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I love the dichotomy we get between jinshi and the emperor that shows off how the traits that make jinshi a great prince, boss, friend (husband 👀👀👀👀) are the very same traits that will make him a terrible emperor.
His hard working streak that lets him handle his weird assignments with grace and manage the clashing egos of the inner palace is what will get him killed by overwork as emperor since he has no real head for delegation. It took 11 volumes and the intervention of most of his immediate family just to get jinshi to hire a secretary. The emperor always being free to host parties, sleep with the consorts, and bust jinshis balls in-between it all is, much like lakan always being free to annoy maomao, actually a sign of him being god-like at delegation and organizational management.
His lack of ego and willingness to look the fool if it gets the job done is great for avoiding political snafus and getting to the truth of things. It's genuinely the thing that makes all his expeditions to the western capital so wildly successful: he really doesn't gaf about how he's seen by the public, so long as the job gets done and his friends aren't in immediate danger. It's also the exact opposite of what you need from a head of state who's legitimacy is not-insignificantly based on the public perceiving you as an instrument of the will of heaven. The emperor being willing to kill people and their families over slights jinshi (and most sane human beings) would be willing to let slide is cruel and inhuman, but it's also what keeps the populace at large from being able to organize against him and challenge the imperial power.
Jinshis compassionate streak, his urge to save as many people he can and find the best solution for everyone possible, makes him great to work for. He'll give you assignments that match your hyper fixation, work around your crippling social anxiety, give you a post that just-so-happens to involve you staying with the love of your life for a few months. More over, he isn't gonna risk his life and your position over petty ego or greed when he can find a peaceful solution instead. But the hesitation he feels at using people like tools, and his unwillingness to act if it means throwing people under the bus, is what will lead to death and destruction if he's the emperor. Especially in a time of war. The current emperor is willing to ruin lives and crush nations if it reaches a goal, advances an agenda.
Finally, jinshis loyalty, I'd say even more than his looks, is what draws people to him. He loves his toys, can't stand to give them up. It makes him a great romantic figure. But when you're the emperor, and you need to be willing and able to marry someone for political ends, produce as many heirs as possible regardless of who with, and set aside the feelings of those women for your own sake, that loyalty is poison.
Idk, so often in stories with these systems they sorta follow the logic of "if he's a good person he'll be a good leader." I think it's cool to have a series talk about how being a leader involves being EXTREMELY comfortable with being an asshole, for a myriad of reasons, and how someone being pleasant to work for wouldn't make them an effect monarch.
#its also important to note that despite all the shitty things the emperor is shown being/doing#he genuinely is portrayed as a well loved and effective leader#who does his best to reach his version of compassion#john mulaney has a good bit about working with celebrities for snl#and how in their world their version of polite/acceptable is very different and it can lead to tense situations#i think a lot of the emperor's actions are like that#like in a vacuum they're dick moves#but in the context of who he is and what his duties are you see why he does them#the apothecary diaries#jinshi#ka zuigetsu#spoilers
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नोबेल विजेता कैलाश सत्यार्थी के अभियान से जुड़कर दुनिया में शांति और मानवता का उजियारा बिखेरेंगे अमन
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Made my 2nd Miitopia party! Jamie is now a Scientist and is joined by Natrin the Warrior, Fimishec the Imp, and Beacon the Chef
#natrin is an old character inspired by the dnd rulebook saying that 3 year old dragonborn are as mature as 10 year old humans#then their relative maturity rate slows way down and it takes them until age 15 to be considered adults#and i was like “huh that's weird why'd they do that?” and then i realized that if they kept up that aging rate#then you'd have adult dragonborn that are 6 years old and that sounds Weird so they probably wanted to avoid the squickiness of that#what with bards and all#but anyway that got me thinking about dragonborn ages and so i decided to make a 3 year old dragonborn because it's funny#fimishec is the demon from that Mischief in Magic School story that i never did anything with#and beacon is of course beacon#she follows in compass's footsteps by being the healer of the group#which is kinda backward from how it should be but Team Rose needed to be the first party#i also have the final party members planned!#anyway miitopia is a really nice casual game#you don't even control your other 3 party members and the difficulty is fairly low#combine that with the fact that i Must Clear Every Alternate Path and i end up stupidly overpowered lol#it's nice to have such a low-pressure game#ka asks
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Trafalgar Law on touching and being touched
It won't be a perverted post despite the title lol. But I won't stop your imagination, be free!
There's this funny theme going on with Law and Luffy in particular that picked my interest.
Luffy touched him first.
And he later returned the gesture, much more awkwardly.
Again, Luffy grabbed him angrily first.
Law made sure to return the gesture. (btw he also does it with Zoro, who was the first one to wrap an arm around him at post-Dressrosa feast. In Wano Law has no problem grabbing Zoro and shouts at him angrily. Again, it was Zoro who initiated the touch first).
Law grabbing Luffy to teleport them makes Luffy react in a curious way, you wanna know why?
Because it totally feels like this moment. Both Law and Ace, right after getting uncuffed, grabbed Luffy in same way to get him to a safer place. Ace-Law parallel in relation to Luffy kills me. The whole Dressrosa arc's plotline between Luffy and Law is just Marineford Went Well This Time. Ngl I kinda hated Oda at first for that. Now i dig it.
He didn't seem to like that. Luffy says "Let's all get along well!", but Law thinks alliances don't have to "get along".
Mistranslation here. What Law says here, being so surprised, is "nakayoshi ka?!" which means "you two get along?!" or "you two are buddy-buddies?!". It's a callback to Luffy declaring that Law and Strawhats crew should get along (he uses same word then, nakayoku-get along), Law learns here that Luffy's crew indeed "gets along well". You can interpret it whatever way you wish, but I will use it this time to put this scene into context:
The same gesture Luffy did to him before, but Law didn't return it to Luffy - that's because they're not crewmates. But he takes the lesson to heart and "gets along" with his own crew. Omg I can't believe i'm writing it, I make Law sound like this completely awkward adult who doesn't know how to be friends with people.
But bear with me, the shit is only starting. If you don't want to have feels I reccommend you just laugh at it and stop reading here. I digged up a feels landmine by accident. In-depth study starts below!
It's also a possible callback to the "reassurance" Law got from Cora-san. "I'm counting on you to escape" and Law did. He counts for his crew to steer the submarine well in similar manner.
Law's family didn't seem very touchy-feely, so please keep that in mind as well. He's got limited experience with touches and the few touches he did get familiar with were either taken away from him or brutalized.
Law getting patted on the head lovingly by his parent.
Next time this loving gesture happens, he gets thrown from like two-floor building into a pile of garbage.
