#I'm a teen still let me bully people in their 20s for the year it remains for me (all very affectionate though

[143htg]

I think that Red Thread!Sunny wouldn't even bat an eye at randomly seeing Aubrey and Basil making out behind the church when Aubrey should be delivering pastries in the city, maybe the client's order tidy and nicely put on the grass, forgotten for a minute.

Not batting an eye at least physically, but internally probably scoffing and cursing Basil for distracting Aubrey from her job, pastries will not forever be warm after all.

Again seeing the tall figure of Aubrey getting more meek and shy that usual because of Basil, who is significantly tinier that her, is amusing. So Sunny doesn't really say anything, prefering to not disclose to Aubrey that maybe their little lovebird spot is a bit too close to the path he takes everyday.

Maybe he tells Mari out of amusement.

A bit annoyed, too.

Aubrey's new and probably first boyfriend. And Mari is happy for her, her beloved friend finally finding someone that she's content with. Sunny's happy too. Already marveling over meeting the boy when Aubrey is ready enough to tell about her little love.

Sunny does not tell who the love is.

Mari pouts when he doesn't tell.

[morisdann]

Your bitch is watching the second season of Blood of Zeus and lemme tell you, I don't like it. At least the very first 10 minutes. As I did previously, imma put here all of my thoughts regarding each episode as I watch, so beware of MASSIVE SPOILERS.

Also, small disclaimer: I'm not a professional writer, nor a movie critic. So everything here is my pure humble opinion so if you don't like it - don't read it.

So without further ado:

Episode 1:

Gods, it's been 10 minutes and half of the visuals (if not more) are just parts of the final episode of the first season. And also the plot didn't really moved past the point "yeah, Hades is the bbeg. Again." Although I sense some bits that it's more like "oh he's a misunderstood guy who did it all for love and whatnot" but the line of "Hera and Zeus made us fools and now we get to have our revenge" is already pissing me off. 10 minutes of almost nothing but being cliché. Not a good start, but imma give it a shot.

Another thing that irritates me is the "romantic" tension between Alexia and Heron. First of all, I don't get it how Heron is so good at fighting despite the fact that he lived with his mother and never really had to fight anyone with a sword. Like I get the arrows and such (tho hunting an animal in a forest and shooting a moving fucking warrior on a bloody battlefield seem kinda different, but aight, I'll let it slide). But how in the fuck after a few days-weeks of training with Zeus he manages to be so fucking op in the battle that it impresses an Amazonian Fucking Warrior Lady that spent at least half her life perfecting her martial skills?? This guy was not a warrior to begin with, how is he so good at killing people and demons?? He was BULLIED AND HAD NO ONE TO TEACH HIM KICK BALLS! So anyways, I don't like that it's implied that Alexia is falling in love with Heron. No, she's a powerful ass Amazonian, she's supposed to be COOL AND NOT FALL IN LOVE WITH THIS WIBBLY WOBBLY HERON THAT HADN'T EVEN LIVED FOR MORE THAN 20 YEARS!!! Like, c'mon, how old is he? 17? 18? He maybe has a body of a perfect athlete, but he's a fucking baby... And don't tell me Alexia is below 20, she's in her late 20's AT LEAST, cuz ain't no way a 20 year old is commanding an elite squad in ancient Greece. So no to Heron×Alexia. Not on my watch.

Also, what the fuck is elusinian stone and why are we supposed to care whether Hades gets it not?

What the fuck did they do to Hestia's and Athena's designs?? Like what the honest fuck is this bullshit?? Who do winged dead eating demons look more interesting that obviously very important characters?? Also, the scream Hestia lets out burning the demons away from her 💀💀💀

NO, NOT THE PROPHECY TROPE, PLEASE, NO

Why does Gaia look like she stepped out of a marvel movie...?

Episode 2:

Alexia, girl, why are you sleeping in full armour?? Also what happened to your face??

Heron, what happened to your face?? Did they ever give proper character references to the animators??

Also, why is Heron having a mental breakdown over some noname bro that killed their mother??

Bro, why are you so suddenly questioning gods?? (Ye, he should question who the fuck these gods are to rule over humanity, but it's smth he was supposed to do in the previous season, not now when he beat the shit out of his step brother in the name of gods)

Yay, my babygirl Seraphim is still here, serving cunt as usual 💖 And fuck yeah, eternal judgement >> serving gods!! Slay babe! (I am kinda ashamed for this passage, but I won't apologise for it)

Bitch what. A love interest? FOR MY MURDEROUS VENGEANCE LED BABYGIRL?? ARE Y'ALL KIDDING ME??

WHY DID YOU SPIT LIKE THIS?? PEOPLE DON'T SPIT LIKE THIS, SWEETIE. DEMONS TOO BY THE WAY

Ok, I understand the lack of colours for Hades, he is kinda gothic, but why is Persephone such a goth chick?? She's the goddess of spring and such no?? Why'd she wear black fucking lipstick and look like a depressed teen??

What in the Hades the game is this?? Listen, I didn't want to bring the game into this discussion, but you did it yourself, netflix. Y'all are not ready to be compared to the supergiants' masterpiece. Don't drag Zag and Melinoë into this, y'all are not on the same level of deepness into the greek mythology to have them here.

Seriously? The same punishment as Loki? Y'all ain't even creative. Don't tell me this bitch lover of Sera is gonna stay there with a cup to "help with the pain"

Bro, stop it already with y'all's "well I've always tried to help you, I'm not like the others" it's not gonna cut it anymore

So like, Hades was very hot and you redesigned him into edge lord? Ok.

Ah, so now you explain us about the elusinian stone and why it's so important, at the end of the 2nd episode? Thanks, cool.

Episode 3

Apollo is still serving. By now you should see the pattern of what men I like.

Drop it with the love interest for Seraphim already. I don't believe that a murder machine like him is able to fall for a simple mortal woman. Like this fuck would even care for anything else than his revenge. Well, tbh I didn't believe that he'd care for his biological mother either, so... I just don't like how they portrait him as a weak for love bud. Isn't that a bit unrealistic for a mass murderer with no empathy? Like ain't one supposed to be empathetic to love? Ain't one supposed to feel nothing when killing a shit load of people with no remorse whatsoever? Isn't there some psychological repercussions? No? Ok.

Lmao, suicidal Hades is something new.

Yeah, ofc, let's make Hades seem like a creep again...

Is that weird that I'm more attracted to the demon Seraphim more than to his human form?

Honestly, I'm so tired of media portraying Hera and Demeter as hysterical bitches that know no boundaries. Like come up with something new.

Lol, Hades just made my man enter into an invisible wall to make the wall disappear a second after.

Aren't you supposed to win over his trust? For now you're just venting about your shit ass family to a man that has no family at all. Not very kind tbh

"Look at her! Look at how she suffers!" Meanwhile the girl is just sitting on the ground bumboozeled that the god of the dead and some hot demon guy are looking at her talking some nonsense.

Why, of course she's not gonna suffer ugly like the other wraiths, she's the main hero's love interest, so that's why she looks like she's on some heavy tranquilizers

Yes, of course the prideful demon Seraphim, the murderer of guilty and innocent, the vengeful spirit will succumb to be a pawn in god's hands once again, only to alleviate the suffering of the soul of his beloved! What a bunch of horseshit, guys... I may be delusional enough to be attracted to that man and call him babygirl, but even I understand that this fuck is incapable of love. This isn't his character, it was done to just make him into the "good guy that was just too miserable so he caused a lot of pain to the others". Let's be fair for a sec here, he's a mass murderer, he deserves no forgiveness. Yes, he can be redeemed, but it's a long fucking process, that doesn't always include forgiveness, but a shit load of work and reflection. And therapy. Hades could've "tempt" him to join forces by manipulating his pride and desire to be free, to be above gods. Not love. Love can be ugly, love can be beautiful, love can be an instrument to redeem someone, but by gods, stop using it on every Joe to make him into hero, it's just stupid.

Sera, why are you so easy to manipulate??

Episode 4:

NOOOO, WHY DID YOU TURN HIM HUMAN AGAIN?? BRING BACK THE DEMON LOOK, IT WAS SO GOOOOD!!!

Off topic, but wasn't heron impaled in the middle of his chest? Why's the scar on his tit?

I can't, Aphrodite clinging to Ares's arm 😭😭😭 Stop with itttt!

Okok, one good thing: I like how in the games Heron is drawn to always be in Ares's shadow. A bit on the nose, but I appreciate the symbolism.

Apollo's refusing to compete with Ares?? Apollo?! You're making me laugh.

There's this background god with blueish skin and black wings and I cannot, who are they?? I have to know whom I'm falling for. Is that Thanatos??

Hm, so half the season is wasted on some weird intro to the story itself? Cool. Wow. Never seen that happen.

Episode 5:

You serious? The mighty Zeus, the king of gods, is judged by mere mortals? The pure-blood god, not a bastard child ascended to godhood, but the child of Rhea and Kronos, is judged by some mortal and has to go through the same path as any other human?? Y'all aren't serious. I can't. This is idiotic.

Hera, I don't believe you, that now, all of the sudden you're changing your mind and vouching for Zeus, that he's not that bad. Girl, you unleashed a whole ass box of giants to kill that man just a few weeks ago, why such sudden change of mind??

Zeus, how in the fuck you managed to build a whole ass knowledge bunker under that shabby house of your son without anyone noticing?? Please, share the secret, I also want to be capable of that

Greatest quote of the greatest man in these series, Evios: "Look, I'm alive for two reasons: I was born and I hadn't died yet."

Oke, I can understand why Sera might've fallen for the priestess in a normal situation (if he hadn't been fucked up beyond repair, that is). She's smart, she's beautiful, she's compassionate. A perfect woman, if she had any character to her. But my man is, unfortunately, beyond salvation of any kind, when he met her, he wasn't recovering from the hatred, he was driven by it. How can one love another, when one is fueled by hatred and anger? How can one love, when one had long forgotten what is it to be loved? How can one love, when one is no longer feeling?

Episode 6:

I suddenly like the Heron's arc. Is he gaining some depth to his character? Wow.

Lmao, Sera, you fell from gods know what height and you're still in one piece and not smushed into the ground and around? You are a solid rock of a man.

Ok, maybe Sera is slay in his human form. It's just that he needs to be dressed appropriately. Stop walking around with tits out in and wearing this stupid furry mini skirt and he's looking like a decent man.

Icarus?? Sera, choose another pseudonym, this ain't a good one.

Honestly, I'm kinda digging all that "Demeter, the great mastermind " vibe. Slay queen! Love it for her. She's a bitch in this scenario, but damn she's good at it.

Episode 7:

Y'all, I'm in love with Demeter. This bitch? The bitchiest of them all. Slay 💅

Alexia, girl, how did you survive Talos exploding?? You demigod too? And that big fella who's name wasn't mentioned once this season is he also the same or just explosion-proof?

Ah, yes, his name is Kofi. Could've guessed.

Bruh, you've already done Alexia wrong in this season, why open her character like that in under a minute?? 😭 Opened and immediately closed. Feels like "That's rough, buddy" from Zuko but make it lvl 99 of idgf

And now you're Nobody?? Babe, you decided to fuck with mythology, didn't you? Bad idea.

