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softgrungeprophet · 2 years
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if comic artists don't stop drawing flash thompson with his pants inexplicably tucked into his fucking prosthetic legs i'm gonna start biting people
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baejax-the-great · 11 months
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ao3 exists, plus it doesnt even matter what terms i search for on tumblr 100% of the time theres fanfiction. literally you can search any words on this website and some kpop guy/ reader fanfics flood the results every single fucking time. plus some of us are not here for fandoms??? your circus/clown analogy is stupid
So I'm incredibly allergic to shrimp-- to the point where if I ate a single shrimp I would die, to the point where I don't really consider shrimp food anymore--and it's the weirdest thing, yesterday i went to Target to buy hair conditioner, and they were selling shrimp. Don't they know it wasn't what I was looking for and I can't eat it anyway? Why would they do this? Totally fucked up of those shrimp catchers to try to poison me like that.
But analogies clearly aren't your thing, so let me break this down for you.
AO3 does indeed exist, but your suggestion that fanfic live there and ONLY there is akin to saying that imgur exists, so nobody should be posting images, whether they be photos or art, on any other website. Twitter exists (sort of), so really nobody should be posting shit posts or hot takes that are fewer than 140 characters or whatever.
Not everyone uses AO3. There is no law saying that if you write fanfic, you must post it on AO3 and nowhere else. There will never be a law that says that, because that's not how the internet works. Tumblr, one of the few social media sites that allows longform blogging, is in fact a great alternative to AO3 for one-shots. It's a little trickier for multi-chapter posts, but I've seen people make it work.
AO3 is not social media. People can't DM there, send asks, make friends, bump their post to the top of the feed (unless they are an asshole who is about to get blocked by half of fandom for pulling that move). Do you like social media? I mean you're here, on tumblr, bothering a total stranger, so you must see some value to it. Guess what--fanfic authors also enjoy being on social media and sharing what they've been up to, including their WIPs.
Things you aren't looking for being part of your searches is literally just life on the internet at all times forever. Earlier this month I was looking for a reference of draped fabric for drawing purposes. I googled 'chiton drawing' (chitons like the ancient Greeks used to wear), and all I got were drawings of molluscs of the genus 'chiton.' Alright, I did a google search for "toga drawing" and learned that there is an anime girl named Toga and people very much enjoy drawing her. Were the artists of the molluscs or the anime girl to blame for me having to slog through a bunch of irrelevant pictures to find one that could help me with my drawing? No. They correctly labeled what they were doing. That's just life.
Seeing fanfic in the tag doesn't harm you. At all. It doesn't matter if you find it cringe, or it's a ship you don't like, or it's xReader. For like ten seconds you looked at words you didn't particularly like, and then you moved on. How is that different from literally any other post on tumblr? I see bad takes and essays I don't care about on this site all the time. It's called scrolling. Again, this will be the case for every website on the internet forever. Are you telling me you read every tweet in your feed? Every reddit post? Sometimes you see irrelevant stuff. I guarantee some of my mutuals have already deemed this long ass post irrelevant and are scrolling on by. What makes fiction that much more abhorrent to you than the rest of the nonsense?
If you really hate seeing fanfic, tumblr has content blocking and tag blocking. You can block the phrase "x Reader." You can block the tag "fanfic." You can block all sorts of things, and if that doesn't work, you can just block the writers whose existence annoys you.
Sorry man, you personally not liking fandom and not using tumblr for it has really no bearing on what everyone else is doing. Like it or not, tumblr is a hub of fandom, and fanfic authors are going to be a part of every fandom on this green earth. Just because you came to the circus in order to admire the pretty fabric used on the tents doesn't mean the performers are in the wrong for doing their thing.
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Allow me to slide this on here, what if the obey me demon brothers had an mc who uh- kind of has a nicotine addiction and is desperately trying to get help. The only problem is they see it everywhere because it's so popular- HHHHH no need to do this, I don't mind :)
Hello, I might not make a part 2 since I'm too lazy unless someone requests it. Bye 😋
And sorry 😅
Thank you for the idea! I'll try my best
(All of this is found on Pinterest so if the original owner didn't post this from Pinterest then idk.)
How do the demon brothers react to Mc having a nicotine addiction
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(Found in Pinterest. The account that posted it)
Lucifer
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(Found it on Pinterest so idk if the true original art was from Twitter or something.)
The moment he learns about it, he will scold you so badly. Your addiction will turn to dust. Like literally.
Here's is literally what I imagine.
Lucifer: "MC! COME TO MY OFFICE. NOW."
Everyone: "OooOOoOo, someone's in trouble!"
Mc: "Stop acting like kids. You little pieces of shi-"
*later*
*lucifer throws a WHOLE HISTORY of reasons why you should stop using it."
And when you say you can't help it.
Welp, don't worry. You don't need to go to the doctor's for help. Beside your ears. Because, Luci is here! Scolding you every. Single. Time.
One time you tried to talk it out and saying "you look cute when your mad"
(...the pictures says it all)
The people in the background who saw it, and also do it, are also affected. Having nightmares of him beating their ass and scolding them for doing it.
Mammon
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(Found in Pinterest. The account that posted it)
He would be baffled. If he sees you doing it multiple times, he just cries little tears saying,
"S- stop doing it! I don't wa- *hic* wanna see you dIeEeEEe!" (The picture is an ex. And also he searched on Google perhaps and see if it's bad and uhh....yeah. he just clicked on one random website and yeah. Imagine the rest)
You definitely took that image and made it stick into your memories now.
Then... an idea 💡 popped inside his head! What happens if he just sells it all? Great deal since it will or might stop your addiction since you don't have it AND! MONEY!! $$$ so now you have a demon who just steals it and sells it.
You just standing there like:....welp, I guess this can help. In a uh...money way. *ching ching*
Levi
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(Found in Pinterest. The account that posted it)
Same thing as Mammon. Baffled. Like, excuse me? YOU COULD'VE SPENT THAT MONEY ON GAMES-
(Aggressive much)
He just makes you stay in his room to play games every time there's a free chance. He will even force you to sleep in his room with him.
Not thinking about where you're gonna sleep then it's just awkward seeing that you might have to sleep with him, because he doesn't have extra blankets and pillows. So it depends if you have a bigger or taller body than him then he's gonna sleep on top of you.
Satan
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At first, he was concerned but he thinks that eventually, it will stop.
[It didn't.]
*later to our current position*
He would absolutely beat your ass. Get into his demon form and catch you with his tail, (picture is an ex.) Not letting go. If you still somewhat continue it, he will put a temporary curse that whenever you touch it. It. Will. Burn.
Yeah. So his wrath makes your addiction run away. 😋
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molsno · 1 year
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random question buuut how do you feel about trans men using/reclaiming the t slur? this isn’t meant to be bait or anything i’ve just heard trans women in the past say it makes them uncomfortable and was curious to hear your thoughts
it's really annoying honestly. for decades literally the ONLY time I ever heard the word tranny it was used to dehumanize a trans woman, or a fictional caricature of one. I learned that a tranny was the most reviled thing you could possibly be in society and because of that I was utterly terrified to defy any expectations of masculinity for fear of being treated like one. it severely fucked up my perception of myself and kept me from interrogating a single thought I had that conflicted with the assigned gender I had been given, no matter how small. now of course I find a lot of joy in being a tranny but that's because I've accepted that what society finds repulsive is beautiful and amazing. and like yeah trans men deal with transphobia and that's deeply painful, it's a shared experience we have so believe me I know the feeling, but the specter of the tranny doesn't haunt them their every waking moment. up until very recently (and honestly even to this day) if you ask a random cis person what a trans man is they will probably not even be able to answer that question correctly. if you google image search the word tranny basically every result is someone's ghoulish idea of a trans woman. if you look up tranny porn it's all going to be trans women being dehumanized and humiliated. when trans men "reclaim" the word tranny I feel nothing but contempt. they want to pretend so bad that we have the same exact struggle and they wear that notion as a badge of honor while doing nothing to combat the fear of the tranny in the tme person's mind, or worse, upholding it themselves by throwing us under the bus.
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xviistrings · 6 months
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if you had to punt exactly one playable persona character into the sun, who would it be and why?
i have to pick just one? aww...
well, i classify my urge to punt someone as how much i hate and despise and fucking loathe them. but my reasoning behind hating a character is based on multiple factors;
do they have/learn good skills/abilities?
are they well written in the story?
are they well written in their social link?
writing aside, do i like them as a person?
now, the only games i have played out of the persona series are 4 & 5(NOT ROYAL). i read the p1 manga and am only watching playthroughs of the game, so i am not at all in any place to cast judgement on those guys, nor do one of those factors even apply to them... so that already narrows it down a whole bunch. i would never punt a single p1 character. they're all great (except maybe kei just for the 4th one) (but he's great. i love him. i think about him and get sad)
and i'm also eliminating the protagonists for obvious reasons, so we've already disqualified 11 characters. and with that out of the way, we can officially begin...
PERSONA'S PERILOUS PLAY OF PUNTING POTENTIAL!!!! (contains spoilers)
every character will be able to score out of 3 in each factor, and the one with the least amount of points wins the game as the Most Puntable. it's kind of like golf, which is funny, because i also want to punt golf players into the sun.
our first contestant is YOSUKE HANAMURAAAA
now, i was going to grab a fun little image of him to provide this post with visuals but i always forget that 90% of his search results on google are. uh. hm.
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well, this is our situation. can i give him a pity point for that?
for number one, i can say...... 3/3. he was ALWAYS on my team during the whole game and i built him up well. like i was raising a son... sniffle... they grow up so fast...
i have to admit, it was a little annoying when he kept missing crits on the golden hand but is that his fault? no-hohohoooooo, it's merely a turn of fate... (and his fault. fuckyouyosukefuckyoufuckyougaaaah)
for number 2, i rate it 2. he's an ooooookay character in the main story, a lot of his harassment of the girls and kanji really tick me off and there's literally no good explanation as for why he does that other than just being an asshole, but. i guess being an asshole is just part of his personality.........?
