#I also tend to be insecure and need validation sometimes

[creativity-deficient]

South Park fans! How many things do you have in common with your favorite character(s)? I’m curious!!

[thetarotyapper]

✧˖°. people's first impression of you (pick-a-card reading) ✧˖°.

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(how to pick a card? observe the given images and choose the one which you feel the most drawn to. scroll down to read your message!! remember, this is a general reading, so take what resonates! ps.- if you feel drawn to more than one card/image/pile, feel free to read the others too!! if the chosen pile doesn't relate to you, feel free to choose another. the choice is yours<3)

✮pile I✮

people's first impression of you is that you are someone who is very loyal and family oriented. you're not someone who only thinks about your own needs, rather you're someone who cares about other people and always considers other people's feelings. i would say you're more of an empath. people find you as someone who is easy to talk to and someone who can understand their feelings. you're a non-judgemental person and people feel like they can be their true-self around you. you make people feel valued and seen. with the 10 of pentacles and the 7 of pentacles next to each other, i'm seeing here that people's first impression of you is that you are someone who puts in all your effort just so your family can lead an easy life. you care about others feelings more than your own. you give more than you recieve. and to be honest, because of your hardworking nature and your constant dedication to make others happy, many people see you as an inspiration. you give them this sense of being their authentic self and many people understand that love has no limits. some people, as they grow older, tend to detach or not maintain the same bond with the people from their past; but you're not that type of person. no matter the distance, no matter the circumstances, you always try your best to be there for the people you love and your compassion is something that people notice about you when they meet you for the first time. the way you care for others is what makes you stand out. your love is genuine, your love is kind, your love is rejuvenating, and your love is one of a kind. oh my god i didn't mean to sound so poetic here, but this is the message that is coming through for you, love😭✋. 

people also feel like you are someone who is a workaholic. you always strive to be the best version of yourself, and you never rest if you aren't satisfied. sometimes your overworking tendencies can be concerning, is what i'm seeing here. i understand you love, because i too tend to overwork sometimes and it's so emotionally exhausting. so please, take breaks in between and go easy on yourself. i’m rooting for you, love<3 

people's first impression of you is that you are someone who is not satisfied with your growth or progress and sometimes you might come off as “frustrated” to them. but here's the thing love, you're doing so much better than you think. i feel like you impose unrealistic standards upon yourself, and you're too hard on yourself. let yourself free, babe. take a step back and appreciate your hard work. you need to validate your emotions, and give yourself the love and appreciation you deserve. i see here that you are someone who appreciates and encourages people's smallest achievements; but when it comes to you, you're the complete opposite. it's fine to treat yourself with ease for once, babe. you deserve the love. people feel like you sometimes lose control while working. you might exceed your limits and this could lead to tiredness and exhaustion. i know i said this before, but please be easy on yourself, love. 

people's first impression of you is that you are someone who tends to overthink a lot and you might not feel too good about yourself. either you're someone who feels like you aren't giving much/being there for others or you're someone who is suffering from insecurities. whatever the reason may be, the effect on you is negative. but here's the thing, you're literally perfect, pile 1. the way you love, your kind and hard working nature is appreciated by so many - so don't burden yourself over the thought of “not being good enough”. in fact, you're more than we could ask for. your presence creates a sense of security and people feel so safe with you. you heal people, my love. 

one more thing i’d like to mention here, love - many people feel like you are someone who is easy to take advantage of because of your kind nature and many times, they do. and you know that people sometimes use you, but you're not the type to speak up and argue. their actions hurt you because you did not expect them to turn out like this. sometimes you might even blame yourself for letting them get too close to you. but that's your nature, love. you're not the type to hate and be distant. people are naturally drawn towards you. but you do need to set boundaries, my love. 

people's first impression of you is that you are someone who is very passionate and someone who is not afraid to show your love for others. many people even look up to you and even try to be you. some people might try to copy your ways and might try to steal your identity. you're loved by many pile 1, and some people might be jealous of that. 

people's first impression of you is that you are someone who has been through a lot, and your experiences have shaped you to be who you are today. people close to you know that life has not been that easy for you and you have gotten things the hard way. but here's the most beautiful thing about you, love - regardless of life being so harsh towards you, your lessons and your experiences have only made you softer and more loving; rather than making you tough and hard to talk to. 

many people look at you as someone who will do ANYTHING for anyone. you give me “ask and you shall receive” vibes. you will go out of your way to make people happy. but now here's the thing babe, you are someone who is dominant and i'm seeing here that many people automatically want to listen to you. you don't come off as “commanding” - no. rather, you come off as someone who just naturally gets all the things you want. it's like the universe has blessed you with abundance - almost like a reward for your kind nature. 

people's first impression of you is that you are someone who is a social butterfly and you naturally pull many people towards you. people are just attracted to your energy, you know? but please be aware babe, some people might be energy-suckers and will only try to be and copy you. 

people's first impression of you is that you are someone who is courageous and independent and someone who stays true to their beliefs and opinions. they see you as someone who can stand on their own and doesn't necessarily need anyone's help to get on your feet. i'm also seeing here that you're a natural born leader. things flow according to you and for some reason, i'm getting very dominant feminine vibes. many people might even be intimidated by you, but they also find it so damn sexy. 

additional information - yellow, cream/brown, roses, light green, orange, 2, libra, jupiter, 11, taurus, mercury, 5, pisces, uranus, blue/brown eyes, dirty blonde/brown hair. 

✮pile II✮

oh my lovely pile 2, okay so before i get to your reading, i’m seeing here that there has been a major shift in your energy. you were someone who felt lost and overwhelmed. i'm seeing here that you might have even isolated yourself because you felt nervous and anxious. things have not been easy for you, pile 2. i'm seeing here that you have been having a hard time emotionally, physically and even financially. you've given your best and you still feel like you have not reached your expectations. before, you had unrealistic expectations, but now, you've realised the unhealthy and concerning effects of the unrealistic expectations you had on yourself and now you've started to impose reasonable expectations on yourself. pile 2, i'm so so proud of you. you've been such a strong person throughout and honestly, you deserve all the good things coming towards you. 

people's first impression of you is that you are someone who is very mindful about your finances and you do not like to spend too much money. you might be someone who is focused on building a secure future for yourself because you have struggled a lot in your past and you know that in order to lead a fulfilling life, you will need to put in the effort. people's first impression of you is that you are someone who is very hardworking and you are someone who will not rest until you get your desired results. i'm also seen here that your efforts are paying off and that the universe is blessing you with good opportunities and health. people's first impression of you is that you are someone who has literally CLIMBED mountains and you ain't someone who will give up that easily (AS YOU SHOULDN'T, MY LOVELY PILE 2). 

people's first impression of you is that you are someone who is hard to get through and hard to understand. you tend to isolate yourself if someone gets too close to you because you're afraid they'll see your “true-self”. and babe let me tell you something, your true self is BEAUTIFUL. so embrace that bad bih energy of yours instead of suppressing it. WE NEED MORE BADDIES LIKE YOU SO DON'T HIDE THAT BABE AWAY. people might even feel like you are too “gloomy” or someone who does not express their happiness too often. they also feel like you are someone who tends to focus on short-term gratifications rather than thinking about your long term. although you are someone who is careful about your finances, you're sometimes tempted to buy cute stuff and honestly? i get you babe😭✋ i’m the same🤸‍♀️🏃‍♀️. but it's okay to spoil yourself once in a while hehe😚🤭. but spoil yourself without regrets. 

people's first impression of you is that you are someone who is very calm and wise. i'm seeing here that there is something about your touch or the way you handle things. it seems very captivating and flawless. i feel like you guys have beautiful hands (i'm so sorry this information was out of nowhere😭) but what i'm trying to imply here is that people love your hands. i think it's one of the first things they notice about you. there's something so gentle and loving about your hands. many people would like to feel them. OH MY GOD THE WAY I SAID IT SOUNDS SO ODD BUT LIKE I'M SAYING IT IN A NOT-ODD-BUT-GOOD-WAY. i hope you get what i mean. 

people's first impression of you is that you are someone who is constantly seeking for a secure future and i'm seeing that you are also working towards it. i don't know why but i have a feeling that you might take on a lot of responsibilities or maybe work more than 1 job just so that you can earn a bit more money. i'm getting “over-time” worker energy here. 

people's first impression of you is that you are someone who is a little stubborn and someone who takes a lot of risk. you may tend to be a little rebellious and will hate it when someone tells you what to do. but here's the thing love, you're not someone who gives up that easily. but this trait of yours can be misunderstood as “rebellious” or “strong-headed” by many. but you know what, love? you be you and you do what makes you happy. don't let anyone control your life like that, especially if they don't know what type of person you are or what type of goal you are working towards. be unapologetically you!! people sometimes feel like you lack direction and they genuinely want to guide you, but sometimes the guidance and their advice may come out as very commanding and controlling and i see that you are not someone who appreciates that. i do agree that they can take a better approach towards helping you or guiding you, instead of straight up try to control you. i’m seeing here that you might purposely do the opposite of what they say just to piss them off lmaoo😭. you give me very youthful energy and i'm seeing here that people don't know how to handle you, so they just resort to trying to control you. 

