#But hoping this was a legitimately interested question- I hope I was able to help clear up the matter!!!

[tb3ih]

A TEST OF ANGUISH (pt. 4), kamisato ayato/reader

SYNOPSIS… they love is not for the weak of heart OR KAMISATO AYATO has more buried in his rib cage than he lets on. 

⋆   warnings, kamisato ayato & fem-presenting!reader, a smidge of confrontation, pain pain pain. ⋆   notes, ayato is actually an allusion to my ex lmaooo.

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YOUR fingers are gentle as you thread them through sora’s hair, carefully threading the strands together until it’s a braided crown of blue. you’ve just finished tucking in the last bits of hair into her braid when you see the coloring; it’s faint, but her light blue has begun to shift to a deeper indigo at her roots. 

“okaasan, am i pretty yet?” her light indigo irises are fixed on you through the reflecting vanity mirror. sora had sensed your halt in motion, her smile innocent and inquiring. 

you bring an easy smile to your lips, pressing a gentle kiss to her hair before reassuring her. “you have always been the most beautiful to me.” your hands move to adjust to the collar of her formal dress, the light purple blossoms peeking out just over her shoulders. you had this dress made just before you left the kamisato estate, hopeful that she might be able to wear it during summer festivities rather than a trial between two dominant clans. 

a reality which you seem to be so detached from as of late. 

it had been a couple months since you’ve moved out of your old residence, a decision you made in the best interest of you and your daughter, and yet you can’t help the strange welling in your heart at the thought of having to set foot inside once more. 

a house once full of unity, now harboring distrust and tension, you had no choice to bring sora back to it. as the sole heir to the hayashi matriarch and the only child of the head of the yashiro commission, sora could not be absent. 

“sora,” you begin, “i just want you to know… that, uhm…” there’s a lump in your throat and something tickles at your tear ducts. your daughter turns to face you on her chair, her smaller hands coming to cup around your face as her expression fills with worry. “i’m alright, flower, no need to worry.” you bring a hand to place on hers, thumb rubbing softly against the back of her hand in comfort.

“after today, if somethings don’t go the way i planned,” you explain, “i don’t want you to think for even a second that i don’t love you. not ever.” the thought of having to give her up had been tormenting you the past few weeks after the elders had brought into question succession for both clans with the continuance of a divorce. 

between the yashiro commission and the hayashi clan, there was only one legitimate heir. and you’re sure everyone who was anyone in the room would want a claim to your sora. 

“everything will be alright as long as i’m with mama,” sora replies quietly, offering a soft smile. there was absolutely nothing you wouldn’t do for this little girl. 

you press a soft kiss to her forehead. “let’s hope that never changes.”

holding her hand in yours, the two of you leave the room, making it down the hall to the grand room where the most important meetings are held. the few elders which had gathered outside the door lower their gazes and bow, offering you their respects. The guards outside the door stand in position of salute, only moving back to a position of attention when you nod. 

there are whispers among the few which you pass on your way towards the doors, their voices hushed but not quiet enough for you to miss. 

“a pity the yashiro commission has to incur such a loss over a petty issue,” one criticizes. 

“you’d think as a matriarch she’d be more understanding and mature,” the other replies. “it seems ridiculous to stage such a trial between clans, no?”

sora looks up at you with confusion in her eyes, and you simply bring a soft smile to your face, shaking your head in dismissal. “you pay them no mind, flower.” you stop just before the doors, your free hand coming to signal to the door keepers. “vermin who mooch off of their diluted family ties hold no opinion in the court of nobility.”

there are some hushed gasps behind you and you see your daughter giggle, the doors coming to open before you to reveal a larger room of gathering nobles. directly in front of you at the grand table, kamisato ayato sits beside his younger sister, an image of placid indifference reflected in his figure. 

the elders seated in the room took to their feet, offering a bow of acknowledgement as you approached the room. ayato was delayed in his response, standing moments later and offering a deep bow. 

you bowed in response, sinking deeply before returning back to your full height. Akane appeared at your side at once, ushering sora to the side seats where she could sit but remain in proximity to you. 

“matriarch of the hayashi clan, i, kamisato ayato, head of the kamisato clan, greet you humbly. regardless of the outcome, i wish all good intentions during this trial.” his voice is smooth and courteous, but void of any emotion, yet another twist to the knife in your heart. 

“i, hayashi y/n, head of the hayashi clan, wish you well in this fair trial and hope you accept the ruling without protest,” you reply, smile soft and polite. 

you see his jaw tick at this, a feeling of satisfaction settling deep in your bones. 

when the doors open one final time, it is everyone’s turn to bow, for the raiden shogun comes waltzing in, voice calm and level when she asks, “shall we get started then?”

"SHE was born on the kamisato estate, by natural laws she is the kamisato clan’s right!” an elder at the table, whom you recognize to be one of the most senior among those gathered from the opposing party. she only ever liked the number on the profit amount your marriage brought her. “this is inarguably–”

one of the elders from your side stands from his chair, violet eyes seething at the remark. “inarguable? it was not in the contractual agreement!” 

the air is tense with anger, confusion, and stubbornness, all of which you remain aware of yet quiet. your eyes are trained on your husband, his eyes also never leaving yours since the moment the both of you sat down. 

it isn’t until the raiden shogun speaks do the two of you avert your eyes to her. “why are the lot of you discussing the little girl as if she’s a mere object? Have you any respect for the child?” her violet eyes are narrowed and gaze is pointed, as if to pierce straight through anyone who might answer her conjecture incorrectly. 

“n-no, almighty s-shogun–” 

another elder stands, trembling before the archon. “please, we didn’t mean any insolence–”

“and yet,” raiden continues, “i have yet to hear anything remotely negotiable in the past two hours i’ve been stuck sitting in this chair. tell me, have you any idea what the girl is like? taken the time to understand who sora is?”

at this, ayato flinches, the question itself more indirectly intended for him. 

“it is true that by natural law sora is entitled to the kamisato clan,” raiden begins, the faces of all those in favor of the aforementioned clan lighting up in delight, “but after further examination of the justification for the divorce, it would seem that she is, inarguably, the rightful heir to the hayashi clan.”

protest begins to break out amongst the elders and you feel the heat clawing at the back of your throat, the tickle of electricity in the air as everyone begins to overwhelm you. before you can react, there is a burst of blue, water form the shape of blades pointed at every elder in the room. 

“all of you, hush!” it is your husband, hands clenched on the table and expression tight with rage. “had it not been for any of you, we would never be in this mess to begin with!”

the room is silent but for the ticking of the clock. his words ring through your head, a mixture of confusion and anger swirling in the pit of your stomach. 

“the elders?” your voice is just barely a whisper. “i spent nearly a decade wasting away in a loveless marriage and you want to blame the elders?!” 

your husbands eyes are wide when they meet yours, his mouth open as if his words were not meant to be his. 

you laugh coldly. “i knew you were a low creature, but i had never thought you to be pathetic enough to continue blaming everyone but yourself–”

“i do blame myself! i am the only one i blame!” ayato’s eyes are a mix of desperate blue and you’re not sure what to think of it. “i sleep alone and walk past empty rooms where you and sora used to play. i sit at an empty table where we used to eat. i waste away in a home of ghost and absent memories, do not tell me that i do not blame myself!”

“then where were you?” you think he’s unbelievable. “where. were. you? i brought her into this world alone. she received her vision without you. her first summer festival, without you. archons, ayato! where were you?!”