And then he gets lied to that everything will be fine. We all know it wasn't.
Do you still wonder why he hates being touched on the head?
The sister touches his face gently while showing child Law support and compassion, reminding him not to despair, someone kind will help him.
Corazon doing the same gentle touch to the face while crying for him, thinking of all the pain Law had to experience. Indeed, the world sent Law someone kind. And Law lost him and blames himself for that.
Law holding Lammy's hand while lying to her that it will be alright. He never does that gesture again to anyone.
The sister holding Law's hand.
"Don't come closer! Don't touch us! We will get infected!" even doing the barrier gesture (I guess that's why Law doesn't get along with Bartolomeo). I used only few examples, there is much more, I just couldn't bear posting them all. Anyway, Law's got the message, his touch is unwanted. The body and mind remembers this.
Similar shit said at the auction in Sabaody about Fishmen, we don't see Law's reaction to that, but we can guess already that it was for sure triggering. Those people talking are sitting not that far away from him.
Ever wondered why Law throws people when teleporting? Besides the fact he avoids making contact with anyone unless they initiate it first, because that trauma is still strong in him ("Stay away! Don't come closer!"), there is one other possible reason:
Wonder no more! He does it to people because that's how people treated him as well, even people who apparently loved him.
Now that I have ruined the "Law is just an awkward unsocial nerd" joke for you, let me offer something to warm your heart a bit in exchange:
Corazon made sure to touch Law a lot and hold him in his arms, despite being often clumsy about it. I think he understood Law's trauma about being touched and his fear to touch or approach anyone, and tried to help him overcome it.

Being hugged and trying to return the gesture. Corazon's efforts did bring some results! But it only works for very few people, Law is still wary of people he doesn't know well. He expects to be unwanted and acts uneccessarily cold, distant and unapproachable because of that. But if you scroll back to the beginning of this post, you can see that he is trying his best to overcome it as well, one step at a time. Some things just can't be rushed.
And hey, at least he seems to be actually relaxed and almost like he *enjoys* being carried around. You think it makes him look uncool? Definitely. But suddenly it feels like Something Important, kinda intimate in a way and not just a silly comedy moment. It's a sign Law relies on people when he lets them carry him and that's why he doesn't protest.
Sanji is like "Why are you relaxing like that?! Get off!!" Finally, it makes sense why Law makes such a sour face here. Sanji should be grateful for the rare privileage after all! Anyway, this is anime-only extension, in manga Sanji actually doesn't tell Traffy to get off and Law chooses to scramble by himself, which doesn't taint the fragile trust those two just shared.
For those who made it to the end of this post, have I ruined Law's comedy moments for you forever? Because I sure just did that for myself.
I could also add one more cute thing from One Piece World Seeker Law's dlc, but I will let those interested to discover it by themselves!
I'm also amazed by the consistency of this theme. Both manga and anime never forget that touch is seemingly a big deal for Law.
#one piece#trafalgar law#donquixote rocinante#corazon#luffy#bepo#sanji#lawlu#sorta if you squint#trauma#gosh this took long time to do#Law and PTSD#one piece meta
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Highly esoteric wojak image with TL;DR interpretation by WojakGallery:
Title/Name: The Crowning of Chudjak Wojak Series: Chudjak / Poljak (Variants), Soyjak (Variants). Image by: Unknown Main Tag: Chudjak Wojak
Information and interpretation on the image (TL;DR):
Unfortunately, I could not actually find out much about this one, so some "light assumptions" will be made based on what we get from the image + my research and knowledge. I did a reverse image search using Google and TinEye, but according to the research I did, this one hasn't been posted anywhere that can be easily found with its original title/name and description, so I gave it the name "The Crowning of Chudjak" because it makes it clearer. You can call it whatever you like, though.
The following I will say here are just a few observations I've made on the image. Obviously, Chudjak is being crowned King.
But maybe something not so obvious is that he's being "crowned" with a crown from Burger King (fast-food restaurant franchise). I didn't find any information on why Chudjak is being crowned to wear a Burger King crown, so that's somewhat esoteric; maybe it's just for a comical effect, or to imply in some way that he "rules". In the image, it's two chudjaks crowning another chudjak, so he's basically crowning himself.
Another thing in the image is that there are Soyjaks present, some have wings like angels, which is something common in 14th-century classical Renaissance art, that is the general theme of the image, with all the clouds and people or gods in "heaven" or the sky. And Soyjaks are often considered by many users as "the greatest" variants since the inception of Wojak. In the image, you can see that there are soyjaks that appear to be somewhat distressed, and this is probably because some of them were placed below the chudjaks in the image. This may be to imply that chudjaks are superior to soyjaks, or that, in comparison to soyjaks, chudjaks are on a higher level of "Wojak Greatness." There are dark clouds in the image that may imply that a storm is coming. It's trivial, but both soyjaks and chudjaks are often depicted as the most popular wojak characters that wear glasses.
Also in the image, there is a wild naked soyjak trying to "lift" the chudjaks, this could possibly be a reference to 'Atlas', a Greek mythology Titan condemned to hold up the heavens or sky for eternity after the Titanomachy. In art, Atlas is often depicted naked.
And not easily noted and can be easily missed in the chudjak at the left part of the image that is wearing a red robe or mantle, it's possible to see the partially covered words "Mein Ka", which seems to be a reference to the book 'Mein Kampf' which is german for "My Struggle" which is a autobiographical manifesto by Nazi Party leader Adolf Hitler. The book outlines many of Hitler's political beliefs, his political ideology, and future plans for Germany and the world. The original nazi flag has a background of the color red, so it makes sense that the robe or mantle is red covering what looks like the book standing.
And last but not least, there is an anthropomorphic-looking soyjak dog on the right part of the image; it seems the dog is being caressed by the chudjak above him, or he's being held against the chudjak's leg (maybe in a forced manner); the dog's face seems somewhat confused, but this is unclear. The soyjak dog is wearing a collar or necklace with a pink tag or object. I didn't find any info on this type of collar or necklace. Anyway, the color pink may represent a number of things, including compassion, purity, and hope. It's usually known that a pink dog collar generally symbolizes sweetness, gentleness, and femininity. But maybe it's just a random collar or necklace with the color pink and no esoteric meaning involved.
The end.
Update: Tumblr user aeshna-cyanea pointed out that the original painting this wojak image is based on is titled "Coronation of the Virgin" by Diego Velázquez. Diego Velázquez, though a Baroque artist of the Spanish Golden Age, did draw inspiration from Renaissance art and incorporated elements of it into his work.
