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yardsards · 2 months

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im like the lorax when it comes to women's body hair. we should let it grow.

#eliot posts #the other day my roommate was talking abt how she hates shaving #but does it anyway bc she doesn't want people to be mean to her about her body hair #and i was like yeah i mean i used to #also worry about that bc my mother was always so fucking cruel to me when i didn't shave #but as an adult i find that it's extremely rare that anyone even mentions it (tho my body hair is pretty light so that could be a factor)#but even when people are shitty i find that i no longer give a shit about what what those idiots have to say about my body #but i understand that that can be a hard step to take so if you need to keep shaving for your own comfort then i won't judge #but on the inside i was just like #*ibuprofen hand meme* ''let's get called disgusting hairy d*kes together <3''#i had a great time showing off my pit hair at the pool today!#(i get read as a woman when im swimwear cuz i can't hide my body as much. so i get read as a hairy masculine woman.)#i show off my leg hair every time i wear shorts but like. my leg hair is Pathetic #i look practically prepubescent vis a vis my leg hair (my mother still calls it disgusting lmao)#but my pit hair is pretty good #i occupy a weird gendered place in society where i am more of a man in identify but society genders me as a woman #the only time i feel remotely okay being seen as a woman is when i am seen as a BAD woman. a woman who cannot/will not be A Proper Lady #it's not an entirely ACCURATE view of me but there's Something in it

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dukeofthomas · 3 months

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Do you see my vision

#my dc posting #my art #dc #jason todd #red hood #transfem jason todd #transwoman jason todd #trans fem jason todd #trans woman jason todd #its always so weird when uve made a character trans. and then u gotta use their canon name for tagging #i feel like im deadnaming her even tho i havent come up w a name yet #the lazarus pit gives spontaneous transition. even if u havent realized ur trans yet #i feel like itd be hard to become a respected n feared n succesful crime lord if she presented as female. because of the 'sogony.#so she can have a lil perry the platypus style shit goin on w a voice modifier in the helmet #also coming back as a woman would make batman less likely to connect her w his dead 'son'. so.#idk. i dont actually have a fully formed au or timeline in mind i just find it easier to draw women #its more of a psychological thing where if im in the headspace of 'this is a woman' it becomes just easier to draw the body #🤷 it is how it is ig #censored bc tumblr's a bitch n really it doesnt matter #i had a post w like 1 note that was literally just 'i dont think [insert name] is a good name for a transfem version of [insert character]'#and it got labelled Mature by tumblr so i figured might as well not even try n be Modest and shit w the way tumblr's fuckin it up rn #anyway shoutout to Daughter of Dragons by thispatternismine for the inspiration #...how does all that hair fit comfortably inside the helmet?#ah. hmm. well that is. it sure is a question! that i will not be answering.#jason todd fanart #dc fanart

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dykedvonte · 3 months

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why do you hate Joshua Graham or Honest Hearts so much?

This DLC and character represents a bigger issue with fandom spaces I have but particularly fallout fandom in general.

Fallout tends to tackle a lot of topics controversial and not. The first two games it’s heavy cause they are the most satirical and direct with how anti-war, nationalism and etc… they are. 3 loses this as it’s very clear once you play or learn about all the games that Todd and a bunch of guys at Bethesda just liked the 50s post apocalyptic aesthetic and refuse to actually critique the ideals of the time period like the earlier titles.

New Vegas is the game that really gets back into it a degree it almost seems like it’s taking too much on. There are things done exceedingly well while other things are done horribly wrong . I’ve made posts about it before and plan to make a big series of posts (it’s a lot of writing) but my biggest gripe is with Honest Hearts and all the gross and white savior esque depictions it has of indigenous peoples. The entirety if FNV does not do the injustices faced by indigenous people correctly on any count. My two biggest complaints are with the Khans and the tribes in Zion but I’ll talk about the former on a different post.

