#I will absolutely be drawing her more to try and figure her out hehe

[inumbrapugnabimus-maybe]

Behold some very messy sketches of @margindoodles2407’s Star Wars High Fantasy AU Ahsoka design!!!!

[kroosluvr]

Ive been wondering lately, how would have P5 played out if Kasumi had failed to save Sumire. For all the times Sumi says or feels that Kasumi would be able to still succeed at Gymnastics and life through the pain, and wouldnt need as much help as she need...i feel like Kasumi would have been fucking destroyed emotionally.

Would she have really been able to move on more quicly like Sumire felt? Would she end up asking a similar wish as Sumire if she went to Maruki's counseling? Would she become friends with Joker and the Thieves like Sumi did?

You have such a deep understanting of Sumi, im curious to hear your thoughts on the other Yoshizawa

OMFGGG this is such a good concept.... i havent tried to get into kasumi's head that much but off the top of my head:

(under the cut bc its a bit long)

kasumi's love for gymnastics, surface-level, seems to run much deeper than sumire's love for it. i interpret sumire's love for gymnastics as more like "its because i did it with my sister that i really enjoyed/loved it" so since that was the main factor, when kasumi died, sumire drifted away from the sport (also due to traumatic factors but like yeah)

so i think, opposite to sumire, she would throw herself TENFOLD into the sport, and be more grating to herself if she failed: kind of pinning her entire identity on the sport (the way sumire did prior to her death) and basically she invests all of her time into gymnastics, because of the guilt and distress and sadness she feels, maybe if she's at the top-of-the-top, she can figure it out more.

SO LIKE she didn't move on any better than sumire did but she deals with it in an opposite way (in my headcanon)

thinking about it.. i don't think kasumi would wish to become sumire, but maybe she'd allude to something (i.e. i'm trying to become the best gymnast in the world but this guilt and sadness is holding me back) that maruki would take as "oh maybe if u forgot about sumire u'd be better off"

so that's something that's Just As horrific and jarring as literally becoming your dead sister, and it'd lead to like interesting moments like (interview) "so kasumi how are you coping with the loss of your sister" "ah, if you're talking about the loss of my latest competition, i just had a few mistakes with thsi apparatus but i'll be back in tip-top shape for the next one!" optimistic to a fault.. she glazes over anything that doesn't fit Her Reality.... everything goes back to her gymnastics

and i think, because of maruki's "intervention", it works! kasumi suddenly does rocket up to the top in gymnastics! that's something that's absolutely terrifying to kasumi when the delusion breaks: was i really willing to give up the beloved memories of my sister just to get an edge in gymnastics? would i really give it all up? did i really think i'd be better off without her?

it'd def be interesting if she befriended the thieves!!! i think her boisterous sort of personality and her intense, almost overwhelming dedication to her sport...... that confidant w akira seems interesting..... i think, at least, her sudden "switch" in terms of gymnastics prowess would draw media attention (kind of like the opposite of a mental shutdown... goro akechi ON THE CASE///SHOT DEAD)

but no like fr that'd be interesting if goro had a sort of "confidant" with her, trying to get to the bottom of the case abt dr. maruki.....

SORRY IF THSI MAKES NO SENSE I LITESRALLY JUST THOGUHT THIS UP JUST NOW. HEHE THANK U FOR THE ASK!!!

[glitterpensupremacy]

Since I’m officially a year older now, I figured I’d share my growth as an artist with y’all. True GlitterPenSupremacy followers will know that I had to redesign my redesign (hehe) of Viperion, but he isn’t the first MTS character I didn’t nail on the first try. Here’s a few others that I had to reredesign (and a bit about why)

Art below the cut! ⬇️

This one is a special instance, since I technically haven’t redesigned her yet, but it’s an idea I had for a civilian Zoe design. Basically I don’t really like the colors anymore (and her proportions are off) so I’ll be reworking it. The final design will probably still go with the orange stars, but it’ll look different.

Of all the characters I’ve reredesigned, I think she was probably the most decent to begin with. Other than her features being a bit blurry, her biggest issue is that her costume is basically just a recolor of her Miracubug one (and while I do like that version of her design, it just doesn’t fit in with the MTS cast of character designs).

The OG Carapace design was me trying to make an intimidating character, but accidentally leaving him too bland looking. The fullbody suit and lack of hair just wasn’t doing it (plus he needed more variety in his color palette beyond shades of green).

I thought Ladybug was pretty good at the time, but when viewing her design (both on its own and in contrast to her partner), it definitely needed more. Adding another shade of red (and the cute little neon clovers) was absolutely necessary.

Yeah his color scheme and details are kinda lame in comparison to modern MTS designs, and his hair also feels a bit basic, but let’s be real, the biggest offender, (BY FAR) was his proportions. Like who is that??? Certainly not Ivan! I had to fix his shape so it actually looked like the character.

Polymouse had a lot of the same issues as Minotaurox. Mid detailing, generic color scheme (especially with Pigment around: Mylene needed more than just pink, grey, and white), an uninspired hairstyle, and most importantly WHY DOES SHE LOOK LIKE THAT?!?!?! She needed her proportions fixed to match her actual body type.

Other than her eyes needing to be pink like Daizzi’s, the general vibe I was going for with Pigment changed, and I needed to give her a new costume to reflect that. (This design is decent, but not MTS-worthy and doesn’t really show what kind of hero Pigment is.)

This is a pretty old design (made in ‘22!) so there were a lot of things I needed to rework. I’d say the main thing was Greyhound’s personality changing from his initial design. When I first conceptualized Greyhound MTS, I kinda figured he’d have the same personality as Felix, just being a superhero (and maybe a tad less formal). Nowadays he’s a lot more of the sweet but shy puppy type (a lot of Felix’s softer and “not professional” emotions get repressed as a civilian, and kinda leak out as Greyhound). I needed his new design to represent that. Now he fits his power (he had the concept of Devotion and healing powers) and age (14) much better than his OG design.

My first ML design! You can see a lot about my skills and confidence from this drawing. I was heavily trying to mimic the Miracubug style (with Night Light’s design basically being ML Vesperia as a Firefly and also me altering all the pet peeves I had with VP’s design) despite that not really fitting my skills as an artist. Plus I just wasn’t as good at detailing back then. This is why the modern Night Light design is essentially just a glow-up of the old one (with the fluffier hair, baggier clothes, and black retinas being the main objectives of the design). I also got better at communicating personality through my designs (well, that, and I wasn’t too sure what NL’s personality would be at first). Like Greyhound, I think the newer design looks far more her age!

And that’s (probably) all of them! Hopefully this was interesting to y’all (and if it wasn’t, well, I’m gonna justify my self indulgence with the Birthday Card). I’ve actually got a new hero design or two in the works, so if you’re interested, keep your eyes peeled 👀

[ryuichirou]

Replies

Short replies! As many as I can write in 30 minutes! Let’s goooooooooo

Anonymous asked:

Deuce should have put a ring on his mom if he didn't want anyone to flirt with her. she's free for picking

Yeah, by the time Deuce figures it out there’s going to be a line of people who want to put a ring on his mom, and I stand in this line too.

Anonymous asked:

Which anime characters do you love drawing the most?

This is such a difficult question to answer, I can’t pick 😭 Pretty much every title that we watch or read or play has a bunch of characters that I adore drawing, but I guess I gravitate towards characters with long hair and unusual hairstyles or outfits?? I also feel the urge to try to draw a character when they are out of my comfort zone, which doesn’t mean that I always do it or good at it, but I always have fun drawing stuff in a different art style (like the guys from Scott Pilgrim),with complicated outfits (like Barok van Zieks) or with mechanic parts (like Ortho!)… but the last one is pretty recent, I just noticed that I kind of enjoy drawing it. I guess I love a challenge? In a way? It’s just more fun that way.

By my comfort type of character and a default option would be a gloomy boy/girl in a hoody, my heart is always smiling whenever I draw this type.

Examples of some of my faves throughout the years (without twst): Levi (SnK), Ainosuke (sk8), Killua (HxH), Shiroba (DMMD), Apollo Justice (AA), Geto (JJK)… this is just a few of them.

I also still think that Prussia from Hetalia is our ultimate boy because I’ve been drawing him for about 15 years now lol

Anonymous asked:

Omg, your boob post,bless u... What would Riddle think of her childhood friend having those honkers though?? (Also, her burying her face in those tits or fondling them with curiosity lol)

Ahh thank you so much, Anon!! <3

I still giggle every time I think about how we ended up with poor Riddle being surrounded by busty girls, I swear it wasn’t intentional. But the more I think about it, the funnier and more Freudian it gets… what an aggressive way to heal mommy issues and an acute deficiency of tight hugs.

To answer your question, I think Riddle was kind of surprised when she saw Trey after being separated because she didn’t think boobs could get that big. Logically yes, it makes sense, but seeing it in person is different. Riddle always does her best to be proper and act like a lady, but I can imagine her eyes sliding down all the time during their first conversation. Trey would absolutely notice…

Riddle is indeed very curious, and it’s pretty obvious, but she would never talk about it or even ask to touch Trey’s boobs, but maybe one day… you know, for science… or Trey is just going to offer it herself lol save that girl, Trey.

Honestly? If Riddle could just bury her face in Trey’s chest for a minute or two, I think a lot of her tantrums would just… not happen. She would be so calm…

Alright, now Trey owes this to humanity.

blackbutlerfandomnerddomain asked:

Why do I deeply headcanon Night Raven Collage have orgies? I kind of blame you

😭Look at us being the worst influence on this fandom LOL

Ironically, I don't think we ever talked about orgies and such?

NRC might have a secret student society for orgies though...

Anonymous asked:

Eric Venue can get it though 🥵

And he did! That’s how we got Vil 🥰

hipsterteller asked:

Have you seen Vil’s father?! And why do I get a feeling you might be putting him and Trein together?

Yes, we have! He looks great, and based on everything we’ve seen and heard so far (as always, we aren’t watching the event just yet), he is everything we wished and expected him to be, so I’m very satisfied hehe.

I don’t know about your feeling though, do you want us to? 👀 Is it because of another certain stylish young man?

We don’t know who we’re going to ship Papa Schoenheit with though, only time will tell…

Anonymous asked:

just wanted to say i absolutely adore your Ortho x Vil stuff!

Thank you so much, Anon!! <3 I am very happy that you love them!

Anonymous asked:

Do ya think Sebek has fantasies ab breeding Malleus

Kind of talked about it here!

But also in general, I feel like Sebek has all kinds of dreams about Malleus, like he wouldn’t dare to actively fantasise about it, but his mind keeps showing him so many naughty scenarios that he finds it very difficult to look at Malleus after that sometimes…

Anonymous asked:

Do you guys ever think about how Floyd would try to breed Riddle?

Because he probably didn't understand how human bodies work at first (was probably taught but got bored listening)

Floyd probably like : Where the baby bump?

