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HAS SOME REFERENCES TO SPOILERS UP TO EGGHEAD

So i really really like one piece so ive been starting to re-read it the past few days and i just finished up orange town and i wanted to talk about it, because its a lot cooler than i remember! first of all, i really appreciate chou-chous part, i know thats a pretty lukewarm take, but its the first time in the whole series where we see luffy fight for someone else, and its the first time we see him get angry over injustice, and it does a GREAT job setting up the tone for the grand adventure that follows (note while im doing minor editing to make sure this post isnt shit, still probably is, but we also got to see luffy fight for the small girl in romance dawn, but chou-chou is cooler than her and i still think this example truly shines as an early example of this theme so im keeping it)

as always Oda does a really good job of making luffy's anger really *feel* impactful. the scene afterwards where luffy gives chouchou the bag of dog food that he got from the burning building is also amazing and really shows that going forward its not only luffy's wrath that matters, but his love for those facing injustice. honestly this arc does a LOT to introduce luffy's character, the moment when he smashed the mayor into the wall to knock him out. him doing this still works in his what we have seen previously, but alongside his interactions with the townsfollk after the battle with buggy we can see that even if luffy sometimes struggles to understand people (its ok my autistic king, we've all been there) he is shockingly emotionally intellegent. also, the art in this arc is SO much better than romance dawn. maybe its a personal thing but i dont really care for romance dawns art style, its a bit to simple and overly round for me, but orange town has a really great mix of what the artstyle will come to be while still mainly having that older one piece charm, and oda definitally flexes his art skills more in this arc. also reference to the sunken continent?????? in my chapter 19?????

im going to stop short of showing pictures of the art and talking about it because i dont know art that well, and if you want that you should go watch tbskyen's best panel in every chapter of one piece series because he does a much better job of art analysis than i could ever do. i remember there being more i wanted to talk about but i cant remember them right now so im just gonna end on the note that this arc was really funny! i still really like the humour in modern one piece but i found myself laughing a lot more in this arc than ive laughed at one piece in quite some time!! to end, im just gonna put a page that i thought was really funny and had quite a good laugh at.

[kevin-the-bruyne]

Hiiii

This is so random but I was just having a moment and I just needed to say just absolutely something to someone but didn't know who to tell what to. And then one of my favorite fics, authored by you, started playing out in my head. (maybe because I was subconsciously seeking some comfort and the fic definitely is that to me (I promise it wasn't one of the smutty ones, although I love them too~))

It was the first ever fanfic I read, and it captured something I've always felt but didn't have the words for. I'm sorry I never commented on it or texted you sooner. But the fic is so dear to me that I downloaded it and saved it among very sacred safekeeps in case one day the internet gods strike and the sacred archives are lost forever. I risked it at Alexanderia. I'm not letting it happen to my new altar.

So ig I just wanted to let you know your writing is lovely, touching. And I look forward to them earnestly. And there are times when I think to myself, I'd like to write like you do, see and feel things with the same depth. Hopefully I get there~

Anyhooo please take care and write when you want and can and love. Byeee!

P. S. Hehe did I mention I ardently love the smut you write?

hi anon you have no idea how much it meant to me when you sent me this I really cried when I saw it because my first fanfic Stand By Me by Edmantra on LJ is in fact lost to the depths of the internet and that fic changed the entire course of my life. I am so glad that I was fortunate enough to be your first foray into fanfic and that you have cherished my work so thoroughly.

im sorry im responding late and I don't know if you're around to see it but I really thought of you when my post about loving gmmtv's bad art inspired a really heartfelt discussion. And I thought of you having mentioned how much you love my writing and hope to one day write like I do and I really believe you'll write even better; you'll write like *you* do as long as you keep writing I know you'll get there.

I want to share an anecdote about myself with you and I hope that maybe when you doubt yourself it will pop into your head and will help you keep going: I started writing fic when I was ~ 15/16 inspired by Stand By Me in the Arashi fandom back in LJ. I think about a year or two of writing consistently, so I wasn't a newbie, I decided to enter a fandom event where people were put into teams and their fics would be scored and even though the winners would always be by group you could actually see the individual scores on the fics and truly my entry had the lowest score.

Out of nearly 50 fanfics I had irrefutable proof that mine was the very worst and I learned two things from that: 1) do NOT do that to yourself do not enter a competition with a grade for fics that is a terrible concept BUT more importantly 2) I just had to write another fic if I didn't want that to be the way I remembered myself as a writer. And well, I guess here I am now getting comments on my fics of people telling me they cried so much their faces hurt.

Keep writing; your heart is always in your art, you'll get better and better at expressing it. My terrible grade F fanfic is just as important as the ones that keep people up at night even if I'm the only one to see that.

If you publish (or if you already have) please send me the link. It would be an honor to have joined you on your artistic journey. P S I hope to entertain you with various dicks and holes (in word format) in the days to come

[nerves-nebula]

tw for like. Chronically Online nonsense & talk of csa stuff. i have fallen into a rabbithole and wanted to share it with u because it’s fucking insane and i feel like im losing my mind

so holy shit i just stumbled across the “radqueer” tag and that. i don’t. i truly have no idea how to react to whatever’s happening over there aside from complete and total bewilderment?? literally i’ve been making some serious progress in coming to terms with and trying to heal from repressed csa stuff so to open tumblr and see people saying they are ‘transtrauma’ and ‘cistrauma’ along with Everything Else in that tag. i feel like my brain has been turned to soup. maybe i am making it up maybe my dad didn’t actually molest me and im just insane idk but at least im not doing Whatever’s happening over there

i'unno about all that cuz my understanding of radqueer was that it was radical queer acceptance so they get a little wacky (said affectionately). im not really sure what that has to do with trauma but i dont wanna like, be a dick about it just cuz i don't understand it?

like i didnt understand ppl who said they were autism gender at first but i get it now. being autistic can really change how you think about gender since it's a social construct and you might just not Get Gender, to the point that it's inextricably linked with your self identity so its like. yeah your gender is autism. whatever.