Both characters of Daniel and Joshua are the most accurate depiction of white saviors I’ve seen and I hate how the DLC tries to justify and defend them. The DLC treats Joshua like this man who has repented for his past actions when he is just retracing his steps after his cruelty bit him in the ass. He was one of the worst parts of the Legion and it is all but explicitly stated that if you don’t force him to be non-violent he will turn the tribes of Zion into the legion 2.0. The Dead Horses and the Sorrows are horribly infantilized by both Daniel and Joshua who both use them for self serving purposes guised by religious duty. The White Legs are the horrible stereotype of violent and savage indigenous and I personally think a lot of their interlinking with Ulysses, his hair and Ulysses character in general are distasteful and very telling of how BIPOC or POC where involved.

But outside of the game it’s the weird obsession people have with these characters ideologies and trying to make them seem more interesting/philosophical than they are. Tumblr is an echo chamber and many fans of Fallout are not the people on this site. Many people are not educated in the issues these characters convey and how poorly they do or used these characters as a poor introduction for their takes. Contrary to what a lot of people believe in, fallout has a prediomeny white cis male fanbase. More importantly a large portion of the fanbase is white.

You can joke how FNV made you trans or see the numbers on post/fics or diverse headcanons but these are kiddy numbers compared to the millions that consume the franchise and aren’t in those more aware spaces or don’t engage in the spaces the same way someone like me does/has to. Their views shape a lot more than people realize and it’s exhausting to be in a space where people don’t correct the more subtle yet toxic aspects of it but also adopt them into some weird quirky view point on the characters or issues. Some people don’t realize and some people don’t care.

My main issue is just the idolizing of these sort of thing in this fandom space and people try to acts like a game like fallout whose tagline is “War never changes” and has never had a game not revolve around political or militaristic factions issues isn’t that deep or doesn’t relate to real issues. I think it’s mainly caused by how over powered you can become and how you can strong arm your way past these learning moments as majority of people who play this game do play it as a power fantasy where they can do so as they please (which of course, go ahead it’s fun) but never take in parallels or lessons in the story as if it was just another first person shooter.

Also like another personal gripe is Cazadores spawn like hell whenever I’m there and I have not found a mod that works to mod them out so I have to play Indigenous Racism the DLC while getting jumped by giant wasps WHILE helping Mormons. Like I cannot catch a break.

#I’m mostly silly or character headcanon focused on this blog #but sometimes I forget some people literally have never interacted with someone slightly outside of their ideologies or don’t learn about #philosophies that don’t pertain to their view point and actively block them out #and so I have like a meltdown and occasionally post about it cause like I see more people hate Danse for regurgitating BoS teachings than #hate Joshua Graham who helped found the legion participated in their practices and still has this weird bloodlust #like make it make sense why do you like this white man genuinly like outside of his aesthetic #I can say silly shit about them hit it’s always I think it’s surreal they even exist while others genuinely wish they did so they could fix #them and some of all don’t realize how quickly jokes lead people down rabbit holes and pipe lines cause ur not gonna see posts even pitying #that man in here #like when I defend Danse it is through the signs and events in game that show he is not stuck in his ways and possibly only adopted those #beliefs because of his tramatic events with super mutants and the bos being very anti anything not human #their are affinity reaction that concern this while Joshua like moans yes when killing the white legs and is always polishing his gun goon #pile like I’ve learned too much about him the Mormon faith and that dlc to be told I’m playing favorites he is not fixable or repentent #this fandom has one of the worst issues of he’s my fave so he can’t do wrong when some of this characters are literal unapologetic rapist #racists or individuals who condone or perpetuate like ideas and concepts like obviously I’m gonna not like them????!#like I still think it’s interest to dissect them and I try so hard to not be a hypocrite but sometimes it’s like the whole this is just a #fun thing for you but like be aware of what you are taking in and reflect like is so important fiction can slowly seep into your morals #I’m rambling and losing track of shit so imma stop here before I reach the tag limit but again dm and ask cause this is the stuff I will #blab about #horrible at normal conversation tho #fallout #fallout new vegas #joshua graham #honest hearts #ask #anon #fallout 3

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rist-ix · 4 months

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https://www.tumblr.com/rist-ix/749015401700229120 not you reblogging this when you ship bloom with the man who murdered her family 😭