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I love compassion. I don't care about your looks, your education or your background. But I'm always fascinated by people who are careful about the impact of their words on the hearts of others.
زبان ہونے کا مطلب یہ تو نہیں ہے میاں
نہیں جو بولنا ہے ، وہ بھی بولتے جائیں
Insaan ka pehla taaruf uski zubaan se Hota hai
اس لیے پوچھی تھی تجھ سے ہزاروں باتیں
کے میں تیرا حسن حسن بیاں تک دیکھوں
Not written by me-
#free gaza#free palestine#gaza genocide#muslim#islamicreminders#allah#all eyes on gaza#all eyes on the west bank#gaza strip#deenoverdunya#urdu lines#urdu stuff#urdu literature#urdu shayari#urdu poetry#the hundred line#writers on tumblr#writers and poets#quotes positive poetry kindness selflove islam islamicquote reminders fypage explore explorepage ♡#literature
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An article from 2023 about Ka Daisy's experiences in the struggle for socialism and national liberation:
If asked how many women are in the unit, comrades would include Ka Daisy. It was a far cry from her experiences when she was still studying in a Catholic school. She experienced restrictions and gender-based discrimination. She was prohibited to wear the clothes she prefer and had to cut her long hair short.
Within the NPA, Ka Daisy is happy to be part of forging a society that has compassion and concern for transwomen like her. For her, gender is a non-issue for one to wage revolution. It is not a hindrance nor is it a basic question. It is not a matter of competing. It is enough for one to dedicate one’s heart and time to serve the revolution.
“As an LGBT youth, our role is important in advancing the revolution. To change society’s perception, we need to transform society itself,” she added.
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i'm three layers of headcanon deep here but mirabelle would vibe w ka buan philosophies so much it’s so tragic
(vaugardian therapist voice) so you’re saying you love change and you want to be able to change in certain ways, but the idea is making you anxious? change can be scary sometimes, can’t it. but you have the power to accomplish it and make yourself happy! when you imagine a version of you who isn’t dealing with this anxiety about changing, what does that look like? how is that different from how you feel now? let’s brainstorm some steps you could take to bring yourself closer to being that person!
(ka buan therapist voice) one of your facets loves change and is anxious that staying the same would mean failing your religion, but another facet likes being who you are right now and is anxious that changing would make you miserable. if each of these facets was a friend confiding their worries in you, what would you tell them to help them feel less afraid? once you’ve addressed these facets’ anxieties with compassion, it will be easier for you to listen to what they want, without their fears overwhelming you. what you learn from them can help you make your choice — but remember, you are the one who gets to make it!
#i’m strawmanning the vaugardian therapist a bit but hey. sometimes you have a therapist who just does not get you#i should. actually research IFS therapy#i'm basing this off what i remember from my therapist using it with me#and tbh i did not vibe with it that much#howeverrr it may have been the type of not vibing where i was mad that they were right jdfkhgdfg#like#therapist voice: you need to be nice to the part of yourself who wants to take a break. it's asking you for help.#silver stars voice: no FUCK that bitch it's ruining my LIFE and it's not even real who cares about its feelings#or something like that. idr what we were actually discussing#s.isat#s.mirabelle#s.vaugarde#s.kabue
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𓇢𓆸 A quote that is stuck with me — ❝learn this now, and learn it well, my daughter: like a compass needle that points north, a men's accusing finger always finds a woman. Always.❞
ִֶָ𓂃 ࣪˖ ִֶָ🐇་༘࿐
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CAMPAL LIT ANAL 🔥🔥🔥
To start off with, a personalised character debrief, of sorts, so the nonsense I'm about to spout stems from my known perception of them rather than just inherent batshit:
PALAMEDES SEXTUS: Tall ergo mouse faced man with the jokes and no brain shut off button. Burdened with gifted kid ego AND gifted kid guilt. Disabled even for a necromancer (not genetic turbo cancer for the nuke blast creation of thanergy but allergies, aerospace thick specs, lingering hint of the 'tism (social cues whomst, Mr that evil nun who thinks I'm a murderer is now my BEST FRIEND. Decided he was going to marry a girl because he liked that she was puzzley. His life partner is low emotive and he's never noticed.) (RE:marry Dulci the man is a glutton for a hyperfixation. 12 years and he's like 'we'll be married, Cam's my best man, I love them')). Bred for necromantic psychometry and groomed for Wardenhood (I used "groomed" because he was a literal child when they lauded his intellect as sufficient enough to egregiously test him to see if he was worthy of the title of Master Warden (spoilers, a 13 year old is a tiny baby child, no matter how cute, clever OR smug they are) This neatly slots into the "gifted kid" issues in that his parents ALLOWED this to happen, nay, encouraged it as an accolade. So I wouldn't say he was actively abused, but neither was he "cared" for, which is prime reason as to why he latched onto the only emotionally available peer AND was self sacrificial to a scary fault (re: ka-boom)
CAMILLA HECT: Tall TANK with too much inside to contain without fidget. Burdened with an inferiority complex 20 miles wide and a dunces hat of imposter syndrome. (Some of this is that The Sixth don't really respect swordhands, some of it is that in the capacity they DO respect it, she isn't ranked the most highly (RE: Not an Alexandrite. I assume Epeids? Cause she will class herself as competent and I think the Sixth aren’t stupid enough to put her in the spec ed class once she’s a Cav Prime.) Low EXTERNAL emotion, high energy, Palamedes is patently the words and she's happy with that. (As we go through HtN and NtN it reads more and more like alexithymia, more so when she just finally bursts the fuck into tears). Focuses a little too hard on being "useful", to the point and beyond of harm/self harm. Treats loyalty in a similar manner. A 0% or 100% kinda bitch. Close with her sister, but NOT her fathers, which is an interesting one because we have minimal backstory on that one, but it very much READ as a "forbidden" thing to be with Palamedes not just in the act of lyctorhood ascension but a 'They never understood' way. So her choosing to be Cavalier Primary was her choice AGAINST the wishes of other, societally and inter-familially.
ADDENDUM to Cam: She is a Carer, not in a motherly carer role, a Carer with a capital C. She cares for those with disadvantages in a MANNER I have witnessed IN the caring profession. This is MOST notable in the dynamics with Nona but she does the same with Pal. Where Pyrrha gives Nona fun dad treatment, with no less care, and Palamedes is the voice of gentle reason, consent and options, Cam is loving enforcement and active encouragement. It’s a theme. I’d like it highlit to those of you that have never had one or interacted in what is a COMPLICATED dynamic, a Carer is not a SERVITOR, they are a companion, they see you at your weakest and tackle ills with compassion. Is it a CHOSEN role.
