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Mitsuya & You Headcanons!

I've been having so much trouble getting motivation to get creative. I can feel myself getting over it, though, so I decided to stop letting this rot in my drafts and finish it. (Not proofread.)

💮As a teen, you helped out in your mom's daycare. Helping out with the kids and cleaning. That's how you met him—he came in to pick up his sisters an hour and a half late.

💮The way his face fell when you mentioned a late fee made you feel like a villain, so you just brushed it off. After that, the two of you just started talking. From short greetings to awkward hellos to long conversations in the lobby, and him helping you and your mother close up for the day.

💮Then, he surprised you by taking you to the botanical gardens you've been dying to see. And on a hill surrounded by your favorite flowers, he asked you to be his girlfriend.

💮Cooking together always becomes a competition. Neither of you can help the urge to one-up the other. Mana and Luna milk the hell outta this whenever they get the chance. They'll say "Y/n makes it better," and "Mitsuya's tastes better."

💮Sewing isn't your strong suit, but your talent lies with crochet. You made his sister's toys and hats, gave his mother a cardigan, and gave him a sweater. He's so happy he found someone who enjoys making stuff by hand as much as he does

💮He made your wedding dress based on a description you gave him when you were younger. You didn't think he'd remember, but he did. (Cuz he's been plotting from the start)

💮If your favorite song comes on, he'll stop what he's doing and make you dance with him no matter where you are or what you're doing. Driving? He'll pull over. Cooking? Who cares if the food gets a little burnt?

💮You went to his band practice once, and when he was singing, his voice cracked super loudly. He was embarrassed for weeks and couldn't look you in the eye without cringing.

💮Every Saturday, you take his sisters off his and his mom's hands for the day for a Girl's Day Out.

💮You don't remember when she started doing it, but his mother started to put out a plate for you at breakfast. Even if you don't stay the night.

💮He has a habit of fixing your clothes outta nowhere. You could be convo and he'd just start fixing your collar.

💮You find yourself helping with chores whenever you come over. No one asks you to, it's just second nature.

💮It took Hakkai a very long time to warm up to you. For the longest time, you thought he didn't like you.

💮He was the bridezilla. Not the kind that goes on a rampage. His anger and frustration were silent and passive-aggressive.

💮Best believe when it comes to Halloween he shows out. Whether you like it or not, he signs the two of you up for a costume competition. He says he doesn't care if he wins or not, but the face he makes when a dog in a Chucky costume wins over your matching outfits, says otherwise.

💮Anytime you cuddle on the couch, Mana and Luna wedge themselves between you. Neither of you mind at all unless you're watching a rated r movie.

💮To get them to behave Mitsuya will threaten to kiss you in front of them. It works like a charm every time.

💮He treats you like you're on your deathbed when you're sick, but he'll fight you tooth and nail if you try to take care of him when he's sick. He has severe sickness denial. It's almost like the mention of it alone offends him on a personal level.

💮He doesn't get jealous, just annoyed. It's not you that he doesn't trust. It's them. He'll make his presence known, subtly. Holding your hand, leaning in closer to you, and a hand on your lower back.

💮You take ballroom dance classes together. It's just an excuse to dress up fancy and hold each other close.

💮Sometimes he'll just stare at you, admiring you just 'cause he can. But you'll think he's staring at the pimple growing by your nose

💮At one of Hakkai's photoshoots, you made a joke that he should model his own clothes too. A few days later he comes home and shows you an album worth of pictures from a photoshoot. Then he spent an hour trying to convince you to model his clothes with him too.

💮He made you a subtle Toman hoodie. Embroidered with his division number and his name. Nothing too bold in case someone tries to press you about it when he isn't around, but enough for someone who knows better to leave you alone.

💮If you're stressed he'll make you organize mixed accessories. Beads, charms, and buttons. He says "Bringing order to something physically can help bring order to your mind."

💮He wears the scarf you made every winter. Even if it doesn't match with his outfit. Even if it's coming apart from wear and tear.

💮Sometimes you'll wake up in the middle of the night and find him drawing a design for a new outfit. He says if an idea comes to him in a dream, it's a warning that another artist will get the same idea soon

💮Matching outfits almost daily. It's not just a copy-and-paste kinda thing, he makes sure your outfits coordinate and that the style will compliment both of you while keeping you in your comfort zone.

💮When he asked if he could paint your nails, you were genuinely surprised at how good he did. The tiny designs he did were so detailed and intricate. He's a designer, he's got steady hands. (He's your new nail tech)

💮He never raises his voice during arguments, he's calm and collected. It makes you feel like an immature child. But he never rubs salt in the wound. He lets you have a moment alone, then he comes back to talk to you as a mature individual.

💮You had to learn the hard way how bad he is with technology. You rented a cabin for the week. It was supposed to be a romantic getaway, just the two of you and nature. But when you got there, you were met with a shabby, old, run-down, cabin that was barely the size of a toolshed.

💮He swore up and down that it didn't look like this in the pictures, so you asked to see what he thought he rented.

💮It was an AI image of a cabin. A very obvious AI image. The trees were merging, the windows were half-rendered, and to top it all off, the lake in the background was pink. He said that the owner said that the pink lake was a very rare natural occurrence, hence the ridiculous price. From now on, you take care of the traveling plans.

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He Doesn't Deserve You | A Jeon Jungkook Series | Chapter Nine

Summary: The morning after has a bit of a rude awakening but he's not gonna let that get between the two of you Pairing: Noona reader x Jeon Jungkook (She's 28 and he's 22) Word Count: 2.4k~ Warnings: Hinting at smut but yeah not in explicit detail. a/n: Okay so I didn't realize I already had half of this chapter written so I finished it up today. I hope you guys enjoy and are looking forward to the next chapter 🤭 p.s. not edited at all cuz I'm feeling lazy today and I've got stuff to do 😅 Start from the beginning

My eyes flutter open when I start to stir awake and the first thing I notice is the strong arm around my waist and the soft puffs of air fanning my neck giving me a ticklish sort of feeling. I try to bring my brain up to speed and remember what happened last night and when I take a peek under the blankets and see the tattoos on the arm around me I know that I'm safe. 

"Noona?" he mumbles behind me and I hum to let him know I'm listening. "Good morning" he say, the deep tone of his voice now sending shockwaves through my system and when he pulls me closer to him I let out a quite yelp in response feeling utterly mortified when he chuckles, kissing my shoulder and nuzzling into my neck. 

"Did you sleep well?" he asks and I nod my head, "Better than I have in a really long time actually" I admit and he continues to place a few lazy kisses on my neck. "Really did a number on you last night huh?" he smiles against my skin and I scoff and try to get out of bed but he tightens his hold on me before I can get too far. 

"Where are you going?" he asks, continuing to pepper kisses all along my neck and shoulder, making me lose any sort of motivation I had to leave the bed just a few seconds ago. "Breakfast?" I say and he chuckles before putting me on my back and hovering over me with a cunning look in his eye. 

"I was about to have mine so why don't you just relax yeah? Wanna make you feel good" he says, kissing me and caressing my waist making me give in with little protest. "What time is it?" I asks between kisses and he glances at the clock on my nightstand. "Early" he says, clearly showing he has no where to be except for right here in this bed with me.

"You don't have work?" I ask, knowing he's pretty busy with everything he has going on in his life. "Not till later" he says and goes back to kissing me and because I don't have anywhere else to be either I give in.

He kisses his way down my body, garnering soft sounds of pleasure from my lips already and I can tell that it gives him a sense of confidence, making him want to keep going even more. 

"Didn't know you would sound so sweet in the morning Noona" he teases and I chuckle. "Didn't know you would be so needy in the morning" I retort and he smirks and continues his down ward trail until he settles between my legs. 

"You sure I'm the one that's needy?" he asks, staring at my center and seeing how undoubtably wet I am. "It's your fault" I grumble and he chuckles "Good because I'm the only one who's gonna make you wet like this from now on yeah?" he asks, kissing the inside of my thigh and biting down on it when I don't answer, hypnotized by the sight in front of me.

"Only you" I respond and he smiles against my skin, licking the spot he had just bit before going on and doing the same to my other thigh, still taking his time and making sure I'm dripping for him.

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After he's thoroughly ravished me and gone another round...or two I'm left in a slumped daze, glassy eyed and ready to pass out again but it's well past ten in the morning and we still haven't left the bed yet. 

"I forgot that younger guys have a higher sex drive" I mumble and he laughs, his head on my chest while I run my fingers through his hair, "You keep calling me young but we're only six years apart" he replies drawing patterns on my skin but I sit up making him roll onto his back and look up at my clearly confused expression. 

"You're twenty two?" I say in disbelief, clearly misjudging his age. "Yeah I thought you new that" he says, resting on his forearms. "How old did you think I was?" he asks and I run my fingers through my hair, having some what of a crisis at the thought of this. 