people's first impression of you is that you are someone who is still discovering what you want to do and you have a very curious nature. people naturally feel like they need to give you guidance or advice because if they don't, they think that you will be going down the wrong path. people's first impression of you is that you are someone who likes to explore a lot and sometimes people feel like you cannot stick to one interest. they feel like you are at this time in your life where you want to try out new things. people sometimes feel like you are bad at making decisions and they feel the need to control you. sometimes people feel like you will go out of hand and will make risky choices due to your youthful nature and i'm seeing here that they will hit you with the “i'm doing this because i care about you” move. i lowk feel like people need to give you the chance to explore your interests, because this just seems so off to me😭. like yes i understand you care for pile 2, but please be easy on them.  

people's first impression of you is that you are someone who takes on a lot of burden or you are someone who makes commitments and does not fulfill them, or has difficulty fulfilling them. people also feel like you tend to overwork yourself a lot and see you as someone who is currently dissatisfied with where you are right now. however, i see that you are in the process of building the better version of yourself and honestly babe, i am rooting for you. many people feel like you are unnecessarily stressed about things, but rather than understanding your point of view, they might sometimes lecture you.

pile 2, i see that you are someone who is still experimenting with what you want and your energy is all over the place - which is a good thing to me because i am seeing that you can try out new things and see what you like better and what does not suit you. but what i am seeing here is that you are misunderstood by a lot of people and that is something they need to work on.

additional information - blue, orange, blonde/light hair, strings, purple, lavender, off-white/pale colours, hard working/strong hands, closed eyes/not meeting other people's eyes, 11, sagittarius, ascending lunar node, pisces, 2, jupiter, cancer, 12, venus. 

✮pile III✮

pile 3, can i just mention how captivating and beautiful you are? like gosh leave the spark for the rest of us too!! hehehe🤭👀✨. like i'm so drawn to your energy, now i understand why people can't take their eyes off of you!! people's first impression of you is that you are someone who is so intelligent, it's so ugh….sexy. like you got beauty AND brains, how can someone be this chef's kiss. like i have no words to describe your energy and your aura. i don't think i can even describe it babe because i ain't going to do you justice😭. like let me tell you this, you have people wrapped around your fingers in the first meeting itself. like for example, if you're meeting someone for the first time, they will be so drawn towards your energy, they just want to do whatever you tell them to do. and can you even blame them?

people's first impression of you is that you are someone who is intuitively blessed and you are someone who is very protected by your guardian angels. no one can mess with your energy just like that. you've got the power, babe. you are the power. you are someone who possesses a lot of knowledge and people feel intimidated by you because of this. they feel like you are too good for them and they might even feel inferior or insecure around you. i'm seeing here that people would be surprised if you ever talk to them for the first time. they'll feel like, “omg, no way THEY just spoke to me”. however, some people might feel like you are “self-centred”, but honestly babe, it's their insecurity talking. they know that they can never be you. you be you, love. also, i wouldn't be surprised if many people come to you seeking guidance because you're very intuitively blessed. the universe works in your favor, babe. 

BYE i just randomly got a feeling that people just naturally want to obey you because you look so pretty when you look down at them and order them around😭🏃‍♀️. i'm seeing here that you might be someone who is pretty tall or you might wear heels. or you just give out this very dominant energy. 

people's first impression of you is that you are someone who is still stuck in the past and you might be someone who has a lot of regrets. you might have this tendency to overthink about what could have or should have happened rather than just accepting the reality. you might be a perfectionist because you might tend to feel disappointed if things don't go your way. some people might feel like you are missing out on great opportunities because you are not willing to move on from the past. they might just straight up think that you are “over-sensitive” rather than understanding your emotions.

there is something about your shoulders and your hair, pile 3. you might be someone who has broad shoulders and strong arms or you just have very attractive shoulders. your hair is also very captivating. i'm so sorry if these messages feel random, but i'm just getting it out of nowhere😭🤭. 

people's first impression of you is that you are someone who is very emotional and you love with your whole heart. i am seeing here that many people have even tried to grab your attention by doing silly silly things. they might try to constantly seek your validation. pile 3, you for real make people so worked up over you, huh?👀😏. 

many people view you as a potential partner or may try to pursue you romantically during your first meeting with them. they might try to impress you and will try to win you over. your energy and your presence seems very pure and many people feel like they can just be free around you. you heal a lot of people, pile 3. and you are the type of person who will love someone even though they did you wrong. sometimes this trait of yours can be positive and negative - depending upon the situation. if someone constantly hurts you and you know that they are bad for you but you still keep on taking them back, then that's a negative thing. if someone hurts you by mistake and they did not realise that but they own up to their mistake, then that is a good thing. what i'm trying to imply here is that you are someone who is very accepting and sometimes this could work in your favor, while other times it could come to your disadvantage. so please be careful when you open your heart to someone, love. 

people's first impression of you is that you are someone who is very emotionally strong and that you depend on your intuition for answers rather than seeking guidance from the external world. you're someone who has gone through a lot of experiences, so you know yourself better than anyone else, and you've seen a lot of things. i'm also seeing here that sometimes people feel like you don't open up so easily to them and they wish that you could be yourself around them. i have a feeling that you give people just enough information about yourself and they feel like they know you - but they don't. i feel like sometimes you don't understand yourself either. but that's completely okay, and you don't have to be harsh on yourself because of that. 

people's first impression of you is that you are someone who is still learning and seeking knowledge. you are not satisfied with where you are right now and you want to build yourself more. many people adore your drive and dedication and many people look up to you. you are an inspiration to many and people can't help BUT feel drawn towards you. what kind of magic do you possess, pile 3? how can you be so perfect???

people might also look at you as a competition and they will always try to be better than you. you kinda hurt their ego, pile 3 ksksjakakaka. they know they can't be better than you and that hurts them😭😭. 

people's first impression of you is that you are someone who hates playing games and being passive. you prefer straightforward and honest communication, and people know they can't b*llsh*t around you. they know that you'll call them out. pile 3, i don't know how you do it, but people feel so intimidated by you, it's literally insane. like please give me some tips🤭👀☝️. 

additional information - dark/light brown hair, dark/black hair, very light blonde hair, broad shoulders, strong arms, yellow, golden, navy/dark blue, black, broad face, light blue, pink, cancer, 5, pluto, aquarius, libra, 11, uranus, 7, cancer, sun. 

hi loves!! i hope this reading finds you in good health, and i hope you are doing well. life has been so busy lately, but im so glad i finally got some time to do a reading😭. take care of yourself, and i will see you in my next reading. thank you for being here<3

(note: tarot & oracle cards provide guidance and possible insights into what could happen based on current energies, thoughts, feelings and actions. the cards can highlight potential paths or outcomes, but they do not predict the future in a fixed way. this is a general reading so take what resonates!)

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[bekolxeram]

I'm usually very block happy, but sometimes a couple of hot takes from the opposite side of the fandom manage to slip through. I'm no saint, I admit I do get quite worked up at first, but after some time, I realize they give me new perspectives to scenes I've watched countless times and discover things I didn't pick up before. So this one is for all of you, staunch Tommy haters, thank you for enriching my viewing experience.

In 7x04, when Tommy goes to Buck's loft to talk things out, this line gives some people the ick, because it echoes what Taylor said in 5x05. In that episode, Buck thought his team was off because they blamed him for Chimney leaving. He talked to Taylor about it, she shared her own experience with her boss being sulky around her, and it turned out her boss was just in a lot of physical pain, she ended the conversation with "maybe not everything is about you". While what she said was absolutely right, and she made an effort to make Buck feel appreciated at the end of the episode, but I can also see Buck not feeling supported emotionally at the time the conversation occurred. In a fashion true to her profession, Taylor delivered it in a very blunt, direct and advisory way. Her being right did not cancel out Buck feeling insecure about everyone acting weird around him and him not knowing why.

What Tommy says here though, is in a a completely different context.

Before all of this, Tommy has already reassured Buck that he's not trying to replace him, that his place in Eddie and Christopher's life is irreplaceable.

Look at Buck's smile, he's apparently in a better mood than before. It's like a weight has been lifted off his shoulders.

So going in this next part, Buck is more receptive to what he frankly needs to hear: Eddie isn't hanging out with Tommy because Buck did something wrong, he just enjoys Tommy's company.

We've witnessed Buck's growth over 7 seasons, now he can recognize that getting jealous easily is one of his character flaws, he tends to overthink and make other's action personal when he's feeling insecure in a relationship. He's telling Tommy this probably to signal that he understands he messed up and he understands what he did wrong. He never expected Tommy to validate his feelings.

But Tommy does empathize with his predicament.

Buck doesn't understand what Tommy, the cool, confident (and hot) pilot would be jealous over. And he almost can't believe Tommy gets what he's been feeling.

