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ukiyoebirds · 29 days

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While broken bonds mend, some things never change.

@krazycat6167 helped workshop the joke.

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buttercupshands · 16 days

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can you even call it a warm up if I'm going to bed without drawing anything big

and a sketch I made while sitting in the park today

#sketch #my art #bnha #shigaraki tomura #tenko shimura #all for one #midoriya izuku #bnha manga spoilers #only after I finished basically polishing this sketch did I notice how it's basically dark and light mode #also the first one is basically a redraw of illustration from vol 11 #I know that translation of Tenko's words is different in official but eh #fanart #I've kind of recovered from recent chapters #and I was analysing those chapters all morning #I'm still thinking but otherwise the chapters are so good #also did you notice that AFO actually talked about how his other him didn't use that 'last thing' yet and that was in ch 410 #and in ch 419 he did so it's real and it's still sad #but still AFO was never hiding it enough #from Tomura maybe but we as readers actually saw his plans play out #in any case I'm still just sitting with those two Izuku and Tenko interaction chapters #I waited long enough #and if you don't count AFO's return Izuku DID save Tenko and it's so interesting #since he now has to save his OTHER origin that was in ch 237 taught to kill whatever he wants #Tenko and Tomura both had 'origins' chapters and for now we only worked with 235 and 236 #and even if Izuku helped with the start of 237 there's still AFO #in any case it was a hard week #also the second thing actually had them holding hands #and then I was like 'but at that point Izuku's hands are gone oh no'#and it was just Tenko holding air where the hand was destroyed #in any case that scene.

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caffeine-high · 6 months

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honestly, the finale of rvb s13 permanently altered my brain chemistry at 13 y/o and since then i have never been normal about heroic sacrifices

epsilon's speech is just ingrained in me and i think something about that makes up a core part of who i am as a person and what i like in stories

i dont know how to deal with that

#red vs blue #the chorus trilogy #13 y/o me was not ready for that and 21y/o me still has not recovered #i have since matured and refined my tastes but like #someone sacrificing themselves to give their friends a chance but they themselves never knowing the outcome is forever my weak spot #bonus points if somehow the sacrifice comes with great pain and suffering before death #[was watching a series yesterday where this happened and the person was even forced to forget why he did what he did and just before the en #thought it was a punishment for being a bad person and that he deserved it.. even though he was great and kind and caring but he didnt #remember.. he only knew the pain and suffering.. but due to that his friends got away to safety (mostly).. and aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh]#so yeah #maybe my taste has turned a bit more towards the extreme and/or psychological effects #but oh my fucking gods that shit is soooo goood #caffeines cackles

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ifonlyicouldrun · 1 year

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It may be silly but ST having having jewish crew members makes me feel better about my own Jewish heritage. It breaks my heart when I see so much antisemitism going around on social media, especially targeting Noah and Finn.

People have no idea how damaging it can be. Protect those kids at all costs

#My family has been traumatized since WW2 and has never recovered #They gave up the religious side of things and their traditions as a result #I feel like I lost my roots and i don't truly know who i am sometimes #I have hated my nose all my life and I just started accepting it a few years ago because my partner said he likes it #It makes me feel happy to see two actors with the same ethnic nose as me on screen but at the same time i am also so scared for them #byler #noah schnapp #finn wolfhard

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8rujaa · 16 days

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my therapist really saved me….

#tw abuse // tw sa #i can’t sleep bc i keep thinking about this.#like i probably would’ve not been here if it weren’t for her #i started seeing her january of 2023… my life has changed entirely since then and she was definitely the one who got the ball rolling #literally so much has changed since then and it’s all because of her #i was so dissociated during our first few sessions #thanks to her i was able to get diagnosed and medicated for adhd. i was able to realize i was in an abusive situation and plan a way out #i was able to focus on myself and my healing and she’s helped me reframe so much of my negative thinking #i was able to process a lot of emotions and become a better version of myself with each session #she’s truly incredible.#i remember the first comment she made about the relationship had been ‘’so it’s like there’s an imbalance of control in the relationship’’#i had put my partners on such a high pedestal that i had no idea they could be doing anything wrong #and i asked her what she meant and she said ‘from what you’ve been describing it’s sounds like a strict parents and child type of dynamic’#she told me they didn’t need to understand why i wanted to leave and they didn’t need to make that decision. if that’s what was going to be #best for me the only thing i could do is let them know my reasoning and simply leave. i didn’t need their permission.’’#i remember being so confused at that realization bc like… i had been putting their emotions over mine the whole time i had forgotten simply #doing what’s best for me was an option… l #ever since then i’ve been putting myself first and it’s been a steady uphill from rock bottom… i’ve made an incredible amount of progress #when i first started with her getting out of bed and walking to the kitchen was incredibly difficult and took all my strength.#yesterday i conquered a mountain!!!!!!! i hiked all the way to the top!!!!! :D #me a year ago thought it was going to take me years and years to recover. as soon as i left i made leaps of progress #im incredibly proud of myself and grateful for her. and my reiki lady she’s also been a great great help.#the silver lining is i realized who really matters. and the relationships i cared about deepened.#my sweet virgo friend was the one who was always like ‘THATS A GROWN ASS MAN WHO CANT UNDERSTAND BASIC CONSENT???’#LMFAO i would be like ‘but he has trauma and bla bla bla’ she looked me dead in the eyes and said #’jess you said with your last boyfriend that you would never make excuses for a man who was hurting you again. stop defending him.’#she’s really a gem and i treasure her with my life. i hope she knows i love her. she’s family at this point #she’s also literally saved my life before (like deadass called 911 for help)#im glad i had the support system i had. that was a rough situation with so many layers and im glad i got through it #my 22nd year of life was by far the worst of my life and i don’t ever want to put myself in that situation again. im glad i learned.

