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Supernatural (Dean Winchester x Female!Reader)

No Rest For The Wicked

Masterlist

"Dig up anything good?" I asked Dean as be closes the book and shakes his head a bit, not looking at me. "No." He said before he clears his throat. "Nothing good."

"Well, Bobby has. Finally." I said as I go to sit down next to him. "Yeah?" Dean asked. "Yeah. A way to find Lilith." I zaid. "Oh. With just uh –" he stops and looks at his watch. "...thirty hours to go." He said then he smiles. "Hey, why don't we just go on a vacation. You know, go to a casino, or the beach..." Dean said and I chuckle. "We'll do that, when we save you." I said to him. "Yeah..." He said as he looks down on the books.

"Hey, Dean." I said to him, softly, and he looks up at me. "Look, we're cutting it close, I know. But we're gonna get this done. I don't care what it takes, Dean. You're not gonna go to hell. I'm not gonna let you. And neither is Sam." I said as he looks away for a moment. "I swear. Everything's gonna be okay." I said and I place my hand over his, then stroked my thumb over his knuckles. He looks back at me then stares at me for while before he said. "Yeah, okay." He mutters.

Later, Bobby places an old tracking device over the map of America, the device has three wooden legs coming out from a glass or crystal ball at the top. The ball has a flat, metal piece going around it with symbols on it, further down the legs there's another metal piece, only bigger. From the ball hangs pendulum device that is sharp on the end so that it can pinpoint a specific place.

"So you need a name, that's the whole kit and caboodle. With the right name, right ritual, ain't nothing you can't suss out." Bobby explains. "Like the town Lilith's in?" Sam asked. "Kid, when I get done, we'll know the street." Bobby said and he begins the ritual and starts the swing for the pendulum and then chants in Latin.

As Dean, Sam and I watch, the pendulum begins to search over the map until it suddenly stops. "New Harmony, Indiana." Bobby said and Dean looks up at him from the map. "And we have a winner." Bobby said. "Alright." Sam said and he pushes the pendulum away and looks at Bobby. "Let's go." He said and Dean turns to him.

"Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. Hold on. Let's all shut up there, Tex." he said. "What's the problem?" Sam asked him. "What's the problem? Come on, where do I begin? I mean, first of all, we don't even know if Lilith holds my deal. We're going off of Bela's intel? Now when that bitch breathes, the air comes out crooked. Okay. Second, even if we could get to Lilith, we have no way to gank her. And third, isn't this the same Lilith that wants your giant head and (y/n)'s head on a pike? Should I continue?" Dean asked us.

"Ain't you just bringing down the room." Bobby said with sarcasm. "Yeah, well, it's a gift." Dean said. "I'm sorry, so then what are we supposed to do, Dean?" I asked him. "Just 'cause I gotta die doesn't mean you two have to, okay. Either we go in smart or we don't go in at all." Dean explains.

"Okay, fine. If that's the case I have the answer." Sam said. "You do?" Dean and I asked, confused. "Yeah. A sure-fire way to confirm it's Lilith and a way to get us a bona fide demon-killing ginsu." Sam said and I sighed at this. "Damn it, Sam, no." Dean said as he turns his back to Sam and walks a few steps.

"We're so past arguing. Dean, I am summoning Ruby." Sam said and Dean turns around, facing him. "The hell you are! We have enough problems as it is." he yells. "Exactly. And we've got no time and no choice either." Sam said as he walks up to Dean. "Come on man, she is the Miss Universe of lying skanks, okay. She told you that she could save me, huh – lie. She seems to know everything about Lilith but forgot to mention, oh right – Lilith owns my soul!" Dean yells.

"Okay, fine. She's a liar. She's still got that knife." Sam said and I go up to Dean. "Dean." I said, calmly, but he ignores me. "For all we know, she works for Lilith." He said to Sam. "Then give me another option, Dean. I mean, tell me what else." Sam argues. "Sam's right." Bobby said.

"NO! DAMN IT!" Dean yells and Bobby and I look at him, surprised. "Just no. We are not gonna make the same mistakes all over again." Dean said and we look at him, shocked. "You guys wanna save me, find something else." He said. Sam, Bobby and I look at him as he walks back to the table he was sitting at before, and sits down with a contemplative look.

As Sam looks at him, sighing, Bobby grabs his jacket. "Where are you going, Bobby?" I asked him. "I guess to...find something else." Bobby replied as he throws his arms out and Sam sighs again, looking into space, while I run my hands over my eyes.

