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whumpster-dumpster · 1 year

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Caretaker gets intrusive thoughts about hurting Whumpee. They're horrified by the idea, they know that hurting them is the last thing they'd ever want, but the intensity of these thoughts make it hard to trust themself around Whumpee

#whump #whump prompt #writing prompt #intrusive thoughts #they suck i hate having them #caretaking #self doubt #angst

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ghostfacetheballfondler · 4 months

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you can't destigmatize mental illness by playing into respectability politics

#actually npd #actuallynpd #npd #cluster b #personality disorder #neurodivergent #autism #adhd #tagging a few disorders i have #''erm i'm autistic but i'm normal in social situations and am not cringe. anyone who isn't like me is a bad person''#''erm i have adhd but i'm not annoying and hyper. if you're not like me you're a bad person''#''erm i have ocd but i don't have those disgusting intrusive thoughts. if you have them you are a bad person''#''erm i have npd but i have never manipulated and i'm not self centered. if you aren't like me then you are the reason why ableists hate us'#<- i have seen so many people say those things #it is unreal #they're the most annoying types of people too #sorry my npd isn't just ''hot sexy and always correct''#sometimes the personality disorder affects my personality in a negative way. shocking!

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hunter-125 · 6 months

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Idk how long I can keep choosing coffee

#male ed #ed dairy #self h@rm #bulimima #i wanna die #tw selfhate #tw self destruction #tw self destructive behavior #trans ana #i want to run away #i hate it here #tw intrusive thoughts #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #albert camus #coffee

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astranauticus · 9 months

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oh lol i forgot to post this robit sketches! because i have one (1) bit and im sure as hell gonna commit to it apparently

#rolling with difficulty #art I made #'shut your up' is a verbatim quote from an ex classmate i just thought it was funny #i dont think it was intentional i think he was just so angry that Words Failed on him #anyway im absolutely not keeping that maxim design. god i fucking hate clothing design *so* much #austin: 'hes a gold plated mechanite dressed in blue and grey robes' me trying to figure out colour placement: 'what FUCK'#i had one (1) good idea and that was 'skeleton shaped robit' and every other part of that design went to hell apparently #bc all the other mechanites we've had were either like... flesh..? shaped?? like that sorta silhouette (basically most of the old crew)#or more mechanical/geometric (vr-la's designs and like.. k-lb? i guess? if that counts)#so. therefore. bone shaped mechanite. also if i was gonna try that concept on anyone it may as well be maxim if you think about it #idk i thought it would be interesting. and also undertale was my first fandom so uh #ANYWAY. MOVING ON FROM THAT THOUGHT.#this started as a 2am intrusive thought of like #'we (artists in the discord) keep joking abt how k-lb would be a nightmare to draw but like.. how hard is it really'#anyway as you can probably expect. famous last words #i mean genuinely mad respect to noir but i think i said to one of my friends when i showed them this sketch #'i mean this in the nicest way possible but you can just tell he was designed for an audio only storytelling format' LMAO #if anyone is unwise enough to attempt this (so basically @ my future self lmao)#do the lineart and colouring for the wires in front of the inner electricity skeleton (???) and the ones behind it on SEPARATE LAYERS #drew the wires all together then the electricity and had to painstakingly go over the electricity with an eraser it was a fucking nightmare

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defective-trash · 1 year

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wishingwell36 · 1 year

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The urge to die is so strong I can hardly breathe.

#tw sui ideation #suislide #s3lf hate #self destruction #self mutalition #svicide #tw self destruction #suicudal #i cant do this #i want to die #intrusive thoughts #living is hard

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cal-is-a-cryptid · 3 months

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Self Reflection//: Cal-is-a-cryptid

Instagram: @cleebdoodles

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the-mushroom-faerie · 4 months

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enough with the "this completely ambiguous text means you secretly hate me" anxiety posts. where's my "everything is happening all at once and I'm gonna cry about it" anxiety. where's my "a stranger looked at me so now I have to prepare for an Interaction and what if they think i look scared of them and that sets them off when actually I'm just scared of being outside in general" anxiety. where's my "did I do something wrong or are they upset about something unrelated to me" anxiety. where's my "oh God I can't ask them to repeat for a fourth time but what they said isn't sticking in my brain should I just nod and smile and hope for the best" anxiety.