i dunno what the trans or cis dichotomy has to do with trauma and my first instinct is to say hmmm that sounds.... not real.... but since i don't know what they're talking about and i don't care to learn i figure i'll just leave 'em to it. what does it matter to me so long as they're not making it my issue. i try not to commit to my knee jerk reactions of "that's stupid" cuz that's how you fall into reactionary thinking and at the end of the day it doesn't really bother me if people are fucking around doing shit i will never understand in parts of the internet i am not a part of.

anyway onto the important stuff:

if you can't tell if your dad molested you or not you've probably got *something* going on so I'd say don't freak out about if it Actually Happened or not and instead focus on attending to the emotions you have about it. to be blunt i don't really think it matters if it happened or not.

if you are "just insane" or you had a traumatic dream as a kid where your dad molested you and it effects you to this day then that's just as serious an issue to work on, at least it is to you personally. like if you had a delusion that your dad molested you that seems pretty traumatic regardless of what actually happened. idk if that makes sense?

ok i need to stop avoiding my homework. byeee.

[hotluncheddie]

Hai agaiiinnnn it’s me ☺️

That’s so fair about being sensitive about like substances and having to have the right kind of vibe to partake! I’ve only been high twice and I only get high with my one friend and it’s like fun becuade it’s funny to be high but also it just makes me really really sleepy so it’s not totally worth it for me lol

Also saw you said you don’t have a best friend but if you want to be internet best friends I’m down! I am the type of person where just anyone I like enough I get super excited about friendship so my brain like golden retrievers and goes !!bestfriend!! Like 10 minutes after knowing them lol. Some people are more picky which I totally respect that if that’s your vibe too it’s probably a better way to be to be honest lol

Also also I was reading your fics (love them by the way) and I saw you have a couple angsty ones and a couple smutty ones and a couple Steve is catholic ones and I was wondering have you read a mess of holy things? It’s a no upside down au but Steve was raised super conservatively catholic and then goes to college and meets Eddie an ex-catholic and they have this crazy intense friendship turned relationship and Steve deals with all his internalization of his identity by letting go of the religious oppression he was raised in and it’s AMAZING it’s my favorite fic of all time I tell everyone I know about it lol you might add that to your list!

Also also also it’s so sweet you’ve been with your partner for 9 years and your only 26 I love that that’s is so cute and amazing 🥹

Okay byeee *smooch smooch*- 🍯

hi!!!! 🥺🍯🫂

but omg literally it's made me so sleepy before and like sometimes makes it so i really done wanna talk at all. so not very good for handing out with people. but that's so nice that you have one friend where its comfy and fun to do that!

i would like to be friends!!! but that's so sweet and nice omg u should be happy you're like that, golden retriever brain is actually so special to have <3. i find making friends really really hard tbh and especially online. im just not very good at like the transitions of friendships like getting closer to someone gradually it kinda confuses me and i always think im doing it wrong. so not picky just bad at it lol

ty 🥺 but i have read a little bit of it yes!! some of the chapters have come up on my timeline and so i've read bits!! just checked ao3 and its complete so i will def put it on my list!! i'll take your word for how good it is!!!

but that writer is so so talented omg i've read a lot of their work it's so so so good - very lovely closeness and care and like just touching to touch

but aaaaa ty yeah!! long time!!! ❤️

*mwah!*

[our-queer-experience]

HI!!!!

first of all, i gotta say that i absolutely love this blog, it's really helpful. thank u so much!!! <3

second, i have a question. is it possible to identify as more than one gender? because i'm currently reading about a lot of different genders, and i feel like there's few matching me, few that i think might be the right ones, the ones that i indetify as. so, just wanted to know, do i have to choose one, or can i identify with a lot of them at the same time?

and, the third thing: thank u again. this blog is really making me realise more stuff about myself and my gender, and it's really nice to just have this one little corner of the internet where i know that people accept me, and won't laugh at me for not knowing everything about myself yet, and figuring it out, and having stupid questions about everything, or for identifying with genders that are kind of... i don't how to say it, because i don't want to use the words ' less popular' in this context because genders are not some kind of trend, but i can't think of any better words, so i gotta use these. identifying with genders that are kind of less popular, that less people have heard about, like cassflux/demicass/librafeminine.

so, yeah, sorry for the ask being so long, again, thank u, and byeee, have a nice day <33333333

✨🦨✨

(adding sparks this time because i feel like i'm finding myself in the descriptions of cassflux and demicass and i feel really happy and bubbly about it)

it is ABSOLUTELY possible to identify with more than one gender! the word for that might be multigender or bigender, and there’s no set meaning for those, and the answer to questions like these is always “you can do whatever you want forever”. if you feel comfortable with it then go do it!

[ryjoyhall]

Update

Thanks to anyone who actually reads my posts. I know I don't post often, and I'm not quite as titillating or interesting as some. This is really just a personal blog that other people can read that I keep private for obvious reasons.

I've been too busy to really contemplate my gender identity. So, I've put it on the back burner again. Partially because I haven't had a chance to really discuss this with a therapist and really come to terms of what this means. Plus, I'm also having a general identity crisis. So, is my gender crisis part of that larger identity crisis, or am I really trans? It's worth ensuring before I make any permanent or semi-permanent decisions.

Also, in my last post I was talking about how I don't think I'd transition well, and I don't want to become what the shitheads on the internet call a "hon." I love all of my trans girlies who transitioned despite what you'd look like. I'm happy for you, and people should be able to transition regardless of whether they'd be aesthetically pleasing others. In a perfect world, appearances wouldn't matter as much as they do. They should matter a little, but not nearly this much.

Unfortunately for me, this means that I'd have to really explore what I'd look like and feel comfortable with that before I even started hormones. I already have enough problems with relationships as it is without adding something that into the mix. As I said in a previous post, I'm not at risk of harming myself over my gender identity.