Also, hadn't Kronos had another design in the beginning, no? Then who was that cosmos looking titan in the beginning?

Wait a moment. Does Sera classify as a demigod? Like, he is partially giant, cuz he ate flesh of one. And he possesses a ton of demigod-like qualities. Could it be that he's the prophecy demigod? Meh, I'm too lazy to look for the prophecy to compare it and actually find out. Will see in a moment what happens.

Episode 8 (finally):

Sera is getting sexier with each challenge.

Heron, surprisingly, is too, getting more attractive.

I absolutely hate Gaia's design. Disgusting.

Lmao, I was right, there's a possibility for Sera to be the prophecy child.

Oh my, are you serious, Hera is a pacifist now?? Y'all are crazy.

This is just a massive slaughter house at this point, gods, what the fuck.

Aw, the brothers are helping eachother in this butchery, how cute.

Heron, chill your ass, you're about to explode.

Btw, where's Evios? And that interesting associate of his.

So, what's that terrible horrible monster whose name we do not say?

Oops, someone pissed off the primordial Gaia. Y'all are fucked. Btw his name's Typhoon. Meh.

In conclusion:

The majority of the script is shite. Some (almost all) of the arcs can be done so much better. Designs suck an ass too. But did I enjoy watching it? Yes. Is it because of Seraphim? Primarily so. But will I wait for the 3rd season? Absolutely yes.

So I loved and hated the show at the same time. The main line is quite interesting nevertheless, so see y'all when the 3rd season is out.

I have a shit load of stuff to say on addition, but this post is long enough in it self, so maybe later.

[my-mt-heart]

Do you think increased social media attention, new and younger viewers, etc. have given writers/prods cold feet when it comes to Caryl? The tag on TikTok is full of snarky teenagers expressing digust, and comments on edits are filled with 'platonic soulmates 🤓' (which just rings of self-assurance). Instagram comments are still rife with antis, and support for the solo spinoff.

Isn't it quite strange to be watching these newer viewers who didn't live through it as such, having such an opposite experience as so many of us? They aren't waiting week-by-week, gossiping at the water cooler, and on Twitter. They haven't been watching the cast and writers alike express their support for Caryl for 10 years. Even so, I'm ruffled by their conviction. Antis are just so *sure*, just as sure as we are.

I'm wondering if with all that, on top of the buzz when S1 airs, will it be enough to turn the tide in order to not upset the self-inserters, Dnnie shippers, and general dudebros? It would be the safer option... Ugh. Hope you're doing well!

Caryl not going canon yet has nothing to do with changes in the market. S1 of the spinoff is trying to cast a wider net because not enough viewers will watch otherwise. It's a terrible strategy that pretty much guarantees disappointment and it wouldn't even be necessary if the original spinoff aka the real moneymaker hadn't been fucked with for unprofessional reasons. How's that for self-assurance? But you brought up some big points, so let's talk about them...

This perceived increase in non-Carylers or decrease in Carylers is basically an optical illusion. Caryl has a huge fanbase. They attract people from all walks of life, but a fair amount of them simply aren't vocal online whether it's because they're from an older generation who don't feel the need to talk about their interests on SM or because they were bullied into silence, which is especially likely if they're under 20, though of course bullying can get to anyone. Also keep in mind, Caryl's story is about two broken people beating the odds together, so it shouldn't come as a surprise that a lot of their fans have experienced trauma or abuse in their own lives, and may not feel safe bearing their hearts in certain online spaces.

Just because the teens on TikTok and the antis and the dudebros are being loud and snarky, just because they're following an anti-romance trend or they're trying to sugarcoat ageism with other words doesn't mean they're actually going to put their credit cards down and pay. Even if the teens have credit cards, they're far more likely to watch clips on TikTok than invest in the entire storyline. College-aged men statistically don't have extra money laying around for a subscription to mediocre zombie content, which is why it's baffling that S1 seemed to initially target that demographic. Antis like to pretend they care about Daryl, but their only real joy is making Caryl/Carol/Melissa fans miserable, so that makes them just as unreliable. AMC has nothing to gain from shifting to their needs. It's all about niching down to the people who actually want to invest. What have many of us been saying over the last year and a half? "I'll subscribe when Carol's back."

Think about this. If AMC was trying to appeal to the snarky teens and dudebros and antis who are being ageist af, why would they try to bring Melissa back as quickly as possible? Why would they post about Carol (with hints of Caryl) this much, show everybody how much they love her, and get everyone's hopes up? That's an obvious sign they're targeting Carol's/Melissa's fans (for S2), the majority of whom are Caryl shippers.

If S2 doesn't hook enough Carylers, that's when AMC might make changes, but let me be clear here. The responsibility of keeping us around, not to mention growing the fanbase, is entirely theirs. The way to our hearts and to our wallets is to give us what we want to see i.e. unambiguous canon. If they want to keep jerking us around, holding back, ruining the characters we love, and pandering to the "incompetent and egotistical individuals" on the show, it's their loss. Quite a significant one.

Disclaimer: In case anyone was wondering, no I did not become a marketing expert overnight. I consulted.

[feuqueerfire]

Love's For Love's Sake Live Blogging

Let's Go Cha Woongki! I've also seen it get good reception in general. Just Finished Death's Game where the main character lives different people's lives and in this one, he gets isekai-ed into a webtoon. And last month I also watched Twinkling Watermelon where the main guy gets transported to 1995 where he's the same age as his dad. They all have missions (Death's Game: don't die in the person's body, Twinkling Watermelon: he thinks it's to prevent the accident, here: make the guy happy based on the first few mins of ep 1).

Ep 1: Happiness (Feb 1)

I thought he fell into a webtoon but seems like it's a novel being turned into a video game

lol pretending to know the grandma by reciting facts from the novel, reminds me of Eun Gyeol pretending to be Yoon Dong Jin in Twinkling Watermelon

Also like theoretically this is age difference right? I was thinking of they're 1 year apart, I thought they'd be same age but actually it's like (Korean age) 18 and late 20s

Awoo, this really is reminding me of Twinkling Watermelon cuz mans has no money lol (+ following around the dude like Eun Gyeol did with his dad Yi Chan)

Wait, so this is a video game slip and it's in the time period from when the MC was a teen? so his old home is still his home and his grandma is still alive (even though seems like he had gone to a diff high school - is this one a fake? - from his commentary at the beginning)

Ouch, the grandma being alive is also similar to the great grandma in Twinkling Watermelon

Oh, so Myungha did indeed go to this high school as a kid? Since apparently everybody knows about Mad Dog Myungha and the kids steer clear of him

lol Yeowoon straight up being like "What do you mean about our relationship [that I have to like you more for us to be near each other]? Do you like me?"

Girl, not 300 days to make Cha Yeowoon happy or face penalty: death

This is actually good so far, I don't know why I'm surprised necessarily but the recent kBLs I watched (Bon Appetit, Love Class 2) were not very good, I guess. And the quality difference is usually more stark when going from a full kdrama to a kBL webseries but the quality doesn't seem that much lower this time; I wonder if there being a video game isekai concept contributes to that.

Ep 2: Friends (Feb 1)

Cha Woongki plays Kyunghoon who I guess is gay and so has no friends?

Is it also difficult for Korean speakers to decipher if they mean "like" as romantic or platonic in this convo?

Ouch, Yeowoon have negative affection levels for everybody but having the worst (-100) for himself

Fighting on the roof is scary, what if someone falls off?

pls not this firstly yeah almost falling off roof but then Myungha catching the bully in his arms

Do I have to keep track of all these bullies, why are there so many bro?

Oh, seems like I'll have to at least keep track of Sang Won since he and Kyung Hoon are... friends? bullies him? love interests? who knows

lol from the on-air thread on r/boyslove, I realized that Sangwon apparently wants Myungha for himself and they're setting up a love triangle lol I thought he was gonna just like Kyunghoon and was bothering Myungha for who knows what reason

Ep 3: Affection (Feb 1)

ahhh okay lol I really was so silly and the brewing love triangle just flew over my head but now Sangwon is like Myunha hyung I'll take you home/take me home etc and Yeowoon cutting in like sunbae... you said you'd sleep over at my place.

Like I'm not a big love triangle fan but this is good idk, I'm unexpectedly enjoying the little possessive pulling the two are doing while 1) I'm not sure who out of Sangwon and Yeowoon know they have gay intentions toward Myungha and 2) Myungha doesn't know they're doing a little dick measuring contest with him in the middle. throw in the fact that they're both younger than Myungha, so Sangwon is calling him Hyung in a cheeky/bothersome way who took it upon himself to start calling him hyung while Yeo woon still uses Sunbae

Ah, one dead parent, mothers who ran away, living with grandma (one of them sick and died).

Myungha is 29 years old

I'm so confused, Sangwon lives with Kyunghoon and his younger sister? Since their family friends? And she and Sangwon are also models for an ad? But it might change to a different pair including Cha Yeowoon?

Kyunghoon's younger sis name = Shia

Why would Cha Yeowoon call him at that restaurant with Shia smh he wouldn't bc he's been ignoring Myungha all day - should've made a better choice to have Shia realize he's close with Yeowoon

I really can't tell where Shia/Sangwon/Myungha are at right now, Shia and Kyunghoon's house?

I had glanced at the ep3-4 on-air thread on r/boyslove and I'd seen a mention of "a kiss, though in an unexpected way" or smth so when Yeowoon stepped forward when Myungha got off the bus I was like ...is he gonna kiss him wtf?

but instead he's like "There's a woman's scent on you. Is this why you were late?" like oh okayyyy lol sudden jealousy again

AND THEN SHIA CALLING BEING LIKE "oppa don't forget we're meeting day after tomorrow!!" and Yeowoon freaking leaving lmfao firstly she's more of a fan of yours than Myungha's but funny lad

Awooga, I knew the shoe gifting wouldn't go well but I was maybe expected an Outburst from Yeowoon but instead... the affection level going from 0 -> -10 -> -60 -> -99 (the second lowest we've seen other than Yeowoon's own -100)

Oh, the brand is Sangwon's mom's brand. I thought it was just cuz Yeowoon didn't wanna be seen as a charity case but the brand in addition must've stung

Agh, why is Sangwon being such a dickhead, his "kinda bully-ish but not really, mostly harmless" schtick was working for me

I'm usually irritated/turned off by jealousy plots and yet here in 2 diff cases I'm like hehe this is fun???

Yeowoon's "blank/stoic" character kinda makes the actor's acting meh but still fine. Average for a kBL

Ep 4: (Feb 2)

ohhh the negative effect stuff is why Myungha kept Yeowoon at arm’s length

Affection: 1

“if you do [all] this [for me], I’ll misunderstand” awooo

Affection level: 18 wow

oh lol that’s the kiss. myungha kissing that other homophobic bully to shut him up

lol Myungha being nonchalant about the fight/kiss w Takjoo or whatever while Yeowoon is having a crisis (including “I want to kiss him”)

Yeowoon switch up to cute puppy is kinda sudden but we'll see how it goes

Ep 5: Relationship (Feb 2)

D: That random cafe was run by Myungha's mother who abandoned him? ouch

In the r/kdrama on-air thread I think is where I saw somebody mention maybe those texts from the anonymous number (that kinda seem like they're watching Myungha/talking to Myungha) is actually from the sunbae whose story he's in?

