#I'd be scared if I was stuck in my own creation too

[vangh17a]

He won't admit he's scared :')

[system-of-a-feather]

I don't have that good communication beyond the subsystem, but I think Ray is trying to pass me an idea / suggestion about somewhere down the line possibly fusing with a deep part gatekeeper when we get around to that and when we aren't 1) busy dealing with gender shit (which will be a while) and 2) when I am more settled in the present and honestly its a pretty interesting concept

That gatekeeper is a bit of a mystique part that doesn't really work with or interact with most of the system by nature of their role - but I could see it happening and being a thing since me and that gatekeeper are somewhat originally modeled partially after the same OC (I'm not an introject, but that OC is one I relate and identify with to some level and my internal appearance was somewhat borrowed from it; that part is a shapeshifting part that takes the form of OCs and the original one he took upon was that same OC) and because I'm honestly volunteering and putting my name down for working with the deep dormant parts when the time gets around to it because despite being of the Riku subsystem - I cope and existed in a similar space and dealing with similar parts as those parts and while I'm "from this side" of the system, I am like... a dual citizen and that side of the system is not nearly as foreign to me as it is for other parts.

So that might be interesting. Not anytime immediate, but I am more than open to it.

I do love how this system is so enthusiastic to welcome me to the "functional unit" of the system - and I do actually mean that genuinely beyond my teenage "but i dont waaannnnnnnnaaa do anything and I don't want to participate in society" and less of an actual "its too much" - cause it would be really great if I was actually able to contribute and participate in helping the other parts in this brain that were in a similar place to me break out of that stuff and I would really like to contribute - especially since I am honestly, again, just really happy to be able to exist beyond curling up in a corner and having flashbacks constantly.

So if Ray and everyone hears me make one comment about the system and immediately eyeballs me as "such a possible future asset to the team" - as weird as it kind of is - I am more than glad to sign papers showing interest in being a trainee to the Squad because honestly, I think these guys are pretty cool and I'd really like to bring my old friends out here with me cause honestly, the main system is honestly a bit scared of them because they are pretty mentally fucked up and the longer they hide and cope in the "if i dont exist i cant have flashbacks 24/7" - the more unhinged they tend to get - but honestly, as someone who was there recently myself, they're not that bad and they're just really stuck and I really think they deserve better. They comforted me when I was in their place and I'd really like to help those parts come join me here.

Plus honestly, I really have to give the Functional Unit of this system a lot of credit, they did a lot of really good in the time I was either nonexistant or trapped in a loop and I'd really just like to add to that creation process because I think its really amazing how much we've learned to thrive since I was previously "alive".

That said, I firmly agree with the system's decision to completely ignore / leave "that side" of the system alone because 1) thats how the system is structured and there are a number of parts in place to keep it that way, so it would be fighting up stream 2) I know from personal experience that if the parts aren't coming to you, its more hurtful and harmful to try to bring them up - it's best to invite them when they come by on their own terms and take the time and 3) god it is hard "waking up" when you are in that place and while I think they deserve way better, I firmly stand by that half of the system being able to choose when they are ready and wanting to get that because again, its hard.

So while I do really like those parts, I really respect that they would rather not exist than deal with the trauma inherent in their existence and all - so all I am going to do is put my request and notification of willingness and interest to support them when the time comes on Ray's desk and letting him know that I very very much would love to help that side out as someone whose been there.

To which I'm getting the feeling from Ray, XIV, Riku, and Lucille that everyone is just astounded to hear anyone stating that about that side because I am only now realizing that literally everyone had no real good idea on how to safely work with those parts so I guess me being pretty casual about them is... unexpected for the elders who have spent years upon years thinking about how to handle "the sleeping dragon" as the system refers to that side of things.

That said, they do look at me like I went up to a Terrasque that has destroyed a whole continent and like I just grabbed it and started dressing it up in a tuttu or something.

[always-andromeda]

hii !! first, congrats on your 500 followers milestone! your writing always inspires me and i absolutely love your work !!

second, i'd love to request the Louisa prompt and i will try to be as detailed as possible about myself:

my name is tigerlily but i go by tiger :-) i'm 20, she/they, about 5'4" with a thin build and my hair is dark and styles like a short neck-length shag with micro bangs! i have 6 tattoos and i definitely plan on getting more! my only piercings are my ears, septum, and the bridge!

any paul character pairing 🤍 (minus pierre at the moment because i haven't watched that series yet ): )

to start off, i'm very introverted and i come off as timid or mean, but once you get to know me, i'm very talkative, sweet, and caring :-) o don't have many friends but those that i do have often tell me i'm funny without even trying! i often have trouble opening up to others, and tend to keep my emotions to myself unless given the safe space to talk about sensitive things and i become more lively when talking about the things i love! toward others, i'm very considerate and kind and i'm often regarded as being too kind sometimes, but i know my limits when the time comes :-)

i work at a women's boutique and it's a wonderful job, but i absolutely LOVE to ramble and vent about rude customers to help relieve stress! stress is another thing that i'm pretty easily subjected to and it tends to affect my mood but i try my best to not let it out on those that i love, but a good stress relief is always talking to someone who listens to me! another big point is that i absolutely love physical affection in any way; either it be kissing, hugging, or simple hand holding and i love gift giving, but i do not like gift receiving!

as for how i dress (with brutal honesty) my biggest clothing inspiration is alice from twilight :-) it's what i feel most comfortable in and i can also dress formally from the experience i have at my workplace!

i absolutely love creating! my main source of creation is writing and painting! i love writing my own stories and am currently working on an ongoing novel of my own! i'm passionate about writing and almost always have projects started! as for painting, i'd painted on canvases before but as of recently i've stuck to traditional drawing on a sketchbook! on top of that, i love reading & horror movies! i'm picky about books but when i find one that interests me, i get latched onto it and re-read it a couple of times :-) as for horror movies, i love the feeling of getting scared and the suspense, but i also love getting invested in a romance movie even though i think they're cheesy and i always love watching a documentary! when it comes to music, i'm mostly into emo/alternative and a few of my favorite bands are deftones, men i trust, and no doubt :-) i love metal music as well, and another compliment(?) i always get is that my music taste doesn't match what i look like at all! i'm currently trying to learn guitar as well!

that's pretty much all! again, congrats on 500 followers ^^

Author's Note | thank you so much for 1) being so detailed! and 2) the kind words!! I'm glad my work means something to you and I hope you love your matchup!

I am pairing you with ✨ Dwayne!! ✨ Just a note before I continue, anytime I write for Dwayne, I automatically age him up to around college age and write him how I perceive him being in college, so please note that I’m doing this here as well! Without further ado, let me elaborate.

Dwayne is an introvert, we know this. He also comes off as a bit of a grump. So I'd see you two almost skirting around each other at first until someone says something innocuous and he feels a little pang. Just this little voice that says, "Wow...I like being around them."

Once he starts getting to know you, he'll be all over your personality. From your taste in music to your interest in horror to your pickiness for books, Dwayne just loves getting to know you and all of your different quirks.

Dwayne isn't great with affection at first. But it's something I could see you being able to ease him into. He would practically malfunction the first time you hold his hand. Kiss him on the cheek and they will turn so red and he has no idea how to control the butterflies he gets when you show him affection. He'd act all indifferent about it, but with time, I see him quietly lacing his fingers with yours while he's busy doing something. He doesn't make a big deal about returning your affection but it warms his heart immensely.

[songbirdsandsugar-moved]

1. What is your favorite trope to rp?

2. Name 3 things you admire about OCs.

3. Who are your longest rp friends?

4. What old character would you love to bring back?

5. What is a character you love, but don’t think you can write?

1. What is your favorite trope to rp?

I LOVE enemies to lovers. I've never done written it with Lucy because she's just so lovable to start with. (Though maybe in her 'sadness' verse I could pull it off.) But I did get to do it with my Billie (@umbrellasfuture ). Its such a cliche trope, but I love it so much. (Along with two people who are too dumb/scared to admit they have feelings for each other.)