Bloom's into ppl who slay! Hope this helps :3

#alright snark and ship wars aside i get where you’re coming from tho #if you're genuinely interested in my thought process here i would love to elaborate #which is exactly what I’ll do!#first of all! the post you linked is about headcanons #which my brain kinda wants to put into a whole different category than ships — fandom ships in particular! — but i can leave that aside #because there IS an argument to be made that relationships are an extension of characterization and personality traits #if you wanna go that route i would wanna explain that Bloom's and/or Valtor's interest in the other is in fact based on canon #(even though I don’t really think ships need to be established in the source material. make shit up that’s what fandom is for #1) the Andros episode speaks for itself. Valtor specifically tells the Trix to back off because HE wants to be the one to fight bloom #2) the episode before that he asks questions about her (and only her; even though he has more powerful enemies to worry about)#demonstrating curiosity about and interest in her #3) that same episode (or the one before; can’t remember) is their infamous first meeting #where time LITERALLY slows down as the pass each other on the stairs #they get IMPACT FRAMES #the whole color palette changes!!!#idk about u but I eat that shit up. love the drama of it all no one does it like them #I’m gonna skip all the instances where Valtor is spying on Bloom through his little scrying spell because oh god who has the time #let’s go straight to Bloom #if I had a week I would not be able to collect all the moments where she growls his name in pure fury and single-minded determination #she gets a little bit obsessed with him over the course of the season and I personally think that’s very sexy of her #Bloom is known for her tunnel vision when it comes to her past and origins and Valtor's existence fits PERFECTLY into that #it ties in neatly with her overarching story of the past 2 seasons #literally PERFECT foils #which always makes for the juiciest stories #4) she singles him out for a duel in the museum episode #5) she can literally feel his presence #6) the mere mention of his name sends her into her weird faux enchantix #of course there’s no romance in canon but there’s TENSION AND CHEMISTRY which is all u really need for a ship #all their animosity and bad blood is what makes it so INTERESTING to wonder how they COULD work. it’s the spice that makes for good fanfic!

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silusvesuius · 21 days

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g*lmar rly has to be the best skajrim character on the real like even if you don't like him he just is . literally The best one i think......... on dat note i also imagine that he and ulfr*c despite being fairydust BFFs for lyfe genuinely have the worst communication skills ever seen

#text #but i already talked about how g*lmar is weird about ulfr*c anyways #literally jubilant and feeling special cus he's the only person ulfr*c actually trusts and speaks to outside of formal conversations #he's a very manly man too (like N*loth) for wanting to just control everything... well actually having ulfr*c under 'control' is enough 4 -#- him. unlike n*loth who wants to be above everything that moves. literally not about him tho #i hope that other st*rmcloaks develop a habit of going to hide downstairs in the palace whenever they can tell the vibe between -#- g*lmar and ulfr*c is off because they're gonna be yelling at each other and throwing shit around for 40 minutes in a few seconds #i don't believe they'd fight insanely often but being at an active war probably gets them heated more. Often than usual; and their -#- conflicts are never resolved. i feel like they just don't talk to each other for a good 2 days and act like nothing happened #they're way too manly and prideful to actually let the other one 'win' so they just don't say anything ever post-arguing #Tbhs g*lmar actually really likes that ulfr*c is so unstable and harrowed because it makes himself feel very good and reliable -#- but he has his limits 😂LMFAOO i bet sometimes he gets really tired of him being so traumatized. very rarely but he does think about it #i'll have to desribe that a bit better later tho... don't know how to word it atm #but maybe he wants to punch him or something BYE. no...... 💔savage as hell #he likes it in a very general sense of ulfr*c's personality especially between them but doesn't like it when it causes them to clash #this might just be mostly ulfr*c's doing cus i doubt he's actually talkative about his past issues and Troubles (torture mayhem) and -#- can't communicate anything about it or set boundaries when needed. he just gets mad or very avoidant. No fixing that tho #well it's just shameful to him so he'd rather do nothing than even admit anything to anyone Everrrrr #why does his life suck so bad LMFAOOOOOOOOO #their nasty musty mutualism .. leeching off your traumatized Bff so that he can make you feel good by saying he needs you in particular #while U pay him back with some support.......SOME #Oh well #that zero communication between some sk*rim characters looks yammy as fuck to me. A;lways. ALWAYS #nelvas is power dynamic induced...... g*lmar&&ulfr*c trauma-caused... elituli Um😂 t*llius doesn't even know any hobbies she has #bye this is why they're serving so hard