Shia knowing both Sangwon and Yeowoon like Myungha

rip Sangwon is pitiful here, esp with just how much Myungha doesn't care about him

oof, another confession, this time from Yeowoon

oh Myungha really is a terrible man, how could he have Sangwon keep an eye on Yeowoon and now interrogate about how he was doing during the day plss

Kyunghoon with his bf who went abroad

ah, so they're gonna do the "make the best of the little time we have" route?

dead fish kiss but it's fine i suppose

Ep 6: Love (Feb 2)

Shia convincing Yeowoon that on the first date you give a sunflower lmaoo

oh the door to door diff rooms was scary, is the game glitching? I suppose we're on the 6th ep out of 8

doing all this in public makes me nervous ngl esp when Yeowoon was just surrounded by a bunch of girls

"Hyung, you seem like someone who doesn't know how to receive love" woah

Bro idk what's going on and why is everything scary

Ep 7: Choose (Feb 2)

idek what this choice because of system errors is? like what's going on girl

Oh... it's whether grandma or Yeowoon is more important? And the choice will have the other killed or smth?

bro wtf from 2 hundred and smth days to just 15 left?

what does that even mean Yeowoon doesn't think Myungha likes him romantically? What does he think they are doing even then? Or does he mean like... the amount?

Ouch, the "why can't you rely on me" from Yeowoon hurts cuz it's true

Ouchhh, Yeowoon is sooo cute and pitiful while getting broken up with

Bro omg what's going on, he's being deleted?

Ep 8: Choose (Feb 2)

owwww they forgot Myungha

Oh, Yeowoon is remembering and he can also use the pen?

Is this present day Myungha after having gone back to his OG universe?

oh nvm, seems like it's his original life like wishing to disappear, grandma dying, gf breaking up w him

oh my fuck, that one is the actual worst. going to his mom's cafe -> introducing himself -> a child calling her mom -> she's like no i'm not her, you must've come to the wrong place and leaves

oh wait, he died? what about the novel... and video game convo?

aw, Yeowoon changed the mission to "make Ta Myungha happy"

dang, they're in different days, that's crazy

I'll be honest, I don't fully understand everything because I'm just dumb af

but it's a happy ending nonetheless

okay enough kissing this is a lot but at least it's not deadfish

So, the game ended right? And Myungha's just living in this life now? No more possible system errors or whatever. And I guess Yeowoon knows at least a bit about what the game stuff is, so that's nice.

Vaguely I'd noticed that Yeowoon and Myungha have a lot in common (not just the self-hatred lol but even like one parent abandoning them, the other dying, the grandmother they live with, etc.) and the mission becoming "make Myungha happy"

Also, they don't necessarily talk explicitly about suicide much since we find out in ep 8 but this is also a "isekai after suicide" drama, just like Death's Game and this one actually kind of gets to the roots of his problems that led him to commit suicide (self-hatred, rejection, being unloved/unable to love, etc) via the story and interactions while Death's Game kinda just "fuck you, you selfish bastard, don't you know others want to live, how dare you kill yourself." And at the end of Death's Game, when he goes back to his life, there is no difference in his actual situation (beyond his mentality and knowledge ig but no like... material change based on what actually led him to his decision_ vs in Love for Love's sake where they was like an actual difference in his life (he got a whole new life lol)

General Thoughts:

Cool concept, don't know how much I actually understood though lmfao So did the drunk ramble at the beginning with the sunbae not actually happen - the whole time that was some sort of Entity who was putting Myungha into the game because he'd committed suicide but regretted it? And also Myungha's like 29 year old brain lol but I guess he's gonna just live at 19 and get a chance to redo 10 years of his life, with Yeowoon by his side. And it's not really a "game" probably, just a different version of the world 10 years earlier? It was cute, the concept was nice, the early 2 eps were Very promising and last ep was touching but the middle (esp 5-6) were quite meh for me. It has people really talking and discussing and dissecting it though, which is a fun aspect.

Rating: 6/10

[ghosttownwherenoonegoes]

Hi Eri! I saw some people venting to you and i thought about giving it a shot. It's totally fine if you don't answer this! the last thing i want its to make you or someone else feel bad but i don't really have anyone irl that i could tell this.

I'm in my early 20's and lately its being so painful...i'm very scared of not being loved the way i love people...of course,i have friends and family that i know they love me and i love them back but maybe i'm hard to be loved by a partner.A few days ago i was thinking that maybe i should change things to be considered more "cannonically pretty" or change the way i dress,my taste in music or even my personality and it hurts so much because i've spent so many years trying to be comfartable with the person i am today (even though i want to change things to be a better version) i have been bullied by a lot of people,kids,teens,teachers and myself,i've been told i was a freak,not enough,a lost cause and more hurtful things. The thing is that even tough i've been treated like this i could NEVER make something to hurt others...i'm one of those kind of people that never lost their heart of gold,i also never stopped being a hopeless romantic,i guess thats why i suffer so much. Then Eddie comes to the scene. I've got sooo infatuated by him its insane. He is my comfort character and one of the reasons i've been waking up everyday since May and trying to have a better life. I love him for a lot of reasons,one of them is that he is the type of person i needed when i was younger,a mentor,a fellow freak who told me its okay to be different and shouldn't be ashamed of it and maybe its silly but it made me realize one of my life purpouses is create a safe space for people (specially young ones) to be themselves and not being afraid of it. But my insecurities get the best of me. I'm not cute and pretty like Chrissy or confident or strong enough to stand up for myself,so a part of me thinks he wouldn't see me or even like me or love me and that creates more pain and more insecurities.

Thank you for letting me vent here Eri!

Also,take care of yourself,i know you're trying your best and you deserve a break and taking care of yourself. You're an absolute gem!💖💖

Hi nonnie! Some people have been venting, yes, and I’m really sorry for the late reply on this one! I’m happy to listen to people & be here if I’m able to be! The anon function is there for a reason so feel free to vent as you want to. All I ask is that people use trigger tags before their vent if they feel it’s necessary; I am doing a degree in psych with counselling but I’m still in the stages of appreciating trigger tags before anything sensitive. Use your discretion on tags!💖

First of all, I’m really sorry that things have been so painful for you recently.🫂You sent this in four days ago and I’m sorry for my late reply on this but I hope you’re doing better!🫂💞I relate so much to the first part of your vent; after a few shallow relationships in college and one abusive relationship which I found the courage to leave at nineteen, I wrote myself off romantically at 20 and I have a cosmic ache in my chest for the Eddie I’ve been looking for since high school and have yet to find, and though I am genuinely happy alone and I know I’m better off like this, sometimes I ache and fear that I’m not supposed to be romantically loved. 

But, honey, we’re in our early 20′s. We have time. We have our whole lives ahead of us and if being loved by a partner is something you want, then it’ll happen to you. You love hard, deeply, and I’m certain the things you want will happen for you. Maybe not tonight or tomorrow, but they will. I’m so sorry that you’re so scared of this, but I want to tell you one thing which I want you to take away from this, especially if nothing else comforts and/or helps you:

“Never change, Y/N. Promise me?”

Learn to do better, be better, grow into yourself and become comfortable in your skin, but do not shrink yourself down or compromise on the things which make you happy, do not change your taste in music or clothes or anything which makes you glad to be alive for someone else.

That is a SURE way to unhappiness and you deserve better.💞

You’re none of the hurtful things you’ve been told over the years! People love to condemn what they don’t comprehend but that’s part of why it’s so important to advocate for yourself. Life is easier when you’re on your own side. YOU know who you are, and that’s what matters. Stick to your truth, and the rest will find you in one form or another. You’d never hurt others or do harm as people have done to you, and that tells me that a) you are incredibly strong (it’s easier to hate, harder to make the choice and effort to be kind) and b) you have a good and kind heart and you’re none of the things people have told you.🫂

Eddie is such a lovely person, so warm and kind, and I just know he would love you and he’d be so proud of you, hyping you up every single day since May. Like your own personal cheerleader! You love him a lot and I feel the same as you do; he is the kind of person I needed since high school but because I’ve never found him and no longer believe I will, I’m trying to become someone he’d be proud of. It IS okay to be different and you SHOULDN’T be ashamed of it and you ARE amazing!! Creating a safe space for others is a wonderful goal to devote yourself too and again, it’s one I’m aspiring to as well, not just on here but also irl; I’m doing a psychology with counselling degree and I desperately want to help people. I don’t mind how, just so long as I get to. I can’t think of anything I’d rather be doing with my time (one of my love languages is acts of services so it translates well).

You’re more than you know, by the sounds of it. I don’t know you but I do think that you’re better than you think you are. You’re beautiful inside and out, with a heart of gold, and Eddie would be head over heels for you!!! He would see you; you might think you’re shrinking into the background but Eddie sees the people who stick to the walls; he has a great vantage point on top of tables! He would be curious about you, find out about you through the grapevine, and once he found an opening to get to know you, he’d be finding ways to get into your life. He’d coax you up, drawn in by your mental strength and how you never hurt others even when they give you lots of reasons to. He would love you so so so so so so much, and I won’t hear a word otherwise!!! Neither would he!

You’re welcome, anon, and I hope something here was what you needed to hear. I’m sorry again for my slow reply but I hope the length makes up for it.

I’m trying to take care of myself; tbh the only reason I don’t lose my shit more often is because thoughts of Eddie keep me looking after myself. I won’t shower for ME but for Eddie? I’m in the shower blasting Ozzy so damn fast it makes me dizzy. Sometimes, literally dizzy. I don’t get much of a break this month (or any month) but I’m finding small moments where I can! Thank you for your kind words.🫂💖

[pashminalamb]

Thanks belle! Um its just that.. I always think of myself as a boring person… but I think its because I’m just very quiet and shy. I have this one group of friends, we have been friends for 3 yrs now and its kinda shocked me how it lasted long… I’m used to people leaving in my life, I always think its because they get bored of me eventually or idk… the last time a friendship ended it was 4 yrs ago where they betrayed me, they talked behind my back and I found out about it. It really hurt me at that time, I dropped into depression I think for a while and thought that “maybe I should stop trusting people” but a year later I met these amazing people (the one 3 yrs friendship now) and they stayed… it made me really really happy that I found people that would want me there, that would want my company, one of them said that they looked forward to me and I nearly cried by how kind they were… but I always say to myself that maybe this won’t last long… maybe it will end like the others, maybe they secretly hate me… idk i have been overthinking it… I am the shyest person in the group, you can even they that I am the ‘baby’ of the group. They always looked after me, I’m really lucky to have them. I’m just scared to get attached and to close and eventually they might leave me like the others did… I never expect people to stay in my life since I am not a fun person to be with……

-💙

tags for this ask : mentions of depression with me talking abt my life problems + lessons that came with it

You're not gonna believe me but its like me seeing into a mirror right now. This was me from when I was in my teens, like when i was 15 or 16. Back in school, i wasn't popular; instead i was bookish, kept away from people and just... liked being in my own world and didn't have many friends. (along with being socially bullied with people talking about me behind my back and whispering in the hallways as i walked by them along with the circulation of rumors cause of a friend who decided to out me about my crush - yeah i didn't have a lot going for me back then)

Even when i'm 20 (still feels weird saying it cause I was still 19 last month and i'm officially out of my teens-) i tell people that i'm boring and not really that interesting - so going back to the time i got into uni, i had made a group of friends. we were close, but i ended up getting gaslighted and being called as a liar when i shared my problems with them. and when they left - or rather me leaving the group, i rarely let people in and spiraled into a pretty bad depression. i didn't want that pain again - comes with the fear of abandonment and being alone; and then i met my closest friend - Art. they were really closed off and they even found me annoying (when we were celebrating my b day this - they literally said that i was an annoying golden retriever that grew on them like a fungus) eventually we became really close friends - but that fear of my prev set of friends leaving after i was gaslit still remained and there were so many things Art said that i still remember to this day even if it was two years ago- they said that if those friends were toxic to you after you share things with them they aren't worth calling your friends; and thats something that stuck with me.

