). Those early years it was definitely the maknae line as a trio. They spilt into twos every now and then, but there really wasn't much of a stand out that I could see in a duo, except honestly maybe vmin, who had a leg up due to being same age friends. Even the other members marking them as the closest or the best duo of the group. I have a post up as well over how taekook WERE insanely close during those early years and how that could have led to why they became a popular kpop ship that has just continued to gain popularity too. You can read that here. Please notice though how i say "One of the closest duos" rather than saying "the closest." It makes a difference. I also have multiple posts up, (Im a jikook blog, of course I'll have more posts about them), about exactly how close jikook were as a duo in these same early years. You can read those posts in detail here. And it's literally only the years 2012 - 2014 in those posts there (for now).

Those jikook posts cover a lot to show how close they really were in those early years, but some of the main points would be how Jimin was one of the 3 members who went to his middle school graduation. How JK went to JIMIN and no one else after he got back from his trip to America to get advice over if he still wanted to debut or not. How they sought each other out multiple times during American Hustle Life in times of stress. Over and over it was shown how close the two of them were already back then, JK already even seeking Jimin out for emotional and vulnerable moments, trusting him with those feelings rather than some his other hyungs at times. If taekook were THE CLOSEST, why wouldn't he have gone to Tae? They were definitely ONE OF the closest, but JK was equally as close to Jin and Jimin too. Including mentioning how often he relayed on Jin who helped him feel comfortable in Seoul, took him under his wing and helped him with his homesickness, etc. Tae was and is equally as close to Jimin and Hobi back then too.

Now the second point I disagree with can just be considered semantics, but you say jikook could be considered THE closest from 2018 to 2020. I would say they started spending more time together than with anyone else in 2016, or at the very least, since 2017. But regardless, what I TRULY disagree with is your end cap to that. While I agree Taekook are getting closer, I disagree that they are any closer than jikook are or that jikook have been drifting apart in 2021. Taekook getting closer has nothing to do with jikook and one does not mean the other has to not be close anymore. Jimin being there with Tae and JK, and jikook being close and just getting closer, had absolutely nothing to do with taekook being close and/or drifting apart. Those are 2 seperate relationships. We have seen many many small moments through 2021 to indicate that Jikook's emotional bond and intimacy is still there and is still thriving. Many moments that show that their dynamic together, of being super close, has not changed. I can sit here and list example after example, or I can link again in hope you actually read all of this, my posts over how Jikook were not distant in 2021. So when you are asking so what about the car rides or the IG posts from taekook... I also, have the exact same questions. So what? What does that have to do with jikook? How does that make them distant? Because I'm not seeing it even a little bit. How is the taekook IG post different than the vmin, vhope or jinkook one? And you all act like this is new stuff they are doing. Taekook have posted the occasional selcas together through all the years. They've car shared together multiple times through the years, even the years you claim that jikook were the closest in. So how does this change it NOW? What's different with these particular posts/car rides?

Because I also saw a vlive with jikook where they were super comfortable, happy and close. No awkwardness, no shifts in behaviors or dynamics. I saw JK wait 20 minutes at the airport so he could walk out to their cars with Jimin after getting home from LA rather than just continue going with Jin. I saw them arrive to the airport together and post their own selcas together after that too. I saw JK push his face as close as possible to Jimins while he was singing in LA. So my question to you is, where is the distance in jikook? Why do YOU feel that because taekook is bonding and getting closer, that somehow means jikook MUST be drifting apart? Do you feel the same way about vmin? Had they drifted and/or gotten closer at any point in time? Or are they allowed in your mind to have similar levels of closeness as other people?

Now back to your last points that I'm going to disagree with too, sorry. You said "Jungkook had dinner with Tae in LA and had a deep conversation. Like Jikook do, but it was something they wanted to do. Jungkook said himself that he goes to jimins room just because he’s the closest and bored, it doesn’t have to mean anything." Now let me say right off the bat this you trying to manipulate and downplay bonds... you probably slipped up and let your bias show through. Your implication here was that JK doesn't actually want to hang out with Jimin, rather he wanted to have dinner with Tae. I hope you realize how messed up that is. But moving on. Let's actually talk about these 2 moments. One by one and fully address it, shall we?