"I don't know twenty four, twenty five. But twenty two? You seem so mature though and with all the tattoos and piercings I just thought you would've been a little bit older. Not older than me but still at least a little older" I say and the room falls silent for a bit, the tension palpable and this time not in a good way. 

"Is my age gonna be a problem for you?" he asks, getting worried now that he's seeing the way I'm reacting to it, the silence and the somewhat distressed look on my face being a clear sign that something isn't right. 

"Well no it's just...Jungkook I'm gonna be turning twenty nine this year" I say and he nods his head. "I know, and I'm turning twenty three" he says, trying to make light of the situation but I'm still worried that he might be a little in over his head. 

"I'm a married, well about to be a divorced woman and I don't really want to be playing games anymore when it comes to finding a partner" I say and he nods his head, listening and not jumping in to argue which just shows another reason as to why I thought he was older. 

"I'm not interested in getting into a casual relationship and even though I'm going to be coming out of this traumatizing marriage, if I'm going to be in a relationship with someone then I need to know that they're going to be serious about us" I say and trail off, not really knowing what else to say. 

"I am serious about us" he says, sitting up and cupping my face, not giving me a chance to shut him out. "Jungkook you're still young. You have your whole life ahead of you and I don't think you wanna be tied down to a divorced woman who is honestly really unstable right now. And on top of that is about to have a psycho ex husband" I say, looking down at my lap, feeling bad that I let him get so close to me. 

"Don't do that" he says and I look up at him again, "Do what?". "Think about how to let me down easy and tell me you're sorry you let things go this far" he says and I can't argue that that was where my mind was about to wander. 

"I know our age difference, I know about your soon to be ex husband and I know that you're not healed yet. I promise you, I've thought about this a lot before ever allowing myself to get too close to you" he says, his tone level and face desperate for me to not leave him when we've only just started. 

"You don't have to say anything now, but I want you to know you're not getting rid of me that easily" he says with a sad smile, nervous that I might actually try to push him away but when he makes moves to get up I grab his wrist. 

"Where are you going?" I ask, my voice in a panic, not wanting to leave things this tense between us. "Breakfast? Or do you wanna shower first?" he asks, getting back onto the bed and guiding me back down, him now peppering kisses along my already thoroughly  marked neck, no doubt a conscious effort to hide the bruises from Taehyung. 

"I think I'll s-shower" I stutter and when he smiles against my skin and picks me up I quickly have to correct him. "Alone...is that okay?" I ask, a sign of the need for approval being something concerning for him rather than cute. 

"You don't have to ask for my permission Noona, especially for something like this. I respect your wants and boundaries so if you wanna shower by yourself that's your decision" he explains and places me down on my feet before turning on the water for me to warm it up. 

"Although I won't deny it when I say I'll miss you...but I'll take one later" he says with what I would call an adorable smile if he wasn't standing in front of me completely naked, having fucked me senseless at least four or five times in less than twelve hours...I've lost track at this point.

He places a hand on my bare waist and places a kiss on my forehead before leaving to give me space. 

When I come out of the bedroom, completely dried off except for my towel dried hair I find him wandering about my kitchen and making us some ramen for breakfast...well lunch since he kept me in bed for so long.

He notices my presence after I had been standing there for a while, looking up at me and smiling softly. I can't even remember the last time someone has looked at me like. 

"Did you have a nice shower?" he asks, taking the ramen off the stove and bringing it over to the table, placing a hot dish under to prevent the table from getting ruined. "Yeah, it was warm" I say, wrapping my arms around myself when I catch a sudden chill which he notices pulls me in, wrapping me in his warmth for a second before letting me go and leading me over to the table. 

"Let's eat before it gets soggy" he says and I nod, agreeing and taking a seat while he goes around to the other side so he can sit across from me. 

"What time do you have work?" I ask after we've eaten in a comfortable silence for a while. "Why? Are you trying to get rid of me?" he says after he's finished chewing, taking a drink of water and sitting back a bit, shamelessly checking me out for absolutely no apparent reason other than to make me nervous. 

"No, I just wanted to know since you said you didn't have to work until later" I roll my eyes, taking a drink of water and standing up to pour the rest of the unused broth down the drain. "I technically don't have work but it might as well be work" he says making me glance over at him suspiciously, wordlessly asking him to explain. 

"I have to watch my siblings tonight since my mom is working the late shift" he explains and I nod my head, still so curious about them since he hasn't told me much about his family. 

"You could come with me if you want?" he offers I splash water on myself, surprised that he would suggest that already. "Come with you? To your house? To meet your family?" I ask, my pulse picking up at the thought of it. I don't know why that makes me so nervous but maybe it's because I haven't met anyone new in a while, let alone my boyfriend's family...

Can I even call him that yet?

"You don't have to. I just thought I would offer since I didn't know if you'd wanna be home alone after everything that happened last night" he says and I can tell from that alone that he really does have pure intentions behind it.

"You don't think it's too soon? Plus what about this?" I ask, pointing out my very clearly love bitten neck and he chuckles, clearly enjoying the external struggle I'm having in front of him as if he wasn't the cause. 

"You have a turtle neck yeah?" he asks, heading into my room with me trailing behind him sighing and deciding I'll go since I really don't wanna stay here by myself. "Yeah I guess I could wear one" I mumble pulling one out of my closet and grabbing a few more things to complete the outfit.

When I turn around I see him sitting down on my bed with his legs spread as if he were ready to watch me strip. "What are you doing?" I ask, both of us knowing damn well what he's doing but playing the game anyway. "Watching...waiting" he answers, leaning back on his hands and dragging his eyes up and down my figure. 

I give in just a bit, slipping my shirt off over my head and revealing the fact that I'm not wearing a bra but he clocked it when I first came out. I walk over to him, his eyes having been staring at the change to looking up at me, grabbing my hips once I get closer. 

"Sit down yeah?" he asks, wanting to go again since from what he told me it had been a while since the last time he had been with anyone, completely obsessed with making me cum but I don't give in this time and shake my head which results in a very cute pout from him. 

"Just for a little bit?" he asks as if I would ever believe him but with the way he's started to play and kiss my breasts it makes me start to second guess my stance. "I don't wanna have to take another shower" I say, stepping back and making him even poutier from having thoroughly tease himself and can clearly see how worked up he's started to get me but I choose to ignore it. 

I can't give in every time he wants to have sex right? No matter how good he makes me feel...

"Come on go shower, I'll wash your clothes" I say and grab one of his hands and lead him towards the bathroom. He sighs and starts stripping leaving me looking away, as if I hadn't seen it all just a few hours ago. 

"Are you shy now?" he teases and tosses his clothes at my feet, making me look down and grab them quickly. "No I just didn't want to stare" I explain but shoot myself in the foot since I basically admitted that I would stare at his naked body if he let me, which he probably would. 

"You can if you want to, I won't be embarrassed" he taunts, immediately proving my point. "Just go shower you pervert" I sigh and pick up his clothes, quickly shutting the door behind me, gaining me a few faint chuckles in response before I hear the shower turn on.

He's gonna be the death of me.

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jordan teaching marie how to play their favorite video games cuz "im just a kid addicted to their playstation <\3"

oh lord, you’ve definitely asked this question to the right person. i’ve been dying to write something like this! 🩵 word count: 959

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jordan was always the same kid that was addicted to their playstation. even as an adult, it held true. it was a comfort to them. a way to decompress after the heaviness of their hectic life took its toll. the sound of the playstation turning on, the feel of the controller in their hands - they could play for hours on end. it was their happy place.

they often played their games alone, single-player games they could get lost in. they never played any of the bullshit vought superhero games, preferring spiderman or batman. the other ones felt too real.

though, their favourite was the last of us. they'd played it too many times to count on both hands. they fell in love with the richness of the story and the characters, most of all, the soundtrack that pulled at their heartstrings.

late one evening jordan had finally finished up their coursework with a few hours to spare before they would settle into bed. their eyes lingered on the playstation hooked up to their tv; they couldn't resist.

soon they were sitting on an armchair just a few feet from the tv, dressed down in a pair of loose boxers and a white sleeveless top. they had only gone as far as to hover over a 'new save file' when there was a knock on the door. a heavy sigh came from them as they begrudgingly set the controller on the armrest and walked to the door with heavy feet.

"what do you want?" their voice was sharp, pointed and filled with annoyance, as they pulled open the door. their expression softened when they saw marie, "oh."

"bad time?" she asked, hands clasping in front of her.

"no, no. i mean... yeah, no." jordan replied, wondering how honest they should be. this was the first time in weeks they managed to free up some time to play.

"it's cool, jordan. it can be a bad time." marie insisted, the last thing she wanted was to impose on their time. though, it was one of those nights where she was hoping to curl up beside them and 'accidentally' fall asleep in their room.

jordan let out a chuckle through their nose, opening the door wider, "it doesn't have to be a bad time if you don't mind me... playing a game." they motioned towards their television set-up, looking sheepish.