EXCEPT FOR THE FACT THAT THERE SHOULD BE GREATER CONSEQUENCES FOR HIS ACTIONS BECAUSE COMMUNICATING THE IDEA THAT BAD PEOPLE GET OFF SCOT-FREE IS TERRIBLE FOR A NUMBER OF REASONS. i don't give 2 shits about fanservice as a whole (in regards to harassing the girls, not the homophobia, that's just annoying) but can we stop making the grounds for it being sexual harassment
number 3 gets a 3! his social link is AMAZING and i CRIED and hes GAY and LOVES HIS FRIENDS!!!!!! if i wanted to do a character analysis on him then i would write a different post, but this is me trying to figure out who i would punt into the sun. so. moving on
number 4......... 1/3. for the previous points in number 2, he is an absolute dickhead and no amount of people-pleasing habits and homoerotic chemistry will make me like him. every person who is mean to him is right.
oh boy, just yosuke's section was reaaaaaaaaaally long... i'll try and shorten it for you, okay?
up next is chie satonaka, my personal favourite persona 4 girl if that sets the baseline for anything.
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look at her :] she's so silly :]
for number one, i'm sadly going to have to rate her below 3... like. 1.5? is that allowed? i'll say it is.
she's the party member equivalent of a burner phone. unlike yosuke who's by my side forever and ever, chie is only good until teddie gets a persona and then she's so publicly humiliated that she accidentally misses every single hit. galactic punt YOURSELF MOTHERFUUUUUUUUUCK
number 2, 3/3. no explanation needed, literally just her shadow boss fight and the beauty pageant and her friendship with yukiko and her everything.
number 3... also 3/3. a lot of people give her flack for deciding she wants to be a cop, which i get because acab fuck yeah, but where adachi is a cop just to get attention and a gun, she actually intends to protect people. chie learns to help herself so she can help others... augh... AUGH CHIE I LOVE YOUUUUUU
ahem. number 4, 2/3. she's definitely a sweetheart and she seems fun to be around but i have to admit she's definitely a little annoying sometimes.
and now it's time for chie's bestest friend ever, yukiko amagi!!
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she gets a pity point for being a lesbian... not just a lesbian but one having a crush on a straight girl. we've all been there hunny bun. let's watch romcoms and eat ice cream together while crying ok?
number 1..... 3/3 fuck yeah my main healer always coming in clutch!!! after a certain point she stops being the main fire user and the player is supposed to take that role but then she has KICKASS HEALING ABILITIES!! support characters are always my favourites (which might foreshadow my rating for haru.......)
1/3 for number 2. that might sound harsh, but! but but but!
they kind of sucked the life out of her after her dungeon. the only real defining personality traits she has are in her social link, which is unfortunate because so many people hate it!
i don't hate yukiko. never
3 gets a 3. it's a good story actually, and like i said it helps me see yukiko as. like. a person. and a lot of people say it's bad writing that her story ends with her deciding she wants to manage the inn, but let me put a lot of emphasis on 'deciding'. she chose that path for herself after being told she was allowed to do what she likes, and y'know what? i don't think that's bad!
nobody likes being forced to do something. i know i struggled a lot with doing homework because i always felt trapped in those deadlines and expectations, but i didn't just give up on school. improving my grades was my own choice, and i realized that i had potential to change myself despite my situation and succeed! that's what yukiko's social link is about. not giving in to other people's expectations, but thriving in the environment you're given...
i just said i wanted to shorten everything and now i'm ranting. always number 4 is a 3/3 she's literally just a girl and her laughing thing is cute idgaf.
KANJI TATSUMIIIIIIIII
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subtracting a point for those shoes. get out.
number 1 is a 2/3. he was cool, but nobody ever compares to yosuke. i mainly used him for his physical skills rather than magic because yu took that role very easily, and when paired with teddie or yukiko he's just a boss. but he's not my favourite party member in the world
number 2, i'll be blunt, 1/3. WHAT THE FUCK DID THEY DO TO YOU MAN. we all saw how yosuke and everyone else and the whole damn story treated him. we all saw the line where he asked naoto to be femme so they could "make him a man". shut the fuck upppppp
number 3 is his saving grace. i know some people don't like that they never elaborated on the sexuality thing (or the... sexism..??) and i get that, having a character who's canonically mspec but only vaguely mentions it once and never again is really annoying and a half-assed attempt at representation. though i interpret his reconciliation with his sewing hobby, an aspect of him that everyone thinks is unmanly and should be shamed, as a metaphor for his own sexuality. similar to daisuke and soccer being a stand-in for his anxiety around romance and girls. in that case, it's a 3/3.
(plus there's the line "it's so cute it'll give you diabetes" and... kanji... *facepalm*)
number 4. he's cutie. a little weird, but cutie. 2/3
and now, a girl who needs no introduction.
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god my feelings for her are as mixed as my auntie's desert lasagna. ("let's mix it up," she says...)
i don't have anything against the navigators. they're pretty good. i say 3/3.
however i hate rise's writing. -4/3. negative numbers are cheating? I DON'T CARE!!
her dungeon is a STRONG start to her character, like with everyone else. i love rise reconciling with the fact that there is no "real me" and everyone has different sides of themselves that they need to make it through life... and the fact that it ties in with teddie's conflict of feeling hollow, like an alien or an impostor only pretending to be alive........ oh my god! hiiiiii!!!!! love it!
and then rise's main bit in the story is crushing on the protagonist.......... sigh.
i really really REALLY hate that about her actually. i really hate forced romances. and before you go calling me a hypocrite for liking souyo and not yurise even though souyo has the exact same amount of flirty moments between them, that's because those two are really subtle with each other and have a really good initial friendship to back it up and also ties in with their actual personalities.......???? (we can debate forever and ever if yu has a personality but i say he does. he's consistently portrayed in other adaptations and spinoffs. he's got so much in common with yosuke)
but rise just kind of sees yu and goes "hey handsome. killing shadows all by yourself?" and it's like eeeeeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhh.... 90% of the time she's on screen it's to flirt with yu and the other 10% is serious moments or when she's with anyone but yu. there's no moments where she gets to be casual and friendly with HIM, where we get to see DEPTH to their relationship, it's just purely flirting. and i hate that. so much. is this a one-night stand? no? then give me some actual fucking chemistry
and i feel like all of that smushing-dolls-together time takes away from a lot of genuine scenes with rise where she....... yk.... shows off her personality?
the hot springs and the trip to tatsumi port island are held dearly in my heart because rise DOES SHIT. she's silly and goofy and playful and maybe she says some stuff that's a little perverted but it's not to the yosuke degree. i like the idea that rise flirts with ALL of her friends, not just yu; it makes her feel like she's really part of the friend group, which is the investigation team's strongest suit.
rise and yukiko both have any personality ripped from them in favour of dumb bits that aren't even funny and that post of mine analyzing their dynamic during the school field trip is so everything guys they're so great as a duo i need to see more of them pleapelpslepalpelspes.......
...whoops. i ranted.
number 3 gets a 2/3. it's kind of just a rehash of what she learned in the main story, which is fine, but not ideal.
rise as a person is 3/3. absolute silliness all around. love her
KUMA KUMA KUMAAAAA
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look at this fucking guy. ridiculous. i hate him. he's so annoying and dumb and he sucks
3/3 on party member he's totally goated
3/3 on main story he makes me feel the whole spectrum of emotions and then some
his social link is automated so technically thats a 3/3 too
3/3 person he might be an annoying little shit but i have 2 younger cousins. i understand yosuke. it's endearing to me
teddie is peak. i would never punt him.
now............to.
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entirely honest, i'm on my second persona 4 playthrough to complete the social links i never finished and... naoto is one of those. so i will be unable to determine the rating for one of the factors. but luckily i'm not shit at math so it'll work out in the end
for 1...... honestly they're a good party member as well, but because i didn't get very far in their social link, i didn't unlock that ability where she's able to withstand a deadly blow meaning he would just be constantly dying. like. constantly.
but that's kind of the only thing i like about naoto. i have to rate their main storyline a 1/3. it's absolutely shit and the gender plottwist (ughh) is so badly done. i'm personally thinking up a rewrite for his character because i think they were onto something with the message about misogyny in the workplace but she's so SHITTILY executed that it's just muddied
naoto as a person is..... ok. 2/3. i don't find many things about her that exceptional or fun. i don't think about them often. if this were my rewrite of him it'd be waaaay deep down in the negatives because they are an ASSHOLE but i love them way more :3
and next is ryu.............uh........ actually, this is way too long. much too long than you probably anticipated... um... maybe i'll cut it short, make a part 2 later.
until next time........ on PERSONA'S PERILOUS PLAY OF PUNTING POTENTIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAL!
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mysterysnailsinc · 16 days
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my mystery snails laid eggs recently so I decided to brush up on my baby mystery snail husbandry knowledge. Previously, I hadn't done much research for over a year, and while I remember there being a handful of AI-generated garbage websites at the top sometimes, nothing could prepare me for just how much there was. literally everything on the first page of DuckDuckGo, and this is the search engine I migrated to to AVOID shit like this! dozens of copy-pasted, generic articles from blogs whose tone and design are all exactly the same. Luckily, I've kept my snails for long enough that I'm able to determine for myself what is and isn't true, and which websites are credible; but obviously this isn't the case for everyone. For anyone who has trouble sussing out AI-generated blog articles, here's a quick list of websites I deeply suspect are AI-generated and are not to be trusted:
-infishtank.com
-theaquaaadvisor.com
-aquariumfishcity.com
-aquariumsource.com
-theaquariumguide.com
-fishtankadvisor.com
-tankscaping.com
I have no definite proof that any of these are AI-generated (except for aquariumsource, whose site owner/editor admits to it on their LinkedIn), but they all share the same very obvious red flags and, even if not AI-generated, are not well-researched and frequently contain blatant errors, like telling baby mystery snail owners to give them salt to help them grow (infishtank.com - don't give snails salt as it will kill them).
I would suggest blacklisting these from your search engine, as well as any other dubious "blog" websites that grab you as fake. I only looked at a handful of these websites because I don't have time to comb through this bullshit thouroughly but if you guys know of any more aquarium husbandry websites like this PLEASE TELL ME SO WE CAN DESTROY THEM!!
the general features all of these websites seems to share were:
-poor grammar, blatant spelling mistakes, and strange and robotic prose; generally reads like an eighth grader's first draft of an english paper put poorly through a thesaurus
-created within the past few years (2023-2024 is a red flag, but some of these definitely cropped up in 2022, and shitty internet articles like this have been around forever even if they weren't fueled by ChatGPT).