Link here to the moment where Tae shares he had dinner and a conversation with JK:

This is sweet. This is friendly. This is I haven't had time to sit down with and catch up with my friend in a long time. I have no idea what they have been doing outside of what we do for work together or how they've been feeling about things, life, the state of the world. This is the catch up and drink and hang out type of dinner they referenced trying to have and someone never following through many times over and over during the ITS1 talk. This is so nice to see them bonding and actually following through on those plans and spending that time together. Putting forth that effort into maintaining their friendship. Because friendships require effort and work to maintain too if you want to keep them, not just romantic relationships. JK said he has been happy lately. This was coming across as something clearly just friendly and fun. They had a good time but they didn't really seem to stick around much more than just a causal hang out. I also would like to point out how different it was, how causal the whole air around that dinner was. How they talked about adult things (life, work, how they are doing) but there was no mention of it being a DEEP talk like you are saying it was. That is your assumption, not a fact. But we also have moments where Jimin is sharing something sweet and deep with the group, such as how much he loves them and wants to be together as group forever, and how he feels about their future. To which JK chimes in from the back about how Jimin told him all this yesterday too. Seems like they are having deep conversations about their feelings, hopes, dreams, etc on the regular before sharing those thoughts with the rest of their members even (Festa 2020 or Festa 2021 with jikook knowing about each other's object and wishes). Or you know how they talk about how they've spoken about Destiny ("I told you") or going to the moon together before as well ("I promised) both past tense, referencing conversations they've had on their own on personal time.

Back to the point and the moments you mentioned. A link to watch the Jikook TMI clips from the vminkook vlive that you also referenced here:

You said this as if it was a bad thing, or like JK didn't have any other options. Like walking 4 more steps down the hall to get to Tae or Jin or Hobi would have killed him. Lmao JK gets bored and lonely in his own room. Jimins room is closest and Jimin is someone who's presence he finds comfort and peace in, which as been shown clearly many times over many years. Debut through present. This whole TMI collection made it more clear than anything else, that regardless of what you are seeing on camera or on stage. Off camera and during private personal times? Jikook are together. JK goes to Jimins room consistently because he is bored and wants to (aka, seems like Tae does to). He doesn't go to anyone else. He just wants to be around someone, and that someone is always Jimin. Proven time and time again on camera as well. They eat together after concerts. They hang out late at night. Mid day, early morning, just chilling on phones. They workout together and go for walks together everyday. Doesn't really sound like people who drifted apart to me?

Which brings me to your conclusion that taekook are the closest pair again. I disagree, they are closer then they were. But both seem to still be closer to Jimin and Hobi then they are to each other. Which is not the same thing as saying rhey are not close, clearly they are. But also they clearly still seek out Jimin and Hobi as referenced by these LA vlives more than they do each other. As well as you saying "Friendships change" as your closing statement. I agree. But please tell me where Jikooks friendship has changed? Because from what I can see, they are just as close as they ever have been.

And that's my essay! Lmao if you read this whole thing, thank you! Anon, if you stuck around and read this whole thing. Well thanks for listening to my rebuttal to all your points. I think I covered it all. Hopefully you came into this with an open mind and are willing to consider everything I said and my questions to you as well. Sorry again for the length of this post. Yall know how I am! Hope everyone has a wonderful day!!

[hard-core-super-star]

oh, now you're speaking for me, miss rubix? 🤨 you were right, we're on the same page and 🧞 shouldn't feel offended, they should feel honored, badass and cool, all these things. I'm not going to comment on you being called out. I'm laughing silently.

gwjaksjsk how was the class? with that statement should I expect more unexpected things then? YEAH andrew's version really is... I don't know who's luckier, him or gwen because- god. do it like this: transform yourself into him and then make a clone, that way you can be him AND with him, and if you don't want to keep it, you can give the clone to me. also, no, I lied. I'm not miles coded because I'm actually... I'm him and he's me, we're the same person.

bribe you? me??? nope, never. depends on your price. noooo, please tell me, no one is watching. I need to know.

I'm not considering it anymore, now what? I- I still am... 😔 OKAY knowing that you don't want a part 2 of alpha!kate didn't make me happy or anything like that, after all, I didn't like this fic at all. and it's not like I already said that it became one of my fav fics. since you wouldn't want to hear my thoughts on this, I'm not going to say that the multiple fics in one thing is an really good idea. see Kate rescuing R and how little by little their relationship became such a strong bond- and what it was like for R to see that that not every alpha is an asshole, and that they can be loved and having their feelings and thoughts validated wouldn't be a nice thing to see. definitely out of question.

no, don't test me please, I would come off like an idiot hdhdikwak damn, so you already do this so often that it comes out naturally? 😭