Likewise Cam being raised female and not necromantically inclined (on planet eugenics and Your Eggs Are So Useful To Us BabyGirl) has just had humility beaten into her, but there are various places (Dr Sex coming to mind the most vividly, Pal trusting her with reconstruction of his skeleton, him trusting her opinion on things HE is looking at necromantically) where she is AS bright as him, but is not afforded the same societal perks as him as a necro.
tl;dr
Golden boy brain box who is struggling to live up to it, doing anything to be Good Enough. Held together by Cam's trust in him.
Black sheep who is struggling to perceive herself as worthy, doing anything to be Good Enough. Held together by Pal's faith in her.
Cool, we got it? ONWARD.
GENDER; PERCEPTIONS AND CHANGES:
Pre-Canaan through Canaan:
Palamedes Sextus, Master Warden of The Sixth House is a seeker of knowledge, his pronouns are forgot/to/eat (j/k.) I don't think he perceives himself as much of anything, until he's forced to. He is a man as The Master Warden and for Dulcinea, but I wonder how much of that is the "breeding program" ethos of the Sixth and how much of that is his OWN perception of himself because he's not a TRADITIONAL feeling man, even compared to other men in the canon. When I joke he's a he/him lesbian it's because he FEELS, not female, but feminine. In how he interacts with space and people, with the touchy-feeliness, with the way he expresses himself vociferous and poetically. 'Male' to him seems to be a mantle he wears above the neutrality of who he is and the femininity of his affections.
Camilla Hect, Hand of the Library, is a swordswoman and a cavalier and a hand. Cam is beautifully ungendered, but not in the same way as Palamedes is more of a... I feel like she'd be shocked to be told there's a binary? Just generally. She's practical, but butch, she's just Camilla. A she/her in the same way as a ship or a car. Not like a mother but like a deity -- and THAT is from Palamedes' perception of her. If he's a good boy, she's the Goddess he lays his altar out for. She’s not a ‘woman’ for anyone, not her house, not him. I think that’s important.
New-Rho:
I know there're alotta trans allegories here, but I'm gunna be a party pooper and say this is QUEER but not trans, not because it doesn't follow the path but because I don't think there is a Tomb binary to start with. There's a fluidity and flux IRL doesn't have (because people like their lil ticky boxes). And Pal doesn't feel different IN Cam, he feels the same. More him. He's more outwardly affectionate, he's more fussy and stroppy. He's him but Settled. I think he likes being whatever he is as Camilla. I think because he always liked Cam more.
Cam remains Cam. And I am delighted with this because Palamedes' influence within AND without is the same? I fucking love this woman, she popped out the womb like this and she's just keeping on trucking. Someone thinks she's a sex worker? Unfussed. Someone thinks she's fucking Crown? Mild distaste but that's more on the fact Corona is a biiitch. Dual daddying with Pyrrha? It's a TITLE, Cam seems to like titles. Maybe that's what it is, Camilla's self expression is a list of titles given to her by those who love her. The only one she’s picked for herself is Cavalier.
PAUL:
LEAST they/them they/them in the world. OBSESSED with them, they have the feminine energy that Palamedes carries but in Cam's body?? But the siege weapon threat of Cam?? Obsessed to get to know them more. I sense I shall kiss them on the mouth.
THEM AS CHARACTER ARCHETYPES VS "PEOPLE":
I think in part some of the issue with Palamedes and Camilla is how, on the whole, they seem to have been type cast as Male Boss and Female Minion. Because a tall dude with some authority and a quiet woman are put together and people get weird about that. (Even IRL. ‘Which one of you’s the fork?’ well firstly, she’s the knife, SECONDLY… that’s my tall glass of baby girl that speaks in a countertenor)
And this is a two fold issue:
THE FIRST: The Necromancer and Cavalier dynamic as portrayed by Muir.
It's seen as crass to dick down your cavalier (From Abigail and Magnus, through to Judith and Marta with canonical romantic refusal and LATTERLY Judith's SECONDARY canonical refusal of Coronabeth. Interestingly I don't see much shit about Isaac and Jeannemary but that's another hillock to rot on.).
But that doesn't seem to be the main issue WITHIN FANDOM or (more) people would be coming for Abigail and her lovely ottery meat shield.
Or Griddlehark.
Harrow and Gideon are lauded as the greatest romance of all time and the power dynamic there is TRULY whack. (affectionate)
Heir to the throne and indentured slave?
Necromancer made of a bajillion babies and a Base Level Not-Even-Squaddie.
Abuser and abused.
FORCED cavalier and necro?
Witness and sacrifice.
Even if you view them as a complicated sister dynamic... there are ABUNDANT issues there and a staggering co-dependancy that plays out in a sapphic lobotomy. So we have a base line of what, in the Nine Houses, classifies as a Fuckin' Ride Or Die of a relationship.
(this is without the fact that the NORM is for a baby to be specifically born for a Necromancer. Either RE:The manyfold uncles or like Babs being chosen as a zygote. Which do I have to explain how eugenics and baby-promises are worse than two people choosing each other or NAH?)
THE SECOND: People see a man and a woman and they give them preordained gender roles, which they then do some A/B/O level gymnastics to make them negatively fit into the necro and cav dynamic. It's funny because they're grey librarians who look like librarians. They look similar, they act similar but for some reason the fact Cam has tits gets some WILD hottakes.
(My favourite (said with spite and loathing) was someone asking if Cam fancied Harrow because she let Nona touch her… I.. I just??? She was letting Nona express herself in a safe way, Nona, who is a VULNERABLE ADULT with sensory issues. (yes this was reddit how did you guess))
Which.. is peculiar when you think of how we meet them, in an investigative role where they are immediately, companionably mocking each other? Where, out the gate, Cam lunges to protect Pal and as quickly as that happens he calls her back to protect her?
The Cavalier is there to protect the Necromancer. And yet he is IMMEDIATELY portrayed as a shield.
There's also an inherent, and non-canonically spoken of trust about what Pal EXPECTS of Camilla. It starts off with her with the rapier and how although adept with it, it is not her main skillset. And it's played against the bum rush way Gideon had to give in the two hander, but it's also, OBVIOUSLY, something Camilla has done forever and a day. So their roles are already non-traditional, with the basics of 'your cavalier should be your sword' cause girly pop let his barn door have two because she patently WANTED THEM.
Likewise, when hoorah boot clack salute, stick up her arse, repressed lesbo challenges them for their keys Cam is hot to go, but she waits for him to catch up. And he was erring on denial, he was erring on losing KNOWLEDGE, which is his main gain from any situation, to make sure she didn't get injured. But he puts her in that fight for HER HONOUR first, not his, not the Sixth's, Camilla Hect.