-plain, generic, white website design with no distinguishing web design
-full of stock and widely-circulated forum images that either just show off the organism in question are or just kind of tangentially related.
-an impossible quantity of articles for a single person or small group who has only been writing for a couple years
-very conspicuous Amazon affiliate links
-information is repetitive and overgeneral, and facts involving numbers may change between paragraphs. often uses synonyms for words arbitrarily (like referring to mystery snails as Inca Snails or Apple snails for no good reason other than a helf-assed attempt to diversify the article's vocabulary).
-about and contact pages are circuitous and unhelpful to navigate
-author/owner/editor profiles don't seem like they're describing real people. The people themselves have only a first name, have a very common and hard-to-google name, or share a name with an obscure celebrity whose name isn't instantly recognizable to most but who have a lot of search-result-clogging articles written about them. Also, if their image is a damn stock photo with dozens of reverse image search results
-If there's contact info, it may include an email address (free to make and easy to ignore while giving the illusion of personal involvement) and/or a Facebook/pinterest account (if there is one, it's generally pretty generic and empty, mostly consisting of contextless links to their articles)
if you're doing aquarium research, here are some quick research tips:
-depend on forums and Reddit versus blogs, especially .com blogs
-be cautious of anything published within the last few years
-be conscious of whether or not the grammar and prose are "human," which is to say have a distinct tone, as well as whether or not the grammar is as polished as the credentials of the site should indicate (i.e., if the site looks professionally made, it shouldn't have glaring grammar mistakes. You can forgive grammar mistakes by forum contributors, as they're generally meant to be peers to the reader).
-if you're unsure about a website, look into the site's about and contact pages. Does the blog have a significant social media presence besides a practically empty Facebook/Pinterest? Do the owners and contributors seem like real people (remember, anyone who claims to have published work should appear in search result for their name and contextual information)? Does the physical address inexplicably listed in their contact page lead anywhere logical?
conclusion: living on the modern day internet is exhausting and stupid for anyone looking for information about... anything, really, but especially aquarium husbandry. and please rb/comment with other shitty websites for me so we can all blacklist them for next time we have to look something up.
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uptoolateart · 2 years
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Elite Symbolism in MLB
So, @raspberrycatapult was talking to me about all the recurrent butterfly symbolism in MLB - and the fact that all the buses in the show are the number 33 route when there is no such route in Paris - and both of us had noticed the giant 33 behind Kagami in the art room in ‘Lies’. She was pointing out all the single eye imagery in the show, too, which I’ll get to later - among many other motifs.
It was a fascinating conversation that I shared with my husband, who then brought up MKUltra, which I’d heard plenty about but I never really took in the finer details and certainly hadn’t applied them to my beloved cartoon.
As soon as I was thinking on this track, a zillion other things leapt out at me. They are so obvious once you get going, and I’m going to share some of them here. I bet more pops out as I watch the show, from here on out, but this is a quick starter guide.
Caveat
I am not in any way trying to sell you on a belief. Feel free to think everything I discuss here is ‘just conspiracy theory’. My sole point is that a) the creators of Miraculous are at least aware of the theory and b) they have very purposely integrated it into the show in order to propel their story and give weight to the characters. When we examine all these elements that have been embedded into this ‘children’s cartoon’, we see just how dark Adrien’s story, in particular, really is.
Gabriel
Let’s start with Gabriel’s name. It has always stood out to me, because it’s one of the archangels and a definite name of power. This archangel also happens to be held in high esteem in Freemasonry and other similar organisations.
Gabriel’s brand is just a giant G. ‘Oh, it looks like Gucci!’ Yeah. That, and the G of Freemasonry.
And you know that enormous essay I wrote about the symbolism of Gabriel dressing all in white now?? I left out the Masonic uniform of white - like their white apron. Think of Gabriel in the kitchen making those banana pancakes, in that white apron...or how about how the gloves, which simply are Masonic regalia gloves. You can buy them on Amazon, even.
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This is without even getting into the recurrence of the number 33, as mentioned at the start of this post. @raspberrycatapult​ even pointed out that in the original animatic of ‘Stormy Weather’, the bus was number 34, but it got changed in the final animation. You have to ask why a detail like that matters...and then a quick google search will tell you there are 33 degrees / levels in Masonry. And why put that number all big behind Kagami in ‘Lies’? Because she’s a subjugate just like Adrien.
Now, let’s look at Gabriel’s office, where he stands at a dais-like podium on an elevated platform, with his ‘subjects’ on sunken in seats that look like pews in a church or temple. The whole floor is checkerboard. We could also get into the sun imagery on the doors, but...honestly, we could go into a whole bunch of things and I’m finding it hard to know where to stop before this post turns into a novel.
Here’s the image...and below it, a Masonic lodge, for comparison. The image has been tinted blue for effect, but in reality, the checkboard would always be black and white, to signify the balance between opposite energies. And um...isn’t that the whole idea behind kwami energies and yin-yang pairs?
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I also want to note that Gabriel is positioned in a way that gives the impression of him being at the centre of two pillars. There are literally thousands of books written on the western / hermetic magical concept of ‘the middle pillar’, being the balancing way between two extremes. It also comes up in eastern beliefs, e.g. Buddhism.
In hermeticism, this is connected to the practice of cabala and therefore the Tree of Life, a structure built into just about every important building and painting all over Europe, America, and more. No, really. Remember they are called Masons for a reason - it began with builders, and they integrated their spiritual concepts into their work.
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As a tarot enthusiast, this structure is also embedded into almost every single card in any traditional deck. It’s a subject I could spend a lot of time on, but let’s move on.
Eyes
Getting back to the single eye imagery in the show, @raspberrycatapult was pointing out, for example, the eyes on Emilie’s painting, and even pyramids in the design they took from the original inspiration.
I'm getting at this classic image of the Eye of Providence, of course:
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@raspberrycatapult pointed out Marinette’s single eye peeking through the box when she looked into the room where everyone was dancing in masks, in ‘Gabriel Agreste’.
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And like...we all agree that whole party was creepy as hell...right?? As soon as I saw it, I thought ‘rich weirdo cult!’ It was so obvious that Ms Tsurugi must be in on Gabriel’s plans. I was excited to see this proven in season 5. I’m still waiting to be proven right that the Bourgeois are in on it, too, at least to some degree. And come on. The Bourgeois?? It’s a reference to an entire class of society.
I then got to thinking: peacock feathers are known for looking like they have one eye. And whoever uses the peacock miraculous to transform ends up having one eye covered, in their costume, e.g. with a veil. And thinking of Ms Tsurugi again...she’s blind and then can see, when akumatised.
It also helps to remember that we’re all waiting for unveilings / unmaskings in this show, from all directions. We’re waiting for people to see the truth. Makes you think of the names of the first two episodes of Season 4....
Monarch
And now we get super dark.
MKUltra was an illegal CIA experiment begun in 1958 and supposedly concluded, although there are plenty of people who believe it continues to this day. Again - I’m not saying it does or doesn’t. I’m only stating that there is a definite record of it happening in the 1950s and that there are people out there who don’t think it stopped.
MKUltra was a series of experiments in human mind control, a summary of which can be read about here. There’s also this video from the BBC and a zillion other things. Be warned - this is a rabbit hole you can easily fall into for hours.
Very briefly: ‘In the early days of the Cold War, the CIA ordered the creation of a secret programme intended to find ways of mind control. They funded an army of psychiatric institutions across the United States and Canada to perform experiments on patients using psychedelic drugs, sensory deprivation, electroshock treatment and more.’
The point my husband made, which I was not aware of, was that part of MKUltra was something called ‘the Monarch Project’. Again, a mind control and subjugation experiment.
Now, without stating the obvious, let’s think about things like the akumas. Adrien and those rings. Sentimonsters. Every single thing Gabriel does, in or out of costume, is a form of mind control, and he has programmed it into Adrien via his home and even the clothes he wears. This is what gets Marinette thinking perhaps Gabriel is the villain. Adrien doesn’t want to believe it because he wants to trust. Everyone wants to trust the adults / authority figures in their lives. But for the heroes of Miraculous, this trust will be broken.
I’m also brought back to ‘Mega Leech’, when the miniature copies of Mayor Bourgeois crawled into people’s heads and controlled what they said. It has always stuck out at me as allegory for brainwashing - grooming people so much that you get them to preach your propaganda for you. This is what Gabriel does with all his victims, too. He’s not the one out there, doing the damage. He gets in other people’s heads and has them do it for him.
We’ve also seen other instances of this with villains like Despair Bear and Puppeteer. This is...a subject that could take up thousands of words. You get what I’m saying.
Adrien / Cat Noir
If you look into this stuff, you come across a lot of detail about something called ‘the beta kitten’, which is a form of sexual programming. In fact, it literally involves grooming someone into having a ‘cat alter’.
Honestly...you could read so much about it and all the ways it gets applied to celebrities such as Britney Spears. Don’t even get me started on the Britney thing. If that kind of thing can happen in the 21st century, we really need to re-think how ‘far we’ve come’.
Anyway. Part of this involves a lot of repeating imagery and symbols, the way hypnosis and neuro-linguistic programming work. Symbols that appear in tons of promotional photographs, music videos, etc. Symbols like...collars and bells, mirrors and reflections.
Again, I’m not selling you the theory - you’re free to make up your own mind about it. But I’ve said so many times that Cat Noir is fully decked out in bondage gear, right down to his collar and bell. And this is for a reason - he is in bondage. He is enslaved.
I also said in a previous post that Kagami’s name is Japanese for ‘mirror’. There’s all the doubling between Adrien and Felix, Chloe and Zoe, Adrien and his AI replica, each character and their superhero or supervillain alter(s), etc. Again...we could be here all day, listing examples.
What does it all mean??
That’s a good question! I’ll leave it to you to decide. At the very least, it means that Gabriel and his cronies have been designed to represent something darker than we usually discuss. They are authority figures who abuse their fame and power to the highest degree, bringing to mind all the news stories we keep hearing about, for instance, people in Hollywood being accused of years of sexual assault.