"You sure about this, Sam?" I asked Sam as we were in the basement and Sam was on his knees and had drawn a triangle on the floor with symbols in every point and put candles outside every point. In the middle is a circle with a bowl of a green, dry substance in it.

"We don't have any other choice, (y/n)." Sam said and I sighed. "Okay...do what you gotta do. But if she is not help..." I warned and Sam nods then begins the ritual. "Ad construgendum ad ligandum eos pariter Et solvendum." he said but then we heard a noise

We turn around but there's no one there. We turn back and I look up at the roof, sighing, and Sam continues. "Et ad congregantum eos coram me." He said and he takes up a box of matches and strikes one. We watched the flame for a beat and then Sam throws the match into the bowl. The content ignites and fire flares up and then it calms down and burns out.

Sam gets up off the floor and we slowly turn to look behind us as the floor creaks. There's still nothing there. "You know, phones work too." A voice said and we turn back and see Ruby leaning against the doorway. She smiles at us.

"Hey, Sam. (y/n). How's tricks?" she asked but we glare at her. "How do you get around so fast?" I asked her. "I got the Super Bowl jet pack." She said and she begins to walk towards us. "So. You called?" She asked Sam.

"Did you know?" Sam asked. "Um – gonna need a tiny bit more." Ruby asked. "About Dean's deal. That Lilith holds the contract." I said, angrily. "Yes, I did." She said and I growled and turned away from her.

"And…what? You didn't think that was important?" Sam asked. "You weren't ready." She replied and I turned back to her. "For what?" I asked her. "If I told you either of you, you three yahoos would have just charged after her half-cocked and Lilith would have peeled the meat from your pretty, pretty faces." Ruby replied. "Well, we're ready now." I said, firmly.

"We want your knife." Sam said and she looks at him for a beat and then begins walking around us, slowly. "You're right about one thing. You are ready. And now's the time, too. Lilith's guard's down." Ruby said. "Is that so?" Sam and I asked. 'She's on shore-leave. A little R&R." She said.

"The hell's that mean?" I asked her. "Trust me, you don't wanna know. You didn't lose those hex bags I gave you?" She said. "We've got 'em." Sam said. "Good. Then she won't sense that you're coming." She said and we turn around and look at her as she's gotten behind our back while walking around us.

"So you'll give us the knife?" I asked her. "No." She said. "But you just said–" Sam started to say but she talks over him.. "You wanna charge in with one little pigsticker? It's a waste of a true-blue window. Like getting Hitler with that exploding briefcase. Forget it." She said. "Okay, then how?" I asked, angrily.

"I know how to save Dean." She said then I take a step forward towards her. "No, you don't! You told me and Dean you couldn't! You've been lying to Sam all along, so just give us your damn knife!" I yelled. "Sam's not the one I've been lying to." She said. "Oh, so you can save him?" Sam asked. "No. But you two can." She said as she gestures between us.

"What?" Sam and I said, shocked. "Guys, you've got some God-given talent. Well, not God-given but you get the gist." She said. "All that psychic crap? That's gone ever since Yellow-Eyes died." Sam replied but Ruby shakes her head. "Not gone, dormant. And not just visions either. Why do you think Lilith is so scared of you two?" She asked us. "Right...she's scared of us." I sneered.

"If you guys wanted, both of you could wipe her off the map without moving a muscle." She said. "I don't believe you." Sam said. "Neither do I." I said. "It's the truth." She said. "And you decided to tell ys this just now?" Sam asked, annoyed. "Um...demon. Manipulative's kinda in the job description. Fact is, is that you two would have never considered it. Not until you guys were –" she said and I finish her sentence. "Desperate enough?" I asked and we exchange a look, and she shrugs as Sam and I look away.

"You two don't like being different. You hate the way Dean looks at both of you sometimes. Like you're some kind of sideshow freak. But suck it up because we've got a lot of ground to cover, and we've gotta do it fast. But we can do it." She said and I clench my fist at this then close my eyes for a moment, too shocked to say anything.

"Look. Call me a bitch, hate me all you want, but I have never lied to you, Sam. Not ever. And I'm telling you and (y/n). You...can save your brother, and I can show you how." She said to us.

"So that's you, huh? Our slutty little Yoda." Dean's voice said and it made me open my eyes and look over to see he was behind her, not looking very happy. "Dean." She said as she turns around, looking at him and all her softness in her voice that she directed at me and Sam is gone.