Tommy tells Buck that he's envious of the ride-or-die familial bonds within the 118 nowadays, as if he didn't also put his career and life in danger just to save Athena and Bobby (probably Hen's career as well), after one phone call from Chimney.

Now it's Buck's turn to reassure Tommy.

Another hot take I've seen from the other side goes like "if Tommy was nicer to Hen and Chimney back in the days, he wouldn't have to be jealous over what the 118 has now". You know what? Judging by Tommy's face here, he probably would agree. This is not the face of a man who is proud of what he did. This is the face of a man who is burdened by guilt and regret, this is a man haunted by his past, this is a man who doesn't think he deserves the praise.

Buck even cites fake mouth static as an example of Tommy's effort in aiding the 118's clandestine rescue mission, and they naturally fall into a flirty dynamic. I have no explanation for that, except, your honor, this is exhibit A against the "no chemistry" allegation.

Buck then spells it all out for Tommy that he also put everything on the line just for the 118, without hesitation. Tommy looks like he still has a hard time accepting it as an act worthy of redemption for his past behavior.

We've all made mistakes, and we all know we can't go back to the past and change what we did, so the best way forward is to change ourselves and be better. Judging by Tommy's "and [Gerrard] didn't make me a better person" line in 7x10, he quite possibly reflected on this a lot. Yet, sometimes you still can't help but doubt yourself over if you've learned enough from your past, if you're a good enough person now. I can't imagine how good it feels hearing Buck say out loud that he actually likes the person Tommy is now.

Apparently Buck likes Tommy so much that he came up with excuses just to hang out with him and get to know him.

Tommy is pleasantly surprised, because he did tell Buck to call him when he wants to go up. In fact, Buck can call him for whatever reason, Tommy accepted the Harbor tour request, there's nothing indicating that he would feel weird just hanging out with Buck. Tommy just doesn't know how much of a overthinker and bi disaster Buck truly is yet, but that's the story for another time.

Buck and Tommy really don't know much, if anything, about each other at this stage, as you can see in 7x05, but they're already validating each other's feelings. We've seen Buck get his feelings ignored, hurt, dismissed and kind of fetishized for 6 seasons, now this is something he's been looking for the whole time, for someone to understand what he's going through. At the same time, this interaction must also be quite freeing for Tommy, who's been haunted by demons from his own past.

[sokkastyles]

For some reason I'm seeing homophobic/biphobic Katara on my feed and fanart of it (I don't know how the algorithm thought I liked that shit) but I just don't understand how that trope even came to be especially since it seems like a vast majority of the people who are into that are Zukka fans or either think she would specifically be homophobic to Zuko. (Which doesn't make sense in the first place due to their relationship in Canon. Also isn't it canon that Aang is the only one who lived in a "open-minded" and "accepting" society while everyone else was discriminatory?)

Homophobic Katara has been making a resurgence lately and it comes from misogyny (and homophobia itself). For a couple of reasons.

In the show, Katara actually points out and makes fun of Sokka for his homophobia and misogyny. Zukka fans decided that since Sokka was gay/bi, this meant that Katara was being homophobic towards him. Which wouldn't even be true even if Sokka were canonically gay. Gay men acting on internalized homophobia is still homophobia. And in reality, Sokka is like, the straightest person in the series. Either way, Katara is right to call him out.

Katara is the only character who holds explicitly feminist views and cares about social justice. Not just "girls can fight, too," I mean that she actually uses the word sexist to call people out. So naturally, people decided that meant she was a bitch. And the person who most gets called out for being sexist is her brother.

Part of it also comes from fear of zutara. Some people feel the need to go out of their way to make Katara be extremely antagonistic to Zuko (who they headcanon as gay and back up with extremely homophobic evidence, like one time he moved his wrist a certain way, or he has a slight lisp). Which also comes from misogyny, ignores the actual valid reasons Katara was antagonistic to Zuko, and also ignores that they became close friends and allies. Besides, even when they were enemies, when Katara realized she had said something unintentionally ableist about Zuko's scar, she immediately apologized. No way would she make homophobic jokes about him.

I've also seen people say "oh, Katara and Zuko are friends, she just uses slurs against him all the time, and only him." Which also mischaracterizes Katara and is also still homophobic. Katara does tease Zuko once after they become friends, about his portrayal in the play, but when she saw that he was really bothered by it, she became serious and asked him what was wrong. The idea that she would call someone she was friends with slurs as a joke is complete disrespect to her character. And like always, I tend to think people on tumblr don't actually have friends if they think this is an acceptable way to treat people. Remember when we talked about how gay people can still be homophobic? Casually throwing around slurs and saying that straight people can use slurs against gay people "but it's okay because they're friends" is homophobia. Saying that it's okay for a straight person to call a gay person a slur because she specifically doesn't like him, "but she's not actually homophobic, it's just him" is homophobia.

It's also funny that people cry about how we need to respect Zuko and Katara's platonic friendship, but also need to headcanon them as sexually incompatable to ensure that they remain six feet apart at all times.

Anyway Zuko and Katara are both bi and friends can make out with each other sometimes, as a treat.

I don't think it's actually canon that the Air Nomads were more "open-minded," at least not in the original series. I know that was added later to the comics, but the show describes the Air Nomads as living in gender segregated temples, which is not something that a society that is open-minded about sex and gender does. Aang doesn't notice when Sokka is making homophobic remarks towards him sometimes, but that's more about his age, and he gets extremely insecure in his masculinity during the Ember Island play and takes it out on Katara as a result.

And isn't it a fun coincidence that Katara is yet again the victim of misogyny in a situation where another male character gets labeled as more progressive than her? Interesting, that.

[brujamala-aka-gigi]

what's keeping you away from genuine ways of expressing yourself?

this is a pick a pile tarot reading inspired by the new moon in leo, but is not specific to this particular moment in time. in astrology, the moon represents the unconscious mind, your emotions and in which ways your intuition works, while the zodiac sign leo is more oriented towards the ego, creativity and social relations. all of those things that tend to characterize this sign, usually means that some level of efficient and assertive communication is valuable for keeping away drama and misunderstandings, therefore, i thought about making this general reading to see what advice the cards have for something quite difficult for almost everyone: remaining true to our essence and being able to communicate that in a way that is genuine to us, our identity, our desires and our feelings, no matter who is listening.

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Your card for this reading is the King of Swords. What this tells me is that you value intellectual honesty, and you’re willing to go against your own emotions if that means that you’ll find the truth and that you are very likely to be perceived as someone who doesn’t have a filter or is too honest. It’s key that you understand that even if you don’t allow yourself to be guided by emotional attachments, other people do. Being highly logical or highly sensitive are both valuable, and both ways of thinking and acting have their pros and cons. But this card wouldn’t pop up if the logical ways of approaching things wasn’t causing some issues. Although holding yourself to a high standard of rationality when it comes to manifestations of the unconscious or the way you naturally relate to others can be beneficial, I feel as if that is also causing you to react coldly to your own emotions, instead of embracing them. You need to let go of the idea that things must be coherent and make sense all time, we are humans, and many of what makes us human doesn’t make too much sense or doesn’t work according to logic. Seeking order, patterns and structure in places where there’s not a big need for those, is not going to give you the truths that serve your personal development. It’s key that you take some time to embrace what seems absurd about yourself, without looking for logic, but looking for experiences that will guide you to the answers you need.

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The card for you on this reading is the Six of Wands. What I see here, is a lot of well deserved feelings of pride that you are protecting at all costs. There’s absolutely nothing wrong with being proud, and I don’t even think this is the actual issue here. What’s blocking your most honest expressions is the fact that you are not allowing yourself the possibility of making a mistake, as you might feel this could take away from all the achievements you’ve had before. It’s key to know, when to be vulnerable, when to take a risk and where you are safe to try things out for the first time, but you are still not comfortable enough to embrace things about yourself that make you insecure, which is completely valid and understandable. In your case, I think that is okay if you want to preserve a sense of control over how others perceive you, yet it wouldn’t be healthy to allow others to expect things from you that are far too demanding to keep up with sometimes. It is necessary that you start setting honest boundaries with others and with yourself, in order to preserve a healthy sense of worth. Your value as a person is not defined by your achievements, or your failures, it is defined by how and why you do what you do no matter the result. When your intentions are honest and you are trying to better yourself or help others, it doesn’t matter what the final outcome is.

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Your card is the Chariot. The meaning of this card has to do with life experiences, movement and some level of chaos that is necessary in order to grow. I see that you are capable to maintain a certain level of peace of mind even when things around you are hectic, and this is something that might attract some people who are either amazed or envious of this.  In your case, I think that being all over the place (socially, spiritually, intellectually, emotionally) means that you are not quite sure yet on where you stand in relation to certain aspects of your life. This might seem like a problem, because some people are more settled on their beliefs or have more stable lives than you, but in reality, the fact that you are willing to try everything you can before committing is actually something that makes your life something richer. It’s completely normal to feel uncertain, confused and lost, but this shouldn’t keep you away from giving yourself the credit you deserve for the way you have chosen to experience life. Take some pride on what makes you different, and take pride on the process of self exploration you are, even if you are far away from finding a solid philosophy or stability in your life, embrace the fact you are capable of experiencing things without many attachments.

