#I am having Thoughts and Feelings

[thisisallthehattersfault]

No, bro -- listen. Man, listen. Body horror is beautiful. No, listen, hear me out. There's something intimate about it. Something erotic, man. It's like the transformation of the flesh representing the transformation of the self. No, come on, it comes down to autonomy man. It comes down to making peace with yourself. The person who accepts or even orchestrates their transformation is not suffering through it, even when it's painful, even when the thing they turn into seems grotesque, right? Because body horror is only horrifying when it's being done to you, without your consent, you know? Otherwise it's like. Transcendence. It's like a moment of pure, unflinching honesty about who and what you truly are, all your ugly, fleshy bits on display. And it doesn't matter that people see you and cringe and recoil, right? Because if they peeled themselves open they'd look just the same as you, and you know that even if they're lying to themselves about it, and your skin never fit right anyway, so like. Why should you keep wearing it, you know? If you can live without it, and it's squeezing you too tight, why should you keep it on? Because seeing the pull and pulse of your tendons might make someone uncomfortable? They've got tendons too, man. All those ugly, wet, fleshy bits. They've got them too. No, man listen, listen --

[key2world]

I know we all had a lot to say about Tinn’s ‘high-school transformation’ for Gun. But, I think it was necessary; it was needed to prove a point: he might have undergone the clichéd ‘glow-up’ but removing a pair of glasses and incorporating a cool hair-style doesn’t make a nerd any less a nerd. It doesn’t suddenly embolden this anxious, smol bean of a boy; he doesn’t magically turn into a suave flirt. No, Tinn is as Tinn always has been and that awkward nerdiness and shy strictness and annoying naginess of his is essentially what Gun falls for. Gun fell for the real Tinn; the Tinn who cares, maybe a little too much; the Tinn who is principled(pun somewhat intended) to a fault; the Tine who is always so, so selfless.

[mothwithpronouns]

oops sorry your brain broke and now it wants to self destruct. Yeah it’s gonna be like that forever. You can kinda fix it with the anti orgasm drugs or talking to a woman in a cardigan once every other week, but no guarantee it’ll do much

[lavearlgrey]

reading an unathorized fan treatise and i need to actively scream while i read it for some parts so sorry everyone ur the victim

FIRST OF ALL GIRL THIS IS HIGHLY ILLEGAL EXCUSE ME. HELLO?? THIS IS SO BAD. HELLO!??!?!!?

also idk how it related to the story but one of the ppl on the old LJ account silentwakes had a fucking msscribe icon and there was accustations of sock puppetry and oh my god OH MY GOD. the icon. the callback. the author put thought into this that has me actively terrified.

i tried to glimpse anything thru the memories that were linked but not much seemed relevant (although a looot of msscribe stuff in those memories heehee hoohoo) but man the detail.

[beelmons]

currently annoyed at the fact that by later seasons JJ goes "he's my best friend" about Spencer when the one person who constantly showed up and made him open up and change his perspective on things was always emily. emily is his best friend. EMILY IS HIS BEST FRIEND.

[exsqueezememacaroni]

The way Mike opens his mouth and his lips look so soft....he's about to do terrible things to that microphone

[torao-is-law]

hat....

[bee-ships]

Something something married life with Harvey

[kaleidoskuls]

that depressing moment when you realize everyone would move on heartbreakingly quickly from you if you were ever stuck in the upside down

[apassingbird]

when i say i wish people started using the reblog button more i don't mean it in a 'i want more notes' kind of way i mean it in a 'i want to read about your thoughts on this particular thing' and 'i want to have conversations in the tags' and 'i want this to feel like a community again and not like any of those boring social media platforms where artists are content creators and interactions never goes beyond a like'

[andi-o-geyser]

a full SAGA of chaos choices at the diner in the centre of your mind

[voltaical-art]

HE WAS SEVENTEEN. AGHHH ULDER WHEN I GET MY HANDS ON YOU

[mushroom-pal]

repurposing the things that u already have is such a fun and easy way to kill off the consumerism demons in ur head btw. i collected all the socks ive accumulated with holes in them and found my old embroidery thread and learned how to mend them!!! i found some old chopsticks and used them to prop my plants up!!! i am giving my old things i no longer need to my friends who i love and who will treat these things with love as well!!!

