#CANNOT be normal 💀💀
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i need to stop tempting myself this is ridiculous. am i ovulating or something. why the hell am i only wanting to write porn. like endless thousands of words of porn. i have other things
#i am dragging myself??#to my blog that i love6?#to write something normal??#because i want to write nothing but depravity????#i dont even know what it means to ovulate my hormones are so fucked up but the amount that i am daydreaming#about having will pressed in half and sobbing#CANNOT be normal 💀💀#i came up with five fucking new fics in two hours
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Cannot even begin to express how badly i need a relationship where i ask them to bring me some comfy clothes and they bring me their own clothes instead of mine
#wlw#wlw mood#sapphic#sapphism#lesbian#i am once again talking about how clothes sharing is the hottest thing on this earth#sorry#don’t try to put me in your clothes unless you want me to kiss you fr#and do NOT wear my clothes unless you also want me to kiss you#like i cannot express how Not Normal i am about clothes sharing it’s embarrassing tbh#sometimes i look at all my clothes and try to figure out which things i would want someone to wear#and sometimes i put on my extra big and comfortable fav tshirt and wish someone would let me wear THEIR extra big comfortable tshirt#im like….i could just mail my clothes to them if it’s long distance#ya girl thinks about it TOO much#it’s embarrassing as hell😔#giving me ur clothes is in the top three easiest ways to seduce me and i am not kidding💀💀#im gay and i like sleeping
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sighs. okay. i'm down bad. and i hope you all won't judge me too much if i start posting the wiggly-dancing coffee man 😭😭
#another instance of 'i forget that having a crush on a real person rather than a fictional character is the NORMAL thing for most people' 🙈💖#and i also have to say that my feelings on ESC are VERY complicated at the moment#but honestly i feel comfortable posting about a dude who sang a song with the lyric 'Fuck the EBU' 💀💀#at least gonna try to treat it with more decorum than DW did!!!#80% of you will have no idea what i'm talking about and that's for the best. just. fixations cannot be helped 😭#it's not like i'd stop posting about Käärijä or Daði Freyr - i think the performers are separate to the event itself#starleskatalks
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🚨 UPDATE ON THE 5SOS SHOW TOUR CHICAGO SITUATION 🚨
#oh 🤸🏻♀️ my 🤸🏻♀️🤸🏻♀️ god 💀???#5sos#5 seconds of summer#luke hemmings#luke#the 5sos show tour Chicago#kh4f post#what the FUCK IS THIS#WHAT 👹 IS 👹 THIS 👹#I CANNOT GET ONE MOMENT OF PEACE#THIS ISN'T EVEN MY LANE#WHY IS THIS ME LIFE#EVERY GODDAMN NIGHT THIS HAPPENS TO ME LUKE HEMMINGS#STOP THIS#🤸🏻♀️👹🤸🏻♀️👹🤸🏻♀️👹🤸🏻♀️👹🤸🏻♀️👹🤸🏻♀️👹🤸🏻♀️👹🤸🏻♀️👹🤸🏻♀️👹🤸🏻♀️😛🤡🫦🧎🏻♀️👉🏻👌#EVERY FUCKING NIGHT 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#I HAVE NEVER FELT MORE SANE#for normal reasons#the 5sos show tour
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good morning 🫶🏼 i had a dream that one of yall randomly tried to cancel me and allie and created a list of “banned words” and would automatically soft block mutuals for using but they were like normal words 💀
#I cannot stress how normal and completely mundane#it was like ‘if you joke about force shipping idc if it’s a joke i soft block’#they also said we ‘both appeared allistic from what i can tell’#wtf was that dream 💀#﹝ooc﹞❝ it's just dumblr rp,carol. ❞
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ahsjfkglhjhsh having an INSANE moment because i play genshin with the chinese audio and what do you MEAN that’s alhaitham talking in the trailer for cyno’s second story quest what do you MEAN
#haino#cyhaino#cytham#alhaitham#cyno#oughhhhh im insane im going INSANE#i straight up didn’t know what he sounded like in english#💀💀💀#i usually don’t even WATCH the trailers since i don’t like the english voices lol#but i watched this one for cyno OBVIOUSLY#and was like ‘lol i can’t tell who that is!!’ with the fontaine siblings talking#i didnt even THINK that ALHAITHAM would be in cyno’s section#no one say syke i s2g#hnbnnggg everyone be quiet i need a second#god they’re SO—#yall CANNOT tell me that i get to see both of them again#in the same sq#in a sq dedicated to CYNO#BOTH OF THEM#im ILL at this#like even if he’s only there for like a second im still never going to recover#haino stay out of each other’s story quests challenge (impossible??)#like—#sorry there’s no way i’ll be able to be normal about this#i MISSED them😭❤️
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fucking OURGHHHHy