"Charming as ever." she said, sarcastically, as Dean begins walking towards us. "Aw, I knew you'd show up. Because I knew Sam wouldn't listen." Dean said and Sam looks at him but looks away quickly. "But you're not gonna teach him or (y/n) anything, you understand me? Over my dead body." Dean threatens. "Oh. Well, you're right about that." Ruby sneered.

"What you are gonna do is give me that knife. And then you can just go crawl back into whatever slop you came from and never bother me or my brother or my girlfriend ever again. Are we clear?" he asked her, firmly. "Your brother and girlfriend are carrying a bomb inside of them and we'd be stupid not to use it." Ruby said and Sam looks over at Dean.

"Dean, look, just hold on for one –" he said but Dean shouts over him. "Sam! Don't. Come on man, what, are you blind? And (y/n), I thought you were smarter than this? Can't you see that this is a trick?" he said. "That's not true." Ruby shouts but Dean continues. "She wants you two to give into this whole demonic psychic whatever, okay. I mean hell, she probably wants you two to become her little anti-christ Super Stars."

"I want Lilith dead. That's all." Ruby yells. "Why?" Dean asked her. "I've told you why!" She said. "Oh, right, yeah. Because you were human once and you liked kittens and long walks on the beach." Dean mocks. "You know, I am so sick of proving myself to you. You wanna save yourself, this is how. You dumb, spineless dick." Ruby growls.

Dean looks at her, and then turns around as if to leave but instead comes back swinging his right hook and punching her in the face, looking pissed. Sam and I back away a bit, surprised by the hit. Ruby takes a few steps back with the hit, looks up at him as she wipes blood from her lip and after a beat hits him once with her right fist and then her left.

"Ruby, hey!" Sam shouts andhshe goes around, hits Zam in the back causing him to double over. She then knees him in the face, sending him into a beam and sliding to the floor. "Bitch!" I growled and I go towards her and try to fight her.

But she was stronger and faster than me and punched me in the gut then in the face, making me fall down. My vision was a bit blurry and my head felt like it was in the cloud but once I blinked and shook my head, my vision started to come back.

I look over and see Dean and Ruby were fighting until she had him down but he slowly gets back up, a smile on his face. "The hell are you grinning at?" She asked him. "Missing something?" Dean asked and he pulls up her knife in front of his face. "I'll kill you, you son of a bitch." She said and she rushes towards him but midway there she is stopped by an invisible wall. She tries to walk past it once as Dean just looks at her as I stand up then go over to Sam and help him up.

Ruby looks at Dean and then looks up at the roof, I look up to and see that Dean has painted a Devil's Trap on the roof. Ruby looks at Dean again, pissed. He smiles a little, looking at the trap and then he looks at her, still holding up the knife. "Like I said..." he said as he puts down the knife. "I knew you'd come." He said and walks away from her, towards the staircase.

"Wait! You're just gonna leave me here?" she asked as Dean stops, waiting for me and Sam and ignoring Ruby. "Let's go, guys." He said and Sam and I come over as Dean takes a deep breathe, blinking hard and then he starts up the steps followed by me and Sam.

"Oh, oh you – so you're just too stupid to live, is that it? Then fine! You deserve hell! I wish I could be there, Dean. I wish I could smell the flesh sizzle off your bones! I WISH I COULD BE THERE TO HEAR YOU SCREAM!" Ruby yells. "And I wish you'd shut your pie hole, but we don't always get what we want." Dean snarks back at her.

The boys and I had our weapons spread out on a table and started to load up the weapons. "We're just gonna let Ruby rot down there?" Sam asked after a long silence between us. "That's the idea." Dean said. "Dean, what if, uh...What if Ruby's right? What if Sam and I can take out Lilith?" I said, a bit desperate, then Dean looks up at me with an angry, doubting look.

"Quit looking at us like that." Sam said as I look down. "What, are you guys gonna give her the Carrie-stare and Lilith goes poof?" Dean asked. "We don't know what Ruby meant. You know, maybe we should just go ask her." Sam said. "Sam, you wanted the knife – I got you the knife." Dean said as he walks over to another table.

"Dean, just listen to us for a second. Last time Lilith snapped her fingers and put thirty demons on our ass, and all we got's one little knife? I mean, like you said, we go in smart or we don't go in at all." I said. "Well, this ain't smart." Dean growls. "We got one shot at this, Dean. Just one. So if there's a sure-fire way then maybe we should just talk about it." Sam said and Dean walks up to him as he speaks.