“i thought you hated me!”

“you’re the one who told me we were married for politics!”

“because i wanted you to hurt!”

“why?”

“because i love you!” he is huffing and attempting to catching his breath. he runs his hands through his hair frustratedly, looking around at the room of eyes all on him. lowering his voice, he continues, “from the moment i met you, i loved you, and i have never felt like i was enough and thought of bringing you anything but happiness did terrible things to me.”

you swallow the lump inn your throat. “so you abandoned me?”

he can’t meet your eyes. “i felt if you were too close, you might discover the worst of me. that maybe if you–”

“no. no, ayato, don’t be cruel,” you interrupt, shaking your head. You will not hear any of this. you stand from your chair, a look of anguish on your face when you meet those beautiful cerulean irises. “you have no right to say that.” 

he stands too, hand almost reaching towards you. “my dearest–”

“no!” your voice cracks and you pick up the skirt of your dress, back up towards the doors which you came in. “you can curse at me, insult me, do your worst, but you have no right to plead your love to me!”

sora stands from her chair and comes running to you, her small hands clasping at yours. you gather her in your arms, ordering the guards to open the doors. you turn to face your husband who, having rushed from the other side of the table, stands just meters away from you. 

“you are a cruel man, kamisato ayato.” your eyes are sharp with hatred, your expression twisted with pain. you bow in acknowledgement to the raiden shogun, who nods back. you meet the gazes of all the elders in the room before replying, “this trial is over, i will hear no more of your grievances.”

and you turn and run. you escape. you leave with sora in your arms your past on your tail.

because love shouldn’t hurt. it shouldn’t.

part 1 | part 2 | part 3 | part 5 (coming soon!)

© tb3ih mmxxiv all rights reserved.

[poetry-protest-pornography]

Okay, here's some Mafia Wife Tonkla thoughts.

I have an idea for an AU that diverges from canon very early that I've been thinking about for a couple weeks, but this one hit me tonight and I had to type it up. I'll get the other one written in the next day or two, but please enjoy this:

(ao3 here)

Canon verse where they escape, and move out of Bangkok. It's a near miss with Win, and even after learning that Tonkla shot Great, almost losing Tonkla is so terrifying that Korn is sure that if he hadn't pulled Tonkla just that little bit to the left, if he’d been a half a breath slower, if Tonkla had died, that he would have taken his own life immediately after. Tonkla has been his reason for everything since college, without him, Korn has nothing to live for. 

So he forgives him (Great is out of the woods now, and Korn is so, so grateful and relieved; he loves his brother more than anything – anything except for Tonkla. He hopes he gets to hug his brother again, and scold him for smoking, and tell him he's sorry, but he needs Tonkla to breathe. He's not proud of it, but he won't deny Tonkla ever again).

Korn has the money and the phone with the contacts, and a list of burner identities. 

They get a modest house, trying to stay under the radar. Tonkla gets therapy to deal with Dome’s death, they work on their communication; Korn apologizes a lot. He apologizes until Tonkla tells him to stop, because he's already forgiven (it takes a lot, but not as much as it probably should, because Tonkla needs Korn just as much as Korn needs him.) They get a cast, and then another one to keep the first one company.

After they've been settled for a while – decorated the house and had a frankly absurd amount of sex (no condoms, finally. Tonkla is thrilled and Korn has developed a probably unhealthy come kink as a result of that enthusiasm) – they have a discussion about what they're going to do now.

Tonkla could do the programming and design that he used to do, Korn could get a management job easily, and they could make a comfortable, quiet life. 

Only, the phone is in a lockbox in a  drawer in their closet, it's the only thing in it.

Tonkla is the one who brings it up. Korn is… not sure he can do it. He was only ever interested in the actual business part of his family business. The illegal stuff was a surprise, and he only tried so hard to make it work because of he did well and got to take over from his dad, he could finally be with Tonkla properly.

Tonkla thinks it's cute, really, how Korn thinks that he would suggest that Korn give being a criminal another shot. He was not cut out for the violence necessary to running a criminal enterprise.

But Tonkla knows he is.

Korn is very resistant to the idea, but Tonkla gets really honest and confesses that the violence makes him feel powerful. After growing up on the other side of it, being the one to enact it is liberating. He isn't exactly proud of it, but he isn't ashamed either; he was able to free himself and his brother from their father's wrath, and he was able to avenge Dome when someone with more power aimed their rage at him and took him from Tonkla. 

(He has mostly forgiven Great, felt enough remorse that he doesn't have to lie to Korn about being sorry. It helps that he knows Great was just too spineless and selfish at the time to try to help Some. It also helps that turned himself in and he's being prosecuted.)

Korn accepts his confession without question, holds him while he says his piece, and is still holding him after. Korn tells him that there's nothing he could say that would make him leave, or love him any less. And then he proves it by going to their closet, getting the lockbox with the phone, and presenting it to Tonkla with a simple “Where do you think we should start?”

They go through the phone, and figure out who's who with a little bit of Korn’s knowledge, some careful internet searching and minor hacking to confirm dirty dealings.

They decide on the legitimate business first. They need to avoid anything related to what his family used to do, but Korn is confident is his ability to run any type of company, and they decide to start with a medium sized supply operation to get established. They but a space and get up and running before they make any phone calls.

They quickly find that a lot of Korn’s family's contacts are eager for a new way to launder their money. 

They've decided that they don't want to get involved with anyone who is in a business that exploits poor people – Korn remembers Nan and her story, and he doesn't want to pay people who could do what his parent's people did to her friend. And Tonkla's enjoyment of violence only really hits when it's committed against someone who thinks they're important and powerful. 

So, they choose people who mostly fuck over other rich people. Businessmen who manufacture subpar products that the wealthy love to buy to show off their wealth, construction companies who use legal loopholes to shirk responsibilities to their investors, and the like. They do a lot of corporate scavenging and acquisition, taking good fronts from bad people and scooping up their related criminal empires in the deal. Tonkla likes cleaning house after, getting rid of employees on either end who don't fall in line with their “company policy”.

Korn is in fact very good at running a company, and Tonkla enjoys the occasional opportunity for murder that presents itself. Sometimes, they hire someone that they know is going to fuck up, just because Tonkla can feel the itch for it (his first cat still appears to him sometimes, and so he tells Korn, who finds him someone despicable to deal with.)

Their business grows – both the legal one and the illegal one. The more upstanding criminals like working with them because they keep their hands relatively clean, and also because they occasionally take out their competition in the business or criminal world.

They're an even better team than they thought they'd be. Korn is respected and feared in the business world, and Tonkla is feared and respected in the criminal underworld. 

Once, some rich asshole whose daddy let them run a business negotiation tried to screw them over, and then made the mistake of threatening Korn with a fancy gun that he barely knew how to hold. Tonkla has his hand skewered to the conference table with a knife before he can aim it properly, and he leaves with one less finger and a signed contract that heavily favors Korn’s business interests.

He's even generous enough to let him take him the finger with him, since he was so agreeable after he stopped screaming. 

It isn't the last time it happens, but it doesn't happen often. 

Korn finds his motivation for violence when Tonkla gets shot. 

Tonkla was visiting one of their warehouses, checking on operations and inspecting a shipment when an employee who they later discovered had been bribed attacked Tonkla. They struggled with the gun, and in the struggle a bullet hit Tonkla's arm.

