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kitsune-kaos · 2 years

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Had an interview today at a comic store I was really excited for, and they already got back to me and I didn’t get it 😞

#bummed #sad #disappointed #I thought it went really well #but oh well.

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its-just-the-chemicals · 1 year

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Didnt get the job i was banking on. im gonna go light myself on fire

#i thought it went really well #this was my way out #i hate myself

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dreadark · 12 days

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that ivan loves till is the most obvious thing about them

but. does ivan know that…?

the ivan that regards his own feelings as shallow, the ivan that learned how emotions are expressed only from copying others… does he even know that the love he’s felt for so long is love? probably not. and part of the reason is the one he loves himself

because the easiest example he has of love is till's feelings to mizi. till outright calls it love, and ivan watches him so much he has to be aware of this and till’s love to mizi is totally unselfish, right. he doesn’t seem to actually want much from her—just that she's still there and still "mizi"

but ivan can't be satisfied with just watching he… wants. ivan wants till’s attention, till’s affection—

surely this selfish wanting can’t be love

...no wonder he was never able to express his feelings straightforwardly when he belittles them so much but he can’t stand not having anything either, so he does… whatever he does instead to get any scraps of attention he can, from someone he's convinced doesn't care about him at all only showing affection when till can't see it, right until he knows he's going to die

but ivan's feelings for till are all he still has of himself... to think of them as shallow...

I've seen this translated as "I should've been kinder" to him (till) or to her (sua)

but really, the one he should've been kinder to was himself

#alien stage #alnst #alnst ivan #ivantill #i have a lot of thoughts on till -> mizi too but this is long enough #just attempting to rewrite my twt rambles more coherently #idk why i wrote this so dramatically tho...#'thank you for being the victim of my shallow emotions' is going to haunt me to my grave #ivan's character is just a careful balance between his natural freak nature and his extreme depths of self-loathing #making him the most miserable guy ever #...really once you realize so much of what went wrong is thanks to ivan just hating himself too much to even think of them as friends. well #c...can we bring him back... don't die like this.....#(also you know. with the implications of how 'pets' are treated #wanting someone physically must feel... even more wrong

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 6 months

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Creative Hubris takes another unsuspecting victim.

#non mdzs #It's not even that many pages and I'm getting my ass kicked!#As much as I have been clawing at the walls - I have learned so much! This project pushed me more than I thought it would #I am so excited to share what I've made. I think its actually some of the best work I've ever done.#but I really do feel like I've stumbled back into the room covered in blood and holding a smoothie.#The issue being: at some point the sunken cost fallacy kicks in and you go:#'well I might as well put in extra polish since I've spent so much time on this already'#That's your EVIL BRAIN talking to you who wants you to live in EVIL COMICS LIMBO.#Sorry to my followers who miss the mdzs comics. I went mad at sea for a month and all I brought back was a short comic.#Posting my silly side doodles to bide me time as I continue to drink the sea water.#Set me free into the plains where the horses roam and I will be able to heal <3

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franky-y · 2 months

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Kiss Kiss 😘

#käärijä #häärijä #khäärijä #digital art #welcome back to another episode of:#things i'd never thought i'd draw lol #anyway i saw some people hoping jere and häärijä would post a photo of them kissing on onlyfans for valentines day #well they didn't #so i just went and drew it lmao #this ended up more detailed than i originally intended it to be #and it was honestly a bit weird to draw this at first ngl lol #(also i didn't really use references so if something looks weird please ignore it haha)

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silver-horse · 3 months

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dollsome-does-tumblr · 11 months

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someone please stop me from thinking, from ruminating, from brooding about ted finding michelle crying at the window about how every day she hopes she’ll feel like she did at the beginning vs. rebecca constantly crying from how much she loves ted and wants him to stay and wants him to know she wants him to stay in every damn scene they share in this finale

#like. damn. ted lasso you just really lost the woman for you.#and i get it being worth the sacrifice for your kid #but jesus #now she's going to live happily ever after with your tall bald dutch doppelganger #and you just have to live with that #and it's worth it #for henry and for home #but you will always know what you left behind #the one begging you not to go when originally you went there because your wife was begging you to go #i'm not well forever #dollsome's deep thoughts #ted x rebecca #tedbecca #ted lasso spoilers #ted lasso

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tenshi-agerasia · 5 days

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new enstars characters (nice + 4piece) as tbh/autism creatures ◕_◕ also i color picked them and recolored some pride flags because i can

fuyume -> bigender

ibuki -> nonbinary

esu -> transmasc

raika -> aroace

kanna -> agender

#enstars #i spent way too much time and energy on this #nice arneb thunder #loser name for a loser man #classic rant in the tags let's go #i really hope one of 4piece is genderqueer #favorite character is kanna so far #mr nice guy really went to a middle school chess tournament saw kanna and asked if he wanted to be an idol #esu is just like me fr #gives me so much transmasc energy yk #the big ugly jacket #kind of looks like the sports survivors card #...i'm gonna make the esu tbh and the esu transmasc flag into a pinback button #im ngl i thought 4piece was going to be like a 4chan unit #ensemble stars #long post #enstars fanart #hand crafted sillies #wait no i had another tag #hand-crafted funnies #i think?#hanamura fuyume #taki ibuki #sagiri esu #hojo raika #natsu kanna #4piece #4piece enstars #ensemble stars fanart #i can't see if i tagged that already or not oh well