And as the years went by, i realized a lot of things. people will always come and go and as you get older, the number of people in life grow to be a less number - friend groups don't always stick together but the few that stay, they stick by you. Letting people in isn't a bad thing- cause even if they leave i'm just hopeful that i managed to change their life in some way- even if they don't like me or go down to the point of hating me. (including toxic exes and friends who i had a falling out with)

Most important lesson of all i learnt was probably not keeping expectations. cause the higher you keep them; it can lead to deep disappointments - there were times when i invested a lot in a person but gained nothing back, and i was alright with even if i made sacrifices. i'm pretty close to my roommates as well, but if they decided to leave me and not keep in touch despite us going through stuff together, then i wouldn't feel bad about it. cause the time we had was good in its own run and it was time to move onto a new chapter.

I don't get too attached, but i'm a pretty open person. Problems like these do exist but people don't talk about it thinking that it is something stupid that doesn't need to be addressed, or need to think twice before typing in something for the fear of making the other person feel uncomfortable; and with me that's not really the case. i could care less about what people think and just say what i need to say without overthinking it - which brings me to another lesson that's going with your first instinct and gut feeling

So... I'll throw my two cents in (despite not being asked), go with the flow of it, blue. i know you have your self doubts, but people's perception about you is very different from what you think about yourself. even i have my doubts where i think why would a person stick around me cause i'm always lost in my world, thinking about something or just wondering - like today i was thinking do killer whales see penguins as sea chickens

and here's what i got back -

'not really, they just see it as a toy cause they are sociopaths'

'sea chickens? thats a human thing. They're gonna look at it and think what puny things you eat-' *proceeds to debate*

now these people are my friends. they might not be here tomorrow but small things like these are moments i will remember, so now i'm at a point where i'm comfortable being alone or with people

so yea, friends stick by you even if you think you're weird or boring. and if they don't, like art said, they aren't worth being called your friends cause if you're not your true self around them then it wasn't meant to happen and there's someone out there who would want to be your friend. and i'm happy that you got that, cause i know how much simple words like them looking forward to seeing you can mean a lot

Hope i didn't annoy you with my long response (づ ᴗ _ᴗ)づ♡

[hanarchy]

Phantom makes me remember the little girl I used to be and how weird she was, how little she understood how to interact with other people, how much imagination she had, how much she needed to express it and how creative she was at finding ways to do that and how little she cared what others thought of that. She was bold and funny and she made friends and was unafraid.

And then I moved and I got bullied at my new school, and I had to deal with a depressed mother and I became a teenager and I so vigorously and thoroughly tried to erase and bury her. Over and over again when I felt I acted weird I punished myself. I stopped sharing my inner life with people, I tried so hard to not be imaginative. I didn't allow myself any creative outlet because sharing creative endeavours is embarrassing and revealing and I couldn't risk either of those emotions.

Then in my late teens and my 20s so much of being an adult felt like killing her entirely, like there just wasn't space for her between having responsibility for myself and for others and having to perform in academic or professional environments. Always believing that she wasn't useful and that every part of me had to have a use for the world. Fandom was the way she always escaped though. It was her safe place because it allowed for dreams and fantasy worlds in a sheltered place. A place that had clear enough rules to not feel too daunting and allowed for creativity that wasn't too revealing.

And now at 30 I'm finally starting to grieve her. I'm finally starting to realise what I lost and what that did to me. I've been wondering for so long why I don't have ambition and discipline and motivation. It's still a complex topic and has many causes but the part where Rina says 'I don't wanna do this without you' really boils a big part of it down. I've been trying so hard to stay alive, to just exist and not be in constant pain. And I have been doing it without her, have been living my life without my inner child and letting her be free (or freer). Everything I do and every decision I make was in service of like, common sense, of what feels least painful.

And I wanna make decisions based on what feels ecstatic and what feels dangerous and what feels like fun. I want to actually /feel/ things again and find my creativity and my imagination again. I don't want to live my life without her anymore, I need to find a way to find her again and to let her out and I think tbh that's probably gonna be what the next like at least 10 years of my life are gonna need to be about...

I made myself so palatable and so easy to get along with but I lost like, all the emotion... And the dumb fights and the dumb mistakes and the dumb pain were in hindsight... all worth it for the dumb joy of it. And the thing is... that's growing up. People will call you immature and selfish and like a million other things if you cling to that stuff but... I think it's what makes life worth it. I'm tired of being a grown up and of only asking for reasonable things. I'm already no good at it! I can barely keep my house in a liveable state. The only reason I have a good job is because of good will from my employers. It's ironic how much I tried to be palatable given how fuckin hard it STILL is for me to make friends irl. I'm sick half the time and stressed the rest of it... I'm just done being half a person all the time and so AFRAID every time I'm not.

[readytostoprunning]

It's time that I face the contempt I have for my mother. Her stance has been that she acknowledges that my father was a monster, but she didn't have any of the hurt to wash from her own hands.

What she fails to recognize is that she was a knowing accomplice and that for far too long after they had split, also used her sons as verbal and physical targets when it suited her anger.

For years I held her responsible for not sticking up for us. After the benefit of time and my own missteps, I don't know that that's entirely fair. She was simply too weak to be by herself.

He blow torched his family and then cashed out. Literally, he cashed out. He took his children's college money and began a new life in Georgia.

My mother wasn't prepared to be a single parent. Maybe that's why she let us be terrorized. I can't really say. What I do know for certain is that she took out her frustration on two boys that hadn't yet become teenagers.

I vividly remember the fire of her hitting me on the back of my head with the many rings she wore on all ten fingers. The back of my skull would sting for several minutes. The seething anger at her for the physical onslaught still burns bright each day I wake up.

There was an eighteen inch spoon that hung from the kitchen wall. It was garishly yellow green; it was also brutishly hard and unforgiving when she swung it. I wonder what happened to that ugly piece of shit.

She threatened me with a belt one afternoon when I was around twelve. I had grown taller than her and took the belt from her.I added that if she hit me again I would return fire as powerful as it was issued.

She pointed her rage at me when it was convenient. In my teens, her mother became ill and was not doing well at all. This hurt us all as her mother was the best woman I'd ever met. She still is. The phone rang long after midnight and I then heard my mother sobbing. I asked through the bedroom wall what was wrong. She screamed at me "You know what's fucking wrong!" I was left, as I had been most of my life, embarrassed, shamed, and powerless.

I absorbed it all and got on with my life. I got married and we started our life. My mother would visit once a month and I noticed that my wife and I were at each other's throats when Sue would leave on Sundays. We talked it out and realized that the seeds for our fights were thrown in the form of my mother's twisted words and misrepresented scenarios. That was when we agreed to keep even the most mundane conversations to ourselves. That was also the time frame that we were told by others that she had dragged us to both our friends and our neighbors across the road.

She loved to use her title as mother when it suited her. We were visiting relatives in West Virginia and eating dinner with over 20 of us at a large table. Our server told her that her meal would be a few minutes behind the rest of our party. She screamed at her and embarrassed her. I told her to calm down as she pointed her shouting at me. I was again left ashamed at my inability to stick up for myself.

I now watch her issue passive aggressive comments to people in her periphery. I relish in calling her out on it. It is so satisfying to not let her get a pass on belittling people that don't deserve it. What I now realize is that I'm not protecting others from her barbed comments. I'm bullying her much as she does everyone else. I have to change.

My mother is in her seventies and shows no signs of curbing her sharp tongue. When her targets stand up to her she claims they have hurt her feelings. How convenient.

I know that I have to let her off the hook. This will, in turn, let me also free myself from the hatred that has perpetrated my family for decades. Maybe she will realize that she is the shrapnel that continues to fuel her hate and hurt. We'll see.

[therianomalocaris]

On 8ecoming Vriska Serket

happy 4/13 every8ody! today i give you: some thoughts on my fictionkin identity and c'linking. and may8e, just may8e, youll learn something a8out me along the way.

this intro is quirked, 8ut the 8ody of this post is written in plain english. im just writing this at the very end and i'm out of quirk-repressing spoons. hope you understand.

Word count: 888

This is an open discussion of trauma shaping a young teenager, especially related to growing up in an abusive environment. Read tags for specific CWs. Ask to tag, I may have missed something.

4/13 is always a very special day for me, it has been since 2012. I've been in the Homestuck fandom for 11 years now, and I've identified in some way as Vriska fictionkin for 6 of those. The webcomic itself is now older than I was when I started reading it, and I'm still an active member of the community after all this time.

But, as some of you may know, my Vriska identity was something I had a very hard time coming to terms with- And, to be honest, I'm only just now starting to understand it. When I entered the otherkin community psychological kintypes simple weren't something we talked about as much, or at least not in as many details, as we do now. Fictionkin identities, especially, were often presented as entirely spiritual in nature.

I don't believe in past lives. Plain and simple! So then, when I started to realize I was Vriska, I forced myself to. What other choice did I have? I wasn't given any. I now understand this part of my identity to be psychological, but let's roll back a bit. This is going to get personal.

I wasn't a particularly happy tween. I was a 12-going-on-13 years old walking talking anti-bullying PSA, a third culture kid who grew up in Nepal only to never really fit anywhere in France, my parents had separated and gone back together twice. The third and final time they separated, all I remember were screams and police sirens. I saw it as my duty to protect my younger sibling against the entire world, and I was dealing with grief for the first time as my grandmother had just died.

A lot of people talk about escaping reality online, but for me that was maybe more true than others. I carefully crafted a reality where I was cool, where I was wanted, where I was a boy so it was okay that I liked girls, where I was older and where I wasn't miserable and played it out on forums. 4Chan and Tumblr were the very adult worlds I found myself drawn to, I thought I was the only person my age going through those struggles and that other kids would never get it. And, in the middle of all that, I found two things: My Little Pony and Homestuck.

This is not about MLP, so let's not focus on it. So, now that you have a little background on where I was in my life when I found Homestuck, imagine my joy when I discovered one of the characters had the exact same struggles as me!

She came from an abusive home. She had done what she thought was right. She could never be herself. She was simultaneously one of the most broken and strongest characters in the entire 20+ characters cast. She was badass and violent and loud, all things I wished I could be but wasn't. At that moment, I knew what I had to do: I had to become Vriska Serket.