Then Riddle would be like : Baby bump? I can't have babies -

*insert small sad Floyd in eel form here*

Awwww, poor eel, he was so sure that he found his mate 😔 Keep trying, buddy, maybe you’ll get him next time. Or the time after that. Basically, just keep mating with him until you change his entire anatomy lol

We haven’t really thought about this specific theme, but we did talk about Floyd being in heat and being all over Riddle, so at least there’s that!

Anonymous asked:

Hello!!  Iirc, you guys don't read the TWST mangas or light novel right?  There's a bit in the new 4-koma manga I'd thought you'd like: Rook, Leona, and Idia have to paint something and then make it move with magic.  Rook paints himself about to shoot an arrow that always aims at Leona.  Then the Rook in the painting comes to life and terrorizes the Savanaclaw students, so Leona smacks Painting!Rook with his canvas where P!Rook decides to stay.  Leona's okay with it cause it means he doesn't have to paint anything.  Idia's just there to judge I guess.

(new head canon, Leona's a pillow princess)

Hi Anon! Yeah, I heard that they’re making a 4-koma manga, and even though we don’t read any additional twst material, I really love that they’re making it! I love 4-komas, they’re silly lol

The one that you described is golden and pretty in-character; god poor Idia who had to witness all that lol I love that just running around and shooting beast boys is pretty much Rook’s entire essence…

It also makes sense that Leona would do something like this omg, paint your own picture you lazy bitch 😭

(also not a headcanon, Anon, this is 100% factual)

Anonymous asked:

I….That anon was….personally offended by a headcanon? I’m so confused…

(related to this reply)

Maybe?? I don’t know, but they weren’t rude about it or anything, so I hope it’s all good.

Anonymous asked:

Jade can gaslight me all he wants…

Don't encourage him, Anon... he is already very ill-behaved.

Anonymous asked:

Jinx from Arcane looks like Idia’s long lost sister.

Don't know much about her other than her design and some bits and pieces of her story, but Idia with two pigtails would look very cute.

[jamsouls]

it’s officially been a week since i started playing animal jam so for my first post on this blog (since actually deciding to use this url as a gaming blog lol) here’s a tour of my characters so far + the backstories i made for them :~D

jellyjoy (they/any) — my first + main character!! basically bear (from bear in the big blue house) but a magical anteater <3 i haven’t worked out much more of a backstory for them yet (which is surprising given that they’re my main) but i love them so so so soooo much

puppydove (she/her) — baby brachiosaur butterfly princess! she was my first ever prehistoric egg hatch :”~D i was gonna level her up enough to make her playable but… then i realized i don’t actually like the brachio avatar model LOL so she is staying put in her current form <3

redwhistle (she/it) — ruby tier polar bear!! she was a wind up toy teddy bear who got zapped w a ray that turned it sentient and gave it a permanent glow. i uhhhh splurged on her quite a bit bc the moment i saw her i fell in love but those saps were extremely well spent 🤪

the evenbeast (any except she/her) — an absolute CREATURE i love him so so so much. like look at those RIDICULOUSLY huge feet im so obsessed 😭😭😭 i LOVEEEE watching him run it makes me grin like an idiot. anyway the evenbeast is an ancient ghost monster thing from mount shiveer who haunts jamaa! im gonna try to draw it to get a better sense of their anatomy but basically the panda bear face is actually his mane (the t*rantula mask is his real face) and the two side spikes on the spiked collar are its ears hehe >:~D im rly proud of how they came out… i rly want to figure out how to use clothing items to make unusual creatures and this gave me a lot of confidence!

[illumiiiz]

heyy!! could you tell me about your killjoy selfship?? :D

HI!! <3 omg hi akfhabsakdn my whole body just perked up like a dog’s does when you say “walk” or “treat”

yes absolutely thank you so much for asking!!! truly I was never actually expecting someone to ask me abt that so I apologize for the late response; I had to organize my thoughts in a way that would actually make sense to other people lol. and I don’t know a ton of killjoy lore anyway so this may or may not make sense but!! oh well!!

soooo this is my killjoysona :DD I have yet to actually draw and color her properly but she’s basically me with cooler hair (she dyes it any time she can find new colors), better style, a dirt bike, and a ray gun. and a cooler boyfriend. her name’s Carbon Cavity. like I said she’s me but awesomer <3

here’s a sketch I did just for you + a picrew I made a while back (that’s as close as I could get w it lol but I really need to properly draw her soon,, aah)

anyways,, so the self ship part comes in when she’s dirt biking around and comes upon an old abandoned department store or something and is like, oh hey. I’ll just pop in there and raid some shit real quick. little did she know the Fab Four got there first and already figured out the building was all locked up so ghoul rigged up a bomb to blow the doors open and uh. had already taken cover for it to go off and it went off when she was like 50ft from the door 😀 so the four came back out and lo! a body on the ground! so they’re freaking the fuck out and she gets back up like wtf just happened?? and the four are like OH GOD ARE YOU OKAY and ofc she can’t hear a thing but her ears ringing bc a fucking bomb went off in her face basically so she ends up hanging around w them in the store til her ears stop ringing quite so much.

so she’s deaf in one ear from that lmao.

but anyhow she ends up following the four back to the diner cuz she’s just been going around crashing wherever anyway, might as well right? 🤷‍♀️ but turns out she’s cool and they’re cool and they all like each other so much she ended up never leaving hehe,, aaaand she liked fun ghoul the best <33 even tho she still brings up him blowing up a bomb practically in her face <333 (“I DIDNT FUCKING KNOW YOU WERE THERE!!”)

like she flirts by being mean (affectionately ofc) so originally she would just keep bringing up the bomb incident to ghoul to make fun of him kinda,, like she’d volunteer for first watch one night and he’s like no carbon you had it last night, I’ll take it this time it’s fine. and she’s all like “mmmm sorry bub I can’t hear ya that well… had this close encounter with some guy’s bomb going off, see? so I’m deaf in one ear now” and he’s just like 😑 … fuck you carbon. and she just giggles but she lets him take the watch anyway. but yeah so they mess with each other a lot and somewhere along the way they started doing it more for each other’s attention and less to be funny. AND on top of that she’s really affectionate (hugs the guys regularly, has sat in jet’s lap once in the trans am and in kobra’s once on a dare, and has fallen asleep on each of the four at least once), AND has to lean really close to them to hear them better sometimes bc yk. hearing problems. and they’re both kinda stupid so party, jet, and kobra literally figured out the other two liked each other soooooo long before the two even realized it lol.

anyways it all comes to fruition one night when they’re changing watches, carbon taking over from ghoul BUT ITS LIKE RLLY AWKWARD YK BC THEY’VE BOTH FIGURED OUT THEIR FEELINGS BY NOW BUT HAVENT FIGURED OUT THE OTHER PERSON’S,, LFHSKDJFJSK— so carbon heads out to wherever ghoul’s stationed and it’s like. she says hi and he says hey, and she kind of just expected him to hug her goodnight and go after that but he doesn’t so she sits with him in silence for a good while, sorta just waiting for him to go in to bed and also just trying to enjoy this rare alone time w him without overthinking it too much. eventually he scoots a little closer to her and puts his arm around her. she lays her head on his shoulder. still neither of them say anything for another ten minutes or so.

until finally she says, “ghoul?” it comes out quieter than she expected it to.

“hm.”

“you should go in and get some sleep, I’ll be fine out here.”

“mm, yeah… I guess you’re right.” and he nods a little but doesn’t take his arm away; she hasn’t lifted her head from his shoulder either.

another minute of silence. “you cold?”

she looks up at him. “sorry?”

he leans closer and repeats the question. she shakes her head ever so slightly and tries to ignore the way her heart skipped when he leaned down. “oh. no, I’m fine.” they haven’t broken eye contact since he first asked.

“you sure?” he says it quietly on purpose this time. when she inevitably inclined her head to have him say again, he leans in and kisses her cheek instead. (!!!!)

she pulls back slightly to look at him for barely a second, then leans in and kisses him proper !! aaaaaa -

eventually ghoul does go in and sleep :’) but not before a few more kisses and a very sweet confession discussion <3

and in the morning when they all get up, carbon hugs party, kobra, and jet good morning and she gets to ghoul and he kisses her instead <33 to which party goes FUCKING FINALLY YOU GUYS.. and kobra and jet exchange bets across the table,, alrjwkdjd

AAAND I’m gonna stop there bc I really need to go to bed but I really really wanted to answer this first akdhaksjak </3 thank you sm again for asking!!! this was so fun to ramble about :’D I could go on abt this forever probably so if you wanna hear more just lmk!! there are many antics in my brain I would loveee to talk abt sometime hehe

[citrus-cactus]

It's late night when i wrote this and sent this ask but... On a convo with a friend about Wallace and how he would've flirted with Hikari if they had met early in HT movie led into Kizuna and how it's pretty clear he was seducing Menoa and she threw him into Neverland in order to make him stop.

Which led to my comment of how i find impressive the ship name being "Menace". Okay, but that's not the point.

Minutes after that, i had the terribly terrible idea for an AU in mind. A very very TERRIBLY TERRIBLE idea.

An AU where instead of Wallace being a victim he's seduced by Menoa and becomes her accomplice, and he tries to convince Daisuke, Miyako, Iori and Ken to join Neverland.

I thought you would like to hear it, hehe~ 🤭

GHFDDDDFD Ni I am lowkey FERAL for this AU, you have no idea. I don’t think I ever published my thoughts on it, but back in 2021 after I accidentally put Menoa + Wallace = Menace together, the idea of Wallace being her willing accomplice was the first place my brain went too (after the failed seducement/Neverland take, which seems much more like it could be canon ;D). Honestly though, the accomplice AU is SO much fun. This is actually what I mean when I say they would be terrible together… not that they’re necessarily bad for each other (although they are), but they’re absolutely awful for the rest of the kids to deal with.

I don’t actually think a relationship with Wallace would change Menoa that much for the worse, but maybe it would show just how far she is willing to go for her cause. She is charismatic and manipulative enough to convince him to join her as an “equal” (they are not equals. He’s an interesting diversion at best and a human shield at worst). The two of them are still implementing her plan, but now she has a human companion(/boytoy) and gets the power of his twin digimon working for her in the bargain. She’s definitely sending the three of them to try to persuade the 02 kids to join her cause/surrender wholeheartedly to Neverland, so Daisuke and co. are going to have to figure out how to deal with that. But hey, she gets a little arm candy. As a treat.