Adrien being a model...again, I just think of child stars like Britney Spears, who, like Adrien, was completely owned by her own father. He controlled everything she did, using her to make his millions and having her declared insane so he could continue to control her after she turned 18. Let’s not get into just how disgusting her story is. My heart bleeds for her and others like her, and I’ll leave it at that.
But it’s not all doom and gloom. Miraculous is all about breaking free of mind control and programming. Alya, Nino and Chloe all managed to reject the akumatisation. Marinette did it, too, with the help of Cat Noir. I suppose you could say that in most cases, love broke the spell. That’s what we need to hold onto.
There’s a lot about throwing off the masks and revealing the truth. Adrien’s definitely on his way to breaking free of the ring and overthrowing his father, which will be him overthrowing the mind control and being his own person.
So, I suppose you could take a positive message from all of this and say it speaks of hope. We live in a world where it’s hard to know who is selling us truth and who is selling lies - where we live our lives in public and are often on camera, from CCTV to selfies - where the Internet is teeming with ‘influencers’ and targeted advertising, and ‘smart’ devices really can track us and collect data the way the Alliance can. (The Alliance. Even that name...!)
But every one of us has the power to make up our own minds about things and be our own person. Every one of us has the power to throw off the collar and bell and simply be.
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anamazingangie · 9 months
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House of the Dragon : Stills / Screen-cap Resources
Making this mostly for my discord as per usual, but some people have asked me where I get my files for edits. not tagging this with anything since the more people who know about these, the more they will be targeted for takedown...but i'd like other fans to enjoy them as much as i have, too.
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Stills: [these are photographs taken during production rather than images pulled from footage, so they tend to be higher quality and have better lighting without the various filters]
Section of Randomess is amazing - free, no ads, great quality, easy to download, but does not update frequently.
Warner Brothers Media very well organized, search by episode, date, etc. all very official as they literally make the show. however these are intended for use in press releases, and you need to have a press account to download the files. still, you can look at all the previews.
MovieStillsDB updates very frequently, has the largest collection of images released by official sources spanning all the various international hbo media accounts. you do need an account to download, and credits, but the most "expensive" credit packages still come out to less than 10c per a photo.
Kinorium this kind of has everything in one place which is nice, but the quality is lower. i usually use it to find an image i like, then right click and 'search image in google' to find a higher resolution version. stills gallery [kinorium]
poster gallery [kinorium]
promo gallery [out of costume] [kinorium]
they have tabs for BTS photos and screenshots too, but they are very incomplete.
Stock photo websites i am CHEAP and these are EXPENSIVE so i don't have a lot to say about them, but the big ones like shutterstock and almay usually have a selection of high resolution images too.
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Posters: [branded promotional material to build hype]
Cinematerial i think this is the sister site to moviestills, similarly you can browse everything but need credits to download, and they have the same pricing system. still it's pretty great because they have every variant of each poster including international ones, and they offer very high resolution copies.
also, see above for poster gallery [kinorium]
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Screencaps: images pulled ['captured'] from the episodes
there are probably dozens or even hundreds of sites with screencaps, but my favorites have been these two
Cap-That very thorough caps from every episode that can be viewed and downloaded individually in 4K, or downloaded in zips for each episode in standard HD.
and i do mean very thorough. each episode has on average four thousand images.
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comparatively the zips from another site [lostintimegraphics] have about one thousand images per an episode.
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what makes them "special" in addition to few ads (comparatively) is that they brighten the thumbnails on each page, a MUST to see wtf is going on in some parts, given how dark the show is.
when you click on the thumbnail and download the file, it is unfiltered/as appears in show, it just makes it easier to find the file you want instead of wading through a sea of black thumbnails.
So-Obsessed i think this is managed by a single person and i give them MAJOR props for that. they not only have 4k screencaps of HotD, but also every episode of Game of Thrones.
they are sorted by episode, there is no download a zip option, only individual files. they also have a stills gallery. there are no ads, which is wonderful.
the only reason i prefer cap-that is because they have 3x times the number of images for each page. despite both sites being comparably thorough, on so-obsessed there are 120 pages for episode two, and on cap-that there are 40.
you also can't right click/open in new tab/download images, you have to use their toolbar. it's well designed, just slower for me who is accustomed to the other method.
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ok, am done. if you're wondering why the fuck anyone would want screencaps or stills, personally *i* like using them for edits to entertain me in the offseason, see here.
what other people do with them...that's between them and god.
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gallavich-headcanon · 2 years
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hello, my head is empty and i saw a baby bird on my dashboard, cue
mickey finding an egg in ians garden one day when ian asks him to water the plants (ian has to stay a little longer at work but insists at watering the garden at the same time every day)
at first he isnt sure what to do, he should probably leave it be right? but then again what if some animal takes it and eats it or something? it doesnt look like any egg hes seen before so he takes to google, searches by image and comes up with the conclusion that it must be a northern cardinals egg (i checked and its a common red bird in chicago)
he takes the egg inside and after making a very diy nest in a shoebox goes back to google
i can see it so clearly - mickey researching everything there is to know about caring for an egg, not even intentionally it just kind of happens. one second hes just trying to make sure on the type of bird its supposed to be and the next hes checking craigslist for heat lamps
i cant decide whether or not mickey would tell ian right away. maybe hed be embarassed, try to hide it for a while? or would he be so busy reading about caring for an egg he doesnt even notice ians back home until its too late to even think about hiding it?
its something that unexpectedly becomes so very important to mickey, lets him explore his more delicate side in a way that he never has the chance to before. a small step towards warming up to being a parent, perhaps?
idk where i was going with this, my brain literally just saw a baby bird and thought mickey
thoughts?
also it could go either way, aprox. 14 days pass and the egg hatches everyone is happy and either they keep the bird until it can safely leave or they keep it as a "pet" of sorts or the egg doesnt hatch at all but ian convinces mickey that they could get another egg, buy it from someone that cares for birds or something just so they know for sure that that one will hatch
(thats a more "angsty" approach - mickey thinking he did something wrong, is overwhelmed with emotions he doesnt understand. its emotions he never gave himself the chance to process, a lot of things that hes had bottled up for years - the egg not hatching acting as the straw that broke the camels back)
xx
Mickey finding an egg in the garden is such a funny idea!
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(I googled it for y'all)
(i checked and its a common red bird in chicago) -> hahah I appreciate the research!
One second hes just trying to make sure on the type of bird its supposed to be and the next hes checking craigslist for heat lamps -> Listen, he's a go big or go home kind of guy. No in between. He's so cute though! trying to take care of the egg.
I cant decide whether or not mickey would tell Ian right away. -> I think he would be embarrassed but way more concerned for the egg, that he comes clean right away! He's worried about the egg! He needs help. Ian can laugh at him later but he needs someone to keep it warm while he googles more things.
idk where i was going with this, my brain literally just saw a baby bird and thought mickey -> me with every single thing that happens to me lol
NO TO THE ANGST I WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO HANDLE MICKEY BEING HEARTBROKEN BY A DEAS BABY BIRD.
I want it to hatch, and Mickey would take care of it, until it's read to leave. Mickey would be extremely sad when the bird leaves but at least it's healthy and happy. When Ian asks him if he wants to get a bird / pet, Mickey declines. These were the most stressful 3 weeks of his life, he's exhausted. The keep a picture Ian took of Mickey and the egg/bird on the fridge.
I have so many feelings about Mickey and that egg.
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taeminscoconuthead · 2 years
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Hey so I made a script for a video and I want you to read to see if it’s good!
Imagine you was just minding your own business one random day, when you suddenly get a notification on your phone that Stray Kids’s Leader Bang Chan has past away at age 25. You’d feel devastated, alongside with all of his fans. Your bias just passed away and there’s nothing you could do about it. You’re seeing all the other K-pop fans with biases that are still alive and yet, yours are dead — never to wake up from his slumber again. You’d be grieving over what you would conceive as your loved one, since all you did was looked him until his very last breath.
Now, Stray Kids had to continue as 7. It would be a difficult number to grasp, but that’s the reality. There’s no more Bang Chan, and Woojin ain’t going to fill out this void — nor would he even be enough to take his place anyways. It’s already a hard thing to deal with, not seeing your bias in group photos anymore or even hearing him in songs. I want to ask you a simple question, does that feel nice to you?
But wait, here’s the catch.
Imagine now you just want to chat with people about the funny things Chan has done such as the infamous “you know what else is big” quote just for you to be stopped and be said “please don’t mention him.” What you said wasn’t even that disrespectful, you just wanted to say something that makes you smile, a harmless quote that has always made others feel good after a bad day.
Now you’re on YouTube. You just want to cleanse that horrible interaction by finding some funny clips of him, just to find his funeral videos being bombed to your face. It’s even unescapable — Tiktok, Instagram, Twitter and even Google Images. Speaking of Google Images, you can’t even search Chan’s name up without his death being plastered everywhere you go — even if you manage to find an innocent video would be enough to find the grieving comments sharing their RIPs to the late idol. Trust me, it isn’t just that post, but it’s nearly every single post that involves Chan in it.
Few months later, you had finally stopped crying for a day and decided to be more positive to continue this streak, so you go on social media and post something that you loved about Bang Chan — just for you to get harassing messages telling you to take down this post because “it’s disrespecting a dead man” and “how you should let him rest in peace.”
Now let me tell you again, does that feel nice to you? Me either, but this is what Jonghyun stans have to deal with every single day. We’re constantly harassed whilst having to go through the trauma process of losing our bias. We’re continually told not to do this or that and it’s giving us headaches.
Now let me tell you something, when will this end? Instead of telling us to let him rest in peace for literally making an appreciation post, when will you allow us to finally have our rest to mourn in our own way. This process isn’t as easy as you think, and people harassing us is making it even harder. That’s why we still have blingers that are still in recovery and haven’t yet gotten over it. Especially with the way he left this earth, you should especially be sensitive to us Shawols since maybe even some of them would think that it was their fault that he was dead.
Let this video be a reminder of the things that Shawols have to go through all the time and please be more gentle to those that are still healing.
Ayyy this is actually good and it also pictures how most of us feel. I like it, I think you should keep this as a script! (Btw I’m putting it as vent so it can separate from the other posts)
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theinconveniencing · 2 years
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soo. review on the son of neptune?