Korn has been waiting in the car, as it was meant to be a quick visit – he still didn't have the stomach for the more creative violence that Tonkla gets up to, but he does love watching him intimidate and occasionally beat someone up, but this was supposed to take twenty minutes, tops – after twenty five minutes have passed, he gets a weird feeling and goes to see what's holding him up, only to arrive just as the gun goes off.

He registers the crack of the gun. He registers Tonkla falling to the ground. He registers blood.

The next thing he registers is Tonkla's hand on his shoulder, and his voice telling him “You can stop now, baby”. He realizes very quickly that he is straddling the other man’s legs, and that his hands are covered in blood. The man is still and unrecognizable under the damage Korn has done. His hands are shaking.

Tonkla is looking at him with a look that absolutely should not be on his face while they're both covered in blood, but makes Korn feel an answering spark nonetheless. They fall into a filthy kiss, and it isn't until Tonkla goes to wrap his arms around Korn and his wound screams that either of them realize what they're doing. 

Korn freaks out while Tonkla reassures him over and over that he's fine, it's barely a graze, but Korn takes them immediately to their personal doctor. Tonkla makes arrangements to take care of the body on the way, they hold hands the whole drive.

They do a very careful revaluation of all their people after. 

Korn does reconnect with Great, it's awkward, at first, to have family dinner with Great and Tyme and him and Tonkla, but they all avoid taking about the less than legal things that their involved in, even though Korn has been honest about what they're doing, and it's honestly better than it used to be when their parents were around. 

They get properly married – well, their game identities do – and it feels like Korn has finally fulfilled his promise from all those years ago.

Their marriage is celebrated by their legal business associates, and somehow makes their reputation in the criminal underworld more terrifying, but mostly it makes them very, very happy.

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I am still very obsessed with this idea, please continue to yell about it with me.

Read on ao3 here

[desultory-novice]

There's two things about Dark Meta Knight’s reputation that I just can't understand. One is the Sectonia corruption thing. I just can’t, like, believe it happened that way? (And you know me. I’m usually very open to wild theories.)

It feels to me like suggesting Galacta Knight was responsible for Marx’s mad ambitions because Galacta was that game’s secret boss and also involved with Galactic Nova! (If, however, you happen to legitimately think Galacta Knight was responsible for Marx, please lemme know your HC. I wanna hear 'em!)

The other thing, and I think this mostly surrounds the Sectonia corruption thing(?) is that DMK is some entity of pure evil that's just cosplaying as Meta Knight? 

Dark Meta Knight IS Meta Knight's shadow. He’s literally Meta Knight with the limiters taken off. He's not “EVIL” Meta Knight. He is what lurks inside Meta Knight brought to the forefront, whereas all that makes up our Meta Knight is pushed to the background. Heck, Dark Meta Knight probably knows perfectly well how to be chivalrous and heroic and helpful, but he's as interested in that as Meta Knight is in throwing another military coup.

They're both really so much more interesting when you accept that they are mirror images of each other. It's literally built in to the lore!! XD

I have a lot of HC about the Mirror World being in general more brutal and chaotic than the main verse (”brutal” in a Kirby way, of course) and that DMK is mostly a distant, unfriendly, pragmatic veteran of the “stabs first asks questions later” variety. He’s seen his world’s monarch get corrupted by MULTIPLE cosmic horrors and is not even sure if he’s still IN there anymore, meanwhile, the person who was supposed to be his world’s shining star of hope grew weak without the support of his friends, becoming a coward and a sneak (at least when TAM is going on.) Shadow Kirby is unable to stand up to the evil that has been corrupting their world even if they wanted too. 

No wonder DMK himself lost to Dark Mind.(1)

That he’s still kind of an aggressive, stabby-person after their world was saved I attribute to “lived this way so long he’s not sure how to stop” syndrome. Do you realize both how cute and how sad it is that he’s only able to (badly) draw his sword in the Wave 2 pic? He’s asked to be creative and he can’t THINK of anything except fighting anymore.

:holds DMK gently:

...Of course then I go and make my DMK mute so he can’t defend himself or express what he’s going through to anyone except Meta Knight. (And the more empathic characters/anyone else they taught their sign language to.) Oops! XD

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(1) I also HC that DMK wasn’t being an idiot when he entered the main verse and attacked Kirby, splitting him into multiple copies. For one, he obviously didn’t split Meta Knight into copies when he attacked HIM, so that mirror refraction thing he does is not a power he has no control over.

I think that he purposefully made 3 extra Kirbys, each equally strong as the first, and lured them into the Mirror World, goading them on further and further, using the mystery of “what happened to Meta Knight.” (Notice how he doesn’t go out of his way to stop Meta Knight from interfering? Nor does he try to kill him once he’s got him trapped in the mirror.) 

HIs goal? Dark Mind may have been his “master” but I think he WANTED Kirby to fight Dark Mind. To beat him.

I think his duel with Kirby serves the same purpose as Meta Knight’s duel with Kirby in Adventure. Meta Knight had to know about Nightmare from Dedede, so why did he fight Kirby? To TEST him. DMK did the same thing. “You’re not getting past here unless you prove you can defeat me.” (”Because I couldn’t stop him and if you have to be stronger than me to stand a chance.”)

Frankly, I think the fact that DMK risked death/shattering in that fight makes HIM the mirror world’s hero. Its jerkass hero, but still a hero.

[diagonal-queen]

Nikolai and Fyodor with s/o who is opposite of their personalities 👉👈

ooooooooo cute cute cute!!!! awh

An S/O who has their opposite personality

♡ pairing: Mykola Hohol, Fyodor Dostoyevsky x gn!Reader

♡ synopsis: How are these guys with a partner who has a personality that contrasts theirs?

♡ cw: Fyodor is kinda toxic (I love him as much as you do!! But be real here, it's Fyodor)

note: While writing this, it turned somewhat into a yandere thing so I had to backtrack a little lol, I might write some yandere hcs sometime though. Apologies for errors and I hope you enjoy x

Mykola:

~ Reader is shy, soft-spoken, genuine and feels as if they're lacking direction.

Mykola can't seem to stay away from you. He just wants to spend every moment by your side- for your sake of course!

He loooooves to mess with people with more chill than him (you and Sigma are probably good friends in this scenario)

Because you don't really like to draw too much attention to yourself, he just does it for you! (you can protest all you like- he won't let up)

He did the whole 'don't heed the words of a clown' routine with you, but you continued to ask him questions about philosophy and life and stuff, his interest in you will continue to grow. His curiosity prompted him to continue seeing you and voila! Couple moment

He will be the 'they asked for no pickles' boyfriend for SURE, partially to help you but also maybe to annoy you a bit too lol

He's always doing his best to make you feel good about yourself and trying to help you become more assertive. Is it working? Not really- he's kind of a really really bad example, but we love him nonetheless

You've probably legitimately had to bail him out of trouble several times in the past (in this relationship you're the sensible one)

If you snitch to Fyodor he might help you discipline Mykola just a bit. But I mean Fyodor's kind of an enabler, so you're mostly on your own for that

Fyodor:

~ Reader is maternal, gentle, naive and very trusting.

Fyodor doesn't usually tend to like people like you, or so he thinks (he's madly in love with you- get GOT Dostoy!!)

He takes it on himself to be your protector- as cynical about humans as he is, he's concocted this idea that if he's not there to keep you safe, you'll get hurt.