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lunarharp · 18 days

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shirahama-sensei reminded me she has a thing for the teacher from pokemon s/v so i randomly went off on an au where qifrey is the professor. etc

#witch hat tag #orufrey #the first image is qifrey dressed as that guy. i'm glad she has an inexplicable attachment to some dorky pokemon man like i do #someone was like 'wouldn't it make more sense for deanreldea to be the champion' .... well no. not in my world .#it maps onto magic skill. champions aren't like the Rulers of the land they're just the most skilled at this thing #oru as a burnt out champion who's gently encouraging a kid like coco to reach him one day means a lot to me. i like pokemon narratives #agott went shiny hunting for the same thing coco had but cooler - just to impress her. she really is a pokemon rival type girl #pushing myself to the limit to prove my worth to you - to get to the summit first so i'm waiting for you..#and then realising it wasn't just to be strong - i realised i started wanting to see your smile. i wanted you to have fun.#i think coco would defeat agott at the end of victory road and then defeat oru & i'll probably draw one last thing abt that at least..#the image is very cinematic..the dialogue and music in my mind..I WANT TO FACE ORU!!!!!!!!!!#the super cool insanely powerful awesome champion is the spouse of my professor and he gave me advice at the beginning...no way....#btw the elite four would be the sages which is perfect (and maybe easthies as the first guy?) evil Team Brimhats #coustas as their renegade gladion-type figure. the gym leaders would be like sun/moon and s/v combined #travelling around facing the best students from different classes - so jujy and eunie etc.#i've barely thought about 'teams' or anything bc i care amore about the narrative side of things always lol #but idk. tetia with a swirlix - eunie would be ghost type boy - riche with small things but also a ceruledge or a steelix something massiv #and brushbug would have a final form which is really long like an eastern dragon- fluffy and with wings like a fairy. It's beautiful to me #well anyway *tries to move on to the rest of life now the brief obsession has passed*#obviously oru would be fire-type tho and qifrey would be water-type and they set off together and traded their starters etc.....it goes on

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a-sleepy-speck · 2 months

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Can I offer you in this trying times: Dream singing and humming

#like you really can tall that he took singing lessons #and I went back so many times just to watch this little fragment that I thought might as well clip it

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xlillyle · 2 months

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"We can delay the mission for another two minutes."

#crossposting from twitter #i really liked the post and i am obsessed with my own answer for it #so im posting it here too #first i wanted to use the i used corruption because i trusted you line #or of course you used corruption believing in me is a classic too #someone else did the latter already though on twt #anyways i ended up remembering this moment and went insane and posted it #wdym Dazai canonically said the end of the world can wait two minutes #just so Chuuya can have a real CHOICE #and he planned for an alternative too!! or well he was trying to #because he wanted to give him a REAL CHOICE #thinking about the lovecraft chapter and chuuya saying whenever Dazai says its his choice its not actually his #stopped typing here bc i went to discuss with Ray my thoughts about if Dazai leaves him a genuine choice every time and if Chuuya knows #came to the conclusion that Chuuya thinks its the illusion of a choice even though it isnt #the backup plan might be crazy and not as successful as a corruption plan would be but Dazai for sure always has one #nobody can convince me otherwise #uh ok this was a lot of rambling coughs #bungou stray dogs #soukoku #skk #dazai osamu #bsd #chuuya nakahara #bsd skk #bsd dazai #bsd chuuya #bsd stormbringer #xlillyle bsd threads

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rushinintolove · 10 days

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#doctor who #doctorwhoedit #tenrose #myvids #about halfway through this edit i realized just HOW FUCKING LONG the section of the song that i wanted to edit to was shgadjkf #anyway here it is!!!!!!! the lyrics are so insanely doctor/rose i-#i love how well the shot of the doctor running towards rose and their hug at the end of idiot's lantern went together #and to make it more cohesive i thought the shots of tenrose running -> ninerose running also went well together <3 #also i really liked the rose/beige gradient that i ended up with on the christmas invasion shots and so then i tried to make the rest of th #scenes match that vibe #(mostly. the scene with donna and the on of the doctor after the last gap closes i wanted to look less glowy/dream so ! yeah !)