I’ve been thinking about this ask ever since I got it and like. I don’t think I really have a review? like I’ll be honest. there were a Lot of times when I realized I had been zoned out (Very invested in candy crush) for like five minutes and instead of going back and relistening to it I just moved on and figured it probably wasn’t important. which it wasn’t because I think I followed the book just fine. I liked it well enough but that just may be my seattle goggles. they literally rode orion across the puget sound like !!! my main thought is that the book generally just lacked emotion I guess. like there isn’t anything you could do to make me give a fuck about frank and hazel. aside from the whole. um. 13 and 16 thing it’s like I don’t CARE you know. and the whole ordeal with percy getting his memory back was something I was anticipating for the whole book and when we finally got to that point it was so like. okay. I think what made it fall so flat was that we never really got to Feel percy’s eight month or whatever absence because the lost hero followed characters who didn’t even know him. and from percy’s perspective it should have been Huge to him that he had missed such a large chunk of his life but he was like. okay not Super casual about it but MY percy would have been losing his shit trying to get back to all his pals and shitting his pants excited when that ship or whatever started to land. his little reunion with tyson was also so :/ and I’m a tyson GIRL. as for characters I think ovtavian is really silly and I hope he continues to stay somewhat relevant. frank is so boring to me sorry I dont care he’s a little silly but boring and the fucker is constantly throwing himself a pity party like dude shut UP. also. I shan’t say it again you already know. reyna seems cool but we don’t know much about her yet and I know we will but I’m excited for that. ella the harpy slayed idc every time she showed back up I cheered that’s not a joke. HAZEL horse girl of the century I love her sm. I’m still at the stage with her where I’m just rotating her around in my head give me a couple business days. hazel related thought but how are sammy and leo the same person. like they didn’t even say he looked really similar they said he was the same person. like is this important at all. like who cares? was it done for shock value? are identical twins involved? all I know is that my friend leo “bust a lugnut” valdez certainly didn’t grow up in the 1930s and 40s. overall this book was fine but they literally visited seattle and nico seems like he may actually become plot relevant soon. aside from raising hazel from the dead. one final note I lied when I said I followed the book fine I have quite literally no clue how camp jupiter operates every time they talked about some sort of hierarchal or structural thing in relation to the camp I was like fucking what are you talking about. actually I lied THIS is the final note. there are WAY too many goddamn characters to follow like rick I’m sorry but if you introduce a single new character or monster or villain or whatever I won’t be able to handle it. I’m sure if I was a greek mythology girlie I would be having a much better time with this but I’m not so I don’t know what the fuck any of the monsters are and I have to google image search them every time.
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zoey-angel · 9 days
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Okay so. I hate AI profoundly. I think the ability of AI to steal art, faces, voices and generate images and deepfake is deeply disturbing and probably dystopian in the long run. BUT.
Literally like. Chat GPT is a good tool. It's not good for people who don't know how to fact check, because it's flawed, and can be stupid + make mistakes and insist on them. But if you make the extra step of, I dunno, thinking for yourself? Verifying the info with google? You can use it and it'll help you.
The fact that some lawyer asked chatgpt to defend their client and it came up with bullshit is the lawyer's fault. That's not how you use chatgpt... The lawyer should have asked "what does the law say about x in my state" And then ask for specific passes supporting the answer, and THEN go OPEN THE PASSES which are available online. Read around them as well, look for loopholes etc, and for his own defense.
Chatgpt should've been used as a librarian, finding what could be useful for his case, to save him from having to flip through countless law files in search of anything relevant!
Maybe to expand on that, ask chatgpt if there are any past similar cases he can refer to, and then look them up online to verify chatgpt wasn't making shit up, and actually read all that is to be read on those 😵‍💫
The greatness of the AI here is not that it can create stuff, rather that it can look for things for you.
I recently used it in a paper. For what, you ask? Shakespearean literature. I wanted to draw examples from the text, but, I don't have every scene from every single shakespearean play in my head? And I didn't want to google "list of x demonstrated in plays by Shakespeare" because firstly that's a niche search, secondly if I did find someone else's summary and drew exactly their examples it would feel like plagiarism, thirdly because there's no promise google would come up with an extensive list, and unlikely google, I could tell chatgpt "how about ones where x ends in y?" And it gave those to me right away.
So... I went and opened the plays, where chatgpt said I could find my examples, and lo and behold they were there. I read over the scenes again, and chose what was relevant for my paper. Perfect!
Did I ask chatgpt to write me the entire paper? No. That's not how you use chatgpt.
I use chatgpt for programming too, because anyone who wants me to start diving into stackoverflow for a Hunan's explanation of the syntax I should use in my particular function, doesn't understand even remotely how time consuming that can be. If I need to build a program with x y z f g m l k and something that makes sure there's no overflow and another thing that checks if the input is valid and ANOTHER which reacts if it isn't valid and- no. How many hours am I meant to spend googling? I won't.
Instead of all that, I ask chatgpt what a function checking x would look like in my programming language, and then gently guide and correct it. "What if the input is over y bits?" "How do I do the same thing for strings?" "Oh you shifted the string left here. Why?" Etc. Then I run the code in VS and it's fine! It works.
In some time I'll be less of a noob, I'm still learning how to code... So far I know a manageable amount of python and C, but C is HARD aight? And so is fucking assembly which I'm forced to study for uni. I'm also occasionally required to work with matlab, rarely java or html, all of which I NEVER studied, and I can't start pulling all of it out of my ass directly, I need some coaching which chatgpt does.
Tl;dr great tool, people don't know how to use it. It's a screwdriver people are trying to hammer nails with.
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inapat17 · 3 months
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Why did I watch Little miss sunshine - Valerie Faris, Jonathan Dayton (2006) – for the forty-thousandth time?
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Recently I had a really bad day. Who has not. After I ate pasta, I had only one idea: I wanted to watch Little miss sunshine. Looking at the film, it was the same as I remember. I cried at the same time and I thought “Steve Carell is really one of the best drama actors” then I cried when the whole family is pushing the van all together and again at the end of the movie. Watching it again validated my analysis of the film: this van is just like life, some times we are not enough to push it. That is why we need our loved ones, to help us pushing it when we can not ourself. Of course, anyone of them is perfect, Paul Dano’s character: Dwayne will never achieve his dream, Frank just wants to die, Richard is losing has no job and Sheryl tries to be the best supportive wife and the best mother at the same time but it is impossible. But at least, the family is together and the most wonderful thing is that they can be ridiculous together. At the center of it all there is Olive, the real sunshine with her hopeless smile. It is a movie about hope and love. So, it is what I can say about the film when I try to criticize it. This film is one of my comfort films. A comfort film is a movie you go to when you really need some joy. It can be any kind of movie or any movie at all. I know that in my comfort films there is Texas Chainsaw Massacre, the two Paddington’s movies, the two Gremlins’ movies or the other movie I talked about in my articles: Conan the Barbarian and Pirates of the Caribbean. A comfort movie can even be a guilty pleasure, to me it is Batman and Robin from Joel Schumacher, I love the kitsch of the movie. Watching comfort films I experience different types of feelings: I want to find the emotions I have experienced during my first viewing, or I want to experiment my thesis on a movie, or I just want to have fun, or I just want to cry… Then, when I watch it again, I experience many feelings but at the end I always end up better than I was. But I still have a question: why do I go back to these films over and over, again and again?
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              Because I could not answer on my own, I have ended up on Google Scholar, searching for research papers on the matter. I had not a single result that interested me: they were all about the comfort of glasses when you look at a movie. Funny, but not what I wanted.
              That is why I have simply googled “Comfort film research”. Guess what? I have found something! I have first found an article from the North Harford High School saying that: [1]“Psychologists have suggested that those who are especially prone to illness such as anxiety or depression find comfort in rewatching a film, rather than processing new information while watching something new.”. It means that our brain is venomous and likes what he knows. Then, I continued my research, because I thought it was a little bit to easy. That is when I found Sohni Kaur’s thesis entitled The comfort watch: psychology and media theory perspectives on nostalgia and film[2]. According to Kaur the reason we go back to the same film is anxiety and depression but also nostalgia. Nostalgia comes from the Latin nostos – homecoming – and algos – pain –, it literally means a pain a person lives when they can not go home. But films seem to be a pharmakon (the remedy and the poison) to nostalgia. Indeed, it is the remedy because a film is an image fixed on a support but it is also a poison because a film is a linear media, then if you want to watch it again you must watch it from the beginning. You can not always go back to the memory because you need something to watch it. In psychology, there can not be nostalgia if there is no memory even if a memory can exist without nostalgia. Nostalgia lives through a memory; it is the feeling to go back to the memory you once lived. Then, when we are sad, we might feel a little bit nostalgic and it is why we watch for the umpteenth time the same movie. Kaur says “Now, media is not only the trigger for nostalgia, but the place where it manifests (Kalinina, 2016). Media is a prime habitat for nostalgia to manifest as it “mediate[s] collective and individual experiences” (Kalinina, 2016, p. 12)”. We are rarely alone in a movie theater and each person in the audience is going to live a different experience while the movie is the same. When I talk about nostalgia, the first that comes to my mind is Edgar Wright’s Last night in Soho (2022) in which a woman goes back to the sixties and is being haunted by another girl from that time.  I am afraid of nostalgia because I feel that it is like wanting something that we can never have back. But perhaps nostalgia is a copying mechanism to get out of the sadness that we are in? Derida says about cinema that it is the art of ghost. We all get nostalgic just seeing a dead actor on screen. Like when I see a movie with Belmondo, I experience pain because I will never be able to tell him how much he gives to me. In Steven Spielberg’s The Fabelmans the mother tells her son that a movie is “a dream that you never forget”. Then it is nostalgic at its core. Cinema is a nostalgic art, trying to put back into the present a past that has been filmed to be shown in the future. Time is fleeting with cinema as it makes us all a little bit more nostalgic.
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              I might stop asking myself why I go back to this film. It is just that I need it to feel when I cannot. After all, perhaps nostalgia can help me pushing my van? That is why comfort movies and comfort art are so important, it what makes us human. If we fail or have a bad, I know that this nostalgic candy will still be the same and will make me feel as I need. And you? What is your comfort films list? Don’t be shy to share it!         