2. Name 3 things you admire about OCs.

The originality, of course. There's so much that goes into making an OC to begin with, you're designing the character from scratch, including the FC. There's no blueprint to follow. Which also ties into the creativity aspect of it. Anyone can throw a name and an FC out there and say "Here's my OC" but it takes a creative person to have an OC with depth and a solid background. I've written with many OCs, and some of them were "oh my gosh, they're so intriguing, this is so amazing, such perfection!" and some of them were "what even is this? none of this makes sense, we're just throwing everything but the kitchen sink into it, huh?" I also love the freedom that comes with OCs. No one can tell you your OC is acting uncharacteristically, because it's literally your creation.

3. Who are your longest rp friends?

My longest RP friend doesn't RP anymore. Her name is Liz, and she used to write Lucy's best friend, Chanel. She helped me with a lot of Lucy's development in the early stages of Lucy's "life." We are Facebook friends though! Since starting Lucy over on this blog, I'd say @ycllowhaired, because even though we don't talk much ooc, we've had many wonderful threads across various blogs, and Fleur stuck by me through my hiatus earlier this year, and was ready to write with me again when I came back. And @lettherebemonsters isn't my "longest" friend, but she's definitely my bestest friend.

4. What old character would you love to bring back?

I'm not sure....I have a Westley/Dread Pirate Roberts that's a side blog attached to my multi muse that I don't use anymore...I've had thoughts recently of revamping him either as his own main blog, or a side blog here. But I haven't decided yet.

5. What is a character you love, but don’t think you can write?

Drusilla from Buffy. I love her so so so so so so so so so so so so so much. I'm just not sure I can fully capture her essence and the rhythmic cryptic way she speaks.

[irisbleufic]

Hi! Just wanted to drop this real quick because I am but a simple lass who adores your powers of analysis.

I found this on Pinterest and what immediately struck me is that yeah, Jerome isn't the craziest version of himself here, but he's still highly dangerous, still decidedly not sane. Yet, his knife isn't even touching Bruce's neck, his hand is. Like a lover softly brushing their knuckles on a partner's throat. His left arm is wrapped around Bruce to keep him in place, but again, take the knife away and this is a tender embrace. And if I were being held tightly by someone holding a dagger to my neck, I'd be clawing at them. I'd be angry and scared, of course. And Bruce is afraid, very much so. Nonetheless, he's clutching at Jerome in a very peculiar way.

Nada, just thought you'd find this interesting. Hope all is going well and you're getting some sleep (writing And teaching, how do you do it?) !

Hi there, @shippinggirl2424!  The trick to this situation is just that: it’s a trick. At this point, Jerome is so eager to please Theo Galavan (and to be a star, which is what Galavan’s promising him via this holding-up of the televised gala) that he’s maintaining this as a measured, controlled performance. The audience and Bruce both need to believe Bruce is in danger, which he is to a degree—but it’s not immediate danger. At this stage, maybe after a year or slightly less of doing time in Arkham and then being freed by the Galavans, Jerome is willing to take directions since acting rashly on his own (i.e. killing his mother and getting caught) didn’t work out so well for him. He can’t hold onto Bruce too roughly and can’t risk letting the knife actually bite into his neck because he might actually kill him if he does that…but that’s not what Theo has told him to do, is it? All he’s really been asked to do is play the actions of menace in this context until Theo arrives to save the day. Jerome doesn’t know Theo is going to kill him; if he had known, Jerome’s actions in this context might have changed drastically. Casting an actor so physically intentional in this role was necessary. Those tiny, subtle distinctions need to be perceptible—and Monaghan delivers.

As for how Bruce carries himself in this scene, that’s not surprising, because Mazouz shares that capability with his co-star. Alfred has likely impressed upon Bruce that struggling in a situation like this carries no advantage unless you’re sure you have the upper hand. Bruce knows he does not; that’s the choice I see in how it’s acted. Keeping one hand over Jerome’s like that shows an unusual amount of poise under duress; he knows he can’t do anything to prompt Jerome to handle him more roughly, but he also knows he needs to have his hands in positions that could let him fight back at a moment’s notice. Like, jeez, they’re both just teenagers here (probably about 13 and 18, or 14 and 19, depending on how much time Jerome did in Arkham before the Galavans busted him and the Maniax out to cause all this trouble), and they’re both under the tight control of others around them. They both stand to lose their lives if they make one wrong move (and Jerome is going to lose his no matter what he does, but again, he believes if he does what he’s told, he’ll get what he wants).

This is all to say, there are absolute reasons why you perceive “gentleness” in the contact here. It’s not so much gentleness on either of their parts as it is restraint. They just each have completely different reasons for showing a measure of restraint. If you compare this encounter to the night of Jerome’s resurrection and the fun fair, which is another year or so beyond this incident, none of this restraint applies. Jerome wakes up thinking the desire to kill Bruce was conceived as his own notion, when really it was Galavan’s design, and Bruce by that point has lost many of his illusions and reservations surrounding his own use of violence. I always end up in a place, in my stories, where, out the other side of this hate that’s been set up for them, they realize they have a lot more in common than they’d admit—and it’s so interesting to make them cooperate in matters surrounding the fact they’ve fallen for each other’s “siblings” (Jeremiah doesn’t merit quotation marks, but Five does both due to the lack of specificity in canon surrounding his creation and to the manner of specificity I’ve built for my stories to fill those gaps in his origins).

Strip away the strings controlling Jerome and Bruce, or the remnants of strings, and they have the potential to end up in situations where they’re of more help to each other than hindrance (I mean, look at the diner scene in S4). They don’t have the same kind of complicating spark, by which I do mean a crush, that Bruce and Jeremiah form from the moment they first see each other. Get on the bad side of somebody you love or somebody you’re in love with and it’s far, far worse than getting on the bad side of somebody you’re just stuck with. Bruce and Jerome kind of just get stuck with each other, and after a while, every time they cross paths, it’s like, oh, right, you again. The first time you put Jeremiah in the mix with Jerome and Bruce is the one time it arguably ends worse for Jerome than it ever has before, and it’s at least partly because Jerome and Bruce each feel something far more complicated for Jeremiah than they feel for each other.

[freddieslater]

Rowing the Rarepair Rowboat: Klaus Mikaelson x Lexi Branson (The Vampire Diaries)

Requested by @insidious-wxlf

Klaus eyes the girl standing alone in the corner of the exhibit. He thinks the word "girl" lightly only because her face is surprisingly smooth and unblemished by the age that he's aware she possesses.

He politely excuses himself from his conversation with an over enthusiastic guest. She doesn't mind in the slightest when her agreement rewards her with a pleased smile that holds the potential of a promise of his return. He's not one to keep a promise.

The girl with the locks of golden curls just stands there, head tilting this way and that. Sidling up to her, he notices her even squinting her eyes a little bit with her lips twisted uncertainly.

"You're not impressed," he says bluntly, and knows he's guessed correctly.

The girl doesn't even turn to him. She merely glances with a sideways flick of her sparkling eyes, like bubbles in champagne, and gives a tittering smile. Familiar and infuriating at the same time.

"Now, did I say that?" Alexia responds.

"You didn't have to," Klaus says flatly, hands behind his back and doing his best to keep his face a mask so as to not seem wounded by the slight poking of a sharp dagger in his chest and his throat. "Your face said it for you."

"Well, I wasn't aware that my face had developed the unheard of ability to speak for me. And with my mouth closed, to add further astonishment."

Klaus rolls his eyes and sighs, already sick of their little game. He waves a hand at the canvas in front of them.