I'm still amazed at so much of the language you chose to learn. I find this thing of listening out loud confusing and cool at the same time, there are so many words that are written and have the same pronunciation, but in reality they have a meaning that has nothing to do with the other. but don't be afraid, portuguese is not a big deal and won't pull your leg at night lmao, having it as a goal is already a step forward. well, whether you projecting or not, it really suits her sooooo. the way she attaches to clint is so genuine, you can see that she admires him as a superhero and the person who inspired her to follow this path, but it goes so much further than that. she's genuinely happy when he says they're working together 🫠 “she doesn't really have anyone else” damn, I just got another free punch. they literally won't admit it, but since you brought this up, I wouldn't mind you talking about kate and yelena's relationship. touch starved kate is so real that's sad lmao.

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dghjksddsgj shut up, i was right, wasn't i? that's clearly what matters here. excuse me, you definitely need to comment on this since you're part of it too, that anon clearly called you out as well.

honestly, it was kind of boring. i totally didn't spend the majority of it replying to your messages or anything. [and before you say anything, it's called multitasking] you should always expect the unexpected, especially when it comes to my writing. after all, much madness is divinest sense, right? exactly, they're both way too attractive and their chemistry is insane. lmao, that's not a horrible idea. does it count as narcissism, though? the multiverse is a crazy thing so yeah, i believe that.

idk, it sounds like you're two sentences away from actually bribing me so👀 you already know my price, i accept stars and compliments it's funny that you're saying this after someone came into my inbox to call me out which clearly means there are people watching. nice try but nope. i'm sure you can figure it out on your own, it's clearly been obvious to all our outside observers.

you're such a bad liar. you didn't have to admit it for me to know that, btw. i'm so glad to hear you very clearly don't care about alpha!kate or the possibility of a part 2 because i'm obviously not seriously considering writing it. since you didn't give me your opinion on an idea i didn't already have, i won't tell you that's exactly what i thinking of doing, just a complete exploration of feelings and the softest version ever of kate. i agree that it's definitely out of the question and i'm not thinking about outlining it and sharing some more thoughts with you about it. not at all. i also won't ask if it should include smut since you clearly don't want a part 2.

you've been doing great without even trying so i don't think you have anything to worry about. yeah, kind of. i usually do it in my head since no one ever know what i'm talking about. you're kind of the exception to that, though which means i probably won't stop. [something something because i could not stop...for Death]

learning english when i was young definitely gave me an impulse to try to learn more languages because if english is weird af and i managed to learn it, what's to stop me from learning more? i also had a lot of free time during the pandemic so i sat down and forced myself to actually try to learn french. [i ironically went to paris without speaking french lmao] i'm always so much better at reading words and understanding them than hearing them spoken out loud. i think portuguese will be the next language i tackle after i get fully comfortable with italian. listen, it's all fun and games until i have to start pronouncing things lmao. i always just default to spanish pronunciations because that's how my brain works. [i also don't want to sound like a gringa, that's embarrassing af] i'm glad you think so. and yeah, i think her attachment to him runs so much deeper than just,"oh, i saw him fighting aliens when i was younger." she doesn't merely idolize him and i think the show tries to touch on it but they always revert back to making kate act like a goof, which again, does fit her personality but only sometimes. sdjgjjgh sorry, it hurts to admit it but kate hides a lot of pain under that cute little smile. i honestly love thinking about what their next meeting would be like. like, would yelena just randomly break into her apartment again and be like "where are the drinks you promised me last time???" i think she would, tbh and i get quite a kick from that idea, especially ‘cause i think kate would turn into an absolute mess lmao.

[trans-xianxian]

at the risk of sounding like a weirdo....i just saw your grocery store post and it looks like a lot of veggie items? are you vegetarian? i'm trying to be but i'm a bit lost when it comes to food (where i live it's very difficult to be anything other than a meat eater lol) so i'm wondering if you could maybe share some of your favorite staples that you consistently get. thank you so much!!

hi anon sorry it took so long for me to answer this! but yes I've been vegetarian for about 13 years now! you said not eating meat is difficult where you live, and I know that what brands are sold where is always different so I'm not sure if these particular things would necessarily be available to you, but in the scope of like. meat substitutes, morningstar and simple truth both make really good stuff, and tofurky is the only good vegetarian sandwich meat I've had lmao