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alpacacare-archive · 6 months

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inside you there are two wolfs

#repostober #day 19 #undertale #alphys #gaster #wd gaster #ive given you old man gaster & alphys father daughter friendship dynamic #now its time for same age group queer nerd coworker besties #this was inspired by a con i went to #when i was there i couldnt help but notice two prominent kinds of people #cosplayers/anime fans dressed in cutesy merch and clothes(/positive)#and gamer nerds who were also dressed in merch and pins of games they liked (/positive)#and i also couldnt help but notice that its them #they are in fact discussing an anime they watched and with them both being academics i can only assume that every argument is extremely #detailed well thought out and informed. id like to believe that they sometimes site sources. aloud.#details i love in this are alphys painting her tail to look like mewmews for her cosplay i just think its cute hdfks #you can pry aroace gaster out of my cold dead hands that man made his children in tubes i just know it #also i shouldve drawn him wearing portal merch i almost wanna redraw this just for that #actually i really wanna redraw this i think. i wont rn (i am so. tired) but i feel enough anger at gaster not wearing #an aperture science t shirt that it might make me draw again

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qqueenofhades · 2 months

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I am now being actively courted by TWO master's programs at the university. Terrible dilemma, etc.

#hilary for ts #school stuff #i went to get information from the first program #and they were like “this looks like a great fit and you'll definitely be admitted please apply”#then today the chair of the new program i am managing pulled me into her office specifically to recruit me #“have you considered doing a degree in this because you seem like you would be great at it”#me: well hmm. yes potentially. the thought has crossed my mind. tempt me not (jk tempt me more)#idk man this whole “free master's degree” thing really has satan working hard for this one #(yes i briefly did consider if i could maybe do them both. this is obviously an insane idea. i will not do that. probably.)

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skunkes · 5 months

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i have soooo much more i cld say abt him, and have explored more thru other doodles, but quick summary of talon's whole deal, which is subject to change still as he's only almost 2 yrs old as an oc

#oc text #obvs sparse description of the events bc i dont mean for it to be gratuitous #even if i decided to explore it further in some medium the focus wouldnt be gratuitous ykwim #not that there werent awful stuff within that but my focus with talon is also more exploration of like #even stuff that isnt a big deal (which it wasnt at first) can effect someone greatly #and then once it does get a bit worse the focus is still more on the effects of how he views himself and the aftermath #AS WELL AS LIKE. well. did i do this to myself? i went back. do i deserve this?#he's a lot like me and the reason i like the self insert dynamic is bc he thinks of cheye as Me If It Didnt All Go Horribly #bc ive not gone thru the Extreme but i have had interactions with ppl who very enthusiastically thought i was ummmm underage!!!#while they were already being creepy toward me and making me nervous abt my safety !#so this isnt ''he's umm 400 but looks 12 bc i want to do weird shit with him 😏'' dude drawing him Fed makes me so sad sometimes...#we're also weird eating buddies <3 #and grief buddies <3 he actually further spawned out of my need to deal with a lot of family members passing away in such a short time #severe death phobia buddies...#i still dont know how he really feels about his Old Wrinkly Form btw all i know is he feels safe in it #as much as id love to sway toward ''he thinks he's hot like that. because he is.'' i also dont want to convey the wrong message wrt this #form being due to....disordered eating caused by Issues. ykwim #though! he can shapeshift quite well when he's fed and maybe he'd choose that form willingly if he ever got. Past everything #he does hate that he never gets to actually age...! he wishes he cld age normally like a mortal...(still scared of dying though)#but we cant knoww for certain yet ykwim. maybe he'll let me know soon.#my issue with talon other than i suck at plots is well he has too many of my issues. and. idk how to solve them.#he's growing with me.#oh and have we noticed he's mean to me when *im* being mean to me...MANY such metaphors #ok goodnite

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livelovelaughlin · 3 months

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Thinking about how even though Hawk got everything he wanted (or was told to want) the career, a wife and kids, money, success, he still ended up unfulfilled (“That sounds really empty.”) because he spent so long hiding himself in order to achieve success and keep himself safe.

Conversely, even though Tim had the safety of concealment where it concerned working in government ripped from him, essentially losing his career, and came out at a time when the social and political landscapes of America never ensured queer safety, and I’m sure, at certain points made his life harder, he still lived a life that was happy and fulfilled, for a lot of reasons, yes, but I’d argue mainly because he didn’t have to hide anymore

Obviously the two characters work romantically but narratively they also foil each other so interestingly and so WELL. Hawk got everything he wanted!!! It wasn’t enough!!!!!!!!!! Tim lost a lot!!! But he also stood up for something larger than himself and got to live his life openly!!! He didn’t have to hide! He was Happy!!!

#to the shows advantage as a period piece it doesn’t necessarily frame either of their lives as more right or wrong than the other #I think something it highlights really well is all the different ways queer people went about life during the different periods of history #which is something we don’t see enough of!!! it’s important history!!!#if you read this I applaud you <3 #I have a lot of thoughts + feelings about this show #fellow travelers #hawkins fuller #tim laughlin

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