"If you're going to come here and silently judge my work, then, do tell, what exactly is it about it that you find so unimpressive?" he asks. More demands, but one never really demands anything of Alexia Branson. He's learned that lesson before. Many times.

Sure enough, she takes an extra moment to answer simply to spite his tone. He clenches his jaw but stays quiet, waiting.

Then she squints her eyes some more, gives another tilt of her head, as if really examining the flaws in the painting. Klaus even finds himself glancing over it uncertainly. Perhaps it wasn't one of his best. He does recall being rather frustrated with it during the process of creation, and there had been a light squabble between his siblings that he had been made to deal with in between. Maybe it reflected a little too much in his work.

Then Alexia says, with an air of finality on her descision, and extreme confidence, "It's too blue."

Klaus stares at her. "It's too... blue? Your problem with this piece is that there is too much... blue?"

"No, not too much of the colour blue," Alexia says, shaking her head, making those curls move with her, fascinatingly. "It's too blue. Sad. You may has well have just painted a big frown on it and titled it, "My Inner Soul"."

She turns to him and he finally sees the grin stretching across her delicately painted lips. A weight is lifted out of his chest and then he's shaking off his disbelief.

"You're mocking me," he scoffs, a low chuckle starting beneath it in his throat. "To my face as well, a very bold move, I have to say!"

It's her turn to roll her eyes now. "Oh, I'm so scared, Nik! What are you going to do? Kill the only person who actually buys your paintings? Now, would that not just be a poorly-thought out business move?"

She's turned to properly face him now, her head tilted again, and that smile still playing across her lips. It's impossible to hold any displeasing thoughts or feelings inside of him when it feels as though she can peer right into the soul that he questions the existence of. She doesn't. She has no doubt that it's in there -- she's told him as such, time and again, despite his protests and attempts to prove her wrong. She's so certain.

He sputters a bit, fumbling over his words, something in which she finds great amusement. And he finds fondness in her amusement, so really, he doesn't mind too badly.

"Now -- that is simply untrue! I have other buyers."

"Mhm." Lexi hums. "But if that's the case, then why have I been granted the absolute privilege of being allowed to remain... well, undead?"

Klaus considers it. In truth, he's snapped necks for lesser insults and grievances.

But he looks at Lexi, and his mind instantly softens his hands to caress the delicate skin of her neck instead. He can see the places where his lips have left love letters, once reread over and again, now tucked away beneath the surface of her skin to be kept secret.

An odd feeling posesses him for a moment longer than he'd like. Similar to the time one vampire got brave and made a grab for his heart, managing to get their idiotic little fingers wrapped around it for just a moment. They had just started to twist when their head had landed on the other side of the room, courtesy of a well-timed Elijah.

It's that feeling. The twisting of his heart, phantom fingers around it like it's some kind of ball for them to play with, just to give the strings a little tug.

It's an aching, hollow feeling right in his chest and down a bit, where no one should be able to reach.

He swallows and draws his eyes away from Alexia's unmarked neck, back up to her still sparkling eyes. She raises her eyebrows at his delay in answering.

"My god," she says, widening her eyes with feigned amazement, "I've actually rendered the great Niklaus Mikaelson speechless. I wasn't sure anything could ever make you stop talking -- if you don't inflate your ego, who else will?"

Klaus' mouth twitches at the corner and he allows the smile to blossom into another chuckle. He shakes his head.

"Precisely, my love," he says, but he is too soft, still caught up in his thoughts, where the desire to be gentle always won out.

Alexia doesn't bat an eyelash. "So, am I going to be walking out of Chicago with a head then?"

She's kidding, of course. Teasing him because they both know that he's never had a single desire for her pain in any form. Even the thought of it makes his gut twist like someone has stuck a dagger in it and forgot to remove it.

"I'd rather you didn't walk out of Chicago at all," he confesses before he can think.

This wasn't how things were supposed to be. Alexia was simply a fellow vampire he stumbled across during a darker period. Many vampires have come and gone through his many centuries, many during much worse times in his life, and yet she's one of the rare few who got stuck in his mind. Her gentleness, the way he softens just by being near her or thinking of her and how she'd react if he made a particularly unpleasant descision.

Finally, she's the one who's caught off her guard. "Oh," she flusters. "Um... I mean, I don't have to go right now. Kind of got forever. So... I can stay."

Klaus nods. "Good. I'd..." he clears his throat, but the words seem to have lodged themselves firmly in there.

Alexia's grinning again, leaning in closer. "What was that? That word you were going to say? You'd...?"

Klaus clenched his teeth again but it's partly to keep his smile from stretching like it wants to.

"I'd advise you quit while you're ahead, dear Alexia, or--"

"How many times do I have to tell you to stop calling me that?" she interrupts. "You sound like your brother when you call me Alexia."

Klaus actually is wounded this time. "Point made. Lexi it is."

She smirks, and says, "Good. Now, you were saying that I should quit while I'm ahead?"

"Which would apparently be always," Klaus concedes.

Lexi laughs, looking rather pleased about it, too. Such cockiness on anyone else would infuriate him. With Lexi, it's more fond exasperation. If anything, it's a good look on her and one he always takes pleasure in.

"I would be very happy if you were to stay for a little while longer," Klaus says, finishing his thought.

Lexi beams at him. She tilts her chin up and takes his arm, surprising him as she hooks it over her own.

"Then it is a very good thing that your happiness actually means something to me," she says. "Now, show me the rest of your paintings. And I want less sadness! Show me your happiest one."

Klaus peers at her for a moment. She just smiles that beautiful smile at him.

"I know just the one," he says, and she gestures for him to lead the way.

[super-unpredictable98]

T(UA) | Umbrella Academy x My Hero Academia Crossover

Part 3: SOS Umbrella

Warning: Strong language, mention of death and abuse, Bakugou being Bakugou, very mild sexual content

Words: 2k | (Masterlist) | Part 1 | Part 2

"I didn't see you come in last night, did you kiss him? Did you kiss Kaminari?" Klaus shook Vicky awake.

"Jesus, do you wanna kill me?" she yawned. "No, we just talked."

"Talked with your lips on his lips, your tongue on his tongue while little sparks of electricity light up the Japanese night?"

"No, with my lips on... Nowhere. He did show me how static electricity feels on the palms of my hands, that was kinda romantic."

"Booo, you're so boring, Victoria Maria!" he threw a blazer at her, heading to the door. "Come on, yesterday at dinner a girl offered to let you borrow her clothes for the party tonight or make you some new ones."

"Which girl?"

"Yaoyu... Yaoyo... Momo, her name is Momo."

"Oh, the creation girl! I need to thank her, she's too sweet. How about Diego and Jiro? And you and Aoyama?" she asked as she followed her brother out of the room.

"Diego and Jiro were making out all night long, and Aoyama... Is shy."

"So you're giving me shit for not kissing Kaminari but you didn't kiss your date either? Would you look at that!"

"Well, at least I kissed someone already!" Klaus stuck his tongue out defiantly. "You mouth virgin!"

"Oh, freckled freak never kissed a boy, why am I not surprised?" Bakugou laughed as he passed by the siblings. He had seen her with Kaminari the night before and though he would never admit it, he didn't really like it... Well, he hated it.

"Shut up, Gordon Ramsey!" Klaus yelled. "This fucking kid, I wish he could spend a few weeks with dad, see if he's so tough then. He'd wanna blow his own head off."

"Just ignore him, stupid bullies like him just want attention," Vicky said despite her feelings being hurt with every single word, but she was used to that sort of thing, which means she was also great at hiding it. "Hey there, Pikachu."

"That's the nicest thing anyone has ever called me," Kaminari grinned as they joined. "Happy birthday, by the way!"

"Make sure to give her a nice gift," Mineta giggled, everything that kid said had a double meaning. "A nice, deep one."