[1] Rewatch and relax; Psychology behind comfort films ; Madison Fetherston ; April 27, 2021 ; https://cryofthehawk.org/entertainment/2021/04/27/rewatch-and-relax-psychology-behind-comfort-films/
[2] The comfort watch: psychology and media theory perspectives on nostalgia and film ; Sohni Kaur ; 2021 ; https://scholarship.claremont.edu/cgi/viewcontent.cgi?article=2772&context=scripps_theses
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meglyfer · 8 months
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I just saw some very upsetting shit and I gotta talk about it
(Vent) (Kinda long because I'm complaining about like three different things at once)
You guys don't get to talk about history of my country if you have absolutely no idea about it The dictatorship of 1976 was something led by POLITICAL IDIOLOGY, NOT RACE. BOTH THE SOLDIERS doing atrocities AND THE VICTIMS of said atrocities were white, black, morenos, any colour in between I'm forgetting, and it takes LESS THAN TEN MINUTES of Google search to know this. Not only you can check what were the reasons behind the coup, but also, if you look up for pictures of the victims, you'll see how a lot of them were WHITE (This is because the most affected province was Buenos Aires, province which also recieved the most amount of Europeans immigrants) Don't you ever again dare talk about Argentinian history without doing even the most minimal research about it. I don't want you to speak the name of my country when you have clearly NO IDEA what you're talking about
Also, while I'm at it, would you guys quit it with the "Argentina is a n4zi paradise" crap? We are literally the third country with the biggest Jewish population "bUt, BuT, wHaT aBoUt PeRóN fOrGiVinG n4zI sOlDiErS" PERÓN WAS JUST ONE MAN WHO DIED 50 YEARS AGO HE DOES NOT SPEAK FOR ALL OF US, AND EVEN IF HE DID, IT'S BEEN 52 YEARS SINCE HE'S BEEN PRESIDENT, I AM PRETTY SURE THE POPULATION WOULD HAVE CHANGED ITS MIND IN ALL THAT TIME "bUt PeOpLe vOtEd fOr HiM" AND SAID PEOPLE REALISED HE WAS A N4ZI AFTER HE BECAME PRESIDENT, DUMBASS
IF YOU GUYS WANNA HATE ON ARGENTINIANS SO BADLY, THEN EITHER FIND A GOOD REASON FOR IT, OR JUST DO IT, BUT DON'T MAKE UP SHITTY EXCUSES TO JUSTIFY YOUR HATE WHEN YOUR STUPID ARGUMENTS CAN BE DEBUNKED IN LESS THAN A MINUTE, AND THE ONLY THING YOU'RE DOING IS HURTING THE IMAGE OF US TO EVERYONE ELSE'S EYES I SURE AS HELL DON'T LIKE BEING CALLED A N4ZI FOR WHAT A MAN, THAT I DON'T EVEN AGREE WITH, AND DIED EVEN BEFORE MY MOM WAS BORN, DID SAID OR THINK IN HIS TIME ALIVE AND I DO NOT LIKE BEING CALLED RACIST FOR FALSE INFORMATION ABOUT ONE OF MOST PAINFUL CHAPTERS OF MY COUNTRY'S HISTORY EITHER
OH, OH, AND ALMOST FORGOT ABOUT IT NO, YOU STUPID FUCK, JUST BECUASE WE ARE WHITE DOESN'T MEAN WE ARE GRINGOS, OR EUROPEAN, OR ANY SHIT LIKE THAT. WE ARE STILL LATINOS DESPITE OUR SKIN TONE, BECAUSE, GUESS WHAT, YOUR SKIN TONE DOESN'T DEFINE WHETHER IF YOU ARE LATINO OR NOT I KNOW, SOMETHING COMPLETELY MINDBLOWING FOR YOUR INSIGNIFICANT BRAIN AMERICANS APPARENTLY HAVE I was born, raised and lived my whole life in Argentina, a lationamerican country. My parents, grandparents and grandgrandparents were too. We face the same struggles as other latinoamerican countries, like poverty, corruption, insecurity, and a million other things. We share part of out history and culture with them, while also having our own. Not to mention that we meet the most important requirement to be part of LATAM, which is the geografical location of the country I am so fucking tired of brain dead people saying that we Argentinians are not latinos because we are white. I am so sorry for not having the exact same skin tone that you expect from your stereotypical Mexican character in Hollywood movies who is there to make fun of Mexican people, but just because I don't match your biased expectations it doesn't mean that I am less latino than someone from Perú, for example (Mando amor a toda la banda peruana, los quiero 😘) I thought we had made it clear that LATAM is a place with very diverse culture and people. We have people of all shapes and colours, metaphorically and literally speaking, why are you surprised some of us are white??? Not to mention that the vision of "All Argentinians are white" comes from just viewing BUENOS AIRES. CLEARLY YOU HAVEN'T MET A SINGLE PERSON THAT ISN'T FROM CAPITAL FEDERAL, THERE ARE WAY MORE PEOPLE OF COLOUR ONCE YOU LEAVE THAT PLACE
Summary: I fucking hate people who talk shit about my country and people when they barely even know how our flag looks like 😋
VIVA ARGENTINA CARAJO 💥💥💥 LPM, NO PUEDO PONER EL EMOJI DE LA BANDERA ARGENTINA EN LA COMPU YA FUE, LE MANDO UNA IMAGEN ENTERA
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yogodyolive · 3 years
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I’m. Sick. Of. These. Fucking. Kpop. Stans. BULLSHIT. -A note from Sadie Mercenary
 Ok.
 So we all know about the fucking dumb ass Kim Woojin and the NCT/WayV Lucas Wong controversies, right? How, people went from idolizing them to hating everybody associated to them, right? How, the same people, the people who onced IDOLIZED and WORSHIPPED them, began to burn their fucking merch? Send them fucking DEATH THREATS, Even?
 Do people even realize that the same “Victims” have been known to do some shady ass bullshit WAY back before these rumors?
 First, poor Kim Woojin.  (i’m going to make one about Lucas tommorow or so, whenever I have free time, because, SIR, I have a LOT to Say aboUT THAT, wHy YES INdeED)
 Now, the second Stray Kids debuted, he’s been a target to their hate. There is still evidence to this day of petitions, threats, and so on all about how badly they hate Woojin, Woojin doesn’t deserve to live, Woojin’s too fat, a shitty singer, he has no worth, blah, blah, blah. He has had to deal with this fucking hate for a really long fucking time now.
 Then, all of a sudden, when he’s about to re-debut as a soloist or he was still in Stray Kids, leave me alone i’m raining my wrath on the inconsiderate these fucking shitty ass accusations were started against him. 
 Mind you, these started out as accusations that he had sexually harassed some female’s, while at at bar. That’s how this all started, Right? I USED to have a friend (past tense, thank god) who believed the accusations with all her naive little heart.
 Now, how does this relate to Kim Woojin, you may ask?
 Well if you asked her about Kim Woojin, she would proudly state how he is a rapist, a pedofile can’t spell for SHIT, how he raped some 12 y/o fan, got her pregnant, raped Lee Felix, (and Han Jisung), and is friend with Tony/George Lopez.
 And I did NOT makeup a single. fucking. thing.
 You see, people have this tendicy. Once they hear about something, they themselves feel SO left out, they also have to join in. 
 People who have never even met Woojin have claimed; “Oh, he’s done this,”  “He did this,”  “I know something else that he did,” and have done it so much, that people don’t stop to think, 
 “Is it true?”  “Is their PROOF actually creditable?” “Is there any possible way that this could have happened, or is just another slimy-ass lie to ruin another idols lives for their own entertainment?”   They don’t actually stop to actually check the facts, look at the other side of the argument, to look at what’s really been going on BEHIND the scenes. And these are the people that make me mad.
 There has been several posts my by these “victims” claiming that “Woojin raped me,” “He bullied his members,” so on and so forth. They love taking the clip of Woojin bowing down along with the rest of Skz, and hitting Lee Know with his elbows, but hate adding what happened literally right after: Woojin iddmediantly standing up to apologize to Minho, to make sure he was alright.
 What about the clips of “Oh, WoOjIn HiTtInG fEliX,” but not the corresponding scene, where it shows Woojin getting up at light speed to squish Felix to death, right after making sure he is okay?  “Oh, well, what about him harassing people in the bars? You can’t prove he didn’t do that.”      Actually, I really can.
 You see the very first THE ORIGINAL CLAIM, people talked about how Woojin had harassed her and her female friends in a bar. As her proof, she proceeds to upload a picture with it saying that it is ‘Woojin’s arm in a sweater he was seen wearing in the exact same day’ Your literally accusing someone of attempted rape, plus sexual harassment, so you upload a sweater as proof? Guurrlll...
 Anyways... If you go on Google and do reverse- image search on the said uploaded picture she uses as “proof”, you WILL FIND (people, if you don’t believe me, just do this yourself) that the picture she post was actually stolen from a man who really posted it something like a few years prior.
 Hmmph... a little, SUSPICIOUS, aren’t we now, Sweety Now, the man who posted it was obviously pissed off at the fact that he had hundreds of DM’s from Kpop Stan Twitter,   all asking why he had the picture.
HOW DARE YOU HAVE A PICTURE POSTED A FEW YEARS AGO THAT SOME THIRTEEN Y/O IS USING AS OUR EVIDENCE TO CANCEL WOOJIN?!?!?! YOU UNHOLY PEICE OF SHI-
Obviously, he confirmed that, indeed, this was HIS origianl pic, and to stop harassing him. Because now his entire feed is NCT Johnny from that one clip when he went shirtless and I don’t he can handle it, because omgolly, have you SEEN this man’s abs it should be a sin to be that HOT i mean wait what am I even saying right now like what the fuck  abjskfskfskf Honestly, their only peice of evidence wasn’t even accurate, so like?
Now, my favorite part about this, is how several of the original victims have admitted to these accusations being fake.  One of them has even went on to litteraly saying: paraphrasing people, obviosuly, ain’t got time to accuratly quote these lowlifes “Oh, hey, sorry, but I made it (the allegations) up for clout, and for fun, their not true, I was bored, I never liked Woojin, and saw someone else made one up, so I thought that doing the same would be fun.”
Yeah.... I rest my case.