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[pallastrology]

observations on aries

artwork by edvard munch

aries suns are known for being bold and brash, but there can be a real softness to them; their proximity to pisces and taurus, two of the most sensitive and sensual signs, often lends aries an interesting dichotomy. they are the first sign, and sometimes that softness shows through in indecision or insecurity.

with the midheaven in aries, the native can be compelled towards meaning. they aren’t the type who can just work a random job and chill on their time off. they need purpose, and to feel like their life and how they spend it matters deeply to them. their definition of a meaningful life may vary greatly depending on the natal chart and life of the native, but there is always that common thread of questing towards it.

aries moons sometimes get labelled as being emotionally immature, or even shallow. my experiences with these natives couldn't be further from the truth, however. they are brutally, refreshingly honest, and while they tend to paint in broad strokes, they definitely don't lack depth. it's just a different way of expressing and processing emotions.

venus in aries is all about interest. they need to feel appreciated and desired, not just in love, but in all their relationships. this can even stretch to their work and pastimes, and so, despite aries not being known for this trait, venus in aries can become perfectionistic and even fawning at their most vulnerable. they find it hard to let people in, because when they do, they struggle to close the door again.

mars in aries is known for being angry, and i think can be somewhat demonised because of that. aries mars is a placement that, yes, has big reactions, but the underlying emotions are valid. they have a strong sense of justice and pride, and they are more than willing to fight for what they believe in, even when it gets them into trouble.

saturn in aries is sometimes seen as being "not aries-like"... sure, there are restrictions and difficulties when it comes to autonomy and authority, your path might not be a typical one, and you can lack self-actualisation and assertiveness, especially when younger; but in my opinion, this is a really interesting place to find aries, especially when it comes to being in partnerships and leading or managerial roles.

aries ascendant is, in my opinion, where you tend to see the typical arian mannerisms come out. they walk quickly, talk quickly, and they're also highly visible; you can see their facial expression changing as their thoughts develop, you can see stress and tension in them before they have the chance to hide it. this physical earnesty is really refreshing, but for the native it can be a source of unwanted vulnerability.

with mercury in aries, the native can seem like an open book. they react quickly and sometimes without reflecting, they can think aloud and they express themselves with a disarming directness. but i believe placements like this can find solace in remembering that the initial reaction isn't necessarily how you truly see a situation, but rather, how you've been taught to react to it. learning to reflect and get curious about yourself is a great skill for aries mercury.

[psuedosugu]

You know something I've noticed? Yeah, Nifty is your typical yandere but can we talk about Vox? You technically don't even have to request him as a yandere unless you want it to be romanticized toward you and/or further explored because according to ALL of the recent regular Vox x readers (and the show itself), he clearly has many traits of one especially toward Alastor. He acts like a toxic, jealous ex 😂 He cyberstalks people for one, he's manipulative, insecure (this is where possessiveness and jealousy tends to stem from), doesn't take rejection well as we heard from Al, is capable of being obsessed with someone, and an overall control freak. He wants to keep the Vees' image and everything looking perfect. Imagine this guy being attached to you. An absolute nightmare. Never any privacy, eyes and ears everywhere, can teleport with or without a screen, blackmail is 100% on the table as well as other tactics, and constant validation for him whether your relationship is forced or not. What sucks about the last part is that it's a double-edged sword. If you fuel his ego, he's enabled but if you don't give him enough attention, he'll try harder and tighten his hold on you. So while Val absolutely horrible, it's like you can never win with Vox. Not when you don't have equal power and he's stated to be very strong. Especially these days, tech is an absolute must since even jobs heavily rely on it. Life and the afterlife here is much harder without a smartphone. He's literally a TV. He wants to be watched and noticed.

So he'll get it.

exactly brooo

cw: themes of manipulation, blackmail, and toxic, controlling relationships.

gender neutral

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ੈ✧̣̇ || honestly atp he’s practically a canon yandere.

ੈ✧̣̇ || i kinda talked about this before but i feel like he would manipulate reader into thinking that they need him when its the other way around

ੈ✧̣̇ || as u said, he’s insecure as hell and he needs someone to boost his ego and make him look superior

ੈ✧̣̇ || he also needs some source of stability in his (after) life which is where you come in.

ੈ✧̣̇ || hed also never let things go or get over you.

ੈ✧̣̇ || he started beef with a dude that he hadn’t seen in 7 whole years, for gods sake 😭

ੈ✧̣̇ || bro will start fights over things that happened months ago and are over now done with

ੈ✧̣̇ || he also craves control, not only will he spy on you through your electronics but he’ll also try and control other things that he has no business controlling like what you wear, who you talk to, ect.

ੈ✧̣̇ || if you mention your concerns about it he’ll try and back off, but hes just so paranoid that something will happen to you even though he knows you’re capable of taking care of yourself.

ੈ✧̣̇ || he needs to feel like he’s needed.

ੈ✧̣̇ || he also exerts his control by threatening you with blackmail, wether it be secrets that you told him or pictures.

ੈ✧̣̇ || not like you don’t have a fair amount of dirt on him too, though.

ੈ✧̣̇ || he’d definitely fight a bitch for you, if you’re getting threatened, stalked, and/or harassed by someone (that isnt him ofc) said person better prepare for his wrath.

ੈ✧̣̇ || hes a whiny ass bitch which is either annoying or hot depending on who you ask and what the context is.

ੈ✧̣̇ || its also kind of confusing how he acts, he’ll be practically ignoring you one second and begging for your attention the next.

ੈ✧̣̇ || another reason why he’s so scared of you leaving is because of how vulnerable he’s been to you.

ੈ✧̣̇ || he’s told you things that he’s never told anyone, shown parts of him that no one has ever seen, and the thought of what you could do with this info if you ever were to turn on him makes him feel sick to the stomach.

ੈ✧̣̇ || despite how it feels sometimes he really does care about and love you, he just has an unhealthy mindset when it comes to love.

ੈ✧̣̇ || perhaps you should stay around (not like u rlly have a choice), teach him how to love someone properly. you wont regret it :)

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[cookierunslut]

Me and my rarepair (CaraChocoLico) hc in my different AUs bc why not.

A Cursed Redemption

-Caramel Arrow's crush on Choco started when he was teaching her archery, but not right away. It took a bit for those feelings to develop as she was very dedicated to learning and kinda ignored those feelings. This would also be the case for the other AUs or in general.

-Dark Choco had a small crush on her before he left, but convinced himself he didn't deserve it after what he'd done. Those feelings come back after he leaves the COD but he's very conflicted because they're close to how he feels about Licorice (who it just then sinks in he abandoned like he did Caramel Arrow in the past) too. The guilt makes it harder to sort out these feelings.

- Licorice experiences his first real heartbreak when Choco leaves them, but bro doesn't even know that's what it is. He's tremendously bad at his own feelings.

- Caramel Arrow's first reaction on meeting Licorice when he finally works up the courage to leave the COD is to hit him as hard as she can. She knocks his ass out, much to Choco's shock.

-Licorice and Caramel Arrow fight a lot when they put him under her supervision. I mean a lot. He constantly makes snide remarks about the kingdom and the Watchers, throwing around insults. She hates how often he openly insults the royal family, namely Dark Cacao, but he casually bullies Choco a bit bc this was Choco's brilliant idea.

-It takes forever for CA to realize Licorice is not nearly as bad as he makes himself out to be. He's very low-key about caring for his loved ones, to the point of being verbally insulting as if he's scared to admit he cares.

-Choco had to be the one to help CA realize that Licorice's behavior is a sort of defense mechanism, only getting close to those he can't chase away. He does this through a mix of telling her how much Licorice changed as they grew closer and sneaking around with her to catch the rare moments Licorice drops his absurdly loud, "tough/evil" persona.

-Choco is the most outwardly affectionate, especially after he gains better control of his curse and isn't as scared of hurting them.. Hugs, kisses, hand holding, cuddles. He's very touch-starved from his self imposed isolation. Also says the sweetest things.

-Caramel Arrow will accept their affection almost all of the time. She rarely initiates physical affection with Choco because she never has too. He's always looking for it. With Licorice, she usually has to be the one to initiate anything at the start, but once he's more comfortable he can be just as touchy as Choco. She tends to be more affectionate in private than in public spaces or shows her love through words.

- Licorice is so used to being alone he's become just as touch-averse as he is touch-starved. He craves their validation and affection but would rather die than let himself be seen as "weak" or ask for it. Rather than touch, he'll gently prod them to take care of themselves, or do little things he thinks will make their lives easier like take over chores. Partly convinced himself that they only act like they love him.

-CA once asked Licorice about his tribe and Licorice stopped talking to her for two weeks straight. Choco had to break the news that there aren't any others left to their knowledge.