I guess nowadays we would say I was c'linking, but the word didn't exist at the time. Looking back, that's definitely what happened though: through most of my teen years I put on the identity of Vriska to shield me from a world that I saw as out to get me, a dangerous reality I was forced to exist but wanted no part in. It was something I chose for myself because I thought if I simply was myself, nobody would understand. It's hard being a kid and all that.

I don't really know when I first tried to stop being Vriska but couldn't. After a while being her just felt so effortless, I guess it never really crossed my mind that the figurative mask I put on to protect myself could now be fused to my metaphorical face. But I remember trying to distance myself from the fictionkin community and just not being able to, because at that point I had simply stopped having to put the mask back on. I had done it! I had become Vriska Serket!

And I fucking hated it.

I hated every part of it, because I saw it as some kind of moral failing on my part. Like I was still that scared kid sobbing in the corner of the room and typing on its phone while the sounds of shouts and broken glass resonated through the home, like I would never be anything else. Like I was incapable of growing past it. I guess that's why it took me 2 full years to come to terms with it, and why I lied to myself and forced myself to believe it was something I had always been rather than something I had become.

We're all shaped by our experiences, and the coping mechanism I took on in an abusive home at a very tumultuous time in my life is now a permanent part of me. And you know what? I think I'm fine with that. I’ve found so much strength and self-love in accepting that part of myself, it’s not something I would ever wish or want to change anymore. I can’t overstate how freeing this whole experience has been, and how proud I am to have come this far.

Happy 4/13, everybody.

[iguessweallcrazyithinktho]

𝑳𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒔𝒊𝒏𝒄𝒆 𝒘𝒆 𝒘𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒆𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕𝒆𝒆𝒏

Harry was your high school bully, but he started to fall in love with you the last year of high school. Because he became famous he drew distance and hasn't seen you in years; that didn't stop him from thinking about you sometimes. One day he meets you at a friends wedding and he wasn't going to let you slip through his fingers again

Genre: fluff mostly

Warning: none really, Niall is In here

Pairing: harry styles x reader

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It's been 9 years since Harry has seen you. Here you were standing in front of him a beautiful woman, no longer the teen he used to bully. You looked just liked you did when you were 18, but ten times better because you were able to find your confidence. Harry hated himself for ever taken part of the bullying he did to you in high school.

Back when harry was 20

Harry sat with Niall in his hotel room as they both became drunk together. They were talking about random things like they always do when they down a few beers.

"there were lots of pretty girls today. Crazy at times but pretty amazing." Niall said as he laid slump in his chair. Harry nodded as he ran his fingers through his curls.

"yeah, they were beautiful." Harry stopped speaking for a second before he spoke again. "But none of them compared to this girl that was in my class when I was 17." Harry sighed as he took a sip of his beer.

"I bullied her and I regret it now." Niall sat up in his chair. "Harry you talk about her every time you drink a couple of beers mate."

Harry nodded screwing his eyes shut. "I know, I know it's just... I notice she was stunning and now that I think about it I was only bullying her because others were and because I was too afraid to admit I liked her." Harry groaned, he ran his right hand over his face as his left hand gripped his beer tightly. "I'm so stupid."

"harry, you're not stupid, you were young. If you really love her you need to call her or find her and tell her. Apologize first because you did her wrong and you know it. Now–"

Niall slumped back into his chair. "Let's talk about those girls."

--

The next day harry thought long and hard if he should call you and tell you how he felt. He stupid mind was getting in the way and everytime he thought about calling you he pushed the thought aside and said he'll do it later. That was his thoughts on and off for the last 7. He of course didn't call you or find anyway to contact you. Harry gave up hope and tried his best to push you out of his mind.

It was a success before until he saw you again.

Present day

Today harry was going to a close friends wedding. Harry stood in front of the mirror fixing his shirt, making sure he looked good For this event.

When he looked good enough for his liking, he walked out of his bathroom and went downstairs to the kitchen. He grabbed a snack, he knows it was going to be a long day so he needed something.

A few minutes later Harry was on the road to the wedding. He was in a good mood, drumming his fingers to the radio and singing along to it.

Not even 20 minutes later he pulled into the parking lot of the wedding venue. He found a great parking spot in near the back, he Parked and turned off the car. Harry took one last look at himself in the rearview mirror.

"look amazing still."

Harry opened his door without looking. A Yelp was heard forcing harry to look up. He quickly got out of the car as he noticed he had hit you with the door as you were picking something off the ground. "oh my gosh, I'm sor–"

Harry trailed off as he noticed it was you. His heart in his chest skipped a beat, it was really fucking you, he never thought he'd see you again.

"y/n?" You stood up, your eyes were widen when you noticed it was harry, your high school bully.

"harry." You swallowed thickly. "Um.. I have to go inside." You turned around ready to walk away. Harry knew he couldn't let you go again, at least not unless he apologized for what he has done to you.

"y/n wait." Harry ran up to you grabbing your arm. You turned around looking at him "I need to tell you something." Harry sighed. "I know this is so late and it probably doesn't matter to you, but listen... I'm sorry for bullying you in high school. I was trying to fit in and it was a stupid Idea." Harry looked at you upset face, your arms were crossed which showed you weren't convinced, but he keep going.

"I was trying to hide the fact that I was.. I was in love with you. Y/n I Loved you since we were 18 and didn't notice until I was going on to be a superstar. You don't have to forgive me but I needed to say that."

Harry finished. He breathed a sigh of relief as he finally got what he needed off his chest.

You clicked your tongue as the wheels in your brain turned. "Harry it took you this long to say something." "I know I wanted to so many times but I pushed it aside because I was scared." Harry placed his hand on your shoulder softly looking into your eyes as you looked into his.

"I know it took so fucking long, but just know I mean it. I'm so sorry."

You exhaled scratching your forehead. "Look harry You're lucky I forgive people easily." Harry sighed out softly.

"but don't get comfortable now." You pointed at him as you said that. "You have a lot to make up especially if you want this to go far you know, so don't get comfortable."

Harry nodded. "of course." "Ok..." You started. "Do you want to walk into the wedding together?"

Harry grinned. "Sure." He opened his arms so you can link them together. You snickered as you did. You both walked in together like you both were each other's dates. You both had a lot to talk about, but you were happy to put the past behind you.

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@harryspirate @kendra233

[dekalko-mania]

Why does Birch Tree draw and describe his 20 yo Danny as if he were already on the brink of maturity ?

Like his 25 yo Danny sketches make him look like he's got accelerated aging, 12 houses under his belt, and a penchant for Facebook mom or fitness "on the grind" posts

Sir Birdman, I don't where you've been but 20 year olds definitely do not know wtf they're doing. He describes older Danny as if he's already got his shit together, and is this absolutely perfect ghost fighter just because he's in his 20's

Literally who put it into older creator's minds that "coming of age" experiences stop once you hit your 20s? So many 20 yos are literally just trying to find themselves and getting by. My younger sister went on campus with me and literally asked "why does everyone look tired and done?" Cause they are bro, everyone's stuck in limbo between their teen years and adult ones. People are trying to figure out what they want to do for the rest of their lives.

What I'm getting at is, the og 14 yo Danny was made pretty relatable to kids his age when the show came out, all things considered. He dealt with bullies, plummeting grades, having crushes, etc.

20 yo Danny should be the same. He should still be relatable, even if he is a super-powered half ghost. He shouldn't look and act like he's got his shit together because that's just not realistic to most people his age

Heck give me college Danny or something. How does he deal with fighting ghosts on top of not flunking his classes, switching majors, not getting enough sleep, being head of astronomy club, having a part time job, figuring out wtf he wants to do, etc. Does he want to fight ghosts the rest of his life? Will he find an alternative means of dealing with them more diplomatically? Is he okay with dropping all dreams of becoming an astronaut to continue being Phantom? Is dropping it going to leave an unfulfilled void in him for the rest of his life or is he going to come to accept it?

And what about his parents? No matter what happy ending he's trying to paint, you don't just drop 20+ years of prejudice just like that. Is there still some animosity between them and Danny over the topic of ghosts? Are they learning and adapting? Will they just go along with what he says or will they want to force Danny to fit into the ghost fighting mold they've always lumped their children into now that they know he's actually very capable?

What about Sam and Tucker? Birch makes it seem like it'd be so easy and expected of them to always be on Team Phantom. Didn't they have other dreams or aspirations too? What are they giving up to continue fighting ghosts?

Tucker has been shown before to feel insecure because he's always treated as the sidekick. How have these feelings developed? Have they addressed it among friends? He has to figure himself out too. And Sam-she's an activist at heart. Is she going to give up on that to be part of Team Phantom 24/7? Is she going to try juggling both? Are her overbearing parents REALLY okay with her pursuing this path? When they see she's continuing even as an adult, will they begin to financially manipulate her as many rich parents do, or will they let her go her own way?

How has growing older caused the trio to react? Are they splitting apart since each have aspirations that don't exactly coincide? Are they trying to make it work? At what point did they realize that hunting ghosts at 14 is not the same as doing it when they become adults? And at what point did they also realize that taking on this battle so young has made their path to growing up so profoundly different from the rest of their peers? And what about Jazz wanting to be a psychiatrist? Will she continue that path or meld it with ghost hunting? She mentioned in Reality Trip that she feels overshadowed by her parents obsession with ghosts. Do their parents now pay more attention to Danny (even if it's not in a positive way) than her and make her feel more isolated in her own family?

All these things are extremely important. They STILL have to be finding themselves and dealing with shit in their 20s. Danny will most definitely 100% not be the perfect superhero stereotype just because he's a bit older. And while we're on the topic, Birch has a habit of making every other character's lives revolve completely on Danny. Yes he's the protagonist, but that's just not realistic either. They're their own characters so please take the time to flesh them out well and not just assign them a role and say "so this is Danny's sidekick."

I'm saying all this as someone in their early 20s who's tired at how the media portrays us lmao. Social media as well sometimes portrays 20s as already having to have accomplished something huge. And if you haven't, you're falling behind or you're a loser. As if we don't have enough pressure on us already.

Also whoever told these writers 20s are mature briefcase users is the biggest liar on the planet. Literally my 3rd year of college half the fucking campus gathered around a fountain waving their phones around because rumor spread that a rare Pokémon was there. Shenanigans never stop bruh

If the show idea were ever to be picked up, they gotta add these things to 20s DP characterization or its just not realistic. Js.

Anyway, rant over lmao

[bedtimestoriesforbrokengirls]

Hey pops, can I ask for some advice please?

There's this guy: foul, vile, fucked up pretty much everyone around him back when I knew him in high school, I'm talking tried to cheat on his girlfriend with me, fingered a girl with cum on his hand because apperantly the possibility of her getting pregnant was funny, and he was constantly testing my physical boundaries like all the fucking time (which as a horny teen who was extremely attracted to him, I pretty much let him do whatever he wanted), he'd pull me into corners and feel me up because he knew I wouldn't question it, kiss my neck when we hugged even if his girlfriend was right there because he knew she couldn't see, wrap his hand around my neck in public just to see what I'd do, push me up against walls and lean down so his face was really close to mine like he was waiting for me to do something, put his hand in my hair and pull on it until I was looking up him, etc etc etc. We never actually did anything honestly, he did kiss me once when he caught me off guard though, but every time he'd touch me he'd always smile or laugh after like it was all some big joke, I could never tell if he meant any of it or if he just somehow knew how whipped I was for him and thought it was funny.