When she's injured, other than a brief moment of being a catty princess to Jody and Marta who lol DESERVED, he CHECKS Cam. He's frightened, he's fretting, he just wants her to not have been stabbed quite a lot, and PATENTLY blames himself. He is a PHYSIOLOGICALLY ADEPT necromancer and he FEARS for her injury, because of the pain not the complications of healing. It's an obvious show of how he perceives her as an extension of himself but NOT a tool.
Likewise, the only thing Pal ever did wrong and honestly, Dulci you aquatic-bint your way out of that river and give him a SLAP, was that he left her when he went to nuke Cytherea. He did it as a kindness, he didn't want her to see, he THOUGHT he did the right thing. And he didn't, and there wasn't a right thing, but oh my god dude.
He acted like a cavalier to guarantee her safety.
And I see a lot of 'oh well he did it cause he was upset about Dulci' like?? Cytherea SPOKE to them about the Avulsion trial. He had to look "Dulcinea" in the eye when she asked him to siphon Cam. Do you not think he wasn't already turbo pissed off? Hurt? Upset? Do you not think he was already mourning her, that he chose Cam over her, because he said “no”?
Which is a good segue into 'Paul is problematic'. First up, buckle up my darling little babies, spiritual cannibalism isn't exactly a fuckin' jolly holly time anyway, cause it was made by a man with the moral compass of a rabid wolverine and tits covered in biscuit crumbs.
At no point does Palamedes not feel dreadful for squatting inside Camilla. He is the (un)embodiment of a nervous friend sitting on a mostly full sofa trying to make himself as small as possible and wincing whenever he accidentally touches someone. He is there ONLY because it's what she wanted. And we know that because they discuss it, PRIVATELY, and it overheard by Nona. He also offers Cam the choice, they keep going as they are, or they do something else. But it is together, whatever they do is together. And she chooses to not suffer alone. And that some a y'all shit on that is a choice.
Harrow TBI's herself to not lose Gideon, but when two people enter into togetherness with consent it's a no?? They had a big ol’ adult chat (or 50 off screen, who knows, babygirl can’t shut up so I imagine it was more) and there’s booing and hissing.
Wah wah they're co-dependent it's not healthy, SURE, but it’s extreme circumstances, it's grimdark space heresy. Cam is a victim of torture, starvation and other such New Rho hells. Palamedes was in the purgatory of river isolation post suicide and his only hope of survival was Cam. They are the reason the other kept going. Paul is them keeping going, Paul is their promise to the other that it'll be okay, because they're there. Yes, they're co-dependent but they are each other's reason for being.
Even in the real world, when everything is subterranean, sewer level shit, you are told to find a reason to keep going. It can be a concert in a few months, or your ageing cat, it can be your mother or your tomato plants. And it's not long term, but THEY don't have long term.
And they BOTH chose. Palamedes had no promise of what would happen once he was booted back out of Babs, did he go back in Cam and risk her soul, or did he try another body? Was he already compromised by Tridentarii taint? But he was willing, if it was for her.
Likewise she was at the precipice of a wound that really needed a necromancers attention (look how BoE left Judith, like jesus colostomy christ the woman is a menace but shoving a carrier bag in her then blood letting her to refuel your stolen tesla is rough guys). It needed HER necromancers attention. And that wasn't happening. And she couldn't take not having him any more.
And they didn't go into it blind, The Sixth as a house patently had more knowledge on the melange of souls than most (via all the secrecy that was shared with BoE etcetc), and Pal had just learnt more, first hand, shoved up inside Naberius feeling their edges bleed together. And they had felt what it was to be Them before. They BOTH experienced that, like, blood-sweat and worried daddy lap aside, they both knew it would hurt her, and I have no doubt it cut Palamedes up, but it ate some of him too. 'Oh it hurt her more' my DUDE the man was already bone dust and fuck all else all that COULD be hurt WAS hurt.
THIRDLY (I realise there was not initially three points but there sure fucking is now LESSGO):
SACRIFICE. I've seen it said, repeatedly, they have an uneven power dynamic because Cam 'sacrifices' herself for him.
WELL. Let's break that down with a direct comparison.
Gideon Nav, a woman who had never been loved, but had sometimes been useful, sacrificed herself for a chance to die with the knowledge of being wanted. She knew and wanted to be eaten, absorbed, nothing more than her sword. This was seen as a rejection by Harrow for reasons even GIDEON was aware of, poor kid.
Harrowhark Nonagesimus, woman who, understandably, thinks she's cursed as all fuck, refused to take the sacrifice of Another Body and in the process made Gideon think she was being rejected. I think she is less aware, but not totally unaware. And it was in desperation. And she is so young, they both are, they were scared and staring at a bone wall or forever death.
But my point is their togetherness, no matter how complete, was born of VIOLENCE and the eradication of one of them, the violence of need, of desperation to belong, to not be torn from the one consistent point in their lives : each other.
Camilla Hect saw the buckshot shrapnel of her life partner embedded in Canaan's masonry (this is an actual sacrifice, he sacrificed himself for her safety) and chose to take the red string of fate and GANK IT until she got Palamedes back. Because they had a (theoretically possible) predetermined get-out-of-jail-free plan for if something took him first. They planned to never be apart, this was one plan of many.
And Palamedes Sextus, for his part, did everything he could to keep them safe, keep her safe, to make sure, even in the end, they would be together in the safest, sanest way possible. He dredged her from death both times they were shot, he sewed her back together from within the cage of her body. He resurrected them. He was a god FOR them, so they could stay them.
Was it actually safe and sane? Compared to gutty stabs and being consumed by a IANTHE, honestly, yeah.
Was it ideal? No, but it was better than death.
They lived, together. Discussed it, chose it.
If Palamedes is Decisive Consent and Camilla is Patient Protection, Paul is a Conversation with a lil line of kisses at the bottom. They're not made from love, they're made from necessity, but they are born BECAUSE of love, gentility. The difference between rabid hunger after suffering food scarcity and spending 14 hours cooking a meal for someone you love. They are both acts of consumption, but the tone is so vastly different.
✨anyway yeah hi I fucking love Cam and Pal and this is the hill I've chosen to climb and repeatedly die on✨
(I'd like to postface this with I love ALL these characters, I slag them off with the love of literary analysis, and none of them ever did anything wrong they are my tiny angel baby war crimes whom i wub them a normal amount.