[identitty-dickruption]

one of the worst things in the world is that feeling unloveable can (and will) make you act in ways that reinforces itself. I feel unloveable so I don’t respond to messages so people reach out less so I feel unloveable. one of the hardest things in the world is fighting back the brain demons long enough to break the cycle

[egophiliac]

You can’t pick Lilia for this. But who is your other favorite short character in Twst?

I like the angry little king boy 🌹

[starry-bi-sky]

don't you want to be a cult leader? - danyal al ghul au

this is mostly a joke post but i thought it was funny and had to share so--

his first mistake was, obviously, inheriting his father's inability to see an injustice and stand still. -- actually, danyal's first mistake was his lair being so big. a mountainous island with a large temple in the center resembling his old home in Nanda Parbat? With sprawling foliage and rivers and streams and waterfalls galore? What was he going to do with all that space? Let it go to waste? He had plants there! Native trees of the ghost zone growing from the soil! He couldn't let it all be left unchecked!

So naturally after helping a fellow teenage assassin ghost -- who he later learns is named Akihiko, -- from Walker of all people, he sent them over to hang low at his lair until it was safe enough for them to wander around the Zone. Walker couldn't get through Danyal's astrofield if his life depended on it, and trust him -- he's tried. Danny was clearing out debris from his stupid transport vans for weeks.

Honestly it wasn't so bad, he and Aki really quickly became fast friends and Danny loves having a sparring partner close to his level again -- he hasn't had this much fun fighting since he left the League. Aki was very dedicated and levelheaded, the both of them clicked really well because of it.

Nonono, the real trouble began after Danyal met some long-passed League members and allowed them to come join his island as well. Apparently they had made a few enemies of the zone, and maybe Danyal still felt some loyalty to the League. He couldn't just let them be left to rot. Their zealotry could be overlooked so long as they kept it contained and helped him take care of his island.

And it.. snowballs from there? He meets a teen squire aptly calling himself Ambroise -- whether that was his living name or not is yet to be seen -- who died during feudal france, who is just about as dramatic and passionate as every french stereotype makes them out to be. He calls Danyal "my moon and great muse" -- which is both flattering and little uncomfortable, but Danyal's grown up in the League as the Grandson of the Demon Head, he is used to mild worship. he passes it off as nothing more, nothing less. -- and while his energy is overwhelming on the worst of days, he helps Danny draw out of his shell more in ways that Sam and Tucker still struggle with.

Him and Aki butt heads a lot, but the two seem to hold the other in at least some positive regard, so Danny doesn't worry too much about them fighting while he's gone. It only becomes a mild issue when Aki also begins calling Danny "my moon". It's a little sweet, so Danyal brushes it off.

Then he takes in a troupe of ghosts some time after he defeats Pariah Dark and they begin calling him "great one" just as the yetis do in the far frozen. This is where he meets the twins -- a pair of sibling ghosts who call themselves Trixie and Missy (short for Trick and Mislead) -- who aren't quite as passionate as Ambroise but more energetic than Aki. Eventually they also start calling Danyal "my moon" and attach themselves to his hip, even within the living. They like to hide in his shadow and cause trouble for the rest of the students. He makes sure they don't hurt anyone.

He's pretty sure Aki is jealous, same with Ambroise, but he can't be too certain other than the fact that they become much more lingering (re: clingy) whenever he visits the island.. Something he's trying to do much more often these days due to the increasing amount of people living there now. Since when did he become so popular?

Then there's Pēnelópeia from the Greater Athens, who ran away from home and joined his Island after he ran into her while she was being chased by Skulker -- and he's pretty sure the reason was because of her chimeric appearance. Her strange eyes and mismatched wings and lion's tail and talons. She assimilates into his friend group very easily, she gets along well with Ambroise and Trixie and Danny usually finds the three of them climbing the trees to pluck the most fruit from the top. They can fly and he knows it, but they prefer to climb.