"Shut up!" he hissed, usually he was the first one to laugh at his friend's antics, but he really didn't wanna scare her off and the pervy route didn't seem to work all that well for either of them. "He's just kidding, I'd like to get you something though."

"You don't have to," Vicky blushed slightly. "I never get any gifts, just the party is more than enough."

"You never get gifts?"

"Dad doesn't believe in gifts. He says giving us clothes, food, and a house is enough," Klaus explained. "But I know something you could give her and she would absolutely love! A dance, tonight."

"I'll dance with you," Kirishima offered, showing his fangs in a dazzling smile.

"Hey! I'm the one she's dancing with," Karminari snapped and his friends laughed. "Not manly! Not manly at all!"

"Has anyone seen Aoyama?" Klaus asked.

"He doesn't usually eat with us," Ashido said as she joined. "I almost never see him here."

"Oh, I see," he tried not to show any disappointment. "And Yao-Momo? She wanted to see us about the outfit for tonight."

"She's over there with Todoroki and Hagakure," Ashido pointed. "So, are you excited to go back home tomorrow? You must miss it, right? I miss home all the time since I moved to the dorm."

"Home..." Vicky took her last bite and sighed. "I- I guess. Will you guys excuse me for a moment? I forgot something in my room, I'll see you guys in a little bit."

Without saying anything else, she took her tray and left. Klaus knew that would be a delicate topic, she was (along with himself) the one who suffered the most back home with her training schedule, their father wanted to make her into an absolutely indestructible being, and he was willing to push any limit.

Vicky thought about locking herself in her room and just crying, but just the idea felt suffocating, she needed fresh air, so she chose to lay down outside, the yard right in front of the 1-A dorm. The sun made all that grass warm, it felt like being hugged, exactly what she needed.

"Are you hurt?" that deep, lazy voice asked and though her vision was blurred by tears, she could recognize Aizawa, looking down at her.

"Why do people keep asking me that? Do you only cry when you're hurt?" she sat up, wiping her tears away.

"I don't cry," he said completely serious, kneeling by her side.

"I don't believe you."

"What happened, Die Hard?"

"Don't call me Die Hard, I'm Vicky, just Vicky."

"Why are you sad? Did Bakugou say something to you?"

"How do you know about Bakugou?"

"I watched the fight, he was... Harsh. He got sent to the principal's office for that comment, he was punished already."

"Yeah, but that's just how he is. That's not why I'm sad."

"Then why?"

"Because I leave tomorrow. Part of me had forgotten, I guess."

"I thought you'd be excited to go back home. See your other siblings and your father."

"I don't wanna go, Aizawa sensei. I don't wanna go back. I'm scared!"

"Scared of what?" his expression darkened with worry.

"I always knew the way I was raised wasn't right... But seeing how the kids are here, it just made me so jealous. They worry about tests and crushes, not just villains. I wanted to stay and have All Might look after me. He's the only adult that has ever treated me like I matter, he cares about my feelings."

"Your dad doesn't treat you like you matter?"

"No, he treats me like a steel wall or a bulletproof vest. Sometimes I think that each time he shoots me, he's hoping the bullet will finally kill me. He treats me like trash, he never once hugged me, or said he's proud of me, or that he loves me. I'm like a machine, I'm there to serve a purpose. Over the last two days, I've felt more loved than I've ever felt in 16 years."

"I'm so sorry," Aizawa embraced her without thinking twice. That wasn't something he usually did, at all, but the look on her face was so pitiful, he couldn't think of anything else.

"My brother, Five, he ran away from home and never came back," she mumbled. "Maybe I can do the same."

"Hey, don't cry, I'll talk to Mr. Principal."

"Would you do that for us?"

"As a hero, as a teacher, and as a human being, I can't just turn my back on this situation, kids shouldn't be scared to go home. Don't worry, Di- Vicky."

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"We can't let the Umbrella kids go back tomorrow," Aizawa said, he was usually very standoffish and didn't like to show he cared, but he couldn't ignore the situation after Vicky's appeal. "In fact, we should probably find a way to bring the other two here as well."

"Why do you say that?" Headmaster Nezu asked.

"I just came from the yard, Die Hard is crying her eyes out because she has to go back, these kids are being abused."

"I had that suspicion too," All Might added. "I just didn't know what to do or how to ask."

"Abused? I know how Reginald can be, he's very severe, but..." Nezu mused, that was a serious accusation.

"She told me that All Might was the first adult in her life that ever treated her like she matters. She said back home her father not only overworks them, but also never once gave them a single hug, said I love you, or anything that a father should do. She's terrified to go back, and I imagine her siblings must be as well, she's considering running away. Apparently one of her brothers already did that a few years back."

"W-well," All Might felt that weird tightness in his chest, she really said that? Even after everything that happened and how scared she was with his true form... "Maybe we could benefit from having the kids here for the Sports Festival?"

"I'll see what I can do," Nezu nodded.

Meanwhile, the kids were getting ready for the party. Klaus and Vicky went to Yaoyorozu's room to look for an outfit that would fit, but all of them had one problem in common:

"I don't have enough," Victoria cried looking in the mirror as the yellow strapless dress nearly slid down her body, she had to hold it up to keep it in place. "I thought I had big boobs, but you take the cake."

"Oh, I see," Momo blushed and Klaus exploded laughing. "I can make you something, it's no trouble. What do you like to wear?"

"I like punk and rock... So maybe something very Avril Lavigne?"

"Very what?"

"You don't know who Avril Lavigne is?" Klaus asked, which dimension was that where kids never screamed Sk8ter Boi at the top of their lungs?

"No, am I supposed to?"

"I guess not... Um, let's see," Vicky mused, trying to explain the image in her head. "How about a dress with a big skirt, pink and black with lace at the bottom, and maybe the top kinda looks like the mixture of a corset and a dress shirt with a cute little tie?"

"Okay, that's very specific," Momo browsed through her atomic dictionary, visualizing all the aspects of the dress and the materials she would need.

A weird shine covered her exposed thigh, almost like little glittery explosions on her skin as a piece of black fabric started coming out. It was freaky to watch, but also very cool. Yaoyorozu pulled out a full dress and held it up.

"Like this?" she asked expectantly.

"YES! Exactly like this," Vicky gasped, amazed at how wonderful it was. "God, you're like my fairy godmother, thank you so much!"

"Oh, it was nothing, it's the least I can do as a birthday gift for you guys... Do you want me to make you a suit or something, Séanse?"

"Can I have a dress as well?"

"Um, sure..."

"Okay, mine will be blue, tight, with sequins, and spaghetti straps. Can you do that?" his eyes lit up with the idea of it. He was rarely able to wear what he liked, so he was gonna go all out for that party.

"Of course, just give me a second, I've never made sequins before."

At that same time, in the living room, Kaminari and Mineta were about freaking out, not about clothes, but something much different:

"WHAT IF SHE THINKS I'M A TERRIBLE KISSER?" Kaminari cried, covering his eyes with his forearm.

"You have to use as much tongue as you can, so she thinks you have experience," Mineta said. "And hands straight to the ass! You can't waste time, she's leaving tomorrow!"

"She already knows I never kissed anyone," he shook his head. "I told her during our date yesterday."

"Are you fucking stupid?"

"Yes, you both are," Bakugou grunted. "Sparky, follow his advice and she'll lever look at you again."

"What do I do then? You have more experience with the girls?" Kaminari asked hopeful.

"Shut up! I'm not your relationship therapist!" he barked. "Why should I help you?"

"Cause we're friends?"

"You're not my friend," he muttered on the way to his room. "Just don't disrespect her, okay? You'll make a fool of yourself and her brothers will kick your ass... Hell, she'll kick your ass."

"What's all the fuss about?" Ashido joined, followed by Jiro.

