#I feel you Benedict

[transmascissues]

i absolutely cannot believe people are trying to start discourse about whether nex benedict was actually nonbinary / whether it was okay for him to describe himself as nonbinary to some people if he didn’t actually identify that way as if he isn’t literally DEAD because he was KILLED. this is a MURDERED CHILD and these monsters are so busy getting mad at the possibility that he might have been a trans boy who described himself as nonbinary to his family because that was easier for them to take that they’re turning a CHILD who was MURDERED into fucking discourse. even when we die at the hands of cis people’s violence, our own community finds a way to make us the villains of the story.

and all of this bullshit on top of the ways that cis people are already trying to say our grief over his death is unjustified. all of this on top of people claiming he wasn’t murdered and speculating on other causes of death (i literally saw someone say he “clearly went home and took the coward’s way out” and i have never been more disgusted) or claiming that he started the fight as if any action on his part could’ve been enough to justify his death. i am haunted by the sound of his father screaming that his child was not filth because that is what people have been saying about this poor kid, that’s how cruelly his memory is being treated, and even the trans community can’t get it’s shit together enough to look past the stupid discourse and see the tragedy in front of us. did you all forget that it was supposed to be up to us to grieve him in the way he deserves when the rest of the world fails to care if people like him live or die? did you all forget that this child was our sibling, the future of our community, a life that we should have had the chance to know and treasure while he was still here but that we now have a responsibility to hold close to our hearts in his absence? nex’s life was precious and it was ended far too soon and if you truly believe that anything is more important than mourning his life and fighting for a world where no more trans people have to meet such an awful fate, you’re a traitor to this community and you do not deserve the place you occupy within it.

i’m so tired. i can’t even imagine how tired his family must be, to see the public treat the child they’re grieving so horribly, to see the world fail their baby again. leave him alone. he was already robbed of peace in life; the least you can do is let him finally have it in death.

[mvshortcut]

I was thinking about Kate and Milligan (as usual) but specifically about what Kate calls Milligan. Because he's Milligan to her, but that doesn't make him any less her dad, but she doesn't call him Dad, yknow?

How did it go? Was it an unspoken agreement where they just knew and understood the other despite just having met as father and daughter for the first time? Did she just bounce up to him and go "I'm not calling you Dad. You're Milligan and you're going to stay Milligan." and did he reply "Alright, Katie-Cat" without even a twinge of hurt because it's just so right? He just found his daughter, how could he ever be sad about anything ever again?

Or- maybe it wasn't that easy? Maybe she bounced up to him, and everything felt right, but he couldn't help but wonder... and so he went to the one place he always knew he could go when he felt lost. When he presented his troubles to Mr. Benedict - "No, it's going great, but I can't help wondering ... she doesn't want to call me Dad. Which is fine, of course, but ... maybe she doesn't see me in that way?" - when he presented his troubles to Mr. Benedict, how long did he laugh and slump unconscious for, before waking up and apologizing profusely, before helping Milligan sort it all out. (Which really meant sort himself out. Kate had it all figured out, apparently.)

Or- did she try at first? Did she try to press at a puzzle piece that just wouldn't fit? Her dad left. He left a long time ago and she's lived with that her whole life. But - her Milligan is here now. Could he ever understand?

Or- maybe it just slipped out one day, years down the line? When she was teasing him - "Extra coat, Kate, it's brisk out!" / "Da-ad, I'm nearly sixteen, you know, you don't need to-" - did they both freeze? Did she not realize what she'd done until she was halfway down the sidewalk? Did she catch him wiping at his eyes and blowing his nose? Did she tuck that away in her back pocket for later?

Just. It's all good, ya know?

[plumeriacosmos]

polin au where penelope gets to say claire’s iconic “look at the state of you” to colin

thats it. thats the au

[crow-in-springtime]

*slaps the roof of the mbs fandom* this baby can fit so many talented, amazing, kind, creative, hilarious, intelligent, supportive, nice, slightly unhinged people

[sophieswundergarten]

Do you think people ever tried to call Curtain "Curt"? "Le Droptha Curtain" is kind of hard to turn into a nickname, so they'd have to just call him his full-on name whenever they wanted to address him

[allie131313]

Bruh… going through my tumblr page and seeing all the old peaky and Cillian accounts that just vanished made me get into my feels. It’s insane how fast the whole fanbase can just disappear.

I was looking at old reblogs I did of accounts that either got deactivated or changed all together. It’s insane how fast people move on.