"Guys. We are not gonna make the same mistake all over again." Dean said. 'You said that but what does it even mean?" I asked him. "Don't you see a pattern here? Dad's deal, my deal, now this? I mean every time one of us is – is – is up the creek the other is begging to sell their soul. That's all this is. Ruby's just jerking your chains down the road. You know what it's paved with and you know where it's going." He explains as he turns around, sits down against a table and picks up the weapons again.

Sam shakes his head a bit and we walk around to the other side of the table. "Dean." I said as I sit down next to Dean, looking at him as he continues to assemble the weapon. "What do you think is gonna happen? This is me, I can handle it." I said. "Same here." Sam said and Dean stops what he's doing, looking at the floor and shakes his head.

"And if it'll save you..." Sam said but Dean talks over him. "Why even risk it?" He asked as he looks up at us. Sam looks away for a beat and then back at him with the obvious answer. "Because you're my brother." Sam said. "And I love you, Dean. Because you did the same thing for me." I said and Dean scoffs.

"I know...and look how that turned out." Dean said and looks at us and we look away at this. "All I'm saying...guys, all I'm saying is that you two are my weak spots. Especially you, (y/n)." Dean said, choking back tears. Sam and I look over at him at this. "You guys are. And I'm yours." Dean said and I bite my lips as I felt tears forming in my eyes.

"You don't mean that. We're…we're family." Sam said. "I know. And those evil sons of bitches know it too. I mean, what we'll do for each other, you know, how far we'll go? They're using it against us." Dean said. "So what? We just stop looking out for each other?" Sam asked. "No, we stop being martyrs, man. We – we – we stop spreading it for these demons." Dean replied as he picks up Ruby's knife and holds it up.

"We take this knife, and we go after Lilith our way. The way our dads' taught us to. And if we go down, then, uh...then we go down swinging." Dean said as Sam and I just look at him.

"What do you think?" Dean asked and Sam looks down on the floor, thinking, while I look up at the ceiling before I look back at him. "I think you totally should have been jamming Eye of the Tiger right there." I teased and Dean stands up. "Oh, bite me. I totally rehearsed that speech, too." Dean grumbles and I chuckled while Sam smiles at that.

"So, Indiana, huh?" Sam asked. "Yeah, where Lilith's on shore-leave." Dean said. "Yeah, I guess." I said, shrugging. "Tell me something." Dean said and we look up at him. "The hell's a demon do for fun?" Dean asked us and Sam and I share a look before we shrugged. "There's no telling." I said.

We get into the Impala about to leave when Dean tries to start up the car but it won't start up. The three of us look at each other a bit worried when, suddenly, Bobby shows up outside Dean's door, scaring us with his sudden appearance.

"Where do you think you're going?" Bobby asked us as we look at him and the distributor cap he holds in his hand. After a moment, the boys and I get out of the Impala and walk up to Bobby, who's not looking happy. "We got the knife." Dean said. "And you intend to use it without me." Bobby said, annoyed. "Do I look like a ditchable prom-date to you?"

"No, Bobby. Of course not." I assured him. "This is about me...and Sam and (y/n). Ok? This isn't your fight." Dean said and Bobby walks up to Dean, furious by those words. "The hell it isn't!" He growls while Dean looks at him, taken aback by this. "Family don't end with blood, boy. Besides, you need me." Bobby growls. "Bobby." Dean mutters.

"You're playing wounded. Tell me, how many hallucinations have you had so far?" Bobby asked, making me and Sam look at him, a bit confused by this. We look over at Dean who turns to look athis, tilts his head one time and then turns back to Bobby.

"How'd you know?" Dean asked Bobby. "Because that's what happens when you've got hellhounds on your butt. And because I'm smart." Bobby said and I smirked a bit. Dean looks down on the ground, as Sam and I watch him, then Bobby hands Dean the distributor cap. "I'll follow." Bobby said and he walks away from us, over to his own car.

After a moment, Dean walks over to the hood of his car, ready to put back the part. "Don't be stopping to pee every ten minutes either." Bobby yells and Dean stops in his tracks, shakes his head a bit with raised brow. He turns around looking back at me and Sam before he sighs.