- Choco and CA bond over their determination to make Licorice feel loved. Also their determination to beat his insecure ass into oblivion and drag him back to smother him in affection when he caves under the pressure and tries to go back to the dark side.

- Licorice is very needy, clingy, whatever, but also acts like a cat with his affections. Also sometimes stands in a corner and stares at Choco/CA as if he expects them to know he wants a hug or something. He learns to be more vocal about when he wants or needs attention.

Forsaken Licorice AU

-Choco and CA are sorta kinda an established thing here. They both like each other, and acted like a really chill, put together couple even before making it semi-public.

-Since he never got cursed, Choco is much more open to their relationship and doesn't have as many fears about them being together. As a result when they aren't focused on something else, he'll shower her with affection.

-Choco gave CA permission to enter and leave his room freely, sometimes she sneaks in just for comfort cuddles. They wouldn't try anything more risky than that given the strict culture. At least not within the Citadel walls.

- Dark Cacao 100% noticed their relationship and purposely told CA to just 'make sure he comes home' if she catches Choco sneaking out of the Citadel.

-Choco is a bit naive, he tends to lean towards a more optimistic outlook than a realistic one. Caramel Arrow loves it, even though she often has to lend a more realistic opinion.

-If Choco is the optimistic one, Licorice is the pessimistic one. He's a grouchy, petty, mean-spirited, paranoid guy who assumes the worst in an unrealistic and dramatic way. But CA and Choco suspect it's mostly for show. Besides, who wouldn't be a bit of a pessimist when they're the last of their kind? Just cuddle him until he calms down and stops complaining.

-Choco started crushing on Licorice first when he didn't know who Licorice actually was. He felt extremely guilty about it and got a little sulky bc he already had CA and having feelings for the suspicious guy living in the abandoned Licorice Tribe village felt like he was betraying her.

-CA started crushing on Licorice after the few times he invited her to stay when Choco was away (also before they knew). But she didn't figure it out until Dark Choco admitted to his new crush while acting like he'd committed a horrible crime and she found she wasn't bothered by the idea at all.

-Licorice's crush starts before he knows who they really are too. But he isn't sure if they're genuine feelings towards them or just him clinging to them to ease the loneliness he feels.

[connect404]

So I saw this tweet earlier Abt the dynamic between Stanford and fiddleford during the partnership and how similar it was to Stanford and bill's dynamic (incoming essay)

AND I COMPLETELY AGREE

As much as I love fiddauthor (or just ford and fiddleford in general) , fiddleford doesn't deserve the type of treatment he got from Ford.

Throughout the entire partnership,ford treated him poorly and only ever cared about him if it was related to the portal. Fiddleford was willing to work with him even though he knew he was being treated poorly,not to mention he didn't know abt bill or his intentions yet (at the time) and still had his suspicions while working with ford. He remembered to give ford a gift (hand-knitted special gloves for him to wear with several failed attempts beforehand AND a snoglobe of the shack) yet forgot to get a gift for his own wife.

He does all this but the second he tells ford that the portal is dangerous and should be destroyed,ford gets angry at him and says he doesn't need him ???

That's not to say ford isn't completely a POS , he does enjoy fiddleford's company and his partnership with him. Ford even gets closure with fiddleford and actually apologizes to him for all the shit he did to him. Ford gets character development for the most part and actually becomes a somewhat decent person. He's terrible but that's what makes him a great character. He does horrible things but also acknowledges he did said things and actively tries to not do that,even if it's hard to avoid it.

(op said he's objectively an awful person for what he did but also loves him anyway because that type of writing is what makes his character compelling and honestly I relate)

It's a shame that ford favours results over sympathy/empathy. He only ever cares people when they are of use to him and when they say something he doesn't wanna hear,he throws them to the side and searches for another.

Another thing Abt ford is that he tends to be stubborn and an egoist. No matter the situation,he always puts himself before others. This can be a good thing sometimes (like when he gets electrocuted instead of just giving bill the equation) but it's always shown in a negative light. Stan dedicated almost his entire life to bring back his brother after several decades and he never even got a thank you or when instead of hearing Stan out on that invention he broke in highschool, he just let his brother get kicked out (Ik the twins are kinda crappy people but Stan breaking ford's perpetual motion machine was an accident damnit. It's been 30+ years and he still won't let it go 😭😭)

DESPITE SAYING ALLAT....ford isn't completely to blame for his behavior and how he treats other people around him to the point of being manipulative. Sure,his main flaws are what make him act this way (insecurity,need to be better than others,doesn't really think of others,etc.) but I think the only reason they've become worse is because of bill and how he manipulated ford,basically feeding into his ego and validating his beliefs. That, combined with his occasional selfish urges makes him want more.

More knowledge.

More praise.

More fame.

And this need for more makes him impatient. So much so that he starts using the same manipulation tactics (whether intentionally or unintentionally I'm not sure) bill used on him on fiddleford to try and get the same results,since said tactics work on him,so it would makes sense for him to do the same.

TL;DR yes,ford is a bad person but he's a bad person with layers and that's why I love him sm. Also fiddleford deserved better treatment

Anyway this'll probably get like 5 likes but uhhhh I'd love to hear any take on this really.

Agree,disagree I'd love it hear it

[drdemonprince]

woof. your recent posts really resonate with me especially now that im making more gay and trans friends, im meeting so many cool nonmonogamous trans people that seem to have casual sex with basically all their nonmonogamous trans friends and like. its almost giving me a complex where if i think someone is cool and want to be friends with them, even if im not attracted to them, i have a perception that the only way to befriend them is to pursue them sexually. or that if they dont wanna fuck me when they fuck all their other trans friends that means there's something wrong with me (again even if i don't particularly want to fuck them!)... i love being trans and poly, and i love having more trans and poly people in my life, but sometimes i think about this one reddit comment where a dude said he noticed his gay friend had way more fun at straight bars than gay bars bc at straight bars he wasn't worrying about his appearance/body image/validation/sexual prospects

yeah honestly i get this so much and it's a very dismaying swirl of emotions to have. i don't like fucking friends. at all. it actively makes me feel unsafe and like i'm only useful to someone insofar as i'm satisfying a desire for them. it makes me feel more disposable. plus im insanely jealous if i have an actual emotional connection with someone i'm fucking so i wouldn't do well in a whole poly queer mish mosh of dear devoted friends who also sometimes bang. i would be plotting the downfall of the people i was most primed to view as a threat and sowing discord between people and shit. not good.

i also think it is a little fucking concerning when people only date/have sex as their sole way to make friends, and are only friends with people they want to fuck. this tends to create a very homogenous friend group that is heavily restricted based on desirability politics. it's also just really objectifying and unsustainable.

now i must say!! this is very much in the minority of poly people -- poly people are generally fucking AMAZING at being friends because even as just their buddy they treat hanging out with the same degree of intention and care as they would going on a date. they can hang! they want to go out and do things! they're more practiced in building a new intimacy of *any* kind than most monogamous people are.

it's just that there are some weird culty up their own ass bad boundaried polycules out there, in the same way there are abusive, codependent, jealous, miserable fucking monog couples.

but even tho most queer and poly people are more ascended than that, yeah, there is a weird unsettling constant self-evaluation that can happen in spaces where fucking almost anybody is theoretically on the table. some of that is a problem in how people treat one another, and some of that is just insecurity in between your own ears.

i get it fully. im hyper conscious of myself and how i imagine im being perceived and how people are seeing me when im out in queer spaces. and most of it is me being fully insane and making myself miserable based on nothing. because literally who cares who is attracted to me in that space and who isn't??? what matters is what i want in that moment, and my behavior, which i have control over. i should be able to just float around smiling at people and dancing and chit chatting and if someone is feeling my energy and we can talk, great, if they try to make it sexual when i dont want it to, i can just walk away. like it fully does not need to be that deep.

but it's a hard internal hurdle to overcome and every time someone hits on you, ignores you, misreads your identity, etc it can be used by your mind as fodder for The Narratives and The Insecurities and make things worse and it really has to be an intentional practice to not do that to yourself.

if you can bounce along carelessly in the straight club because you're not worrying about how people see you, you can bounce along carelessly in the queer club and not worry about how people see you. literally treat queer people the same way you'd treat straight people who seem perfectly fine but are not your problem and not a focus for you. you can stop trying to mind read the intentions of every queer person and stop sizing yourself up in their eyes and not worrying about who is fucking who and who is in love with who and who is secretly jealous but pretending not to be. and just. hang out. and feel things out. and exist in your own body and pay attention to what interests you and what you are experiencing rather than how they are experiencing you.

i say this as a reminder to myself!!

[gabrielora]

South Park disorder Headcannon:

EPISODE 1: ERIC CARTMAN.

I belive that Cartman has HPD (Histrionic personality disorder), BED (binge eating disorder,) early childhood schizophrenia, and Autism. (Check @rottrottencorpse headcanon post about it he words it better then i ever could.)