It's been years since I've even seen him, nevermind spoken to him, No one from high school fucks with him anymore, but he somehow re-entered my life. I know I shouldn't talk to him, he's horrible and he's done questionable things to me and people I cared about back then, but there's a piece of me that really wants to fuck him. All that unresolved tension from when we were teenagers, it's never gone away, I've wanked to shit he's done and now I don't know what to do, is fucking him worth how traumatic that could be? I'll probably lose friends over it, but I've thought about him since freshman year I'll go mad if I do the right thing and ignore him

If you ended up reading this, thanks I appreciate it pops much love ❤️

I did a lot of fucked-up, creepy shit in high school. I knew some of it was naughty-bad, but I didn't see how often it was also shitty-bad. I was in my early 20s before I figured it out. I can't speak for modern boys, but way-back-then, it was easy to reach your teens as a guy without ever giving a moment's thought to how uncomfortable we made girls feel.

Anyway... many things changed for me as the years rolled on, and maybe they've changed for him too. He's almost certainly still sexually aggressive and might be eager to corner you, but hopefully, he will have also developed a conscience... or at least an understanding of moderation and fair play.

Where's his head at? Is he still in high school, sexually and emotionally? If he is, If you ask me, it isn't worth the thrill. His lack of growth will start to feel stupid to you, and you don't want that tainting your memories.

But if he's matured, and seems to have a sense of proportion and responsibility... it's worth considering. He can take you places no one else can, and while it won't be 1/10th as good as you've imagined it, that doesn't mean it won't be good.

The sacrificial friendships are a thornier matter.

You've got to tell at least one or two friends, because you can't get mixed up with a highly problematic man without someone knowing what you're up to. Shit can rapidly get out of hand, and even a thin tether to external reality can help. So hiding it isn't going to be an option.

I dunno... are your friends really the kind of people who would see a friend get involved with a known sexual bully and actually do his job for him by isolating her? Are they so stupid and self-centered that they'd actually kick-start the mechanisms of abuse with their withdrawal?

Or is this the infuriating culmination of a long-established sequence of bad decisions involving bad boys? I suppose I could understand their "we're out" attitude if you've tasked their patience for years on end, but if this is your first, big, aberrant idea? If they're any kind of friends at all, they're not just going to throw you to the wolves.

NOTE: If they do abandon you, this is not a sign that you should cling to the dickhead. Quite the opposite... it indicates you need some time alone to think about the kind of people you're letting into your life.

[hellomynameisbisexual]

There are at least as many bi and pansexual people in the world as lesbians and gay men combined, at least according to surveys of western countries. But bisexuality is poorly understood - leaving bi and pansexual people feeling that their sexuality is invisible or invalid.

In Episode 1 of the new season of BANG!, people who are "attracted to more than one gender" share their experiences, and Dr Nikki Hayfield highlights some particularly damaging, often "biphobic", stereotypes.

To the outside world, Rose and Sam* look like any other straight couple. They're in their mid 20s, affectionate and obviously really into each other. The thing is, they're not straight.

Sam identifies as pansexual and Rose is bisexual. People define each of these sexualities in different ways, but for Sam pansexuality means that he's attracted to people irrespective of gender (as in, it's not important) and for Rose bisexuality means she's attracted to people "across the spectrum of genders".

For those shouting "but bi means two!", some people still use bisexuality to mean they're into just men and women, but others have broadened the definition as a response to the increase in trans identities and in resisting binary understandings of gender.

Both Sam and Rose came out in their early 20s, both had same-sex experiences and attractions in their teens and, initially, both put them down to teenaged "confusion" or "acting out".

As Sam tells me in this episode of BANG!, "Heterosexuality was expected of me and that's why it took quite a while to realise I wasn't that. It's why my parents still don't know [I'm pan]… I wouldn't be disowned or anything, but it would confirm that I'm the sort of black sheep, and that I'm less of a man in some way, and that doesn't feel good."

Rose grew up with an openly lesbian aunt; her family environment was welcoming of queerness. But she thought bisexuality meant 50 per cent attracted to men and 50 per cent attracted to women, and that the label didn't fit her because she's attracted to men more of the time.

That's until she turned 21 and stumbled across a Tumblr post.

"It said, 'you can be 70 per cent attracted to men, 30 per cent attracted to women' and I was like 'Oh! I think I could be not-straight then!'"

Soon after, Rose came out to her mum.

"When I told her… she was like 'Oh, I think I'm bi too!', I was like, 'What?! Why didn't you tell me! That would've really helped my coming out journey if you'd told me'," she laughs.

Rose's mum explained she had tried to come out as bi to some lesbian friends in the 1980s, but they told her she needed to "pick a side". This kind of discrimination from within queer circles makes bisexuals particularly vulnerable to social isolation, with many reporting that they feel "not straight enough" for straight circles and "not gay enough" for LGBTQ+ communities.

Rose and Sam are part of an open and supportive friend group, but even so - people close to them make incorrect assumptions about their sexualities because they are in a male/female relationship.

"We have had a friend who we know and love so much come up to us really drunk… and be like, 'You're just so straight! Look at you two!'... and I was like, 'No we're not!' It was sort of a funny situation but also… I don't think it's a funny joke to be like 'you're straight, haha!' Because you just don't know," she says.

Dr Nikki Hayfield is a senior lecturer at UWE Bristol, whose research explores bisexualities, pansexualities, asexualities, and LGBTQ+ sexualities generally. She's also bisexual herself.

"People do tend to take our relationships status as a signifier of our identity, and so it's much more difficult for bisexual people to be out about their sexuality, because their partner… doesn't indicate their sexuality in the way that it does for heterosexual people or for lesbians and gay men," she says.

"Bisexual people find that even if they've been explicitly out about their bisexuality, to say their friends and their family and their work colleagues, when they're in a relationship all of a sudden it's as if they didn't make that declaration of their bisexuality, and they find that people around them assume that they're 'gay now' or they're "straight now'."

Author and columnist Emily Writes was happily married to her husband when she came to terms with her attractions towards women. While her husband was incredibly supportive, coming out to some of her friends and family was trickier.

"A lot of people saw it as 'Are you getting a divorce then? Which I thought was really odd because that never crossed out minds… We have a really happy marriage and I don't see how that changes anything," says Emily.

As someone with a public profile, Emily copped the same social media flack as bisexual celebrities like Lady Gaga and Miley Cyrus: That they are claiming queer sexualities as a marketing stunt. Another common biphobic trope.

"When I see somebody being like 'Oh now she's gay coz it's cool.' I just have this thing in my head where I'm like 'I've been gay! I've been gay! The whole time I was gay!' She says. "It's this thing around bisexuality or queerness, that people want you to perform it for them and if you don't then are you allowed to say that you're queer or bi?"

Here's why this stuff is so important:

- The Youth '12 survey, of 8,500 New Zealand secondary school students found young people who experience "both and same sex attraction" (gay, lesbian, bi and pansexual students were lumped together in this survey) are more likely to be bullied.

The majority of them had deliberately self-harmed. 18.3% had attempted suicide in the past year.

- Also - the proportion of them experiencing significant depressive symptoms has increased from 27 per cent in 2001 to 41.3 per cent in 2012. Opposite-sex attracted students had no significant change.

- Several overseas studies also suggest that bisexual people are at a higher risk for poor mental health outcomes than both straight and lesbian and gay people.

What can we do to help?

Sai, Charlie and Emma are students at Wellington High School who identify as pan and bisexual.

"Just normalise it. As much as you can," says Emma. "A lot of TV shows are having a lot of casual background queer characters and not making their queerness who they are… Let's hope it continues."

"I do think the term "it's just a phase' is so strange," Charlie says. "Because, if it is a phase why can't that person, like, live in that phase and be comfortable with that?"

"People are a lot more quick to shut it down the younger you are because they're like 'oh you don't know any better'," says Emma.

"It's just people with ideas about what things should be, having a go at people who don't fit their expectations, just like it happens with just your regular old homophobes," says Sai.

"I guess I just wish I had bi parents, then I'd know it was a thing. Or just bi people that are open and in my life,"

Rose, the bi woman in a relationship with pansexual Sam, has some good advice, too.

"Until I meet this new person coming into my friend's life, I'm not gonna presume what gender they're going to be, that's just putting my friend in a box... I kinda just assume everyone's bi unless they tell me otherwise."

* Rose and Sam are not their real names

[eds-zebra-warrior]

2021 Ehlers Danlos Society Awareness Month (Day 3 Prompt: Symptoms)

Unbeknownst to most people in the community and even many in the medical community as most medical personnel never learned about EDS in school or if they have were only taught the very most basic information about it but Ehlers Danlos Syndrome is a systemic condition and predisposes those with it to over 250 other conditions so it's not unusual for someone with EDS to have 20, 30 or even more other conditions caused by it which are called comorbid conditions or comorbidities.

EDS is a genetic condition that affects the structure of connective tissue. There are multiple types of connective tissue but there are also multiple types of EDS so one or more types of connective tissue can be impacted. Connective tissue also makes up at least part of every part of the body so when your connective tissue is faulty and prone to damage that also means so is everywhere connective tissue is located including but not limited to the skin, cartilage, the brain, heart, lungs, GI system, liver, kidneys, bladder, Mesentery system which is the stringy organ that is around your abdominal organs that eases then and holds them in place, lymph nodes, lymph ducts, nerves, blood vessels, blood cells, nerves, bones, bone marrow, joints, tendons, ligaments, muscle sheathing, eyes, ears, nails, hair follicles, spinal cord, sweat glands, respiratory system etc. You name it, it contains connective tissue so anything can go wrong with any part of the body leaving many patients diagnosed with conditions such as conversion disorder, meaning that all of your symptoms are in your head and you're fine for years and more often, decades because we usually get diagnosed with a lot of these comorbidities before we finally find that one doctor who can put the pieces together and say, this isn't in your head, you have Ehlers Danlos Syndrome and those other conditions are very real because EDS is what caused all of them.

Now that we have discussed comorbidities I have dealt with countless symptoms over my life. As a kid it started with chronic pain, migraine headaches, and issues resulting from a compromised immune system because I caught everything going around and usually more than once. I don't remember a holiday as a kid where I wasn't sick or hurt. I was extremely clumsy, unable to run correctly until high-school with the very extensive help of my gym teacher. I was always falling, rolling my ankle, and just in general looking awkward with my body movements. I had multiple gym teachers who would agree that there was something physically wrong with me long before I could get any doctors to listen to my mom or as an adult, myself. I had to take special reading and writing classes because even to this day I cannot hold a pencil well or write with control because my fingers are too hypermobile to control a pencil so my writing is often illegible. I had a very severe failure to thrive, also called juvenile dwarfism, not even growing an inch between the ages of 2 and 12. My parents were told when I was 2 years old that I would be 6’4’’because I was so tall as at one and two years old that people would criticize my mom for carrying me out in public thinking I was 4 or 5 years old when I was only a year or two years old. I was 3’2” from the age of 2 to the age of 12 and of course when I was 12 I was extremely short and was bullied for my size as well as my weight which increased due to inflammation from undiagnosed celiac disease. There were multiple incidences with medical personnel and social workers as a kid because I always had such severe bruising all over my body and they believed I was abused. I didn't lose my teeth, losing only one on my own and at the age of 8 my dentist began pulling out my teeth which left me with dental crowding and requiring braces which were removed prematurely. I dealt with Learning disabilities and have been in glasses since age 4. I would pass out all the time as a kid, starting at 8 years old.