...And I'm not getting the books out to quote shit so you're gunna have to embrace the Vibes.<3)
(shout out to @grievingbovine this is (partially) their fault *heart hands*)
#these are observations made with the brain and vomited up with the heart#i know how they felt in delphi#this shit just spilled out#Camilla Hect#Palamedes Sextus#Just Paul#consent is sexy I'll scream it from the rooftops#conversations? also sexy#the delightful lack of gender binary in the tomb#we gotta understand as a fandom the nuance is what makes it glorious#the locked tomb#tlt#the locked tomb spoilers#tlt spoilers#lickedher#I don't expect anyone to read this#it was mostly for me
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“You can look down from the Ajna chakra (the “third eye”) and see everybody else’s material and mental realms; you see an infinite number of sidereal universes. Surrounding each spark of God is built a universe.” - Goswami Kriyananda
Sirian - Galactic Collective Talon Abraxas
We are The Sirians. We are here to help you to navigate your Earth plane during these challenging times. In today’s transmission we will be discussing the pineal gland chakra. We will give you the Ashkeru perspective on it. We will not be giving you any information on the throat chakra as you call it. From our perspective, it is not of importance at this stage in your development. You all need to realize that you do not primarily communicate via your voice as you may be conditioned to believe. We pay very close attention to your interactions and we are here to tell you that 99.9% of your communication is energetic, it is non-verbal. As you continue to evolve and integrate more of your Higher Selves and move through the fourth dimension, the less important your verbal communication is going to be.
When you start approaching the fifth dimension, you will all start developing a new chakra, a new energy centre between your solar plexus and your heart that will greatly reinforce the amount of Light that you can ground in your body. At the same time, you will also develop a brand new chakra just above your crown chakra that will allow you to process more inter-dimensional energies into your body. At that period of time the majority of you will start to communicate telepathically and you will lose the need for voice communication gradually. If you focus on all your other chakras and in particular to your heart chakra, your throat chakra is automatically taken care of. A being with an open and full heart will communicate clearly and peacefully regardless of the mode of communication, it does not matter if it is verbal or not. We hope we have provided sufficient explanation from our perspective.
Let us now move upwards on the tree of life, as we the Sirian Ashkeru beings see it, superimposed on your Earth-human bodies. The next chakra is the Third Eye as you call it and it corresponds to the organ residing in the middle of your brain called the pineal gland. Your pineal gland is quite possibly the most misunderstood organ in your anatomies. We know its full potential because we helped design it. It is important for us that you are aware of it because for us it is a compass that helps us always find our way back “home”. And your “home” dear ones is not just the Earth-plane home, it is the Galaxy, all the dimensions, all the densities and all the beings residing there.
Your pineal gland is your compass to navigating your intergalactic and inter-dimensional nature. If you want proof that you are not alone in the universe start reading up on the pineal gland, on its crystalline nature, on its electric properties, on its ability to induce altered states of consciousness and connect you to Higher Guidance. We want you to anatomically locate it inside your skull and then gently press your index finger, either of them, on the area between your eyebrows and bring the anatomically correct location inside your skull to mind. We want you to visualize your pineal gland as a light-bulb. A very big, bright light bulb.
There are a lot of theories on your plane that some chemical substances block your pineal glands, and you cannot use them. We are here to tell you that these are fear-mongering theories and that nothing can ever block your pineal glands other than your own consciousness. None of you, and we mean NONE of you, is blocked. There is no chemical substance strong enough to prevent you from accessing your Divine Inter-dimensional nature. Only your consciousness is powerful enough to do that. So, we urge you to stop giving your power away and instead we want to encourage you to start building a connection with your divine compass chakra, the Ka-lea-annah. We will give you a short mantra to recite after you have mentally visualized and anatomically located your pineal gland: Ka-lea-aki, Ka-lea-arah.
Keep repeating these words silently in your head. They are ideal to attune your pineal gland. Repeat them slowly, in a steady rhythm spelling the three syllables carefully and separately. Do this practice for several of your minutes. For those of you feeling a certain affection and closeness for Sirian energies, we recommend visualizing the light bulb emanating a bright sky-blue colour. We want you to know that any colour that is comfortable for you to visualize is the right one. After several rounds of practice, we want you to start engaging with your Guides on this topic and ask questions on topics you would like information for. For those of you that are ready for more advanced spiritual experiences we recommend doing this while you are very relaxed, just before you naturally drift off to sleep. For the rest of you we suggest you do this practice just before your main meditation practice or spiritual practice you are comfortable with.
We are the Sirians and we are pleased to connect with you All!
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the reaper | part iii
as far back as human memory can recall, the origin of flower marks remains unknown. if perhaps they came during or after the birth of humanity, or are benevolent gifts from the gods to aid ones navigation in life— milestones to remember and learn from, a north point on a compass lest you stray from your path. regardless, they have always been. and while flower marks remain an important aspect of ones journey, there is none other more significant than the soul flower mark. wherein the moment someone is born, this mark blooms above ones heart, as it is considered a pure reflection of who that person is and will be.
part i / part ii / part iii / part iv
˚. ✦.˳·˖✶ ⋆.✧̣̇˚. ˚. ✦.˳·˖✶ ⋆.✧̣̇˚. ˚. ✦.˳·˖✶ ⋆.✧̣̇˚. ˚. ✦.˳·˖✶ ⋆.✧̣̇˚.
“конвой в пределах видимости. 13 кликов к юго-западу от текущего положения. мониторинг.” (“convoy within sight. 13 clicks south-west of current position. monitoring.”)
all this gear and still cold.
“утвердительно, жнец. в режиме ожидания.” (“affirmative, reaper. standby.”)
it was cold back then, and still cold now. not sure why she would think differently.
the blindingly white snow of the siberian mountain ranges reflected off the reapers’ combat goggle lenses and sniper scope; sitting motionlessly atop her snowmobile hidden amongst the creviced mountainside and tall pine trees. her attentive (bored) gaze never straying from the four vehicle convoy moving over the frozen lake.
to be fair the reapers handler had ordered her to be on standby since she situated herself in her current position. that had been 3 hours ago.
“утвердительный—” (“affirmative—“)
KA-BOOM!
the deceptively frozen surface of the lake violently shook and gave way from the pressure of— explosives?
— and it was now only getting interesting.
“жнец, отчет о состоянии сейчас.” (“reaper, report.”)
all four vehicles toppling over on the fractured slates of ice before succumbing to the glacial water of the lake.
“Маршрут был перехвачен в самом слабом месте, как вы и предполагали; весь конвой затонул в озере. Подозревается использование взрывчатки.” (“route has been intercepted at weakest point per your predictions; entire convoy has submerged into lake. suspected use of explosives.”)
the reapers’ focused gaze zeroing in on the 1… 2… no… 4..? figures through her scope, as they clambered up and out of the lake. three in unfamiliar, but climate suitable diving gear— not konni soldiers, her gloved fingers gently increasing her scopes clarity in an attempt to identify the three hostiles currently manhandling the now free prisoner.