#vent post uwu i thought i was good now but we are so fucking back alas#chat is it normal to hate your mother for giving birth to you 💀#like im not really mad about her being fucking insane while raising me or whatever. im mad that she like. decided to have a kid at all#like genuinely thats the one thing i cannot forgive lol anyway.#my fault i admit. for slipping and saying out loud that im ugly next to her but i was really really clawing-at-my-face-level frustrated#but her saying to 'just let it go' cause its 'annoying' like lol&lmao easy to say for you bitch you've always been fucking gorgeous#you have no idea what it feels like to have to look in the mirror and see ✨this✨ every goddamn time.#let alone see yourself in pictures taken by someone else 🤡#like sorry but nothing infuriates me more than objectively beautiful women telling you to 💕love yourself#bitch lets switch and see how you 💕love yourself when you look like me#she's lived her 20s looking like goddamn hedy l/amarr and she has the nerve to tell me im annoying#because i nearly broke down at the brafitters and maybe let a few tears slip yesterday#and today i let my guard down and said out loud why im sad. which i avoid doing like fire because god forbid im annoying to my mom#idk bitch im so tired of living like this it sure is fucking annoying#not her fault really. she's a genuinely great mom. i just hate being alive lol#'did you see what she looks like' yeah bitch i see it every day#and believe me when i say that i still find it almost as shocking as you that a person can look like this. you're not alone in this <33
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#i’m 99% sure one of my college friends is about to tell me she’s pregnant#sjfkjskfs she texted me asking if we can catch up this week and we p much don’t talk so that’s weird#but she did say last yr she wanted to start a family soon#so now i have 3 days to emotionally prepare to care about a pregnancy announcement FHSKJSJSJD#idk as a childfree by choice person i just don’t find it exciting 😭😭😭 i don’t hate kids i love my nieces and nephews dearly#but like genuinely cannot fathom what it feels like to want to start a family and if she wants that i’m happy for her#but i’m not what’s considered the normal amount of happy 💀#if i said what i wanted to say which is ‘oh nice im happy for u’ i would get called a sociopath probably#but fr being 29 is wild i feel like everyone around me has baby fever like get me OUTTTTT OF HEREEEEE#honestly thank god i found at least 2 close friends who also have 99% settled on being childfree otherwise id lose my damn mind#delete later
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having what can only be described as an anxiety attack and making a timeline (with fake specific dates) to figure out how old henry bacon is in order to decide A) whether he ever saw active combat while he was in the army and B) whether there is an ongoing conflict at the time of the fire eternal for one line (thats 1, count em, 1 line) of my fanfic in which tam says it makes sense that henry became a librarian becuase it's the most military-adjacent job on the market and there are 'no active wars on rn' (because he is obviously heavily involved in the news and i cant have him say something so obviosuly accurate/innacuarate).
now, i could've removed that line the first time i spiralled over it, but then we would've lost out on me spending 45 minutes researching eight different things every time i re-opened the doc and read it instead of taking another propanolol. and THEN (because i spent 2 years researching it at college to the point i got a 98 on the coursework) getting distressed over the question: IS THE USSR STILL INTACT????? (it is not, if we make the assumption that we're in 2001. also this is a loaded question depending on your idea of 'intact')
i worked up an entire timeline to figure out if the iraq war is on and then and only then though hmmm is this perhaps an OCD spiral. are we perhaps thinking more about this than chris d'lacey ever did. should we have an icepop and chill the fuck out perhaps?
#rangnar rambles#things i got cancelled over in my head while i didnt write a word for 30 minutes: saying henry bacon was in ireland during the conflicts#(hes too old and i also refuse to write that on principle as an english person 😬)#then: 'there are no wars happening right now' if there actually were at the time it's meant to be. you could call me mentally eel#the real worst bit about ocd is the cop who lives in your brain and has a cancel culture drama youtube bestie#anyway. does anyone in this thread smoke weed?#btw i settled on henry being stationed in gibraltar for a couple years and deserting bc that's what my dad did 💀💀#love history but studying exclusively the entire ussr and ireland for 2 years has ruined my brain a bit in terms of THINKING NORMALLY#(its just the ocd weaponising my autism need to collect every datapoint ever)#anyway i think tam's just going to diagnose henry as having ocd instead bc i cannot do this shit clearly#the fic tag
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send me a ✧ and i’ll bold all that apply to your muse! (with italics as a 'sometimes' option because i'm a rule-breaker and things may depend on the situation).