"Kaminari doesn't know how to kiss," she laughed.

"DON'T YOU USE THOSE EARPHONES TO SPY ON ME!" he screamed.

"Fine then, I guess I won't give you any advice."

"No, please do! Please do! I'm desperate!"

"Fine, let's start with the basics..."

"The children are so excited aren't they?" All Might watched them from the porch with a sad smile. "I can't believe this is their first birthday party, it's so cruel."

"Should we let them know about Hargreeves-san's decision?" Aizawa asked, shaking his head defeated.

"No, not today, let them have fun tonight, it's the first time I see them not looking worried. We can discuss that with them in the morning."

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[ambersky0319]

It's You

Prompt :

Warnings : Sympathetic Remus, panic attack

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A/N : So um, this turned out longer than I was planning XD 1641 words... I rarely write that much for even actual chapters of things!

Thank you @cress-the-fander for suggesting this! It was a lot of fun to write, and I do hope you enjoy!

Fic Masterpost

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Remus rocked on his ankles, biting his lip and trying to not crack his knuckles for the billionth time, nerves eating away at him. His heart pounded in his chest as he stood outside the logical side's door, waiting for the other to finish grabbing whatever he needed before they went into the Imagination.

He took a deep breath, trying to wash the terror off his face.

No one had ever been to his part of the Imagination. It was his sanctuary, his home-away-but-also-not-away-from-home. His safe haven. The one place he was allowed to be vulnerable and be truly himself. It was a place for him to escape the mind palace and just let loose.

And now he was inviting someone else in.

Thoughts raced through his head, what if Logan found it awful? What if he criticized the land? What if he wanted to leave there too soon? What if he wanted to leave Remus altogether?

That scared Remus even more, and he barely noticed that the door was getting increasingly more blurry. His vision swam but he wasn't actually seeing, instead lost in the horrors of what might happen.

What if Logan got hurt? What if one of the others saw them go into the Imagination together? What if they convince Logan to dump him if they find out about their relationship? What would happen then? What would happen if Remus lost control in the Imagination and hurt Logan himself, truly hurt Logan, and then everyone hated him even more? What if he couldn't see Logan after this? What if they're forced apart?

He muffled a sob, sinking to the ground in front of the pearly white door with blue lettering. His tears ruined his makeup, the eyeshadow dripping from his face and into his lap. His shoulders shook as he clenched his teeth and pressed his hands harder against his lips, keeping any wails or whimpers down so they'd only be a small whine from the back of his throat.

He was curling in on himself, thoughts spiraling and clouding his mind. Why did he agree to show Logan his Imagination? His home? His most prized creation? Why did he agree? Why? Why? Why?

"Remus?" That voice was familiar. A monotone with a hint of concern. Remus would recognize it anywhere.

"Remus, if you can hear me, try to follow along, alright?" Logan didn't expect an answer, and instead started to count. He instructed Remus on what to do, first trying out the technique Virgil had learned. Breathe in for four seconds, hold for seven, and exhale for eight.

Remus hugged himself tighter, his breathing still uneven as he tried to take deeper breaths and failed. But it had helped slightly.

"Alright, let's try something else, okay? May I hold your hand?" Logan asked calmly, and Remus took in another shaky breath before uncurling one of his arms from around himself and offering his hand to Logan.

Logan took Remus' hand in his, and Remus gripped it tightly, knuckles white. If Logan was in pain from the near-bone-crushing hold, it didn't show. His face stayed neutral as he guided Remus through another exercise- having him count numbers out of order, or answer problems that Remus would need to work out.

It took many tries, but eventually Remus had calmed down. His grip on Logan's hand had relaxed a bit, and he looked up from his knees, wiping at his face with his free arm. "Thanks," he mumbled.

Logan smiled warmly at him, a smile that reassured Remus. It was the smile that Remus fell in love with, the smile that always seemed to brighten up his day.

Logan leaned forward a bit to press a gentle kiss to Remus' knuckles, and Remus' cheeks flushed pink. "Do you want to talk about whatever happened?" Logan inquired softly, lifting his gaze slightly.

Remus shook his head, sniffing slightly. "I don't think it'd be too good to talk about it," he replied. Logan nodded in understanding and stood up. He pulled Remus up with him, and as soon as they were both on their feet, Logan pulled Remus closer and hugged his duke.

Remus sighed slightly, clinging onto Logan. "I think I'm ready to bring you to my part of the Imagination."

Remus could almost see the light bulb go off in Logan's head, despite his own face buried in the crook of Logan's neck. Logan's arms rested around his waist, tightening ever so slightly, making Remus feel just that little bit more protected.

"We don't need to if you do not wish to, Remus. We can always just hideaway in my room and watch those trashy horror films."

Remus' own arms tightened around Logan, and he shook his head, taking a deep breath.

"But I want to do this. Trust me."

Logan was quiet for a few seconds, pulling away just slightly so he could look down and examine Remus' expression. He traced a finger along Remus' jaw, meeting Remus' gaze and searching for any hint he may be lying.

"You're positive?"

Remus nodded.

"Alright then-" Logan pressed a kiss to Remus' forehead, a feather-light touch that made Remus' intestines turn to butterflies- "whenever you're ready, we can go."

Remus took in a slow breath. This was the easiest part. Sinking out with someone wasn't something foreign to any of the sides, even Remus. But he felt the butterflies in his stomach be replaced with nervous knots, and he chewed on the inside of his lip as they popped into Remus' sector of the Imagination.

He watched as Logan scanned the area they had appeared in, only releasing Remus with one arm. The trees seemed to all be dead, some charred as if struck by lightning, others of old age, and some had dried up. Between the trees what looked to be a deer three times their normal size raced through the trees, chasing after a bear only just a bit shorter.

Logan looked to the sky, taking in the stars in the broad daylight, the moon and sun forever stuck beside one another above. Dark clouds dotted the sky, winding around what Logan could only assume to be Remus' borders. A vulture landed on a nearby branch, peering down at the two curiously.

Logan saw the dark tower looming just down one of the paths, a dark shadow being cast onto the deceased trees. Logan could see the hints of green from where they stood, flickering against the black bricks.

"Well?" Remus asked, his hands above his mouth clamped together as he waited for Logan to say something. Anything. Logan's expression was unreadable, and Remus could feel that panic start to build up again.

After another minute of silence, Logan's voice was like music to Remus' ears.

"It looks a lot less chaotic than I expected, and a lot less gore." Logan commented, and stepped over slightly so he stood in front of Remus instead of beside him. He moved his arm from around Remus' waist and cupped his cheeks in his hands, running his thumb along Remus' lower face slowly, eyes full of adoration and love.

He leaned in and kissed Remus- such a gentle kiss that Remus felt lightheaded, getting chills as Logan's hands left his face and trailed down his arms to Remus' hands. When Logan pulled back slightly, Remus blinked a few times, as if trying to start working again.

"It's not what I expected, but it's still beautiful. Perfect, and totally you. Now-" Logan took a step back, tugging Remus slightly as the side seemed to come back to 'reality'- "I'd love to go visit that tower, and let you show me around. That alright with you?"

Remus expression shifted. Once a terrified look had morphed into one of confusion and a hazey feeling, but then even that shifted, shifted to a grin that Logan could only take as a yes.

The creative trait began to pull Logan along. It was as if his fears had melted away as he walked familiar paths and saw the strange creatures, his creations, his children. And he jumped into an explanation of anything that Logan asked about, but he missed every love-struck look that Logan sent his way.

"Hey Remus?" Logan asked, leaning against the cusions of the couch that Remus had conjured for them. "Can I ask you something?"

Remus looked away from the large tv playing some horror film that Remus didn't care to remember the title to. He smiled at Logan and nodded, and Logan smiled back,kissing his cheek lightly before standing up.