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themanwhowouldbefruit · 20 days

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my doctor was sooooo fucking worthless and unhelpful im going to masturbate and i hope it fucking kills me

#“no need for follow up”#“yeah you did have several cysts we scrapped off your remaining ovary but. dw about it. idk why they were there. dw about it. oh also your #ovary on that side was freakishly huge but. dw about it. it might go away. dw about it #*doctor shrug emoji* “#“go see a gyno next year maybe. but not me im too important for that. go find and onboard a gyno to your situation. next year maybe idk lol”#he barely even looked at my incision like #this fucking appointment could have been an email. or a phone call. or they just could have let me start driving again. also i forgot to ask #if i can stop drinking ensure now or after the 6 weeks? cause that shit cost $$$$. but he probably would have been super unhelpful if i had #fr fr this guy only wanted to give me the time of day when he thought i might have fun cancer inside and now he's like gtfo!!!! get your #fugly cancerless ass out of here!!!! recover from a major surgery on your own you swagless cancerless loser 🤣 we arent helping your #swagless ass!!!#anyway it seems weird and fucked up that im was never offered to see a physical therapist and i guess am going to have to blindly trust my #abs they sliced thru are healing or whatever and to rawdog my own physical recovery of my muscles? even just dumb shit like. my center of #gravity has drastically changed since the mass removal and my back hurts like shit all the time because all my posture muscles were built up #for when i had an extra 30 pounds of cyst hanging in the front and my posture and walking reflected that. and i lowkey don't know how #hard i am able to be with my healing incision because its really tight and makes me hunch forwards still. like i would really like to know #how much i can safely or maybe should be forcing my skin and incision to stretch. without damage? is that crazy #am i crazy???#this shit is why i didnt see a doctor for 2 years until my problems had snowballed into a 30 pounds ovarian cyst that was crushing my other #organs and had one of my kidneys all backed up with piss. and even getting emergency treatment for it everyone was like. how did you like it #get this bad?? how could you not know you needed to seek medical treatment???? like. bro. seeking medical treatment isnt even a guarantee to #get medical treatment.#anyway he said my “remaining ovary seemed low key polycystic but dw about it. don't quote me on that im not dealing with it.”#bro i dont want to doctor google it i wanted an actual doctor to deal with it. fuck you.#like. maybe even a doctor who knows my situation so i dont have to struggle with getting someone to believe me and take me seriously.#but whatever. back to trying to figure out the daily protein and extra calories my body needs for recovery via doctor google i guess.#its fine 🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬

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goldenhypen · 10 hours

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guys i was so fortunate and lucky to get to see enhypen irl tonight :’) sooo grateful omg it was so good and i’m going coocoo bonkers crazier than ever rn

#hoping everyone here one day gets the opportunity to see these boys irl cuz omg it’s just unreal #it’s srsly only now hitting me that i actually did indeed see them irl #cuz i just never thought i would ever get to #i would share pics but tbh my seats were not v good and i couldn’t afford vip so T-T #my pics are horrendous (i’m actually just gatekeeping my jake pics /j)#anyways maybe i’ll share some once i go through all of them #for now i have to sleep and recover from everything tonight cuz omg #i’m actually losing it jake omg what a man #it was jay’s night (cuz it’s jay’s hometown - welcome back jay 🥹) but i’m sorry whenever my focus wasn’t on jay for 80% of the other times #it was on jake #probably more but i WAS PAYING ATTNETION YO THE KTHER MEMBERS #i’m not just a solo jake stan ok #also jake came to our side THE LEAST SO I WAS JUST STARING AT HIS BACK THE WHOLE TIME #yet ig he just has that strong of a hold on me that he’s the only one on my mind since the concert #and before the concert let’s be real and during the concert let’s be real #i’m so delusional rn u guys it’s actually insane #ok sorry i actually gtg now ok gn byee #em speaks