But can I say how happy I am to have been a part of that beautiful community ?!? And how entirely grateful I am to the ones who’ve stuffed around?!? y’all all don’t understand how much I appreciate you guys!! Y’all are my escape route when my going gets super tough (which is right now, thanks to Life). This also goes for all the other fandoms I’m “a part” of.

Also, sorry I’m not a good supporter lately, life sucks lol.

Thank y’all all so so much for all y’all do. Y’all are doing the Lord’s work 🫡

I love you guys all so so much 🥹

[youidiotwecouldbeenus]

Do you have that feeling when you are a Whovian and one day you're on insta and Oooh what's all these then? you see that Good Omens is a thing so you go Nice! And you read the book and watch the series and it says july 28 august is the release date for season 2 so you go yeeey and you wanna watch more gay shows so you sit down and watch OFMD and you go like damn oh wait season 2 is coming up yey so you watch something to heal your depression. You watch 2 other seasons of Doctor Who, and watch BBC Sherlock and congrats you're depressed again! It's already the end of 2022 and you found our that your favourite Marvel character has their own series so you binge watch it and it's almost only queer baiting so ur sad but you hope for a happy ending but NOOO my baby Loki can't have a happy ending, right? Nice, gurl, you're depressed again. You watch another BBC series called Merlin and it's fun and games until THAT part comes and you're like TwT. Yeah, you're depressed. Oh wait, your comfort shows give you therapy because you were depressed long before you watched even Doctor Who because you've been traumatised and that's how we're going through puberty people with daddy issues and depression and also ADHD and also PTSD so YEEEY but oh wait Neil Gaiman is suddenly your favourite author so you read all his books and you can't wait for season 2 of Good Omens (ofc not because Doctor Who is sad af) SURPRISE! GOOD OMENS SEASON 2 ENDING IS ALMOST THE SADDEST ENDING YOU'VE EVER SEEN SO YOU NOW REALLY HAVE TO SEE A THERAPIST BUT NOO YOU JUST IMAGINE THAT YOU ARE JUST FINE. Also you fell in love with most of the ships and actors so you are now sick too ..... No?

[andthebubbles]

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[nobodysdaydreams]

I normally dislike crossovers between franchises. No hate if that's your thing, it's just not for me. However. The idea of a TMBS x ASOUE crossover intrigues me, not because I'm interested in seeing the orphan genius kids interact (although that would be cool), but because the fact that both Show Curtain/Nathaniel Benedict AND Count Olaf are both canonically insufferable theater kids who keep getting beaten by groups of children has such ridiculously high comedic potential it would be a crime not to consider it.

Not because I think they would team up. Oh no. They both need to be the center of attention at all times. I also feel like Nathaniel was the type of theater kid who bossed the other students around, treated every high school performance like there were talent scouts coming specifically to see him (and insisted that all inferior actors that made him look bad needed to be cut from the cast), and was also on math team/in science club (and bragged about his academic accomplishments constantly), whereas Olaf was the type of theater kid who was late to every rehearsal, didn't even try memorizing his lines until the night before the performance, and was constantly in danger of being expelled and kicked out of the production because he refused to do his school work. They would HATE each other (and frankly, so would everyone else in the drama club because they both throw tantrums whenever they aren't cast as the lead, as they both insist they are the most talented student in the school).

[jtownraindancer]

[simpomatic]

pirating rewatching bridgerton and would like to reaffirm that i want benedict bridgerton in the biblical sense

[mjn-air]

[personinthepalace]

Mr. Benedict and Reynie have a screaming competition

aka the missing conversation btwn Mr. Benedict and Reynie from season 2

[phtalogreenpoison]

Reynie Muldoon Part 2

To start off this second post about my blorbo Reynie Muldoon, I would like to correct a former vagueness.  To credit the person who mentioned the Heart and Leader roles, I would like to give a shoutout to @sophieswundergarten!  I would also propose that this contributes to why Constance is so kidnappable and chased after, but I digress. 