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softestepilogue · 1 year

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the constant disregard and erasure of the impact hen and chim had on bobby to help him during season 1 is really wild and exhausting

#but not surprising #chimney han #henrietta wilson #hen wilson #bobby nash #911 fox #911 on fox #i will never ever in my life call chim howard #even tho i do love the nickname howie #howie is such a cute nickname #but my mans name is chimney #okay but seriously i cannot stand buck stan’s #buck is a victim always #no one treats him right #he’s woobified always #he’s the most important person on the whole crew and without him their lives would be dog shit #and jeez louise buck stans who ship buddie don’t even like eddie #like if you read their fics or their posts eddie is just kinda there #they lowkey just don’t like him and they think he’s an awful father #hence why there are a number of fics where moments eddie has had with his own child is given to buck #it’s so weird #and it makes me not like buck even tho he’s such a great character and he’s adorable #but damn his stans are exhausting and obnoxious and annoying #anyway hen and chim played a part in bobby becoming better but of course only bucks involvment is mentioned and credited as the most import #and idk why i’m surprised you know #bucks a white male character and they always will get the most attention even if the show has more poc #op

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bmpmp3 · 2 months

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my inability to play mobile games nowadays is also a source of suffering as a person who loves rhythm games. i miss her (SIF1).....

#but 1) she is shut down <3 and 2) even if she was still up i probably would barely play because the game was getting.... messy #i loved the old UI but they kept like. adding shit. too many little red exclamation marks #but it was one of the comfiest feeling rhythm game mechanics i ever played #i need to find a rhythm game that really feels good is my problem. high key i actually do not like most of the project diva style gameplay #TOO MANY button inputs that are hard to read im too learning disabled for that #i did love project mirai tho. and i liked project diva X because the progression was less skill focused and more perseverance #i really dont like post ps4 pd i do NOT like those multi button inputs where you have to do like #r1 + square + circle + whatever and it like changes every time. girl i cant READ #i much prefer rhythm games where the inputs are simple and dont require as much thinking or reading #and its more focused on just how good can u hit those simple inputs #i really loved beat saber when i played it at a vr arcade once. but i do not have the space or money for vr rn LOL #i also have really enjoyed taiko. someday i'd like to try a peripheral. one time i played it on the dk bongo gamecube controller #to see what it felt like. it felt bad <3 but it was fun <3 <3 <3 <3 #osu i havent really liked. although i do enjoy elite beat agents and oeundan. i think its the physically small screen of the ds #sometimes its fun to boot up melodys escape or audiosurf too. but id really like to try other games #when i did play mobage i was partial to stuff like sb69's three track system and llsif's 9 spot system #but i didnt like the way deemo felt.... the size of the visual hit boxes were TOO SMALL it always felt weird #flick notes sucked whenever i played a mobage tho. i have SWEATY FINGERS dont to this me #swipe notes are fine its just flick. also i dont like how hard they are to read similar to a lot of console games <3

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grocerystoreanxiety · 1 month

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ah well fuck it, going above my calories today for more whiskey hehe (dumb)

#it’s fine it’s still under 800kcal #with 3 whiskey doubles #which isn’t even like ?? my goal was to get abt 1000kcal a day but then I ofc got stupid with it and ’’i can restrict better’’#(bc my weight’s not dropping but like now ik it will purely out of dehydration)#like I try to aim at the 1000kcal to keep everything sane but fuck that’s boring #I want to feel like I restrict when I do #sure I’d get there when I’d restrict with 1000kcal for long enough but I’m impatient #and like I look so bad currently #and now there’s the ’’might have to be in a bikini this weekend’’ fucking thing #the abs are still there but not as prominent as I’d like to #but also somehow more prominent than I’d like to around relatives bc like the ribs too so it could look a bit too sickly to ppl #even tho I’m like at bmi 21-22 rn aka very boring healthy thing #(I carry my most of weight in my thighs rn I think)#idk idk what my point was #anyways I’m feeling the drunk rn #not sad drunk per se but like a lil bit like idk bittersweet drunk if that’s a thing #I just replied to my crush is what contributes greatly to me feeling weird #bc I like him so much but I don’t think it’ll ever work out so I just always feel like ’’aw fuck why not :(’’ after messaging him #and like I’m not even trying with that anymore bc of me not being too stable at the moment and if it’d somehow work out I’d have to stay #alive and all that and like uhh fuck no #I’m not trying to gather anymore ppl around me to suffer once I go #like my family will and that’s already more than I can take and it’ll all be fucking shit but I also have concluded that I can’t stay alive #just for them like sure that'd be the right thing to do but what good am I being a shell of a human & the family fuckup #(also ugh sorry abt talking abt death so much today; just been on my mind a lot recently and I’ve had drinks so my filter is non-existent)#this too should stay as a draft but alas send post