Logan looked down at Remus, a look of pure love on his face. And Logan was no longer afraid to say the three words that had previously taken him do very long to even whisper. He no longer felt shy about letting the words leave his lips, and he beamed whenever he saw Remus' face turn crimson.

"I love you-" Remus' cheeks heated up as Logan had suspected they would- "You mean the world to me, Remus." Logan took Remus' hands in his own, squeezing them lightly.

"You're courageous and affectionate and loving and despite how many see you, you're truly a wonderful person. I love your personality, your extravagant outfits. I love when you're proud, and you get really interested in a single topic.

"I love you, and the question I'm going to ask is a very important one." Logan kissed both of Remus' hands softly before he sunk to his knee, and tears pricked at Remus' eyes as he processed what exactly was going on.

Logan pulled a box from one of his back pockets, and held it out to Remus. Remus could see the way Logan's hand trembled slightly.

"Will you, Remus Creativity Sanders, marry me?"

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[championfrita]

Creepiest Locations in Pokémon

So, I don't really do Top 10 lists or stuff like that but I recently recieved Black 2 from a friend and reached one of the creepy game locations (you know what I'm talking about).

Suffice to say, I thought I'd talk a little about the creepiest locations in Pokemon.

Without further ado, let us begin!

Strange House - Unova Region

Yeah yeah, playing Black 2 so OF COURSE I'd put this on the list, right? Well that's not why. I put this on the list because it, for me, is the CREEPIEST location in Pokemon. Having not played White 2 in a while (because I lost it heh heh ^^') I had mostly forgotten it until now. I find Strange House to be the creepiest location in Pokemon not just because of the way it looks. The entire thing is Hellagar creepy. Not only does it have some of the eeriest music ever, but the furniture moves on it's own. AND YOU CAN HEAR IT MOVING. Straight up paranormal crap guys (and I'd know, I have paranormal investigative training and I'm a sensitive). When I first encountered this place I was super tentative about walking around inside. I jumped three feet when the first Pokemon Battle activated, no joke. Not to mention the backstory. A little girl put in an eternal nightmare by Darkrai who never wakes up and dies in her sleep? Yeah, no thanks. *horrified shuddering* Let's move on, shall we?

Old Chateau - Sinnoh Region

Yeah, you guys kinda expected this one huh? I put this on the list because it also has some seriously creepy music. Sure, Strange House is creepy, but mostly on the inside. Old Chateau is creepy ALL AROUND. Even the dilapidated exterior just screams "Yeah btw I have demons locked up in here, that a problem bro?" HELLGAR YES, IT IS! But that isn't even the creepiest part. The Chateau is straight up haunted. Ghosts of residents and even a butler can be found wandering around inside. Encountering them is for the most part a random event, except for the little girl, who you simply encounter by entering rooms on the second floor in order. Still not the creepiest part. In one of said rooms is a painting...who's EYES MOVE WITH YOU SO IT IS ALWAYS WATCHING. Plus in the kitchen possessed tableware flies at you if you stay too long. Even better? Find all the ghosts and a secret door under the stairs opens up to take you to the basement. Lovely. And guess who's down there? The creepy as Shuppet Gengar who's been using that painting I mentioned earlier to stalk you. I was so afraid of this place that I wouldn't enter it for like 2 years after the games came out. One look and I was like "Nope, nope, nope, nope, nope. Did I say NOPE?!"

Lavender Tower - Kanto Region

This is obviously a classic from my childhood. Lavender Tower was the original creepfest of Pokemon, and while it may not actually be all that scary anymore, going in there without a Silph Scope was terrifying as a kid. Literally everything was a ghost, not just the ACTUAL ghost of Marowak that haunted the place. Even your Pokemon were too scared to fight in this place. Not to mention the crazy as Shuppet Channelers walking around the joint. Yeesh. Get a life guys.

Caves - All Regions

I know, I know. You're all thinking, Seriously?! You're afraid of CAVES?! Well hold on. Have you ever walked one without Flash, back in the old days when the screen was just black? It's not so much the dark that's terrifying. It's the idea of never escaping that cave. Of being lost in there forever because you can't bear to lose those Pokemon you've spent months lovingly raising. Without Flash, your options were: Try and stumble around in the dark hoping to get lucky and find a way out, or restart your game and do things from the beginning because you done messed up my friend. Horrible. Not to mention you had no idea what might be down there.

Kaminko's House - Orre Region

I don't care what you say, when the screen suddenly goes black and white and some deranged lunatic comes flying out of a creepy mansion surrounded by dead trees roving like a madman to challenge you to a battle, it's creepy. It may not be super scary, but still creepy. Especially when you enter the building and discover that it's home to basically a mad scientist. For a while I thought the player character, Michael, was gonna almost get murdered. Super weird stuff in there I tell you.

Scary House - Kalos Region

Not actually that scary. The way this location becomes pretty creepy is by watching the XY anime episode that goes with it. It reveals the house to basically be a house of horrors for Ash and friends. The old man they find there says it's all for the sake of saying hello the Ghost Pokemon Way. Entertaining his guests with a good scare as it were, except that at the end of the episode both he AND THE HOUSE DISAPPEAR. Then they reappear for Team Rocket. A DISAPPEARING HOUSE?! How is that NOT creepy?

Chargestone Cave - Unova Region

It's dark, weird stones float around, and it has creepy music. Yeah, no thanks. That being said, I absolutely LOVE Chargestone Cave. It is one of my favorite locations in Pokemon, but it's still creepy. You can practically FEEL the supercharged air through the game screen, which sets off all your instincts to flee, and you never know when a Pokemon is gonna suddenly attack you. It just has an all around creepy feeling to it.

Pokemon Mansion - Kanto Region

Oh look, and abandoned mansion. Let's go look inside! Creepy music and statues with switches and eyes that light up? Great! Oh boy, a book! Let's read it. Oh it's a journal…with the creation of a superstrong clone of Mew in it…Oh yeah, btw you're just casually walking around in a place where Mewtwo SLAUGHTERED ALL OF IT'S CREATORS. LOVELY! No big deal, just an abandoned house of DEATH. And you better have an Escape Rope with you if you plan to jump off that broken floor, cuz if you don't you'll be stuck there…FOREVER. Place is super creepy. And thanks to the one and only Braxton Burks and his musical reboot called Kanto Symphony, it just got creepier. Woo!

Route 217 - Sinnoh Region

Yup. I'm just gonna paste this snippet from Bulbapedia:

“If the player re-enters the house near the Ice Rock after the Spell Tag is obtained, the woman that gives it has disappeared. When obtaining the Spell Tag, her speech is: "...A person...? ...A rare sight... ...Thank you for visiting... ...A gift..." The nature of the item, in conjunction with Ace Trainer Olivia's comments of hauntings in the area, implies that the woman was a ghost, specifically a Yuki-onna.”

A Yuki-onna is a Japanese ghost woman who froze to death and roams snowcovered mountains waiting to kill people. It's a wonder the player survived. O.O

N's Room - Unova Region

I LOVE N. Love, love, LOVE him, but his room is creepier than a Mega Banette in a dark alley. N obviously has some serious mental issues, and it's this implication of dereanged mental health, combined with equally deranged music, that makes this place so darn creepy. The whole CASTLE is creepy, but this room takes the cake for creepiest room in the whole building.

Abandoned Site - Alola Region

Not exactly THE scariest location, this newest of creep fests lies in the context of it and the idea of being there in person. I know I'd find it super eerie, especially at night and when Accerola mentions she thinks you're crazy because the room you found Mimikyu in doesn't exist. Gave me some chills, let me tell you. Observant players will notice Mimikyu in the background of this scene, shuffling away behind the chainlink fence.