I usually always have veggie burgers and fake chicken strips/nuggets in my house because you can literally just microwave them with little to no additional effort. there's also rlly good fake meat crumbles for things like tacos and such and rlly good veggie sausages

as for vegetarian foods that aren't a substitute for a meat thing tho - baked veggies are rlly good and easy to make! I like cauliflower and brussel sprouts most. you can just stick them in the oven on high heat in a baking pan w oil, salt, and pepper and you're pretty much set. smoothies are also a go to esp in the summer time. I eat a lot of sandwiches too lmao. if you like yogurt that's a rlly good source of protein! cheese is also a good source of protein and easy to add to things. eggs as well if you like those. veggies like spinach, collards, and kale are all rlly good for iron but I don't like most of them 😔

without meat your consistent meal staples are probably going to become potatoes, bread, rice, and pasta/noodles but I'd say potatoes and rice are definitely the most versatile! as for like. full meals my top five (in no particular order) are probably stir fry with tofu, tacos, baked potatoes w side vegetable and/or meat substitute, home made mac n cheese (I can post my recipe if you'd like 😌), and pasta with salad or some kind of roasted vegetable on the side. vegetarian soup is also p easy to make but I don't like most soups (sorry souptuals)

I know that if you're going out to eat a lot of places don't have very good veggie options esp if you live somewhere that doesn't have a lot of vegetarian/vegan people but there's a lot of really good vegetarian lebanese food and I've found that most thai and chinese restaurants will have at least a few good vegetarian things there. diners are also usually a good place to go out to eat if you need vegetarian stuff

it's going to take awhile to get used to and find the food that you like and works for your body esp if you usually eat meat All The Time but after awhile it won't even be something you think about anymore. I know a lot of people will sort of slowly ease into being fully vegetarian by cutting certain kinds of meat out every few weeks or months so that's also something to consider if you think that it would help!

I will also say that it's probably also a good idea to keep an eye on your iron and how your energy levels are. it's really easy to get an iron deficiency if you're vegetarian/vegan especially if you're also someone who gets their period. if it ends up happening it's usually fixable by just taking iron supplements but its an important thing to look out for so it can be handled appropriately if it becomes an issue!

anyway I hope that this was helpful to you and good luck! if anyone else has some suggestions feel free to reply w them I'm a pretty picky eater so the scope of foods I eat is already smaller lmao

[katnissdoesnotfollowback]

i read your outtake of "come on baby light my fire on" and it was pretty biphobic. you should make a quick research before writing something like that. it's fucking offensive. i used to idolize everything you wrote but now i can't even reread again bc i can't see those stories in the same light after that. i talked to my friend, who is bi, and she felt the same way and i realized that the problem was not just me, but how you wrote it. ik you are giving us free content and i really appreciate that, but it was very uncomfortable for me to read something like that

Dear Anon,

I'll confess I've sat on this message for a few days, trying to decide the best way to respond. At first, I considered deleting it and ignoring it completely, but if someone, anyone, even you, reads this and as a result takes the time to think twice before sending a hostile and unproductive message like this to another creator on here, then at least something constructive will come out of your message. Because what exactly was your goal with this?

My second gut response was to lash back at you with "Is being bisexual and married to a heterosexual for fifteen years count as doing enough of a "quick research" for you?" But I'm also aware that's not the best response either for a couple of reasons, beyond the fact that it was a very emotional response to a message that showed up when I was in the midst of dealing with multiple stressors that had nothing to do with fandom.

1. I shouldn't have to parade my sexuality or my personal life out on display as defense of my writing. I shouldn't have to parade it around or share it with strangers on the internet period. It should be my choice when and where and with whom I entrust that piece of my identity. I can easily give you the benefit of the doubt that you didn't know since, as I said, I don't parade it around. It's not announced in my bio, I don't have the bi pride flag plastered over my blog, but... I shouldn't have to do that. I actually despise that I'm telling you this, under these circumstances, but I've not made it a secret on here either. I've said things in posts and tags and replies and in conversations, that several people on here already know or intuited it from tumblr alone. AND again, if you or anyone else reading this learns to stop for one freaking moment and consider the fact that you do not know everything about a creator on the internet, and it is dangerous and cruel to make assumptions that you do know all about them before you send messages like this that could potentially cause harm to an individual, then I am glad to do it for them.

2. I am fully aware that my experience as a bi woman, and those of the people I know and am friends with who have shared there's with me, and all the reading that I've done, does not make me an expert on all things bisexuality. Which means there is always room for me to learn and to grow. Perhaps there was in fact something in my story that could be interpreted as something offensive, and I would be more than willing to listen to your and your friend's concerns, so long as you manage to actually discuss it rather than charge with blazing guns and accusations into my inbox.

