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Im having a pretty bad pain day today, can I request some Cingerglass caretaking? Maybe Lex has a bad pain day too, with phantom pains and Sarah being there for him. Idk just he doesn’t have to go through that alone anymore
cw: phantom pain, referenced captivity
He woke to shooting pain in his hands.
It felt like his fingers were overextended and cramping, the muscles in his palms spasming, and Lex wondered dully how he'd managed to hold them open like that as he'd slept. He curled his hands into fists, but was only met with the sound of metal on metal as his cybernetics obeyed the signal. His cybernetics, that he couldn't feel.
He sat up, moving his arms into his lap, the stretching, straining, imaginary pain still there, getting worse, crawling up the forearms he didn't fucking have anymore. He breathed through clenched teeth, trying not to let panic rise in his chest.
(Nest, best, crest)
This had happened before. He knew it was... normal, kind of, but he didn't know how to stop it. In the Tower, he'd just curled up on his cot until it got to be too much and he was biting back screams. With Uriah, all of his energy went into trying to conceal it, trying not to let it become another moment Fox could exploit. Here... fuck. He was free, but it was early morning, and he didn't want to wake anyone up.
He forced himself out of bed, trying to shake off the feeling by shaking his cybernetic arms, but it did nothing. He stared at his hands, willed the ghostly ones to relax and close with the metal ones, but the fingers stubbornly refused, stretching and stretching until it felt like the joints would sever from each other.
(Brother, another)
He needed to go out. Go for a walk or something, try to distract himself, ride it out. He winced as he grabbed the handle of the door to his room and threw it open, tried to keep his breathing even as he moved down the stairs, stumbled towards the door--
"Lex?"
Sarah was already awake. His metal fingers curled into tight fists, but the sound of it only seemed to drive the phantom hands to be spiteful, a flash of pain running up his arms with such intensity that Lex had to choke back a gasp.
"I--I'm going out," he said, forming the words carefully, trying not to let any pain leech into his voice, but the words were coming out too sharp. Clipped. "Be back later." (Hater, crater)
"Are you okay?"
"Fine." Even as he said it, his body sought to prove him a liar, non-existent forearms clenching with enough force that it felt like the muscle fibres were splitting. Lex winced audibly, metal hands coming up to wrap around him before he could stop himself.
Through blurring vision, he could see Sarah getting up, coming to stand a few feet away from him.
"Uh... we might have different definitions of what 'fine' is," she said in a careful voice.
(Brine, sign)
"It-- I can't do anything about it," Lex said. Fuck, he didn't want to explain this right now, didn't want to fuck up her morning, he just wanted to leave so he could scream in peace. "Phantom pain," he said shortly, and hoped that was enough.
Her eyes widened. "Oh shit, hold on, I can grab you some Tylenol."
Lex's brows pulled down further. He kept forgetting that was something that was available, after he'd gone so long without it as an option. "Yeah," he gasped out. "Please."
"Okay, here. Sit down." She held out her hands, and he moved to meet them, allowing her to guide him to the couch.
"I'll be right back."
He hunched forwards, trying to breathe through the next bout of spasms. The moment seemed to drag out forever, but eventually Sarah came back with water and pills, and he took both eagerly.
"I'm not sure how much it'll help---"
"S'okay. It's enough," he said. Miles better than what he'd had access to in the past. His forearms twisted tighter, and he turned away from her, clenching his jaw until the muscle there began to burn. Despite his best efforts, a whimper managed to slip out.
He felt the couch shift as Sarah sat beside him. "Do you want me here?" she said softly. "I can go upstairs if you'd rather be alone."
Did he? He was used to being alone, especially for this, but... he didn't want her to go. Even if it didn't do much for the pain, something in him was drawn to her like a magnet, and he just... felt better when she was nearby.
"Stay," he said, and she smiled in return.
"Okay. I can put on some cartoons? It might help distract you from it."
He nodded, eyes squeezing shut against another wave of pain. Better than nothing, better than staring at the wall and waiting for it to end.
"You... Uh, you can sit closer if you want," Sarah said. "I mean, you don't have to, but if you think it'll help..."
He wasn't sure it would, but because it would be a distraction, because it was Sarah, he inched closer to her, breathing shakily as he lowered his head onto her shoulder, felt her arm rest light on his waist.
It didn't help the pain, not directly.
But it sure felt good to have something to hold on to.
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amalia-uwu · 4 months
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“You are the best”
Gift Oneshot for Fudgelling-Away @fudgelling-away 💚💚💚
Sans x Female Reader
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Undertale by Toby Fox. The rights go to the respective owners!