Bullying was a huge issue for me as a kid because I was socially awkward showing signs of OCD as well as being more mature than my peers due to my medical experiences and history with my siblings that forced me to grow up more quickly. That combined with issues such as my clumsiness and height made me the perfect target for bullying. I got what I believe was my first Traumatic Brain Injury when I was 9 years old while hanging upside down on the monkey bars. My bully had another student who had Down Syndrome, climb to the top of the monkey bars and lift my legs so I fell off onto my head.

My second was in the 6th grade. The same bully would bully other kids to help her bully a bigger target of hers which was me. One day I was at my locker between classes. Our lockers were assigned in alphabetical order by last name, of course my bully's last name came right before mine so her locker was directly to the left of mine. My mom tried to get it changed but the school refused. She shoved me down between classes while I was exchanging my books and the two kids with the locker to the right of mine she had help her roll me onto my stomach on the ground, one sat on my butt and held my feet down, the other sat on my back and held my arms down under her feet. my bully yanked my head up so my forehead was on the floor of my locker and I was trying to get out so she had the girl on my back use one of her hands to hold my head down. My bully then kicked my locker door shut on my head over and over again and I went unconscious. There were two teachers in the hall at the time but they just waked into the classroom when it started. I woke up and the hall was empty. I went to the office and told them I needed them to call my mom, I needed to go home and explained what happened. They called my mom and instead of telling her the truth they told her she needed to pick me up because I was acting strange. She came and got me and found out what happened getting me treatment.

She then took me to the school a few days later since the doctor didn't want me to return for so long (I apologize I don't remember a lot from the two weeks following this so I'm going off what I was told so the exact time I was out of school, I believe was around two weeks but I'm not sure. Anyhow at the school, we met with the principal and office staff who denied any teachers were in the hall or that any of this happened. My mom demanded to see the recordings on the cameras as a hall came in at a T right behind my locker so that camera faced my locker as well as one at each end of the hall my locker was in. They tried to tell her all three cameras were broken. My mom wasn't buying it so they tried then saying the recordings were gone. they went round and round and the school flat out refused to show her the video. My mom demanded that the girl who did this be punished because she has been asking for the school to help me since I was in the first grade and this girl started bullying me but they always fail to do anything.

They tried to then give me an in school suspension which my mom refused to let them do. They still went behind her back when I returned and made me take peanut butter sandwiches to the kids in detention during my lunch as punishment because they were mad my mom came in to question the incident. They refused to punish my bully in any way and when my mom demanded to know why, they said her mom and grandmother graduated from the school so she has a lot of history with the school which years later we found out after me and 9 other kids that I know of and who knows how many others, ended up being pulled out of the same school because of her bullying that having history at the school actually turned out to mean, she was black and they would not punish her because of her color. At the end of the school year my mom pulled me out of the school not sure what to do since back then they didn't have any kind of free online schooling so pretty much everything costed money which is when my grandma stepped up and told my mom she would help because there was no way I would be going back to deal with more bullying.

I had a ton of intestinal issues having to start colonics at around 10 years old and get my first colonoscopy around the same time. As a teen I really went down hill, struggling to eat because I had very severe nausea and cramping pain upon eating which made many of my friends believe I was anorexic but I went years without being diagnosed with gastroparesis. I started having thyroid issues and finally diagnosed with food allergies at age 14, Chest pain, palpitations, arrhythmias and trouble breathing around age 15 and seizures and cardiac arrest events at age 17.

At age 19, right before starting college I lost the ability to walk with no reason why and was sent to physical therapy to learn to walk again. The hospital visits continued in college from the seizures, emergencies from my thyroid levels going sky high or bottoming out, I started having issues with low sugar, rectal bleeding and more GI and Muscular Skeletal issues that again came to the attention of a physical education professor I had in college. The cardiac arrests continued to happen and I got an emergency pacemaker put in at age 23. Also lost the ability to walk a second time and re learned during this time.

After graduating and starting working I really went down hill. My nerve pain got so bad I could hardly tolerate it and had a lot of issues with muscle spasticity. Passing out and dizzy spells got worse, seizure meds aren't working muscle weakness got again worse in my legs and I started literally wondering if I was dying, I had such severe fatigue that I slept every moment I wasn't working, bleed very badly during my period or with just mild trauma worrying my dentist so badly that he sent a letter to my doctor suggesting a possible bleeding disorder. I was going into shakes from low sugar and low sodium frequently but at the time had no idea why I would start shaking multiple times a day. Myoclonic epilepsy started and has progressively gotten worse, Dystonia started up, I started getting intestinal obstructions more often and more gastroparesis symptoms with the nausea and vomiting, sometimes cyclic vomiting. I developed a limp and went onto forearm crutches which eventually progressed to paralysis.

I have always had issues with dislocations of joints and spinal manifestations like scoliosis, Craniocervical and Atlantoaxial instability. I’m prone to non cancerous masses that could be cancerous one day including masses in my breasts, heals and between the vertebrates in my spine. My memory has deteriorated and I now have issues which I call temporary blindness when I turn my head a certain way which pinches my already compressed brainstem kinking it off so my vision is interrupted. With Systemic Mastocitosis I deal with allergic reaction type symptoms such as anaphylaxis, overproduction of mucus, coughing, hives, swelling, rashes, itching, hot flashes, flushing and more. I overheat and have hyperhidrosis. I have muscle spasms from the paralysis, dry mouth from the meds, in addition to the heart arrhythmias and trouble controlling my body temperature from the damage to my autonomic nervous system failure I have swelling of my abdomen, extreme thirst, bladder retention, abdominal cramping and more.

There are endless symptoms associated with EDS and it’s comorbidities which has a huge impact on your social life. You can't do the things you used to do and may come up with new hobbies and later deal with the grief associated with losing the ability to do those hobbies, in turn having to find new hobbies. You lose all or almost all of your friends because they don't like what you have become, the things you used to be able to do with them and no longer can, they don't understand if you need to cancel plans, when you lose the ability to drive they drop you cold because they don't want to pick you up many of us deal with the realization of how badly we wanted friends growing up due to our social awkwardness that resulted from our illness, time spent in the hospital, maturing more quickly, as well as the result of decades of medical abuse and neglect which in most of us has resulted in complex PTSD.

Almost all EDS patients are either on the Autism Spectrum, diagnosed with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder which some associate with social awkwardness and also the intense need for us to please people meaning many EDS patients were known as extremely hard and dedicated workers when working or in school as well as very dedicated to friends and families. We basically give our friends the clothes off of our backs meaning that most of us unknowingly befriend people who use us and are in take take take relationships where we give everything we have into a friendship or relationship while the other person gives little back resulting in most of us losing all or almost every friend we had when we get sick and no longer have anything to give. When we are no longer able to do for others those people quickly jump ship leaving us with no friends. Most of us have this very similar personality type due to our history of growing up quickly along with the shared comorbidity of Autism, OCD, and Complex PTSD.

There are countless symptoms associated with EDS and they are different for each individual. Even in my case alone these are only the tip of the iceberg when it comes to symptoms I have experienced alone so EDS isn't an easy condition to live with physically or emotionally and the diagnosis can be quite the pill to swallow with little understanding from friends, sometimes family or even the medical community.

[disfordevineaux]

I don't know if you've done this before. But, do you have any Chase headcanons about his childhood or early teens? I'm kinda curious about how my favorite disaster boi could've been like back then 🤔

Chase childhood/teen/early 20s headcanons

I actually answered an ask I will link HERE with a little bit into what I think about his whole ‘growing up’ situation, if you can even call it that. I’ll delve a bit deeper into my hcs but I recommend you read that post I linked. It establishes my thoughts on his childhood to where a lot of these hcs will spawn from. So essentially this is a Part 2 of my Chase childhood headcanons. Going to focus on his late teens and early 20s.

As stated in my previous hcs Chase was an ‘orphan’ until his uncle (his mothers older brother) who magically showed up to adopt him for the government checks. His uncle was a long haul fisherman or something along those lines. This is where he officially received his last name of Devineaux once again.

I have a feeling his name wasn’t originally Chase. That being most likely his middle name or one he came up with which he changed to be his first, either shortened from something or just as is. He seems like an Alexandre to me. He would have negative connotations towards that name and preferred to decide a name a for himself rather than keeping the given name from a mother or family who didn’t really want him. He would have changed it once he left home.

No matter the living situation he was in, there wasn’t a lot of money around and if there was it wasn’t shared with him.

The majority of his teen years or the years that sculpted him into who he is now were in a town North-West of Paris along the coast. Somewhere like Dieppe, a fishing-port town.

You’d think by looking at him as an adult he was a bully or one of those ass hats at school who tried to be cool by being a dipstick or forcing a ‘class clown’ motif. In reality, he did everything in his power to blend into the shadows as he hated school, especially the social aspect of it.

Still, he was a sarcastic little shit when needed.

Spent a lot of his time outside or working dead-end jobs. Sometimes couldn’t return home or had to get into his house through a window instead of the front door.

Didn’t have many valuable possessions but had many crazy experiences like witnessing a flock of birds attack a drunk man, and won.

Was strangely optimistic about his future. Couldn’t get any worse than this, yeah? Yeah, it can and it will buddy.

Did watch Footloose religiously and intensely enjoyed it. *Wink*

He was reasonably good at school and tried to fast track it and graduate a year early. His application was accepted even with the few blemishes on his school academic report thanks to a few fights he partook in.

He was best at literature, English studies and writing in general. He was the top English and writing student and once even tried joining the drama club but the second he walked in the door he was instantly annoyed with everyone inside and did a full 180 out of that hellscape.

He then tried out for the sports clubs and teams but didn’t have time between work after school.

Chase actually made a friend during his last few years at school who managed to be the school’s main weed dealer (Chase draws chaos to him enough said). They actually were a good duo and Chase developed a serious attachment to him. His friend had a lot of money thanks to his business and often would get Chase to be his ‘bodyguard’ when selling to older clients.

They were both weird guys with different levels of intensity over random things. Both had that ‘dudebro’ vibe who would listen to Abba but in reality, the type of dudes who sit right next to each other in a hot tub, no need for 5 feet apart.

Somehow both comfortable with their sexuality which is refreshing. But, that won’t last long :(

They never got to really developed their relationship further before Chase left but it was a silent agreement between them that they liked one another on a physical and emotional level. They rekindled and I guess, ‘officially’ date when in the Air Force when training together. (Lovers in the military trope don’t @ me it fits him PERFECTLY.)

He and his friend were actually going to join the Air Force together. And they did. Chase first and his friend later.

Dude did some stupidly impulsive shit. Especially once he had a friend. Antics? Yes, many. Young, bored lonely boys with repressed feelings do stupid shit to fill the long hours. Jumping off things at high speed? Yes. Buring stuff? Yes. Smashing stuff? Yes. Listening to Green Day? Unironically, Yes.

