His voice is rough to his own ears, scraped over his tongue, and he must’ve been staring for a little too long, because Buck’s smile falters, lips parting as realization creeps into his expression. Exhaustion flees his eyes for something alert, leaving Eddie confident that he’s not alone in this. His Adam’s apple bobs with something nervous and Eddie’s transfixed by the slow movement of it under the thin skin of his strong throat. He wonders what sound he could pull from Buck if he scraped his mouth along the movement, a hint of teeth and lips and spit.
Eddie can feel himself flush with the mere thought, and he wonders what he looks like right now, refusing to give Buck the damned water bottle in favor of standing over him like this, every thought more depraved than the last.
“Eddie,” Buck whispers, voice low like he knows where Eddie’s mind is. His eyes blaze with something akin to hunger, but softer, quieter — something so private that Eddie aches with it.
Something that’s just theirs, something Eddie has equal right to.
It’s the thing that gives him the courage to bend down until their mouths are barely two breaths apart, Buck meeting him halfway like he has so many times before.
I will add myself to the AFTG clutter, well after the trilogy is done:
Currently on TRK after finishing TFC in 2 days, I am hopeful to continue my quick reading. Some notes on my read so far:
I am having a hell of a laugh reading out all of Jean's dialogue with a french southern accent because peuchère il est marseillais le peutchi
I am also crying at the littlest things, like the showers in the first away-game against the terrapins (which I was surprised to discover is apparently a turtle??) But big events leave me indifferent (like Seth, but I think that was meant to be seeing as Neil had about the same reaction) or numb and in shock (like learning Neil BELONGS TO THE MORIYAMAS??? HELLO???? I DIDN'T SEE THAT COMING????)
I should be doing homework. I am not. I will get in trouble. But at least I'll know how this all ends. I love theatre but the power of Adhd hyperfixation is stronger than me </3
I am VERY AFRAID to interact with fandom because I don't want to get spoiled (looking at you, dr who hyperfixation where I know way too much because of AO3) but I will be glad to update to you all my reactions through text as I read through this (though I will slide over most of the "I wish I could go in there and hold/punch him/her"s and "Omg he's so fucking hot"s)
Every character of the team is so fucking attractive and I was 100% shaming myself for my reaction when Kevin full-body-pinned Neil against the wall. 1/2 of my thoughts and reactions are "when is it my turn" or "omg let's switch places".
I was extremely worried when Neil woke up in Nicky's arms after having been drugged because like ???? Did they do anything ????? But then realized that Nicky would do no such thing, despite repeatedly talking about it.
The girls have all my love, seriously, Dan is wonderful as a captain AND as a friend, Renee is so nice I aspire to have her self-control, Allison needs a hug.
ALSO!!! IN THE SHIPS!!! (Because I did discover this off of a gay edit between Andrew and Neil "Yes or no Neil? / It's always yes with you") I fucking love that I can ship Andrew, Neil and Kevin interchangeably. Like, Guard dog and Hurt runaway? Fuck yes. Famous but kept captive and Underdog but free? You got it. Anxiety ball and Dangerous but somehow reassuring? Give me all of it.
OKAY now I need to let my newfound knowledge sink in because wtf was that conversation (Neil and Kevin about the whole lore thing), thank you for reading my thoughts as an excited first-time reader
My mom accidentally saw my phone background, which is a fanart I made of Our Flag Means Death over a year ago and she said we should print it out and display it somewhere.
There are GAY PEOPLE KISSING in it and she's HOMOPHOBIC!!!
I don't think she managed to get a good look at it, but I need a way to erase that memory from her brain. Right now!
btw here's the art (I posted it on instagram as a stupid prediction for s2, so you might've seen it somewhere before, but I'm the original artist)
there's also a stabless version
the layout of the characters is based on that old Wolverine meme
I have set grumpy Izzy part as my lockscreen and the kiss as the homescreen on my phone. I fought it was funny at the time and then promptly forgot about it and haven't changed it since.
Alas routine has become my downfall. My escape from reality is suddenly causing it to come crushing down on me.
Now I might have to come out as trans and gay and a fucking shipper at the same time. I don't want to come out like this. Like, it's not even funny to me anymore.