Photo by Nataliya Vaitkevich from Pexels.
Warnings ⚠️ : light angst,
Your majesty, I offer you this oneshot.
Please my queen, accept this humble offering!
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You came home after a long day.
By the time you woke up..
Things were just going downhill. You hit your toe on the bed. Slammed your head on the table.
It started raining, the wind turned the umbrella around 5 times.
At work not only the manager was being a total jerk, some customers really tested your patience and limits. Too much work paperwork..
Of course, they spilled coffee on you cause why not? This day is already awful! What else could get wrong?
You reached your door all wet, cause someone drove over the puddle on the street as a result the muddy water splashed all over you.
...Great. Just great...
You sighed.
You stepped in.
Sans heard the door opening "Honey?" his soft masculine voice called. He sounded from the kitchen. You didn't have the strength to speak. Your eyes began watering. You felt them burning.
You stood at the door not saying a word.
He came and looked at you. His happiness turned to shock, concern, understanding..
His eyes widen "Oh". He could understand from your face that you could barely keep it together.
"Before anything else, how about you take a shower, then come talk to me? Hm? There are fresh washed clothes and hot water waiting for you. Then come eat and we will talk yes?".
You smiled clenching your teeth and silently nodded.
You left your things and went to take a shower.
You washed your hair, then filled the bathtub with hot water and let yourself relax.
The water warmed your bones and alleviated the soreness and tiredness. That gift box Sans brought you had the best fragrances.
Coconut, rose, mango, floral and many more beautiful smells.
Right now you used lavender.
Eventually you cleaned the bathroom and went to the bedroom.
You saw the clothes he picked up for you, laying neatly on the bed.
Okay, you chuckled.
The shirt was green with heart designs on it.
The pants were a darker shade of green (forest green) with pandas on them.
Your white wooly jacket, with the teddybear-like hood that neatly laid above your bed.
You got dressed and walked downstairs.
He left food for you and a glass of orange juice on the table.
Sans looked at you. You approached him and hugged him.
He hugged you back. You began crying.
Everything that had happened today, came back to slap you hard on the face.
"Bad day?" he asked softly. You nodded.
"wanna tell me what happened?".
"too much work, the manager is a total jerk. On the street someone splashed muddy water all over me, they spilled coffee and... Today is just terrible".
He caressed your hair and gave your a cheek a soft kiss.
You smiled at that.
"Hey, now it's okay! Sshh.. Look, I made you, your favorite food. We can see your favorite movie and eat the cake I baked. Sounds good?"
You broke the hug and kissed his cheekbone.
You loved how his face blushed. That faint blue hue under his eye sockets drove you nuts.
You sat down and you ate the food he made for you. "Mmm" the flavors were so good.
Sans had stopped eating, he was just watching you. He loved the way you eat.
He found you so adorable.
You looked at him. Cheeks stuffed and slightly blushed. You swallowed and said "It's delicious, thank you!"
Sans smiled, man he was adorable when he was getting shy. You wanted to put him down and kill him with kisses.
However, the lady you were. You repressed that desire.. For now.
When you both finished.
You drank the orange juice. You felt better.
You were so happy around him.
Even in bad days. You couldn't help but smile, when you were close to him.
He was the light in the darkness.
You washed the dishes and then laid on the couch.
He brought you closer, wrapping his arms around you. You laid on top of him. Your face on his sternum, listening to the soft humming of his soul.
He was warm and soft. His bones and magic made him a soft chubby teddy bear.
He threw a blanket above you; your favorite color, green.
You smiled and kissed his sternum, were his soul is..
"You are the best" you whispered loud enough for him to hear.
"You make me happy! Thank you sweetheart" you added.
He smiled and caressed your back. He kissed your forehead
"I'm always here for you, y/n. Don't forget that, no matter what. I am always here my starlight".
You smiled "same goes for me sans. I'm always here"
He rubbed your back as you buried your face deeper into his ribs.
"I love you sans" you mumbled and slowly closed your eyes for a nap. You had the best boyfriend in the world.
"I love you too Y/N" he whispered.
This day had a good conclusion after all. You were happy!
