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Started playing dragon age inquisition and I am constantly jumpscared by tactics mode
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Any tips for being a suicidal 15 year old?
When I was a suicidal 15 year old everyone told me “it gets better”, and it sounded like bullshit. And frankly, it still sounds like bullshit. Like oh, what, I’m living in hell and you’re not gonna help me or *do* anything or give me any useful advice and I’m supposed to just hang in there on the nebulous, pithy promise that things are just gonna work out on their own? And you can’t tell me how or why, I’m just supposed to take it on the faith that I don’t have that something might change in ways I haven’t considered?
But yeah. It does. And it’s frustrating as hell.
Yes, things are gonna get better, and they’re gonna get better in ways I can’t describe even after experiencing it myself. Things you don’t even know CAN be different WILL be different. One day you’re just going to step outside and realize things got better somewhere and you didn’t even notice it happening.
And there’s really nothing I can say that makes that sound even a little bit believable.
I guess all I can tell you is that you have to want to believe it.
#Sorry I can’t give you more than that#But it’s true#And if it helps to hear#you haven’t really had the chance to LIVE yet#Do you really want to cancel a subscription to a service you haven’t used?#Maybe check out the features first#You really have nothing to lose#And you may never get a second shot#There’s a lot of cool shit out here#like this is the COOLEST PLANET#We’ve got glowing bugs and music and pasta#No other place in the whole universe has Mario Party or cats or the harmonica#There are some things you should see before you leave#All I do is keep looking for things#Would you go to Paris and just stay in the airport?#Of course not#At least get a croissant#take some stupid tourist pictures#buy a keychain#SOMETHING
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on a completely separate note; shizun luo binghe with a disciple shen yuan who fell into the abyss??? *thinks about LBH canonically stealing SQQ's corpse for 5 years* he'd hallucinate i think. like, like visual and audial hallucinations.
Keeps thinking he's seeing SQQ in the corner of his eyes, or wandering between the trees, amongst a group of disciples. Thinks he hears him calling for him, but its just the wind or another disciple.
Gets Xiu Ya reforged but patently fucking refuses to make a sword mound. Because his disciple Is Not Dead :))) There was No Body. He's Not Dead. And If You keep Insisting That He Is, He's Gonna Skewer You :). He's holding onto Xiu Ya so he can return his most favored disciple's sword when he returns. It's on his hip right next to Zheng Yang where it's supposed to be.
Also this motherfucker?? does not sleep btw. He has the image of SQQ, wide eyed and hysterical and standing at the mouth of the abyss burned into his fucking eyelids. Can't use the dreamscape to escape it either because he keeps trying to save him and either he does and it's an incredibly cruel trick to wake up to, or he doesn't and he gets his heart broken in several different pieces again.
There is no convincing this man that Shen Qingqiu is dead. Absolutely nothing at all. He is buried so deep in denial that moles would be jealous of how deep he is. He keeps making tea for two in the bamboo house only to remember that it's just him. SQQ's fans are hiding everywhere, little reminders of his presence. He goes to wake up SQQ on the mornings he sleeps in-- only to find the room empty.
#svsss#luo binghe#svsss au#scum villain#scum villian self saving system#shen yuan#shen qingqiu#disciple shen yuan#lbh. visibly exhausted and with twitchy eyes: im fine :) | everyone else: ho no the fuck you ARENT.#SQQ was hysterical not because he found out LBH was half-demon but bc he was having a long-awaited mental breakdown over his autonomy :)#or (limited) lack thereof. he was having a sudden onset crisis of mortality and was handling at quite literally the WORST time. oops#im thinking very hard that LBH would never push his disciple into the abyss especially with no system to force him to. so SQQ either#had to goad him into it (failing always) or throw himself in. he ended up doing it himself but not before some very impressive hysterics.#BUT ALSO. IF THIS HAD BEEN WHERE SQQ WAS THE HALF-HEAVENLY DEMON INSTEAD IT WOULD'VE BEEN SO GREAT.#and by great i mean horribly angsty bc SQQ is NOT doing too hot and has. in very SY-like fashion. convinced himself that LBH will kill him#when he finds out he's a demon. so when it comes out i have this mental image of him lunging at LBH and LBH flinches back. but SQQ wraps hi#hands around the blade of Zheng Yang and yanks it up so the tip of the blade is digging into his chest where is heart is. LBH can't yank th#sword away without risking slicing into SQQ's hands. SQQ's hair has fallen out of its tail/bun and is now messily spilling down his#back and its NO helping the kinda deranged look he has going on. he's visibly shaking and his eyes keep flittering away and back at LBH's#face. SQQ is looking at the messages from the system warning him that he has to go into the abyss or punishment will occur. he's like.