Mostly I think it’s terrible for Wallace (which I’m kind of into, I’ll be honest!). He and Menoa share common ground, and I definitely think Menoa’s ideas would intrigue him (and hey, he doesn't have that strong of a moral compass to begin with). Paired with the fact that he would be openly flirting and trying to catch her interest even before the word “go,” I think that translates to him being willing to do pretty much anything for her, particularly if she validates his beliefs on what he thinks they have together. Love (or the perception of love) would make him dangerous: protective, loyal, and oblivious to any wider implications or downsides to what she’s doing. He might be perceptive enough to know he’s basically just a tool, but in that case I don’t even think he minds, a hot, smart girlfriend is a hot, smart girlfriend. Have you seen one of those paintings of mermaids where the mermaid is dragging a drowning man to the bottom of the ocean, but she’s not looking at him, she’s looking at the viewer with a cold, steely look in her eye? That’s what I picture when I think of their dynamic.

I did draw some sketches based on all this back in 2021, but they weren’t very good and I never found the motivation to fix them, so I kept them to myself (maybe that’ll change now, because APPARENTLY I’m not the only one interested in this???). Here’s one I did of Neverland!Wallace talking to Daisuke though (I know the kids in Neverland don’t talk in Kizuna, but I couldn’t resist because I wanted to make it as creepy as possible):

“Don’t fight it, Daisuke, let her win. We can enjoy summer together forever…”

Anyway. Menace is the toxic trash heap digi-couple of the decade, and I ship it. If anyone else ever writes or draws anything for them, please tag me because I would love to see it!!

Thank you for sharing, and for letting me ramble! :D

[chanstopher]

hello dreamy; hope you’re well ❤️ we’re pretty similar in some aspects :o i love making gfx the most too since it’s something i wish to be good at + pairing fonts, figuring out colour palettes and executing ideas in the form of a graphics really is challenging but also super rewarding! i draw from time to time as well and i really love doing it, but since i rarely ever not draw from a reference or change things ever so slightly, it’s not something that tickles my imagination as much as a gfx would hehe since i usually have to readjust colourings or sometimes colour from scratch, i really like giffing too! but it’s probably the most mundane out of all of them since there’s nothing much different about the process dkfjdj oh, you’re absolutely fine! a good friend is like a seasoned professional when it comes to typos, and i’ve finally mastered decoding 90% of what she says… reading through your posts is like a calming breeze after talking to her—no missing words, random exclamations or extra letters 😂 but i think it’s a charming point for her too; i immediately know it’s her when i receive a text that butchered up! the whole biasing thing reminds me of a mutual of mine :D she’s always confused on who her bias is and ends up biasing the one member who is a complete opposite of her initial bias so we joke around by predicting who her bias will be once she starts getting into a new group. what’s your favourite hair colour on chan (and/or binnie haha) + what are some things that you associate with him? (i apologize for the late ask as i have been struggling with tumblr for the past couple of days ^^;) - 🌨

i'm gonna put a cut cause this is long

Hi my lil rain cloud, omg yes there’s just so much you can do with gfx, its a constant learning curve, and it’s so full of experimentation that its just always so fun. I’ve always been tempted to open up requests for gfx but its so hard to think of how to get ppl to send stuff that would actually inspire me. The best I’ve done is someone randomly sent me an ask for a gfx with Minho and they asked if it could be yellow and it ended up being a lot of fun to try to do, the request was so vague it was easy to be completely creative.  I also cannot draw unless I have a good reference, it’s like I can picture something so perfectly in my mind but the second my pen touches paper or tablet I suddenly can’t figure out how to proportion anything. But if I have something to constantly look at and compare myself to I can match it pretty well. But I agree gifs feel easy most of the time in comparison, unless I’m trying to recolor something nightmare inducing like purple stage lighting, or making things extra fancy by basically turning gifs into gfx. Giffing is a good hobby for watching tv or something, because it’s just a constant process so I can pay enough attention to the tv to know what’s happening while also cranking out sets, so I like that about it. I’m glad my grammar issues are at least legible, just lots of random commas that I hope are remotely ok lmao

Omg red is definitely my favorite hair color on Chris, like all time, I think the more ppl hated it the more I loved it, was obsessed with it. It just felt so punk, and then it faded to a pretty pink and I was happy all over again lmao. I also really loved the highlighted brown during double knot, that was such a gorgeous color and I think it really suited his skin tone a lot. I’m partial to blonde binnie, like ex or all in that was SUCH a gorgeous color on him, I do wish he got to do more fun colors tho, he’s said a few times he wants pink hair and I think changbin should get what he wants lol

Things I associate with Chris, omg does everything count or does that just really bring out the loser in me lmao but fr space, the ocean, oversized clothing, skateboarding, wolves obviously, the 🤙🏻 emoji, Pokemon, puppies, those thick silver chain necklaces lol, I will stop this will get embarrassing gdhgd

[erigold13261]

THEMMMMMMMMMMMMMM YESSSSSSSSSSS

I love how Yu has piercings! (He kinda looks like an in between with his pre and post timeskip self!) and the eyes!

HAM AND FUMIHIKO BEING GENDERFLUID4GENDERFLUID?????????? YESSSSSSSSSSS (Makes sense, since both of them have the same power!) I also love how they both look with being treated by the audience with Fumihiko laugh-crying, and Ham in shell shock

Why. Why is Riko wearing that... arrow... YOU! YOU! *sobbing* (But I love her eyes holy hell she's so cute)

It would make sense that Eriverse Yu looks more like his canon counterpart with just some differences since during the Power Revolution he is like 1-2 years younger (since Satoru is 16 or something like that when in canon during the hidden inventory arc he is like 17 or going on 18 I think?).

But yea, Yu got some piercings and is growing a lil beard! I need to recheck my doodle design for his grown up version I made a while ago because I think I gave him a facial scar and can't remember where I gave it to him (he also has a scar on his stomach I need to draw one day).

Yup! Ham and Fumihiko are genderfluid4genderfluid lol! I meant to draw them doing that funny kissing meme where the two people are just full on making out hehe.

As for their reactions, I definitely love the idea that they do not know how to act with a crowd that doesn't think they are funny. Ham kinda freezes up and has no idea what to really do at first, but would be able to overcome it and push through to kinda win the audience back in her favor possibly.

Fumihiko on the other hand tries to power through the insults or silence they get by not shutting up and continuing on and on and on. Getting more and more nervous which just makes them continue to try and be funny which does not win the crowd over.

It actually is a sore topic in their relationship that Fumihiko has trouble with and caused a few fights between them which broke up their little comedy duo for a few years until they met again during the Culling Games!

Hehehehehehe, I'm glad you saw what I did with the arrow! I love doing stupid stuff like that! (like Suguru's TADC form being a monkey and having the top of his head off so slime can come out of it or transfigured Satoru having a halo on blues forehead).

Glad you like her eyes! Don't know if I am going to keep them like that or not. This is definitely the first time I am drawing her so things can absolutely change later on.

But honestly, drawing characters from memory is a really good way to figure out what is an important character trait and what isn't. Because if you can't remember it, it might not be that important (or it is important and is just very forgettable lol).

[waddei]

I DO!!!

WELL YOURE IN LUCK!!

tw for mentions of murder mind control dissociation (?) and things like that

so like the "Wilbur" on the phone isn't actually Wilbur but a weird entity using his voice to talk to tommy without him suspecting anything

and it all starts with suddle commands that escalate

"Wilbur" talks to tommy just like normal Wilbur would just sprinkling those weird requests to test just how much control he has over tommy right?

* gets call at night not to sleep (first Comic hehe)

he has to rationalize these requests tho, just telling him to do something won't work, he's gotta give a reason

cus our boy isn't dumb , he isn't a mindless zombie he calls out how stupid it would be to "go stand outside for 15 seconds" but all "Wilbur" has to do to convince him is give him a semi believable reason to do the task like "you need some fresh air, you've been playing videogames all day" or smt

*keeps getting constant calls asking dumb shit, Wilbur claims he didn't do anything when he calls him

*growing distrust for Wilbur as "Wilbur" tests his Control over him more and more

* tommy suspects that "Wilbur" isn't really wilbur, but the sustained illusion that the spirit keeps up gets stronger every day so the suspicion gets stored in the back of his mind most of the time

* the feeling of uneasiness caused by the suspicion gets warped into fear by "Wilbur", he's already got enough control over him to know he won't just run away, so now the fear serves to keep him obeying more and more ridiculous commands

*this back fires however, when wilbur (the real guy) notices how tommys been acting super strange, Specially around him

*"Wilbur" leads tmmy to a park at night and ends up basically mind controlling him to kill someone , then tell him to go home while he "cleans the mess" <- i drew smt for the murder scene once cus I'm normal like that

*tommy goes home and has a breakdown in the shower while trying to wash the blood of his clothes <- that one drawing i made and didn't maintag

*as Tommy gets more and more afraid and paranoid Wilbur starts to seriously think that something is wrong, not only is he weird around him but he also doesn't answer calls, refuses to leave his apartment half the time, and when he is seen he looks as if he hasn't slept in weeks

his empty stare occasionally is replaced by fear when he spots Wilbur

*he goes to the beach that same week, vaguely aware of the world around him he stares into the sea, there he meets an old lady, he tells her he's been struggling to sleep lately (not a lie technically, but he doesn't remember what exactly the truth is..)

the old lady guides him to her van with the promise to help him, there she asks for a lock of his hair and hands him a weird looking doll

tommy is absolutely delighted with the doll! the static in his ears seemed to dull down as soon as he was holding it

he then goes home and sleeps until the next day with no calls to interrupt him

*tommy excitedly calls tubbo to tell him about his new doll "uncle nasty" and how it's been helping him thru "all the shit that's been going down" tubbos confused, but glad that Tommy's doing good now

he asks tommy what exactly has been "going down" tommy goes quiet for a second, he claims that he doesn't really know, and that everything's been super fuzzy lately "probably just the lack of sleep.. nothing to worry about! not now that I've got uncle nasty!" he tells tubo the story of how he got it

that's where tubbo starts getting really worried, they keep talking as normal for a few minutes

*tubbo tells Wilbur about this, specially the doll, Wilbur thinks he's figured it out

assuming that the doll is haunted and it's the one causing tommy those issues, determined to help his friend he starts a plan to get rid of the doll no matter what

*as Tommy starts getting better he starts hanging out with Wilbur again, having almost forgotten about the calls and the spirit, Wilbur uses the time he gets with tommy to try and convince

him to throw the doll out.

meanwhile the spirit was planning something big, big enough to regain full control over tommy and break the barrier that old woman had set up (the lady is nice she noticed our boy was being haunted and helped him ^^)

* tommy starts getting calls again, weirdly only when he's out on walks/ hanging out, (CUS HE LEVAES THE DOLL IN THE HOUSE) "Wilbur" talks to him and starts to rebuild this influence slowly while he tears at the barrier bit by bit

*BIG EVENT number 2 lOL!!! it's the Halloween stream it's the Halloween stream basically anyways

tommy is invited to tubbos epic sleepover Halloween stream, he gets a call from "Wilbur" midway thru, telling him to kill aimsey, tommy successfully refuses this time! good for him

the spirit still makes him go outside to dig tho

the stream plays out as you remember, he comes back completely unresponsive and disturbed until the influence wears off and he goes to clean his hair

shit goes down after that but i haven't been able to make it make sense yet so !!