Pokémon School - Alola Region

While normally cheery and upbeat, if the player does a sidequest in UltraSun and UltraMoon this innocent place of learning turns into the stuff of nightmares. A creepy little girl and her Drifloon want you to look into some rumors...and appear only at night. The music makes for utterly terrifying atmosphere that will give you chills, especially if you find your own school creepy at night. While the occurences turn out to be completely harmless or normal things they make for some heartpounding suspense, and the little girl and Drifloon mysteriously disappear after you finish investigating. Creepy. It is strangely satisfying if you time it right like me and end up completing the quest at in game dawn though.

And that's about it. What locations do YOU think are creepy? Let me know in the comments!

[xogucciblue]

[[[look away -- I'm EMOTIONAL and just need to vent my embarrassing sappiness somewhere ]]]

My big bang fic has been up for 36 hours and it already has 367 hits, 27 kudos, and 16 bookmarks. My fic post has more notes than I have followers. By a lot of people's standards this is nothing, but by my standards it's genuinely shocking. I wrote this fic entirely for myself and had kind of counted on being the only reader.

When I decided I was going to write this I was stuck in the middle of one of the worst depressive episodes I've ever gone through and I was completely floundering. I needed something that I could use as an escape, something fun and entertaining and comforting, some little world I could build for myself and crawl into when I needed to turn my brain off. Writing had been that for me when I was growing up but, paradoxically, as I got older and my mental health got worse I started drifting away from it. By the time I set my mind to writing this fic I hadn't completed a project that wasn't required for school or work in almost eight years. So I decided I was going to write this fic, and I was going to finish this fic, and I was going to publish this fic, and if those three things happened it would be a success.

I signed up for the big bang for accountability, otherwise it would be just another half done project languishing in my google drive. I also signed up for the big bang because I knew I'd need a kick in the ass to accomplish the "publish the fic" part of my goal, I needed to be unable to wimp out. I came to this fandom when I was 15 years old, a few months after Harry's first X-Factor audition aired. Between 2010 and 2016 I was SUPER active on here and on Twitter. Then in 2016 I started law school, scrubbed the internet of my fandom presence, and spent 4 years lurking silently. In those early years I did a lot of writing, little passion projects that I really enjoyed and was really proud of, but for the most part I was too scared to post any of it anywhere. The few things I did work up the courage to publish I orphaned almost immediately.

I was SO convinced I wasn't "good enough" and that I would "embarrass myself" by posting something that didn't immediately become fandom famous. I let it stand in the way of an activity that had once brought me a great deal of joy. I didn't want that to happen here, I didn't want to spend all this time creating a work I was really proud of and whose creation I found a lot of comfort in only to post it and get so in my head about the metrics that I soured the whole experience for myself. So I did A LOT of work with my therapist on letting go of any expectations and writing (actually, physically writing down) my own definitions for success in this scenario. By the time my posting date was coming up I had gotten myself to the point where I can say with total honesty that if I had not gotten one single hit I still would be proud of the fic I wrote, and I'd still be planning to write (and finish and publish!!!) the sequel (the 2018 leg) and the 2 one shots (set in the break between legs) that I already have planned.

But now it is getting hits, and it is getting kudos and bookmarks and comments, and a few people have left reviews in the tags of their fics post reblogs, and with every single one my heart just soars. Not because I'm "successful" now or because this must mean I'm "good enough" but because the comments I've gotten have been about the comfort and the joy that other people got from reading it. The idea that my little fic, this little passion project I wrote quite literally as a way to keep myself safe, might be providing a similar escape to anyone else, is overwhelming. I feel so honored to provide that for anyone else who may need it.

So if you've read my big bang fic (and managed to read this entire novella), thank you. Thank you for taking the time to look into a fic written by an unknown author when there are so many people putting out so much great content every day. And if you've left me kudos or reblogged or liked my post, thank you. And if you've commented thank you isn't enough, but I'll say it anyway - thank you. If you feel like subscribing I'll have two one shots and a second part up soon, and I'm participating in two more fests this summer and fall. And if you don't that's also fine, those are just for me, too.

[surveystodestressme]

15.

A – Accidents

01. Have you ever been in a car accident? i've been in three actually lol

02. Do you have a lot of scars? kind of..

03. Have you ever been in a fist fight with someone? no

04. Have you ever seriously hurt anyone by mistake? not like physically

05. Have you ever had stitches? Where? not that i know of

B – Beauty

06. Do you consider yourself beautiful? yeah, i think i am

07. Are you self conscious of how you look? not at all.

08. Do you put on a lot of makeup? i only put makeup on occasionally and when i do it's only lipstick or eyeliner

09. Would you ever consider getting plastic surgery? nah

10. What do you think makes a person beautiful? their personality and how they treat others.

C – Consequences

11. What was the longest amount of time you’ve been grounded for? not very long. my parents never stuck to it

12. What would you do if you got pregnant, keep it or have an abortion? i really want to say that i'd do the right thing and have the baby then just give it up for adoption... but at this point in my life, i really can't have a child so i honestly don't know

13. Do you ever think about how your actions affect other people? sometimes i do.

14. What do you think is the worst punishment someone could give you? taking my loved ones away from me

15. What is one thing you wish you didn’t do, just because it wasn’t worth it in the end? i'm not for sure

D – Dealing

16. When you are mad at someone, how do you show them? i'll usually say really passive aggressive things or just say that i want to be left alone

17. Name a time when you had to be strong. when i was giving up on hurting myself. i mean, i guess i shouldn't say it like that. when i decided to get help and stop hurting myself. it was hard to get help and it was a hard thing to stop.

18. Have you ever dealt with a divorce or parents fighting? Any kind of abuse at home? my parents have fought before but nothing serious

19. When people at school don’t accept you, or have problems with you, how do you react? well, when i went to school, i just ignored them. i was so used to getting picked on that i just figured it was always gonna happen, ya know?

20. Have you ever lost someone to death? Explain how you got through it. honestly, the most traumatizing death i've ever gone through was my cat, lilly. she was 16 years old. she was a part of my life since i was 3 years old. she was so important to me. she slept with me every single night, under the cover and cuddled up next to me. she was so lovable. i saw her deteriorate over her last year of life. it was so hard because i saw her become really lazy, she lost half of her body weight, she stopped eating, she stopped sleeping with me, she even cried whenever people tried to pet her. it was so hard to get over her death because she was everything to me. she was the best cat ever. i will never forget her

E – Experience

21. Have you ever had a job? Any volunteer jobs? i've had several

22. Do you think that you are sexually experienced, or not at all? i mean, i think i'm pretty experienced.

23. Have you gone through a lot emotionally, or has life been easy thus far? i've been through a lot in the past.

24. Do you think you are ready to be on your own (have your own home, job, etc.)? i will be once i finish college

25. How old do you act? i think i act my age

F – Family

26. Is there anyone in your family you don’t talk to? Why? nah

27. If you had to choose, family or friends? family probably

28. Can you tell your parents or one of your parents anything? yeah, i think so

29. Do you have any siblings? If so, do you ever get jealous of them? two. i used to get jealous of my sister all the time because all the people that i had crushes on always had a thing for her and it annoyed me lol

30. How often do you spend ‘quality time’ with family members? at least once a week if not more

G – Growing

31. How tall are you? How tall do you wish you were? i'm 4'11" and i wish i was at least 5 foot lol

32. Do you think that you have grown more in the past year than any year before that? lol no

33. As a person, do you think you are mature for your age or still act childish? i think i'm pretty mature

34. Are you scared to think that one day you will turn 30, then 40, then 50? nahh i have no reason to be scared. i'm actually excited for the future

35. Do you believe you still have a lot to learn? absolutely

H – Hope

36. Love – real or not? real

37. Are you a pessimist of an optimist? optimist

38. Do you believe in fate, that everything happens for a reason, or do you think that our actions lead the way? i think actions lead the way definitely

39. Do you think that after we die our spirit is still alive? i don't think so

40. What gives you hope when you just feel like dying? i have people who love and care about me who are always here for me

I – Issues

41. Do you suffer from depression or constant sadness/loneliness? i used to, but i've got it under control now

42. Do you have any type of disease or disability? nope

43. Are you currently in a hard relationship or have bad luck with the opposite sex? nada

44. Do you think that you are alone in this world? absolutely not

45. How often do you think about death, suicide or running away? not anymore at all.

J – Jokes

46. Say a word or phrase that would not be funny to anyone but you & one of your friends (an inside joke) darude sandstorm

47. Are you usually the one who makes people laugh,Or the other way around? i make people laugh a lot

48. Do you cry when you laugh hard? sometimes i do, but it's not super common

49. Write down a hilarious moment you had with someone that makes you laugh to this day! i can't think of anything right now

50. Do you ever get in trouble for laughing or talking a lot during class? lol yes, honestly. in high school they used to move me to sit by other people and then i'd just talk to them too.