“жнец в лагерь: враги захватили пленника.” (“reaper to compound: hostiles are in possession of prisoner.”)
she spoke into her mic, scanning the tree outline and immediate surroundings for anymore hiding.
“Только трое держат пленника. Я могу их вывести и забрать пленника.” (“only three have the prisoner. I can take them out and retrieve said prisoner.”)
“отрицательно. Два отряда были отправлены в течение 3 минут к последним известным координатам конвоя. Держите пленника в поле зрения и сохраняйте дистанцию, не вступайте в бой, пока я не отдам приказ. Давайте посмотрим, хороши ли в бою новые друзья победителя, хорошо?” (“negative. two units have been dispatched eta 3 minutes to convoys last known coordinates. keep prisoner within your sight and maintain distance, do not engage until i give the order. let us see if mr. z’s new friends are any good in a fight, shall we?”)
mr. z
or as he likes to proclaim himself as, her father, even though they were far from being family. rather, he was the man that gave her biological mother an out from flora’s existence. the man that gleefully handed her over to the institution as a gift. proof that him, his father and their organisation were worthy allies to the institution (and their resources).
through the many layers of thermal fabric and body armour, the luscious tapestry of rhododendrons and begonias blooming from the reapers right palm, up to her forearm as a bouquet of danger and caution, she still felt them throb warmly at the anticipation of a hunt.
“понял, сэр. выезжаю.” (“understood, sir. moving out.”)
⋆.✧̣̇˚.
you fucking fool.
was the only thought that passed the reapers mind before lodging two bullets straight into the prisoners' chest, midway through piteous begging to his captors to not kill him, he would tell them everything and blah blah blah—
the same song and dance—
hence the immediate command for his elimination, lest he blurt out sensitive information of interest to mr. z.
it was times like these, that the reaper felt a surge of calm stillness burn within her chest, right where her soul flower mark is. as if that this is exactly what fate had intended for her.
mr. z’s new friends however…
the reaper thought with mild disinterest,
their bottomless pit of dogs could be trained better—
“4 минуты, жнец.” (“units 5 and 6 eta is 7 minutes, reaper.”)
“копия.” (“copy.”)
however, the minute the prisoners body fell to the unforgiving siberian ground, the biggest of the team—
a beast of a man wearing a skull mask—
immediately swivelled to her general direction and knelt to one knee, eye already peering into his scope, as his comrades dragged the prisoners’ body with them behind cover.
sniper, with fast reflexes—
only to shoot once, then twice—
and for the reaper to feel a white hot burning flash of pain tear through the lower right side of her abdomen.
agh—
pivoting on one foot to slam her back against a tree out of direct eye line, the rough surface of the tree dragging across her back and adding to the uncomfortableness of the situation.
how annoying—
the reaper would have been impressed, if not for the bullet still lodged in her body and her current priority to immediately stem the bleeding. the peculiarity of a skull masked sniper landing an almost lethal hit to her didn’t exactly improve her mood either.
skull masked sniper. now why did that sound familiar to her?
“жнец в соединение: я был скомпрометирован. пуля в правый нижний квадрант, активно останавливает кровотечение, не смертельно.” (“reaper to compound: i’ve been compromised. bullet to right lower quadrant, actively stemming the bleeding, non-lethal.”)
“копия. статус миссии?” (“copy. mission status?”)
“заключенный получил две пули в грудину. Его оттащили из поля зрения, прежде чем снайпер в маске-черепе нанес ответный удар. Точное состояние не подтверждено, визуальных данных нет.” (“prisoner received two bullets to sternum. dragged from view before skull masked sniper retaliated. cannot confirm state, no visuals.”)
the scattering of timber chunks from the side of the tree she was resting upon appeared in her peripheral.
trying to flush me out into view huh
“настоящее время под обстрелом.” (“currently under fire.”)
“Копия. Рипер, мне только что сообщили, что противники - это не только силы освобождения Урзикстана, но и их известные сообщники, оперативная группа 141. А именно: капитан Джон Прайс, лейтенант Саймон Райли, сержант Джон Мактавиш и сержант Кайл Гаррик.” (“copy. reaper, i have just been informed that the hostiles are not only the urzikstan liberation forces, but have been identified as their known associates, task force 141. specifically: captain john price, lieutenant simon riley, sergeant john mactavish and sergeant kyle garrick.”)
a pause while more bullets sent more pieces of bark flying within her view.
seems like more than one shooter now—
“… лейтенант — это тот, кто носит маску-череп.” (“… the lieutenant is the one wearing the skull mask.”)
ah, right. the reaper can now actively recall reading the profiles of the known associates of the ULF as potential enemies to appear on the field.
“копия. разрешение на ликвидацию оперативной группы?” (“copy. permission to eliminate the task force?”)
“отрицательный, они помеха, а не приоритет; приоритетом было устранение предателя — с такими ранениями он долго не проживет. Я ожидаю, что вы немедленно вернетесь на базу. Однако эвакуационный пункт находится к северу от вашей позиции.” (“negative, they are a nuisance not a priority; the priority was eliminating the traitor — he will not survive long with those injuries. i expect you to return to the compound at once. however, evac is located north of your position.”)
the reaper sighed as she could now feel the uncomfortable stickiness of her uniform cling to her front, understanding her predicament. the bloodied wound positioned at just the edge of the wrathful red tulips decorating her right hip and waist; now a tangled mess of coagulated blood and vermillion petals, a terrible mix.
“копия. Жнец выдвигается, вступает в схватку с враждебными силами.” (“copy. reaper moving out, engaging with hostile forces.”)
the burning of a new rhododendron blooming on her skin going unnoticed by her.
˚. ✦.˳·˖✶ ⋆.✧̣̇˚. ˚. ✦.˳·˖✶ ⋆.✧̣̇˚. ˚. ✦.˳·˖✶ ⋆.✧̣̇˚. ˚. ✦.˳·˖✶ ⋆.✧̣̇˚.