In the end, people will do what ever they can to harm whoever they feel like, just because they want to, and I literally do not understand these people. Many of the rumors and shit have been proved to be invalid and fabricated. People have even hired literal detectives or whatever and shiz to have even more proof that this is FABRICATED and FALSE.  Could you people please, PLEASE, go get a life?You do know that he is innocent? several of the so-called "victims" have admitted to faking the accusations against him, plus several people have also exposed these liars for fabricating their evidence, plus the "victims faking it. Please, don't be an idiot.
also, please don’t read the tags
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uvobreakmylegs · 4 years
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This one might get a sequel but I’m not sure yet
Bodyswap Soulmate AU
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Warnings: gore, graphic depictions of violence, threats of violence, kidnapping
It was like something out of a horror movie.
Several men lay before you in a darkened room, pieces of their bodies – their heads even – completely gone, the marks that were left around the gaping wounds that had an odd white glow to them, akin to something having taken a bite out of them.
Something like the fish that swam in the air above you.
A million questions flew through your mind, of what the hell this was; who these people were; how was there no blood despite the obvious carnage - you were literally just in the bathtub, how did you even get here?! Then you remembered that humans needed to breathe in order to live, and your lungs hadn't taken in anything since this nightmare scenario started.
You let out a breath, and along with it escaped a small, sad whimpering noise as you tried to process the scene in front of you. And then you froze again.
“What....”
You were speaking, but the words that were coming out of your mouth were not in your voice.
For the first time, you looked down at your body.
This was not your body.
You were in the body of a pale, bare-chested man wearing a long black trench-coat with fur on the lining, holding a book in one hand.
Your discovery was so jarring that you almost forgot about the men and the fish.
“Y-y-you..... Phantom Troupe monster!”
The words were just about screamed at you and you jumped back. The man laying closest was facing you, the entire top half of his head completely gone. He had to have been missing most, if not all of his brain. How the hell was he still talking? Glancing at the bodies of the other men, you saw that, to your horror, they were still alive as well. Groaning and moving as best as they could despite how the severity of their wounds meant that they should not still be alive. One of the fish came down close to your head and you flinched, stumbling backwards until you fell to the floor.
“Damn you, Chrollo!” the man from before yelled.
“Even if you don't die tonight, someone will get you someday! You'll pay for your crimes, you Meteor City piece of trash!”
His last words were spat out before one of the fish dipped down and bit off the remainder of his head, leaving behind the stump that was his neck and more of that white glow that came from the edges of his skin. His body began to flail, with what remained of his arms and legs banging against floor. Maybe in an attempt to crawl to you, or maybe it was simply all he could do at that point.
Your breath started coming out as short, harsh gasping as you began to hyperventilate, your eyes going back up to the monstrous fish that still moved about. They didn't seem to be paying attention to you, but you had no idea when that could change. Nothing about this made sense, but you did your best to reign in the terror that kept you immobile. The single rational thought of “get out of this room” pushed through your panic, and your eyes darted about the space as you tried to find an exit. But a glance at the large mirror on the wall that reached up to the ceiling made you pause once more.
The man who's body you inhabited sat next to you in the reflection, his eyes - your eyes? - wide as you took it all in. A smooth pale face, slicked back dark hair, an odd tattoo on the forehead and gray eyes that filled with tears before they began to trickle down your - his - cheeks. Breath came in harsher and you could hear a heartbeat thundering in your ears. You were in someone else's body and you had no clue what to do or why this was happening. And that didn't even factor in the deadly fish or the men currently being eaten alive by them.
In the mirror's reflection, you saw a door open behind you, a strip of artificial light coming from it that grew larger as it opened wider. You snapped your head back to see a a blonde woman in a purple suit standing at the door. The neutral expression she wore morphed into one of shock as she looked at you, as if she couldn't believe what she was seeing.
“Chrollo?” she asked.
And suddenly it was all gone.
You were standing by the hanger that held your purse, holding your wallet in one hand and your ID in the other. A shiver ran through you, and you realized that you were naked and dripping with water, like you'd gotten out of your bath without drying off first.
You stared ahead at the wall blankly for a few moments. And then, like a car smashing into a concrete slab, the utter shock and fear of what you had just experienced hit you, and you fell to the floor crying, holding yourself as you tried to understand what had just happened.
You didn't get any sleep that night. Every time you closed your eyes, all you could see were those men lying in pieces and the nightmare-fuel fish. Hours later, when you had finally calmed down, you took to the internet to try and figure out what had happened and what the hell you had just seen.
A Google search on “swapping bodies” brought up a few results, but they all seemed questionable to you. The most common claim was that it was how you found your “soulmate”. An enthusiastic blogger had detailed her experience with finding her current husband in this way, of how one day she and her husband unexpectedly swapped bodies for thirty seconds and later found each other. The blog post quickly devolved into the kind of romantic mush that was only fit for the most asinine of rom-coms that included how the blogger and her husband spent months trying to find each other on opposite ends of the continent because they knew they “were meant for each other”. Other posts that didn't appear outwardly fake told basically the same thing with much less flair, and the term “soulmate” came up several times. You weren't sure how willing you were to believe in such a concept. If everyone was supposed to have a soulmate, shouldn't such a phenomenon be reported on in the mainstream? Wouldn't there be people trying to figure out how such a thing was possible? If it was real, you wouldn't need to dig through personal online testimony from anonymous users to read about it.
And yet it had happened to you. Your consciousness had entered the body of a man who, if these posts were correct, was the person you were meant to be with. The only other option was that you were going crazy, and if you were really just having delusions that felt that real, then you needed to get yourself checked into a mental hospital.
Speaking of that man...
The words that had been yelled at you were still fresh in your mind. Phantom Troupe. Meteor City. Chrollo. The woman you saw near the end had also used the word “Chrollo” when referring to you, so it seemed likely that it was his name.
While looking up body-swapping had produced mostly questionable results, the next few terms brought up practically nothing.
Google didn't recognize the name “Chrollo” and kept trying to autocorrect it. “Phantom Troupe” brought up a few conspiracy forums talking about an underground criminal group that had allegedly slaughtered thousands, but the posters claimed that if you wanted any more information you would need to pay to get it on the “dark web”. The only one that gave you something of a lead was “Meteor City”. You found an article from a few years back reporting on some government official speaking out against the city's existence and announcing plans to have it destroyed, though the words he used to describe this process were a bit more diplomatic. But when you tried looking for a follow up to the article, you only found various reports of how the official and his entire team vanished overnight.
Meteor City: A place populated by undocumented inhabitants and a hub for criminal activity.
The Phantom Troupe: A group of criminals allegedly responsible for countless deaths but with no official record of any of their crimes.
Chrollo: A person who was somehow connected to these things and, if what you had read earlier was true, was also your “soulmate”.
The term still seemed ridiculous to you, but if that really was the case, and the Phantom Troupe really was as bad as the things you had read, then you were in danger. And you had no clue where to start to try and protect yourself.
The sky was tinted with the pink and yellow hues of sunrise when you finally fell into a dreamless sleep, exhaustion finally taking you. The laptop remained open in front of you, Google once more showing you no results for the name “Chrollo”.
The next few weeks passed by with you on constant high alert, always looking over your shoulder and triple checking the locks on your door at night. You were jumpy, and every time you came across someone who looked even remotely like the woman or “Chrollo”, you had a hard time breathing. The only upside had been that your fear left you exhausted most nights, and your subconscious was too tired to conjure up the images of those fish in your mind while you slept. Any time you did dream, that scene played again and you often woke up with a start.
Several of your friends had noticed the change in your behavior and had approached you privately to ask what was wrong. As much as you wanted to tell them everything, you doubted they would believe you. So you had made up a story that you were worried that you were being stalked, citing that you felt like you were being watched and that you had come back once to find items of yours displaced (which the second part wasn't technically untrue).
Most of them tried to insist that you go to the police, but begrudgingly backed down when you told them that there wasn't enough evidence for anything like that. Their plan B was then to stay around you as much as they could, at least one person escorting you from your apartment to you job, and several nights a week a few people would stay over. Having them around you and just hanging out with them calmed you. The time you spent with them were brief moments of levity that took your mind off of what you were actually afraid of, and when you were alone after, terrible thoughts of them being ripped apart and eaten plagued your mind.
The moments of peace you had with them lasted for about a month, where you had all agreed that the “stalker” wasn't an issue anymore since there had been no trace of such a person. As much as you wanted them to stay with you, you weren't about to try and push it for fear of them thinking you were lying (which you technically were). They all made it clear that you could go to any of them if something came up again, and one of them, Harrison, gave you a taser, just in case things took a turn for the worse. Carrying such a thing was nerve-wracking, but at least it wasn't a weapon that could do permanent damage to you if you somehow managed to accidentally use it on yourself, and it gave you some comfort that you were no longer walking around completely defenseless.
It had been over two months since that incident, and you had yet to see anything of that man. It wasn't lost on you that when you had returned to your body, you had been holding your ID with your full name and address. Given the state you had found yourself in, he'd wasted no time finding out who you were, having gone straight from the bathroom to where you kept your purse to find your identity. He was calm enough in that situation to know he had limited time to find out about you and had managed to do just that. He was planning on tracking you down, you were certain. And while you wanted to run as far away as possible, it wasn't so easy to just pack up and leave.
Your lease renewal had been coming up, and you needed time to find new housing in a different area. Somewhere away from here where he hopefully couldn't find you. It wasn't what you wanted, but you needed to get away. Whatever it was that Chrollo wanted, whether it actually because of a “soulmate” connection or if he just wanted to kill you, nothing good could come from meeting him. Of that you were sure.
As your final day in your apartment came closer and more and more of your belongings were packed into boxes, the weight of the anxiety that had been on you began to lift. There had been no sign of that man, and as that date approached you felt a sense of relief, that you really were going to leave and he wouldn't be able to find you after that. You'd deactivated all of your social media accounts and once again asked your friends for help, this time to just keep quiet about where you had gone to in fear of the “stalker”. If a random man approached them asking questions about you they would know better than to answer, and your landlord legally couldn't discuss the whereabouts of former tenants.
You paused in the middle of packing up some of your clothes.
Legally.
A man who fed people to monster fish probably didn't care about what was “legal” or not. And he probably wouldn't accept any stories your friends gave him if he was to go to them.