What exactly do you define as biphobia? What exactly about that story would you classify as biphobic? You don't bother to say in your message so I'm left guessing. You don't bother to open a dialogue for discussion or learning or growth of any kind. Was it the open communication between Katniss and Peeta? The fact that the story dealt with the fleeting nature of desire versus the strength of commitment? Was it the fact that Peeta had vague lingering feelings that temporarily flared up when confronted with a former crush? Or was it the fact that I wrote it so that Peeta's relationship with said crush included a friendship and mentorship of sorts? Or was it the fact that an established couple felt comfortable enough using those fleeting feelings for some sexual role play? Maybe it's the fact that Katniss went through a consideration of more adventurous and taboo sexual possibilities? Perhaps it was the fact that they didn't handle the situation perfectly, as many human beings tend to do? I don't know. You didn't even give me a chance to figure it out, let alone address it or learn from it.

Because here's the thing, if I can admit that I am not The Expert and All Knowing Judge On What Constitutes Biphobia, and therefore there's room for me to learn and grow, then I'd like to give you the benefit of the doubt and assume that you could as well. Maybe, just maybe, there's something you didn't see that I did, that others of various declared sexualities who have approached me about the same story have applauded. The point is, when you come at a writer in the manner you did here, you leave no room for discussing various viewpoints and perceptions.

I'd like to take a second to point out something else that irks me about your message. You claim to have idolized everything that I've written. First off, stop. Do not idolize fic writers. ANY OF US. We are still human beings and are therefore perfectly fallible. We are going to screw up at some point. It is inevitable. And if fandom responds by deciding that's it, we're done with this person, over one perceived offense or mistake, then no one is going to attempt creation anymore out of total fear.

Furthermore... if you have in fact read and "idolized" everything that I've written, that would include stories that tackle some pretty uncomfortable topics. Stories that involve sex workers, grief, PTSD, trauma, assault, combat and war, abuse, racism, sexism, single parenthood, etc etc etc, several of which I've gotten negative feedback on, some worse than others. I would like to think that I've handled all of those topics with empathy and respect. I'd like to think I've handled comments on those stories with respect as well. Perhaps I haven't. I'm not perfect, after all, but my point is, if you've really read all of those stories where I dive into messy or tricky or... uncomfortable... topics, and you came out the other side with any kind of respect or admiration for me as an author or as a human being, what on earth made you think that the best course of action over this piece was to blaze into my inbox with nothing but accusations and no pathway for discussion?

So again... what did you hope to gain with this message? Have you achieved it? Because if you're really trying to make the world and fandom a better, more open place, then this kind of message right here isn't going to do it. Maybe my story won't either, but since you didn't bother to tell me what was so "fucking offensive" about it, I can't say one way or the other.

I'm going to do something potentially stupid and leave the anonymous option available, just in case you do actually want to have a discussion about this. I won't hold my breath for it, because quite frankly, the tone of your message isn't that of someone I think wants to discuss anything. But if you do want to have a discussion about it, please do so with some kind of mutual respect for the fact that we are both human beings who both come from backgrounds the other cannot possibly fully know or fully understand, and who are both probably dealing with a lot of shit in life that the other one is completely unaware of.

<3 kdnfb

[mittensmorgul]

Incoming sad rant about the spn ending. Don't read if you're not interested in reading something like that, but I literally don't know anyone in real life I can talk about this with, and I really need an outlet:

Sometimes I can put the way SPN ended out of my head and think "it's just a stupid show. I don't have to accept the finale, and the writers/network are wrong." But other times I just get gripped with really intense sadness at the disrespect that was done to my favorite characters. To the point where I'll sit still for hours a day, just wallowing in it. It ruins my whole day and mood. And then I think to myself "I'll just find some other stories that end better!" but then I get sad again, cuz I don't think I will ever love other characters as much as I love Dean and Cas, and then I spiral again thinking about all the potential this unique beautiful love story had, and how we're never going to get the closure we deserve.

I really hate that after all this time, I'm a grown ass adult getting sad over fictional characters. I know it's not that trivial, but I sometimes wish it was so I could get over it 😞

Hi hi, and first of all *socially distanced internet hugs* I’m sorry you don’t have an outlet, but you’re always welcome to chat with me (if you come off anon we can talk privately if you want. My DM’s are always open, even when it takes me a bit to reply. no one should have to feel alone in this.)