So besides Reynie’s roles in the society, something that I find absolutely fascinating about him is that he is repeatedly described as a completely “average boy” and easily the most personable of the four (with maybe Kate coming as a close second in a different kind of people smarts way though).  But though he is seen as the most “normal” of the group, not everything adds up.  Before the Mysterious Benedict Society formed, he really didn’t have any lasting friends, and the only people he could maybe count as friends would be Seymour the orphanage cat (meow!), the significant portion of time he spent alone with himself, and his teacher Miss Perumal (I love her, but this is more of a mentorship/parent role).  Even considering them, one is a nonhuman animal, and Miss Perumal is not his age, certainly does not give any cool points for people his age, and has not been in his life until more recently.  But yet the fact remains that he is still able to appear friendly.  All of this is not to say I don’t think Reynie is a good person (because he really, really is a good kid), but it points to the fact that he gets his people skills from something a little more mentally ill.  And to me, that points to neglect.  As someone expected to be a golden child situations paraded out for the orphanage in certain situations, with his further development being ignored by the director until Miss Perumal, and as someone who is also able to evade his longtime bullies (for being a nerd or something I don’t remember) by seemingly being uninteresting and boring, he learns to adjust how he presents specific aspects of his personality to people.  Again, most people have different sides of themselves they show to different people, but this errs more on the side of having different masks for survival.  On a related note, as an emotionally neglected child myself, you learn that if you want something done, you have to do it yourself and cannot ask for help, contributing to Reynie’s desire to control the situation he’s in and in a weird way, forcing him to develop his leadership skills.

I feel like to some people, this could seem that I am painting him in a bad light.  I am not, merely that he is a deeply hurt child who has found certain ways to cope.  Obviously, once he meets Miss Perumal and the society, he begins to develop these coping mechanisms in a way that is healthier for himself, which really points out the fact that how people develop is so tied to what support they receive in childhood or adolescence.  Again, while the other kids have had to fend for themselves in similar ways, it is specifically this that brings out Reynie’s traits of intelligence, even though they could have developed in better circumstances.  Anyways, I am trying to say here that his ability to read a room is tied to his life experiences, which leads me to my next point that Reynie’s form of intelligence is often tied to cleverness.  For example, I heavily relate to the way that Reynie took the entrance test for the Mysterious Benedict Society, in that he viewed it as a puzzle to solve.  He did not know all of the facts straight up, but he did know how to use the information provided to him and extract what he needed out of that.  While he is also a certain level of book smart, he uses what knowledge he has available to him a shrewd manner. 

While I won’t finish in this post how this all ties in, he occasionally uses these abilities to manipulate the situation around him.  This for the most part is redirecting his bullies (considered acceptable), working information out of Mr. Curtain (considered acceptable), and later throwing the radio out from his friends (considered not acceptable).  But remember the false dream he has which causes him to fear that he would side with Mr. Curtain in the first book and betray his newfound friends?  This fear roots out of the fact that he is unsure of where to draw the line with his manipulative abilities early on, but he is ultimately different because of his care for the people around him.  While he may make mistakes, he is doing this for the people around him, and he is able to listen to others’ opinions.  He does not always think that he knows best, and if there is a better, easier way, he will probably take that route.  And as I hinted before, I do not necessarily think this is a bad thing to utilize, but the key thing that makes its usage a mistake is if he rates his opinion higher than the people he trusts.

This is all a really long way of saying that I love Reynie, and he is a nuanced individual who learns how to direct these same impulses in a far healthier way once he receives proper support, leading him to grow into a wonderful person.  I may seem a little morally gray here, but I just want to emphasize that sometimes, it is the situation that pushes a kid in a certain direction with their natural abilities.   (Next up will be parallels to Mr. Benedict and Mr. Curtain!  Among other things!)

[sophieswundergarten]

Feeling really very happy about all the terms of endearment Nicholas Benedict uses with his family

"My dear", "Beloved", "Sweetheart", "Love", "Darling", "Dearheart", etc.

The way he pours so much sincerity in every word, because he loves them all so much but he's still anxious about overdoing it and his words are all he has to make sure they know important they are

[luv-assangiebatch]

Errr okay I'm embarrassed to say I had to do some quick research on what happened to the real Julian and well...let's just say I didn't find great news. Some of it was completely cringey and awful. However, there are two sides to a story and all that, so I'm willing to extend some benefit of the doubt. Dude has been through a lot of craziness, so I honestly can't imagine what that sort of confinement and stress does to a person.

However, I still want to gush and obsess over my TFE Assangiebatch. I just find him so incredibly enchanting (that accent, that hair, those adorable goofy smirks, that confidence, that cockiness, his elusive mystery, gaaaahhhhh 😭) and the movie is baller. But I may have to further disassociate him from his real-life muse and put him into another AU. I've been pondering a PrecisionMed!AU so maybe I will have to explore that further...(more computer programming, add some genetics [yessss], minus the politics and journalism)