"oh, you're a gamer?" marie teased as she stepped into the room and closed the door behind her. not once did her eyes leave the tv screen, jordan took notice of it.

"you haven't played before?" they asked, walking back to their armchair, grabbing onto the controller and waving it slightly.

marie shook her head, "no. we didn't really have the luxury of having that kind of stuff," she admitted, "i can watch."

jordan's eyes widened slightly as an idea formed in their head, a smile spreading on their lips, "do you want to play?"

marie shook her head, "i've never played before, jordan. i, uh, i wouldn't even know where to start. it's okay," she laughed softly.

jordan tilted their head slightly, still giving that small smile as they settled back into the armchair and gestured for marie to follow. she was hesitant, but how could she say no to that smile?

not even minutes later, marie was fully settled in jordan's lap with the playstation controller in her hand. it was a funny ordeal, being told by jordan several times 'not that one' when she tried to interact with something onscreen, but pressed the wrong button and instead made the character jump. this was the happiest that she'd ever seen jordan, looking at them for a brief second to see the biggest smile on their face.

"okay, jordan, this is getting a little freaky," marie murmured after she played a bit more, no longer needing to ask jordan what to do every few seconds, but still taking her sweet time, "like... really freaky."

"are you scared?" they smirked, their arms snaking around marie's waist as they leaned against her and watched intently.

"no, not scared. i just didn't realize you were into horror stuff," she murmured, her voice trailing off a little as she fixated on the television. she understood why jordan liked this so much, it was almost like controlling a movie. it was beautiful.

more time passed, filled with jordan directing her on where to go or marie asking questions to which they would reply with 'just play and you'll find out'. it was fun. so much fucking fun.

but then, as all the last of us fans know, the ending of the intro scene came. marie was playing, then suddenly she was completely absorbed into the cutscene. she sat forward on jordan's lap and just stared with her jaw hanging open.

the title card hit the screen and jordan moved to pause the game, eyes looking up at marie.

"are you- oh my god, marie."

she turned back to look at them, tears welling up in her eyes, "you didn't tell me it was sad," she whimpered, a few of the tears rolling down her cheeks, "why would you make me play it?"

"i'm sorry," jordan couldn't help but let out a laugh at the situation that was unfolding, reminiscing about the first time they played and sobbed into their pillow for an hour before continuing, "i didn't think you'd cry." they stifled their laughter as much as they could, their hands running along marie's sides and lips peppering kisses against her bare shoulder to help soothe her.

the rest of the night was spent laying in their bed consoling marie, who would be fine... then she would remember the game and start crying again. jordan loved marie, and her compassionate heart, so damn much.

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Sorry if my thoughts are all jumbled here. Or if it doesn't make sense. I'm also kinda being vague here cause these are kinda in the beginning stages of forming to proper theories.

But first of all, thanks for answering my question and indulging me.

Also sure I'll share a little bit of my theories here. Once again, you don't have to confirm or deny these. Hell, you don't have to answer this if you don't wanna.

I had a feeling since the title and the dove symbolism kinda went together, there would be at least some surface level nods to it, but now that there's confirmation that there's more reason behind the dove transformation I can kinda go into my little "theory" (more or less speculation). Not really connected to the stories ending too much that I know of buuuuut, I've just been thinking what enlightenment would be for Dove herself since everyone is going through their respective character arcs to achieve enlightenment in the end. I'm also keeping in mind the love symbolism from this creature, even though it's not really symbolism from religion and more so a universal thing across multiple cultures, as a possible significance.

But also, these little teasers with the endings and the one shots here got me (oop here comes more theory and speculation) thinking about what the hell happened. Cause the heavenly court and Buddha don't seem to be the "badguys" in this story. So i kinda figured a 3rd party got Dove separated from the group somehow since everyone else (allegedly) got to stick together. So something really bad definitely happened here, and either Dove is going through some corruption arc or someone else is pulling at some strings here. But nooooow, I'm inclined to believe the latter, if not this 3rd party, causing the corruption arc. These are just things I kinda think about in 2 possible endings. I hope this all makes sense.

I could be waaaaaayyy off though so yeah

Oh, you know I'm gonna answer these! Also, I'm glad you caught onto some of this!

Love is definitely a big part of Dove's character arc, tho it's more of a catalyst for what she has to realize. Dove at the start of the journey isn't really… her own person. Or at least, she wants to change herself to be more like the person who saved her. It's like she thinks there's some moral obligation she has to follow in Guan Yin's steps, and as her relationship with Sun Wukong develops, she starts to question that.

Your other thoughts on what happens near the end… muahahaha…

I've mentioned it in passing so I won't try hiding it, there's another party involved in PoM. They don't get too involved until after the Red Boy arc, which is lowkey why I decided to start posting to AO3 after I finished with those chapters. Everything from the start of PoM to Wukong realizing his feelings can be considered… the first act of my little soap opera. This third party doesn't become more prominent until Act 2.

Technically, the third party has been causing problems since the prologue. They're just chilling cuz one of them doesn't know about the journey yet while his accomplice… she knows about the journey, she just gives less of a fuck. But when they decide to take action, stuff gets fun (stressful and full of agony). I'm excited to get to them, who they are, their backstory and powers, EVERYTHING! UUUGGHHHWVBOJNVUSBDCS I WANNA TALK ABT THEM SO BAD–!

ahem, anyway–

As for your theory about a 'corruption arc'… depending on how I end PoM, Dove may or may not cross a line she wouldn't have crossed at the start of the pilgrimage. The fun part is, the ending I consider the 'good ending', the one where she doesn't get separated from her friends and loved ones… is where she crosses that line. If Dove kept trying to be like Guan Yin, she would never think of going down that road. So in that good ending where she stops trying to be someone she's not, and the ones who helped her get to that realization are put in jeopardy… she has no hesitation.

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I couldn't tell if matchups were open or not, so please ignore this if they aren't 😖

This is for tf2, dunno if I have to clarify

I'm nonbinary, and I'm okay with any pronouns, but I do like they/them the most

I've been diagnosed with adhd lately, and it puts SO many things into perspective. Such as how, when I was in school, I could finish an entire sheet and then lose it or forget to turn it in. And let me tell ya, adhd rage is real, and I might have more than anybody 😭 I'm lowkey not kidding when I say I got beef with everything

I have two cats that I live dearly and talk to like real children. Kinda. One is a chunky (big, not fat) orange tabby named Murphy like the character from interstellar. His aliases: ginger little bitch or babyboy. I have a slim tortoiseshell cat named Lyra. Her aliases: stupid bitch or babygirl. It changes based on how they're behaving. And I'll scold them lowkey like real people. "We will TUSSLE if you start messin with shit you ain't supposed to just cuz there's a fuckin fan." -literally said this today.

I'm supposed to have curly hair, but idk how to take care of it, and it's that delicate kinda curly, so it's really only ever curly after it dries after a shower. I'm pale with freckles and small moles on my body (I say they make me look like a tortilla)

I like collecting. What specifically? Cds. If I answered you on a deeper level, I'd say whatever scratches my brain when I look at/hear it. For example, I have an iron model of the Eiffel Tower that reaches my hip (I'm 5'2), a skull jar with a rubber stopper, and a black comforter with various mushrooms, plants, and bugs on it. I even have a Bob Ross plushie (along with a mountain of various sized other plushies. I have a dog plushie the same size as me that I named Bennie so I could say "Bennie and the Jets" like the Elton John song.

I'll listen to just about any genre as long as it's a good song, but I can sometimes be picky depending on my mood.

I'm pretty naturally handy. I built a duck box (those things you see standing in the middle of ponds. Basically a birdhouse for ducks) on my own in middle school after being taught how to use the tool, for example. That also kinda carries into art, too. As long as I have references, I can create any pose, and it looks pretty good. Same goes for body types. It's easy for me to mix-match the references I need.

I love singing, and I'm "learning" guitar. I don't actually know any chords or anything, but I've already written a song everybody likes after fuckin up while playing Zombie by the Cranberries. (I used two chords from the song, came up with two others, put it in ¾ time, and alternated between plucking and strumming based on whatever fit the lyrics and vibe)

I can be pretty... well idk the word I'm looking for, so I'll just give you an example of what I mean. My friends and I were on a call trying to figure our gas money and stuff, and they slipped up and told me it would also be used to get them home, so I said "getting YALL home isn't my problem" (they pretty much tried to punk me so they wouldn't have to pay for themselves)

I try to be nice and stuff, but I can get mean when I want to. I'm one of those "your secret is only as safe as you let it be. Don't tell me a secret if you plan to fuck me over in one way or another" types of people. I will not hesitate to put a mf on blast if they actin up.