i would kill you. ✧ i would physically hurt you. ✧ i would attack you unprovoked. ✧ i would manipulate you. ✧ i dislike you. ✧ you annoy me. ✧ you scare me. ✧ you intimidate me. ✧ i hope i intimidate you. ✧ i pity you. ✧ you disgust me. ✧ i hate you. ✧ i’m indifferent toward you. ✧ i’d like to get to know you better. ✧ i’d like to spend more time with you. ✧ i’d like to be friends with you. ✧ i’m unsure what to think of you. ✧ i’m unsure how I feel about you. ✧ you are my friend. ✧ you are my best friend. ✧ you are my mentor. ✧ i look up to you. ✧ i respect you. ✧ you are my hero. ✧ you inspire me. ✧ you are my enemy. ✧ you make me happy. ✧ i want to protect you. ✧ i would fight by your side. ✧ i consider you an equal. ✧ i think you are beneath me. ✧ i think you are above me. ✧ i would lie for you. ✧ i would lie to you. ✧ i would sleep with you. ✧ i would sleep by your side. ✧ i would hug you. ✧ i would kiss you. ✧ you are family to me. ✧ i would die for you. ✧ i would kill for you. ✧ i would trust you with my life. ✧ i would trust you with my most precious belonging. ✧ i would trust you with a secret. ✧ i would trust you with my biggest / darkest secret. ✧ i love you (platonically). ✧ i love you (romantically).
#sifonie#OOH BOYYY. the mixed nature of this is... JSJSJ i'm sorry about barton ramone he is justtt. Not the best person even around people-#he likes / cares about sometimes NGL and a lot of his relationships if not all of them are (unfortunately) unstable to at least a small-#degree. though of course i'm not trying to justify his behavior at all here... i just think that barton literally Cannot Help himself-#whenever it comes to manipulating people to the point where he may even do it unconsciously sometimes as terrible as that might sound 💀#and as for the whole 'you scare me' thing i think this just applies in the context of sibyl technically having the power to like. Kill him-#if they wanted to even if they wouldn't considering that they are like siblings to each other you know? and barton is naturally a-#distrustful person SO that also adds to him feeling a bit scared of them at times i think ahahhh.#but that's enough of talking about the negative stuff!! let's talk about how barton sees sibyl as an equal and would die for them...#because i honestly that serves as SUCH a dichotomy to the first thing's that i highlighted here and normally those thing's-#probably wouldn't coexist within the same person but if there is one thing that barton is - it's surprising in regards to how complex-#he can make his relationships with people JSJSJ LMAO but barton wanting to protect them is also? kind of sweet as well?? like OMG#plus the fact that they make him happy is 😭 it's really kind of touching in my humble opinion.#now if only barton didn't feel the need to LIE and still manipulate people sometimes even when he likes them...#then we'd be golden but i guess that would be asking for too much from him JSJSJ#not me talking as if he's real 😂 nooo but this was seriously really fun to fill out so thank you for sending this prompt to me ramone!!#and i hope i was able to shed a little more light on their relationship from barton's side of thing's bc i feel like it can be hard to tell#what barton truly thinks about someone even when i'm writing him in the 'stream of consciousness' style haha#also the italics is a 'maybe' in this case so it doesn't apply all the time!!
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I mentioned this briefly last night in my last big post so here it is: The Ashe&Grey to Kei&Go parallel meme. I would’ve done a compare and contrast chart instead of listing out all the parallels but last time I did it the resolution was even worse then these 💀 besides just pointing out the similarities is funnier since I’d say overall their vastly different characters- but these baseline similarities I can’t help to notice even if I doubt it was a reference on ZXs part to Armageddon. Moral of the story they'd all be besties probably. (Also I’m going to ramble in the tags once more-)


#meg text#getter robo armageddon#mega man zx#shitpost#I actually did do art once of grey and ashe in go and keis clothes but never bothered to post it on my art blog#even though I posted it on my Twitter art alt which is just the same fucking thing 💀 my inconsistency between the two is hilarious#also to clarify if anyone saw the fic post no this will not be mentioned in the crossover even if it would be a funny angsty thing to write#it’s not one of *those* crossovers and none of these characters will be prevalent (even if I can say one of these duos does appear)#but if I ever wrote a normal ass ZXA fic where grey and ashe both existed I’d have to NOT give Grey Gos “I will protect you” complex 💀#Grey is more personified then Go so it be less of a “it’s my objective” thing but baby boy doesn’t need to risk it all for his sister#especially when they both could kick ass together bc I will always roll with the hc if they both exist in a timeline they share Model A#I will never understand how the fuck Ashe is Albert’s daughter though bc its so confusing if she’s his descendant or not#I cannot tell if it’s a mistranslation thing or if Albert contradict himself I’d have to look at the dialogue again bc it’s been awhile#(I play ZX religiously I just can’t remember the last time I looked at all the dialogue- especially advent)#I guess it’s better then having a gender crisis like Kei over there though#Oh and I may have stretched it a bit with Kei’s meme bc it was never said if she *wasnt* going to pilot a getter#and like shin dragon whole ordeal was it needed to scan Kei’s dna to further its evolution which feels like it leads into her piloting it#but from wtf I grasp about Saotome’s questionable parenting is he probably raised her as a boy bc he wanted her to be a researcher#and not a pilot#the tables fucking turned there LMAO#Oh and machine in the meme getter wise refers to both shin dragon and shin (for zx it’s clearly just A)
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CRYING SCREAMING THROWING STATIONARY THE CURSE OF BEING A DISCOVERY WRITER WHEN YOU'VE GOT SOME BUT NOT ALL OF YOUR SHIT FIGURED OUT!!!!