I’m actually gonna start at the bottom of your message and work my way up, because I also, as a grown-ass adult, get sad over fictional characters. And I need to emphasize that this is the *point* of fiction. A well-written and developed fictional character is *indistinguishable in our minds from an actual real human being.* The way we react to them *feels exactly the same to our brains and bodies* as how we react to real people, and that’s a testament to just how well developed Dean and Cas were in canon.

I am not a young person. I have engaged with a lot of media over my life, and have *never* felt this strongly about fictional characters before, so I understand what you mean when you struggle to think about finding another story that ended better, or struggle to think about finding other characters you might become this attached to or experience this sort of emotional investment in. And I think there is another factor you didn’t consider there: The vast majority of other media I have engaged with, I was able to relate to on a level of “oh that’s nice for them” or “wow that sucks for them.” I have never, and possibly never will again, feel so utterly invested in fictional characters, to the point where it affects my real life as much as Supernatural has. Period.

I will likely never experience *literal physical lovesickness* over two fictional characters ever again. I hadn’t ever experienced it *in my own real life* before, and yet 15.18 triggered all those symptoms in me. As an aromantic person, this was pretty shocking to me. It also says a lot about just how real these characters feel to us, and how important they have become to us. They make us feel this! This is not an accident. It’s *incredibly difficult* to create fictional characters with this range and depth of emotional connection, and yet here we are.

I think that’s the biggest evidence possibly to present in defense of the statement that THIS IS NOT JUST SOME STUPID SHOW.

Other evidence: this fandom, still going strong after 15 years. Look at every SPN convention for proof. Look at AO3, where there are more posted stories about Dean and Cas than literally any other pairing on the planet (by a not-small margin, too). If that isn’t enough evidence, we have fanart to look at as well. Look through @theroadsofararchive where at the time of this posting there are over 40,000 artworks catalogued, and more being added all the time. Same with @canonspngifs where you can search through through nearly 75,000 gifsets organized by an excellent tagging system and made by dedicated fans out of love for the thing. This is all proof that you are not alone, that so many of us care just as deeply about them as you do. Not even mentioning the people who have written hundreds of millions of words of meta, articles, and even masters theses and doctoral dissertations on Supernatural and the fandom. This is a unique thing, even within the larger fandom culture. Don’t ever let anyone tell you that your feelings for it are stupid or irrelevant or wrong.

But also don’t let anyone try to convince you that you must accept the finale as part of the story if you don’t want to. Don’t even let *yourself* believe that if you don’t want to. This show has done more to play with the themes of “what is reality” and “who gives a story meaning” and alternate universes and curses and djinn dreams to easily account for whatever the heck the finale was.

my current go-to theory: everything after Chuck’s defeat takes place in the Mockumentary Alternate Universe... it fits way too uncomfortably well... and then I just apply the fic I received in a cosmic transmission from the actual supernatural universe wrote detailing the events of what *I* hoped would transpire afterward. I know this doesn’t work for everyone, but it works for me, mostly because it *has* to. It means far too much to me not to.

You are not alone in having invested yourself into this story, and these characters. Your feelings about them are not wrong or stupid or frivolous. And the proof is everyone else who feels the same exact way, who connected to this story (and to each other through this story), and whose lives have been forever altered through this journey together. The fact that Dabb turned out to have been Chuck Junior and couldn’t see (or was prevented from showing us) what Team Free Will would’ve chosen to do with that after defeating their original creator just stands to prove to me that the finale can’t possibly be The Truth, you know?

I don’t know if any of this will help you, or provide you some small comfort right now, but maybe it will eventually. We’re all processing the loss of the show and the abject failure of story that was the finale in different ways, and I’m sure our emotional reactions will shift over time. It was just A Lot to process all in the span of a few incredibly emotional weeks-- not even mentioning how all of that emotional response was compounded by the american elections and surrounding nonsense, the general stress of enduring a global pandemic and all that entails, and *waves hands around broadly at everything else contributing to the trauma occurring in the collective of humankind right now.* We’ve all been emotionally compromised, so be kind to yourself in how you feel you’re coping with it all.

And know that no matter what, you are not alone in how you’re feeling. The grief is real, and our brains don’t care if it’s felt for fictional characters or real people. This was honestly a once in a lifetime experience for a lot of us, and not even the wtf of the finale can kill it for us if we don’t let it. I reject that particular piece of rusty rebar and choose to believe in a just and narratively coherent resolution. To do anything less feels like dishonoring the story and characters who have drawn me in and made me feel so much for them over the years. If the story itself couldn’t honor them properly, then I can choose to do so myself.

