#BUT I REPRESSED IT
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I hate when I get into these phases when once I process through one thing causing me anxiety there's another thing right behind it
#we've moved on to ye olde ''what if i have repressed memories and horrible things have happened that I don't remember''#which...#like...#to some degree you have to go with a schrodinger answer. like... it's inherently not true#but the weird part is that I have weird anxiety when I think about certain family members bc of this#but when I'm actually around them it's no more uncomfortable than any family member you're not around often#so I'm like OH NO WHAT IF SAID FAMILY MEMBER WHO I HAVEN'T SEEN IN YEARS DID SOMETHING TO ME#BUT I REPRESSED IT#and like... a what if is just a what if. do I believe it? no. do I fixate on it and get wildly afraid? sometimes#also it's not even consistent sometimes I'm like ah yes family member I haven't seen in ages I wonder what he's up to#and then other times it's like I'VE HEARD SO MANY STORIES OF FAMILY MEMBERS RAPING THEIR NIECES AND STUFF#WHAT IF THAT HAPPENED TO ME#actually I feel like watching law and order SVU made a lot of these anxieties worse like that's part of why I stopped watching it#bc it exacerbates a lot of anxiety my mind tries to throw at me#anyway I do not actually think any family member has done anything and I don't actually believe I have repressed memories#or else I would have probably brought it up to my parents. I'm still like ''ooogh anxiety monster what if?'' about it tho#which is why we have philippians 4:8!! is is true? categorically due to being a ''what if'' anxiety — nope!! okiedoke moving on#k I just needed to talk through this I'm done now#*I'm barely any more uncomfortable than with any family member I haven't seen in a long time#(tbf I'm generally less comfortable with my dad's family bc 1) no female relatives other than grandma and 2) I see them way less often)
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Glinda really had an entire musical number expounding on the theme of "success in life is not about being highly qualified or even competent, but manipulating people's superficial perception of you." and then she went into POLITICS. truly the #girlboss representation the world has earned
#wicked#Glinda said 'cronyism is the philosophy upon which our world order is built'#but she was pink and bubbly about it so the audience thought it was cute#also in the novel she's all but explicitly stated to be repressing her attraction to women in favor of compulsive heterosexuality#a duty she then fulfills by marrying a wealthy older nobleman who doesn't bother her while she spends her time amassing social influence#bitch is positively Machiavellian but it's fine because she wears pink#anyway I have this theory that if she and Elle Woods ever met irl they would immediately death battle
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as an aroace person with limited sexual experience, no interest in watching porn, and poor sex ed as a teen, there IS something simultaneously funny and vaguely tragic about being 28 adult years old and realising how extremely tiny your frame of reference is for genitalia and deciding you should expand this to better understand bodies (yours and others). and then you're just there like "okay so what the fuck do I even google right now, anyway"
#vivid flashbacks to being 19 and going on scarleteen like 'help what's a clitoris'#anyway society (by which i mean repressed evangelical white brits lol) really marked a whole area of anatomy as off limits huh#and the modern advertising friendly internet does not counteract it
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#funny talking tag#My favorite thing to do is HC characters as trans but also that they've never heard that term before and act accordingly.#My other favorite thing to do is make characters repressed.#My other other favorite thing to do is make a character go ''I feel like a(n) object/animal/thing pretending to be a man/woman''#''but I don't really care about that right now I have a job''#Anyway while this post can be about whichever characters you feel fit I made this with a certain character in mind.#(Dimentio of SPM fame) (He has something really specific going on that makes me cackle) (You can ask me about it)#(Also Morceau Oleander is a trans woman to me because she would be happier)#(and she deserves to live a life not defined by other's expectations of her)#Someone put a forbidden and ancient curse on this post so no more.
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"Originally it was not called 'Good Luck, Babe!', it was called 'Good Luck, Jane!", but my co-writer and I kept getting in arguments about it, so it became 'Good Luck, Babe!'." CHAPPELL ROAN on 'Good Luck, Babe!'
#*gifs#1k#chappell roan#chappellroanedit#chappellsource#userchappell#tusermiles#ughmerlin#userbru#tuserdee#alielook#tusercj#userhann#userhella#dailywomen#femaledaily#ladiesblr#dailymusicqueens#dailymusician#femalepopculture#wonderfulwomendaily#loooove that she unintentionally wrote it about herself that's a repressed lesbian queen right there#also this is such a cute interview but it jumps between great camera with good quality and potato camera and i just don't understand WHY#so if it doesn't feel like the text matches her mouth that's why
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cost and benefit
#Fun fact 99% of my comics aren't planned out beforehand so i just go with the vibes#this was originally going to be something like him finding anyas file or seeing thorn princess but that felt a little cliched to me#with some sort of line like 'is the cost worth it?' or 'when did the cost start outweighing the benefit?'#but i dont think i explore repressed twilight as he is in canon a lot#his mind is seriously a maze#we see him gaslight himself so often#thats why softer fanon representation to me doesnt exactly feel in character unless its like post reveal#he's still deep in his own burrow#Anyways!!!!!! ive ranted enough. i did this in two days when i have a million other time intensive things to do instead. decisions!#also nobody look at bond too closely. i still cant draw animals#my art#spy x family#loid forger#sxf#yor forger#twiyor#anya forger
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I'm sorry I'll never stop drawing them being physically affectionate
#house md#hilson#gregory house#james wilson#house md fanart#This has been laying in my drafts idk why I don't just post when I'm done#Anyways I love them so much i want to strip them of all their repression and sadness and then just force them to hug eachother for 24 hours#I want to redraw this someday cause Im not fully satisfied with jt
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coping mechanisms
#i couldnt decide whether to go with the traditional or the semi-digital so you get both#tadc#the amazing digital circus#tadc jax#tadc ragatha#tadc fanart#ragatha#jax#they are narrative foils who stand for the side that the other is trying to repress within themselves#it drives me crazy#ria draws#1k
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"so what are we gonna do? just like.. ride bob into the sky?" yeah you would be the one to suggest that, john...