#text#personal#writing#in btw#driscoll#....i need to put That Statement in my bitch journal huh#ANYWAY#spent ANOTHER DAY figuring out my LOAF BEARING BREAKAGE WOES#took 5ever#think i got it#think i can lampshade it#but gotDAMN why is the process LIKE THIS#I JUST WANNA HAVE A GOOD TIME!!!!#(latest woe is. driscoll and hazard do NOT operate like normal crews 💀💀)#which. i can fix. by simply Acknowledging In Dialogue#but i also think it meanshazard doesnt need to try to run it like a Normal Excursion??#maybe??#anyway yesterday it was 'gotta thread the interestingness and the dissonance'#today its 'lmao this isnt normal no wonder it feels off'#tomorrow i shall try to write the shiny bits and bobs and staple them together into something coherent LATER#back on my crafting my way through this bullshit huh#might also fuck around and do flashbulb descriptions because uh. well.#a weekend at a hotel is probably Too Much Detail to include in a scene huh#tomorrow ill write the weird mirrors and maybe the nest#do some disjointed/disconnected vibe descriptions#go back through later and put it All Together????#this text post brought to you by: i know Just Enough to know something is Wront#but i gotta write circles around it to figure out What💀💀#sumbullshit brain thanks#*wrong and Load Bearing plz im on mobile and cannot edit my tags 😭
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I keep worrying that my voice is annoying because I accidentally inhaled fixative spray a few months ago and it hasn't been the same since. it sounds wobbly kill me.
#i literally cannot speak below normal volume (not counting whispering) without sounding completely unintelligible#it fuckign forced me into speaking up 💀💀#but its kind of rough/gravelly sounding but jt kind of also sounds like a vocal fry sometimes#killing myself#bue waffling
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desperately trying to like porridge for the vibes and convenience but it’s apparently the one food my autism has texture issues with
#i just wanna pretend i’m a little victorian with my porridge and tea☹️#also i know it’s more filling than the cereal i’d normally eat but also still healthy#and as someone who often finds food nothing more than an inconvenience that would be great to make sure i was eating enough#but i cannot stand the texture!!!#i’m gonna try another variation or two that i haven’t yet but#i don’t think it’s happening tbh :(#i don’t really wanna try the mary lennox method of exhausting myself without eating until i’m so hungry i’ll eat anything#i don’t think that would work in my case since i’ve already tried multiple times to eat it💀#actually autistic#actually neurodivergent#porridge#oatmeal
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mad at my own writing skills rn
#i am really mad at myself#because while i am very good at writing angst i cannot write happiness for the life of me#part of what makes angst so painful is the contrast between the characters in their normal happy charming state#i cannot make characters charming i can only make them sad af#the only way to get better at it is to practice#but practice is hard when you don't have a pebble of turmoil inside of you longing to get out & onto the page#i have so many ideas for long-form stories but i never try to write them because i cannot write the happy sections in an engaging way#i feel like i have doomed myself to a fate of only writing very sad short stories#and continue to doom myself forever#it's hard to practice when the contrast in quality is so huge#& makes me feel like i should just give up & stick to what i'm 'naturally' good at#(and i say naturally in quotations because it isn't that i'm actually naturally good at it.#i just have more experience in it bc in writing fanfiction i can rely on the original media for the happy bits#and fill in the cracks with sadness)#💀#OK you know what#i'm gonna try#i will write try to write a happy scene from my mfu highschool au idea#it will probably be bad & i probably won't end up posting it but i will try#ughghghghgh practice is painful#like pulling teeth but i will do it#personal post#may delete later
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/ Can you imagine ur muses talking to mine and every 2 minutes they strike a poke mid conversation-
#;ooc#ooc#these are actually SUPER normal but#thinking of the p.olnareff pose like that CANNOT be comfortable AT A LL OEITHRIUHIUDHGRDG#im afraid u would just have to roll with it- 💀#/im exaggerating bc i wouldn't say they do this all the time; it's mostly when they are revealing something / stating something#but thinking about it makes me laugh; LIKE WHY ARE YOU DOING ALL THAAAAAAT
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