If I discover I really am trans, I doubt it would have the affect on me that it would have on others, and I'd rather just make the best with what I have. I don't want to risk being miserable as a trans woman, because I put so much weight on whether or not I'm attractive to others. My brain just simply isn't that kind to me. I'd rather be hot than not, and if I can successfully be a hot man, then I'd rather be that and find the feminine parts of myself I desire through other means that stay between me and whoever ends up being my partner.

This wasn't intended to be so long winded, but I needed to get some things out. Okay byeee.

[organichotchoco]

You probably have already made an OC lol

Did you ever have an imaginary friend as a kid? Draw a thing for practice that isn't a character from media? Create a game avatar that is an idealised version of you? All of those are OCs. An OC is just an original character, as long as the character wasn't made by some other media you already have one lol.

Assuming you are thinking of how to make a 'proper' OC:

1. You can't make a good OC first try lol. You edit and edit and edit till you like them, no matter how far they go from their original concept. Your Catgirl original character becoming a furry original character? Perfectly normal. Your dog gaining wings and neon fur? Fair game. You create stuff like this for yourself lol, so no matter how crazy and off topic it gets, do it and enjoy it. And if you don’t enjoy it, change them till you do. If you ask anyone who didn't make their original character 10 minutes ago, chances are they changed at least one thing about their character since they made them, and for those original characters created longer ago, multiple.

2. Cringe is dead, do what makes you happy. Go all out on making a Mary sue character with a crazy tragic backstory who dresses only in black and red. Have fun making a furry character whether or not you are a furry. Make a character the most eyebleeding pink if you want to. While you may find flaws interesting nobody can force you to add them. You can do whatever you want, forever. What is the worst thing that will happen? Some random people on the Internet say something mean to you? They don't matter. Your enjoyment does. The last part doesn't even apply if you decide not to share the character put on the Internet, which is a perfectly fine option I often do lol. There is no wrong way to art cause art is subjective. Going with the last statement....

3. There is no right way to art. There is no all knowing tip, no perfect original character to strive to make. The very idea of a perfect character only boosts anxiety and hurts creativity. If there was a right way to art, then all characters would conform to it, killing off any variety and making all characters the same. Plus as said with 'bad' art, good art is subjective, if anything even more so than 'bad'. How else could there be characters like Barbie and Doomguy, both different but very popular and loved nonetheless. Can either Barbie or Doomguy be the perfect character if both characters are equally loved? Making a perfect character is futile, just make what you like instead. Do what makes you happy.

Also a few ideas I have to help make a character and get out of that mindset:

- Gacha club/life/whatever. Characters are very easy to make there, and if you cannot draw well it let's you visualise the character.

- Take stuff from other characters as inspiration. As long as you don't take the whole thing, take inspiration from other characters you enjoy? I don't watch JoJo but maybe you could give your own original characters the abilities of Killer Queen or Weather Report, or have their memory's be removed in a way similar to the memory disk thingy.

- Draw characters as practise. Like maybe Draw hands in positions and add characters to go with it as a test.

Okie I'ma getting sleepy so this is it lol dm me and I can try helping more later byeee

i've never made an OC before and i really want to but idk where to even start T^T does anyone have any tips???

[audreydoeskaren]

Abridged history of early 20th century Chinese womenswear (part 3.3: 1920s-accessories, hair & makeup)

Source here

Previous posts in the series:

Part 1: 1890s

Part 2: 1900s & 1910s

Part 3.1: 1920s-silhouette

Part 3.2: 1920s-design details

Shoes

By the 1920s, foot binding was obsolete and increasingly rare, so most women had normal sized feet. In the first half of the 20s, women wore what seem to me like modernized versions of 19th century Chinese shoes, usually flat or low heeled pumps made of fabric or leather. These could be plain or decorated with light embroidery (in contrast to the heavy embroidery on shoes of the 19th century).

Source: lai yiching0926 on Pinterest

Ad from 1920

By around 1926 these were completely, utterly replaced by Western women’s shoes, which were usually mid or high heeled pumps or Oxfords (T straps did exist but were not common, please stop this stereotype immediately). These were characterized by pointed toes and curved heels. There are plenty of people on the Internet who understand historical Western women’s shoes better than me so please get this information from them.

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Late 20s/early 30s two toned pumps with a single strap.

Source: HA! Designs - Artbyheather on Flickr, link 

1925 Sears catalogue. Later 20s shoes would have higher and thinner heels though.

Accessories

Chinese and Western accessories were all socially acceptable and could be chosen depending on the person’s overall style and preference, much like in the previous three decades. Those who opted for a more modern Deco look could wear scarves, pearl necklaces and Western earrings. For a Chinese look, jade earrings, hairpins and flower headpieces could be worn, although these became less common in the 20s than they were in the 1910s. Jade earrings were really popular among all women in this era though. Wristwatches could be worn, replacing the pocket watches popular in the previous decades. Jewelry was, in general, just really popular.

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Scarves and earrings, notice the sun shaped beading.

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Pearl necklace.

Undergarments

As I mentioned earlier, Chinese women began wearing Western undergarments around this time and they were quite innovative in this period. Undergarments could have many different forms depending on which company they were produced by, but the most common options were either a slip dress/petticoat with thin straps or the combination of a camisole plus a pair of drawers. Some curvier Western women wore elastic girdles in this period to flatten their chests and bums in order to achieve the fashionable flat look, Chinese women did the same because the 1920s Chinese silhouette was also very flat and no emphasis was placed on the breasts whatsoever. The flat chested look has been in vogue since at least the Ming Dynasty and Chinese women had history of wearing breast binding undergarments to flatten their chests, so this trend conveniently continued into the 1920s until it became obsolete in the 30s. There is a great article on breast binding in China here, it’s in Chinese but I think Google translate works just fine :)

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1925 Butterick catalogue.

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20s girdles/corsets for flattening the chest and bum.