In a way he kinda starts to see you as the epitome of innocence in humankind. You're so sweet and wouldn't hurt a fly, and that fact really begins to grow on him

Fyodor will also be the 'they asked for no pickles' boyfriend because you're too nice to say anything, but he doesn't accept anything less than the best for you

He'd never admit this but he really loves that you take care of him and makes sure he's eating and sleeping enough. He thinks it's really cute and appreciates it a lot

Wouldn't tell you about his work at all. At least about the terrorism part of it anyway lmao

Because of your naivety he would probably take the chance to be rather controlling and manipulative. He'd have a hand in where you go, what you do and who you're friends with, all without you realising it. He really is just that cautious

If anyone dares to be rude to you or hurt you, even you might not be able to convince him to not commit murder.

sorry to everyone whose reqs i haven't completed yet </3 i love you and i'm thinking of you i promise. thanks @arsonistclown for this req!!

[p1xiemeat]

I noticed you haven't been as active on social media as you were even a few months ago.. is there any reason? I hope ur okay🖤

aw thank you for checking up on me🥺 honestly i've been struggling on and off with my mental health and trying to find medication that works. i've had it switched a couple times recently and even had a super bad reaction to one that landed me in a mental hospital. (well it was a combination of medication and other stuff.)

i think ive finally found one that works but as most psyche meds do, they've been making me act different. i've grown a bit tired of the kind of content i've been making for a long time now. my interests haven't changed at all. i still have the same interests, i'm just bored of the way i've been presenting them and myself if that makes sense😂

idk if bored is the right word. the "aesthetic"/overall vibe of my social media usually reflects the way i feel. and right now when i log on i see all the things i like but its presented in a way that doesn't feel like myself. its still me but i think in the last couple months i've grown a lot now that i've actually taken steps to learn about my newly diagnosed autism and started getting legitimate help for my bipolar disorder.

what it really comes down to is i just need to organize my brain and my pages on here a lot. i plan on revamping my tumblr and all my other social media to fit how i'm currently feeling. but i just haven't felt like doing it because the smallest tasks like that have reaaally been draining me mentally. it fucking sucks. but its been a lot better since i've had a bit of time to adjust to all the changes i've made for myself.

so i'm thinking i'll probably do a big "update" to all my social media either within the next few days or soonish lol sorry its taken me so long to answer ur anon. like i said, i've been mentally exhausted for a long time now and i just didnt know what the problem was until i was able to start thinking more clearly. having bipolar disorder is so difficult. because its both mania and depression. and it makes it extremely difficult to organize my thoughts when i'm struggling. idk if "regular" ppl deal with that but its always been an issue for me.

my content will most likely still be the same. i just might start adding some new stuff here and there and incorporate a lot of the new styles and aesthetics i've been into as of late. and perhaps diversify my content a bit too, because i have a lot of interests and fascinations with many things that i don't even post about online! 🥰

i hope i was able to give u an answer in the least confusing way possible. i'm terrible at explaining things. especially about myself😂 hence why most of the questions i answer always end up being paragraphs 😭

[zu-is-here]

Zu I'm curious!!! How well do you think a relationship with Killer and Dust (Murder) would work?

In fact, their dynamics may be perceived in different ways, depending on how you see them on their own and in pair (｀_´)ゞ

I believe they can work the best together in a rather platonic way by helping each other <3

In this mutual assistance, there's not so much self-interest [attempt to take advantage of each other] as simple partner solidarity [trying to always stay afloat] ☆

They also have no legitimate reason to set each other up or try to get rid of the other cause that would mean: a) more work for themselves or b) a new partner to build a relationship with (may be failed).

Being part of the gang, they don't have the right to lose control so often (to be weak, Nightmare would say) cause they don't need problems — and expulsion would be a problem :')

So the only weakness they could afford for each other is the small gestures of mutual support, mostly away from prying eyes and when it really is necessary (úwù)

It might have started with a tit-for-tat relationship for sure, but I lean more towards the kind of inadvertent humanity that is so rare for them, so embarrassing to talk about, yet so desirable to the remnants of hope in their souls. ♡

P. S. Another question is what they will do when they (hypothetically) no longer need help. How would they explain the need for each other against the backdrop of affection? And would they be able to admit it (to themselves in the first place)?

[multiplicity-positivity]

Traumagenic system here!! This is a genuine question, not meant to be a jab or anything!! We are fairly new to the online side of plurality, and often see servers or blogs either not welcome endogenic [?] systems, or they will ask YOU if you support them and if you do you arent welcome. My response has been that we will support them IF there is legitimate sources backing the possibility of their exsistance, simply because 1, that is true we will and 2, because we dont know much about them? NOW THE QUESTION!! um do you have any source that is backed where we could read about other types of systems that ARENT traumagenic? we saw people say there ARE these sources, so we genuinely would love to read them and were wondering if you have any!!

not many as of yet, though there’s a study aiming for 2024 completion that is examining multiplicity without trauma in young people. we’re excited to view the results of this study! there’s also this one interesting and legitimate article on paromancy (called tulpamancy in the study) by samuel vessiere. oh, and this study on writers, exploring how oftentimes writers’ characters will act as independent agents in their own minds (so basically plurality without trauma).

endogenic plurality hasn’t really been studied all that much. a big reason why we think that is, is because for many (if not most) nontraumagenic systems, their plurality is a metaphysical, imagined, or spiritual experience. and these things really cannot be proved by science. lots of people may claim to have loads of research proving endogenic systems exist, but once you get into the articles, it seems like most of those papers either already assume endogenic plurality exists without proving it, or claim to have proof backed with poor research. so those three papers right now are the only academic studies we have that we’re confident in.

does that mean these folks are lying about their experience, or that they’re not actually plural or multiple? absolutely not. what it does mean, is that those who say “i won’t believe you until there’s scientific proof you exist” will likely be waiting forever, all the while dismissing and disrespecting their fellow systems who experience plurality in a different way.

for lots of people, merely having imaginary friends makes them feel plural. others liken their headmates to spirits, ghosts, or deities.

will science ever prove that imaginary friends, ghosts, spirits, or gods exist? likely not. does that make it okay to disregard those who are religious, or who have active imaginations? not really.

this is why we believe fully in endogenic plurality without much research proving it exists. if someone tells us they’re plural, we believe them. folks just existing as they are doesn’t really harm anyone, least of which traumatized systems like us.

those who attack traumagenic systems, or who purposefully spread false information, however, are a different story. for the most part, though, endogenic systems do not behave this way. there are a few loud voices in endogenic spaces which are harmful, but these individuals do not speak for the endogenic community as a whole, even if they think they do.

something that i remember hearing from our therapist that i’d like to pass on is:

you shouldn’t have to understand others in order to treat them with decency and respect. as a white system, we will never be able to understand what it’s like to be a person of color. as a traumagenic system, we will never be able to understand what it’s like to be endogenic. that doesn’t give us an excuse to be unkind or disrespectful, or to dismiss those who aren’t the same as us. it’s still on us to treat people with kindness and respect, even and especially if they experience the world in ways we will never understand.

hope this helps. sorry it was so long.

🐢 kip and 👻 ghost

[acosmicblizzard]

Sorry for requesting so much 😭

May I please request headcanons for Yu, Chie, Rise, Naoto, and Kanji finding out about their female S/O training in mixed martial arts and being an accomplished fighter?