(Also disclaimer I am a 14 year old who has never talked a psychology or neurology class and I’m just autistic and like to study the DSM and South Park for fun)

Cartman

1. childhood schizophrenia:

Cartman is shown to have difficulty with daily functioning, such as brushing his teeth and doing basic chores. Although this could be a result of him being spoiled by his mother.

he has a large lack of impulse control, his impulses are often caused by delusion and his inability to control his emotions. He has very extreme emotions that do not fit the situations he is in.

Cartman is shown to have speech delays and is exhibits behaviors of echolalia (in “Cat Orgy” he repeats “they mostly come at night, mostly” over and over again. He does the same thing with “beefcake!”) Cartman (especially in early seasons) tends to have very disorganized speech patterns. He is unable to pronounce certain words and sounds even into adulthood (Post Covid.)

He is shown to have difficulty paying attention and has an extremely low performance in school despite having high academic intelligence when he believes the situation calls for it.

Cartman is often shown to have delusions, an example is in “the China problem.” He will go through extreme measures to validate his delusions. (Such as committing terrorism or even genocide.)

Cartman is shown to have hallucinations; specifically Cupid me. In Cupid Ye, Cupid me begins to show behaviors that are extremely antisemetic and cruel to the point even Cartman becomes concerned. He fully believes Cupid me is real. He calms “Cupid me” down by forcing him to take his meds. Which may imply Cartman is taking medication.

2. HPD,

Cartman is shown to be extremely insecure about himself (seen in “insecurity” and “Cartmans mom is a dirty slut.” Along with ” the end of obesity” and “fish sticks.”) and he gets his sense of self worth from others. He craves constant validation, often attempting to make himself seem grandiose to make others amazed.

He acts very dramatically for the attention of others. He doesn’t understand that his behavior is inappropriate. He becomes upset when he is not the center of attention.

He puts on an extremely charming performance (often when having a delusion) to make himself look great. He is extremely dramatic, to the point he is theatrical. When he wants to draw attention he sometimes will wear outfits that bring attention to him. In fact, he has the most outfits out of any character in the series. He has over 100 as of 2016.

He speaks very dramatically and rarely has reasoning or evidence for his thoughts despite the fact he is capable of researching them. Cartmans emotions tend to be exaggerated, quick and shallow, as shown in people with HPD.

He can be extremely gullible. Especially in early seasons. This can be attributed to the fact he is a child though and cannot be concluded as a specific symptom.

He often believes he is closer with people than he actually is (specifically Jimmy Valmer as shown in Tsst.) and he has a very hard time maintaining relationships with people who aren’t his closest friends.

He has a constant need for instant gratification. This can make him extremely efficient in his plans, but due to his poor impulse control can cause disastrous situations. Cartman becomes bored very easily, and he again, is constantly looking for the approval of others.

Some risk factors for HPD include:

1. Genetics, (other symptoms which Cartman did not yet have is sexually promiscuous behavior.) his mom exhibits many of these symptoms. Especially attention seeking behavior via sexuality, and believing she is closer to people than she actually is (as shown in Tsst with ceaser Milan)

2. Childhood trauma, Cartman is shown to have suffered childhood sexual assault throughout the series. In fact, it has happened or has been referenced to around 21 times throughout the series. It is stated in an episode that Liane made him wear a costume and dance for her while she was intoxicated and having sex with an unknown man. She also drugs him with codeine when he’s paranoid or anxious (as shown in let go let gov.)

3. Parenting styles such as ones that lack boundaries or are overindulgent. Parents who display extreme erratic sexual characteristics and other inappropriate behaviors put their children at risk for developing HPD. (That’s literally just Liane)

3. C-ptsd,

I have less reasons to belive this and it is more of a loose headcanon.

Cartman has experienced long-term/repeated sexual abuse.

He is hyper vigilant about sexual abuse as shown in The Coon, when he sees a man kissing a woman and immediately assumes she is being assaulted. He has negative correlations to anything sex related. He views sex as in inherent act of violence and humiliation (as shown in the fractured but whole when he tells the new kid their dad fucked their mom.)

He reacts excessively and becomes very defensive when any negative feedback is pointed towards him.

It is shown in early seasons that Cartman was bullied by his peers. In the episode Damien, pip says “I think they made fun of the fat boy a lot too, but now i think they like him because he picks on me!” Which shows that a lot of his antagonistic behavior was brought up because he would be ostracized otherwise. Stan, Kyle, and Kenny were the bullies first. Cartman was mirroring their behavior.

The boiling point for this was in Scott Tenorman must die, when Scott humiliated him and he snapped.

He was not the first kid to snap in South Park, in fact the even headed Wendy Testaburger was.

A lot of his negative behaviors are him covering trauma or trying to adapt to his surroundings. (I am referring to morally incorrect or extremely self destructive behavior not just odd behavior when i say negative behaviors.)

4. Autism spectrum disorder

I belive that Cartman shows signs of autism, although many of these symptoms can be attributed to Schizophrenia.

He is very sensitive to small changes, in let them eat goo he got so caught up about the slight changes in the food he had to be hospitalized. (By the way a lot of this evidence was from a post by rotten corpse!!! I am not trying to take credit for the autism!!)

He has hyperactive and inattentive behavior (which can be symptoms of schizophrenia but i think should be listed anyway.)

he is shown to have Alexithymia. He has a hard time expressing his love for people (he tells his friends he hates them when this is not true.) He cannot recognize when he is feeling empathy (which he does feel empathy, he can feel empathy towards inanimate objects and cats and people he is not close to which is why i do not believe he has ASPD.) With the theory he has alexithymia, you could also come up with the idea that he is unable to recognize his strong emotions and therefore unable to think about them logically.

He obsesses over his goals frequently, the largest one being wanting to make a million dollars. Some of his behavior relating to this though can be attributed to his delusions and grandiose. He seems to be very talented at photography and has a large interest in it.

He is shown to not understand personal space a lot, specifically in tegridy farms where he repeatedly holds Kyle’s hand despite his protests. he also seems to become aggravated anytime someone else is in his space.

He tends to butt into and dominate conversations, this can be related back to HPD but this is prominent even when he is not trying to get attention.

He, again, has echolalia which is an autism symptom but also a symptom of schizophrenia.

He mirrors other people’s behaviors. In Damien it’s stated that he mirrored Stan Kyle and Kenny’s behavior so he wouldn’t be bullied by them. He also has developed some of Butters behaviors throughout their friendship. This is also a symptom of HSD (being highly influenced by others.)

Cartman has a hard time understanding social cues. This is more prominent in early seasons compared to later seasons. He is shown to not fully understand when someone is being sarcastic towards him, and often takes things literally. (Such as the Sea Men.)

He HATES unexpected change (he tries to murder Heidi over making him late to the pumkin patch he is not normal)

this is a large maybe as many of these symptoms can be related to his other disorders. I still love this headcannon though because i think it makes it much more interesting analyzing his trauma with that in mind.

5. BED (Binge Eating disorder.)

Im pretty sure this is canon so I may not explain as much as the others.

Cartman compulsively eats very large amounts of food in short periods of time, even eating when he’s not full anymore or not hungry.

He has a hard time identifying when he is full which can be linked back to autism and not being able to process your senses.

He hides in his bathroom to binge as seen in the end of obesity, and he is shown to feel a lot of shame towards binging. (His desperation to get ozempic.)

A good thing to take note of is that Cartmans mom doesn’t just over feed him. She uses food to bribe Cartman into being friends with her. Almost all the “love” she shows towards Cartman is bribery done to alleviate her crippling loneliness. In episode one he tells her he doesn’t want to eat too much because he’s being bullied for being fat. She tells him he’s not fat he’s big boned. He still doesn’t want to eat so she kept bribing him with food until he caved in. In Tsst she bribes him with KFC to skip an project to see a show with her, neglecting his academic needs. He likely sees food as a form of validation. This boosts his BED even further, and the need for validation is boosted by his HPD.

I think his HPD and schizophrenic symptoms make many people assume Cartman has ASPD. I do not belive he has ASPD as he can feel empathy to a very broad spectrum of things (inanimate objects, animals, and people he is not close to.) Conduct disorder may apply but it’s shown he can grow out of it when taken away from his environment or his environment is changed meaning he was not born with ASPD. He does have a lot of symptoms of ASPD but on the dsm they state “The occurrence of antisocial behavior is not exclusively during the course of schizophrenia or bipolar disorder.” Which in my analysis Cartman has untreated schizophrenia which would mean outside of the age requirement, he would not fit the ASPD criteria.

ANYWAY thats all folks!!

[howlsofbloodhounds]

I feel like Killer often had to act dumber than Nightmare around him. I just know that Nightmare is the kind of guy who wouldn't take kindly to not being the smartest person in the room at any given time. It mostly stems from his own childhood traumas (I'm sure that the fact that nothing he ever did was good enough to make him deserving of not getting abused stuck with him post corruption), but to me he's a walking inferiority complex.