Hair

I have minimal knowledge in hairstyling, but I can say with confidence that 1920s Chinese hairstyles were mostly contemporary Western hairstyles with Chinese touches. Short bobs were the most popular, including variations with bangs. Bangs could be continuous like those of Western women, or they could be a single section in the middle of the forehead. Side parts existed as well. More conservative women would keep their long hair and roll them into buns or rolls at the back. Toward the end of the 20s fingerwaves became increasing fashionable too.

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Short bob with continuous bangs.

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Long hair rolled back, with a section of bangs.

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Early 30s fingerwave.

Makeup

Visible makeup became more socially acceptable in the second half of the 20s, although it was still quite subtle by 21st century standards. China did have a long-running history of cosmetics manufacturing and women throughout Chinese history have used makeup, but in the early 20th century handmade Chinese cosmetics were not able to compete with the quality and quantity of chemically, industrially produced Western cosmetics anymore. Chinese women emulated Western makeup to match fashionable clothing and used products from Western companies. Visible makeup only became popular very recently in the West as well, so makeup companies were just beginning to innovate. A noteworthy trend was the thin, elongated eyebrows that required women to pluck their natural eyebrows and darken them. Red and mauve lipstick shades were quite popular, usually applied according to the natural shape of the lips, with the center being slightly plumper than the sides. Women applied light pink blush liberally in a large oval shape, eyeshadow of a similar hue to the blush could be used and it was also applied quite generously to the entirety of the eyelids. 

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Late 20s/early 30s look.

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If you’ve made it this far I just want to say thank you for reading, it gives me so much motivation to write about this subject seeing that some people actually would like to know about it. There are a lot of things I need to verify about the 1930s so it may be a while until I could post part 4, but I will try to get it done as quickly as possible. Byeee

[elareine]

JayTimSpooktober - Cryptids

“I don’t get it.”

“It’s a shadow,” Tim explained patiently.

Jason rolled his eyes. “Yes, I can see that, thank you. Why are you pointing a camera at it?”

“It might move.”

“It hasn’t done shit during the week you set up surveillance, but it will move now that we’re here with an entire crew and your camcorder, staring at it?”

“Maybe it’s into that.”

“Did you just imply that this Shadow… person… is kinky?”

Tim smirked. “You went there, not me.”

In a flash, Jason was up and walking toward the end of the small alley.

“Hey, Shadow Person!” he called out. “I’m getting a bit bored here. Wanna get kinky with your shadow tentacles?”

Tim groaned. “Jason…”

“Not even some shadow theatre?” Jason asked. “Everyone can do a dog and a tree. C’mon. Gimme something, I’m dying of boredom.”

Tim jumped up, something like genuine fear on his face. “Jason! I told you to stop provoking them, what if—“

Jason scoffed. “What’s the worst that could happen?”

“People disappeared, Jason! We don’t know the answer to that, but it’s nothing good.” Coming to a stop next to Jason, Tim shivered. “Whoa. That’s quite the cold spot.”

“The freezer from the restaurant on the other side of the wall, you mean.”

“That would send out heat, not cold,” Tim shot back.

With a sigh, Jason slid off his jacket and draped it around the shorter man’s shoulders. “Sure. It’s totally a cold spot.” A wink at the camera. “Nothing else it could be. That’s why I’m fine with my shirt. Nothing to do with you being a total bean.”

Tim glared at him, but when they went back to their observational posts, he snuggled into the jacket all the same. “What’s got you so riled up about this one?” he asked.

Jason ran a hand through his hair. Shrugged. “Dunno. I just don’t get why this particular alley is any scarier then thousands of others in Gotham.”

“A kid is supposed to have died here.”

“Again—how’s that different from the rest of Gotham?”

“You know as well as I do that violence leaves a mark.”

Okay, Jason couldn’t argue with that, so he tried a different tack. “Even if this—this Shadow person exists—and that’s a huge if—what’s the big deal? I always wonder about that.”

Tim raised an eyebrow. “You wonder what’s the big deal about a Shadow Person that snatches those that walk by?”

“Yeah! That’s just your ordinary vigilante. Or, like, take the Yeti. What’s so cool about a hairy dude in the mountains eating tourists? At worst, that’s a serial killer. Nothing interesting about these dudes.”

“We have no actual evidence they eat people.”

“We have no actual evidence they exist, Tim.”

“We do!” Tim’s cheeks flushed, as always when he got into his area of specialty. “What else do you call the Indian army tweeting about it? And there was that one picture—“

Jason leaned back, the small smile on his face hidden from the camera, as Tim rambled on and on and on, only stopping when the sun finally rose.

After, when the crew had left and it was just the two of them debriefing, Jason said: “That was a nice touch, don’t you think? Nothing to talk about, no monster to speak of, so let’s bring up the Yeti.”

“I know you play it up the cameras, Jay,” Tim told him. “And the viewers love it. But deep down, I think you know I’m onto something here.”

“Keep telling yourself that, Drake.” Jason shifted uncomfortably. Something in Tim’s blue eyes was disconcerting.

“Oh, you can keep denying all you want, but I’ll have you admit it eventually.”

Jason couldn’t help but grin. “You’ll just have to convince me.”

Tim leaned forward and pressed a kiss to his cheek. Then, while Jason gaped at him, stunned, he ran, hastily calling out: “LookingForwardToIt—byeee!”

Jason stared after him. His cheek burned when he lifted a hand to touch it. That was—did that mean—

…it meant he was acting like a schoolgirl in the fourteenth episode of an anime, that’s what it meant. He turned to the shadows. “Not a word.”

The darkness stayed silent. Good for it.

“Now, you seem to be new, so I’m cutting you some slack. This is my city. If you wanna feast on those who harm others, be my guest. I’m not gonna complain if some would-be rapists were to, say, vanish from the corner of Johnson and Third. But if you touch anyone innocent—or anyone that is mine—I will find you, and I will burn out what little is left of your miserable little existence. Understood?”