#rambling though. talking about how shizun doesn't *like* unclean things and there is nothing more unclean than a demon. like he is#INSISTING. LBH can't?? get a fucking word in. actually. SY isn't listening that much either anyways. too overwhelmed with the system and#the amount of stress he's under and his crumbling mental state and the innate and primal desire to live even when he's standing in front of#his own executioner. it all ends with him sitting on the ground at the lip of the abyss with his hair falling in his face. he looks so#unkempt and fallen apart and so distinctly *non-Shen Qingqiu* that LBH feels physically ill over it. tears are streaming down SQQ's face#and despite everything he is smiling. its not a nice smile. its a very frayed falling apart at the seams about to crack smile.#he tells shizun not to worry about staining his blade with this disciple's filthy blood because this disciple will take care of it himself.#and then he falls into the abyss before luo binghe can so much as grab him. the only reason LBh doesn't literally jump in after him is bc#he was numb with shock and the abyss was already closed before he could feel his legs again :]
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i think a lot of people are calling viktor’s reaction to waking up changed and then almost immediately leaving for zaun unrealistic and like… yes it would be. for someone whose mind has not been affected by the hexcore. he speaks differently, he hears sky’s voice through its influence, he can no longer feel the cold, or the warmth of jayce’s hug. he walks away from jayce because he can no longer feel the affection that kept them together, and he sees no logical point in remaining when they have no common ground anymore. he might not be a machine externally, exactly, but his mind certainly isn’t human anymore.
#you KNOW he was seeing visions in that coma. he knew exactly where to go and what he was going to do#even before this he had so little self worth. he saw himself as only being worth as much as his inventions.#he never saw himself as someone worthy of love; he barely saw himself as anyone at all#the only person he KNOWS saw him as more than that is dead and it’s his fault#and waking up and finding out what jayce has done only cements the fact he cannot trust jayce to do what he himself thinks is right#there’s no way he could stay with jayce and do what he needs to do to help the zaunites. at least in his mind anyway#sighhhh. anyway i will probably have to write fic about this tomorrow lmaooo#arcane#jayvik#arcane s2 spoilers#p
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ghost who works with abused dogs because he can relate to their fear and anger and soap who's terrified of dogs but needs a service animal after he gets shot
ghost who's covered in just as many bite scars and scratches as he is scars from his childhood and the military, but he never holds it against a single dog
he knows what it's like to feel trapped and think you only have one way out
he sits through the barking and the lunges, steadily gets closer as he gently talks with each dog, apologises when he moves too quick and gets bitten because it's always his fault, never the dog's. no one bites for no reason
the pride he feels when he gets to share their blanket for the first time is only matched by the day of their adoption
it’s soap's friend’s idea to bring him to check out a dog to foster while his service dog goes through training. he knows he's uncomfortable around dogs - he never made a production out of it but you can only duck around someone so they’re in between you and a dog so many times before they pick something up - but he just thinks he's not used to them and being around one will be enough to calm him down
soap knows he needs a service animal; both for medical reasons and help with every day tasks but also for emotional regulation. he pings from depression to apathy to white hot rage so quick it exhausts him; he's so tired of blowing up at people just because he can't keep his head on straight
he needs a service dog
but just hearing the barking from outside has him so on edge, he's almost sick from it
a volunteer shows them all the dogs available to foster. his friend gushes over every single one; cooing about how cute and sweet they look, just darling things, encouraging them to jump up on their barrier and play tug with their toys, and “come on soap, say hello”
soap keeps his distance, smiling thinly as the volunteer introduces each dog
but ghost happens to be in one of the kennels working with his latest trouble case
and he can plainly see how terrified soap is, no matter how well he thinks he’s hiding it
he flinches at every bark, his hands fisted at his sides, but his friend just doesn't notice; too occupied with the lab mix he’s playing with. ghost can see just how tight he's winding up, the tension creeping up his spine, his “smile” twitching uncontrollably, and it doesn't surprise him in the slightest when he finally snaps at his friend to “just fuck off, alright!” after he keeps pushing him to get closer to the dogs