[chaoslynx]

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Following is a list of my favorite Banana Fish works by other authors, sorted into the following categories: fix-its, AUs, and canon-compliant. Also feel free to check out my ao3 bookmarks, all of which are public. I bookmark any fic I think I might want to read again!

fix-its

Apple Koi by VoidRain (series, 52k): Deals with Eiji’s grief, him learning that Ash is alive after all, and the two of them grieving Shorter’s death.

My Husband Is Better Than Yours by signpainter1 (5k):  I laughed a ton at this. Outsider POV, Ash's coworker and Eiji's coworker are getting married. At the engagement party, they tell each other about how they both have this one coworker who won't shut up about his husband, and decide to place bets on which one would win a debate about who loves their husband more. Little do they know that Ash and Eiji are married to each other.

Odour of Chrysanthemums by nyanja14 (21k):  Outsider POV from Eiji's mom's perspective as she tries to figure out what the hell Ash Lynx did to Eiji in America, only for the source of all the problems to show up at her doorstep after being presumed dead.

I Did It, Eiji by elena_stidham (2k): Recovery fic about Ash trying to overcome his trauma and have sex with Eiji. Even as a sex-replused ace person I really enjoyed this one. Not super explicit, although obviously about sex, so be aware of that.

snowy mountains (let's look at the view) by VoidRain (3k): Near Christmas, Ash and Eiji take a walk through Izumo, and Ash thinks about the last time he saw snow.

And At Last I See The Light by Ice_Cold_Beauty (9k): 5+1 Valentine's Day fic.

Take a beating. Now internalize it. by Honeyvalentine (3k): Ash breaks a glass in front of Max in the middle of the night, and expects repercussions that don't come.

a home out of hip bones by ac0rns (2k): Ash has a dissociative episode on the subway, long after Dino's death. Eiji helps him through it.

AUs

In Your Shoes, Through Your Eyes by kaIeido ( @norisquared​ ) (ongoing, 12k): Soulmate AU where you swap bodies when the younger soulmate turns eighteen! This causes complications when Ash is, you know, a gang boss, and Eiji is a naïve kid from Japan.

Something To Talk About by mara_cas (89k): My personal favorite of the Banana Fish high school AUs!

You and me from the night before by Honeyvalentine (46k): University AU where Ash is struggling with thoughts of suicide. This one fucked me up.

how to plant flowers, and why by Honeyvalentine (ongoing, 9k): Honey just started posting this one, and I'm super excited for it! She's been sending me snippets for a while. Flower shop AU where Ash is a university dropout, and Eiji is a student athlete who just lost his ability to compete.

brandishing your cavendish, yellow and white by planetesimalwords (ongoing, 29k): University AU where Ash learns important lessons outside of class as much as in.

Found In Translation by TurnUps (4k): Short soulmate AU oneshot. Ash needs a translation for the name that appeared on his skin. Guess who he asks? TurnUps also has some other fantastic longer AUs, including a vampire one and a cowboy one that I've read.

canon-compliant (missing scenes, pre-canon, etc.)

Just Act Normal! by elena_stidham (5k): Pre-canon, Ash and Shorter being idiots. Absolutely hilarious. Some Ash/Shorter shipping so be aware if you're not into that, but could be seen as platonic and it’s mostly just them being stupid and quoting memes. I'd also check out the other works by elena_stidham too. They have some really good post-canon fics.

In The Morning, You are Gone by wbss21 (9k): Pre-canon. Ash has a bad experience while selling himself on the streets, and goes to Shorter for help. Rather explicit, but very good.

Hydrangea by Bleed_Peroxide (4k): One of my absolute favorites. It's so incredibly well-written and beautiful and horrifying. Jessica's POV discussing her thoughts on Ash and his trauma, exploring the fact that she’s the only other protag to have experienced SA.

Eiji is Basically a Housewife by Blueskylover (89k): This is basically just a whole series of Eiji not understanding American holidays and failing at baking. When they live in the fancy apartment, Ash and Eiji's neighbors assume they're a young engaged couple. Unable to come up with a better cover story, Eiji accidentally agrees, and Ash plays along.

Orange Is The New Black by Suguru_Slut (10k): I would recommend reading Angel Eyes before reading this. Another pre-canon about Ash and Shorter, but more on the sad side this time. Focuses on their time in reform school. Makes a few errors about what's canon and not, but still really good.

Stray Cat by Wintervention (2k): Pre-canon. Explores Ash’s character from Nadia’s perspective by comparing him to a stray cat that comes by Chang Dai.

hindsight, love, and everything else unconditional by Honeyvalentine (2k): Ash's 16th birthday, with Shorter.

all creatures wild and tame by Quintessence (6k): Ash keeps expecting Eiji's touch to turn cruel. It never does.

Drugstore Cowboy by suffragettecity (2k): Pre-canon, Shorter and Ash plan to buy a gun and Shorter contemplates on how he knows Ash got the money.

Till time end bodies, but souls none. by meryzepam (3k): Cape Cod. Ash reflects on the memories that his childhood bedroom bring, and how tainted it feels now.

[snellyfish]

@rubberygone​ I am so sorry I am just now seeing this ask, so to make up for it here’s a bunch of doodles I tried to get out just for you fhdkjfds. (also definitely not the perfect excuse to draw this AU again because I just watched the ‘24 film and hooo boy am I thinking about these heteros once again) THANK YOU SM FOR THE ASK AND THE INTEREST IT MEANS THE WORLD TO ME

For like all my Shinnaga stuff I tend to see his sister as The Big Bad Villain and I think when I watched Phantom of the Opera this absolutely solidified what type of villain I like to utilize her as the most--one whom Kiyo was genuinely in love with and wishes only to drag him away from Angie [dabs]. Not to say Yandere Miyadera but I am saying Yandere Miyadera

Super long embarrassing ramble about this AU under the cut :]

You asked about the roles so here we goooo. I know characters and roles differ from each movie and I haven’t read into the book enough to know what’s “canon” for everyone in the original story but here’s what I’m throwing out so far LOL. Mainly based off the 2004 Film.

Korekiyo: Christine Daaé Little self explanatory, I know there’s not much in the way of them being Similar other than the huge blinding light of “I am being used and abused by my significant other; whom everyone, including me at some point, assumed and fully accepted was a ghost haunting me and killing everyone around me so they can have me all to themself.” Kiyo is a lot more timid and paranoid in this AU as well, he’s quite fragile because I tend to think of Miyadera as his only support system and here it’s Especially Wack/Damaged in a Whole New Way, especially with his over looming fear that she’s going to murder Angie.

Miyadera: The Phantom / Erik Curse you, lyrics, if you didn’t write yourself the way you did I probably wouldn’t have realized how perfect this AU is. For what I headcanon Miyadera being it’s just Very Fitting, they’re both using Kiyo/Christine for their own gains while simultaneously falling madly unhealthily in love with them. I prefer the ending where The Phantom learns to let go and lives in the shadows once more, rather than the ending of him being heckign Murdered by the whole town, but for this AU I’m honestly not sure what I lean to more because I can’t see her just letting Kiyo go LOL. 

Angie: Raoul AUAUAUAUAUAUUU HERE IT COMES HERE’S THE SHIP [POINTS LOUDLY] they’re SO in love. I’ll say what we’re all thinking--the only way to make Raoul an even better character is to make him a short, bubbly, manic, crossdressing woman of color, am I right or am I right-- For almost all my Shinnaga stuff, again, I think of Kiyo as initially being very standoffish and purposely trying to push Angie away out of fear of what Miyadera would do if they became a thing ((though he obviously wants them to become a thing ((angie help)))), and with Christine(Kiyo) being so upfront like “You mustn’t see me ever again” I like to imagine Angie’s reaction to that in this AU is like “Hmmmm, no thank you, Angie will come back tomorrow for kiss nyahaha :3″. Just the idea of her running around, riding on horses, digging through the sewers of a long forgotten medieval torture chamber; all with a wide-ass smile on her face because she’s like “SAVE BF SAVE BF SAVE BF” is very quaint.

Miu?: Carlotta Her personality in the ‘04 one is so Miu-core and she’s kind of a bonch either way so it works LOL. Miu just wants to be a star so bad 😔

Tsumugi: Madame Giry I mostly big-brained this idea because of witnessing her being like a weird mother figure as she rescued the orphaned Phantom, I like the idea of Tsumugi laying low and just watching the chaos unfold as she’s like “hehe,,,the only reason Miyadera is alive and wrecking everything is because I saved her life,,,this is just plain perfect!!” Yet still helping Angie find Kiyo+Miya’s whereabouts underground just to help progress the fun little story that she’s just so happy to be a part of.

Tenko? Himiko? no one??: Meg Giry Obviously not Tsumugi’s daughter but LOL- Honestly from what I’ve watched and have been reading up on the Wiki she’s really not much of a character, all I really recall is her being Christine’s closest/only friend in ‘04? So I liked the idea of throwing out another Chapter 3 character for the fun of it, but idk LMAO. Maybe Kiyo’s just even more of a loner and I’ll just throw the whole cast of v3 to be more Opera singers and dancers in the background WHO KNOWS. Kiyo MIGHT have friend rights.

Christine talks about her deceased father and because I headcanon Kiyo and Miya to be orphans, I thought it was only fitting that in this AU Korekiyo talks about his deceased parents AND deceased sister, who just so happens to be Very Much Alive and just so happens to NOT be her ghost haunting him for the past decade. Even more trauma-worthy if Kiyo swears he witnessed his sisters death 🤫🤫🤫 Thanks a lot for quietly and stealthily saving her and creating a monster, Tsumugi, props to you. what would go wrong?? Maybe that same “death” incident is the reason Miyadera wears a mask 😏 scar time!!

THANKS @ ANYONE FOR READING IF YOU DID FHDKJFSD I have many thoughts and am not strong enough to out myself about them all, I get so embarrassed talking about Shinnaga I love them too damn much

I promise I’ll draw more for this AU with art of like,,,actual quality and effort,,, ONE DAY. Also with like official designs for them because auuu I flip flop constantly with how I draw them in this AU LMAO. at least nearly everyone gets to crossdress that’s all that matters.

[gureishi]

okay so~ this HC request is for both saeyoung and GE saeran (vee relationship deal)

so i have this huge white bunny plushie (i'll probably send you a picture of it in DMs). i've had it for a very long time, probably since i was a very little kid. i don't think i'll ever give it away lolol. i go back and forth between just letting it sit around and actually using it, and by "using it" i mean:

i tend to sleep on my side, and i'll wrap my arms (and sometimes my legs) around that thing and hold it securely when i go to sleep. a lot of times, i sorta need to hold onto something when i sleep? or like, have my hand under the pillow (which is still kinda holding it, if you think about it). and so the bunny is great for that. and... i may or may not've put saeyoung's jacket on it a couple of times hehe 👉🏻👈🏻 cos that way i get to hold both! (though i definitely have held just his jacket at least once)

i'll most likely give you a few more details in DMs, but the gist is... what would be their reactions to seeing this? im not exactly ashamed of it but i probably wouldnt do it until i was more comfortable, you know? cos its still kinda... "embarrassing" but on a smaller scale.