#there are so many things to be anxious about #if someones mad at you or they hate you thats their problem to bring to you #i dont have the emotional energy to go to court just to prove to your self-fulfilling prophecy brain that i dont hate you #i will just take a step back until you go to therapy like an adult (not that kids shouldnt get therapy)#in the few and far between times i do get 'they secretly hate me' intrusive thoughts #i tell myself thats a pretty mean thing to say about my friend #theyre not a secret agent or an undercover cop they dont have the emotional energy to pretend to be besties with someone they hate #ive seen how they interact with carla from accounting trust me brain they dont secretly hate me

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meganlynnhostetler · 1 year

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fellforstudentloans · 8 months

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nothing fills the void

nothing makes the nothing go away

nothing makes it better

the is only more nothing underneath

#tw self loathing #tw #block don’t report #vent #tw depressing thoughts #cw #intrusive thoughts #i hate it here #sorry for being depressing #nothing is real #make it stop

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wavesoutbeingtossed · 10 days

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#warning: rant about parent ahead #I’m so so so so so empathetic to mental health struggles #like exceedingly so #but it’s just so exhausting being on the receiving end of someone’s self-loathing #and to be clear I AM NOT TALKING ABOUT ANYONE HERE #you are all my phone besties and I have so much empathy for your struggles and know that i love you all #and wish i could say the right thing to support you all always and you are always welcome to share whatever is going on #and to quote the bard herself i wish i could take the bombs in your head and disarm them #but when my mother gets into these moods she just seems to use it as a way to get a rise out of us #she’s pulling the ‘well maybe you don’t want to do x with me because it’s not fun because I’m a terrible person and you’re scared of me #and i ruin everything so maybe you would just rather i do everything alone’#and i don’t doubt she feels horrible and i know she has intrusive thoughts etc #but that is so manipulative!!!! she then puts the onus on us to reassure her that she is not!!!! But that is not what she wants!!!!#which we then do profusely and remind her that we do love her and we do do things together and whatever the fuck is the problem of the day #but of course she won’t hear it #so yes it makes us scared of her because we are always worried we’re going to say the wrong thing in a given moment!!!!#i just shut the fuck up at all times now #but my dad tries to use reason with her and of course it just ends in her lashing out and projecting all this shit on him #’oh you maybe you actually hate me maybe you want to leave me’ etc #THEY’VE BEEN MARRIED DECADES HE’S THE MOST LOYAL AND KINDEST PERSON IN THE WORLD HE NEVER ONCE HAS #i honestly don’t know how he lets this roll off his back because i am so fed up with it #It’s just so so so so hard because one minute she’s ‘herself’ and the other she’s this inferno #and we just have to ride whatever wave she’s on and it sucks all the air out of the room #it’s like the one and only time i tried to very gently bring up that something she said was hurtful *after she’d brought it up herself*#she went on a ‘oh I’m a terrible person/terrible parent’ rant and it then turned into me reassuring her that she isn’t #i was just trying to show her how the language/behaviour she uses was hurtful to me #so anyway that was lesson learned that even if she invites it i will never speak of it and luckily she hasn’t since and that was years ago #But it’s just… i know bad thoughts can’t be helped and again i feel so much pain on her behalf for what she struggles with #and i wish i could help but there’s absolutely nothing i can do #AND SHE’S GONE OFF ALL HER MEDS SO THE ONE SOURCE SHE DID HAVE ISN’T THERE ANYMORE EITHER

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artoutoftheblue · 1 month

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Fucking goddamn hell I'm hurting so fucking much

#never acted on incredibly self destructive intrusive thoughts before #i still hate myself but i hope i dont do that again #blue rants

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wishingwell36 · 1 year

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Is it just me or does anyone else just get the random desperate urge to chug alcohol and take all the possible drugs you can find while having never done anything similar before?-🤡

#self destruction #s3lf hate #self mutalition #suicudal #intrusive thoughts #help lol

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vanillagvsts · 6 months

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Punch your lights out Hit the pavement That's what I call entertainment Causing problems makes you famous All the violence makes a statement

#Gabe #violent intrusive thoughts are shit man #i fucking hate my source #tw gore #tw self harm #tw violence

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lxv3s1ck · 2 years

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I’m a terrible person.

my girlfriend deserves so much better than me.

My friends deserve so much better than me.

Everyone in my life would be better off without me.

I keep getting intrusive thoughts about breaking up with my girlfriend or dropping all of my friends. I don’t want to leave them but I can’t stop thinking about it.

#intrusive thoughts #i hate myself #sui ideation #suicudal #tw sui ideation #tw selfhate #tw self loathing #tw depressing thoughts #sorry for being depressing

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marshmallows-moonbutterfly · 10 months

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Recovery is a bitxh I want to be thin

#self deprecation #anamia #im not good enough #tw self loathing #disordered eating thoughts #tw depression #intrusive thoughts #i hate my brain #i want to disappear

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