The fear that had been in the back of your mind since you'd opened up to your friends had been growing stronger. That Chrollo's response to you running would be to take it out on them. That they would deny knowing you when he asked and he would bring out those murder fish and make them pay for lying with their lives.
'I should warn them', was your initial thought, to tell them everything. But telling them the whole story would make things more difficult. They'd probably keep you from moving away and try to make you seek psychiatric help. Getting out of the area after that would likely be impossible. And it didn't help that you had no proof that he actually was coming after you; only a strong feeling that he definitely would be closing in on you sometime soon.
Your friends didn't deserve whatever horrible fate he could bring upon them, but you weren't going to stick around to see what happened to you if he found you. The best bet for them was that he would just leave them alone.
You continued with your packing, telling yourself over and over again that he wouldn't do anything to them and that there was no shame in running to save yourself, doing your absolute best to ignore the part of you that repeated that they wouldn't survive.
Maybe deep down you were just as terrible of a person as your soulmate and this connection to him was your punishment.
Everything that wasn't packed away in a moving truck had been stuffed into a suitcase that waited for you at your now empty apartment. Just one more night here and you would have successfully uprooted your life and moved on to one that was hopefully better.
You were walking back after your last shift at work, thinking of the things you might do after your move while also wondering how far you would need to go to protect your identity, maybe look into changing your name and dying your hair. The afternoon sun was beating down on you and the sidewalk was filled with other people who were likely also just getting off of work, the level of noise fairly high.
Being in a crowd of people had always made you feel safe. You had reasoned that there was no way anything would happen if you were surrounded by potential witnesses; no matter what sort of things your soulmate was capable of, there was no way he could do anything that could hurt dozens of people all at once. That was what you had told yourself all this time.
But the next time you glanced up, you froze.
He was there.
That man whose reflection you had seen in the mirror, whose body you had inhabited for that brief period of time, was standing in front of you, his hands in his pockets and his head tilting to the side with a small smile when the two of you made eye contact.
Your hands rigidly gripped the strap of your purse while your legs stayed stiff. You wanted to run, you desperately wanted to run away, but like that night when you had swapped bodies, your limbs felt like lead and you couldn't bring yourself to move more than a few inches.
He started to approach and you tensed. You'd only managed to take a single step back before he was on you, his hand firmly gripping your arm and pulling you with him to the side.
“It would be rude to stand in the way of all of these people, don't you agree?” he asked, motioning to the people who now passed the two of you by.
You didn't answer, and all you could do was hope that someone would notice that something was wrong with you two and raise some sort of alarm. Remembering the taser Harrison had given you, your free hand slipped down to your purse, trying your best to remove it without him noticing.
“It's very nice to meet you,” he continued, “I'm Chrollo.”
His hand stayed on your arm, and he clearly had no intention of letting go.
Words didn't want to leave you, instead blocking up in your throat. All you really wanted to do was scream and get away from him. The man you had been stressing out over for the past few months found you just as you were about to leave and had casually came up to introduce himself. As if the circumstances surrounding your swap weren't any issue.
Taking in a few deep breaths, you composed yourself enough to speak, all the while he waited for you patiently.
“This.... This isn't a very nice meeting for me,” you said, “actually, I really wish you didn't come to see me.”
Surprisingly he nodded, seemingly understanding why you didn't want to meet him.
“Our switch happened at a very unfortunate time; I can't blame you for being apprehensive.”
..... Apprehensive?
This man made you a witness to that horror show and he was brushing it off as just apprehension?
“That's kind of an understatement, don't you think?” you snapped, the fear that had kept you petrified breaking for a moment.
“I understand that you're afraid. But you shouldn't be. I'm not going to hurt you; I'm here to take you with me.”
“I don't want to go with you,” you said.
“I won't make you witness anything else like that. You'll be taken care of for the rest of your life,” Chrollo continued, ignoring your statement.
“You made me watch those men die.”
You then hissed in pain as his grip on your arm became tighter. Evidently your voice was raising too much for his liking.
“There isn't much that can be done about that now,” said Chrollo, “I'm sorry that you needed to see that, but in time I'm sure you'll forgive me for it.”
He remained nonchalant, that small smile still on his face while he spoke of those dead men and what you had experienced as if he was talking about the weather. Below, you found the taser in your purse and gripped it, readying yourself to bring it out.
“I want nothing to do with you.”
Chrollo sighed.
“I'm afraid you have no choice. Soulmates are meant to be together,” he answered. His other hand gripped your chin, raising you up as if to pull you into a kiss.
“You were meant to be with me,” Chrollo whispered.
He stopped suddenly, his expression changing to one mild surprise as he looked down to where you had jammed the taser beneath his ribs, your thumb hovering over the ON button.
“Get the fuck away from me or I'll turn this on. I'll scream for help and tell everyone here that you're trying to kidnap me,” you hissed.
With the way the two of you were positioned, none of the passersby could see the taser you held against him. So there was still a way to get out of this with nothing happening, which would be the best option for him. If he left you now, you would be able to escape and leave all of this behind in favor of your new life. Chrollo was bold, you would give him that, as you had been so sure he wouldn't approach you in public. But being in public gave you an advantage: a young woman yelling about a man attacking her would instantly draw attention, and Chrollo would have all sorts of scrutiny on him. A man who officially didn't exist wouldn't want dozens of witnesses to any sort of crime. He had to leave you alone.
Chrollo stared at the taser for a few moments, and then looked back to you, his expression neutral. Despite your threat, he wasn't letting go, though his grip had lessened.
“This is a surprise. With what Pakunoda said and what we saw on our observation of you, you seemed like a much more compliant type. Where exactly is this fight coming from?” he murmured.
The way those gray eyes seemed to look right through you made you more uncomfortable the longer you kept eye contact, and you glanced back to the people around you. No one had noticed what was going on between you two; even if they couldn't see the taser, you had been hopeful that at least one person would have seen that something was wrong and would have come up to investigate. You had broken out into a nervous sweat, and your anxiety only got worse the longer he stared at you.
“Do it.”
The words that he spoke so calmly caught you by surprise, and once more you couldn't speak.
“If you're that desperate to try and get away from me, then turn that thing on and call for help,” he said, “but know that if you do that, all of these people will die. And you won't be getting away from me.”
You looked again to the crowd of people.
“You.... You can't do that. There's too many..... You'd never be able to...”
That smile returned to his face.
“My dear, much like how you know very little of taking yourself off the grid, you also know very little of what I am capable of. I assure you, I can kill everyone here within a matter of minutes. Of course, I would rather you didn't drive me to that point; it would be much easier for all of us if you just came with me.”
The hand on your jaw slid downwards until it was gripping your own, and he pushed the taser harder against himself as if to encourage you to use it.
“Do it, but know that it won't change anything. All you'll be accomplishing is killing these people and making things unpleasant for yourself once I take you to your new home. Cooperate, and you won't be responsible for anyone dying.”
Despite his slight smile, his eyes were cold. He meant it when he said he would kill everyone. You recognized what he was doing with the way he worded it: that you would be responsible for the deaths of these bystanders, as if you were the one willing to murder just to make a point. But you also recognized that you had no way of stopping him – no, that wasn't correct. You had a way of stopping him, and that was to do as he said.
The crushing defeat you felt snuffed out the fight that had been sparked within you, and your head hung low when he pulled your hand away and slipped the taser out of your loosened grip.
“Smart girl,” he said, placing it in his coat pocket.
Chrollo wasted no time in taking you away, pulling you forward and placing an arm across your shoulders, ensuring that you couldn't pull away from him. The two of you walked in silence, making your way past the other men and women in the street. So many people around you, and not one of them was aware that you were being taken against your will.
“You don't need to hold me like this,” you mumbled.
Chrollo didn't answer, nor did he look at you, his eyes staring straight ahead as you turned a corner down a smaller side street. There weren't as many people down this way, and as you came towards the end, you saw two people standing next to a van waiting for you and Chrollo. One of them was a blonde man in light purple clothes that you had never seen before, but the other one you recognized: the woman in the suit who you had seen just before you left Chrollo's body that night. Their gazes were heavy on you as you got closer.
“No trouble then, boss?” the man asked Chrollo, his tone lighthearted.
“Not much,” Chrollo answered. He finally pulled away from you and, to your surprise, pulled out your taser that he had pocketed earlier, tossing it to the man.
“Get rid of that, will you?”
Neither of them said anything: the man inspected it before laughing a little while the woman raised an eyebrow at you. You kept your gaze on your shoes, not saying anything as you were guided to an open back door of the van. You were sat in the middle of the back seat, in between the woman and Chrollo while the other man climbed into the front passenger's seat. Another woman was already sitting in the driver's seat, this one older, most likely middle-aged. She was staring ahead blankly, and you noticed a strange needle with a bat on the end sticking out of her neck.
“Don't worry about it,” said Chrollo, as if reading your mind.
“Let's get going. How far to the next town?”
“With this traffic, it'll likely be about fifteen minutes,” the woman said.
“Alright. Drop us off there; I'll find a car and take her the rest of the way myself. You two shouldn't have too hard of a time taking care of things here,” Chrollo replied. The man and the woman nodded, and a silence fell over all of you as the van began moving.
The man in front looked like he was playing on his phone while the woman in the driver's seat moved like a robot as she drove, and the woman on your left stared out of the window, occasionally glancing at you, as if anticipating an attempt to escape. As much as you wanted to, you weren't stupid enough to try that. The doors on either side of you were blocked off, and any attempt to get out through the back door would be stopped easily. You were trapped and there was nothing you could do.
You stared down at your hands while you gripped your knees, your fingernails slowly digging into your flesh while you silently berated yourself for getting caught, for not doing enough to prevent this, for not telling anyone the truth. Because of your preparations for your move, it would take your friends a long time to figure out you were missing, and by that point who knows where you would be. This was your fault and you were paying for it.
A hand suddenly covered one of yours, and you glanced over to Chrollo. He pulled your hand into his, lacing your fingers together while he smiled at you again, as if sensing your turmoil and trying to calm you down. It didn't feel genuine, however, and you wanted to pull your hand away from his.
It's a better idea not to, a voice inside you said, and you turned your gaze back downwards, leaving your hand in his and trying to ignore the way he chuckled at you.
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