[417]

YESSSS I WAS SO EXCITED TO WRITE THIS ONE.

As I think I’ve told you, I sleep with a very large stuffed leopard named Liliana. So for anyone who’s wondering: yes, it’s me, my partner, Liliana, and our 50 lb pitbull in the bed every night. It’s...something.

So this is just an excellent scenario and everything about it is good.

Also! I dunno if this is relevant, but I figure that in the world of my fic, the boys each have their own bedrooms. Our MC is sleeping in one room or the other, depending on the night—in my story specifically, she’s still sleeping in Saeran’s room like 75% of the time. But over time, it becomes more even. Anyway.

Ahem as always when I write reader X both twins, they are both dating you but not each other. <3

Saeyoung and Saeran with an MC who sleeps with a huge bunny plushie

If you’re a little bit embarrassed about the bunny, maybe you don’t bring her around at first. Maybe you feel a little guilty leaving her at home (or maybe that’s just me), but you don’t want to start off, from the very beginning, bringing a very large stuffed animal into the picture.

But you are so much more comfortable when you sleep with her in your arms! And somehow she makes her way to the bunker—somehow, you have sat her down in a corner (of Saeran’s room, probably) and left her there.

One night you fall into bed early, because you are absolutely exhausted—and this is rare for you, but your head hurts and you need to close your eyes. And they are still up, both of them (of course they are), and it’s so much better to fall asleep hugging something soft.

So without even really thinking about it, you pull the bunny into bed with you. You are in Saeran’s bed, I think—and your head feels so heavy, and the bunny is nice and warm and squishy in your arms. And sometimes it is hard to fall asleep, but tonight, you drift off quickly.

You wake up to the feeling of eyes on your face—because when he looks at you, you are bathed in such vibrant warmth that it’s enough to rouse you even from a very deep sleep.

“Oh,” you mutter, trying to focus on Saeran’s face through the darkness. “Hi.”

His light eyes trail from your face, to your arms, to what is in your arms. You see him look. You blush.

“Who’s this?” he asks—and his voice is so gentle, so sweet, so full of delighted laughter. “I don’t think we’ve been introduced.”

You mumble something, burying your face in the bunny’s soft fur. Saeran sits on the bed beside you and cups your cheek with one cool hand.

You tell him her name—because what else is there to say?—and he gently pats her head.

“She looks soft,” he says. “Can I hold her?”

He is speaking as if she is a live animal, and his eyes are sparkling as if he feels that she is something very precious. Rubbing your sleepy eyes, you hand Saeran the bunny.

“Ohhh,” he says, as he wraps his arms around her. He lets his face fall into her shoulder, and he squeezes her so gently. It’s really something: his hair is lit up by the moonlight, and he’s got the sweetest smile on his face. The bunny almost completely covers his body—he is not a large human being, after all.

It’s so cute you could cry.

“Would you be upset,” you ask him slowly, “if I took a picture of you right now? I want to try and draw this later.”

He looks up at you; he seems somehow childlike all of a sudden: eyes wide and glittering.

“You want to draw us?” he asks. You nod.

“How could I not?”

He’s thrilled. He’s honored.

He is maybe sleeping with the bunny in his arms that night, if you’ll let him.

So for some time, she lives in Saeran’s room.

But one afternoon, you’re hit with a wave of tiredness. You didn’t sleep well the last couple of nights, and your vision is starting to get hazy. You just need to close your eyes, you think—just for a moment.

Saeran is in the kitchen; Saeyoung is in the garage. And it is so cold in this stupid house, and Saeyoung’s room is always warm. Almost unthinkingly, you wander into Saeran’s room and scoop up the bunny. She’s so soft in your arms that you almost fall asleep on your feet.

You meander into Saeyoung’s room and fall face-first onto the bed, arms and legs wrapped all the way around the bunny. And she is comfy, and the bed is soft, and there are so many pillows...

This time, you wake to the feeling of strong, warm arms weaving around your waist.

Automatically, you squeeze your bunny tighter—in turn, the arms hold you tighter, too. You open your eyes.

It’s still light out—you can’t have been asleep for long. Saeyoung has found you here (drawn to you, as he always seems to be), and has wrapped himself around you. You turn your head to kiss his cheek.

“I wanted cuddles,” he murmurs sleepily into your hair. “But it looks like you already found somebody to cuddle with.”

Ah: caught in the act again.

You laugh, feeling your face growing hot. Saeran loves the bunny, but Saeran loves everything, and—and—

“She’s cute,” Saeyoung whispers into your ear. “Just like you.”

“I’ve had her for ages,” you tell him, wiggling her ears in his face. “I didn’t really mean to bring her in here, but...”

Saeyoung shakes his head, his hair falling into his eyes. He’s taken his glasses off, and he looks particularly sweet and sleepy.

“Listen,” he mutters. Ah—now he is blushing, his cheeks a lovely shade of pink. “When I came in here and found you and this huge bunny asleep in my bed, I...” He trails off, at a loss for words. “It’s just—you’re—”

Ah, and you love him like this, stammering and enraptured. You roll onto your back and smile into his flushed face.

“Oh, are we taking a nap?”

You turn. Saeran has found you, too—they can’t seem to help always drifting into your orbit, the two of them. He’s in the doorway with an amused expression on his face.

“Yeah!” Saeyoung says, wiggling around beside you. “And did you know we have a fourth member of our family?” He cackles, giving the bunny’s head a little pat. Saeran cocks an eyebrow at him.

“I did,” he says proudly. “You didn’t?”

You sigh, turning to hold out your arms to Saeran. He comes to you—of course he does—and folds himself contentedly into your arms.

And there you are, all four of you: you, your two beloved boys, and a very large bunny. 

On one side, Saeyoung is warm and solid. On the other, Saeran is cooler, softer. You’ve got a head on each shoulder, and a comfy bunny in your arms. 

You smell soft, well-loved fur and spring rain and smokey honey. You’re enveloped on all sides: safe and soft and warm.

You close your eyes. Just for a minute, you think—or an hour, or maybe two. 

You could stay right here, wrapped up in their tender adoration, forever.

[kellyvela]

GRRM has said in interviews that he’s purposely played with the romantic tension between the hound and Sansa. What do you think the endgame purpose of the unkiss and that playing is meant to be for?

This is all what he said about the matter in question so far:

The Hound and Sansa, romantic or platonic? It could be very different things to each of those involved, mind you!

JUNE 24, 1999 THE HOUND AND SANSA

Moreta12: I understand, I’ve heard your opinion on that. In ACOK, it seems that the relationship between the Hound and Sansa had romantic undertones. Is that true?

GeoRR: Well, read the book and decide for yourself.

Moreta12: I’ve read the book and I’ve debated those particular scenes with a few others. Half say that it’s romantic and half say it’s platonic. I’ve taken the romantic stance.

GeoRR:  It could be very different things to each of those involved, mind you

Moreta12:Yes, but it seem like evidence points towards romantic undertones. Will the Hound appear later?

GeoRR: Yes, the Hound will be in STORM OF SWORDS. In fact, I just finished writing a big scene with him.

[Source]

When will Sansa be “legal”?  **ºª@”¡¿x<%$!&?

OCTOBER 05, 1999 AGE OF SEXUAL RELATIONS IN WESTEROS

The nature of the relationship between Sandor and Sansa has been a hot topic on Revanshe’s board. Sansa’s youth has been one focus of the discussion. What is the general Westerosi view as to romantic or sexual relationships involving a girl of Sansa’s age and level of physical maturity?

A boy is Westeros is considered to be a “man grown” at sixteen years. The same is true for girls. Sixteen is the age of legal majority, as twenty-one is for us.

However, for girls, the first flowering is also very significant… and in older traditions, a girl who has flowered is a woman, fit for both wedding and bedding.

A girl who has flowered, but not yet attained her sixteenth name day, is in a somewhat ambigious position: part child, part woman. A “maid,” in other words. Fertile but innocent, beloved of the singers.

In the “general Westerosi view,” well, girls may well be wed before their first flowerings, for political reasons, but it would considered perverse to bed them. And such early weddings, even without sex, remain rare. Generally weddings are postponed until the bride has passed from girlhood to maidenhood.

Maidens may be wedded and bedded… however, even there, many husbands will wait until the bride is fifteen or sixteen before sleeping with them. Very young mothers tend to have significantly higher rates of death in childbirth, which the maesters will have noted.

As in the real Middle Ages, highborn girls tend to flower significantly earlier than those of lower birth. Probably a matter of nutrition. As a result, they also tend to marry earlier, and to bear children earlier. There are plenty of exceptions.

[Source]

Unreliable Narrator

JUNE 26, 2001 SF, TARGARYENS, VALYRIA, SANSA, MARTELLS, AND MORE

[GRRM is asked about Sansa misremembering the name of Joffrey’s sword.]

The Lion’s Paw / Lion’s Tooth business (*), on the other hand, is intentional. A small touch of the unreliable narrator. I was trying to establish that the memories of my viewpoint characters are not infallible. Sansa is simply remembering it wrong. A very minor thing (you are the only one to catch it to date), but it was meant to set the stage for a much more important lapse in memory. You will see, in A STORM OF SWORDS and later volumes, that Sansa remembers the Hound kissing her the night he came to her bedroom… but if you look at the scene, he never does. That will eventually mean something, but just now it’s a subtle touch, something most of the readers may not even pick up on.

[Source]

(*) It was Arya who misremembered the name of Joffrey’s sword tho…

Unreliable Narrator 2.0

OCTOBER 05, 2002 SANSA’S MEMORY

[Note: This mail has been edited for brevity.]

… this is an inconsistency with ASoS more than an outright error. In ASoS, Sansa thinks that the Hound kissed her before leaving her room and King’s Landing. In ACoK, no kiss is mentioned in the scene, though Sansa did think that he was about to do so.

Well, not every inconsistency is a mistake, actually. Some are quite intentional. File this one under “unreliable narrator” and feel free to ponder its meaning

[Source]

Unreliable Narrator 3.0

NOVEMBER 27, 2007 GEORGE R.R. MARTIN ANSWERS YOUR QUESTIONS

Here’s a really particular question (which I realize means it probably won’t get asked in a general interview): In A Storm of Swords, there is a chapter early on where Sansa is thinking back to the scene at the end of A Clash of Kings when The Hound came into her room during the battle. She thinks in the chapter about how he kissed her, but in the scene in A Clash of Kings, this actually didn’t happen. Was that a typo or something? —Valdora

GRRM: It’s not a typo. It is something! [Laughs] ”Unreliable narrator” is the key phrase there. The second scene is from Sansa’s thoughts. And what does that reveal about her psychologically? I try to be subtle about these things.