Jason let his eyes turn green just a little bit, a mere hint of what it was dealing with. It was enough for the shadow to shrink.

Jason nodded, satisfied. “Good night. Let’s not do this again.”

As he walked away, secure in the knowledge that nothing and no-one would block his path, he considered today’s filming. Tim was right—the people loved their banter. Team Sceptic vs. Team Believer and all that. Jason had seen shirts. Today’s subject would be fresh and exciting enough to keep the discussion going.

A Shade. Who knew. You’d think Gotham would be full of them, but this was actually the first one Jason had come across.

That was the thing with cryptids, though. Hard to predict which ones were real and which one only existed in the collective mind of an internet forum. And sometimes, the lines between those blurred. Just ask the Slenderman. Guy was a bit of a dick, though, so Jason didn’t exactly feel sorry for him.

He actually had no idea about the Yeti or the Chupacabra. The only reason Jason knew that Mothman was real was that he’d accidentally ran into him on a road trip once. Like called to like, and all that. The Lizard Man of Swamp Ore was, sadly, either a myth or very shy. Jason had spent enough time with Tim in that miserable tent to know.

Or maybe, the Lizard Man had just been afraid of him. It didn’t matter.

What mattered that Tim—sweet, curious, sharp-tongued Tim, the boy that Jason had met ten feet away from a vampire nest and had offered to start a show with just to stop him from entering—was safe. Would be safe, as long as Jason was by his side. The funny internet discussions were just a bonus.

[barnesbabee]

oh you're actually leaving. thought you were joking. :( byeee enjoy .... whatever is ahead i guess lols

To whomever it may concern

I've decided that even if it comes out that their dating scandal is not true, I've decided to leave tumblr behind as well as kpop

Someone's life decisions shouldn't impact me like this. It's not normal nor healthy. My reaction was very extreme and I'm not proud of it but I can't help the fact that I feel this way, and it's not correct.

I am also not proud of what my blog has become, through my unpopular opinions I have shared and received hate and that's not what I wanted, all I wanted was to debate with people that knew more than I did because I was uneducated in a lot of things when I came here.

I have to accept that kpop will never be the same kpop I loved back then, a neither will the community. The kpop community has grown to be very, very toxic, and just a place that I don't want to be in anymore.

Kpop was something very big in my life but I feel like I have to move on and give it less importance from now on

As I said, it's become a very toxic environment and it's not healthy

To be honest the only reason I held onto this blog was because I loved the interactions and discussions (not fights, discussions) I have with you guys, its genuinely fun and interesting to have this much interaction

To be fair I havent put in a kpop song to casually listen to while I'm cleaning, driving or just relaxing in months. And I didn't realize it up until now when I've decided to leave the community. There's songs that will always live in my heart. Haru Haru will forever be a song that I love dearly. It wasn't about the music anymore and that should be all kpop is about. The music.

But the bad outweighs the good and I feel like I need to grow a little and stop the 'I won't leave out of spite 💅' ordeal and finally leave

It's just not worth it anymore

It was tiring always looking over my shoulder and always having the feeling people were mocking me, and always being filled with hate

I wasn't putting a tough front when I said I didn't care about the hate, no matter what anyone told me, I never did care. I've lived a life where I've had a lot of stuff said to me, and I've learned some people aren't gonna like me, so what? It's the internet, tough shit someone hates me. But yes, it wasn't nice receiving hate, it never is. And it got tiring always havung to watch my mouth and whatnot...

Writing stopped being fun a long time ago, it started being repeating and I felt like was creativity had to be limited to write smut because you wouldn't really support anything else, as it was proved by that last fic I posted. It's not your fault at all, you read and support what you want, it was just discouraging to me.

Take care of your creators here in this platform

I wish you all, even the ones I hate, all the best

To all my mutuals and dear anons, thank you for sticking with me, thank you for all the unconditional love and support, I hope life smiles at you and I wish you all the happiness in the world, if you need me you know where to find me

I believe this decision was for the best, it's already hard coordinating my life at home and at uni (2 different houses, 4 different friend groups, exams, real life dramas...), I don't need to have more drama and more stuff to keep up with, I feel like this will give me a lot of peace of mind now that I'm trying to reduce how much I hate everything, I just want to be ok, and I feel like stepping away will do that

Thank you for allowing me to have one last dance

- Trixie

PS. I will be deleting all I said about this issue tomorrow, I don't want the last posts of my blog to be filled with hate

[justmywriting1313]

I Passed (I think) And I Am Back!!! (For some time) (Fic schedule and just some FYI’s)

Heyyoooo loves!!! I hope you guys are having an amazing week besides quarantine and whatnot and are safe, happy and healthy!!!😊😊

Okay so I am posting this for a couple reasons... The first is to say I am SOOOOOO SORRYYYYY I haven’t been responding to asks, messages, and requests!!!!! If any of you take psychology or have studied it you guys know its very very very difficult. Despite enjoying it i am so close to having a mental breakdown every-time i see my book. Besides taking a stupid hard course i take 7 courses in total 😖😖... Yes I am well aware that I am very dumb for torturing myself like that haha but anyway I also have a side job of selling art (Paintings/ Portraits) so I can make some extra cash to support myself. You guys can imagine how busy that had made me!! But for the next two weeks I have no courses so I promise to reply on time (that includes the ones i am yet to reply to 😅😅) and post One fic every two three days!

