#I just need somewhere to dump my thoughts

[turtleskunks]

Been reading through Pandora Hearts again now that I found a place to read the Japanese version alongside the English, and I’m looking forward to seeing the differences in writing (even tho my Japanese is awful). I imagine that a lot of things are vague in the Japanese version to better allow for the twists

Sadly, I can’t compare it to the official English versions cuz my official books are halfway across the world from me rn. But hopefully the fan translations don’t differ too significantly, lol

[queen0fm0nsterz]

It's been a year and I still cannot get over Shouki no Kami's battle BGM. It's just... so good in every conceivable way??? But dude what gets to me the most is the singing. THE SINGING.

Initially the instrumental is a lot more contained, you could say - quiet but with a method to it, if it makes sense. You can hear the emotions brooding under the surface until eventually they come to light along with the chorus. The voices are so deep that they feel... mastodontic, which then creates a contrast with the lead voice - a tenor. In the first half, it's muffled, hidden away behind the helmet of Shouki no Kami, and the music growing in a crescendo as it progresses. The fact that it's muffled helps making it sound deeper than it actually is, but as the song progresses the lead becomes more and more clear: with that, the surface of all the feelings such as fury and desperation is scratched.

The build up of Rhapsodia Roscida is ESSENTIAL to the payoff in Polumnia Omnia, because that's when all the emotions explode.

Now free of the helment and of any pretenses, the lead can sing his heart out. It still starts off as relatively controlled and you can hear him try to keep some composure in some parts, but the mask is off and all the ugly truths laying within are on display for everyone to hear. It's so good that every time it gets to those parts (you know the ones) I clutch my chest as well because I want to sing out loud.

Yu Peng Chen's performance was phenomenal. Between all the voices Scaramouche is given in all the dubs, his is undoubtedly my favorite. He is how the character sounds like in universe as far as I'm concerned.

[druciits]

no but like i'm weak in the knees for the total crack and chaos that Tom and Harry, who have lived who knows how many lives and are finally born as themselves again, unleash on the whole wizarding population

just mad chackling, kicking my feet, wheezing and snorting and whatnot through the whole night while reading that shit

somehow haven't actually seen that many of those. just remember reading one on ao3(prob) and miraculously found a gem on wattpad(sometimes i just get the urge to read fics on there yknow?(ao3 is a godess, ff.net is.. well it is and there are many fics that are also on ao3 and sometimes you have to escape the heaven for some rebelling but hhhh. BUT wattpad is my origin.. as it is for many of us and.. hm.. well ^^'))

SO if anyone has seen any more of those or just has some delicious crack where tomarry mess with everyone? i'm in the mood for that rn

[butchdiaz]

ok not saying im gonna do this but i think it would be kinda funny if i did an editor's commentary (like a directors commentary, basically my thought process while editing) on one of my videos so

links !! ceilings, we'll never have sex, the archer, i'm afraid ily

[tempests-bards-and-birds]

for the past few days i've been feeling kind of empty and hopeless for the future and i've been finding it hard to find joy in things that i usually enjoy lol so umm. can people reblog or comment with even just little things that have happened recently that have made them happy?

[ouchhq]

am i so hard to care about?

[vendigool]

A non-rdr related rant about art

Its THAT time of the year again where im like "woah my art, is actually horribly shit and im not improving at all". And its mostly because I look up to really experienced, old artists and then its really easy to just compare my art to theirs. And im a minor and those artists are literally 10 years older than me but I still think I should draw more like them. Skill wise. I know art takes time but ive been drawing for about 2 years now and I just suck immensely. And then someone compliments my art, and im so so grateful but I just think theyre lying. Its fucky.

And them im like. What? Isnt art supposed to be fun? Especially since im never gonna do it professionaly? But im not having fun, there are times where i think my art is mediocre but most the time I dread to look at my tumblr page because I just hate to see what I drew myself. And its starting to get to me that I may never be better than this

[bonestrouslingbones]

wait holy shit i really AM doing better because i posted a thing on the other blog 2 days ago and it still has yet to get a single note. and i didn't delete it. i dont even feel weird about it. oh my god i knew this secret blog boosted my confidence a good bit but it wasn't so clear until right now

[menaceadored]

Okayyyy so a big thing that has been holding me back while writing this fic that no one is wanting or anticipating is that I had this idea to create a second conflict for Nancy with school for the B plot, but then that conflict became two conflicts when I added my OCs and it all just got way more convoluted than I anticipated- so in order to move forward with this story, I’m cutting the B plot down significantly so I can refocus on Robin and Hawkins and less on the OCs in Boston

[godblooded]

tfw i have heard ‘kat could talk to a wall’ my entire life and it sucks when sometimes it genuinely feels like an insult.