Also dunno if this matters but I have a subtle southern accent that shows in words like "I", but it gets thick when I'm wound up or angry.

I love love love dogs, but I have a fear of them. I'll be death gripping someone's hand, doesn't matter who, if I hear a dog bark but can't see a dog. Even more so if I CAN see it. Dogs usually like me, though. I remember one Doberman who laid on my foot to get attention and pawed at me while I was chatting with her owners (ik it doesn't sound like a big deal, but the owners were like SUPER surprised)

I'm usually chill, but I can become extremely energetic at times. If I get excited about something, I won't be able to resist talking about it, or I won't sit still or something of that tune. I usually don't get to be the loud type of excited unless I'm amazed about something, and even then, it's usually only for a few words to express said amazement.

I'm usually quiet. I often have to repeat myself. But don't let that fool you. I can easily be louder than Soldier himself if I want to. I just don't like to.

I like to info dump about things I make to anyone who will listen. Things like the dystopian book I'm writing, my ocs who live in a world where one of them is kinda possessed by their friend and the other is a former angel being hunted by angels and they both join a voluntary hunger games-esque game show that doesn't require violence but it does allow it (the winning team gets a wish for each player on the team), and really just any of my ocs and stories and songs n stuff.

Uhhhhh I'm an intp according to the last time I took the test. I'm pretty introspective, for better or worse.

I can be creative in ways I probably shouldn't be. Like, I can come up with torture methods on the fly. I'll do it right now. Strapping someone down and having something hold their eyes open and let them dry out, only adding moisture right before the point of losing vision. Locking them in a room with their hands tied up in a way where they can't use them, even behind their back, and hiding a key and some false keys somewhere in a pile of fiberglass insulation and hair-thin needles, and they have to eat their way through it to find the right key and get out.

Anywayyyyy, moving on from the darkish stuff, I like to freak people out with my "party trick." Basically, I can put my arm behind my head, parallel to the ground. Like. My upper arm. Not my forearm.

I like to have fun, like anyone would, but I can sometimes act "motherly" (or so I'm told) when others get too wreckless. i.e. "don't do that, you'll hurt yourself," "Be CAREFULLLL," and other stuff like that.

Contradictory to popular belief, I'm a complete stoner. Once upon a time, I outsmoked someone who tends to smoke all day every day. I partially like smoking simply because things seem more goofy and partially cuz it helps with my anger. I personally think I'm more fun and outgoing when I smoke. I have one hell of a tolerance, so I really gotta puff to get a nice head high.

Sometimes, I can get really meek around people. Like, if someone I care about is mad at me, I act like a kicked puppy and go almost completely nonverbal. I like giving people things as well, but I do that whole "it's okay if you don't like it, it just made me think of you, (etc.)" spiel cuz I ain't got confidence at the worst of times.

Speaking of, I have a pretty low self-esteem. I don't always let it show, but I suspect it still slips through subconsciously. I don't think I'm a good person, and I don't exactly like my body either. Like, I way less than 100 pounds. People are not exaggerating when they say I way 100 pounds soaking wet. I don't like that. You can literally see my heartbeat if I sit still, and you can see my ribs INDIVIDUALLY if I take a deep breath and stretch. I want to put on weight and start going to the gym so I'm strong n stuff but I can't exactly do that right now. Even if I DID put on weight, I'd still be insecure. From MY PERSONAL experience, "body positivity" is only a thing when someone is 160+ pounds. And here I thought the point of the movement was for EVERYONE to be happy in their body, not just bigger people. Maybe it was just the area I was in or what the algorithms thought I was or something, but I'm still not happy being skinny. I wanna be strong with a bit of squish, but I don't have enough motivation or anything to do that 😞

But God forbid anyone else be insecure. I'll be on that "YOU'S A GOD/GODDESS, HOE. DON'T LET THEM DULL YOUR SPARKLE. LOOK IN THAT MIRROR EVERY MOTHAFUCKIN DAY AND REPEAT THE WORDS I LOVE YOU, BITCH. I AIN'T EVER GONNA STOP LOVIN YOU, BIIITCH" type shit. But fr, I will not sit idly by if someone I care about is insecure about ANYTHING. Around me, they ain't gotta worry about size, shape, abilities, "flaws," quirks, or other.

I can be very opinionated on certain topics. For example, I'm a firm believer all pdf files and 🍇ists should be forced to become eunuchs. Or get gender reassignment surgery to be a Ken doll (or Barbie doll, whichever is more accurate for each person). They won't even have a hole to pee out of, so they can have fun dying from infection. Honestly, I personally think people who only fantasize about it are almost toppling over that line, so they should have to go through intense interrogation and trials to decide whether they're safe or not.

This is probably long enough as it is, so I'll just leave it here

If you respond to this, thank you kindly

Whether or not you respond to this, have a good day/night :]

I match you with...

Engineer!

Loves seeing whatever collections you have, if you let him borrow any chs he’ll take care of them, brings them back as if he never had them.

Dell isn’t picky when it comes to music, so he’ll listen to whatever you choose.

Appreciates someone who is pretty handy, if you still want to build something then he’s your man. Just ask and he’ll teach you whatever you want.

Please sing whenever he plays his guitar, he somehow falls even harder in love. Mention learning the guitar once and he is taking as much time as you mean to teach you what you need and want to know.

While he loves helping others out he also takes no shit from someone trying to cross him, so he’s glad that you can recognize it and not fall into their trap. Always there if you don’t notice it but it’s nice to know he won’t need to hover constantly.

He’s the same with secrets, respects the person's wishes but one or two might slip when talking to you, so now they have to watch you for you both.

Always listens to everything you say and stores it in his mind, it might not seem like he’s listening at times but rest assured, he is. Out of nowhere he’ll bring your oc’s and story up and ask questions.

Is always freaked out by some of your ideas, not saying he won’t listen, so he’ll gently guide you toward Medic with all that talk.

Doesn’t really mind that you’re a smoker, he’ll keep a window or door open and keep an eye on you just to make sure that you stay safe. Won’t join you if you ask or offer.

He’s more than willing to speak for you if needed, if you want to talk he’ll encourage you to do so but takes over whenever you want. When you give him something he will not let you take it back, he loves everything you give him. Always surprised when you become loud, god forbid you get Soldier going or he got you going.

Engi - 7

Scout - 6

Medic - 5

Sniper - 4

Spy - 3

Saxton - 2

Heavy - 1

[ravenwriter16]

This is FNAF sona! I hope u don't mind me sharing her :>

Sooo this is the ver I made of her in gacha

And this the drawing I made

Originally I made her to be a tsams OC but now she's jus kinda a FNAF sona in general

SO LORE

basically she's a ded 5-7 y/o girl

So her real dad killed her after he murdered her mom and her spirit somehow went to the daycare because she used to go there a lot and yk dad figures n stuff then Sun n Moon made her a body

This

👇

And had her introduced to fazbear as a new daycare attendant fazbear didn't care obvi

Sooo her main thing is she's like the dca daughter or lil sis in some scenarios I've made in my head and she doesn't RLLY help she's jus another kid there lolz

She plays w Sun when the lights r on and when Moon comes out she uh.. encourages the kids

LOLZ so basically they've made a game of her going "cmon guys! Let's get outta here before the boogie man gets us! (Aka Moon)"

And they just run around the daycare trying to evade Moon while he catches them one by one (like those zombie movies that kill the human characters off one by one lol)

So they mainly started this game both to wear out the other children and because my sona never wanted to sleep and she would just grab the other kids and run away from Moon so they wouldn't have to sleep

Also the animatronic name they gave her is Cloudii because she's supposed to be made after clouds ( which is why her hair is so fluffy) but her human name (when she was a little girl) was Bethany (and her nickname is bethy so she's used to people calling her that too)

So even tho her animatronic name is Cloudii she has the rest of the animatronics and children call her Bethany or bethy

Literally the only ones who call her Cloudii is fazbear cuz they don't know she's a dead kid (even if they did know they would care cuz yo it's fazbear 😭)

With some of Bethany's functions I had the idea like how in VR chat u can change the outfit of the model ur using

So basically she pulls up a floating tab that's basically a catalog for all her outfits and she clicks on one and hits the button called 'wear' and BA BOOM! her outfit is changed! (If ur one shot thingy u could use this idea too if u wanted :D I don't mind!)