the abrupt silence is tight and judgmental; the friend giving him a wild look. soap gives a short apology, still angry even though if anyone just took the time to look, it’d be clear he doesn't want to be, and storms out while his friend apologises to the volunteer; dripping with shame and embarrassment that sets ghost's teeth on edge
he could've stopped a dozen times before soap blew up, should've seen the warning signs that he was getting overwhelmed and afraid long before he got to that point
he spreads out a few treats for his dog, both a reward for his patience and an apology for prematurely ending their time together, slowly getting to his feet. he heads outside to find soap in the alley beside the shelter, swearing at himself under his breath and looking seconds away from punching the brick
and when soap snaps, “enjoying the show?”, squaring up with his teeth bared, ghost just leans back against the wall; open and non-threatening and waits for soap to come to him
just ghost who knows what it's like to be angry and afraid and has the patience to help soap feel more in control of himself, never flinching from his bark or his involuntary bite, as well as help him through his fear in time for his service dog
#soap losing himself to his injury and thinking he can never be normal again bc of his emotional regulation and his friends reinforcing that#by expecting him to still be normal even though he physically /cant/#just for ghost to only know this knew version of him and accept him without hesitation#soap being the one to have issues while ghosts already done his healing is just mwah 😘 🤌🏻 chefs kiss#i described ghost as a bait dog once and i stand by that#but soap going from a fighting dog to a bait dog and still acting like a fighting dog? and being punished for it? good shit#so its not ghost treating soap like a wounded dog; its ghost treating soap the way he deserved to be treated when he was in the same place#i almost made the friend gaz just for simplicitys sake but lets be real he would never ignore soaps wellbeing like that or expect him to be#normal and ‘just fix himself already why are you acting like this’#the friend is giving someone who ‘had mental issues before’ - ie felt sad once - and ‘got over it themselves’ by thinking positive thoughts#and doesnt understand or care that mental illness can destroy people and ‘manifesting health’ wont help anything#but bc they did go through /something/ soap internalises the shame that he cant and keeps ‘taking it out on them’#if you have a friend like that btw fuck them off they arent your friend#we’re a team. ghost team#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#ghoap#soapghost#ghostsoap#soap cod#soap call of duty#john soap mactavish#ghost cod#ghost call of duty#simon ghost riley#cod mwii#cod mw2
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As per usual, it’s DP crossover with (probably) DC, although you could probably adjust it for other fandoms
ANYWAYS
A little kid and his mother are trick or treating in another city, perhaps at some kind of event rather than knocking on doors, and the kid is dressed as Phantom. It’s very adorable, with his little ghost-shaped bucket and clearly homemade and already stained costume—listen, white only works if you can just fly over street grime or phase it out of your clothes—and his slightly I’ll fitting wig. The kid is SO happy to be out and about dressed as his favorite, and maybe even showed it off to Phantom back in Amity Park before his family left.
The hero, insert whoever you wish here, is probably in civvies and just enjoying the event. The kid, meanwhile, is so glad when people ask who he is so he can explain, and so- the hero gets to hear ALL ABOUT the local town hero who is probably pretty small time despite the kid’s clearly exaggerated stories. The hero certainly never heard of him, but the kid’s mom confirms that Phantom really was the town hero, despite some mixed reviews of the poor guy.
“Did you manage to show him your costume?” the hero asks.
“Yeah! We went down to the cemetery to leave flowers and I got to show him my costume.”
Wait. Cemetery? Maybe it was part of theme, because Phantom had to be named that for a reason, but… it sounded like…
The kid ignores the suddenly VERY still hero and instead turns to his mom. “Momma, do you think we should bring him candy? He doesn’t get to trick or treat like we do, and I can work super hard to get him a bunch!”
The kid’s mom just smiles. “We could, but maybe we should bring him something homemade. I bet he’d like something more filling, teen boys like him have a hollow leg.”
The kid wrinkles his nose. “Like Vernie with the pizza bagels?”
“Like your cousin, yes. We can make some cinnamon rolls and take them to his memorial, maybe bring some of the apples from your grandpa’s garden…”
The hero is pretty much forgotten as the two-part family wanders off, not quite intentionally forgetting the hero is there so much as the hero somewhat accidentally ended the conversation when they just froze and didn’t ask anything further.
Not that the hero didn’t want to. But they’d learn something very serious.
One—there was a small town hero they’d never heard of. Two—that hero was apparently a teen. Third—most pressingly, the teen hero was both beloved enough to have kids dressing up as him and dead enough to have a grave.
This… might require some phone calls.
