#I understand her

[cupidarrow10]

[demilypyro]

[ultra-raging-ghost]

God i agree with bad but its hard to explain it to someone who hasnt experienced that kinda thing firsthand at some point hes gonna have to let her fuck around and find out, and risk her own cookies in a communal thing tbh

[wzymerph]

Other little drawing that I’ve made, I think that Niffty’s only use of modern technology is to read and write fanfictions

But I feel like it would be on a very old computer, on windows vista or something

[awesamforehead]

Jerma’s used tissue for $14 vs Hasan’s used sock for $900

[incorrectsinnohquotes]

Johanna: History repeats itself every five days, it’s fine.

[killerwithknife]

was pacing around the gym in agony when I noticed someone left their cd with “Female (but like the word for Female animals we use in Swedish. not derogatory just the scientific term) Divorce”. shouts out to whoever owns that

[anotherrosesthatfell]

Can we have a ranking of the IQ of all the E.L.A characters please?

(i know I sound repetitive but I’m always scared to be a burden-)

Okii, dw you're not a burden. Also the God of Sun, Goddess of moon and God of death (Reaper & Goth) will not be count in this (same goes with what if au-) (yes Core also is not count in this-)

Frieda - 300 IQ

Lux - 290 IQ (the reason why she keep on winning 💀)

Cross - 289 IQ (like father like daughter they said- unfortunately those two are dumb at figuring out they are related)

Passivemare - 280 IQ (mf is smarter than his mom 💀)

Swap - 279 IQ (bro literally make his own money after retiring-)

Nim -270 IQ (but she's lazy to use her brain 💀)

Quetzalcoatl - 269 IQ (reason why he keep on beefing with Nim)

Hope - 268 IQ (they lived long enough to learn many things-)

Dream - 268 IQ (at least Nim provided him a proper education)

Drop - 267 IQ (She makes her own money at 10- Even have her own game company and she learns coding by just YouTube and books-)

Merciless - 260 IQ (he writes 10 novels and makes his own money and he didn't even received a proper education but still success in life-

Alphonse - 230 IQ (I mean that's pretty impressive considering he used to be a commoner-)

Error - 229 IQ

Lanny - 225 IQ (and she is the most responsible among the trio-)

Crescent - 210 IQ (we don't question how he is smart despite not going to school and skipping his lessons-)

Angst - 200 IQ (if he was still alive, he is the same like Lux)

Palette - 180 IQ (I mean his IQ will increase everytime he died but in first timeline, that was his IQ-)

Dust - 150 IQ (smart enough to control her urge to kill)

Geno - 130 IQ

Horror - 120 IQ (due to brain damage)

Killer - 110 IQ (due to her poor mental health-)

Ink - 104 IQ (considering Ink is an Asian, she's a disgrace to her family.)

[vniicebitch]

Hey,

I just finished writing you a long letter, catching you up on how I’ve been. It ended neatly, tied with a little bow. I chose my words well, but I didn’t tell the truth. So I’m starting again, gonna type and not look back, and send what comes out.

I’m living with heartbreak again. It’s different but the same. I ache all the time, I forget why and then remember. I’m not trying to hide from the pain, I understand now that pain isn’t something to hide from, that there’s actually great beauty in moving with it. But sometimes I’m sick of being with myself. I eat chocolate to try and manipulate the endorphins, bring back the sweet happiness of Easter morning. I sit in the time machine and wait for it to move, but it hasn’t been invented yet.

My body is really inflamed, it’s trying to tell me something and I’m trying to support it but nothing seems to help and I get frustrated. My gut isn’t working properly, my skin is worse than ever, I’ve gotten sick half a dozen times. I realised earlier this year that listening to my body is hard for me, it’s something I never really learned how to do. I’ve been trying to teach myself that this year, but it’s been hard actually, pretty confronting, has made me fully aware of all the times I ignored it or didn’t give it what it needed, shamed it for a fight or flight response, took a handful of pills and pushed through.

[…]

I go online and look at everyone. Beautiful people sing to me. Everyone’s gotten really good at the same thing. I look at arched backs and wet flower mouths, the right bag, the right sunglasses. I wonder if it feels as good as it looks, it’s been so long since I chose the best picture from a hundred, lined it up like pulling an arrow taut in a bow, and let it go. Everyone looks very thin. Just thinking that makes me feel tired and far away. I’m not sure if it’s having an effect on anyone else. I keep spending money, wondering if what’s in the package will make me feel right, but I guess I buy the wrong things.

[…]

Earlier this year, I ate two handfuls of mushrooms, solid doses that tasted like green dirt. I got a lot of information about what my body had been through in our time so far, what it needed, where God was and where God wasn’t; I felt in my bones how destabilising it is to leave home and start a new life the way I did. I also saw that my body is completely magnificent, and that hating it is as futile as hating a tree; that I truly, truly love doing my job, and that my life is like a beautiful tapestry, and every inch of it is precious and has meaning.

It might seem funny or be easy to forget, but I make records because I need to. The songs are spells; a spell to let go of something, a spell to unlock a door. Every time I put something into words just as I see it, set it to the right music, a knot comes loose in me. But it hurts too, confronting the knots. I’ve made enough records to know that this feeling of my skin coming off is part of it. I know I’m gonna look back on this year with fondness and a bit of awe, knowing it was the year that locked everything into place, the year that transitioned me from my childhood working decade to the one that comes next — one that even through all this, I’m so excited for. It’s just hard when you’re in it.

[…]

Hope you’re taking care of yourself. Don’t worry about me, I still laugh every day, it’s all moving, even when it goes slow. I’ve accepted the mission — I have a self to recover.

Speak soon,

E

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— lorde’s most recent newsletter. 09.21. 12:40 am.

[rpfisfine]

literally me these past few weeks but with bg3 instead

[cina-full-moon-xanadium]

she's a normal girl

[darkne1tart-moved]

I understand her very much😔

[sapphicmcmean]

i am bianca di angelos number one fan stan lover etc etc etc

[tedhead]

me and barbara have a spiritual bond

[eternallydreaminggf]

"But still I'm afraid to tell her of my fantasies and my nightmares; sometimes she's good at understanding, other times she just giggles, and I don't have the nerve to ask why things like that are funny to her. So I feel badly again and shut up about it for a long time. I love Donna very much, but sometimes I worry that she wouldn't be around me at all if she knew what my insides were like."

literally

[kubrick4ever]

I was living in another fantasy

An omen-

It's just how I did things-

It's how I learned to control my life-

One fantasy after another-one dissolves, another appears