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The end 😘
Thank you for reading! 💙
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beyondthepaper · 9 months
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Hello there
I found your comic on webtoon we'll I was in the hospital I liked it and it made me feel a little bit better so thank you ♥️
oh my gosh, first of all, i hope you’re okay?!?! ☹️ sending prayers for you and for whatever you’re going through! and second of all, i’m glad you liked it! i really appreciate that and you just made my day a little better too! 😁 again, i really hope you’re doing okay and thank you so much for your support! tqm! 🫶💖
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alexandy99 · 1 year
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I've been a little under the weather so it's not a SUPER exciting list, but I had 3 slices of challah french toast for breakfast, chicken noodle soup and some homemade trail mix (cereal, m&ms, nuts, craisins) for lunch, and some frozen stuffed chicken breasts with rice for dinner.
That sounds so good honestly, such nice meals❤️ You’re very good for eating even when you don’t feel good
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iboatedhere · 1 year
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If you think Carlos is an asshole this season, then you can fuck on out of the fandom. Carlos is not an asshole. His MO has always been to deflect away from arguments with humour. And he didn’t hold this close to his chest because T.K. said they haven’t had the talk about kids yet and he just assumed. And Carlos doesn’t never want kids. He just said he doesn’t want them right now because he wants to live life with TK first. You’re not being a good fan of this show if you’re turning on carlos for every single thing this season even though he and TK are communicating! Carlos has had a lot more growth this season, and it is making him into an amazing character, and T.K. has grown a lot as well because he doesn’t run in situations that come up anymore. He stays and talks about it with Carlos. They’re being a normal couple, arguing and talking things through. So leave the fandom because you’re obviously not a fan of the show anymore. You don’t deserve to be a fan of TK right now if you’re shitting on Carlos. Ronen would be disappointed with people like you for shitting on Rafael’s character. So leave the fandom because you’re a bitch and no one likes you. Bitch
Oh no you're giving me an F in the fandom community!
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hansoeii · 10 months
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andthebeanstalk · 1 year
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Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".
Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"
And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".
Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.
At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.
So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!
Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!
Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!
Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.
#hlep#original#mental health#my sympathies and empathies to anyone who has to rely on this kind of hlep to get what they need.#the people in my life who most need to see this post are my family but even if they did I sincerely doubt they would internalize it#i've tried to break thru to them so many times it makes my head hurt. so i am focusing on boundaries and on finding other forms of support#and this thing i learned today helps me validate those boundaries. the example with the milk was from my therapist.#the example with the towing company was a real thing that happened with my parents a few months ago while I was age 28. 28!#a full adult age! it is so infantilizing as a disabled adult to seek assistance and support from ableist parents.#they were real mad i was mad tho. and the spoons i spent trying to explain it were only the latest in a long line of#huge family-related spoon expenditures. distance and the ability to enforce boundaries helps. haven't talked to sisters for literally the#longest period of my whole life. people really believe that if they love you and try to help you they can do no wrong.#and those people are NOT great allies to the chronically sick folks in their lives.#you can adore someone and still fuck up and hurt them so bad. will your pride refuse to accept what you've done and lash out instead?#or will you have courage and be kind? will you learn and grow? all of us have prejudices and practices we are not yet aware of.#no one is pure. but will you be kind? will you be a good friend? will you grow? i hope i grow. i hope i always make the choice to grow.#i hope with every year i age i get better and better at making people feel the opposite of how my family's ableism has made me feel#i will see them seen and hear them heard and smile at their smiles. make them feel smart and held and strong.#just like i do now but even better! i am always learning better ways to be kind so i don't see why i would stop
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cryptke · 1 year
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hydrocodone 💞
YUUPPPPPPPPPP
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inkskinned · 1 year
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she says he won't let her get a dog, which is fine, because they're in an apartment, and that's the kind of thing people say about their partners. he won't let me get a dog. and you're at a dinner party and you tilt your head a little to the side just like that dog he won't let her get, because is this the thing that's going to upset you? you don't know every corner of their relationship, she could be joking, they could have had so many healthy conversations about the dog, right, and maybe she's not letting herself get the dog because of money and time and whatever. but, like, she did say let
and she wants to move away from his hometown and he wants to stay and then he tells you with a wink and a conspiratorial stage whisper don't worry i'll convince her and she laughs about it - so clearly this is something they laugh about. but you do just stand there and stare at him like what the fuck, man. you can't say what you want to say which is why do you get the final say on everything because they're both obviously aware of the other person's stance on this and have obviously had private conversations about it and what are you going to do about it except make a scene and then he'll be mad at you and call you one of those bitches behind your back and she'll cut you off, which is a loss that doesn't feel worth it just because he makes you a little skeeved out every 3rd comment
and they both agree he just isn't the type to get flowers which is fine because everyone shows love differently, and are you really gonna judge someone based on their sense of individual relationship responsibility? maybe he's constantly cleaning her car and writing her poems and making her furniture or something. maybe she doesn't even like flowers and this is perfect, actually. and no you couldn't date him, obviously, ew; but like, she tells you she's happy. you almost send her a tiktok that says don't be 25 and the cool girl that doesn't need anything, you'll hate not getting flowers at 30, but that's like, starting drama & you shouldn't start drama needlessly.