#dpxdc#danny phantom crossover#meanwhile Danny. sitting on a giant marble slab that has the most ridiculous gag gifts a ghost could ever ask for#he’s just like Oh Sweet Cinnamon Rolls!#he would try to convince people to bring him nasty burger but while val has MOSTLY gotten over her vindictive anger at Phantom DOES decide#that she’s gonna be petty and add cilantro to everything#because Danny has the cilantro soap gene#jokes on her he’ll still eat it#Danny likes his little memorial in the grave. it helps settle him sometimes. also he’s gotten to know the security guards for the cemetery#they’re fun. a bit morbid. they LIKE his jokes so you can stuff it JAZZ#MEANWHILE the hero. Whomstever they are but like 90% of you are thinking either batfam or Justice league#are having just. a TOUCH of a crisis#now they gotta figure out where the kid and his mom are from without either of them figuring out#dealer’s choice on what the GIW and why Amity Park isn’t on the radar#I’ll add my two cents bc when don’t I but I’m by and large not like… dictating this? anyways#I like making the GIW just a BIT more incompetent or just having some massive flaws as an organizational group#so they keep forgetting to tell people to not LEAVE and to keep quiet#average amity Parker if the GIW tried this anyways: aw that’s cute. anyways-#and if it’s dc I guess you need to figure out how the jl never found out. so#i mean there’s a LOT of heroes and cities in dc#and amity park is just lost to the noise or. bc Fenton bad luck#every time Danny tried to call. the jl had some insane disaster and or their systems were down#he eventually figured he might actually be cursed- jury’s still out on that -and he’s saving lives by just handling it himself#he can handle rhe metaphorical mega thunderstorms if it means he doesn’t accidentally summon a fucking tsunami to hit the planet ya know?#the kid and the mom have no idea that what they said was Odd#they are just so used to it. amity park already was using death puns and had an. interesting history and relation with death#even BEFORE there was a dead kid flying around in his white gogo boots
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#a man wakes up one day thinking what if new brushes what if we make it texture✨#settings were fiddled fear of not having everything smoothed out was conquered and here is the result#also getting reacquainted with akseli gallen-kallela's work which ive loved since i was a kid those paintings are unghhh--#fucking art man-- i love it so much i have been painting the last weeks so much my elbow which i rest on the table is actually sore#im propping it on top of a cushion now which ive never had to do before girl help
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Baby Junior's First Steps (based on a scene from Bluey)
Prompt from my buddy @vadfannypack! Everyone thank them Right NoW!!

#tmnt#rottmnt#casey jones#casey jones jr#april o'neil#tmnt sunita#cassandra jones#don't call her Cass/Cassie#my art#I've never watched Bluey but I love how into it my friends are#anyways ermmm if anyone mentions the turtles vis-a-vis parenting Junior you're getting Blocked I'm not dealing with you#they help SURE but I SWEAR if another female character's development gets shafted in favor of a male character's I'm going to EXPLODE#Casey gets to be Junior's mom for a good while before she dies and you can pry that belief from my cold dead hands#I don’t play about curating my social media experience if I don’t like your vibe I don’t have to see you#anyways anyways yippeee adorable babu Juniorrrr I had a LOT of fun drawing these and almost died from cuteness aggression
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[ID: Two digital illustrations, both loosely shaded, showing Thespius in various poses and outfits, all with his left eye closed.
The first illustration has three Thespiuses.
The first/upper-left Thespius is standing and leaning forward as though mid-step, looking to the viewer's left in a glittery silver blazer, brown-ish tie with floral patterns all over, white shirt, and dark blue pleated skirt. Said skirt features a subtle gradient from a paler blue at the top to an even darker blue along the bottom. Silver flowers (with dots between each one) decorate its waistband, while double horizontal lines (with three flowers on each pleat) cut across the bottom of the skirt itself. He has black shoes with white socks matching his outfit. His two trumpets peek out over his shoulders as he holds his ukulele Tony and loosely strums. He has a loose ponytail, yellow/pale blue flowers in his hair, and a billowing wave of desaturated warm colors in stripes behind him. Around the entirety of him is a cream-coloured outline as well, and he overlaps the second and third Thespius-es some.
The second/upper right Thespius is laughing with his face haloed by the sun. His torso faces away from the viewer, but his face is turned enough to see his beaming expression. He's in a running/skipping pose on top of a section of pink/coral cloud, wearing a brown blazer/suit with crisscrossing cream/red stripes, cream-coloured shirt, flowing brown skirt, white socks with garters, and black shoes. His right (hidden) hand clutches his skirt to swish in front of him, while the other arm is thrown out in joy and balance. He's mostly in shadow save for the sun's light spilling across him from behind. He also has the same cream-coloured outline around him, one that disappears as it flows into the sun and clouds. Additionally, another -- if smaller -- billowing wave of the same warm colours can be seen to the right of him.