No need to apologize! You're basically the only one requesting for Persona 4 currently and it makes me happy that you enjoy my writing and want to request me this much! Hope you enjoy!

Yu, Chie, Rise, Naoto, & Kanji finding out their Fem!S/O is trained in mixed martial arts

Warnings: Mentions of fighting/sparring, mentions of water, possible ooc

Story type: Fluff

Pairings/Characters: Yu Narukami, Chie Satonaka, Rise Kujikawa, Kanji Tatsumi, Naoto Shirogane.

(it's 1 am and i still can't sleep so i'm writing this help me-)

Chie

While slightly shocked at first Chie is absolutely hyped once she finds out her girlfriend is skilled in mixed martial arts and is a accomplished fighter. Expect her to ask you like a million questions about the specific martial arts you've practiced in. She'll be bugging you with a ton of questions for awhile, incredibly curious and hyped about your combat abilities.

Since she trains quite often too make sure her kung fu skills stay in tip top shape she'll invite you to join her in the training. Secretly she wants to spar with you but also really hates the thought of hurting her girlfriend, watching how you practice and carry yourself in fights eases up the thoughts as Chie knows you can handle and protect yourself.

Once she does get comfortable enough to ask you to spar just know she'll be going full force!

After training sometimes she'll suggest you two go to the amagi inn and relax in the hot springs together to help ease your tired muscles. Chie holds your hand and practically drags you into the warm water, somewhat jokingly offering to massage your muscles if you want it. If you actually agree her face will light up slightly red as she laughs it off but gets behind you to massage your arms.

After Yosuke broke it Chie had to buy another copy of the trial of the dragon but will often sit down and rewatch it over and over. Because you two share similar interests she thinks you'll enjoy it! She'll feel slightly awkward if you don't but isn't mad or upset and will try to find a different movie to relax too.

Very supportive in your studies and would legitimately learn a specific type of martial arts you're studying as well just to be able to train and study with you.

Yu

Honestly he most likely found out either through Chie blabbering it out one day, you casually mentioning it in conversation, or your fighting style in the tv world.

In all honesty he's pretty impressed and wants to learn more about your skills but in a more casual way compared to Chie's hyperness. He's amazed comparing his skills to yours, yes he knows how to swing and use a cool as hell sword but he's not able to ground pound and immobilize enemy's in 2 or 3 strikes.

Though he's slightly interested he's not the type to want to learn any types of martial arts and more of just sits by the side watching you train. Mentally thinking "wow... I have one badass girlfriend-" at literally any impressive move you do.

Due to knowing origami from the origami crane folder job he knows how to do origami and knows how to create a variety of things other then cranes. One time he was thinking of a certain move you were doing and decided to create a origami version of you in the pose. it took about a good few weeks of careful crafting but it eventually was done, using a massive variety of colors to create the origami sculpture.

He gave it too you during lunchtime at school, saying that you give him a lot of inspiration in his life and mean a lot too him. Being taken slightly off guard when you kissed his cheek as a thank you.

Also very supportive, while not being completely involved like Chie he'll cheer you on from the sidelines!

Kanji

My guy is a blabbering stuttering mess, he already loved you but finding out you're also physically strong and adept at combat makes him fall in love with you a whole other level. A blush coats his face as he compliments you because ngl he finds the fact you can fight the way you do super hot.

Kanji is similar to Chie in that he's incredibly curious of your skills and abilities. Wanting to know everything he can about them and how they work, he may even ask to go into the tv world with you to go bully some random shadows together. It's mostly so he can see you in action and oh boy he's loving every minute of it and how cool you look.

While i wouldn't say Kanji has experience in any kind of martial arts he does know how to fight pretty well and honestly he may wanna learn. He finds watching you practice and train extremely fun and wants to learn the kind of things you are, so one day he may ask you if you can teach him.

Due to your reputation of a accomplished fighter bruises and injuries from training, spars, and other things can be common. For this reason Kanji always makes sure to have a medical kit easily accessible at his place and will often patch anything up for you. Reminding you to be careful but continue kicking ass.

Another very supportive boyfriend who will gladly kick ass with you

Naoto

At first Naoto was slightly worried but then she remembers how you kick shadows ass in the TV world and complete disregards those thoughts. On a logical stance she finds the skill of being a mixed martial artist useful and beneficial. But on the more emotional end of the spectrum she absolutely adores your fighting skill and spirit but more silently expresses it compared to the others.

Naoto out of the entire cast likes watching you train the most, barely outclassing Chie. While Chie is more of loud encouragement Naoto is more of shows her feelings through body language and those lovestruck eyes staring at you as you train. Of course not to stay Naoto won't compliment you with words, she actually does it quite often. But you almost can always she her gazing lovingly at you.

While she doesn't have any physical combat experience she can still decently hold her own especially with that gun of hers, but she may ask to try your fighting styles out and then almost back out cause you're extremely close to get and your hands are different places on her body to correct her stance. Naoto tries her best to stay composed though and knows you're just getting her into the right stance for the move but can't help but get flustered at how close you two are.

Naoto will often have bottles of water and a towel ready for you so you can rehydrate and wipe off any sweat from the training session. Saying that if there's anything else she can do, she'd be glad to help.

She's not as curious of your fighting abilities as the others but anytime she see's you use them she gets reminded of how much of a girl boss her girlfriend is and stares lovingly.

Another supportive girlfriend who'll back you up in battle no matter what! Even if brute force isn't her style.

Rise

Absolutely amazed whenever she first finds out. To Rise it feels like she's fallen head over heals in love again with you. Like most of the others she'll be asking a ton of questions about where you learned it, when you did, what types of martial arts, etc.

Carry her rn, bridal specifically. She wants to be held in her girlfriend's strong arms and also just wants a chance too check out your muscles-

Rise ties for 2nd place with Chie in watching you. She's like the number 1 cheerleader and will have waters and other snacks nearby her for whenever you finish your training routine. When watching you she can't help but think, "how did I get so lucky with you?" Absolutely adoring you as you train.

Incredibly and I mean incredibly curious of your fighting abilities, she's basically asking questions everyday even if she's already asked them before. Wanting to know your progression everyday in your passion.

Rise gets really upset the second she see's a single bruise on you, worried her dear girlfriend could've gotten permanently injured. Rise is a bit overdramatic about this but after the wound is treated she becomes a cuddle bug and asks you if you won a fight or if the bruise came from training.

Another supportive girlfriend who'll be your number 1 cheerleader giving it her all!

[belethlegwen]

How different do you think the The Rescue would be if at least one of Henry’s crew mates lived too? Which crew mate(s) dynamic would u be interested in exploring in that alt setting?

Oh damn, that's a solid question, absolutely.

I feel like it would've been a massively different story depending on which crewmate and the circumstances. Forbes especially would not have been one to be ok with the idea of simply accepting that he was a very small fish suddenly. If they had survived long enough to make it to shore together without intervention by Melanie then it would've been a survival-horror sort of story with Forbes and Henry both trying to avoid discovery, survive, and build their way back to their home. If there was a rescue involved, Forbes would've been actively antagonistic and against whatever was happening. A power imbalance that drastic simply through size alone would've put the man on edge the entire time-- he does well when he feels he's at least able to manipulate on a similar level to someone else, just so he can gain an upper hand. Hard to gain an upper-anything when you're just seven inches tall or so.