OH YEAH and also for her body functions she can use the floating tab and select the outfit she's currently wearing and like for example select her shoes and hit the 'remove' button and that basically removes the shoes so she's no longer wearing them! :D

It literally sounds like she's a dress up game or a hologram but she's not I promy! TwT 😭

ALSO! So Bethany can kinda just go out of her animatronic body at will but she obvi doesn't do it when their open

So like after they've closed for the night and all the kids have gone home Bethany in spirit for just jumps outta the body ( I literally swear the first time she did this she scared the absolute daylights outta Sun n Moon)

And since she's a spirit she can float and stuff so while Sun n Moon r cleaning n stuff she kinda just floats around, like a Frisbee, and floating upside down and literally everyway imaginable. She thinks it's rlly fun but like she's like 5-7 y/o so go figure

ANYWAYSSS then when Moon has to go on patrols they play the boogieman game again except Bethany is just trying to hide from Moon and run away from him for as long as possible (honestly I can totally see emperor Moon or even all three dads doing this to get the princess tired enough to sleep so she doesn't fight them on it lolz 😭)

And when Moon catches Bethany he puts her to bed and goes on his patrols

OKI I FINISHED THE MAIN STUFF NOW I CAN TELL U ABT THE STORY PART YIPPIE >O<

OKOK SO BASICALLY so Bethany went to the daycare since she was 6 months old. Her mother Mrs Carson knew her husband is coko so she wanted her child to be as far away from him as possible but she was kinda stuck in her marriage so she just had her at the daycare as soon as she was old enough 24/7.

Which also makes the dca super attached becuz hello they basically raised this child AND signs of not good home life? AHEM MINE NOWZ

Kidding kidding actually it was Moon's idea and they were thinking of yk snatch le child but Sun was in the fence becuz it still seemed wrong to take a child from their parents even if one is bonkers (Sun had more morals lolz)

Then one night her father jus up and killed her mom , she tried to escape but she is but a child so he got her in the head (so as a ghost she has blood dripping from her forehead and her legs and elbows)

Basically after that Sun is mortified but glad shes with them.

Moon is like while I'm not glad this happened and I want vengeance.....at least she's with forever now without us having to take her ourselves so no immoral and we won't get in trouble for abduction?

Sun: BRO WHAT IS WRONG WITH U-

And they argue ANYWAYSSSSS

All is well and peaceful and happy for a while I'm the daycare with their half dead daughter!

Until...

THE VIRUS COMES ALONG!!! DUN DUN DUNNNNN

So basically Sun and Moon are aware a very dangerous virus is corrupting their system and they try to protect Bethany

BUT IN LITERALLY THE WORST WAY POSSIBLE LIKE HOW ARE THEY THIS DUMB-

basically they try to push her away in hopes she'll find someone else to be her parents so she doesn't get hurt

Sun starts being cold (acting like how he did in help wanted 2. Shredding her drawings, being mean, getting snappy and cold towards her, not caring to play with her and such)

Meanwhile with Moon he doesn't comfort her after a nightmare, he shoves her off him when Bethany tries to hug him and doesn't put her to bed anymore and he's even hit her a few times to try to get her to go away

They've both ended up hitting her at some point :(

Meanwhile Bethany doesn't have any idea what's going on and is like "why don't my dads love me anymore? What am I doing wrong..? :c"

ONDHISIBSIHSIGEIGB ITS SOO SADDD

And like some of the security bots have stalked behind her at one point to try to rip her apart (Vanessa attempting to get Sun to be as far gone as Moon) but Moon always goes up behind them, yoinks them in the air and takes them to their room to rip them to shreds

And Bethany is confused on why she felt a rush of air behind her and is like

"..:<?"

When sb does eventually happen and just before the building is burning down they have a standoff

Vanessa is fed up at this point and just orders the staff bots to dismantle the dca

Sun n Moon lock her in their room while the staff bots rip them apart

When Bethany eventually gets out their too far gone (this making them look like how they do in ruin) she drags them down into the daycare, into a pillow fort and lays on top of them and pulls their arms around her and cries. She does this ever since then begging for them to wake up by they never do...

ANYWAYS SO RUIN-!

Basically when Sun and Moon were pushing Bethany away they were almost never in their room anymore. Sun was always down in the daycare cleaning and Moon was always rushing off to do patrols. They were both trying to distract themselves from the fact that they were abusing and neglecting their daughter while trying to protect her. Basically just trying to repress the growing guilt

Meanwhile Bethany almost never came out into the daycare anymore whether it was open or not. What was the point? Her dads were her whole world but now that they don't love her anymore (in her eyes at least) and that it was hopeless to even try to make them it didn't matter anymore. Nothing mattered anymore. She wouldn't,eat, sleep, play. Nothing. She was basically depressed

Bethany would just lay in the bed up in their room because it makes her feel somewhat close to them again. It's also where ballon world is....

Basically the arcade machine came on again and someone said hello... ECLIPSE YIPPIEEE

Basically he had asked her why she was so sad and Bethany explained about Sun n Moon and talked and became friends! NEW FATHER FIGURE YIPPIE!

Anyways so after sb happened Eclipse was very understandably worried cuz his daughter that he adopted has not been seen in over a week is she okay!?

And since he's connected himself all around the pizzaplex he figured out what happened so he got to work taking over staff bots so that he could himself a body

Then when he eventually has his own body Eclipse goes to the daycare and gets reunited with Bethany.

Bethany is happy because she's not alone anymore and Eclipse tells her that since her dads don't love her anymore he'd gladly take her in and she's elated!

But..ever since Sun and Moons body was banged up they hadn't moved or anything since it happened

But in their head they've been working internally on fixing themself! And since their body was so damaged it also got rid of the virus! Since it damaged the virus chip in their systems their virus free!

Now since they've been repairing the self this whole time they've been away from their daughter forever and it made them realize all the harm they've done and they finally went bonkers crazy so their determined to get their daughter back, make her forgive them and keep her with them forever again. Just like how they think things should be

But when they go to find Bethany they find her hurt and upset still with them and clinging to Eclipse, saying hes her dad now and she doesn't want them.

Eclipse's smug grin makes everything so much worse and so does everything he's done in the past that made him stuck in ballon world in the first place.

NOW ECLIPSE BACKSTORY TIMEEEE WEEEEEE

So basically Sun, Moon, and Eclipse were all made to be daycare attendants but the kids all favored Sun and Moon. Eclipse got jealous and lashed out, he hurt a lot of kids and heavily damaged Sun and Moon that day.

He was going to blame it all on Sun and Moon but staff didn't believe him. They destroyed his body and if he hadn't gotten stuck in ballon world he would've been completely wiped out!

So he was stuck in isolation, and Eclipse knew..the second a opportunity presented itself he'd get revenge. It was all Sun and Moons fault!

Then Bethany comes along. Maybe this one will like him? She does! And she's even been burned by those two! Perfect!

So Eclipse takes a child that they hold dear Al to himself, getting his revenge and he finally has a child that likes him! That even now prefers him over Sun and Moon! Things couldn't go anymore perfectly!

Meanwhile Sun and Moon are enraged. This thing! He comes back here and has the nerve to take their place!

All three bots are equally as determined to take and keep Bethany for themselves no matter what.

Okay the end that's basically it for the story that I've cooked up so far in my head basically rivalry :3

Lemme know if u wanna hear more rambles about sum other ocs too if u want! And sry I just dumped all these rambles on u TwT

Aw Bethy! 🥺 She is a little muffin and must be protected! I will raise her while the boys fight each other for custody. She will get plushies and lots of yummy foods😊

[callmegaith]

I don't blog enough about games on here so here's some stuff I've been playing lately

Bunhouse:

4.2/5

Very fun game where you play as a rabbit and you do gardening. That's it. Simple concept.

You can change your rabbit any time with a press of a button and this game can be played in co-op. Is it the best gardening game ever? Probably not but I fuckin love it and it gets extra points for letting me play as a rabbit.

Cult of the Lamb:

4.0/5

I beat this game and it was super charming. I love the color pallets and I love the animal designs. Combat got kinda boring after a while tho and once you start racking up a lot of Devotion dungeons seem kinda pointless cuz u get venders who can just sell u the items u need. Managing your cult was more fun than the dungeon part

Car Mechanic Simulator 2021:

4.8/5

Uuuuh probably my current obsession. I fucking love this game. I got car mechanic simulator 2018 for free on EPIC and got hooked on that so decided to get this one despite it being basically the same game but better

I also love building cars in this game it's super relaxing. You take everything at your own pace and GOD, THATS GOOD. No stress, a totally relaxing game about fixing cars and that's it. I got pretty into picking up junk cars from the junkyard, renovating, and selling them for higher.