Lower right Thespius is leaning back against a bed of pale orange-pink clouds, his left arm up like the cloud has/is an arm rest. His right hand is pulling down pink heart sunglasses (with a golden frame) for him to look over them with a laid-back smile. His hair's worn loose here, draping down over his shoulders and loosely tied back with a pink/coral bandanna that features wavy patterns and dots all over. The rest of his outfit consists of a very low-cut pale yellow shirt (one showing off a bit of cleavage and chest hair) with dark teal hems and vine-like/floral embroidery (teal across the shirt itself where it meets the hems, yellow along said hems themselves), dark teal pants that flare out at the ends (which feature the same yellow embroidery), and even darker teal shoes with pale yellow edges and decoration to match. He also wears a dangly, shiny green-ish earring consisting of a tall triangle shape with a rounded segment below it. His nails are painted, too -- pink on his right hand, teal on his left, both featuring very small yellow flower patterns. Over his shoulders float his two trumpets, and behind the whole scene is the top part of a halftone-patterned rainbow (which also overlaps the second Thespius slightly). This third drawing of him notably lacks the same outline the others sport.
The background consists of a gradient from pale greenish-blue near the top, to a rich mid-tone/dark blue towards the bottom, with dark halftone patterning overtop. Yellow/white/peach/pink flowers of varying shapes and sizes are scattered throughout. Around the whole piece is a border consisting of two dark, parallel wavy lines. Both the flowers and border share the cream-coloured outline.
The second illustration has four Thespiuses.
The first/upper left Thespius is leaning on his elbows on slightly darker pink clouds, framed by the seemingly setting sun like a halo. He has a gentle bright smile and is resting his cheek in his curled left palm. His right hand is tucked into his left elbow, and two other disconnected hands -- one on each side -- are somewhat spread palm-up around him in a welcoming sort of gesture. He wears a loose, shawl-like, low-cut desaturated green shirt with elaborate patterns of dark red/orange overlaying yellow around the ends of the sleeves and down the middle/opening of the shirt itself. Said shirt also has similar, dark green stripes across it. His headband is striped the same colours of the shirt. He's lit mostly from behind by that setting sun, its light also spilling across his clouds. Said shading/lighting has a painterly look.
The second/upper right Thespius is smaller. He floats proudly, both eyes closed and his hands on his hips. He wears a white turtleneck, dark teal skirt + headband, white socks, and dark blue-ish shoes. His two trumpets hover over his shoulders. Around him is the same cream outline from the first page.
The third/middle Thespius flows with the rippling stripes of colour behind him, pivoting on his left heel with his right up and behind him and arms outstretched as though dancing. His right hand in particular reaches palm-up (as if to an offscreen partner) with flower petals scattering from it. He's smiling bright. his hair flows out behind him and two the viewer's left, with a red headband (with arrow-like patterns on it) around. He wears a baggy, pale tan shirt with thin horizontal stripes and a semi-dipped neckline, all of which bunches and flows outwards with the rest of his dance. A loose white vest with blocky red-brown stripes along the opening + a similarly-coloured zig-zag stripe down the front, as well as tassels (with similar decorations along the ends) that scatter and flow outwards with the force of his movement drapes on him. He also wears loose red pants with large, almost scale-like patterning, tied with a long lighter-red belt (sporting patterns similar to his headband) that flies out in front of him, also spinning with him. His one visible shoe is an orange-ish red. The entirety of him also has that cream outline.
In the lower left corner of the image is Tony the ukulele, decorated with a flowing stripe of red, yellow, and blue, like a rainbow of sorts, as well as smaller stickers all over of yellow/peach/pink/dark purple flowers + hearts. A similar cream outline borders the entirety of Tony.
The last/lower right Thespius is a halfbody in profile to the viewer's right. He has his hands on his hips, and a happy triangle burst effect coming from his smiling face. He has a gold/yellow striped headband, a white blouse with thin green and red stripes and deep v-cut, a maroon cardigan with a white-dotted stripe pattern, and black lower clothing. He sports the same cream outline.