[lady-harrowhark]

The latest from my medical dumpster fire:

Tests from Monday came back positive for autoimmune activity that theoretically shouldn’t be linked to my ulcerative colitis, but could also be a false positive

Other tests didn’t show much, but in the past I’ve had inflammation markers come back normal in the midst of active UC flares where imaging showed visible, severe inflammation, so I’ve also been told those tests are basically useless for me

Got referred to rheumatology and made an appointment - the earliest they can see me is the beginning of October, and it’s in a city about an hour away

Had my first physical therapy visit on Tuesday and must have overdone it because I felt like hot garbage that night; felt very feverish/cold/flu esque but I took my temperature a few times and it was normal. I’m feeling better in that regard, though I’ve still got some pretty sore muscles and achy hands and knees

My other doctor agreed to trial a new medication that might help with pain and sent that prescription in

My parents have still not acknowledged any of this, and it’s been over three days now. If they haven’t said anything by this evening I’m gonna say something to them about it and try my best not to be overly snarky :/

[coulrology]

Thought it was about time I finally share my take on basilisk Adrian-

Of all the basilisk experiments, Adrian was the most important to Belos and his plans for the Day of Unity. He needed a basilisk to be directly part of the draining spell, so he had to raise one that would eventually take the place of a coven head when the time came (and in the main Juniper timeline - where I am sticking as close to canon as possible - Adrian replaces them).

Throughout Adrian’s entire life, he wasn’t aware of the fact that he was a basilisk, though. The only people that knew were Belos, and the select few that were helping him with the experiments. Two of the witches part of the team posed as Adrian’s parents while they studied and raised him. He was monitored at all times growing up to make sure he blended in with his peers, and that no suspicions were raised about the basilisk project. If at any point Adrian got emotional and transformed back into his natural form, his “parents” would extract and burn those memories so that anything relating to basilisks was wiped from his mind. Because basilisks need magic as a source of food, he has to drink specially made elixirs - similar to the owl beast one in a sense, because it also allows him to keep his witch disguise. As he got older, his transformations were less frequent and he can hold his witch form without any issue.

Even though basilisks are considered a type of beast demon, since they *are* able to use a very specific kind of magic, I think it’s possible they might have a bile sac as well. In Adrian’s case, obviously his magic is very weak (maybe because he consumes magic through potions instead of a stronger source?), so that’s why he was thrown into the illusion track. It would be easy enough to fake his abilities, plus illusionists are already seen as the “weakest” of the covens so he fits right in.

Also the show already established that it is possible to restore memories that were destroyed, so Adrian’s breakdown during Labyrinth Runners? Everything about his existence as a basilisk came flooding back, his entire identity turned out to be a lie, of course it would hit him hard!!

[fionarara]

still randomly remembering that one time i attended the creator of Minecraft's annual house party even though i've never even played that video game lmao and after getting to watch Skrillex dj in such an intimate setting (surreal), we all hung out and he had like a harem of cute girls surrounding him on the couch, haha it seemed super platonic though and he was really respectful,,, literally he was so kind to me and everyone,, by far the nicest celeb i've ever met besides elijah wood.

[anemoflower]

So I'm reading the De.tective Co.nan mangas and why are all the guys so damn cool?!

I think I used to have a crush on both Shi.nichi and Hei.ji... I still like them a lot but I won't f/o them because I ship them with their canon LI's (and looking at it now they're younger than me so that's a big NO)

BUT- BUT THERE'S HIM

Shu.ichi Ak.ai (yes I need to show him to you)

He's SO?? SO COOL?

The funny thing is in the first chapters he appears in, you think he's one of the bad guys and super creepy and later BOOM -plot twist- He's one of the good guys, he works at the FBI and is one of their best sn.ipers!!

[hwiyoungies]

sometimes i feel so inadequate in the way i like my biases because i can never properly express why i like them, and i know we all express and feel things in different ways and liking someone in a different way than another person does doesn't make whatever you feel less. but i can't help feeling like that when whenever someone asks me why i like someone i respond with i just do, instead of an articulate response that fully conveys whatever they mean to me, or like nothing that i do is Enough so i simply don't do things. i know this is all very silly in a sense? because they're all just some guys and gals we all like and there is no correct way of supporting or liking them, but sometimes i just feel like screaming HEEEY hey i love this person just as much as blank does i just don't know how to express myself about it please don't forget i like them

[elliebartlets]

i am such a fucking negative person.

my friend texted our group saying she got engaged (!?!) and my brain immediately went “wtf?!? they haven’t even been dating that long! i think they’ve only been dating for like a year. I mean good for her she’s a great person and has always wanted to get married but…why would you do that? i hope it lasts but will it? most marriages don’t last cause people change and/or don’t know how to communicate and if they do last they aren’t usually good marriages and they usually don’t like each other the majority of the time. I truly don’t get it. I hope it lasts tho. Ok I should text her and act positive.”