<3

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Waaaiiiitt I'm dumb and realized missed the word prompt part before requesting, same anon who requested something with Wels and Hels,, if it's still open maybe that request with the word "injured" or "sick"?

No worries, I was gonna write something soft with Hels and Wels even without a specific word! I just love these two so much asdfghjkl

Requests are still open! See this post for details.

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  Wels dodges a strike from his counterpart’s sword and parrys with one of his own. Hels blocks it and kicks Wels away from him. 

  “You’ve been practising,” Wels observes. 

  “Yeah, so what?” Hels demands. “You kicked my ass last time.”

  “Good of you to admit that.”

  “Shut up.” 

  Grinning to himself, Wels pretends to charge again but dodges under Hels’s arm and takes off running towards his house, which he can see about fifty blocks below him in the valley.  

  “Hey!” Hels shouts from behind him. “Come back!”

  “Come catch me!” Wels shouts back over his shoulder. 

  He can’t help a childish giggle as he hears Hels swear and take off after him. After all the angst surrounding their first few meetings, it feels good to mess with his counterpart a little. 

  However, after only a few seconds, he hears a scream from behind him. He spins around and finds Hels nowhere to be seen. Frowning, he looks around and then moves closer to the cliff and peers down. 

  His heart jumps as he spots Hels lying on the ground at the base of the cliff. He jumps off and activates his elytra, soaring down and landing safely a few blocks away. 

  Hels has sat up but his left leg is bent at a worrying angle and he’s groaning softly. 

  “Hels?” Wels says worriedly. “Are you alright? What happened?”

  “I decided to jump off a cliff because I’m STUPID,” growls Hels. “What do you think happened?”

  Wels moves closer, hands outstretched ready to help. “Your leg looks broken. Here, let me-.”

  “Leave me alone,” Hels snaps. “I can take care of myself.”

  Raising his hands, Wels steps back and turns away. He crosses his arms, listening as Hels gets to his feet and tries to take a single step, before crashing back down to the ground. 

  A pause follows this sound. 

  “...Wels?”

  A smile slowly spreads across Wels’s face as he turns. “Yes?”

  Even under the helmet, Hels’s red cheeks are clearly visible. “Can you… um…” He clears his throat awkwardly. “Can you pass me something to lean on?”

  “Like what?” Wels spreads his arms, gesturing to the grassy landscape around them. “I’d welcome any suggestions.”

  “Fine. I might need a bit of help getting up. Are you happy?”

  “Whose help?” Wels asks innocently. 

  Hels scowls at him. “You really are gonna make me beg, aren’t you?”

  “Not beg,” responds Wels calmly. “Just ask nicely.”

  “I hate you.”

  “Okay.” Wels shrugs and starts walking away.

  “Wait, wait!” Hels’s voice cracks audibly. “W-Will you help me? P… P-Please?”

  Wels immediately turns back and heads to Hels’s side. He lets Hels put his arm over his shoulder and lifts him to his feet, making sure to avoid bumping Hels’s injured leg. “Come, this way.”

  He guides Hels to one of his empty cottages and takes him inside. After helping Hels empty his already half-empty inventory, he lays Hels down on the bed in the corner. 

  “Can I look at your leg?” Wels asks. 

  After a moment, Hels sulkily crosses his arms and nods. 

  Wels carefully slides off Hels’s boot and rolls up his trouser leg. He winces at the sight of the state of Hels’s leg. “Oof. It looks bad, but it’s definitely not broken.”

  “It feels like it,” Hels responds.

  As Wels sets about tending to it, he glances briefly at Hels. “You sound very calm for someone whose leg is half-broken.”

  “I’m used to pain,” responds Hels simply. 

  “Really? I’d like to think I am too, but I’d still be an utter mess if my leg was snapped in half.”

  “My leg’s snapped in half?!” yelps Hels, trying to sit up.

  Wels shakes his head amusedly and pushes him back down. “No, it’s a figure of speech.”

  “Oh.” Hels huffs. “I hate you.”

  “No, you don’t.”

  Hels doesn’t respond to this.

  Wels continues treating Hels’s leg and is eventually able to wrap a splint around it. “There you go. That should be enough for now. Seems it was a clean break, so it should heal within a week.” 

  “A week?!” Hels’s eyes widen in alarm. “What am I gonna do while it heals?”