K – Knowledge

51. The purpose of school: to learn, to cause trouble or to hang out with friends? to learn

52. Do people refer to you as smart, dumb, or average? smart.

53. What was the highest grade you have received (full course mark) ever? i finished high school and am currently attending college

54. What was your last average? This year would you like to maintain it or aim higher? i have no idea, i usually get between A's or B's

55. What do you find the most interesting subject to be (to study or to talk about)? science

L – Love

56. Are you currently in love? If not, have you been before? yes i am!

57. Do people around you show you a lot of love (tell you they love you, hug you, kiss you, etc.)? i think so

58. Is love worth it? i believe so

59. Do you hate it when girls in their young teenage years say they ‘love’ someone that they’ve been dating for a few months? it used to bother me, but honestly some people just fall really fast and that's okay. i told jack i loved him after only dating for 3 months so i definitely believe someone can honestly just fall in love quickly and that's perfectly normal.

60. Does it take a lot for you to say you love someone, or is it just a word? i only tell people i love them if they mean a lot to me

M – Money

61. Do you believe that money makes the world go round? yeah

62. Is your family on the poor side, average, or above average when it comes to money? probably just slightly below average

63. Are you saving up for college/university, or planning to? i'm in college now

64. Would you rather win millions of dollars & be set for life, or find the perfect person to marry & start a family with? well, i've already found the perfect person so i'd rather win the millions

65. On a scale of 1-10, how important is money to you? 8

N – Naughty

66. Are you a virgin? nope

67. What do you think about doing sexual things with someone you’re not going out with? i don't judge people that do it, it doesn't bother me any

68. Do you know anybody you consider a ’slut’? What makes you say that? nah, i don't judge people based on how much sex they do or don't have

69. If you could, would you erase some things you did in the past or make it so you did more? nahhh

70. Do you consider yourself more nice or more naughty? You can’t say both! nice i guess lol

O – Openness

71. How long does it take for you to open up to someone? it usually takes some time

72. What does it take for you to fully trust someone? it takes some time for me because i've been screwed over before.

73. Are you generally untrusting towards people because of past experiences, or any other reason? ^^^^

74. When are you comfortable with someone sexually? i don't know, when i trust them fully, i guess??

75. When it comes to parents and close friends, what’s the limit of what you can tell them? i tell my parents anything if they ask, and same goes for friends.

P – Positive

76. Have you ever had an experience with someone that didn’t necessarily end positively? If so, would you rather erase the memory of that person because of the sad times or keep the memory of that person because of the good times? i mean, yeah i've had bad experiences with people but those experiences have made me who i am today and i wouldn't be me without experiencing those things

77. Do you agree with the saying: better to have loved and lost than not have loved at all? yes and no. i'd rather to have loved and continue to be loved and love in return lol

78. Are you more optimistic or pessimistic? What do you try to be? optimistic

79. Do you agree that something good can come out of everything? sure

80. Have you ever had a time where something really bad happened, but something really good happened because of it? If so, please explain what it was: i'm sure i have but i can't think of anything

Q – Questions

81. When faced with a problem, do you ask for help or try to figure it out yourself? i try to figure it out myself before asking for help

82. Do you often question the world and how we came about? What are some things you would like to know about creation? i don’t question it at all.

83. Do you think the government is truthful? If you could ask the president one question, what would it be? let’s be real, probably not.

84. When someone does something wrong to you, do you confront them and ask them why they did it or just let it go? i will probably confront them

85. What is one unsolved mystery about the world that you want answers to? the kennedy assassination or the moon landing

R – Respect

86. How do you show respect? manners

87. What can someone do for you to lose all respect for them? be disrespectful, hurt someone on purpose, do something completely wrong or illegal

88. Do you respect your teachers, parents, and other authority figures? yeah

89. When you are disrespectful to your parents, what is the punishment? they just yell at me or send me to my room

90. If someone is mean to you, are you mean back or do you kill them with kindness? it depends on the person/situation

S – School

91. If you are still in school, what grade will you be going into? junior yr of college

92. When will you graduate high school/college? a couple years still

93. After high school, what did you do/are you planning to do? i took a year off from school then i went to the junior college by my house

94. Do you like or hate school? What do you like/hate about it? i love it

95. Have you ever been suspended, expelled, or dropped out of school? nah

T – Temptation

96. Have you ever done something wrong, knowing it was wrong, because something inside of you said it was okay? several times

97. Has anyone ever pressured you to smoke or drink? Did you do it? yeah, that's how i got into smoking cigarettes. but i drank all on my own.

98. Did you ever cheat on someone? Why did you do it? nah

99. Did you ever want to do something sexual with someone you didn’t really know or love? What did you end up doing? i wanted to. i knew him but we were just friends, i almost had a threesome with him and my best friend when i was really drunk

100. Do you give in to temptation easily, or are you more independent and strong willed? independent

U – Unique

102. Do you do a lot of things because your friends are doing it? i used to be like that but no more

103. Do you follow trends, wear whatever you want, or wear really unique pieces? i wear what i want

104. Do you give in easily to peer pressure? Do you do things such as smoke, drink, or have casual sex? not usually

105. What makes you different from people your age? i don't really know lol

V – Value

106. What’s the most expensive thing in your room? my computer

107. What’s more valuable: your life or the lives of your loved ones? Would you sacrifice your life for other people? my loved ones are more important, i would sacrifice myself for them in a heartbeat

108. What is something you value not because it cost a lot, but because it means a lot to you? my baby blanket

109. If there was a fire in your house/apartment, what is the first thing you would grab? my cat!!

110. Do you think past memories and experiences are more valuable than what could possibly happen in the future? they’re about the same.

W – Wishes

111. If you had three wishes, what would they be? happiness and a sense of accomplishment

112. Would you rather wish yourself to be happy, or your loved ones? my loved ones.

113. Do you believe that wishes come true if you really believe in them? nah

114. Have you ever had a wish come true? If so, what was that wish? not that i can think of

115. Do you find wishing for things a waste of time because everything that’s meant to happen, will happen? kind of

Y – You

121. Are you more independent or social? independent

122. What is something that makes you very mad when you see it? crime, rape, abuse

123. Do you think that you have potential to do great things? absolutely

124. Do you think people are born a certain way, or develop their personalities based on what they go through in life? nurture over nature.

125. Do you think people are generally good? everyone can be good

Z – Zest

126. Are you currently happy with your life? Why or why not? yes i am happy with my life

127. Do you go on FacebookCraze.com to get facebook survey’s and quizzes like this one? nope i get them from tumblr

128. When change occurs, do you get scared or are you excited for it? depends on if it's change that's going to benefit my life or not

129. Do you like to try new things, meet new people? yes i do

130. What is the most motivational thing in the world? idk.