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llycaons · 6 months

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like the wu ming reveal was all very nice but since this all happened nearly a thousand years before the events of books 1, 3, and 5 its like...okay? everything about their relationship in the flashback I either found creepy or didn't care about 😭 ik some fans like the idea of a character so loyal he's willing to destroy a whole country on the word of his god slash crush but umm I do not! also hc disguising himself as the child who was hanging out with xl was so weird why did he do that. age gap creepiness aside it was just stupid and eliminated a chatacter I was really excited about. and it pissed me off when he kicked qyz off the sedan chair like let him sit!!! his single-minded focus on xl got so so old and his insistence on inserting himself everywhere was intrusive and annoying! to me. got real tired of his 'fuck everyone else I got dianxia' mindset. immature. annoying. and unfair

#lwj is reserved and cool to strangers but hes not actively malicious or sadistic #he cares about his family and home and students and music #he does ignore ppl more than I'd like but hes not actively dismissive like hc often is #a small moment from the book I liked was when he first encountered 'mxy' he nodded respectfully in acknowledgement #obvi this doesnt mean mdzs or the writing for him isnt homophobic. it is. it has its own issues. Ive never even reread mdzs #but I think tgcf is just a less serious and more shallow and wishy-washy romance at its core #AND lwj is literally less petty and vengeful thab hc is even tho what jc allegedly did was way worse than what fxmq did #and lwj has literally a reputation for being petty so it doesn't seem fair that hc doesn't #actually tho I think much of that came from drama viewers who saw a gay man being kind of a dick to the guy who 1. was a dick to him first #and 2. suicide baited his loved one so I maintain thats reasonable #hes not unfair or short w anyone else #wait I lost my sentence structure. drama viewers labelled him as petty for being reasonably dickish to the dude he hates for good reason #which IS homophobic. but the comparative scale of mqfx's offenses + the fact that it happened so long ago and xl has long since recovered #makes hc look way more petty and unreasonable. but its not reflected in fan treatment or desc of him. tbf he gets over it by the end tho #ik cunty is a fun word but its not the only accurate one #tgcf txp #mdzs txp

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possumkingluca · 1 year

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Last session my Lizardfolk character was described as a "boy toy of a lizard" and I'm not sure how much more of this campaign I can handle All the trauma my DM dumps on us every session? no i can handle that. no i think having my character be described as a boy toy might be my breaking point actually

#dnd #d&d #dungeons and dragons #lizardfolk #i am mostly joking I love this campaign with all my little decaying heart but hoo boy sometimes i wonder #it has been a few days since my DM hit me with that line and I haven't recovered #the full line was directed at an NPC and was “go play with your boy toy of a lizard”#my character was holed up in our necromancer's crypt so we may never know how he would react (poorly)

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pinkie-satan · 2 years

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stress leaving my body like a cigarette smoke

#this week was hard but everything is all right now #thanks for all the support ♡#this whole month was pretty stressful tbh but last week especially #last month my father was diagnosed with cancer and since he also has other neurological illnesses they weren't sure how to treat him #he suffered some neurological damage when i was still a kid so it's like he's been ill for most of my life #but the latest diagnosis was heart breaking #he had a surgery this week the very complicated and expensive one #and it went well!#i'm so happy!#he is now recovering #i also had an exam this week and i passed it #and was supposed to have another one but professor agreed to postpone it which she normally would never do #so everything turned out fine!#tomorrow i'm going for a little trip with my uni friends #i'm so excited!

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nagweon · 1 year

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whispers i still want a plot one day where si-u's anger has been bottled up for too long and he ends up just going absolutely apeshit on someone who's causing him harm

#bonus points if he straight up just accidentally kills them but i'll settle for him doing more damage than he's believed himself capable of #the downside to this plot though is that idk if he'd ever recover #he'd feel so much guilt afterward. just never able to forgive himself.#this has literally been on my wishlist since i created him lmao #( who says a dream must be something grand ) / * ooc .#( si u ) / * wishlist .