Neilson would've been more accepting of help, but he also would've been the most likely to simply... try to adapt to the new world he was in permanently. As good as he is at following orders, he was never what anyone would describe as a leader of the group in terms of forging a new path or taking new actions. He learns to be familiar and comfortable with something, and will stay in it and find his peace with it. I imagine he and Henry would've struggled greatly with their battling desires to fight and find a way home, or to simply carve out what life they could there.

Gibson would have accepted help, but reluctantly and quietly. He wouldn't be abrasive about it, but he would never have been an overly friendly person and would adamantly insist on as much independence as he could get. A situation where if Henry was going to insist on being friendly with Melanie/the locals at all, that would be on Henry, and he'd have a quiet place all his own (likely on the Massengale) to keep his head down and work on getting the ship back up and sail-able so they could return home as fast as possible.

Bunt and Rowe were very fresh faces to Henry. Rowe was young, very willing to learn, and would've been happy to take Henry's lead in whatever situation that they had wound up in, but have Rowe along for any ride would've been likely to make Henry more careful and cautious than he otherwise is/was throughout The Rescue. The dynamic would've been wildly different. Bunt was older and would likely either fall into wild despair that the life he had been hoping to finally get back to shore and start living was so drastically ripped away from him, or would desperately scratch and claw and fight for his way to get back to it. It would be a coin-flip, in my opinion.

Out of all of them... honestly I think it would be a tie between Forbes/Henry as a team and Gibson/Henry as a team for who I'd be most interested in exploring, and Rowe/Henry being a close second simply because I love the idea of that man being a legitimate mentor for someone instead of just Leader of Gang of Peers.

Thank you so much for the ask! It was super fun to think about!! <3

[prof-polaris]

heya - get some good rest?

some new posts dropped, other people have been sending in questions. i'll summarise what might be important, but it's definitely possible i've missed stuff through lack of context, so i attached all the posts to look through i'm curious how much of what's about your/'your' past is actually accurate. we might be able to find clues in what's been changed.

ask: did you consult uxie on this; answer: yes of course + team galactic as justification for bringing back old alpha zoroark guarding the cave. logical explanation here

ask: flicker's personality; answer: sweetheart, cuddly and clingy, lazy and sleeping most of the time, favourite pets are muzzle rubs. might be able to determine if something's off from how you remember...

ask: have you had a pokemon named tiph; answer: one of flicker's littermates adopted to a nice family in unova. whoever asked didn't give any reason for asking that specific name but hopefully it didn't raise suspicion

ask: would you ever own a hisuian zoroark; answer: no, first i don't like the word own, we'll be partners and equals, second they're powerful and owning one may not be safe due to poor health plus long fur and such. possibly look at the exact wording closer here?

ask: tell us more about flicker; answer: wasn't allowed pokemon growing up due to poor health and them being too energetic and/or allergies, but when flicker was born he was perfect due to gentle and short fur. how much of that is what was the case for you?

ask: plans for bringing chroma corp to greater heights; answer: conservation of native pokemon + hisuian variants, mother is working on funding hospitals more. sounds logical enough

ask: relationship with parents; answer: 'Aww, I love my parents of course. They've given me the best life they could have :)' insert X doubt meme here. and professionally worked pretty hard but that makes sense

ask: about 'yourself' + uncle's house; answer: 'you' enjoy the snow, swimming, and playing with the pokemon in the area, and house used to be a daycare, is owned by lilliana and violet, and is thought abandoned. the former - if the swimming is made up i at least give them points for swimming being super helpful for fibro; the latter - you'd be more sure than i am on whether they actually don't know or are just pretending

ask: interaction with uxie; answer: did have a couple when young, it's where the yellow in eyes comes from. not explicitly saying anything about being chosen, although this could be implicitly saying it - not familiar enough with the concept for if anyone would see that and think 'ah, chosen'

this. i am not sure what to think about it - in the best-case scenario they legitimately just want to bring back the hisuian variants and are just using your image to help get people interested in the idea for. some reason????? but i'm worried it could be a defamation attempt, now i think about it. if 'you' bring back zoroark and someone is promptly attacked by one - say, perhaps, the one that is currently pretending to be you - then 'you' will probably be blamed for it... and there's always the possibility that it's not aimed at you but something regarding all of sinnoh. bringing it back to an earlier time perhaps, though what would that even accomplish for them? makes even less sense than the whole hoenn weather debacle...

anyway. i'll keep you updated on anything that i see, though i'm a little out of it today (almost certainly unrelated. i got completely different bureaucracy going on here) so i'm not sure how much i'll be able to get out of them myself.

stay safe, okay? and---i'm sorry about worrying you with potentials yesterday. i hope maple took good care of you, can you thank her for me?

[attached is every post from chroma corp in text form for easy searching, with timestamps and image metadata and descriptions included] //so i don't have to copy-paste them all and lengthen this unnecessarily

okay. this is a lot, let me try and address all these separately...

consulting Uxie makes sense, my parents do that before doing just about anything.

Flicker's personality is all accurate from when he was a cyndaquil, although he was never really lazy and sleepy. if anything, he followed me around constantly, he was always on that move...i hope his health is alright...

asking about Tiph is ballsy, but their response was smart, saying she was adopted out. They're being very careful not to mention any pokemon they don't currently have..

hah! flexing the power of a hisuian zoroark. actually, they might have taken that as a bit of a threat based on that phrasing. i wonder if my father captured them or if they're a wild zoroark...if they're captured this may not be what they want to some extent...

my poor health..yeah i'm allergic to most furred pokemon and grass types, and i had some other health stuff going on at the same time, so finding a partner pokemon for me was hard. they're pretty correct on that front, although most of the allergy stuff stopped being a problem when i was old enough to take medicine for it

the conservation and hospital stuff all seems right, those were Chroma Corp goals from the beginning.

aha. ahahaha. yeah no the loving the parents is a bold faced lie, but i suppose if the truth was told about that it wouldn't look good

i can sort of swim, although i wouldn't say i enjoy it. i'm not very good, have to use a kickboard. i still do it cause as you said it's good for fibro. interesting that they said auntie owns it still and its abandoned. my parents know it was left to me in uncles will, although i guess saying that would sound a bit weird and leave opportunity for more questions

a 'few' interactions. haha. more like twice weekly. arc. they are right about the eyes thing though.

...all your theories seem viable. it's hard to Know what my parents are thinking. i appreciate you keeping me updated though :)

Maple took very good care of me and she got all the pets, i'll give her extra thanks for you

[snotsloth]

Hey y'all,

So, as you have all probably seen, I've been participating in NaNoWriMo for the first time in like a decade and having a fantastic time. I've written more in the last 15 days than I have in a very very long time.

But some stuff has happened. Unbeknownst to me, while I was having a grand old time writing my little (irresponsibly long) Baldur's Gate fanfic, the NaNoWriMo forums were on fucking fire.

And for good reason! Apparently, for basically an entire year, moderators and staff have been stifling dissenting voices of forum members who brought up legitimate and serious concerns such as, but not limited to, official sponsors who were scammers that had been previously identified and called out in the forums, inconsistent forum moderation (including favoritism and special treatment for people they were close with), and inadequate protections for participants under the age of 18.