The second thing I want to say is a HUGE GINORMOUS MASSIVE THANK YOU! 🥺🥺🥺 I expressed on the top of my last fic that some people had been mean to me about fic writing because I take so long (separate notes: if you put ‘You are Worth it’ together its 11 fricking thousand words...omg!!) However, the amount of people who sent in submissions and messages telling me how much they love my fics and that its okay for me to take time honestly made me tear up. I get stressed super easily so when i read them they literally made me so happy and excited to write more fics. On top of that i don’t often stand up to people cause i think why bother especially on the internet and so for the first time i did and SOO MANY OF YOU SUPPORTED MEEEEEE!!!! YYAYAYAY!!! I am so grateful and reply to each one of you but still wanted to say a collective thankyou!! 💖💖💖

Okay Third thing, So if any of you have read my bio you know I have ADHD. For those of you who dont know it roughly means organisation, attention and just focusing does not come naturally to me. Why i am telling you this is because it explains why I have a hard time texting back cause i usually put it in the back of my head and then forget about it. I cant promise ill fix it right away but ill promise to do my best that I can!!!!!

Okay Last thing which is Fic related and so you guys might notice/care about more 😂😂😂 Okay soooo I had started this blog a long time back however I didnt think I was any good at the time so I didn't continue posting stuff. Then I put the ‘You are Worth It’ fic for Lucifer and honestly the reaction I got to that was so heartwarming!!! (Ps if you ever ever ever feel that way I am right here... believe me when I say I know how it feels. I am a curvy Indian writer/ painter! You guys have no idea how much I have stood out and have felt the way the m/c in that fic did so I will always be open to listen without any judgement whatsoever if you ever feel the need to talk to someone!!!!)  So I continued writing and put out the other parts to that fic as well as a Beel fic and despite that not doing as well I am still so happy to see you guys liked it. Earlier I was going to stop putting up anymore out but i’ve decided I will continue the blog and hopefully give you guys writing you love just as much 🥰🥰🥰 However I wont lie it gets a bit overwhelming so I thought best to put a few rules up (and also tell you all the fandoms i write for).

RULES: 

Some of these Fics are very clearly 18+ so pretty please if you are below 18 don’t read them. I am trusting you guys enough (I have a feeling I will regret this) so if you are not 18 then don’t read them!!!!! I will make plenty of all-user-friendly ones so yeah! 

Second I refuse to write anything even remotely Racist and sexist. Also if I am not comfortable with a certain kink/ type of fic I WILL NOT WRITE IT. I am happy to write whatever you request but if I am not comfortable with it I will let you know so please understand and respect my boundaries. 

If the characters in the fandom are related I am sorry it’s not happening. If they are sharing an experience with M/C? Sure! For example Beel x M/C x Belphie? Perfect! However Beel x Belphie is NOT happening. 

Lastly Do not Harass me about a certain request. If you have requested something be patient and if you still want to now the status of it just drop me a polite message and i’ll be more than happy to tell you. (this also helps me remember just incase i forget) 

FIC SCHEDULE:

Okay now for the fic schedule of what to expect in the next month. I am not giving dates for all of them cause honestly i am scared of what you guys will do so this is just rough. Also for those who sent the ask ill tag you guys and for the anonymous ones... yeah idk hehehe 🥰 A- Angst/ F- Fluff / S- Smut. Also firstly crossed out fic titles mean i’ve already put them up and they are finished secondly once this list ends i’ll put out another fic schedule with the next fic’s that are in progress just being edited!

Also I’ll try to sprinkle in some HC’s in between so i keep giving some kind of writing!

Two can Play at that Game... (Mammon x M/C) Multiple parts and very smutty. 18+                                                                                    (Hopefully in the coming week) A/F/S

 I am Here... I’ll always be here (Diavolo x M/C) Multiple parts A/F

The Italian Way of Life (Beel x M/C) Don’t know how many parts F

Compliments (Beel x M/C) (This is the ‘You are Worth it!!’ but with Beel instead) Multiple parts A/F/S

Smile For me! (Demon bros x M/C) Multiple parts A/F

Stay (Lucifer x M/C) Two different endings A/F/S

My Own Slice of Heaven (Diavolo x M/C) Multiple Parts F/S 

Thats it for now but ill probably add more later after replying to everyones submissions and messages to see the new requests. For now lets see if i can even do all of these. 

OTHER FANDOMS I WRITE FOR:

MARVEL 

BATBOYS (technically dc i guess) 

STAR TREK 

PEAKY BLINDERS 

LOTR AND THE HOBBIT

Okay honestly I have so many i cant even remember so as and when i remember ill add 😂😂

Okieeeee I think thats a wrap sorry thats so long but anyway please drop in more requests and asks and don’t forget to reblog!!!! Love you guysssss and byeee  

[coombayayaya]

Disclaiming “How to Know if He Likes You” Posts (1/11/2019)

I think this post is necessary for the internet and for the sake of all peoples

Hi, so... Okay, long story short, from the last time I wrote about Mr Kito to now, I’ve gotten over him. In fact, I’ve learned to “despise” him in a sort of way which will perhaps be explained in the future, but for now, I’ll explain what’s going down.

Okay so I’ve liked this other kid for a while that’s sheer perfection as far as I know, but anyways, we’re getting closer as friends, BUT HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND, and I’m trying to convince myself he doesn’t like me because there’s a 99.99% chance that he doesn’t like me with that .01% being the miracle percentage. Since I’m still hopeful and stupid, I look up the Google search I’m sure all of us have searched before. “How to know if he [or she, or they, I don’t know, it’s 2019] likes you”. I click on one of the results that are good, and I start reading the list that was all too familiar to me, and with each “object” on the list, I realize that he does all of these things, but I also realize that guys can do those things in general, so this goes to all you girls, guys, and nonbinary pals out there that read those lists and believe them: Don’t read those lists and only look for those traits in him believing that he does like you because those could just be coincidences, and I don’t want to hear that “oH bUt If hE ShOws aLl Of tHesE TrAitS iT’s 100% TrUe” because it’s not. I’m sorry to break it to you honey, but it’s not. It’s possible, I’ll give you that, but it’s not guaranteed. So wish me luck with this kid, and I hope you all have some kind of luck... Byeee!!!