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Sansa may be dead but Alayne is alive

APRIL 15, 2008 FUTURE MEETINGS, POVS, ARYA’S ROLE, EASTERN LANDS, AND ASSASSINS

[Will Sandor and Sansa meet?]

Why, the Hound is dead, and Sansa may be dead as well. There’s only Alayne Stone.

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A lot more dangerous than romantic

AUGUST 2, 2009 AS SER JORAH MORMONT…

weltraummuell: The Hound Oh please don’t cast an old guy for the Hound, his scenes with Sansa are so romantic and erotic, I couldn’t bear if it’d feel creepy all of a sudden. Well, that’s me making demands. LOL

GRRM: Re: The Hound Old guy? No, but… the Hound is still a whole lot older than Sansa, and was never written as attractive… you know, those hideous burns and all that… he’s a lot more dangerous than he is romantic.

kestrana: The Hound Yeah its a “girl always wants the bad boy” kind of thing although Sansa seems to pull something else out of him. It feels so wrong sometimes but I want to see them together again tee hee.

weltraummuell: The Hound Hehe, George, maybe you didn’t intend it, but he turned out to be a very erotic character to female readers. Especially since he’s mutilated and dangerous. Makes him unpredictable and vulnerable which is the most explosive aphrodisiac for a girl’s fantasy. ;)

weltraummuell: The Hound And I know from discussions on other board other women feel just the same about Sandor. He’s an absolute favourite with the ladies!

halfbloodmalfoy: The Hound LOL, you’re such a man. To many of us women, dangerous *is* attractive.

GRRM: The Hound But no one has any love for poor old Sam Tarly, kind and smart and decent and devoted…

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I played with it but I didn’t get the answer I was waiting for

JUNE 22, 2012 SWORD & LASER VIDEO PODCAST

GRRM: I am sometimes surprised by the reactions, of women in particular, to some of the villains. The number of women over the years who have written to me that their favorite characters are Jaime Lannister or Sandor Clegane [the Hound] or Theon Greyjoy… All of these are deeply troubled individuals with some very dark sides, who have done some very dark things. Nonetheless, they do draw this response, and quite heavily, I think, in the case of some of them, from my female readers in particular.

Veronica Belmont: I’m a big fan of the Hound, myself, actually.

Tom Merritt: Of Sandor? Really?

Veronica Belmont: Yeah, the Hound… Maybe it’s not because I feel any compassion towards them, I’m not really sure what the attraction is. Ah, I’m not going to call it attraction, actually. Let’s just say it’s a fascination, perhaps.

GRRM: [Chuckles] Well, I mean, fascination is one thing, but some of these letters indicate that there really is like a romantic attraction going on there. And I do know there’s all these people out there who are, as they call themselves, the “San/San” fans, who want to see Sandor and Sansa get together at the end. So that’s interesting, too.

Tom Merritt: The TV show has sort of played with that a little, and probably stoked those fires.

GRRM: Oh, sure. And I’ve played with it in the books. There’s something there, but it’s still interesting to see how many people have responded to it.

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I played with it but I didn’t get the answer I was waiting for 2.0

JUNE 23, 2015 GRRM Q&A AT THE SCIENCE FICTION BOOKSTORE IN STOCKHOLM

Question: “Is there any fan reactions that you have been surprised by, like is there a character that’s more popular than you thought or have people been shocked by something you didn’t think we would be shocked at?”

GRRM: “I’m reasonably certain what people will be shocked by. I knew that the Red Wedding would provoke a big reaction and it did. I was pretty confident that, you know, throwing Bran out the window and then killing Ned in the first book would get reactions, and indeed they did. All of those worked exactly the way it did to the extent that things that have surprised me, they tend to be smaller things. I guess I… Maybe I should not have, I don’t know. How do I phrase this without getting myself in terrible trouble… I guess I don’t understand women, but I was definitely, you know, way back when, surprised by the number of women who reacted positively to characters like Theon and the Hound as dashing, romantic figures. The san/san kind of thing took me by surprise, I must admit, and even more so the women who, and there are some, who really like Theon. So that surprised me.”

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Unreliable Narrator 4.0

DECEMBER 2016 ASKING GEORGE R.R. MARTIN ABOUT S@N/S@N

My question is regarding Sansa Stark. Her sexuality has evolved through every book and yet the memory that seems to stick the more with her in this regard is the night of the Blackwater. So I was wondering if you can expand on your view on what this is, since as before that night her interactions with Sandor Clegane weren’t really physical.

The night of the Blackwater, yes. Ahhh… Well, I’m not going to give you a straight answer on that hahaha… Uhmmm, but I would say that ahhh… you know a television show and a book each has its own strengths and weaknesses; there a re tools that are available to me as a novelist, that are not available to people doing a television show. And of course there are tools available to them, that are not available to a novelist, I mean they can lay in a soundtrack, they can do special effects, they can do amazing things that I can’t do, I just have words on paper. What can I do, well I can use things like the internal narrative, I can take you inside of territories… thoughts, which you can’t do in a TV show… Ahhh… You just have the words they speak, you see them from outside because the camera is external, while prose is internal, and I have the device known as “unreliable narrator”… Ahhh… Which again, they don’t have. So, think about those two aspects when you consider that night of the Blackwater.

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Do with it what you will.

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Sulk & Horse Riding (Parent Levi)

Summary: Levi who is charge to take care of his kids, unintentionally make them sulk with him and so he tries to reconcile with them.

A/n: I’m sorry for the length. I got carried away hehe

It was another normal weekend at the Survey Corps headquarters where the cadets would undergo training and doing chores while the higher-ups would finish their paperworks, creating plans and attending meetings. This morning, you left your twins with Levi who would spend his days in his office to fill up reports. You were called to attend a meeting with Commander Pixis and some of the higher ups from Garrison Regiment and Levi was gladly accepting his turn to take care of his kids inside his office thinking that there wasn’t much space for them to run around so it wouldn’t be a difficult task for him. Or at least that was what he thought. 

At the moment, Levi was sitting on his office chair, his daughter on his lap and his son sitting on the table with a pen and a paper given by the father for him to do something to fill in the time. Levi had been sipping his hot tea for quite some time now and the little chubby hands of his daughter that had been attempting to reach out for his cup didn’t go unnoticed by his sharp eyes. Every time his daughter tried to reach for the cup, that was when he lifted his cup higher, not allowing her daughter to get what she wanted. 

“No. You can’t drink this tea.” He warned her.

“But why...”, she pouted. 

“You drank tea last time and then you had stomachache, remember?”.

“No. I don’t wemember.” She confidently answered while shaking her head making Levi to let out a deep sigh.

Levi’s daughter no longer tried to reach for the cup but instead chose to sigh loudly whenever her father took a sip, purposedly letting her father know how sad she was, for not being able to drink the tea. Of course, the captain noticed her passively aggresive attempt to try winning his heart but that only made him hid his smile behind the brim of the cup. 

With one last sip, the tea was finished and Levi carefully put the empty cup on his office table where his daughter’s eyes followed closely. Noticing the empty cup, she immediately cried out of frustration and sadness which made both her father and twin brother to look up at her in confusion. 

“I don wan fwen(friend) daddy,” she said as she got up and left her father’s lap, walking towards the window with her arms crossed. She stomped on the floor for every steps that she took making her chubby cheeks bounced every time, all while putting her lips in a long pout. Levi was too stunned with her daughter who seemed like starting to give him a cold shoulder that he didn’t notice his son had scribbled on his reports. The reports that was neatly written now had smiley faces, weird symbols that who knows what they meant and his son signatures. So, he immediately grabbed his reports as well as his other paperworks and put it somewhere else causing his son to cry. Great. That’s twins for you. One started to show tantrum and the other followed as well. 

“Here here, you should draw on this paper. Not on mine.” He panickly tried to calm his son down while giving him the paper from earlier that was still clean. At the same time, he stole glances at her daughter, trying to think of a way to persuade her.

“NOOOoo. I wan MY paper!! I don wan this! What’s this?!,” his son started to cry louder and babbling some incoherent words that Levi was sure his son made them up all on their own. 

“You can’t. That is MY paper. See, just draw on this.” He drew a few things on the paper while his son watched between his sobs.

“Look! I draw something on it. How about you try drawing on it as well?”, He suggested, trying to win his son but the little boy just gave him a infamous boring look. 

“Daddy, what’s that? It’s ugly.” He commented on his father drawing. Levi tried his best not to roll his eyes. His son better be grateful because he was his son or else he would definitely stab the rudeness out of him. 

“Tch, don’t be a bra--” Levi said but immediately got cut off with his son’s cry and his wailing saying his father didn’t love him entered his ears. Feeling absolutely clueless, he took his son into his arms while got up to walk to his daughter who was still pouting. From behind he could see the curves of her plumpy cheeks and quitely tried to approach the little girl with the same shiny black hair as him and her twin brother. Right now, Levi hugged both of his twins but they just didn’t seem to want a hug right now as they struggled to release their little bodies from their father’s strong grip. 

Then suddenly the office door was knocked twice before the person barged in. The figure behind the door was Hange who was looking for you and the twins imeediately ran from their father towards her direction and each one of them hugged her long legs. 

“Geeeeeee!~~,” the twins said her name.

“No no not gee, kids. It’s Han-ge.” She corrected them with a smile.

“Geee.” They repeated with a beam, showing their baby teeth.

“Okay try follow after me. Han?”

“Han”

“Ge?”

“Ge.”

“Okay, now try to say Hange.”

“Ge.” They repeated, eyes stared at the Section Commander.

“Ahhh that’s fine. Just Ge is fine, I guess.” She chuckled while patting their heads. 

As she was leaving the room, the twins didn’t seem to want to let her legs go and they kept giggling as she walked. They looked way too happy from when they were hugged by their father and Levi noticed all of it. 

“Sorry Hange, but can you take the kids forawhile? I know for sure they would start to scream and crying again if I take them off of your legs.” 

“Yeah sure. I’ll be in my office when you need them.” She replied excitedly as she could spend more time with his cute kids. 

“Thanks. I’ll take them back after I finish these paperworks.” He said remembering his reports that had been ‘corrected’ by his son. 

“Okay kids, want to say goodbye to your dad?,” Hange said trying to get a reaction from the twins. 

“Hmmph,” was the reply said in unison by the twin while moving their faces to avoid their father’s eyes.

-

Had Hange spent a few more moments in Levi’s office, she would able to meet you who dropped by to see your husband in his office. You walked towards the man with frowned eyebrows who was staring at you ever since you opened his office door. 