And the thing is that Nightmare isn't stupid. He's a very studious person and he probably retains a lot of the stuff he reads about. But Killer is undoubtedly more observant and logical than he is. I feel like he probably picks up on stuff much quicker (even though he also probably forgets a lot of it just as quickly because of his memory issues).

And, well, I saw a couple of comics of them playing chess and Killer winning every time. And I do think that, realistically, if he played at full capacity every time, he would win against Nightmare. Chess is a game that rewards his kind of smarts so much more than Nightmare's.

But I also think he'd know not to win most of the time (unless his purpose is to piss off Nightmare that day). But, here's the kicker. I think it would be just as humiliating for Nightmare if Killer dominated the entire game only to make some very obviously porpuseful fumbles at the end. Of course, Nightmare could call him out on it, but then he'd need to admit that he would have lost had Killer not thrown the game. And he's not gonna fucking do that. Not when they both already know and Killer is staring unblinkingly at him, challenging him to say something, to admit defeat.

No, he's gonna take that fake victory and he's gonna massage his bruised ego with it. Denial is always a powerful shield.

Yeah absolutely. Killer knows how to stroke people’s egos and notice their insecurities, he will use both against someone for his own benefit. He knows he needs to walk a fine line with people like Nightmare and Chara—those that tend to have huge egos, that are also very fragile. Those whose first instincts are to lash out, and in Chara’s case, throw violent tantrums.

It’s like managing the moods of very explosive, highly dangerous bombs. It’s just that sometimes Killer can’t resist playing a little careless, in a calculated way. He is not above putting himself in huge danger and playing with his life just to gain momentarily pleasure in pissing them off, or to provoke them into hurting him just to alleviate his soul crushing apathy and boredom in controlled bursts.

Like micro-dosing on a drug that is pain, or simply because he knows (or thinks) it is inevitable that they will hurt him today, so he will provoke them earlier and take away their satisfaction in hurting him by taking away their control and bruising their egos.

Let Chara think he loves them. Let Nightmare think he’s stupid and blindly loyal. Those are the things he knows to maintain control over them. On the flip side, a way to keep Killer under control (particularly Stage 2), is to let him think he has more control than he actually does.

Imagine how powerless Nightmare could make him feel if he were to say, find a way to destroy any pleasure and satisfaction Killer gets out of pain. If he takes away the framing of torture, punishment, and pain as “fun” and “playing” in Killer’s mind.

I wouldn’t be suprised if Killer finds a sense of pride in his ability to not only endure but enjoy vast amounts of suffering—especially if he ever got some form of validation or approval for it. He views it as him still having power and control even as he is being “dominated”—because he can say that he enjoys it and therefore it means nothing and has no genuine impact on him beyond the satisfaction and pleasure.

People being unnerved and annoyed when you laugh in their face after they’ve broken your bones just means that Killer still has control over their emotions.

Yet another way he is views himself as sort of, above others. Not in the self loving ego stroking way, but still in a superior, ‘I’m above you, so don’t try me’ way. He’d likely look down on anyone who runs from or hates pain— or anyone who obviously lets it show. Viewing them as inferior and weak.

If Nightmare can take that away, then pain is just pain. Potentially sending Stage 2 deeper into his apathetic, nihilistic, fatalistic worldview—“just get it over with if you aren’t going to make it fun.”

Which is probably the reason why physical punishment wouldn’t work on Stage 2 at all—not until you can take away his sense of control in these situations—psychological stuff like isolation and sensory deprivation certainly would.

I feel like another way would be to greyrock him whenever he tries to provoke someone into violence and hurting him—not giving him the reaction he expects and craves. Which would either make him quickly lose interest, or motivate him to keep escalating until he gets what he wants.

Killer has definitely greyrocked Chara and Nightmare before as well— refusing to give them any type of satisfaction or control over him by not giving any response or reaction they want from him. And sometimes giving the exact opposite of a reaction or response that they want.

All in all, I can definitely see Killer underplaying himself and his own abilities to satisfy others egos and play into expectations if it benefits him or avoids inconvenience. And he’d definitely use their egos to lure them into little mind games and traps—like the one you described.

{ @stellocchia }

[toyalligatorstatue]

I kinda wanted to throw a small update out there. This is my new blog, I was aleatoryalarmalligator and so much has happened to me, I’ve been at least six or seven different people since I was a frequenter of this site. I moved to Portland and experienced a lot. I can say that a lot of it was good but a lot of it wasn’t fun at all. And the past I was running from did indeed find its way to me eventually. And the friends and dreams and responsibilities I was juggling all fell to the floor eventually. I’ve lived and loved and lost, been at the top and the bottom. Experienced decrepit corners of the city and my own heart and found bliss end almost boundless senses of beauty here as well. And at this point in my life I’m stopping again, looking back over the years and some of it really completely shocked me. Other elements could be anyone’s guess.

Anyways, I had to take a hiatus from working due to injuries and the only people who talk to me anymore is Andy, whom is my best friend and roommate. It’s more than a friendship but less than a relationship. It’s not sexual but it’s not something that couldn’t happen if I let it. I don’t let it because he’s a pretty bad alcoholic and I don’t want to lose anymore to alcoholic boyfriends. Our boundaries are already pretty blurry.

Before I really got to know him, I let the universe almost take over for me. I let myself fall backwards, having nothing to hold on to or validate my existence and I fell right into Andy, who was also falling apart and somehow we fell together. Within a week and a half we loved each other and I moved in. It’s a cocoon that we share. I find it stifling but I’m not ready to take on the world quite yet.

I will say, that Andy has given me more acceptance and unconditional love than anyone I’ve ever met so far. He is proud to be my friend. He doesn’t hide his feelings. And he is my home and I’m his home. I don’t know what the future holds but the world got pretty scary and cold on me a few years ago. Andy had me move in and it’s been just us. This life isn’t enough for me. But I can’t go back to working in restaurants.

My sister calls. She lives across town. I see her about once a week. Goes to school, has love life issues that consume her, not unlike where I was at her age. She’s learning her own lessons. My father calls. He’s in his seventies now and he doesn’t quite understand the world. Obviously we have our history and difficulties but as my parents get older I cherish my time with them more than I did when I was younger and they were younger.

I had a cat but he died a few weeks ago. He got a bladder blockage and by the time he exhibited signs he was basically dying. I am unemployed and it broke me just to get money to put Hank down. Most the people from my past have blocked me or excommunicated me. It’s mostly a bunch of bullshit. It’s not that I am not without my flaws or didn’t disappoint people. But it’s a lot of insecure leveraging and miserable people who want to blame me for stuff. I’m not as willing as I once was to take a back seat to other people. I know my worth. Sometimes it gets to me, being excommunicated. I’m not even left with much reason for any of it. It’s hard to make peace with it or come to terms with it.

My relationship with Andy isn’t one where certain things come up. He’s an alcoholic who mismanages his time and money and doesn’t tend to withhold his opinions when he’s has a few. He needs help and doesn’t get enough sleep. It’s a lot of pressure for me. But like I said. He gives of himself all he can and accepts and adores me and in a world that sometimes feels like it’s out for blood, I can’t afford to lose him.

But yeah, I’m pretty lonely and thus I’m finding myself in a similar headspace that I was in my last few years of living in Idaho where and when I wrote a lot. I have back and leg issues and I’ve overworked myself losing weight. I had an eating disorder for a few years. I’m burned out in some ways.

I’m thirty five now and I feel a separation from people who were my age when I first moved here. The first few years of being in my thirties were rough. Now that I’m half through i couldn’t be paid to be younger again, I don’t care how much better my body or face was. I feel more myself than I’ve been since I was a small child. I’m retreating out of everything.

It’s relieving, but I’m pretty lonely. I feel a sick liminal loneliness each night, when the lights feel too dim. Days turn to weeks. I do things mostly by myself. I listen to a lot of music and playlists. I’m dreaming and disappearing into myself. I’m going to do what I can to go to school, this time I’m going for something in the field of healthcare to be safe. I have Andy but even if I didn’t I have lost a lot of interest in love. At least right now. I was pretty badly used and physically, sexually and emotionally abused in my last relationship. I’m scared to make friends or take on too much.

Anyway, I’m happy to be back. I’ll try to do more writing. It’s good for me.

[foldingfittedsheets]

re: your theory on DnD characters and personal struggles -- i have only had one DnD character so far, v high charisma, tried to charm everyone they met (and not like the spell. just like, with actual social charm) and i also happen to be aware of the fact that i do actually have a desperate, sometimes almost crippling need for anyone and everyone to like me all of the time! what a coincidence that all my unfinished character plans also always have very high charisma!! i guess what i'm trying to say is: your theory is probably at least somewhat correct

and also that makes sense. using your character as an extension of yourself in a subconscious attempt to deal with your deeprooted emotional issues seems like not a terrible coping strategy! (altho i think it could also be a subconscious attempt to validate one's own insecurities, which would be. less healthy)

sorry for the long ask, love the comics, love the blog, thank you and say hi to the beloved for me (or maybe don't bc that would be weird and parasocial lmao)

Yeah, it’s one of the reasons I tend to play bards. I’m gonna achieve a good grade in social skills, something that is normal to want and possible to achieve!