Also I love using this game for car references!! I'm defo gonna be using it to draw Mills with some cool cars 😎

Sorry, we're closed

???/5

As u can see by my playtime. I haven't played this game much but....... It's very disappointing. I don't find myself excited to open it up and play more. If anything I feel like getting through it is gonna be a chore and a half. People sold me on this game as "Killer7 meets Silent Hill"

When I picked up killer7 I couldn't put it down it got me hooked instantly. This game? Did not. The writing is extremely on the nose and cheesy and the characters feel a little.... Stereotypical. The world itself is interesting but the characters are not. The designs are good tho and the art is gorgeous which is probably the aspect that's gonna make me come back

Also to ppl saying this game is "Killer7 but gay" I'm sorry you didn't understand the complexity of relationships in Killer7. Subtle this game is not. I did not enjoy how hard it's going with its themes rather than rely on being subtle and weird. I honestly expected Disco Elysium level of poetry but oh well :/

Also gun play does not feel even as half as good as Killer7. Your third eye range in this game is so pathetic enemies need to be right on you for you to be able to see their weak spots and hit them which MAKES GUNS POINTLESS IF I NEED THE ENEMIES TO BE 2 FEET IN FRONT OF ME TO SHOOT THEM GOOD. You can stun them but the stun is so fucking pathetic by the time u aim for their weak spots they'd already be out of it and attacking you. Tell me it's a skill issue I do not care. I did not enjoy how this game plays and if u needed enemies to be this close to hit them in Killer7 you'd be fucking dead.

Don't get me wrong. This is not a bad game, not by any means. It's just not doing it for ME.

Atlas Fallen

???/5

Only reason I'm not rating it is I haven't finished it but if I wanna give it an early rating I'd say 4.0/5

Snappy fast paced combat IS MY SHIIIIT. This is the sort of combat I love in video games!! This game had me hooked on its story instantly too. It was engaging from the prologue and I'm still looking forward to uncovering more of the story.

Character customization is lacking but I made a character I like enough c:

Very fun game that's all about kicking ass hard and fast, parrying, dodging, and killing cool monsters AND ALSO SLIDING ON THE SAND. Very very fun game with fun ways to traverse the open world. Looking forward to playing more. Though if you compare it to other games in the genre, this game doesn't really give you anything new. It's not gonna be a brand new earth shattering experience. It's mid. But that doesn't mean it can't be fun. Having a good time with this one

[cheritzssebba]

Cheritz Appreciation Week 2025

Day Seven. Prompt: Surprise

Surprise!!! I left this submission til the last minute as well, just like yesterday lmao. Yesterday's post was about the past and how I got here. This post is gonna be about stuff I've got planned for the future - enjoy!

First of all, I wanna chat about fan events. I've had a lot of fun with this thing and I absolutely plan to do more.

My first plan is to do a tournament~~ yay!!! Like the very first suggestion we had when @rnm-magic-space-xsd and I were chatting about fan event ideas!! Woohoo

A ship tournament is a little bit complicated to start off on, so I'm starting with a Cheritz character tournament, which will begin it's first round in July! Cheritz's Number One Tumblr Sexyman!!!! ;)

I'm going to continue writing Secret Ending Three, but that's a bigger, more important and personal project for me, so it's not something that's top priority and I don't mind taking a long time on it since I know it's something I'll be refining for a long time

Basically the same with the transcriptions too: I'm also gonna transcribe Dandelion when I'm finished with Nameless and that'll also be on my Google Drive (idk where I've shared it, but if you want access to my Cheritz Drive then you can just ask!)

Okay, now for the proper surprise submission

A music video!! Well. Just a teaser for it..... Yes, this is me playing, and me singing. Shiri, you just earlier today sent me a few DMs and you asked me what song I like listening to these days..... I didn't answer cuz.........I think this post speaks for itself!

Cuz I left this so late.......you just get this 30 second clip of my cover of Like a Child by Mother Mother. But one day I'll edit Cheritz stuff onto it

Like a Child is SUCH an incredibly accurate Nameless song for me, buuuuut it also fits the other games. Not as much, but still... idk when I'll finish this. I just wanted to have something concrete to post today other than just future plan announcements <33333 thanks for taking part everyone!!!!!!!!!

[nerves-nebula]

Has the overall story of Loose Stitches changed significantly since you started drawing it?

BOY HAS IT. ITS LITERALLY CHANGING AS WE SPEAK. anyway this got long so. under da cut

so, like most stories, it's changed a lot since the beginning. i was technically drawing it years before i started on the comic you see before you nowwww HOWEVER i get what u mean so i wont post any old art of atchkie or anything to make a point

TO GET TO YOUR QUESTION: since i started drawing and posting it, things have changed SIGNIFICANTLYYYYY. for example, hanheppi culture (which wont be relevant for years) was basically nonexistent when i started. the only reason you guys know hanheppi people and loose stitches are related is because i literally didnt have a name picked out for the hanheppi, so i had to file them under "loose stitches related" thinking i probably wouldnt post much about them anyway. and ppl started noticing that because i got around to developing them ON THIS BLOG WHILE POSTING LOOSE STITCHES. lol

as for the characters, they've changed too in a lot of ways. dotty's whole deal was generally outline before but i filled it in over the last few years and now it's like. genuinely could be its own novel lol.

ATCHKIE'S personality has been kind of hard for me to get a handle on because they are a kind of person who i don't have much in common with. but i think i'm getting a better idea of them as time goes on.

Reg Willow and Eden are still being workshopped cuz they're gonna appear later on and i haven't written them very much, so they're actively changing as we speak.

and then of course the entirety of part 2 has undergone major changes and is still actively shifting in huge ways. i see part 1 as basically set up and foreshadowing and getting to know the MC's and part 3 (if it can be called that, im prolly gonna break up part 3 into different chunks tho) as the pay off/explanation portion.

but part 2 is kind of more like a road trip adventure that the characters take on the way to trying to find things out about themselves and their goals. they run into a bunch of weirdos and its basically just the part where i get to have a ton of weird shit happen and then they run away. half of it is not even plot relevant and i'm SO EXCITED FOR IT!!!

and because it's way more flexible and is basically just a "author gets a free for all to do whatever it wants" card, it changes rapidly and often. I've brought in characters from past stories to fill in spaces, and i've combined certain plot points and storybeats. i've cut shit i didn't think was fun and then added entire towns just for 1 scene i wanna do. so thats probably the part thats changing the most.

other minor things that have changed is the near spontaenous creation of characters like professor silk, leilah, and mia. what happened with them was that i had points in the script where characters would talk and then i realized that if they were gonna have all these interactions with characters, they should probably be reoccurring ones instead of a bunch of one offs. Now professor silk is a minor but recurring characters, and Leilah was upgraded to full on girlfriend almost on a whim. Mia was the most spontaneous one tho.

in the scene where Mia throws dotty off the balcony, that was SUPPOSED to be Leilah and just some random friend atchkie was hanging out with. but since Mia had appeared before i was like fuck it, why introduce a whole new friend when i can reuse what was a one off character? and then while blocking out the fight it was just easier for me to imagine someone accidentally throwing dotty via strings than Leilah pushing them off in the struggle like i'd planned.

i could keep going on with stuff like this but the tl;dr is: yeagh. shit is changing constantly and all the little changes end up with the finished product being vastly different from the start.

and thats why i love serialized stories. there's an inherent jank to it that i cant get enough of on both the process side and the reader side.

[yumedoca]

I've finished the episode and I am literally crying. No, this is not an exaggeration, I am actually crying and I don't think I've literally straight up cried for an episode like this since 'Since your parting' and I'm crying much more than I cried back then. It was beautiful, thank you David Productions, it was perfect. It is now my favorite story in the remake now (it was already my favorite in the manga anyways).

I've already analyzed the story entirely here but I want to talk more about my favorite bits and addition in the remake (and other stuff)..

Nozomi's diary entry at the start was done so beautifully. The vibe which comes across is so soft and innocent, perfectly showing of Nozomi's pure heart. The soft coloring, the music, how they showed the writing, her voice acting (and the snow globe 😭) It honestly felt like I was watching another anime..

Speaking of the music, it seems like they made new BGM for this episode and let's just say, it's perfect..

..and the animation quality is just superb..

Oh my gosh, the way Nozomi becomes sad when he's unable to hold her hand... poor Nozomi :'(

Ataru commenting on how the scarf has his initial on it. As an artist, I can say it make people really happy when someone else points out the details in their work so I'm sure it made Nozomi really happy too..

Also, I love the colors for everything Nozomi made. I think it's a combo of the of original anime and manga's versions, which is very cute.

I love the addition of people not being able to see Nozomi, making Ataru seem like a loon. It makes him look stupid (while also wearing winter accessories during summer) but he doesn't care..

The whole date is so damn cute by the way, I think I was already tearing up by this point..

The whole moment where Nozomi was in the dark, I was literally screaming for Ataru to come out and be with her cuz I couldn't stand seeing her like that.. the poor girl..

Nozomi's soft smile as she rests in peace.. and now I'm crying again...

One detail I love which isn't remake original is how proud Sakura and Cherry are of Ataru after the date, like they didn't have much faith in him about him not breaking her heart at first but now they are very much proud of him..

"I'm gonna keep it on a little longer."

YEAH I AM NOT OKAY

The way Lum looks at him in the final scene.. You just know this is when she fell in love with him all over again..

"Maybe I should become a ghost too."

"What? Don't be stupid."