[wuffen]

i did it oh god

thanks for the questions

transcript under cut so you can like actually make some sense of what i’m saying (my apologies to anyone on mobile bc shit is long)

Yeah so um. I'm doing this again, apparently. This time I'm gonna try and edit it too so hopefully there'll be, like, less stammering and shit. But um, I'm not very confident. So I'll post it with a transcript. Okay. So, questions. Let's go.

How tall are you? - I am 175 centimeters tall. That is like five feet and nine-ish inches or something in American. I think.

What are your goals for the month, or for what's left of this year? - My goal for this month is to not die, and my goal for this year is to finally finish that one graphic novel that's been ruining my life for over two years. I just wanna get that shit over with so I can, you know, relax and dedicate my time to drawing cute boys making out without feeling guilty about it.

What do you like to do when you're bored? - I dunno, cry and whine for attention on the internet, mostly. Obviously.

What's your favorite food? - All green vegetables, basically. And curry, and tofu, and most vegan things, honestly.

What's a present you would like to get? - I like books. Like, bring me your favorite novel. That way I get a new book and also learn something about you. Or just get me the ugliest houseplant you can find, whichever you prefer.

Tell us about your first love? - Oh shit that's so embarrassing, oh god. I was like 13 or something and he was 22 so yeah that was not gonna happen, but I was so fucking desperately in love with him like whoa, like, you know how 13-year-olds are. It's… It was amazing. Like, amazingly bad. Like, cringe-worthy as shit and I feel so sorry for him for having to deal with it. And me. He was a really nice guy though, you know he helped me through a lot of shit and I think you could've considered us friends. Kind of. Of course the power imbalance made him, you know, more like a big brother figure I guess. But man I loved him. Great dude, hot as hell. Great voice. Honestly if I met him now and he was up for it I would not say no. I feel like when I fall in love with someone I sort of like, low key stay in love with them forever. Probably because I never get to like fall out of love with them since I don't actually date them, I just, like, put distance between us to make it easier to deal with so it kinda stays dormant, but yeah it's easy enough to reactivate that shit.

What's your favorite smell? - Smoke, gasoline, winter air, my dog's fur, lilacs, wet pavement. And like, all earthy smells. Like decomposing leaves and stuff. Forest smells.

What would you consider as too old to date, like age-gap-wise? - I honestly don't know. I feel like anything older than like 35 would require a lot of work but I think I would be ready to try it out with anyone up to like 50-ish, maybe? Maybe that's too old. I don't know. 40, 45? Something like that. Probably.

If you'd ever have children, how would you name them? - Well I'm never ever going to have children because I absolutely cannot stand kids and also the idea of being responsible for another human being freaks the shit out of me. Also I'm sterile (thank god). So uh. No. But like, I like gender-neutral nature-themed names. For everyone, be it kids or pets or whatever.

What is a peaceful image you'd like to experience? - Um. Anything that has me sleepily cuddling with a dude I love and who loves me. Maybe like, in summer, by a lake somewhere in the middle of nowhere. We've been making pancakes outside and his hair smells like woodsmoke, and our two dogs are splashing in the water and we're listening to birdcalls echoing on the calm lake, and, you know, at sunset we'll take our two kayaks out and paddle along the shore to see how the swan family on the other side of the island is doing. You know, cute shit like that. Oh crap I made myself sad, I'm gonna stop.

Say something in your native language: - Tää on niin mun suosikkikehotus, ku niiku mitä vittua mä muka sanon? Hei oon Wolf, ja oon 26-vuotias ja asun Helsingissä, pelkään ihmisiä ja tykkään piirtää kun söpöt pojat pussaa. Tulipa jotenki hirveesti S-kirjaimia tähän. Espoo-ässä suhisee saatana. (”This is like my favorite request, like what the fuck am I supposed to say? Hi I’m Wolf and I’m 26 years old and live in Helsinki, I’m afraid of people and like to draw cute boys kissing. Got a lot of the letter S on this. Goddamn Espoo S whizzing away.”)

And finally, here's a question: Are you a top or a bottom? - Um. Yeah wow okay. Uh. Bottom. Honestly. I think. Probably versatile with the right partner, but I don't know. Haven't had much experience so who knows.

Okay I guess that's a natural place to stop. Yeah. Thanks for listening and… yeah. Byeee~

[pixies-and-kitties]

Hey guys yeah

This is super real and if you or someone you know suffers from misophonia, PLEASE buy them AirPods and/or an Apple Watch this Christmas. They’ve been saving my life.

I suffer BAD from misophonia. At this point I’ll do anything to make excuses to run away from any of my trigger sounds of people eating (and other sounds as well, but that’s my biggest one). Not exaggerating, I will quietly literally fast walk away and go hide in a bathroom just to get away from these sounds. Sitting there and listening to them directly puts me in such a severe state of fight/flight/freeze that I’d rather look like a freshman late for class and be in the “bathroom” so long everyone’s probably convinced I’m taking a huge... anyways.

AIRPODS.

Half the time people don’t notice they’re in. If they do they may treat you kinda different at first or ask about it, just tell them you like to have some background sound. No one really cares that much as long as you can hear them and respond.

Sometimes I even just have them in with nothing on. And it’s like sound is just muffled 10%, which is sometimes enough. But nothing’s more comforting than being able to flip to your phone in an instant if your eye catches someone picking up and starting to open a bag of chips. For those who have miso - we all know that that first bite of chip is like an immediate stab that shocks through you. The AirPods are like my shield in the battle that is the Outdoor World™️

APPLE WATCH

Okay

So. We all know AirPods rule. I’m not the only miso on the internet to figure that out. You can read articles upon articles of disappointing stories of miso people who’s only solution to this disease is to plug uncomfortable earplugs or drown out blasting metal music at max volume in the AirPods. And that really sucks when someone’s literally talking to you and you HAVE to pull your fucking phone out to turn it down and they get annoyed and NO ONE actually understands why you HAVE to always wear those damn ear plugs or headphones. So rude right. How dare us and our bizarre neurological disorder not be able to hear their every word in between deafening crunches. This right here is where APPLE WATCH COMES TO THE RESCUE *cue spotlight* with the Apple Watch, not only do you look like a bamf spy with all the power of a computer right there on your wrist, it can control ...the AirPods. At the touch of your wrist you can not only just press pause and play of music you already picked out on your phone earlier just for this occasion, you can also use the little side dial to CONTROL THE VOLUME. Having just quiet music in the background or, if I’m alone or not conversating, just a really interesting podcast, I feel safe. I am not bursting my eardrums and forever damaging my ears trying to not even risk hearing someone eat in the cube next to me at work. I am not having to pull my phone out every time I wanna turn up or down music so I can hear the person speaking to me. I just have to subtly reach for my wrist, and as long as the screen has loaded onto the music screen and you opened up the display, viola, your shield and protection now even more accessible and awesome than a phone.