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the reapers not so meet cute with the 141 is almost here! for those who have played the games, any clues as to the inspo of what mission reaper hijacked in siberia?
used google translate, so apologies to those fluent in russian if it seems like i horrendously butchered the language gahhhh
thanks and cya in the next one!! ♡︎
crossposted on ao3 (same username)
#141 x reader#call of duty x reader#poly!tf141#call of duty x ofc#tricswriting#141 x ofc#angst#cod fanfic#john price x ofc#simon ghost riley x ofc#kyle gaz garrick x ofc#johnny soap mactavish x ofc#john price x reader#simon ghost riley x reader#kyle gaz garrick x reader#johnny soap mctavish x reader#heavy angst#tw implied child abuse#tw blood#tw wounds#tw death#tw murder#tw injury
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You're more amazing than friendship
Speaking of friendship, I started playing Miitopia again today! However, I don't like my old party members, so I'm starting a new game with my OCs. Double however, I don't have enough for all 10 party members. So do any of my mutuals want to pick a class and go on a fantasy adventure with the power of friendship? The leftover classes are Warrior, Chef, Cat, Imp, and Flower:
#for context: the chef is a healer+damage#the cat is physical damage#the imp does various Tricky Things including magic#and the flower is a healer with a bit of wind magic#the warrior is obviously the standard damage+tank class#i'm starting out with jamie being the protagonist as a mage with Team Rose as the first party#compass the cleric rose the thief and alice the pop star#ka asks
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"Were we predestined to love each other........like they were never supposed to?"
Cinder daughter/Kai son future fic please
Masterlist
hey, this is a short fic, and I have no plans of continuing this idea further, having said that, I kept the dynamics pretty similar to Kai/Cinder's, hope you enjoy it!
OC's Perspective:
The gardens behind the Lunar Palace hadn't bloomed yet, despite being a month into Spring. The climate hadn't been all bright like the season would suggest, it was wet and dry as the winds would want. In a way, Lyra would say that it was reckless, exactly what Mother had called her.
She wanted to be angry at her, call her names, and tell her how she was not looking past her failed love story. But Lyra knew her mother, she didn't hate Riki, just had enough caution for her daughter, that she wasn't fond of him either.
"Babe," Lyra heard Rikuto, as he sat beside her, "I assume it didn't go well."
"She didn't want you thrown back to Earth, so all in all, I'd say that's a victory," she attempted for humour, but it didn't have the same impact.
"I don't think your mother would do that. That would be a scandal-"
"Oh, my Ma has got enough media scandals, shutting the door on your face will hardly be one!"
"The headlines would paint it as "Former Lover's Son Shunned By the Lunar Queen! -"
"Don't mention the Emperor, I just remember that the kindest person in the Commonwealth, despised me enough to blacklist me from the guest list-"
"Your mother did appreciate the gesture, and it wasn't my father who did it, it was Torin Da," Rikuto provided, and Lyra thought how it didn't make much difference. The royal advisor, won't blacklist her, a Lunar Princess, unless it was required of him.
Riki sat in silence, drawing circles on her back, as she pulled her legs against her chest. There was a speck of light on the 5th Floor of the Palace, her mother's room, Lyra could say, that it was either Uncle Thorne or Iko she had been talking with. Her father was away, he wouldn't allow her to be with Riki, since it saddened her mother.
In that way, she always liked her mother, she didn't keep Riki away, and let Lyra go along and do anything she wanted. Except marry him, that's where she drew the line.
"Don't be foolish, Lyra. They have rejected me once, they'd do the same to you. Earthen's they never grow compassion."
"They adore me-"
"Keep telling yourself that. Ask the boy, if he'd marry you, and see how he stutters!"
"I'm marrying-"
"No," her mother had yelled, and Lyra had found herself flinching at the tone, "I have allowed your romance to go on for too long, but you both are foolish to think of your decisions. I'd say that Ka- his father, won't support this notion."
"What's on your mind?" Riki asked, breaking her thoughts, as she found herself curled in his side, a small sob illicit itself.
"Lyra, hey- it's going to be ok, we knew it would be difficult-"
"Ma said the Emperor, would oppose it."
"Dad likes you-"
"He liked my mother too, look what happened!" She yells, without meaning to, and seeing the hurt on Riki's face, she grimaces, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean- Ma and I fought, and she said a lot of things, that had been eating me up!"
"Visiting each other's homes isn't healthy for us," Rikuto aims for a joke, but it ends up being a harsh reality check.
"It's daunting, and I keep thinking," Lyra thinks before she voices her thoughts, "-Were we predestined to love each other.....like they were never supposed to?"
He sighs. It sounded like hope. And grief, a prophecy that comes with a countdown.
“I don’t want to be a ghost of what they didn’t get to be.”
“We won't be," he assures her, but it isn't quite convincing.
“Then why do I feel like I already know the ending?” Lyra says, she should stop talking, her mother's words have more influence on her, than her own thoughts.
The wind stirred the branches. The cherry blossoms they're sitting under fall. He pulls her closer, his chin propping on her head, as she wraps her arms around his torso.
“They chose duty.”
“So will we,” she whispered.
"Do you want to marry me?"
She's silent, the question isn't a proposal, but it's something more than a casual remark, he's asking if she sees the future forming into something more.
“I do.”
His grip on her hand tightened. She felt a kiss on her head, and prayed the stars to be kinder to her than they'd be to her mother.
“We won't be them, I promise you.”
She doesn't ask him how, or if they'd be able to convince their parents, instead she trusts him.
They sit there, between the past and the future, in a garden still learning how to bloom again. Maybe tomorrow, the world will ask them to be symbols again.
But tonight—
Tonight, they were just two children of almosts.
Trying not to become their echoes.
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Rate your muse's traits from 0 to 10
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compassion: 10/10 - she is compassionate, but knows when she must turn this off to do her duty.
bitterness: 3/10 - she tries not to be, as it is too much of an effort.
happiness: 6/10 - she can find joy in the little things and is mostly happy in life, until the depression kicks in and she isn't always sure why it just shows up.
politeness: 8/10 - she is very polite, until someone strikes a nerve with her.
chivalry: 8/10 - annoyingly so. the women in his life want him to stop this version of chivalry lol
pride: 8/10 - she's a Hua.
honesty: 9/10 - she is very honest, unless it is to save a life or for a good reason, such as if she is protecting another's secret.
bravery: 8/10 - for the most part she is, but there are a few instances... like when she joined the army... and if she gets a crush...
recklessness: 9/10 - lololol
ambition: 4/10 - depends on if she has a passion for it or not. or if its to protect someone.
loyalty: 10/10 - once she is loyal, its nearly impossible for her to loose that sense of loyalty.
love: 9/10 - she has a lot of love to give and wants to be loved.
sense of family: 10/10 - lololol
attractiveness: 10/10 - she's very pretty, she just doesn't know it.
agility: 10/10 - she trains a lot.
sex drive: 5/10 - i only put a five because once she is intimate with a person, she enjoys it. but its not on the top of her priory list and does not seek it out.
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