“You okay?,” you asked with a concern. Levi was always wearing a serious face but this time, he looked seriously devastated. 

“Those kids will be the end of me.” He replied with a sigh which caused you to giggle. 

“No they won’t.” You said while placing his one hand in yours. 

And so Levi told you everything that happen between him and his kids which made them sulking with him and you were paying your full attention towards his story all while smiling understandingly. 

Later on, you walked beside Levi to Hange’s office and was greeted with a sight of your twins on her large table, your son had his cheeked stuff with baked potato and your daughter had bread. They looked....content, as expected. Upon noticing your arrival, the twins immediately grabbed you while wailing, dramatically letting you know how they don’t want to be friends with their dad and their dad don’t love them anymore and other sort of bratty things that only made Levi felt disappointed. You knew your kids well enough to say that they were just acting clingy and being overreacting and so you gave them a few words regarding their behaviour.

-

You were supposed to spend the evening with Hange regarding her experiments with Sawney and Bean. So she left you, Levi and the twins at her office to allow you guys to have some privacy as she would be waiting at the experiment site. Levi who just submitted the report and now had some free time, planned to spend the evening with the kids at the horse stable as an attempt to reconcile with them. 

“I’m sorry I had to leave you again, see you tonight okay?,” You said to Levi as well as your son and daughter. You left a soft kiss on each of your twins fluffy cheeks while comforting them who were starting to cry since you were about to leave them with their father who they were sulking with. 

“Have fun,” you whispered to Levi and leaving a long loving kiss on his cheeks. He said nothing but still gave you his handsome stare that never failed to bring butterflies in your stomach and grabbed the end of your Survey Corps jacket. 

“Levi, I really need to get going.” You said with an apologetic tone and you placed one hand on top of his hand that was still had no sign of letting go of your jacket. You felt sorry for them because it was a busy week and you had to spend your weekend on works. You wished you could spend time altogether doing family things but that would abandon your duty and abusing the rank that was assigned to you.

“Tch.” He gave you one last hug, inhaling your scent and placed a sweet kiss on your forehead before letting you go to fulfill your duty. 

-

Levi’s squad was present at the horse stable when he arrived. He also asked Jean to bring out his horse. The twins, refused to be carried by their father were walking on his sides. Usually their tiny hands would fit about two of their father’s fingers but since they were on cold war with their father, they just grabbed one of his fingers and only a small part of it as they were walking. Yeah, Levi noticed this too but chose to say nothing about it. 

Levi greeted all the members of his squad and introduced them to his twins. 

“This is Eren.” He pointed at the green-eyed boy with dark brown hair and the boy smiled eagerly at the twins. 

“Eyen....,” the twins repeated. 

“This is Mikasa.” He showed at the black hair girl with red scarf and Mikasa gave them a warm smile. 

“Kasa......”

“This is Armin.” Indicating the blue-eyed boy with blonde hair. 

“Min......”

“Hellooo~,” Armin greeted them with a huge beam. 

“This is Sasha. You must remember her right, you used to steal her food.” Levi showed his twins the girl with ponytail who nodded her head at the little twins. “Sha......”

“This is Connie.” The shaved headed man lowered his body to greet the twins and the twins immediately tried to reach his head.

“Connniie.......”.

Not long after that, Jean arrived with a black shiny horse, belonged to Levi. Wasting no time, Levi brought the twins closer to the horse as well as introducing his cadet to the kids. 

“This is Jean.” 

None of them repeated the said name like the other cadets. They just kept staring at Jean and then looked at the horse alternately, but said nothing. Then, they changed a confused look with each other. 

“HAHA! Jean! Even the Captain’s kids knew your face looked like a horse!,” Eren suddenly chirped in and broke into laughter. (I love Jean ok, don’t get me wrong :p)

“HAAAAAAAA? Say that again?!! I don’t have a horse face you idiot!” And they started to quarrel for a short moment before they got silenced by their Captain’s simple “oioi”.

Levi brought both of his kids into his arms to the same level as the horse’s face. He encouraged his kids to try put their hands on its head, which they obliged silently. It did surprised Levi a bit over the fact that none of their kids showed any signs of fear of the horse and they seemed to bond pretty well in such a short amount of time. Then, he slowly put his twins on the horse saddle, the son was in the front and the daughter sat behind while hugging her brother tightly. A few soft taps on the horse, signalling the horse to start walking slowly while Levi walked beside it and ensuring his kids’ safety. 

As the horse started to move, the kids giggled and their little body shivered with excitement. Levi, upon noticing this, felt relieved to able to hear his kids laugh again instead of crying and throwing tantrums like when they were in his office. He then calmly asked his kids not to laugh loudly all of a sudden and try to remain calm since a sudden noise could make a horse shocked and nervous which would be dangerous for them. So, his daughter placed one of her hands on her mouth while keep giggling while her brother hunched his body, putting both of his fists on his chest as if the feeling of enjoy was too much for his tiny body. 

“Hey, open your eyes.” Levi said to his son, slightly worried that his son might actually felt scared. “Are you scared?,” he asked. The said boy immediately opened his eyes and vigorously shook his head. 

“I’m happyyyy,” he broke into a huge smile that made his cheeks pushed his eyes to closed again. 

Levi shook his head softly and chuckled with his kids’ reactions. And so the dad and his two twins keep circling around the training field under the evening sky with his horse for multiple rounds as his twins would keep saying “daddy again, daddy again” whenever the horse stopped forawhile and who could decline the wishes of the Captain’s cute twins? No one. They also started to become cheerful around their father again, much to Levi’s pleasure.

“I never thought there comes a day where I am able to see the Captain’s soft side.” Jean said while eyes following the said figure with the horse. 

“I never thought Captain had a soft side actually.” Connie replied. 

“You guys.... Captain is a human afterall. Of course he would have a soft side.” Armin joined, showing his support on his respected Captain. 

As the time passed by, the twins became quieter and Levi knew that was a sign that his kids were starting to feel tired so he decided to bring back the horse to its stable and he would return the chamber to bath his kids that were now all sweaty and dusty. 

-

“HEHhee Daddy that tickles!”, the little boy said while laughing as his dad was trying to soap his armpit. 

“Okay, you wash that yourself.” Levi said while smiling. Right now, he was sitting on a small tool inside the bathroom with only a towel around his waist, both of his kids were fully naked as he was on duty to give his kids a bath, making sure they were extremely clean before going to bed. 

“Daddy, I want white head as well,” his daughter said, referring to his brother’s head that was covered with shampoo foam. 

“Okay come here.”

“Daddy! I want to wash your back”

“Daddy, why is your back so bumpy?”

“It’s muscle”

“What’s mushel (muscle)?”

“Daddy! I want to wash your hair!”

“Okay. Use that shampoo.”

“Poopoo? Euwww daddy poopooooo.”

“No, I said shampoo.” Levi broke into smile, trying to stiffle his laugh. His bath time this evening had been so cheerful thanks to his kids that were now came in good terms again with him. He felt warmth all over his body despite being shirtless inside a bathroom and he was definitely content, having tiny hands rubbing and soaping his body, taking care of him while attacking him with all sorts of questions, none that annoyed him since everything about his kids were just criminally adorable. 

“I love you”, he suddenly blurted out perhaps due to being overwhelmed with joy.

“I wuv you too, daddy”

“Yeah, I wuuv you too”

Levi just chuckled upon hearing his twins’ answers, and smiled warmly at each one of them, including the person who was peeking quietly behind the door--you. The “I love you”, smiles and chuckles were not entirely just for his kids, but for you as well and you knew it. It was expected for the kids to not notice you, who had been peeking and resting your head at the door frame since their backs were facing you and were too busy washing their father while asking this and that. 

The sight of your handsome husband lovingly giving bath to your kids and having your cute naked babies returning the favor to their dad really helped in making your day felt better despite it was pretty hectic and stressful in the beginning. It was these kind of days that made you felt grateful for being alive, and thankful for the decisions that you made in life especially the one that having Levi to be yours. 

So, you returned the warm smile with a loving one and mouthing back “I love you more.”

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Keeping Up With Seijoh Ep. 4

a/n: uwuwuwuwu @animesportboys​ and i were just talking about this and my heart was just bursting at this thought 😭

for more seijoh content, check this masterlist out!

also requests are currently closed right now since i have like nearly 30 to finish so please be patient with me and wait for me to finish it all and until then i can open them up again. however, dont stop sending me cute stuff okay?  🥺

summary: its the time of the month for seijoh’s manager 🥺

@ yn when shes extra moody and mean during that time and does this every time she hears anything even come out of the boys’ mouth

oh dear

so basically

it’s,,,,,, a natural thing that most girls go through every month for more than half of their lives and its absolutely D R E A D F U L

the boys ofc knew what the hell a period was bc hello health class so they knew you would become this,,, other version of yourself

youd be moodier, childish, and easy to annoy and snap to everyone

but you would quickly realize how you’re acting then be all regretful and teary and cry easily and then youd forget about it then start the cycle again

you’d stick your tongue out at them and tease them mercilessly, making them run even more laps and pushing them harder

‘I SEE THOSE ARMS SHAKING, IWAIZUMI HAJIME. ADD 15 MORE TO THAT ROUTINE’

‘WHAT?!’

‘IF I SEE YOU EVEN A STEP BEHIND KINDAICHI, YOU WILL BE RUNNING 8 MORE LAPS KUNIMI’

‘NOO!!!!’

‘CHECK YOURSELF OUT ONE MORE TIME, YAHABA, I WILL GOUGE OUT YOUR EYES’

‘HAVE MERCY!!!!’

dear god they hated it

when it was time, they would protect themselves and work even harder and be more perfect to make sure you couldnt see their faults and point them out and try and kill them

it was like war for everyone

but they didnt know the exact date it started so they didnt really know when to start preparing for war until it came

this time, you didnt either

you didnt even know you were starting as you were extra busy booking the buses for away comps and collecting and emailing teachers for any missed homeworks for the team

so when it did start,,,

oh dear part 2

it wasnt really something you found out when you woke up that morning but you noticed you must be getting close since you were feeling extra cranky and you havent even been awake for more than an hour

nothing really happened throughout the day so you were just thinking that you didnt get enough sleep last night so you were just tired and wanted to sleep

but then it happened

you were standing next to iwa, reviewing his spike percentages when you shifted your weight to the other leg and then your eyes widened

your water broke

i saw this tiktok of this one girl and she was about to start filming with her friend when her eyes widened and her friend knew immediately and her caption was ‘my water broke’

iwa was worried as heck on to what was going on with you and even followed your gaze to see it on the wall and nothing out of the ordinary

‘y/n?’