That night, we were driving down the road, on our way to Indiana, when Sam speaks up. "Hey, Dean?" He said. "Yeah?" Dean asked. "You know if this doesn't uh...this doesn't go the way we want, I want you to know –" Sam started to say but Dean shakes his head. "No. No, no, no, no."

"No what?" Sam asked and Dean looks over at Sam. "No, you're not gonna bust out the misty good-bye speech, okay?" Dean said then he looks through the rear view at me. "Same goes for you." He said and I fake a pout. "Aww, and I had a speech ready for you too." I said, with a bit of sarcasm, and he rolls his eyes. "And if this is my last day on earth, I do not want it to be socially awkward." He said and Sam looks down and out the window and Dean turns back to the road.

"You know what I do want?" He asked and he reaches down to the radio and starts up Bon Jovi's Wanted Dead or Alive. "Bon Jovi?" I said, raising an eyebrow at him. "Bon Jovi rocks, on occasion." Dean said then he begins to sing to the song.

"And I walk these streets A loaded six-string on my back I play for keeps..." He sings then he turns to me and Sam. "Come on." He said before going back to singing. "'Cause I might not make it back I've been everywhere."

"Oh yeah." Sam sings then I started the next line. "And I'm standing tall." I sang and Sam laughs then we sing along. "I've seen a million faces And I rocked 'em all 'Cause I'm a cowboy On a steel horse I ride I'm wanted." The three of us sing. "WANTED!" Sam sings, loudly, and I smiled at them. "Dead or alive Dead or ALIVE" we sang together until the song ends.

We continued to drive down the road when we heard sirens and red and blue lights blinking. "We getting pulled over?" Sam asked as I look out the window and see a cop car behind us. "I've got a busted tail-light. It's not like we're in a hurry or nothing." Dean grumbles and he pulls over and the cop car stops behind us.

Dean rolls down his window as Sam hands over the licence and registration. The police officer walks up to his window, flashlight in hand. "Problem officer?" Dean asked. "Licence and registration, please." The officer said and Dean, not looking at him, hands out the needed papers. The Officer takes and looks at it as he's talking to Dean.

"Do you realise you have a tail-light out, Mr Hagard?" the Officer asked and Dean look up him. The Officer tilts his head and shines the light on him. "Yes…yes sir. Uh…you know I've been meaning to…take care of that." Dean said as he slowly turns his head back towards the road in front of him.

"As a matter of fact..." He said and he suddenly opens his door fast, hitting the Officer in the stomach with it. Dean rushes out the car at him. "Dean!" Sam and I shout as we open our doors, surprised by Dean's action. Dean punches the Officer three times in the face as Sam and I try to run around the car to stop him.

Dean quickly reaches down and takes out the knife from his belt and thrusts it into the jaw of the Officer. Bobby pulls up behind the police car as the Officer begins to flash with light. Dean pulls out the knife and lets go of the Officer, who falls dead to the ground. Dean stands over him, arm behind him, panting after the fight.

Sam and I , shocked, move up behind him Whole Bobby quickly runs over to us and looks down at the dead Officer/demon. He looks back up at us, surprised and shocked. "What the hell happened?" He asked us. "Dean just killed a demon. How'd you know?" I said as I look over at Dean as he breathes heavily. Then he looks around on the ground and then turns to us.

"I just knew." He said and he turns back and looks down on the Officer. "I could see its face. Its real face under that one." Dean said and Bobby, who was looking down on the Officer, looks up at him by these words. Dean looks up at him and meets his gaze for a second.

The boys and I finished putting up branches over the police car, to hide it from plain sight, so that nobody can find it. "So what, now you're seeing demons?" Sam asked Dean once we finished. "I've seen all kinds of things lately but...nothing like this." Dean replied. "Actually it's not all that crazy." Bobby said and we look over at him.

"How's it not that crazy?" Dean asked him. "Well you've got, just over five hours to go? You're piercing the veil, Dean. You're glimpsing the B side." Bobby said. "A little less new age-y please." Dean snarks. "You're almost hell's bitch. So, you can see hell's other bitches." Bobby said and Dean looks first surprised and then his mock-face comes on. "Thank you." He said.

"Well, actually it could come in pretty handy." I said. "Oh, well, I'm glad my doomed soul is good for something." Dean said, sarcastically. "Damn right it is. Lilith's probably got demons stashed all over town. We can't let them sound the alarm. She knows we're here, we're dead before we're started." Bobby said. "Well, this is a terrific plan. I'm excited to be a part of it. Can we go, please?" Dean said and he begins to walk away with that and we follow.

