we should be worried i’m listening to moon song by phoebe bridgers and thinking about maxiel…i’m giving it twenty seconds before i can think of a fic to write (i lied i already have a plan for the fic if you wanna hear it, if you don’t too bad it’s here)
okay so it starts with maxiel breaking up around 2021/2022 or 2018 i haven’t decided yet, but i wrote a bit that i think sums up with they broke up:
“I would’ve given you everything,” Max says quietly.
He knows. Daniel knows it so deeply. “You were a kid and you looked ready to spend the rest of your life with me.”
“Don’t call me a kid.” Max bites back, angry and hurt. He’s digging his fingernails into the palm of his hand and Daniel reaches out to unfurl them, like he used to do a thousand times when they were younger. He regrets it, instantly.
He forgot how much he liked holding Max.
The world always seemed a much quieter place with Max in his hands.
i can’t decide if it’s max or daniel who calls it off, because i think the whole reason daniel would call it off is because how scared he is of max—in the sense that he would literally do anything for him. daniel probably wouldn’t know what to do with that so he does what he has always fallen back to and it’s to run. max, i can’t think of a reason rn but that’s a future me problem.
anyways cut forward to the future, daniel’s back at red bull etc etc he retires in 2026/7. but during this redbull s2 stint they start falling back into old habits. they’re not together, far from it but it’s so achingly reminiscent of their relationship in the beginning. max is also dating someone else during this time and daniel knows if he said anything max would break up with them in an instant, so he’s very careful to draw these lines.
max’s wedding is in 2028 and daniel’s invited because of course he is (and he attends because he loves to hurt himself.) you know that part where it’s like “if anyone has any objections speak now or forever hold your peace” daniel is looking at max who to his horror is looking right back at him. like he’s daring him to say something. nothing happens, they get married and it’s probably the final breaking point for daniel, he can’t still be thinking about max a decade on. he goes radio silence and moves back to perth.
2030, max divorces his wife and shows up in perth unannounced. daniel closes the door on him because he knows what max is here for. a couple hours later he opens the door to leave and max is still there on his veranda. it’s a bit pathetic, daniel thinks—but he takes pity on him and lets him in. they argue, they fight, max still tells daniel he loves him and it hurts so much. for the words to come out so easily like they’re still people with absolutely nothing left to lose. then max hears a baby crying and the floor falls beneath his feet. he very tentatively follows daniel, to where he’s bouncing a baby in his arms, trying to get her back to sleep.
it’s there for the first time where max realises (for the first time in his life) that daniel has always had the option of moving on. he did, so why did he feel like daniel couldn’t? and max does what daniel to him ten years ago and he runs. he leaves, has to start properly closing the chapter on daniel ricciardo. he sits in his airport rental car on daniel’s driveway and wonders where did it go so wrong for them. he sits there for a good thirty minutes before daniel knocks on his window and sits in the passenger seat next to him.
and for the first time in probably three years daniel talks. he talks and he talks and he talks. he learns that it’s just daniel and his daughter. she’s about three months old. tentatively, slowly, max reaches across the console to hold daniel’s hand. daniel allows him.
they can’t be the same people they were ten years ago, but they also can’t start from the beginning. they’ll start in the middle, relearning everything about each other. it’ll be slow, it’ll hurt but they’re together now.
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this whole thing revolves around these lyrics:
And if I could give you the moon / I would give you the moon / You are sick, and you're married, and you might be dyin' / But you're holdin' me like water in your hands
this will literally take me 6+ months so like daniel ricciardo trying to lower everyone’s expectations about the performance of VCARB—don’t hold your breath….
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Songs that remind me of Andrew and Neil:
“Everything I did to get to you” by Ben Platt is Andrew and Neil’s song
“In a week” by Hozier also gives Andreil vibes
“Moments silence” by Hozier lowkey is giving andrew and Neil during the shower scene
“Work song” By Hozier is Neil coming back to Andrew after Baltimore
“As it was” by Hozier
“Francesca” by Hozier
“Say yes to heaven” by Lana Del Rey
Other:
“Bloodsucker” by CIL is Allison’s song
“Bubble wrap” by precious Pepala is Nicky’s song
“Cherry wine” By hozier is Kevin’s song towards Riko or Aaron’s song towards his mom if the song wasn’t about a romantic relationship
“Nobody’s soldier” by Hozier is Neil’s song
“Born to die” by Lana del Rey is Allison and Seth’s song
“Jackie and Wilson” by Hozier is Matt’s song when he was a freshman and was in love with Dan
“Arsonist lullaby” by Hozier is Renee’s song and I will die on this hill
“As good a reason” by Paris Paloma is Dans song and I don’t even have to explain why
“Art Deco” by Lana Del Rey is Kevin’s song
“Which witch” by Florence + The Machine is Allison’s song (it fits Dan and Renee also)
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Assigning Dead Boy Detectives characters to my favorite songs pt 1.
Edwin Payne
"And the next time I realized that I was breathing and alive,
Was the first time that I saw your face"
There's just something about this boy that makes me believe he would love a banjo. I also imagine this song makes him think of Charles, especially after the confession.
Charles Rowland
"Live fast, die young, pay the price
The best die young, immortalized"
This song is so upbeat, I think Crystal showed it to him once and he's latched on to the lyrics. To me, Charles is very Cage The Elephant coded.
Edwin and Charles
"Can you light my love?
Flames glowing bright as the sun
Deeper than oceans you run
Watch as our world has begun"
This is such a beautiful love song and it describes them both very well. Their love runs deeper than the oceans. They are both pictures in time when they died, but they continue together in their afterlife.
This is purely self-service, I don't believe these characters would listen to these songs specifically, but they are my favorites and I have little scenarios in my brain connected to these songs and characters.
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