Seriously go play with one at the Apple store. This combination makes my life ....survivable in these trying times. Be aware that with the holidays, 68% of people (or more) are experiencing much more severe mental illness activity. This includes anxiety/depression which in turn affects how triggered you get. So with all the family dinners coming up. Look around online for sales. Get a used one off your local Facebook or other social media’s (I like nextdoor). Who cares if it’s got a little history. It’s a watch. You’re gonna hit it on stuff. Buy the cool looking leather or metal bands off amazon. Get it for your girlfriend so she can protect herself at dinner from your chewing. Also I love you all and I hope someone reads this and it helps them okie byeee <3

Can we talk about how helpful AirPods are for people with misophonia?

The idea of having something very small and easily accessible to block out noise sounds like a dream.

[lovemesomesurveys]

Would you rather have a smoothie from McDonald’s or make one yourself? It’s rare I’d even be having a smoothie in the first place, but I guess one from McDonald’s. I can’t be bothered to make one myself, ha. Do you follow any special diet? (dairy free, vegetarian, gluten free etc.) I try and eat a lot of protein. What is your highest level of education? I have my BA. What’s your favourite summer activity? The only thing I like about summer is if I’m able to go to the beach. Otherwise, summer can shove it. How old is the oldest movie you like very much? 80s.

What is the most annoying thing about other people? Some people tend to just find something to complain about no matter what the situation is. Like they just look for things to be upset about, and a lot of times it’s a real stretch and just absolutely ridiculous.  What’s something that easily distracts you? Social media. What is an appliance you don’t have, but would love to have? A deep fryer, ha. I like fried foods.  Have you seen the good or the bad ending of Little Shop of Horrors? I’ve never seen the movie period. I also have never heard about there being a good and bad ending. How about the multiple endings of the movie, Clue? I think I’ve seen parts of that movie before, but I also didn’t know there were multiple endings of it. What sort of movies do you like to watch over and over again? Romantic comedies, typically.  How would you spice up a boring quick meal, like instant ramen? I just like to add shredded cheese to mine. I get this shredded cheese mix called taco blend or something and it’s a mix of cheeses. Super good. What is a food you can eat for days without getting bored? For almost 3 weeks it’s been sandwiches, deli pastas, breakfast burritos, and Ramen. What is something you do weekly? I have an in-home nurse that comes twice a week. Would you rather have a waffle iron or a sandwich toaster? Sandwich toaster. What’s the most impressive thing you can do with only one hand? I can’t think of anything impressive. Do you celebrate Midsummer/summer solstice? No. Today is the first day of summer and I got that summertime sadness. Go awayyyy. Ever experienced the nightless night? (sun doesn’t go below the horizon) Wow, no. What’s something new you want to try but haven’t yet? The Sims 4 just released a beach expansion pack and I really want to play. What’s the nicest thing anyone’s ever said to you? Uhhh. What is the most outrageous hairstyle you’d be willing to try even once? I’m not very bold and adventurous, so I don’t know. I’m too self-conscious.  Or does the idea of cutting your hair freak you out? It doesn’t freak me out, but I definitely don’t want to cut my hair right now. It took me too long to grow it out. What’s the most outrageous hairstyle you’ve had so far? Dying my hair red was the most bold thing I’ve done with my hair. Do you use stairs a lot on a daily basis? I never use the stairs. On an ordinary day, is this what you normally do at this hour? What I’m doing now. Which keys on your keyboard are worn out the most? None are. Since what year have you been actively using the Internet? Since like 2000.  What’s something that would make only you extremely excited? Hm. I don’t know. They’re remaking the first Child’s Play movie. Thoughts? I want to see it. It looks like they’re getting back to when it was good and it looks creepy. Sorry, but I do not like the Rob Zombie versions at all. If you could be any supervillain, which would you be? *shrug* Do you have a favourite Catwoman? No. Ever watched the TV-show, Gotham? Nope. Is there an article of clothing you like to wear, but never do publicly? Not really. Any plans for tomorrow? Nope. I’m outta questions, got anything you’d like to say? :D Byeee.

[yoda--pcy]

5 YEARS??????

i’ve only been an exo-l (i dont even know if i can call myself that yet) for about four weeks yet it feels like i’ve been here for five years and its crazy how much these guys actually meant to me and like i said,its crazy because i havent felt this way since one direction lmao help i havent even liked exo for that long yet i feel like im already way in too deep in this shit and at times i feel like i should stop but at the end of the day, i will always be in my room watching exo crack videos and laughing my lame ass off because of them omg i should stop but i cant even begin to tell you how proud i am to see these guys still doing what they love even after 5 years of fame and i can really feel the emotion going on around because ive gone through 6 years with one direction so i felt like going through it again is still a hard thing to do especially since ive just started liking exo omg yall i feel so emotional and i feel like i dont really have the rights to be emotional abt this because heck i havent been here that long but i felt really welcomed to this fandom and omg i love you people so so so so much and have i mentioned how much i love exo too? well i love them even more so than i love the internet so thats saying something okay okay bye i should stop this word vomit bye bye byeee