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sanchos · 2 years

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watching motivational united videos…. BYE

#i havent done this since **that** el final #they broke me that day i never recovered but ten hag…..#i believe in him how has he done this #ITS TOO EARLY WHY ARE MY HOPES UP #they arent not really but then again they kinda are idkkkk idk how to explain #i cry to these videos so if youll excuse me

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teddybeirin · 2 years

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the closer i get to having to lay down in bed the worse and worse my mental state gets </3 even though i would love being asleep and resting were it not for the horrors.

#teddyposting #id love to sleep on a couch or a chair or maybe even the floor #anything but a bed. man #i hate having to sleep. because it starts to feel like having survived is a punishment for me in and of itself somehow #to where everything is painful and all things come up that i wish would stay down and away #and i hate having to force myself to lay down and rest because it is very cruel #i can never convince myself well enough that it is safe and okay. and so it ends up being #making myself go into the worst thing ever. in the feel of it #and then i have my nightmares and wake up feeling exhausted still.#and that is nearly every night since before preschool.#i do not think i will ever have restful nights. it has been stolen and cannot be recovered i am pretty sure #sometime tomorrow when the sun is up and there are lovely things and all of this is back down and away #i will not feel that to survive is a punishment. but right now it is so terrible #and so all-consuming. it drowns out everything else and cannot be soothed #and i have to lay down to rest anyhow. even though i am not the one who did wrong i am the one to carry it #i am the one who carries the shame of it the burden of it the othering of it made into something and not someone #the fear and the restlessness and the pain of it. in every way #even though i am not the one who did wrong. i am the one to carry it and i am the one to be thrown #maybe what is the worst thing is how he had not been lying to me. even though #that is the kind of thing any predator would say to try to convince you not to tell to keep his secret. for my life #it was not a lie: nobody was on my side. nobody is still. my family hated me for it. hates me still.#i was left abandoned for it. i have no good family. he was not lying at all #csa ment #to survive is not a punishment. it only feels that way

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medisinals · 2 years

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vamptober day 27: Something to Unlive For

Dr. T. E. Blackwell is not known for his sense of humor. Sure, there are those in the clinic who will desperately assert they heard him make a pun, but no one gives those rumors much credence. Certainly, no one has ever heard him laugh. He does not listen to podcasts. He does not watch television. He does not go to the movies.

But there are books on the shelves in his apartment, crammed away from the moisture of the orchids. A battered edition of Emily Dickinson poems; a recent volume of a medical journal. And, strangely, a collection of essays from award-winning humorist and comedienne Marlene Jones, printed with the dedication For Dad, with the fondest hopes they never find your body.

#vamptober 2022 #//OKAY i think this one needs context #//a couple years after marlene left home he faked his own death. as one does. but obvs the body was not recovered #//marlene has a deep gut feeling that he's still out there sometimes but that kinda seems like probably a byproduct of cult programming #//but even though she disbelieves it on a rational level- on a deeper level she wants to think he's reading her book #//especially since several of the essays in there were originally written as letters to him (but never sent)#//anyways the dedication is her way of acknowledging that feeling while also wording it in the weirdest way possible #//bc that's just how she functions. swag.

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thane-emblem · 1 year

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NEW TDP SEASON AAAAAAAAAAAAA I have SO MANY THOUGHTS alskdjflsadjkf I loved it!!!! Spoilers in the tags, beware!!

#oh my god CLAUDIA!!!!!!#I've been a clauds stan since season 1 and oh my god seeing her this season i am RICOCHETING OFF THE WALLS #terry!!!!#god i love terry!!! and I love his relationship with claudia they mean everything to me!!!!!#terry and viren's convos!!!!#EZ AAAAAAAAAAAAA #ezran has always been mature & wise but my god he's fantastic this season #callum and rayla my beloveds <3333 #JANAYAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!#viren at the end of the last ep?? YESSSS MY FAVORITE EVIL OLD MAN IS BACK!!!!#hes my babygirl hope that helps <333 #aaravos pulling a phantom... 'why so silent' but it's aaravos roasting the main cast #the coins oh my god the coins!!!! terry is what made claudia give them back ALKJSLKASJLKADJFS #im never going to recover from this #how could i forget soren!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#the heart do what it do or dont what it dont hope that clears things up #i could scream for days im so delighted #isa's adventures

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lucindarobinsonvevo · 6 months

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working on something for mum!elle hehehehehehehe

#pidgeon (purposefully misspelled) is her nickname btw elle did not actually name her daughter after the bird (but that would be kinda slay)#abi and leo are here because pidge (get it? like didge?) is her little sidekick #and leo is kind of like her father figure since elle and riley aren't together and riley has never really recovered from didge's death so.#he's not around as much as elle would like him to be. leo does his best. pidge does love him a lot.#honestly kind of obsessed with my little frankenstiens monster #pidgeonau #mitziedits

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