Then finally there's silent poet Akkara who comes from ancient mesopotamia, who gets along most with Aki -- which is no surprise there considering their similar personality dispositions. he watches Aki and Danyal fight each other and leaves comments on this or that that he notices. He writes Danyal poems on clay tablets and leaves them by his room.

They're one big mismatched group of outcasts, and Danny's got the other ghosts on his island to tend to, because they're living on his island and he wants to be hospitable even if he struggles with that. But he spends the most of his time with them.

Sam and Tucker are making fun of him. Tucker jokingly tells him 'careful Danny, at this rate you're gonna start a cult'. Danny really wishes he had taken that joke more seriously.

He just. keeps. collecting people. Wayward souls lost in the zone, looking for shelter or refuge from something or other -- whether that be another hostile ghost, or a past afterlife, or just a purpose. Danyal finds them, he takes them in, offers them a place on his island until they are ready to leave. Many seldom do. He's not complaining -- he has the space, and it feels like it's only ever growing.

His close friends, his "inner circle" as he's heard the others call them, keep insistently calling him "my moon". He starts calling them his stars, because then it only feels fair. They're his stars, this is his constellation. It becomes a thing; little star halos begin forming behind their heads, picking them out from the rest. He loves them so much, it's hard to place. Sam and Tucker are also his stars, but they reside in the living realm, they're his tie to Life. Meanwhile, his friends here know what it's like to be dead, and sometimes its nice to relate.

Those living on his island keep calling him "Great One" and he's beginning to notice zealotry in their care for his island. He really, deeply appreciates it. His close friends gain nicknames -- as his stars, it's only natural for him to pick them out from the cluster in the skies. Akihiko, his Sirius and bright star. Trix and Missy, Castor and Pollux, the twins and troublemakers. Ambroise, his zealous Antares and close friend. Penelopeia, chimeric and loyal Vega. And Akkara, his Arcturus and strength.

It's ridiculous how long it takes for him to notice; he is, of course, a deadly trained assassin. He is meant to be observant -- and normally he is! But somehow this becomes a blind spot. One that becomes too big to be dealt with by the time he realizes it.

He should've noticed when Aki, his Sirius, stood beside him one day while Danyal looked over his island and saw the sprawling spirits carrying on about their afterlife and bowing to him as they saw him, and said: "I looked down into the depths when I met you; I couldn't measure it." They aren't one for flowing prose, it took him so off guard he was silent for over a minute before he finally spoke.

Danyal should've recognized devotion for what it is, and yet he didn't. He should've recognized it when Antares began spouting praises about him, crowing about his radiance and resplendence to the heavens. He just brushed it off as Ambroise being Ambroise. He should've recognized it when Trix and Missy nearly broke Dash's leg after he knocked Danyal's books out of his hands, he excused it as them being protective. Of them coming from times where such violence may have been customary -- after all, that's what he used to be like. What he was still like, sometimes, when his emotions nearly got the better of him.

He should've noticed it when the people living on his island followed his word like gospel, looked at him like he hung the stars in the sky. When his friends gifted him a shawl with the moon phases delicately embroidered into it, with silver, shimmering thread and moving stars lovingly stitched into it. Their constellations seen clear as day in the dark fabric. When he found small shrines dedicated to him -- but they lacked any image of him beyond stones carved to look like moons, so he ignored it. When the religious imagery began popping up.

He really, really should've noticed it when a bunch of cultists accidentally summoned Antares, and Antares had turned to him when he arrived and called them heretics. But he was so centered on the fact that they had kidnapped one of his stars, that he hadn't paid much attention to what Ambroise had said.

Sages say that faith is blind, they should also say faith in you is even blinder.

It really only hits him one afternoon while he's sitting in Sam's room studying with Tucker, Missy and Trixie lounging at his feet, Aki sat on his right, Penelopeia braiding his hair, Ambroise draped against him, and Akkara lurking over him. Its one of the rare few times they're all in one room together.

It hits him like a bolt of lightning. He looks up from his textbook. "Oh Ancients," he says in no amounting shock. Everyone looks up to him.

"I've become my grandfather."