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watery-melon-baller · 3 months

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ive been fuckin gaslit by google again lads

#was doing stuff with the toh survey results and was trying to organize some responses #and every time I added the numbers together i would always be under how many responses google said there were #turns our google was fucking lying to me #google said there were 35 responses. the actual number after I sat down and counted them all twice? 29.#i hate it here. ive spent the past 20 minutes thinking I couldn't do basic math #im gonna have to go back and see if im being lied to about any other shit because god knows I can't trust google anymore #god i wish I had more responses. i don't think I can get more tho :(#56 is more then I was expecting but like. i wish I could get a bigger sample size. especially since the toh fandom is. huge #sigh. it's fine it's fine I don't know what else I xouoe even do #besides crawling into some popular creators DMS and begging for exposure #which. uh. hm. feels Weird to do #lilac post

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starlooove · 6 months

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The validation is crazy rn

#bc remember actually #It might’ve been a diff blog #anyways a few years back #i made a post about how ppl like Candace Owens and Pearl and kalvin garrah and Blair white #are stuck tap dancing for the rest of their lives #Bc the second they do smth ‘progressive’ they get kicked out #and we sure as hell don’t want them back?#yeah mira 💀#MIRA #E DICHOOOOO #CASO CERRADO #like even when they stop with the weird shit they will NEVER have the success they previously did bc they burnt both bridges?#Y’know whats crazy tho I feel like white women are more aware of this than anyone else #which is why they go so hard till they can’t and then go some more #from my experience black ppl always feel like they’re safe 😭#PERO MIRAAAAAAA

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izzy-b-hands · 1 year

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I really wish blocking someone meant their stuff wouldn’t wind up on your dash at all. Like I understand why it doesn’t, but. still.

Actually, I just need to get better abt checking source urls before I reblog. I try to be mindful, but now and again I Forget and have only myself to blame lmao

#text post #I would love to reblog their art and be supportive in that way at least but tbh #every time I accidentally reblog it I remember checking out their blog and seeing how they talked abt fans that like Izzy and the izcourse #and it's like oh no that's right you hate ppl like me and ur art might be gorg but maybe we just shouldn't interact #they do their thing and I'll be over here doing mine #what really needs to happen is I need to remember to check urls on fandom art to make sure it isn't any of the folks I had to block lmao #but sometimes I get excited bc the art is genuinely lovely and i do like it and think the person is v talented!#and then i forget to check and it's only after scrolling my dash that i see my reblog and the url and go 'oh. fuck. that's right. damnit.'#it's a weird feeling to be like yes I want this person to have fun and make gorgeous art but also it seems #they've made it p clear how they feel abt folks like me and so maybe they would prefer i just fuck off #which i tried to do by blocking!! and yet. here we are #i delete the reblogs whenever this happens so they don't have me in their notes but #i do hope they know their art is lovely and I appreciate their hard work even if we wouldn't otherwise get along with each other #idek why I'm blogging abt this I guess bc I feel like usually it's either or online? like u either hate each other or u don't #but I don't hate the folks who sent shit to me or the folks who condoned it i just wish i had found a way to get along with them instead #as useless a wish as that probably is #and i don't talk abt it a lot but it really bugs the fuck outta me sometimes that we can't just start over and try to interact generally #no messages no trying to be friends just reblog from them if u like and otherwise ignore each other #which has been a thing that's worked fairly okay in other fandoms tho things have happened in others to change how workable it was #but for some reason in this one i feel like im just always walking on eggshells to interact w/anyone bc it feels like everyone is waiting #for someone else to say something they vaguely disagree with and instead of just like. blocking and moving on w/the fandom experience #it turns into a massive mess that even if ur on the fringes of it all you still get pulled into or sent shit and just.#idk it doesn't matter bc ultimately none of this does but dang it the show has been special to me and hits all my special interests #and it's hard to let go and accept that there's no changing how things went and how they are and how this fandom experience for me is often #very fucking lonely even when i'm bursting at the seams to share and to hear from others what they think abt anything and everything w/it #no one is gonna read this tag essay lmao pls scroll on