‘oh god’

you mumbled and you wanted to run but you were too scared that you leaked and probably have an obvious redness on your white track pants

yep it def was your time bc you felt tears welling up in your eyes and you sniffled, embarrassed and upset for this to happen now, of all times

then oikawa tooru bursted through the doors

iwa, taking his eyes off of you and to the captain, started to yell at him until he noticed the brunette’s flushed face and panting form, hunched over as he gripped on the door handle with the plastic bag

you, too busy trying to think of a way to get out of there like deciding to waddle or to just crawl, didnt see oikawa as he approached you

the team paused and watched as he took a black hoodie from the plastic bag and wrapped it around your waist

‘hmm, y/n-chan, better get dressed so we can go now’

he hummed and you snapped out of your panic and looked up at him with watery eyes

‘oikawa-san’

you whispered and he nodded, eyes knowing what was going on

‘coach, theres a planetarium special tonight’

oikawa shouted without tearing his gaze away from you and coach irihata instantly knew, knowing the code that oikawa came up with when you became a part of the family team

the elder coach made a noise of agreement and oikawa didnt wait to up and carry you in his arms and waved to the team while pushing your head in his chest so you can hide

‘work hard everyone!’

‘oi, shittykawa! what the hell-!’

but an intense side-eye from his best friend shut him up and he knew something happened so he didnt say anything since he trusts oikawa to fix it

‘i trust you will take care of them, iwa-chan’

iwaizumi nodded firmly before shouting to resume back to practice and he himself went back to the line for spikes

you were carried to the bathroom so you could change into your emergency undies and pad and after you did your business, oikawa noticed you uncomfortably waddling towards him so he took you back into his arms

oikawa continued to carry you like his bride down the street towards an unknown destination, humming a children’s show tune that takeru loved to watch, while you maintained curled around yourself, partly due to the shame but also from the pain in your abdomen

you wiped the few stray tears that spilled past your eyes and oikawa chuckled when he noticed you aggressively wipe them off

‘hmm, y/n-chan, you shouldnt do that to yourself. it irritates your eyes and the skin around it so gently dab it next time, kay?’

you nodded, burrowing back to his chest and breathing in his scent

french toast

he smelled like french toast as the smell of caramel and vanilla wafted into your nose

‘howd you know’

you mumbled against the fabric of his jacket

oikawa stopped his humming and replaced it with a chuckle

‘oh, y/n-chan. oikawa-san is a reliable senpai, dont you know? i got a tracker! just for you!’

he answered and your eyes moved from his arm to his smile and you gripped his jacket tighter, fingers curled around it as if it was your lifeline

‘thank you, oikawa-san’

your words of appreciation made oikawa’s heart thump and he faltered a little, blush creeping up his neck, but he fought it down, covering it up with a smirk

‘you should be, y/n-chan! girls would kill to be you right now!’

you rolled your eyes at the return of his cocky attitude but you knew better

the real oikawa tooru was under that mask

turns out, he carried you to his home as his house was the closest while yours had to be taken by a bus

thankfully his parents were out and his sister and nephew were in a trip in tokyo that you had the house to yourselves without anyone asking questions that might make you uncomfortable and them misunderstand

he shut the door with his foot and made his way up the stairs with ease, his strength truly impressing you at that moment, before settling you down on his bed

it wasnt even on purpose but you curled yourself on his blanket, head buried in his pillow

his heart combusted and tooru had to look away or else he wouldve jumped on you and coddled you forever

instead, he quickly ran over and knelt down under his desk to reach for the box that he has prepared for you

‘y/n-chan, i never knew your pattern until last month so i was able to prepare for you now’

you looked up from your position on the bed and sat up enough to see him standing there, grinning with a mint green box

‘wh-what is that?’

you asked and he shuffled over, sitting next to you

‘this, is the y/n care love box! this special box was created by yours truly with everything you want and need during this dreadful week. theres your favorite food, warm socks, coupons you can spend like watching movies and eating ten tubs of ice cream while we talk shit about the boys’

he listed, gripping the box nervously 

‘so? do you like it?’

he looked away from the box and to you but his smile slipped into a panicked one when he saw you silently crying and biting your lip to keep the sobs in

‘y-y/n-chan! i-its okay if y-you dont like it! o-oikawa-san can-’

‘no!’

you cut him off and lunged to hug him with all your might

hehe all might

E A T   T H I S

‘i love you so much, oikawa-san! so much! thank you!’

you sobbed into his neck and he tightly hugged you back, lifting you so you could comfortably sit on his lap straddle him if you want me to be straight forward

oikawa gently moved so he was leaning against the wall that his bed was pressed against while you were pressed against his warmth

his fingers were drawing small circles on your back and whispering corny jokes or puns that made you giggle and laugh and occassionally, he would kiss your nose and you would whine at the ticklish feeling

eyes fleeting around the room, your eyes settled back on the box and you reached out, wanting to grab it until oikawa beat you to it and snatched it for you then placed it on your hold

‘whats inside, oikawa-san?’

you cutely mumbled, sitting comfortably back on his thighs so you could open the box in front of you

oikawa laughed

‘just open it and figure it out yourself, y/n-chan’

you pouted at his tease but smiled widely when you revealed the contents inside

‘oikawa-san!’

his eyes followed your surprised expression and his hands gripped your waist

‘you like it?’

he whispered and you nodded, looking back up at him and kissing his cheek, his 

‘youre so sweet, oikawa-san! like-like this candy bar! howd you know i like this?’

you held up the treat and he shrugged

‘i keep seeing you get it whenever we go to the store’

you continued to sift through the things, seeing a dvd of your favorite movie, a f/c heating pad, a note that said your favorite ice cream was in the fridge, a bag of your favorite chips, fluffy socks, the goodies

you didnt even notice yourself crying again, only realizing it when there were wet spots beneath you

oikawa saw this and he quickly but gently put the box to the side and cradled your face with both of his hands, softly wiping the tears away with his thumbs

‘aw, dont cry, my little baby. princesses should never cry’

you sniffled and choked a laugh

‘hah, n-not a baby. j-just hor-monal’

you complained and oikawa snickered but shook his head then kissed your nose again

‘youre my baby’

you didnt have it in you to complain so you went back to snuggling into him

oikawa squeezed you and went back to drawing the circles on your back and he felt you relax into his touch and slump against his form, slowly starting to snore

your head rested on his shoulder and he turned slightly to watch your eyes flutter and nose scrunch when a strand of your hair fell on it

his heart continued to beat faster and faster and it showed by the way his fingers shook as he carefully lifted the hair away from you

he slowly bent down to give you a kiss on the forehead before laying you down to sleep more comfortably

‘good night, princess’

he sweetly placed a last kiss on your cheek before getting up to go prepare your heating pad for when you wake up

the next few days were possibly the best period days youve ever had

maybe because it was oikawa telling the team that you were in,,,,, satan’s domain currently and they should be careful with you so they tried their best to lift the weight and burden off of your shoulders

however,,

the next day after the incident,,,

they still didnt know what was wrong with you and oikawa forgot to text the gc about your condition so they were still unknowing

like today

during your classes, you were feeling off, almost nauseous but eating little bits of your chocolate treats were helping you get through until lunch

ofc kunimi noticed bc hellow he sits next to you and he doesnt pay attention during class so hes been watching you sneak little bites so the teacher doesnt see and ducking under your book

he was just amused with the way your eyes would widen if you thought the teacher caught you

kindaichi and kunimi and you usually ate lunch together at your classroom since you three only got to hang out as first years during lunch

so they know you usually have a bento with you and have a general idea of how much you eat

and kunimi thought since you ate all those chocolates earlier, you wouldnt eat as much food but then he saw you scarf down your bento, eat 2 more bags of chips and was finishing last chocolate bar

kindaichi,,,, wasnt even finished with his own bento and was watching you, amazed, at how easily you ate all of it

they didnt say anything since they thought you just didnt eat dinner last night but even during the walk towards the gym for after school practice, you were complaining that you were hungry and was eating another chocolate bar

they thought something was truly wrong bc you were eating so much more than usual

kunimi watched you chew on it as you opened the gym door and still ate even when you were talking to mattsun about his jump height

‘man, you sure are hungry, aren’t you, y/n? thats like your fifth chocolate bar today’

kunimi teased, grabbing a ball to spike but he froze, seeing you with the coldest and angriest look hes ever seen

you blinked at him, grip tightening on the treat, and mattsun slowly backing away from you

you advanced towards the blep boy, treat already forgotten and shoved to be held by mattsun 

despite your shorter height than kunimi, he trembled slightly as you looked up at him

‘are you calling me fat, kunimi? are you? am i fat? do you think im ugly? im a piggie?’

you ranted and slowly started crying, making kunimi frantically scramble to stop you before the other upperclassmen see or worse, oikawa-san

‘y/n-wait-no!-um’

‘y/n-chan?’

kunimi shut his eyes tightly in fear at the deadly sweet voice of his captain and kindaichi and mattsun sent a quick prayer to their fellow teammate before he was going to get killed

‘uh oh, i think we’d have to start looking for a replacement for kunimi’

makki, who just arrived, teased making kindaichi fearfully look at him

‘eh?!’

‘oh, you first years have never seen oikawa mad, have ya? well, you’ll get front seat of it!’

mattsun clapped him in the back making him gulp

you werent sobbing but you were definitely crying, tear tracks quickly being wetted by the numerous amount of tears that fell

kunimi scrambled to his knees and folded himself, forehead resting on the floor by his hands

‘I APOLOGIZE! PLEASE DONT KILL ME! I APOLOGIZE! PLEASE FIND MERCY IN YOURSELF AND FORGIVE ME, Y/N-SAMA!’

it was certainly a sight to see

normally calm and collected and chill and relaxed hippie kunimi begging to be forgiven

oikawa stepped forward but you quickly felt the change of your mood, feeling bad for your boy and scrambling to pull him back up

‘oh kunimi-kun! dont kneel like that! the floor is too hard and might give you knee pain!’

it was like whiplash

iwa stepped in the gym and saw the team’s confused and bewildered expressions and saw you, kunimi, and oikawa and he shook his head

this aint even half of bad as he has seen

oikawa gently took you away from kunimi and held you to him instead, giving you a smile, to which you returned, and looked at kunimi, a deadly glint in his eye

‘what happened, y/n-chan?’

the tone of his voice sent a chill to run down everyone’s spines and even iwa, the boy who’s seen this a handful of times, shivered and nervously watched oikawa, ready to jump in

but you just blinked, completely unaware of the change of atmosphere

‘oh, um, i overreacted. i was eating too much food today and mustve annoyed him or something’

you sheepishly mumbled but oikawa was having none of it

‘no, its fine. youre literally bleeding out as we speak! dont feel the need to validate yourself!’

he lightly scolded while you hung your head low and continued to apologize but he gently bonked your head before scolding you again

the team definitely knew now that you were in that,,,, time and they definitely knew now, especially kunimi, that even if youve seen oikawa mad, youd think that the devil was more merciful than him when it relates to the topic of you

a/n: i swear to GGGOOOOODDDDDD im an oikawa whore who cant seem to stop writing for him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!