😭😭😭

Yup, I'm crying the second time after rewatching it (for writing this post)..

This is actually now one of my favorite episodes of all time now, no kidding. Ataru Moroboshi, you very sweet boy, I love you so very much..

[galasdian]

I'm learning to crochet!

I decided that I don't like any of the news on here today so instead I'm going to show you guys what I've been working on because I realized that I usually don't actually post any of it here.

At the beginning of 2024 I decided during the middle of an ice storm that I was going to teach myself to crochet. You know how it is. Anyway here's everything I've made that I still have photos of (I had to switch phones recently and lost some of my stuff)

so approximately an order: I started with a pair of leg warmers I could wear to work. On the one hand they are very cute and very warm on the other hand I cannot get them to stay up I need to add a tie to the top of them.

And then I made a whole sweater. My second project I sat down and lately modified a video pattern (shortened the sleeves and made it a little bit wider cuz I am not as skinny as the original maker) and most importantly... I decided instead of the standard collar I wanted a turtleneck but you see this was my second project ever... And I may have underestimated how wide the chain I made was going to be and ended up with a... Mild monstrosity. It's incredibly silly and I love it

Next I made this muffler by teaching myself how to do crocodile stitch. I was using leftover yarn from the sweater and some black I had around.

And then I remembered that a friend of mine had made a request years ago back when I was still just doing loom knitting asking if I could make them a shawl and I did not have the skills and talents for that at the time but I do now so I contacted their partner and had them give me their new address and tell me what colors they're into right now and secretly made them this shawl

And then I this crocodile scale dice bag to put in the box for the partner so they would have a nice surprise too.

And my most recent project finished yesterday: My coworker is having another baby and has not told most of us yet. They have forgotten that I can hear everything that happens in the next room over though so I overheard part of the conversation of them telling our boss. So I thought it would be fun to surprise them with a pair of stuffed rabbits. Rabbits were my animal of choice for stuffed animal as a kid. And I like the idea of having one for each of the kids. I'm going to be keeping them in my desk until they tell me.

Anyway I hope you enjoyed this tour oh my God I almost forgot the important one that took up multiple months of my life just a second.

I made an entire blanket. It is made out of leftover yarn given to me over the years by various people and remnants from projects I've done previously. I like to call it the gayest blanket because not only is it a full rainbow but I did absolutely no math. Didn't count a single thing.

Anyway I think that's all of them.

[secriden]

anon🕵️ - I'm one of those that hinted towards joondunk shows based on your love for 🐕‍🦺 fort :p

tutoryim are also a pretty visual cp to look for and firstkhao in the eclipse (only friends might be too intense if you are starting in bl). It's lovely to see your enthusiasm ☺️

feel free to post unhinged dunk moments because we rarely get them compiled unlike 🥑

for both firstkhao & joongdunk the bts are a must watch!

alsjdflasjdf OMG ANON YOU WERE RIGHT!?!?! I really want to make a post about all of joong and fort's similarities because like throughout this whole process i keep feeling like i was re-discovering joong because there's SO MUCH crossover and clearly i have a Type because it took nearly nothing for me to fall in head over heels for joong. *u* but there's so much??! the eyebrows, the eye crinkle smiles, the sunshine golden retriever disposition, the way they are overwhelmed by the cuteness of their respective partners, the way they're both engaging with alternative creative pursuits, the way they're both incredibly hard working and have such drive, the way they both melt when their partners give in/turn it back on them. i've so many FEELINGS about them rn.

tutoryim: i really really liked them in cutie pie. in fact they were the only couple i really... connected with?? so its was sad they were so minor. i tried to watch BOTW but grew frustrated with it before i could finish it. i plan to go back to it at some point with re-adjusted expectations because it definitely didn't live up to its potential but the visuals are <3

i'm excited to see firstkhao in THK!! i've been meaning to check out The Eclipse but just haven't cuz i don't have the time. but i'm also not sure i really want to watch yet another "school" series unless its for a cp i'm already invested in the way i am with joongdunk. so i may go back and watch it after THK.

wait, ok, what does the avocado emoji mean??? *confused* hahaha i need to find that one of dunk coping a feel of joong cuz it was so random and unnecessary. xD

also, bts of what? HA? *u*

🕵️‍♀️ - my hc for dk is that he gives spoiled young master vibes used to bat his eyelashes and joong is capital W whipped for him. based on the bts they seem to share the unhinged sense of humour bc dunk often baits him into it. i can't even imagine when they were matched as a cp. For joong to be introduced to this very pretty funny young man and dunk getting a handsome protective (he is so respectful of him particularly in regards to physical stuff) cp i wouldn't be surprised if other gmmtv actors/actresses would have wanted to pair with either of them, even now 😂🤣

just confirming dk = dunk? my brain went seventeen's main vocalist??? xD

ohhhhhh is he from a wealthy family?? tbh its so funny to me how many thai bl actors are just... from rich families because it means they could do anything and chose to make out with other pretty boys for their careers and that's so incredibly valid and i love it (yes, i am mostly thinking of mile).

honestly joong is so SO whipped for him. i am transfixed by that story of joong calling dunk before they were confirmed cp and being all "do you think we'll be put together? i hope we'll be put together" like he was so committed so fast ugh!!

and ohhhh i haven't seen anything much yet about joong being protective of dunk, but it wouldn't surprise me. he has the vibe. do you remember which interview/post it's from??

lol everything i've seen about gmmtv seems like all the actors just love everyone else a ton. like wasn't there this thing about gun atthaphan kissing another of the gmmtv boys (not his cp partner) and the internet going batshit crazy about it? xD so the vibe seems to be love all round and its very sweet. *u*

[celenawrites]

TW - just a vent about fandom stuff.

I feel kinda sad about how some creators in the CoD fandom have now abandoned creating content for the game series due to the demanding nature of other fans who used to consume their content. (fics, art, etc)

Like, these artists/writers in the fandom write fanfics/create art, FOR FREE OF COST and dedicate SO MUCH TIME AND ENERGY to their craft despite not getting much in return, only to deal with senseless hate, ignorance, stupidity and get treated as content generation machines; instead of actual human beings with jobs and studies and friends and families that need their time and attention as well.

A lot of us folks who write or draw do this as a hobby. As an outlet for our creativity, and we find this community for the media we are currently fixated on and we create things inspired by it cuz it brings us joy. IT MAKES US HAPPY SO WE CREATE CONTENT FOR IT!!! And then to see the same fandom/community and their horrendous behaviour driving away the creators from the fandom and the media itself is just....sad. Very disheartening.

Like I miss so many of the creators who have just given up on CoD cuz of this issue. Their works have inspired me to start writing again. They make me wish I start learning how to draw and paint again too. Their works have touch my soul, and made me happy - gave me something to look forward to every day.

But I'd much rather they leave the fandom and take care of themselves and their life, than to succumb to this weird pressure fans and fan-content consumers put on them, y'know?

Plus recently, I've seen a lot of racist and stereotypical prejudices from some CoD fans (and even some creators). I know a lot of them are new to the fandom, I was too. But I took an active effort to learn more about this game series. (and it's an ongoing effort cuz I cannot afford to play the games so I have to settle for wiki articles, gameplays, and comics) And I see so many fans not give a shit about it. They treat these characters as blank canvases to fulfill their hypersexual fantasies. (I like me a good smut fic or two, don't get me wrong) But that just makes it impossible for newer fans to get to know more about the lore and the characters. I had just finished watching the campaign for MW, and let me tell you, there are so many complex missions, characters and storylines to explore and depict through fanfics, and it's insane so many people disregard it for their whimsies so easily. That will just stunt your growth as an artist/writer! Read up on the lore, watch the game plays(the OGs and the remakes!) , maybe even read the comics!!! I promise you won't regret it ever!!!

Also, please! For all that is holy, stop putting these complex fictional characters into restricted boxes and label them. That just makes them so one-dimensional. Like -

Soap is not always cheery and bubbly and your fellow bestie. Simon is not an abuser/emotionally dead asshole just because he has a hard time expressing his emotions like everyone else. König, despite the lack of storyline/lore we have on him, isn't an uwu social anxiety babygirl, damn it. Stop excluding Gaz from your HCs and fics! He's a complex man with so many interesting things to explore about his overall story and psyche as a part of 141. He's not always begging for Price's approval either, he can and has objected to how questionable their methods have been regarding their field/work. Stop excluding Gaz from 141 stuff! It makes you look like a POS, and a lot of the people who exclude him are doing so for....pretty racist reasons. As a POC, this shit sucks balls. Also stop stereotyping POC characters in CoD - Alejandro, Rudy, Valeria, Gaz, Farah....just stop. Their ethnicity or race should not deter you from writing about them in a way that doesn't come across as prejudiced and ill-informed.