  “Stay here,” says Wels, as if it’s obvious. “You’re not in any danger, you know.” 

  Hels sighs and folds his arms. “Fine.” 

  In the ensuing silence, Wels’s eye is drawn to the table where Hels has left his things. “Whoa, this is one battered flint and steel.”

  Hels turns his head away and mumbles something that Wels can’t quite hear. “What?”

  His counterpart reluctantly raises his voice slightly. “It’s the one you gave me when we got trapped in that pit.”

  Wels stares at him. “Really? You kept it all this time?”

  “Um… yeah, of course. It’s a useful tool. And I had no way of making another one, so…”

  He falls silent. Both he and Wels know this isn’t the true reason he’s held onto it this long. 

  At that moment, Wels’s communicator goes off. He takes it out and looks at it. “Ah, hold on a sec. I gotta take this. I’ll be right back.”

  Before Hels can respond, Wels darts out of the house, closing the door behind him. 

  Hels settles down in the bed. He hasn’t had a soft place like this to sleep for a very long time, so it’s hard not to succumb to his exhaustion. But he can’t let himself do that yet. He doesn’t feel safe yet. 

  Minutes go by. Then half an hour. An hour.

  “Wels?” Hels calls. “Are you… out there?”

  He gets no reply. 

  “Wels?” Hels cries out, his heartrate accelerating as he realises he’s on his own. “Wels!”

  Nobody responds. He’s alone. 

  Hels buries his face in his hands, trying his hardest to stop the tears in his eyes from escaping. “Wels!” he wails one last time.

  “What’s wrong?!”

  Hels looks sharply up to find Wels rushing through the doorway. “O-Oh.” Hels aggressively wipes his eyes, more than a little embarrassed. “I thought… I thought you’d left me.”

  “Why would I do that?” asks Wels in confusion. “I said I’d be right back.”

  “Yeah, well, that’s what everyone says,” Hels mutters. “Then they don’t come back.”

  Wels gives him a sympathetic look. “Is your dimension really that bad?”

  “I believe I once told you that it’s every person for themselves back in my dimension. Things haven’t changed a bit. If you get hurt, you either die or your recovery takes long enough for people to steal everything you’ve got. Anyone who offers to help you will abandon you to be killed or robbed sooner or later. Usually sooner.” 

  “You know that’s not what we’re like here, though, right?” says Wels gently, sitting down on the edge of the bed. “If you get hurt or sick, you can always come to me. In fact, please do. I’d much rather spend a few days taking care of you than you be out there on your own, in danger from mobs. Please do remember that you won’t respawn if you die.”

  After a moment, Hels gives a quiet sigh. “I still don’t understand why you care about me. We’re not related, we’re not even friends.”

  “You’re a part of me, Hels. But even if you weren’t, I still wouldn’t abandon you when you’re in need of help. It’s against a knight’s code of honour.”

  “Honour, huh?” Hels considers this for a moment. “That’s very you.”

  Wels chuckles. “Thanks. I think. Anyway, you’d better get some rest. Feel free to use this cottage as long as you need to. In fact, you can use it whenever.” 

  He takes out a small key from his pocket and places it among Hels’s things. “Here’s the key. Use it as a refuge for whenever you need it.”

  Hels stares at him in shock. “Wh-Why would you give that to me?”

  “Because I’m not using this place for anything else and you could do with a place you can come where you know you’ll be safe. You can also leave anything you like in here and it’ll be safe for when you come back.”

  “Are you asking me to move in here?” asks Hels slowly. “Like, to live here?”

  Wels shrugs. “Maybe. All I’m really saying is the place is yours to do with what you like. You don’t have to accept if you don’t want to. I just wanted to offer it to you.” 

  He approaches his counterpart and gives his shoulder a friendly squeeze. “Get some rest. I’ll come check on you before I go to bed.”

  Hels blinks as Wels heads towards the door. “Thank you,” he blurts out, before he can stop himself.

  Wels turns back briefly and smiles. “You’re welcome.”

  With that, he leaves the cottage, and Hels is alone again.

  But this time, Hels doesn’t feel scared. His counterpart’s kindness has ensured that he is safe, warm, and cared for. He looks around the room — HIS room — and settles down in the bed — HIS bed. This is his cottage now. He has a place to live, a place to belong. Every time he leaves an encounter with Wels, he thinks things can’t possibly change any more. And yet, they do. 

  Wels really, really does care about him. 

  And perhaps Hels cares about Wels too.