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Me: *on the phone with my mother* Yeah God has me in a holding pattern right now so I'm just chilling.
*two days later* Stuff Starts Happening
Which. Don't get me wrong. It's good stuff and stuff I've been praying for for awhile now but also... it is going to be Tiring and Inconvenient to deal with and the holding pattern the boys and I have been in has been remarkably comfortable, actually, and I am reluctant to face the exertion and weariness that the process of this Stuff is going to require and...
Anyway, don't mind me, just complaining about blessings again. XP
(I'm just. I already know good and well that I am going to be Tired for the next few months. Really really Tired. Even with trusting and praying it's still going to take mental and physical energy and also concern for my children and it's just. Gack.)
(Actually maybe I need to be praying that I will soon meet a dependable, trustworthy babysitter so that my children can get to know and trust them before the impending periods of hours of separation. And yeah yeah "Bri just hours?" but keep in mind my children have never been separated from me except once, my eldest stayed with my in-laws while I was in the hospital giving birth to my second son and that Did Not Go Well. Indeed my youngest never even experienced the usual separation anxiety phase that happens around a year old because he has never been without me.
Add to that that we don't actually know ANYONE in the area. Like at all. Except my mother, who is currently without transportation and who I don't... fully... trust to watch my kids for like... four hours. Or longer.
Anyway this has been weighing on me and I don't know why it hasn't occurred to me to pray about it before.)
On another note, when the CPS dude visited today he asked if we were going to be okay (re: my husband no longer providing any financial support at all) and I said yes, because we have no other choice but to be, and we just sort of looked at each other. But I didn't come off as worried because even though I know already that next month is going to be challenging, I also have full trust that God has not brought us this far just to drop us now. Just because I don't know yet what He has planned doesn't mean He doesn't have a plan and also I think I've maybe gotten a glimpse at it? Little bitty glimpse? Just takes a certain amount of effort on my part.
...yes I'm a bit lazy. XP
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So you know how that girl, Ali, crawled out of her window and then got stuck on the ledge outside her apartment? And how Dick raced up there to save her? And how she started to fall but Dick caught her? And how Ali was so amazed by Dick that she said maybe she could be a Lady Nightwing when she was older?
The New Titans #71
Yeah. I just think it would be fun if she actually committed to that and started learning parkour as a way to get over her fear of heights. Then she'd get some experience in martial arts as a way to protect her little brother from their abusive dad. Her whole thing would be acquiring new skills as a way to prevent herself from feeling stuck and helpless. The very idea of not being prepared would give her anxiety.
She would eventually cross paths with Dick again, and after a series of events, Dick would take her on as another one of his protégés. Thus, Ladywing would be born.
No but listen. Ali would have a fear of being unprepared, and Dick is always prepared, so I feel like Dick could not only teach her how to be prepared for a multitude of situations, he could also teach her how to use the things around to her advantage in case she ever was unprepared. She needs a battery but doesn't have one? Dick will teach how to make a battery with a potato. She needs a weapon but doesn't have one? Dick will teach her that anything can be used as a weapon.
See? Fun!
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The brightest colors make the deadliest poisons
When the Batman first took to the streets of Gotham, the city didn’t really notice. He was a legend, a myth, a story whispered from criminal to criminal in the dark in warning. Given how tightly he managed his presence, one would think he preferred it that way.
However, it was hard to hide when Robin hit the scene a few years later. For many reasons.
“Take that!” Robin shouted, gleefully taking down a band of thugs. They fired shot after shot at the bird but didn’t come close to hitting them. “Too slow!” Was exclaimed mid-somersault before the last man was taken down. The child preened, small, booted foot resting proudly atop a thoroughly beaten man’s head.
“Tell all your friends, Robin the Girl Wonder shouldn’t be messed with,” the young girl grinned. She shook her head causing her ponytail and bright green ribbon holding it up to dance with the motion.
“Lil bitch,” one of the men grunted on the floor near her. Robin’s grin faltered a bit. “Getcha next time, cut you up for scraps.” Across the room, Batman looked up and narrowed his eyes at the man threatening his partner. He’d been looking through some of the documents left behind but some things were more important. He’d just need to be faster next time.
“Like I said,” Robin said, walking over to fallen man and stomping her petite but steel lined boots onto his fingers. The man yelped and tried to pull away but she held them firm. “Tell your friends,” she grinned and it was sharp. “Robins aren’t to be messed with.”
People thought it would pass. The bright colors, the sidekick, the girl. It was a publicity stunt or some deranged part of his neurosis. Politicians railed against Robin, about protecting the children, the little girls, from such violence. The police brushed her off whenever Batman and his ditsy little sidekick were brought up. The criminals laughed and made crude remarks in dark places. But all of those complaints and jibes were made far away from the girl.
It was hard to laugh to her face when she was busy punching yours in.
Soon it became clear to Gotham that Robin was here to stay and she was not going to be quiet about it. She made friends with street vendors and passed along candy to kids in the street and walked home anyone feeling vulnerable. Robin was a beautiful flower, blossoming under the moonlight into a young woman. But while the flower was pretty her thorns were poison.
Criminals stopped laughing after a while, after another raid, another sentence served, another bone broken and another flimsy pride humiliated. Soon people were scattering at the sight of a yellow cape and red tunic just as much as the fearsome cowl. Her punches were weighted, her acrobatics terrifying and her sharp wit left Gotham’s underworld scrambling while the city’s young daughter stood tall and proud. Crime fighting wasn’t a boy’s or even an adult’s club anymore, Robin saw to that. Her very existence was a revelation and a revolution wrapped into one.