[sociodonis]

My Cheatsheet

Information Elements

Irrational elements (because they perceive, not reason):

Se - extroverted sensing: Force (F)

Accumulation of external involvements

Force: strength or energy as an attribute of physical action or movement. In physics, understood as an influence tending to change the motion of a body or produce motion or stress in a stationary body.

Si - introverted sensing: Senses (S)

Integration of external involvements

Senses: faculties by which the body perceives external stimuli.

Ne - extroverted intuition: Ideas (I)

Accumulation of internal abstractions

Ideas: thoughts as to possible courses of action or outcomes.

Ni - introverted intuition: Telos (T)

Integration of internal abstractions

Telos: ancient Greek term for an end, fulfillment, completion, aim or goal. Ethymologic source for the word 'teleology', the explanation of phenomena in terms of the purpose they serve rather than of cause by which they arise.

Rational elements (because they reason, not perceive):

Te - extroverted thinking: Pragmatism (P)

Accumulation of external abstractions

Pragmatism: an approach that evaluates theories or beliefs in terms of the success of their practical application.

Ti - introverted thinking: Laws (L)

Integration of external abstractions

Laws: the system of rules which a particular country or community recognizes as regulating the actions of its members and which it may enforce by the imposition of penalties.

Fe - extroverted feeling: Emotions (E)

Accumulation of internal involvements

Emotions: strong feelings deriving from one's circumstances, mood, or relationships with others.

Fi - introverted feeling: Relations (R)

Integration of internal involvements

Relations: the ways in which two or more people or things are connected; a thing's effect on or relevance to another. Also the way in which two or more people or groups feel about and behave towards each other.

Each of the eight information elements fit into and fill one of the eight cognitive functions that make up a person's personality type. The different assortments result in the 16 different types.

Cognitive Functions

1. Leading - most capable (4D), valued, public, and stubborn. Automatic, confident, and comfortable first approach that sets and programs the base objectives of the personality. Also called Base, Dominant, or sometimes Program function

2. Creative - highly capable (3D), valued, public, and flexible. Complements the leading function's set program and takes it into actions, brings it into the world. Also called Auxiliary function.

3. Role - less capable (2D), unvalued, public, and flexible. Conscious adaptation to respond to outside expectations. Sometimes called Reluctant function.

4. Vulnerable - least capable (1D), unvalued, public, and stubborn. Source of insecurity, least resistance to external pressure, and inflexible lack of comprehension of its given information element. Sometimes called Exposed function or Path/Point of Least Resistance (PoLR).

5. Suggestive - least capable (1D), valued, private, and flexible. Search for intimate reassurance and/or influence of others, appreciation and enthralling of the presence of the element in them, feels calmed by it. Also called Accepting or Seeking function.

6. Mobilizing - less capable (2D), valued, private, and stubborn. Highly personal need for being independently capable in this element, but is overconfident. Consistently clumsy in its effectiveness or overcompensating in its expression. Its usage energizes the person. Also called Activating function or Hidden Agenda.

7. Observing - highly capable (3D), unvalued, private, and stubborn. Non-participation in the usage of its given element outside of scrutizing from the sidelines and sometimes consistently critizicing or questioning its validity. Traditionally called Ignoring function.

8. Demonstrative - most capable (4D), unvalued, private, and flexible. Unconscious and persistent leading utilization of the element, even when it would rather not be used. Willingly let go of when asked of by overwhelmed people due to its unvalued and flexible nature, yet it still assists in the achieving of the type's goals.

Each of the eight functions fit into one of four Blocks within the model, creating Rings of information metabolism:

Blocks

Public and conscious blockings: the Mental Ring

Ego Block: valued and "strong" functions

Super-Ego Block: unvalued and "weak" functions

Private and unconscious blockings: the Vital Ring

Super-Id Block: valued but "weak" functions

Id Block: unvalued but "strong" functions

Inert functions: stubborn, intransigent, bold, assertive, and energetic functions

Contact functions: flexible, collaborative, subtle, and reluctant functions

The "strength" or "weakness" of a given function is explained through the qualitative parameters with which they are able to process information to elaborate conclusions and internalize lessons. Each set of which are called Dimensionality of a function:

Dimensionality

Each function processes information and grows by taking into account the parameters of:

1-Dimensional (1D): experience. Referred to as least capable, "weakest".

2-Dimensional (2D): norms and experience. Referred to as less capable, "weak".

3-Dimensional (3D): situational, norms, and experience. Referred to as highly capable, "strong".

4-Dimensional (4D): time, situational, norms, and experience. Referred to as most capable, "strongest.

Commonalities can be discerned between types depending on strengths and values, called small groups or quaternions:

Small Groups

Quadras: according to valued elements

Alpha: value Ti, Fe, Si, Ne - Acceptance and Togetherness

Beta: value Ti, Fe, Se, Ni - Calling and Order

Gamma: value Te, Fi, Se, Ni - Aptitude and Independence

Delta: value Te, Fi, Si, Ne - Growth and Hope

Clubs: according to dominant primary information

Researchers: intuitive and logical (NT)

Socials: sensing and ethical (SF)

Pragmatists: sensing and logical (ST)

Humanitarians: intuitive and ethical (NF)

Temperaments: according to primary extroversion (E or I) and rationality (P or J)

Flexible-maneuvering: extroverted and perceiving (EP)

Linear-assertive: extroverted and rational (EJ)

Receptive-adaptive: introverted and perceiving (IP)

Balanced-stable: introverted and rational (IJ)

Communication styles: according to primary extroversion (E or I) and rational preferrence (F or T)

Bussinesslike: extroverted and logical (ET)

Passionate: extroverted and ethical (EF)

Cold-blooded: introverted and logical (IT)

Sincere/Soulful: introverted and ethical (IF)

I will make separate in-depth entries for each of the points in every section, the 16 Socionics types and more.

[skye-is-rambling-as-usual]

was scrolling on pinterest and found this thread and i want to add on to this thread, and add on my two cents

thread by @mustlovelance

i personally think you are 100% correct.

Keith isn't good with words. but he has his moments where he says the right things. although people always act like Keith is a badass or an asshole (he is at times lol), he is also extremely awkward and struggles with interaction.

he means well, a lot of the time, but he just sometimes tends to say things that are either unintentionally rude in context, like how you pointed out here

the pep-talk he gave Lance was inadequate because he didn't realize that Lance isn't as secure (in himself and his abilities) as he makes himself out to be. part of this falls on Lance too, as he should communicate that he is insecure, but while others might offer comforting words, Keith struggles with it.

transcript of the conversation between Lance and Keith in S3 Ep6 "Tailing a Comet"

Lance: Hey, man. I just wanted to talk with you because...well, because I've been worrying about something.

Keith: Must really be bothering you if you're coming to talk to me.

Lance: Well, I mean, you're the leader now, right?

Keith: I guess.

the most interesting thing to note here is that Keith tried to be light-hearted, and it made Lance seemingly more insecure. Keith is also dealing with his own insecurities in his position and that shows here too. he tries to hide it with aloofness, but you can just feel him hestating in his small confirmation to being leader.

Lance: I've been doing some math. With Shiro back, that makes six paladins, but there are only five lions. And if I'm right, that's one paladin too many.

Keith: Solid math.

Lance: Look, when Shiro takes over the Black Lion, you're going to want your Red Lion back. If I get a lion, I'd have to take Blue from Allura. But she's progressed a lot faster than any of us did. She might even be able to unlock powers we don't know of.

Keith: That's true.

Keith is being logical, and honest, but i don't blame Lance for him being upset at this. it is upsetting to hear someone agree with you when you're insecure already. that is basically what Keith did here, even if it wasn't his intention to.

Lance: So maybe the best thing I can do for the team is step aside.

Keith: What are you talking about?

Lance: This isn't a participation game. This is war. And you want your best soldiers on the front lines.

Keith: Stop worrying about who flies what and just focus on your missions. Things will work themselves out.

Keith, in this moment, is literally blind-sided by this statement from Lance. his expression shifted from neutral to shock. he was genuinely confused about the fact Lance even thought about stepping aside. even his reaction to Lance's comment "you want your best soldiers on the front lines" is logical, and therefore comes over as rude. he is telling Lance to stop worrying about wether he is good enough or not, because he thinks he shouldn't have to tell him that he is a valued member, as literally his right-hand.

Lance: Okay. Thanks.

Keith: And, Lance...leave the math to Pidge.

Lance thanks Keith but it isn't really sincere, mostly because Keith didn't really help. Lance needed validation and comfort, but instead he got logic and misplaced light-heartedness.

neither did anything wrong, but the communication didn't land. Keith didn't really realize Lance was feeling insecure and Lance went to the wrong person for this conversation lol.

feel free to share your opinions :D