The background here is a desaturated turquoise with some darker hints around the edges. Wavy stripes of blue, purple, and pink flow across it like a long scarf or river. A halftone pattern sits atop both. Even more pink/yellow/peach flowers are scattered around, and the same wavy border from before frames the whole piece. Said flowers and border once again share the cream-coloured outline. end ID.]
my pieces for @strawberrij thespius fashion zine!! quite the endeavour and adventure that turned out pretty neat i think :]
special thanks go to @ratchetclankarecute for posing/cloth references + the bulk of the image descriptions! that first image would Not have happened without them <3
#great god grove#ggg thespius green#thespius fashionista zine#moon draws things#also everyone cheer and clap and say thank you to @actingwithportals and @vivifrage for significant help wrangling clothing folds#@publiccmenace for some tweaks and colouring advice#and @ayaheart77 for further colour advice + helping get these backgrounds sorted at All#literally that first page wouldnt have made it past the sketch cleanup stage if it weren't for the crew pitching in#shoutout to that entire server honestly. youve heard of twitch plays xyz‚ get ready for: discord plays zine entry#couldnt have done it without yall <3#also massive massive shoutout to tumblr blog omgthatdress whose extensive library of fashion this project--#--literally Could Not Have Happened Without#anyhow HI. BEEN A MORBILLION YEARS AND MAYBE IT'LL BE A MORBILLION MORE. WANTED TO PLAY TOYS THOUGH SO HERE I AM [FOR NOW]#THESE WERE SUCH A STRUGGLE TO POST AND FOR WHAT.#had to link them from my personal website just so tumblr would accept them. good lird#this was a whole entire adventure and Quite the challenge in many ways. quite proud of the effort that went into it all though :]#came away having learned a lot too!!#would 100% do this again [just. hold the sketti sauce (technical difficulties that cost me 10 days or so and made the whole thing--#--a slight scramble) next time]#be sure to go have a look at the zine whenever it drops to see these in full res!!! and see everyone else's work too!!!#everyone's been doing such a lovely wonderful job and it's absolutely incredible to see#anyway. sighs wistfully. i may be aroace but damn if this silly guy doesnt have me a rather goofy amount of in love in a shrimp sort of way#like YEAH i too am in love with love and have a passion for passion bestie!!! i never stood a chance. it was over before it even started.#peace and love and plants on planet grove#and also @strawberrij!!!! i hope you know that how you draw this guy like fundamentally changed how i draw him too#right in the middle of working on this and everything. saw your one impossible greens post‚ got hit with levels of serotonin i didn't--#--even know i was capable of‚ felt a switch flip in my brain‚ and HARD pivoted into borrowing some of how you draw this guy#it's literally peak and i hope you're proud of yourself [completely genuine]#unsure why it's not letting me ping you directly also but alas. may whatever curse that took your messages and asks be lifted soon cuz--#--Good Lird‚ man
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the first time I drew these two(when I was 12) they were functionally the Color Guardian's version of Jessie and James,,,
#green haired minor antagonist who happens to be from another world/dimension but is doomed by the narrative i'll always love you#literally my favorite magical girl character trope#colorless ashe#colorless pitch#pitch doesnt use her human disguise nearly as often as ashe does#but she does have one#color guardians#my art#my ocs#maybe I'll make a lil ref sheet for Pastel and Reed too! that could be fun#and the big bad as well as some of the colorless creatures#pitch always kinda looks like a homestuck troll and i can never escape that#i made her have grey skin and black hair and horns BEFORE i read homestuck#wish i had my old ms paint art of her cuz i remember sending it to my friend one time when i was 14 and he was like 'thats a troll'#literally deleted all of it then and there and refused to even think about Pitch for a bit cuz of it#did not help that she used to have yellow eyes
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i feel like reading Ashley’s crying fits as emotional manipulation falls into either misunderstanding or a bad faith reading of her personality. especially flashback childhood scenes. Ashley legitimately feels like if Andrew is not on board with her he hates her and wants nothing to do with her- look at her social life, the way her mother treats her. sure its not logical but her past experience with people would guide her to that conclusion. *person* doesn’t like something i do/say = i end up alone again. to hear these kinds of words come out of a child’s mouth, a responsible and mentally stable adult’s response would be to hold her hand and guide her through these feelings, and explain to her that the world does not operate in the black and white lenses she views them from…. now when is Ashley ever surrounded by someone of this description. this explanation would need to come from a parental figure, or a role model in the child’s life, somebody the child trusts and looks to for guidance. who is this person for Ashley??? Andrew. another child. not a well rounded, stable, emotionally mature adult with the past experiences to prove these thought patterns wrong. and how does he respond? by giving in. his little sister is crying, upset, and