It got so bad that the Board of Directors had to step in and closed down the forums on Nov 12. The posted a statement, and did leave a few specific threads open to collect community comments and answer questions. You can read what they have to say on the primary statement (CW for talk of harassment, mentions of transphobia and racism, and talk of child sexual abuse) here. That thread also has a helpful list of links at the bottom of the initial post that will help you get up to speed if you wish, though it is a lot of reading and potentially traumatizing if you've dealt with issues like this before.

I'm not going to rehash all the details here because even though I've spent a good chunk of the last two days reading up on this mess. I'm not a direct participant in any of these events and I would rather you read what happened in their own words if you're interested.

What I will say is it looks like the NaNoWriMo organization suffered from chronic under-staffing which resulted in employees working excessive hours at jobs that they lacked adequate skills, training, and support to do effectively. In an attempt to make every donation dollar count, they over-promised and under-delivered on programs and services offered by the org, and fundamental safety parameters were just never put in place.

It does appear like the Board is taking things very seriously and they are working on an action plan. However, none of those actions will be taken until at least Nov 27. So, for me, this is where my NaNoWriMo participation ends for the year. I am still working feverishly to meet my personal goal. I just won't be tagging any updates with NaNoWriMo or Nano2023. I will probably still be doing my daily word count updates because they entertain me and help keep me motivated, but it will just be tagged with generic writing and BG3 tags.

I hope that the Board of Directors is able to get things under control and that we see a new and improved NaNoWriMo organization rise in 2024. This annual challenge and the community around it has been a terrific influence in the lives of many writers. Until then, I'll just be over here, scribbling about blorbos.

[mariacallous]

The trial of FTX founder Sam Bankman-Fried, now coming to the end of its first week, is far bigger than just crypto. Reporters from the largest media outlets (including WIRED) have flocked to New York to cover it, TV stations are airing feature-length documentaries on the fall of the crypto exchange, and X (formerly Twitter) is ablaze with armchair analysis. But members of the crypto industry are tired of the circus before it has really even begun.

“I’m not the only one that thinks this is all just one very big distraction,” says crypto analyst Noelle Acheson, formerly of crypto brokerage Genesis. The sooner the industry is able to move beyond the “galactic embarrassment of FTX,” she says, the better. “It’s about starting again once [the trial] is done.”

When FTX went down last November, unable to meet a surge in withdrawals, it sent the industry into turmoil. Not only had billions of dollars’ worth of customer funds gone missing, but the collapse caused markets to nosedive and led to the failure of other crypto firms, a regulatory crackdown in the US, and, in a roundabout way, the fall of two crypto-friendly banks.

But the criminal trial is a sideshow to all of this, says Acheson, whose outcome will have little real impact on the prospects or trajectory of the crypto businesses that survived the shock. “It’s the stuff of a very juicy story, that’s why it has held everyone’s attention for so long … It’s the gossip we all pretend not to be interested in,” she says. “But closure will allow the industry to move on.”

At this, the first of two trials, Bankman-Fried is facing seven counts of fraud. He is accused by the US Department of Justice of misappropriating billions of dollars’ worth of customer deposits—which was allegedly used to bankroll a lavish lifestyle and buy political influence—and lying about the way his business operated.

The frustration, in crypto circles, is with the idea that the industry is on trial too—that Bankman-Fried’s alleged fraud is emblematic of the hubris and backroom maneuvering essential to crypto. They say this a case of straightforward fraud of the Bernie Madoff variety, not a reflection of issues specific to crypto businesses or technologies.

“The idea that crypto is on trial, I find ludicrous. An individual is on trial,” says Sheila Warren, CEO of the Crypto Council for Innovation, a body advocating for regulation of the crypto industry. “There is an extrapolation happening here and I don’t think it’s appropriate. The vast majority of this was good, old-fashioned, old-timey fraud.”

Bankman-Fried has denied fraud, and pleaded not guilty to the charges he faces.

The focal point of the trial, says Warren, should instead be the harm done to customers of FTX. The group will have a voice in the courtroom: The prosecution opened its case with the testimony of an ex-FTX customer who lost $100,000 to the exchange. But the emphasis of the “media frenzy” on the character of Bankman-Fried, the salacious details of his relationships with peers, and on crypto-bashing, says Warren, detracts from that central concern. “I wish [what’s going on in bankruptcy court] were the priority over ‘bad guy allegedly does bad things,’” she says. “The cult of celebrity around this is part of the problem.”

The end of the trial of Bankman-Fried, expected to conclude by mid-November, may draw a line under the latest chapter in the crypto drama. But whether the industry will learn the necessary lessons from the fall of FTX and its once-celebrated founder is a separate question.

Acheson is hopeful, but not convinced. She says crypto is uniquely vulnerable to the hero worship that helped to valorize and legitimize Bankman-Fried. The very-online nature of crypto discourse, she says, creates fertile ground for charismatic grifters able to amass a following. “Hopefully we’ll be ready, more vigilant, and less trusting,” says Acheson.

The industry, says Warren, will only remain primed against the risky financial engineering that led to the collapse of FTX and its peers for so long. “I think it’s time-bounded,” she says. “Until you have a regulatory scheme that encodes [a clear set of rules for crypto businesses], you’ll have a new generation of people” that try to push the boundaries in dangerous ways. “One of the roles of a regulator is to contain some of that impulse and say, ‘There are consequences.’”

The period of trauma can have a cleansing effect, driving out bad actors and reining in excess. But should crypto fever return, says Warren, the concern is that “a bunch of these yahoos, with their pump-and-dump nonsense, will come right back.”

[spongebob-autisticquestions]

hi!!!! this isnt rly a question so i hope its ok to send (i believe u generally also accept asks that are just Talking About autism stuff- if im wrong i apologize!!) but ive been following u for maybe 4-5 years i think? i still have not been able to get a dx due to the price and lack of availability in my area despite my therapist agreeing and my psychiatrist noting that some stuff for me should be tested, but ur posts have meant a lot to me over the yrs :) esp when it came to feeling like my self dx is legitimate!!! being autistic affects me in a LOT of ways all the time so its helped a lot to be able to explain that, and ive seen a resurgence in anti self dx stuff so your posts are super helpful to me!!! lately i also realized a 'big interest' of mine for multiple years is actually most likely a special interest, and theres an offshoot of it ive been thinking about very much nonstop, all day, every day for a bit!!! sometimes i feel a little silly for just how wrapped up in it i can get (i got so excited about it that i managed to become nauseous once, which upon asking another person, is apparently Not standard for interests LOL) but many of my friends are also autistic and get it which makes me very happy :)!!! my interest (which i think im ALSO hyperfocusing on lately since i have adhd as well!) just makes me very happyy lately and that reminded me of your posts and how confidently you and the people you rb from talk about your special interests!!!! :D . anyway thank you for running such a wonderful blog!!!! sorry for such a long ask, i hope you have a great day!!!!!!

I'm glad I've been able to help! :) And pay no mind to anti-self diagnosis posts, self diagnosing is completely valid and the majority of the autistic community supports it!

[hdmason]

CEO Convo

Word count: 703

CEO Hwang Garam.

Mason liked to think he could talk to anyone, and he normally loved doing so. He was always an extroverted person, making new friends being his favorite thing in the world besides dancing, kpop, and Overwatch. But right now, he was scared. This was CEO Hwang Garam, someone who not only was a kpop star in his own right, but someone who basically had Mason’s future in the palm of his hand. Maybe not directly, but he was still a pretty big factor in Mason’s ability to debut before he turned thirty.