and you're a little older than her but not so much older you can pull the whole trust me on this one babe thing and besides that wouldn't have worked anyway (when does it ever) and besides you have trauma so you and your therapist both agree that you're always looking for a problem even when there isn't one. and you tell yourself that just because you see them for 15 minutes every month does not mean you can identify every single red flag based on a single shitty half-joking(?) comment
and besides, what are you going to do? she says i actually wanted another stand mixer but thankfully he stops me when i'm about to spend too much money and you're standing there like are you okay? is this normal? is this just something people say? and again - what are you going to do?
to your therapist you try to language it - it's not, like, any of my business. but sometimes, doesn't it feel like - you should do something. there's got to be something, right? you've tried dropping little hints but they sail right through and you've tried having a single serious conversation and she got upset because why does it matter to you, yes it's different but we're happy, it doesn't need to make sense to you and you're like. really unwilling to push a boundary about it anymore; because the truth is that you know logically it shouldn't matter to you, as long as both parties are happy.
and besides, you've been wrong before. it's just... like, every time you see them both, something else happens, some kind of shiver down your spine like do you even hear each other when you talk. it's their strange, bickering orbit. just the way he's on his phone through dinner or watching sports instead of helping in the kitchen or, fuck, another one of these little throwaway comments he makes about we'll see about that, babe. she laughs when he calls her passions stupid shit and meanwhile she gets him tickets to see the knicks and he tells you well at least she's smart about something and still! it's none of your business.
you say get the dog anyway and she laughs. like, this is is you being funny. and not you saying - no really. get the dog. get the dog and get out of here. pack up and start running.
#this btw is not including toxic friendships this is legit just something ive experienced MANY times now#writeblr#you ever have a friend in one of those relationships where ur like#u don't HATE their partner explicitly#but ur like. what the fuck y'all#like the weird part of being an adult is that you can't be like . CERTAIN their relationship is toxic#and also if u move too fast or push too hard u can hurt someone who is already in a scary situation so you just are like#frozen there. laughing awkwardly. saying ''haha..... yeah..... couldn't be me....''#and like u can't tell - is this banter or does he actually think like. he's better than her.#all you can do is be there for your friend and hope they wake up to it#or ... that it really IS good#and it's just odd to you#tbh btw id rather have my friends feel safe coming to me if they have a concern about my relationship#like yes it's not ur business but it also IS bc im making u hang out with them and also ur my friend#it's a weird thing to experience as an adult bc it is such a blurry line and when u spend time#around couples that aren't like ACTUALLY ur friends but instead ''extended friend circle'' ur like#.... i don't know y'all well enough and he just called you a cow. and ur okay with that . and i don't know how to respond.#so ur like :) okay. um. go to couple's counselling i think#but also you are NOT supposed to pass judgement so it's like.... this weird limbo of feeling like you SHOULD say something#but knowing you CANNOT#idk that there's a way to resolve it!!!!!!!! it's probably a different approach person to person#edited my tags bc tumblr's new system fucked em up#PS EDIT: btw i should have said:#the pronouns in this can work in any and every direction. every gender and every sexuality and every#type of relationship tbh. even non-romantic relationships where ur like ''what do u mean ur bff calls u stupid''
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jkvjimin · 1 month
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light of my life 🤍 for @kimtaegis [cr. namuspromised]
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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 3 months
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Bros before Ho(oh my god is that Hanguang-Jun?)
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iboatedhere · 1 year
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I’m with you about Christmas being cancelled, I still have power mind you but I tested positive for Covid today so
Best to just call it. We’ll try again next year.
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hansoeii · 6 months
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let time pass.
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bocchidaily · 2 months
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Could you draw Bocchi like really happy? I think I need that right now…
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Day 74: unbothered, moisturized, in her lane, flourishing
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Have a lovely time w your man tonight! ☺️🤍
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Thanks 🤭
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wispscribbles · 6 months
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why are you and your drawings so cool 😭🙏
afdsasdfasg thank you !! irl ppl would laugh at me being called cool lol - Have a ghoap as thanks <33
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