But then, one day, she was gone. Off to New York with a new team and a new costume leaving Gotham with a void. But voids have a way of being filled.
Just a few years later, there was another girl running alongside Batman in a bright cheery costume. She was younger than Nightwing, uniform tailored a bit different with shorter, cropped hair. Her accent, however, was distinctly from the Alley. There wasn’t much laughing at this one, she was just as formidable as the last. She loved the chili dogs on 8th and Finger, she quoted books at the thugs she fought and was so vocal and forceful about cleaning up the worst of the city. Boys and girls alike listened with rapt attention to the promises and demands this new Robin with her thick accent and bright colors had for Gotham.
Batman was a hero, one who’d pulled their city back from the brink. Robin was helping to lift it up. There’d been a marked increase in young girls attending martial arts classes and gymnastics when the first Robin first appeared. Once the second Robin appeared, more girls started joining debate clubs and running for political positions. One can assume the young lady would have been proud of her influence, had she lived long enough to appreciate it.
When news of Robin’s death hit the streets, the magical air that seemed to trail around Batman’s bright sidekick faded. ‘Of course it was bound to happen,’ people would mumble. ‘A young girl like that? Fighting criminals? It’s just not right.’ Boys on the playground started mocking the girls clinging to their homemade Robin costumes. Batman took to the streets without a partner, darker and meaner than ever before. For the first time in years, Gotham was without it’s light.
Until it came back. And once more people laughed. The previous Robin had been small but stocky with a mean right hook. This new one was smaller, slighter with a pretty, delicate face. She wouldn’t last long, people huffed to themselves. She’d better turn in the cape before she hurt herself. And then Robin number three took down the Joker all alone without the Batman in sight. And once more the laughing stopped. This Robin was smaller than the others but she was just as vicious and hit just as hard.
It wasn’t unusual to see this Robin running patrols on her own, facing criminals without backup. She had a team outside of Gotham and her own rogues gallery separate from her mentor. People, especially the citizens of Crime Alley, still lit candles for the second bird but this new one wasn’t bad. Nightwing started returning to Gotham more, now a woman in her own right. Hers was the only laughter that rang out the nights she took to the streets with Batman and Robin. Her kicks were deadly and her barbs sharp enough to gut a man as she reminded Robin III just whose footsteps she was following.
This Robin lasted years, saved many lives and averted countless disasters. She went away for a short while, replaced temporarily by a young man in the iconic suit which confused everyone before returning. Then one day, like the two before her, she was gone and another stepped into her place. Along with their Batman. When Batman showed up to the rooftop of the GCPD with a woman’s build and familiar voice, there was no illusion over who had taken the icon’s place. Her new Robin, though, was a mystery.
This Robin was young, as young as Nightwing when she first started. She did not smile or laugh or joke like those before her. This Robin had a sword at her side and was looking for any excuse to use it. She moved like death, her attacks swift and cruel that had the new Batman being forced to reel her back. Criminals didn’t hesitate to run from this Robin who seemed quite eager to build a body count in Gotham. But time tempers even the sharpest of stones and soon the young lady settled into her role, not just as fighter, a warrior but also a beacon in the Gotham gloom. She was brusque with civilians and rude to just about every one she spoke to but Gotham embraced this bird none the less. And when Batman returned through some miracle means, the new Robin took to the skies with him.
Many other joined Batman’s fight for Gotham. The three Batboys, the mysterious Oracle, the Spoiler even the daytime hero Signal with her vivacious personality outmatched only by her yellow suit. But the Robins remain something special to Gotham, a symbol that can be beaten and buried but never killed. Some say that second Robin rose again and even now stalked the streets of Gotham, searching for the justice she was denied. The birds will chitter together on patrol, a proud but exhausted father watching them. They were his joy and his light which he had graciously shared with the city he loved. And the city loved them in return.
Girl power meant something different to Gotham.
A girl is not just a pretty face or a coy smile. She is the shock of feet hitting the rough pavement before a jump. She is smiles and tingling laughter and playful dancing with Batman’s cape beneath the moonlight. She is the smell of leather and grease, blood and sweat with a hint of scented body lotion beneath it all. She is brightly colored lipsticks and color stained hair and ribbons to keep wayward strands at bay. She is justice and vengeance and mercy and hope and joy. She is a father’s love, his grief, his pride, his legacy. She is poison to the evils of the world and a bright light to those who need it.
What is a girl, a vigilante but a pile of beautiful, incongruous things? What is a Robin but a harbinger of good will wrapped in sharp wings and tearing talons?
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"What if we call it Akina?"
My parents bought a robotic vacuum cleaner. They're getting on in age, so it's a good addition to the household. It and I met last week, so I asked what its name was. Turned out they'd just named it after our family name. Boring. "It needs a name," I said.
Today my dad says unprompted, "I think we need to give it a different name. Our last name is a bit stupid." My mum says it's fine, but I agree. I'm drawing a blank, though, until my dad suggests the perfect name.
"What if we call it Akina?"
I like to think he's been pondering on this for two weeks.
In the early 2000s, my parents bought a GPS system for the car. I dubbed her 'Akina'. She was named for an AI system in a space ship in the Yoko Tsuno comic album series that I'm still obsessed with twenty years later.
It stuck. When my parents were going anywhere new, we'd say, "Don't forget Akina." "Akina will guide you." "Where is Akina?" I was sad when new cars with built-in GPS systems replaced the old ones. I always kind of felt like she was my baby.
I've missed Akina. I'm glad she's back.
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