No doubt they once burned down an abandoned house while trying to hotbox in one of the rooms. Nearly replicated the incident with the school DURING CLASS in the janitors closet. Boys just wanna get high and kiss okay?

Chase was born strong physically but mentally? Nar. Could fight a bear but would crumble under an anxious moment.

Never wanted to appear weak. It was what everyone expected but he never backed down from a fight or rivalry to his detriment. Stood up for himself no matter the circumstance. He always stood up for his boyfrie- SORRY I MEAN FRIEND.

He was an angry guy, mostly because people constantly tested his patience and intelligence and his home life was always a tense situation where there was no time to be soft or delicate.

Did get into many fights with one particular guy during school and out of school hours.

He was an attractive teenager. I like to think (like is a strong word) he was targeted by this one particular asshole because of their pent up feeling towards Chase. Chase either rejected his advances which set it all off or you just got that vibe from all their exchanges. Either way, at one point the tormentor made his feelings cryptically clear and Chase made sure they weren’t reciprocated.

One particular final fight between them, Chase wound up with a bat to the face which broke his nose badly.

The nose never really healed the best or back to how it was originally. This was something that scared him forever, becoming more resentful and unable to let things go. A lot more guarded from then on.

Chase used to be the pretty buff tall boy but the nose downgraded him to just a tall buff boy who has hints of a pretty boy in him.

Worked a few jobs during most nights. Needed money, mostly supported himself financially. Worked as a dish boy in a local restaurant and at the cinema as a cleaner. He always seemed to get the cleaning jobs.

Chase used to skateboard. He was pretty good at it too.

He started smoking young, around 15-16. And thanks to his companion, would often smoke weed supplied to him by his friend.

Loved going to the dentist when he could. He started eating those strong cheap dusty mints when he smoked as it was a cheap form of keeping his breath fresh after he smoked. Also, he thought it made him look cool and ended up getting addicted.

He wasn’t a joyless kid or teen, He just wasn’t one who smiled a lot.

Chase never really trained for his driving license. He just went for his test at the police station. They made him drive around the block once and they just gave it to him.

Chase: the aspiring pilot.

Chase wanted to be a pilot ever since he was young, specifically the French Air Force. No real trigger set that dream in motion, he just liked the idea of piloting a high-speed plane and seeing the world from up above. Moving fast is his ultimate goal.

He studied and prepared early to join the École Militaire de l'air (Military Air Force before it folded into the Air School). But you have to be over 18 and with his plans to complete school early, he would spend the year until then in basic military training, then would transfer over. All of this was to increase his chances of being accepted along with the examination, which he passed thanks to his passion for it.

Of course, things don’t always go to plan and even though he was on a path to graduating early a huge final brawl broke between him and a longtime bully halted this.

He had always fought with him specifically and this time, after years of building it all up, it hit the fan.  The incident put a hold on his plans and wasn’t able to graduate a whole year early.

Fast track forward and due to home pressures and school weighing him down he decided to just leave school and home and when he left, as one last ‘fuck you’ to his tormentor, his friend helped him break into his house and stole his car and drove it straight to Paris, abandoning it in the countryside just before. No one ever knew it was him and it is by far his greatest victory, as he knew how much he loved that car. Major mood. Chase was tempted to push it off a cliff in spite but couldn’t find one.

Chase still went into the general military before transferring to the Air Force once over 18 and acing his entrance evaluations.

Chase and his ‘friend’ managed to get in at the same time. Que, LLLLLLLL LOVERS!

They made sure they were in the same dorms, ‘classes’ and that their schedules lined up. They even swapped around so they had the same duties.

Chase thrived and was a great pilot. He achieved his pilots’ license and began working his way to completing the 2 years here then moving on to a higher position. His friend focused more on the engineering courses.

For someone spontaneous in an impulsive way, he liked the regimented schedule. It gave him purpose and meaning

Chase ended up getting kicked out after a massive brawl incited by an argument with another cadet about the particular notion of his relationship with his ‘friend’.

It was made clear to him such behaviour receives no second chances and was forced to leave, meaning he never officially completed his 2 years and was never allowed back in the foreseeable future.

Chase was desolated and once again hardened by this turn of events.

His 20s in a nutshell

Chase sought employment in the police force thanks to his military origins. He did, in fact, complete the basic military training aspect so he was a front runner for the police force.

He needed a job as all his money was wasted on a fruitless dream.

Spent the first few years of his police force employment as a ‘beat cop’ until his arrest numbers/success and work availability sought his promotion to a detective quite early in his 20s.

Chase was used to working full time and all the time at odd hours from very early on. He started his work career young.

They say you have 10 years in the prime of your career and Chase used that up instantly, shooting up the police then detective ranks fast due to how hard he worked, non-stop. His obsession and dedication with keeping busy and solving cases made him unmatchable.

Chase was physically skilled despite his smoking habits and mentally quick too, even if he acted dangerously without foresight sometimes.

He was very successful as a detective. It was his true calling

Chase has seen some nasty things and is a very good shot with a handgun.

Has he killed anyone? You decide. Personally? Yes, obviously. This has never and will never phase him.

He has been through so many police issued cars he now gets the second-hand cars due to how reckless he is.

Perused criminals with crazy car chases even when he was just a lowly beat cop. It got worse when he became a detective.

No doubt he kept and took home case files (sometimes even evidence) and didn’t give them back even when he became an Interpol liaison. He worked on those cases, he solved them, they are his. He keeps them all either at his apartment or in a storage unit.

Work became his life. His only vice.

Opted out for a partner as it wasn’t a department regulation just a personal option if wanted. Don’t need someone wasting his time, slowing him down or possibly taking away his shine.

Developed obsessive tendencies.

Detective work is competitive. You end up running around trying and fighting to get the best brutal murder homicide case as it will look great to your superiors. It was all a race to see who was the best. Chase was one of the best thanks to having no outsider life to distract him.

Somehow Chase wasn’t a suck-up his those above him. You would think he would be but Chase just enjoyed working and solving, completing things.

You are measured by your achievements and you have to be sure of yourself and your capabilities to survive in the race.

For work that was on the outside very heroic and selfless. Most detectives he worked around and ‘with’ were selfish, heartless and egotistical. The successful ones were anyway. Chase one of them.

He hated them all just as much as they hated him.

Ended up not caring for normal citizens and fellow employees disdain for his abrupt nature. Developed a superiority complex as a result.

But he remained composed and well mannered when dealing with victims and witnesses.

He was very susceptible to the alluring nature of the egotistic know it all.

All of this aged him rapidly. I have no doubt he is only in his early to mid-30s (in the show) but has aged himself visibly with unhealthy working hours and lifestyles.

(I’m not going to go too deep here as at this point I might as well insert my dam fanfiction. I have a whole story planned for what I think his detective days were like. I’ll give you a hint, it’s dark.)

Final relationships.

In regards to his love life? Don’t have one. One night stands? Eh, maybe very occasionally but he isn’t the sort of person to get wrapped up in such things. He is very professional and despite being touch starved he can live without physical relationships easily. They also make him uncomfortable now due to certain events.

His ‘friend’ asked for Chase to wait for him, that once he was finished in the Air Force his partner would come find him. Chase did for the entirety of his 20s and pretty much would for his entire life. First loves are hard to forget.

They only met up again once when Chase was in his late 20s and his friend no longer felt that way towards him or that kind of way anymore. He had a family. Chase sort of understood that his lover realistically would have moved on and blamed himself for not looking for him instead. He became obsessed with his success with work after all.

He couldn’t comprehend why his friend would finally contact him after all these years just to tell him he didn’t love him anymore. He always assumed it was to tie up loose ends or to make fun of him for waiting. To hurt him.

Chase was physically and mentally devastated to say the least. Especially when the last interaction they ever had was his old friend handing him a goddam conversion camp pamphlet.

This really dragged on and I’m sorry I really went off there. I hope it was at least relatively what you were after.

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Let's do this! Sort of a PSA for the current situation of degrading minors and the ageing up issue.

First of tumblr is for 13+ year olds and it's target audience is teenagers and students

Now, with this information, this gives the impression that minors will be validated and accepted onto this sight, however that doesn't seem to be the case recently, does it.

Teenagers are known for going through puberty which also indicates new founds of sexual arousal and I'm pretty sure everyone knows that teenagers masturbate. Oh my god, who would have thought. I mean, if a 16 year old boy was to have a hard on, he's not gonna be like, oh, I can't touch my dick until I'm of age so I'm just going to suffer. And if this thought made you uncomfortable as an adult who might be reading this who has been degarading minors, because it mentioned a 16 year old boy with arousal, then why you wanna fuck Todoroki and write smut about him???

Furthermore, minors haven't just been degraded for having basic sexual arousal and wanting to masturbate to something they like to reach release which is perfectly normal and should be normalized. They've also been degraded for liking the older characters of bnha, like aizawa. Now, as and adult can you remember as a teenager what people and characters you had a crush on? I'm completely sure that a lot of those crushes were on overage people. Don't tell me you've never liked someone who is older then you as a teenager and maybe even now. However, you degrade teenagers for liking older characters which gives the impression that you are a hypocrite. You say you are protecting minors but really you are making minors feel disgusted by their sexual arousal and like they shouldn't like older characters. This completely goes against the normalization of sexual education and arousal. As someone who read something the other night about liking older men and how it's "wrong" on tumblr, I felt disgusted when really that is completely fine. If you ever feel like you shouldn't, yes you can. Bob the Builder can fix this, now convert that Bob the Builder determination into you. Stop telling teens to stop simping over adults when you're simping over a minor!

Moreover, going into the ageing up problem. It has been expressed that there is a wrong and a right way to age up a character. By simple saying a character is 18 and not developing their character to have older features then you are not ageing the character up, you are simply trying to make your sexual attraction feel better by trying to say, they are 18.

Now here's some scenario, if you are 20, why just age up the character to be an 18 year old? And how the hell is Bakugou fucking you in a classroom when you are indeed 20? It is simple to say that you are in an apartment or "momo is a pro hero in this." That easy. Because why the fuck do you wanna fuck a student?

I can understand that a lot of you have liked these characters when you were the same age as them, however degrading teenagers for their attraction is none of your concern. Teenagers are going to be on this site, they're going to read smut and their going to write their own fanfiction and smut. Half your fanbase is probably underage and has 18 on their profile so you don't block them. But look, you are judging people for their age, not their maturity. Every teenager is different, you can't catorgize them to be the same and have the same mentality and be "dumb and stupid" or else we could just catorgize all these adults who degrade minors when they like a minor (yes you are also calling your fave Todoroki dumb and stupid when you label minors as that) as pedophiles and hypocrites but we know that isn't true becusse all adults are different too. Evryone is. You don't suddenly become mature when you turn 18 and clearly this shows by how some adults have decided to bully @shiggi-trash like how Shane Dawson and Jeferee Star bullied James Charles. Yes, that is how toxic you are coming off as.

So do us a favour as the adults of tumblr, stop degrading minors and age up the minor you like properly. Please also accept that teens have sexual desires and please accept them for who they are as a growing person because clearly you are still growing too which is okay because we should always accept growth to improve ourselves. Let love seep out of your pores. Really I'm tryna live my own life, and be present more and so should you, it's alright too.

Give these people support as they are tangled and being degraded @shiggi-trash and @savnofilter