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arcadequeerz · 8 months

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Oh mind electric we're really in it now.

#Cade.Txts #i think about tht song all the time.#when they say: Someone help me / Understand what's Going on Inside my Mind! / Doctor I can't tell if I'm Not Me!#I felt tht shit #like man.................me too.#idk tht bit of lyrics has always kinda hit me hard specifically.#Anyways how is everyone doin. sorry I don't ;ost much anymore.#I am posting on my stimblog mostly now BHINJGFDNI if u wanan see stimboards check it out.#im doing a series of stimboards on my favorite pokemon #so far got two boards out already d:)#Wanna keep working on it but i should also make gifs of stuff.#been kind of stressed by shit lately thts unrelated. worried about bigfoot.#he's been acting weird lately. real sluggish n tired. his teeth are bad- n we need to take him to get them checked #but it cost like. 600 to just get a few teeth taken from our dog frankie.#s o. -slides stimboard commission post on my stimblog- /nf #dont like advertising it. feels weird making things for money but if he does need teeyh removed #idk any other way i could make money for it.#hes just got me worried. he's a old man- even tho i always forget he is-#thinking about losing him scares me. am probably rly over thinking shit- he's old course he sleeps n lays around a lot.#but im stil worried.#ANYWHO. stimboard grind 24/7

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toytulini · 1 year

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gatekeeping weirdness now? yall have the energy for this? silly goose behavior(derogatory and dismissive) for sure

#toy txt post #ive seen 2 posts today im not interacting with #one was less bad but still #the other one was hilariously bad #im vagueing it #it was like wah! fucking POSERS are PRETENDING to be weird by ACTIVELY pursuing interests and hobbies that make someone considered weird!#and having dyed hair! bluh! always with the dyed hair hate like really. its not For you but die mad i guess.#anyway if youre that concerned about other ppl actively pursuing hobbies that get them labelled weird (for i guess. the purpose. of being #percieved as weird? whether or not they enjoy the hobby? fascinating behavior if so. pretty weird even id s-*gunshot*#anyway if youre that concerned about that vs like idk....whatever 'organically' weird ppl are. in contrast to that. i gotta say #im no expert but that does sound like maybe you are in fact the poser bro. also this is so fucking funny and stupid god #first of all. pretending to be weird by displaying interests in weird hobbies and fashion even tho deep down im a normal fucking square and #i just hate these weird hobbies and aesthetics so much but like listen i Gotta. for the Weirdness Clout(tm). definitely a thing that #meaningfully exists and makes a ton of sense to measure someone against #dont you know youre only a true weirdo if you dont have any interest in looking like a freak and putting effort into your weird freak #aesthetic. what insane fucking discourse.#like first of all dumbass this shit is made up. normal isnt real it doesnt exist. normal people are fucking weird. weirdness is normal #weirdness is also a construct that is defined in opposition to the unachievable normalcy. many ppl are for the most part 'normal'#with little regular quirks and then there are every so often weird freaks who are very much outside of normal #and thats generally fine although society generally does punish those who do not strive for normalcy. you are supposed to try to appear #normal at all costs or you are punished. etc. its late i just got home from work im not getting into this more #tldw(too long didnt write): yall gotta chill you got your head way too far up your own ass if you are legitimately concerned about #'normal' people 'pretending' to be weird. thats not a problem its fine calm down holy fuck.#also. also. to the less bad one:#'you cant all have been weird little girls' are you accounting for the selection bias of this website targeting the deomgraphic of ppl #who were weird little girls? chill. its the weird little kids grown up to be weird little adults website and youre shocked? really?