An exaggeration? Yes. A legitimate fear? For Mason, also hell yes.

Mason had talked to a bunch of people, and he had procrastinated long enough and had enough champagne in his system to finally approach... after one more mini pep talk.

“Alright, Mason, you can do this,” he whispered to himself in English to try and get himself ready for this potentially insanely important conversation. “He’s just another person. You can talk to people, right? You love people! Just be yourself! Or... the best possible version of yourself! So... just mask a bit more for a short conversation.” He took a deep breath and nodded to himself before approaching the man the myth the legend.

“CEO Hwang,” Mason greeted with a polite (if albeit nervous) smile and a deep bow. The other man gave a slight nod of the head in greeting before Mason continued. “I’m Lee Mason, I don’t know if you remember me, I auditioned for you in August two years ago.” Well, he auditioned for the company every year since 2013 and only made it to the final steps in 2020, but that was a bit embarrassing, so he conveniently left that part out.

It did take a brief moment of looking at him before the CEO snapped his fingers and pointed at Mason. “You did Lucifer as your final dance audition.”

Mason’s smile became much more genuine as he nodded enthusiastically. “Yes! That was me! I’m so honored you remember!”

“That’s a hard dance, you did it well,” he said simply, bringing Mason even more relief and joy. Mason bowed in thanks again before CEO Hwang asked “So, let’s get right to the point. What are your future goals here?” Even as he asked, his eyes looked about the room as if hoping for someone to intervene in the conversation.

This is it, Mason. Don’t fuck this up.

“Well... to be honest, I’ve... I’ve wanted to debut ever since coming to Korea,” he starts, then realizes that’s probably what everyone was telling him tonight. S o, he tried a different approach; the truth, and something unique to only Mason. “No one loves kpop as much as I do. I eat it, I breathe it, it’s been my main special interest since I was twelve, it’s all I think about. Give me a comeback or a debut and I can name the year, the members, the reception.” Embarrassing? Maybe. True? Yes. Maybe slightly impressive? Hopefully. “This is all I want to do, and being able to prove that is something I hope to do for you in the next year.”

That caused a slight reaction from the CEO, a tiny tilt of the head and a simple question of “Higher Love?”

Mason’s eyes twinkled and he couldn’t help the tiniest hint of cockiness gracing his smile. “’Higher Love’, third comeback of Trickshot, members Jisoo, Envy, Eunju, Namhee, and Bora. Came out January of 2015, only won one award on Show Champion.” He shrugged. “It’s kind of a shame, really, I thought that was their best track since ‘Firefly.’”

CEO Hwang nodded before saying “Nice speaking to you, Mason. Good luck this year.” He then turned towards another trainee and walked away.

Mason had no idea how to interpret that. Had he impressed him? Amused him? Scared him off with how much of a weirdo he was? He wasn’t sure, though given Mason’s track record with social interactions, it was most likely the latter. He let out a breath he didn’t realize he was holding and reached up to run his fingers through his hair.

Good news, he did it. Bad news, what did he do?

[evangelist02]

Overview

Calvary's Call is the culmination of a calling over a period of years. At first I did not heed it and went on my way for several years. When our son had to have emergency surgery out world crashed. Powerless, we stood on the sidelines helpless as could be.

God took over and laid hands on the situation. The emergency surgery was a success. The majority of these cases result in death. The entire medical staff was speechless and amazed he survived. Along the way, God pulled me so hard I was unable to ignore it. My early years in church were Southern Baptist and my adult years was Methodist.

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🌺 and 🥊 for any oc!

🌺 "Do they have any love interests?":

Ricochet, Triple Changer Decepticon OC, has three love interests. The first two are Knockout and Breakdown, whom she met in Iacon when she was on vacation. The duo, also on vacation, were jumped by a gang of ruffians as they tried to take a shortcut through an alley. Before anything could happen to them, Ricochet came to the rescue and gave them a chance to escape. Ricochet was arrested for being involved in the fight. (Fun fact: Prowl was her arresting officer and kicks himself years later over 'If I had known what she'd become...") Knockout and Breakdown paid her bail, fixed the damage she received, and invited her to spend time with them. They tour Iacon together, and even unknowingly went to the same underground Gladiator match, (Ricochet as a participant and Decepticon recruiter and KOBD as spectators). When their vacations were up, Knockout and Breakdown gave Ricochet an open invitation to come to Velocitron and stay with them. Ricochet said she'd think about it, and after a hellish week back to work in the Tarn mines she left.

Knockout ran a bodywork studio (and a shady side business in the basement) with Breakdown his assistant. In return for being able to stay with them (and being given a better paint job than garish Construction Safety Orange, which becomes a running joke), Ricochet helps around the studio. She also helps Breakdown with side-work and teams up in a fight ring with him. The three grow close. Ricochet is half-Vosian/Seeker and interested in being in a Trine but isn't sure what the Grounders would think. Turns out their feelings for her had deepened and they are Trine bonded. In my AU Trines come in multiple flavors, and this one is very much a Romantic one. When the Council tries to bring in Ricochet from Velocitron for questioning about her Sire's Decepticon activities on Cybertron, Ricochet has to leave her Trine behind to deal with it. She hopes the Functionalists will leave them alone if she's not around. The Council has other ideas.

The other one is Starscream. This is very much an Enemies to Lovers trope, and I'm not sure how it's going to go. The working one is that Starscream wanted to use Ricochet and her closeness to Lord Megatron as his mentee/adopted offspring to get to him. He then realizes that he has no shot (or so he thinks) with Ricochet being in a Romantic Trine, and he might actually like the Triple Changer. Instead of dealing with this in a healthy way, Starscream becomes more of an ass than usual to keep his fellow Commander away. It gets to the point they duke it out, and that's where things turn. Ricochet's opinion of him softens after they finally sit down and talk like damn adults, and Starscream becomes bolder, eventually asking to do a one-time secret FWB thing. Ricochet agrees with Knockout and Breakdown's blessing (they figure out it was him immediately). Soon it becomes more than a one-time thing.

Here's where I'm not sure how it goes. As Third in Command, Ricochet's job is to keep the Second in check. Maybe she's not interested at first and sees this as a way to keep him in line, and her Conjunx agree. But then she grows feelings, and drama ensues. Or her feelings are legitimate, and her Trine and Starscream's play interference to keep it quiet.

Megatron is no fool though...

Either way, things improve and soon Ricochet and Starscream sparkbond. It's done in a ritual called Crossing of the Trines, where partners from two Trines bond, therefore connecting them together.

🥊 "What do they love to do? What do they hate to do?":

Ricochet loves to read, especially sappy romance novels. Stories with a guaranteed HEA (Happily Ever After) let her escape from her lower-caste life. She also enjoys sparring matches as a way to get out her aggression and frustrations, and it led to her joining Megatron in the Gladiator arena. As for what she hates: Paperwork. Absolutely hates doing paperwork. She and Starscream will put off doing the reports needed to the point that eventually they are forced to spend a day in a room just finishing up forms. They have fun with it though, and critique and laugh over what sad excuses of reports they are given.

Ricochet: "How is everything on here misspelled?! These things have spellcheck!"

Starscream: "Skywarp said the red squiggly lines annoyed him and turned it off."

Ricochet: "How did you guess it was him?"

Starscream: "Because I purposefully put it into your pile."

Ricochet: "Jackaft."