mom and dad don’t like dealing with her and explicitly tell him its his responsibility to placate her and make sure she’s taken care of and listening to them- whenever they decide they’re going to attempt at parenting that is. they never tell him how to do this, all they want is for their daughter to shut up and leave them alone. in this moment, his little sister is crying and that is unacceptable. based on his past experiences, the fastest (and only) way to solve this problem that nobody else wants to deal with is to do what she wants to do. give in. let her have her way. even in the most extreme of circumstances, because neither of them have reliable responsible role models. as they grow up, Andrew builds resentment towards his sister for this, he’s always doing whatever she wants and they’re acting on her whims because they never learned otherwise. misdirected anger that should have been angled at their parents.. so why isn’t it? because their mother was a hostile, volatile person, who punished him for straying an inch out of line. follow orders and keep up appearances, or else. make sure she does the same, or else. expressing any sort of resentment or anger towards anyone but Ashley would have resulted in an outburst from their mother. there is a line, though. Renee may not have given him any sound examples or advice to follow but she did tell him what not to do: resort to physical violence. she knows it’s not a solution to behavior, we can assume she has experience with this because of her reaction to Andrew trying it out on his sister. and in light of their parents deaths, what does Andrew resort to? physical violence. why? because he’s learned that while it may not change Ashley’s behavior (like their mother said), it makes her listen in the moment. and it feels good, to finally let out his frustrations and he won’t be punished for it. this is him ‘acting out’. he finally has the chance to act without punishment and he uses it to do the only thing that he was explicitly told not to do. why does Ashley act the way she does? because she has 2 decades of experience telling her that what she does effects everyone but herself. she has never dealt with punishment, or consequences, in her entire 20 years of life. she has never had to keep up appearances, or stay in line, because she was never given a reason to. Andrew was. soo.. Andrew’s girlfriend breaks up with him, they kill their parents, they’ve been socially isolated and starved for months with the threat of death right around the corner and then they’re both given a chance to take advantage of an object that ultimately would relieve them of consequences.. but what’s the catch? there doesn’t seem to be one, but Andrew knows better. At least in this instance.
#🔪#apparently there’s a text limit lmao so anyway i also wanna say#the only time in her life that Ashley was threatened with consequences was during their starvation. ‘listen or dont eat’#AND EVEN THEN. the threat didnt mean shit. the warden was never going to help them either way.#so Ashley’s one and only experience with the threat of consequence ended with ‘it doesnt matter what i do im gonna die’#so she had no reason to not continue on doing whatever she wanted.#and when Andrew finally gets to experience what’s its like to not have to deal with consequences he’s proven to be just as impulsive#he’s just suppressed it for 20 years. ‘doing what im not supposed to feels good and nothings gonna happen to me.. unless my sister decides#to kill me. but i know how to make her stay in line’ *violence ensues* and Ashley has NEVER seen this before. she doesn’t know#what to do in this situation but turn to the only thing that can continue to relieve her of consequences (dying at her brothers hand)#The Entity. The Trinket. Feeding into her brother’s substance abuse issues and chaining him to a radiator. etc etc#when Andrew hits her in the car & she starts crying it’s not ‘soo Leyley of her to resort to emotional manipulation’ thats a terrified kid#who doesn’t know what she did wrong because she’s never done anything wrong. she’s never had a consequence.#she plays games and she just wants her brother to stick around.#tcoaal#ashley graves#andrew graves
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"Jason was the happy robin" this, "jason was the angry robin" that. Let's all be fully honest here Jason was the lonely robin
#It gets worse the more i think about it aiguaoughhh#they pretty much retconned the people he was close to before the crisis. he only interacts with dick like once or twice#ive never seen him with barbara#he had no team#in terms of school he had rena(?) and then 3 friends that show up in an annual and never again#and obviously with the whole secret identity it hardly can be a close friendship. esp with how little theyre shown#in terms of super friends he had Danny and Kid Devil. which. one is mentioned off hand and theyre never seen together#and the other is from a short story and never brought up again#alfred has his praises sung but we never really see him connect with jay#all he had was BRUCE. and the only way to ever be with bruce is to be robin#is it really any wonder he chased after his mother? is it any wonder who chose to trust someone he hardly knew?