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yardsards · 2 years

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i cleaned my room today and am really proud of myself :D

#eliot posts #it's not even fully clean but i folded SO MUCH laundry #and my bed is all clean and freshly made #and there's less shit on the floor #i want to move on to the living room and the entryway next #tho maybe not tonight? idk i feel like i'm getting sick w some kind of respiratory Nonsense #i spent my birthday last year sick too #but that was like really bad bedbound sick (thought it was covid but the test came back negative)#today is just scratchy throat and very mild fatigue #i dod a lot of it on the phone with an old friend i hardly talk to anymore #it was meant to be a quick chat and her introducing me to her new cat #but it ended up lasting a couple hours #just fell naturally into a long conversation like when we were close back in high school #it's always weird after talking to her cuz of how easy conversation is with her sometimes after all these years #but i have no intention of really rekindling that friendship #and i think it was good that we grew apart near the end of high school bc it was slowly transitioning from supportive to codependent #idk i just needed to feel like someone needed me and she was a flaming trainwreck #from what she said today it's a REALLY good thing we weren't friends for the year or two after graduation #but it can be nice to catch up every once in a while

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sleepknoot · 1 year

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You know as a kid, there was such a unique thrill in finding fandom spaces. As far as I was aware, my brother and I were the only people who had ever played the Devil May Cry games or watched the anime.

Imagine my disappointment when I discovered FanFic.net and tried to roleplay with the people in the community during the early 2010s.

#Easily the worst fandom experience I've had. Especially on the roleplay side of things.#Lot of people who saw my 13 year old ass as a threat to their ships? Even tho I never spoke to them.#But these people HATED my OC so much because she was Dante's kid. You know. Because I was a child who adored Dante?#AND I WAS CLEARLY A CHILD TOO. I WAS ALWAYS TRANSPARENT ABOUT IT.#In my rules and bio I'd tell people I was a minor. Posting about ''Guys my first day of high school I'm nervous 🥺''.#I'd be minding my own little business and I'd look at mutual's mutuals blog rules:#''GRRRR BARK BARK BARK. I WON'T ROLEPLAY WITH OCS WHO XYZ (obviously directed at me)''#See I look back on it and can take the piss (I was as annoying as you'd think) but holy fuck did that alter my brain for the worse.#A young me seeing 20-35+ year old acting nuts over fiction and children being children.#That's why when I see ''I miss the old RPC. People were nicer.'' shit I roll my eyes so hard. People were not nicer.#I was getting rape and death threats from these fucking animals because they felt a weird way about my OC.#zombert.txt #Sorry for the novel in the tags. I just went on a lil tangent.

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mieczyhale · 1 year

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josh's nieces are in town for the next week and they came over yesterday. i wasn't super up for it but it was actually a great time (not thrilled about the mess i get to clean up tho. they love to play dress up with my closet and i don't mind but nothing gets put away fjdjdj)

ANYWAY

one of them told me about her boyfriend (which was like ??!! for me) and the way she went about it was:

"(something something) my boyfriend Liam. we're having problems right now but we're working on it"

AND SHE SAID IT SO SASSY

BABYLOVE YOU ARE 9

10 IN AUGUST

WHAT DO YOU MEAN RELATIONSHIP PROBLEMS FJFJSJDJ

#'his ex is weird' his EX??!#'what makes them weird??' 'she dresses like a boy sometimes' 'that isn't a bad thing' '..no. its not. but she's really rude to me'#'so the problem isn't that she dresses like a boy. the problem is that she's rude' 'yeah!'#ooo i'm glad i talked her through that one a bit #she isn't a mean or judgemental girl - she has me for an aunt & her mom is bi & her grandpas are gay - she's just a kid and she can be very #direct / blunt when she says things sometimes #she always has been. it was very jarring when she was 4 or 5 and unintentionally roasting us all lmfao #she's a sweetie tho #her and her sister both #anyway #today was a lot but i got a lot of cute pics! might post some of them later #ultimately i'm so happy i got to spend time with them and that it went so well #we don't get to see them as much as when they were littler and i see them even less bc i'm hashtag unwell a lot #but i managed today!!#there's so much shit going on with me & this family so it was not just fun but a much needed reprieve from /gestures at everything/#maison speaks

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