Also, not necessarily a rant, but please consider/remember the fact that the military has always been a bit of a morally dubious field of work irl, and just cuz CoD is military-centric and features characters who work in the army or PMC and take out bad guys - that doesn't take away from the violent history military has and how they have contributed to the deterioration of many countries (mainly in the Middle East). Heck, even these characters in the CoD games have done extremely unethical things and employed treacherous methods in order to get the job done. These characters may be good people in fiction, but that doesn't mean that they have done great things or have always stayed morally pure. Explore the dubious nature of it all - explore how dark and harrowing it can be for them and for the people that unwittingly or knowingly get involved in their work. It's dark and twisted but it's crucial since it's inspired from our world and it's necessary for us as humans and as artists to explore such themes and analyse them! It's crucial for the soul!!!

[solace-sylphieee]

For Contents Moving Forward...

The very first post in my tumblr and it ends as my final notice for 时空中的绘旅人 / For All Time / HLR / Lovebrush Chronicles / LBC.

The irony.

But anyway figured I should do here cuz it's going to be quite the long essay from me.

We're now halfway through March, White Day's almost here and so is my 3rd Anniversary Emerald's Wedding Ring Merch.

THAT'S RIGHT

I'm gonna get married with Emerald / Cael and retire for good to enjoy my marri-

...

To hell with that, I really can't bring myself to finish that bs.

But anyway the intention is still there - I am planning to retire from HLR / LBC but before that, I will clear off some of my stuff and I will drop the game as a whole: 1. Retrospring QnAs for the guide account I'm part of: @stshelterpedia 2. Chronological Summary to the game's story (had been requested to do this cuz the event release is now extremely messed up) 3. Claiming all my remaining monthly pack resources

For my followers from Twitter, new and old, I have gone missing from releasing the translation of game news for a long time, and now I feel the need and for the first time, share my thoughts in a very elaborative manner instead.

Sorry for ghosting on you guys for so long and from the bottom of my heart, thank you for all the follows all this while, even with me neglecting the translations here and there.

Although I believe many take me as a source of news translation and no more than that, there are still some who I've build relationship with as well throughout the years.

Now onto my retirement from this game and the translation thereof:

Do take note there's going to be some spoilers too -

Work may have been one of the reasons behind it as I've been way too occupied this year comparatively, but the very main factor would be the fact that I've lost my love and passion for this game.

In all honesty, I've stopped reading the Card Stories since Paradise / Eden and Event Stories since Onmyoji Collab. And for my long-time followers, I'm not sure if it's that obvious, but I have stopped fangirling or make any remarks on the game content for years - which I guess is quite the obvious sign from then on.

I loved HLR / LBC for its plot. I loved how plot is the driving force and priority of the game since the beginning. I loved how everything revolves around the plot, including the charaters to Event Stories and Card Stories.

But alas, all of that are past tense for me.

I may have been biased cuz I stopped reading all the side contents, so it's just the impressions I'm getting from the discussions I have with my friend. But for me after Destiny Corridor (DC) iirc? Fan service becomes the driver in this bus.

DC has its own share of service, but I feel the wrmth from deep down. All the nostalgia and warmth, and that's the peak storytelling before its downwards slope for me.

Personally I don't mind fan services, but for me it feels like Event Story has become more and more irrelevant to Main Story, unlike in the past. Card Story is there to build some background story, but since it's more fan servicey now, it's just a stalemate story with barely any development.

At least that's what I feel and my impressions here and there.

Some may wanna ask: "But isn't Empire series the most Main Story relevant Event Story?"

Yeah, it should be, cuz it's almost the deadline (iirc supposedly by 4th year) that Empire Chapter will begin for Main Story and the final route of it marks the end of Season 1.

But the latest one I've read - Tidal-Disruption, Admiral Star / Prefect Luminance side specifically, actually disappointed me a whole lot.

Chosen is written brilliantly to make us fear Maker more, but in juxtaposition Star / Luminance had a great start but a meh ending.

I find that the appeal behind Star / Luminance is that he is interested in MC for how strong she is emotionally and wants to break her, believing she will also be his greatest and most perfect creation cuz his other 'collections' can't withstand his 'molding'. All the revelations is nice and all, then suddenly he becomes so infatuated with MC he accepts his name as Alkaid (THAT DUDE HAS BEEN DENYING AND REJECTING OF SO STRONGLY SINCE HIS APPEARANCE) and play family with MC, imprisoning her and the story went like husband going back home to a lovely wife waiting for him treting his wounds.

I just

??????

DUDE WHERE DID YOUR COLDNESS, INDIFFERENCE WENT?

WHY DID YOU BECOME SO LOVE LORNED?????

I believed he had been better than that but he made my inner Asian Parent Disappointment surge up and I can only shake my head at the end when he decided to just let MC go.

Others let go cuz they are interested to see how far she can go, cuz she's not a threat at all, cuz she's a great piece for their plans, or cuz of their own twisted obssession; but for him it feels like a bad attempt in making him more romanceable.

End of ranting for now else it's gonna be for eternity.

Stories aside, what prompted me to ultimately announce my retirement as a whole is the moment I realise I hadn't logged into the game for 2 days (my birb brain had thought it's only 1 day).

That's right, 2 days and I didn't feel any urgency or frustrations for missing out on the resources. This is as of today, 10 March 2024:

While on the other hand I feel like choking myself for missing my morning grind for another game.

With such comparison, I figure it's high time I check this off with a notice for everyone.

It has been a long journey and I enjoyed the companion of this game that also bring many new encounters for me.

But it is also time for me to bid the game adieu.

Feel free to unfollow me on my Twt if you're not interested in seeing me anymore.

Moving forward, I might begin some other translation project for games I took interest in (time to see if 世界之外 Beyond The World's grip be that strong on me) and I will also share a more elaborative train of thoughts here too.

Thanks for reading all the way here, my DMs in Twt are open for chats, and feel free to interact with me. I will be more than happy to share my thoughts with you too :)

[nattikay]

so I've now completed all the content in Sky Breaker (finished the story a while back and finished the last side quest yesterday), here are a few thoughts/opinions. I'm not gonna go super in-depth on the story, but will put it under a cut anyways for those who want to avoid all spoilers.

First things first, the Heart of the Plains region is absolutely gorgeous! It was super cool to find all the new crafting items and see the alternate versions of all the animals and stuff. I also warmed up to the Zakru species a lot more once I saw them awake and moving around (I felt kinda meh about them in the main story, like nothing wrong with them, just....meh, y'know? But they were pretty cool when they were up and about.)

When I first mentioned having to wait to play this pack (cuz it came out right before AWU and I was way too busy at the time lol), someone in my replies claimed that it was "too short and disappointing"...which, no one asked, but ok i guess. Having now played the pack, though, I disagree! I don't think it was disappointing nor too short. I mean, yeah it was a lot shorter than the main story, but were you really expecting otherwise? 😅

I will say that it definitely lulled me into a false sense of security. RDA combat has always been my least favorite part of the game; the main draw for me is to be able to run around as a Na'vi in a beautiful little escapist landscape, exploring all the cool plants and animals and such, not spending hours sneaking around dirty bases and shooting arrows at robots (no shade to those whose favorite part is fighting the RDA, more power to ya, just not what I play for personally).

So when the first half of the quests were all just fun Na'vi stuff surrounding the Great Games, I was starting to get excited! Like heck yeah these are the kinds of quests I play for! This is the kind of stuff I like in this game!! Yeah, I felt mildly suspicious when I'd fly past old overgrown RDA camps, but they were overgrown, perhaps they were just there for decoration...

but then of course, Teylan radios in about this cool signal he heard coming from an abandoned base, oh he would love to analyze it, can't I go check it out for him and I was like yup, I know where this is going -_- Teylan my buddy my pal, whenever you want me to "check out" something in an "abandoned" location it ALWAYS turns out to be not fully abandoned and sure enough, there was an ambush, surprise surprise -_- so the RDA's back after all. darn it. oh well :P

I've seen some people complain that the final quest/boss was too easy, personally that suits me just fine lol. Like I said, I'm not here for the combat, I just wanna get it over with and when it gets overly difficult I find it more frustrating than fun. So the difficulty level was perfectly acceptable for me lol.

The minigames were fun. I think the direhorse one was my favorite.

I'm undecided how I feel about Mokasa. I'll have to rewatch the cutscenes before I can form a solid opinion on his mini-redemption. Conceptually I have no issues with him being redeemed, I am of the opinion that any villain can regret their past actions and try to do better, but I don't recall feeling particularly convinced by the way it was done...well, like I said, I'll have to rewatch.

I'm glad Nor was at least acknowledged. He's not my favorite character by any means, but his absence at the end of the main story felt like the biggest loose end to me; it was like the game just completely forgot about his existence after he stabbed Alma's avatar and ran away. We still don't know what happened to him other than that he "doesn't want to be found right now", but again at least it was mentioned. Maybe his story will continue in a different pack...