#dc liveblog#jason todd#i feel so bad for him all the time for forever#ive just started reading comics after his death but before his resurrection. the hallucination jason era#and its seems to be shaping up to be with him written as the angry robin who never listened#which i Know is because of the writers. but in universe? it just feels like jason wasnt understood or known at all#doylist vs watsonian moment as they say#dc comics#batman comics#and he became a symbol of failure to batman So Quickly. not a memory but a reminder#and every trophy from his time as robin was taken out of the batcave. and every moment as jason was removed from (at least) bruces room#he was on call/on a list as a backup titan if they needed help but he wasnt With them. they teamed up twice#i cant remember if he meant it towards blood specifically or in general rn but he fully admitted to not being good/experienced enough#they didn't really know him and he didn't really know them#wait fuck was rena all pre-crisis. devastating. he stopped going on patrols n being robin for awhile when she was his gf#of course by then he was already A Hero who cant fully ignore how he can help so he eventually was like yeah we should stop a little#obviously there was that catwoman arc going on and i feel writers just liked keeping him away alot. but ough. he was so quick to stop when#there was someone There. and robin didn't have ti feel like all he had#anyway crisis got rid of her im sure. like harvey. when does 'pre and post crisis' actually start bc its not at the crisis its issues after
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Question for the masses: how would one know if they were aromantic or just so intensely a Capricorn that they can't like anyone because of the ick
#asking for a friend#the friend is me lmao#its aromantic awareness week i think#and ive been thinking about this for a while#like a year or so#but as always i have a need to be 100% sure#im definitely not asexual#but i have wondered if maybe im aromantiv#cause i have had 'crushes' before but ive never felt like#hm#idk its so complicated#and usually i dont give a fuck about labels#but in this case it might help me
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Sooo…KlavRyan/KlavDar/DaryKlav????
#ace attorney#klavier gavin#daryan crescend#KlavRyan#KlavDar#DaryKlav#my art#I know every ship has multiple names and I just got here but what’s the go to ship name???#there’s like 6 of us and we’re all saying different things help lmao#ANYWAYS SURPRISE!!!#idk just the fact I’ve posted nothing but Ben Baro for almost a month and then I just hit yall with KlavDar out of NOWHERE#it’s super funny to me#I actually liked them before I rediscovered Ben Baro 😅 but I had no idea how to find more content of them#and it’s even more funny bc I forgot Daryan existed and I never really cared for Klavier either#but boy do I sure think about them together!!!#it was that line that Klavier said in 4-3 that got me here#went something along the lines of#‘At times like these I really wish you where here Daryan’#FUCKING BROKE ME LOCKED ME THE FUCK IN#so ofc I referenced that line here 🤭#I love their vibes#I have multiple dynamics in mind for them#like Daryan having a one sided crush#or a werid complicated relationship where Daryans all in but Klavier just won’t commit and is just unsure about it and kinda toxic too#could also be a they dated and broke it off but remained friends#which I like#I wish Daryan had a Mohawk instead….bbygirl what are you DOING#anyways fuck a character’s popular ship I WANT TRAGIC BEST FRIENDS#COUGH Ben/Baro COUGH KlavDar COUGH ClayPollo
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Uh oh.... all five chooks are laying again....
#time to marinate some egg#my chickens#i am grateful that my one hen never quit laying all winter but thats truly all i need#one egg every other day is enough help#people keep being like well at least you dont have to buy eggs in this economy!!!#but tbh before i had chickens i rarely ate eggs. so
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wdym if the petrification didn't happen, modern world gen wouldn't know how to flirt with girls while senku would be ur average dude with 18+ thoughts on his mind all the time....... this is just too funny
#really love this fact for gen#bc this is how ive always seen him#i can imagine him being a good flirt when he pretends to be someone else#but i think his real self is just an awkward guy when it comes to romance#bc my hc is that gen mostly had a shield on in the modern world#he was an extrovert but even so he didn't have much genuine conversations#so if he had any real interest in anyone he would be quite at a loss on how to about it#like he would be able to help and advice others on how to get together with someone but would be a loser himself omg#this is such a win for me i love this gen#and as for senku im ngl i love asexual senku as much as the next person#but it's not out of the realm for me to imagine an eroi senku lmao#it's kinda funny tho#my headcanon of senku has always been that he has a low interest in romance and whatnot but he's not oppose it to either#so more like he wouldn't go out of his way to find it but if it happens it happens#this new fact doesn't really go against my headcanon i think so yeah woohoo#also another fact i saw was that gen was a street performer before he became big#basically like ed sheeran but magician#he's so hardworking... he never gave up on his dreams i love him#based on the LN he was lonely pre petrification too just like tsukasa#it's probably why he liked tsukasa back then bc he saw himself in tsukasa with how hard tsukasa worked to save his sister#and how hard gen works to achieve his dreams#dr stone#sengen
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