#i know what you are#repressed ass bisexual man#voidwalker#sentryagent#thunderbolts*#thunderbolts#john walker#us agent#bob reynolds#robert reynolds#sentry#the void#marvel#mcu#the new avengers
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Also please let’s discuss the Other Tai of it all, because this is important to me. She isn’t evil. It’s incredibly important to understand she isn’t evil. She’s hungry. She’s hungry for all the things that kept Taissa alive in the woods. She IS the thing that kept Taissa alive in the woods, in her own way. She was the very essence of nature. She was dirt and trees and need. What kept Tai alive out there? Food. Meat. Van. What does Other Tai naturally gravitate toward, trying to steer Taissa toward the things she needs? Food. Meat. Van. That political career? Theater. That family polished to a shine? Facade. What really matters, when everything else is shorn away? Food. Meat. Van. Base impulse. First loves and full bellies. She isn’t evil. She’s trying to keep Tai fed and alive, as she always has. It just comes at such a terrible cost.
#yellowjackets#yj spoilers#Taissa Turner#taivan#yj meta#my dudes the other tai of it all fascinates#tai tries to repress and repress and tell the story as an adult needs it to go#but other tai says ‘that isn’t helping. that isn’t what you need.’#‘you need to eat. you need her. you need these things and you won’t grab for them so I’m doing it for you’#‘hungry not evil’ as a thesis for this show is everything to me#I also think it’s so important to register that it’s not that other tai ISN’T tai#she’s a part of tai. always has been. so of course tai feels like herself much of the time this season#this isn’t ’another self’ or dissociative disorder#this is part of tai. the part she tries to bury. and what you try to bury always rises up
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A lirtle wangxian wip cause I've been rewatching The Untamed <3
#mdzs#cql#the untamed#wangxian#wei wuxian#lan wangji#my art#oughh i love teenage wangxian sooo much the repressed tension.. the terrible communication...#tbf they never really get over that until the end though#but still smth about the first crush vibes of their initial scenes#is so cute#before everything goes so terribly evilly awfully wrong for everyone
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everyone talkin about the "Oh. Oh." revelation but can we refocus on "Oh no they're hot"
because alas. you're hot as fuck. i still despise you, but you're hot as fuck. all our interpersonal actions are gonna erotically tinged from here on out. it won't change anything plot-related but now i hafta be aware of it
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Finished a rewatch. Love these two.
It was fun toggling my style just a smidge. I need a break from my usual or I'm gonna go crazy.
#fanart#drawing#gravity falls#stanford pines#stanley pines#bill cipher#i just feel like Ford doesn't handle embarrassment well#he's been repressing that memory for forty odd years
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Usually in stories where the lead character gets a whole harem of lovelorn admirers, it begs a lot of willing suspension of disbelief. Especially when the harem protagonist is also trying to be a relatable audience proxy, because as most average people can verify, getting people to fall in love with you at the drop of a hat is not a normal thing. Many a harem anime has tried to work around this by asserting that the lead is just somehow attracting absolute weirdos by the dozens, and coincidentally this flavor of freak just really goes for the "boring and generically nice-ish" type, but plenty also just shrug and are like, yeah everyone's in love with this guy for no discernible reason, just go with it.
But then there's Scum Villain. With Shen Yuan, I can finally buy this happening. At last someone got the "audience proxy character" formula to combine successfully with the "most desirable love interest" formula.
#svsss#shen yuan#shen qingqiu#scum villain#scum villain's self saving system#of course I think part of how this was achieved was a total lack of conflation with 'audience proxy' and 'aggressively normal person'#in fact sy is 'aggressively normal' only in the sense that trying to repress or downplay his queerness is a major preoccupation of his#anyway#would
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angry boy
#kyle gaz garrick#mmmmm butcher scene#for anyone whos lost if you stay with the butcher after u get the intel if u wait long enough he calls gaz an angry boy#I WAS FUCKMING RIGHT#GAZ REPRESSED ANGER#its my new fave moment in the games sooooo good perfectly subtle too one of the few rlly good story telling moments from activison#activision can still suck my dick#call of duty#cod#call of duty modern warfare#digital art#art#illustration#rendering#digital painting#digital drawing#digital aritst#call of duty modern warfare 2#fanart#gaz
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What I do find low key funny is that in most shows/movies, when a character goes through their Traumatic Incident™️, they're almost always very tight lipped and secretive about what happened to them.
However if you speak to Edwin Payne for more than 20 minutes, not only will he tell you that he was in Hell, he'll give you a time scale and recommendations for restaurants there. He's leaving catty reviews on TripAdvisor. He's the Edwardian equivalent of a vlogger who had a bad time at a starbucks and has to make a 40+ minute call out video. Conceptually he should be Broody and Mysterious but he's fundamentally too much of a gay little bitch to keep shit to himself.
#Not a bad thing to be clear!!#He'd rather repress his sexuality than his years of torture and honestly king I get it#dead boy detectives#dead boy detective agency#dbda#edwin payne#charles: edwin baby can you do the dishes#edwin bitchily under his breath: when I was in Hell no one made me do the dishes 🙄😒
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