#I'm tired of being healthy

[dont-read-this-im-dead]

Doctor: try to eat more greens. They should help with your endometriosis symptoms.

Me: I hate greens.

Doctor: if you put them in a smoothie, you can add fruits to it and it helps with the taste.

Me, after a week of drinking green smoothies: well, whaddya know? I actually feel better.

Also me: I still hate greens.

[aleksanderscult]

What do you think are fundamental differences between Aleksander and Kaz? On an even playing field i.e. comparing a young Aleksander to a young Kaz and the very old Aleksander to your interpretation of what a very old Kaz would be like.

I haven't read the SoC duology but from the few things I know about Kaz, the most important difference between them is the matter of selfishness. Aleksander is selfless in comparison to Kaz and has a more important goal than gaining money. He tried to save a group of people and a country from various enemies for hundreds of years while Kaz always is on the look out for the next job that will fill his wallet.

Both of them had a childhood that shaped them to the men that they eventually became. Kaz lost the only family he got while Aleksander was living on the run with his mother (and Baghra was not a pleasant, immortal companion to have). The environment they grew up in formed their future plans but in different ways:

- Kaz grew up among thieves, street magicians and crookers and ever since his brother died he had nothing left to lose. His feud with Pekka Rollins gave him a lifelong grudge that became an essential part of his character.

- Aleksander grew up with his mother travelling from place to place, never safe because of their powers. Just like Kaz, his incident with Annika shaped him to the man we came to know in the trilogy but unlike the former, he decided to act on a larger scale because he was a witness to the Grisha persecution.

So even though both were scarred because of their childhood they decided to take different actions in the future.

Now, as we've seen with Aleksander in his later years, he was still fixed on his goal but he had grown bitter with life and more apathetic in comparison to his younger self. He was a pragmatic and action-oriented person that craved companionship and when he had his chance to have that he behaved with panic at first and then with gestures that showed that he no longer had an idea how to go for it in a normal way.

With Kaz we see the opposite. In the beginning he's distant and cold with his friends, behaving in a business-like manner but as his own story progresses he tries to become more open, especially with Inej. He tries to find his footing in being more empathetic for her sake and I believe in the future he will succeed. He won't be as closed off as he was the first time he was introduced to us. But he has a long way until then (it's the trauma he has to get past you know).

[threadsun]

Hey real quick request:

Can yall try to be normal about sex work and nonmonogamy/people who aren't virgins?

The number of asks I get that censor sex work related terms, use outdated and offensive terms, and act like it's something secret and to be ashamed of is unacceptable. Sex work is work. We don't keep random VHS copies of our own pornos in our houses. We aren't "spoiled" or "ruined" because we have sex with colleagues for the camera, and it's not something that should inspire jealousy in any reasonable person. I will never make the boys anything but fully supportive of sex work, and I will not change my Joseph's backstory as a full service survival sex worker just because it "ruins him for you". Grow the fuck up and be normal about the fact that even if you personally are a virgin, not everyone is and that doesn't make them incapable/unworthy of love or devotion or commitment. Casual sex is not abnormal or something you need to psychoanalyse a character about. Just. Please be normal about sex and sex work, all you're doing is making yourself look like an asshole.

[goldkirk]

I DON'T HAVE TO LIE ANYMORE!

[9x07]

how many times do we need to learn as people that irony and hyperbole can be harmful because 'jokes' aren't easily distinguished from genuine thoughts and feelings until we stop rewarding people for speaking or posting about violence

like even if you're joking/don't actually believe that/think whoever you are insulting is bad/immoral/fictional therefore deserves it - ad hominem attacks always do more harm to the people who share those characteristic then the individual you intend to cause harm to or discredit

[heybaetae]

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[angelicsentinel]

Not to yuck anyone's yum here, but I don't see how someone can do meta if they don't even have basic reading comprehension, much less do surface level critical analysis that says anything of substance.

[navybluetriangles]

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[paranorahjones]

dude i'm actually gonna throw up, i accidentally called him 🫠🫠🫠

[ubike-official]

as i said b4, cant wait til I'm 30 to experience my own yuri cherry maho. its gonna be great

[terryfuckingturniptruck]

Men stop commenting on my food challenge.

[aloeverified]

i really hope they do something different with harley and the joker's relationship in the new movie. i'm obviously not a fan of their relationship, but i'm so sick of seeing him abuse her and treat her like shit all the time.

harleen is a psychiatrist who wants change in the prison system and feels as though gotham is dooming its citizens to a life of crime, especially amongst the mentally ill.

she meets arthur, a prime example of her views. she doesn't see a monster or a madman, she sees a mentally unwell schizophrenic man who was left with no true treatment options and wore down by a corrupt system.

he tells her what she already knows: gotham is sabotaging its own population and will continue to do so for as long as the rich get to control the city. unless someone forces it, change it not be made.

she gets him out of arkham and the two essentially start wreaking havoc on gotham, probably starting off by killing a couple millionaires.

overall — i want them to be toxic, they're both mentally ill and not probably treated, they're extremely codependent and obsessed with one another, and they both seem to think violence is the only way to get peace. they're messy, but not in the same way they are when joker just beats the shit out of her and she allows it.

you can even still have harleen idolize him for essentially "making her harley quinn," but arthur would put her on a similar pedestal, viewing her as his saving grace or another chance at fixing gotham.

[asinglesock]

just realized my fatal flaw and the great struggle of possibly the rest of my life. while watching a cdrama.

[musical-chick-13]

One of the WORST parts of having OCD is that some of the Fears™ are actually humanly possible, so it's not like my response can just be, "Oh that'll never happen" or even "I've never seen that happen, so it's probably unlikely."

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

not sure if I personally agree with Aristotle about friendship tbh

[sassygwaine]

there is actually something wrong with me and that's also fine??

like when i was a kid/teenager with several health, mood, and developmental issues, it was years and years and years of being told "nothing's wrong with you, that's normal, everybody does that, you'll grow out of it, you're just a normal kid" and then look at that, i grew into an adult with several health, mood, and developmental issues

normal is fake, "normal" is a set of ever-moving goal posts set by any given person/group at any given moment to justify why they feel disgust or revulsion or pity or shame, normal isn't real

and also, there's shit that i actually legitimately struggle with that causes me a lot of stress and distress that are things innate within myself that will never change, some of which, in fact, will get worse as i age, and they're things that other people don't have to deal with

a lot of these things could have been mitigated when i was younger if somebody had just listened to me with the intent to help me instead of just to shut me up

no, it was always the insistence that i was normal, that nothing was wrong, then, further, that i was making it up, that i was just looking for attention

and maybe a lot of how i expressed myself was looking for attention, but when you're in pain all the time and feeling more like a gutted pig than a human and the people you're supposed to trust with your life tell you that nothing is wrong with you and go back to ignoring you, what else could you try to get but some fucking attention?

so anyway, there is something wrong with me, several somethings, and i'm unraveling a bit more each day (in some very good and cathartic ways, some very truthful, painful, and growing ways) and figuring out how to actually care for all of the little parts of me that are trying to get my attention, and i don't think any of that is a bad thing