Later, we make it to the neighborhood and go up to this house to see a little girl with these two adults sitting at a table, with one old man slumped dead on the table. The woman serves the little blonde girl a slice of cake and walks away as the girl smiles and begins to dig into the cake.

"It's the little girl. Her face is awful." Dean said as we stand by a window. Sam had binoculars, looking through it while Bobby stands next to him then me and Dean. "Alright then, let's go. We're wasting time." Sam said and he walks past us and moves for the door. Dean grabs hold of him, stopping him from leaving.

"Wait!" Dean said. "For what? For it to kill the rest of them?" Sam asked. "Yeah, and us too if we're not careful. Look. See the real go-getter mailman on the clock at nine PM?" Dean said and Sam holds up the binoculars and sees the mailman sorting mail at the back of his car. "And Mr Rogers over there." Dean said as Sam lowers the binoculars.

"Demons?" I asked as Sam looks through the binoculars again. "Yes." Dean said. "Ok, fine. We – we – we – we, we ninja pass those guys, sneak in." Sam said. "Then what? Give a Columbian necktie to a ten year old girl, come on!" Dean exclaims. "Look, Dean, I know it's awful." Sam said. "You think?" I said but Sam ignores me. "This isn't just about saving you, Dean. This is about saving everybody." Sam said.

"She's gotta be stopped, son." Bobby said and Dean, who looks contemplative, turns around and looks at Bobby and then out the window. "Oh, damn it." he mutters.

As quietly as we could, we took out the demons that were around and about. Bobby was blessing the water and getting ready for the sprinklers when Sam and I met up and saw Ruby had Dean up against a fence. "I'd like my knife back, please. Or your neck snaps like a chicken bone." We hear her growl as we come up behind her and Sam holds up her knife to her throat.

"He doesn't have it." Sam said to her. "Take it easy." he said and she backs away from Dean, releasing him from the fence. Sam and I stand still next to Dean who turns around to face her. "How the hell did you get out?" he asked her. "What you don't know about me could fill a book." Ruby snarks then Dean suddenly reacts to her face, moving his head back just a bit with wider eyes.

"Whoa." he said. "What?" Ruby asked as Dean looks to the side, not wanting to look at her anymore. He glances at her once or twice but that's it. "Nothing. I just – I couldn't see you before, but you're one ugly broad." Dean said and she rolls her eyes.

"Sam, give me the knife before you hurt yourself." She said to Sam. "You'll get it when this is over." I tell her. "It's already over. I gave you a way to save Dean, you two shot me down. Now it's too late. He's dead. And I'm not gonna let you guys die too." She said to me and Sam.

"Try and stop us, and I'll kill you. Bitch." Sam sneered. "Hit me with your best shot, baby." Ruby challenged and Dean turns around to us. "Guys, guys! Hey. Have your little catfight later." He said and we see a two people, probably father and son, standing outside on their porch looking at us.

We look towards the next house where a man with a briefcase is standing, staring at us. Then two other men were staring at us. "Crap." I muttered. "So much for the element of surprise." Dean said. "Go. Go. Run. Run!" Sam shouts and we open the gate and run, aiming for Lilith's house.

Sam reaches the house first and starts picking the lock on the door as Ruby, Dean ans I come up behind him, looking towards the lawn as more people run after us. "What the hell is taking Bobby?" I asked as Sam was having problems picking the lock. "I'm trying!" Sam said.

Suddenly when one demon reaches the lawn, the sprinklers turns on and she begins to flail, screaming, as the water burns her. Another demon is caught in the water and he screams and flails as well. I smile as a lot of possessed people standing outside the lawn, a few people in the water and our guys standing on the porch.

Finally, Sam gets the door opened and we run in while I hear Dean laughing at the demons before he comes in.

Once we entered, Sam, Ruby and I end up standing over a body, the three of us shocked. Dean closes the door and turns around to see the body. "You think Lilith knows we're here?" Dean asked us. "Probably." Ruby said and we look around a bit and then walk into the living room. Sam goes first, holding the knife out as if it was a gun. Ruby is behind him, closely followed by me and Dean.

Then I hear the creak of a door behind me and I quickly turn around, putting up one hand over a man's mouth. I turn him around to the others as I shush the man as he looks beyond terrified. "We're here to help. Ok?" I said and the man nods. "I'm gonna move my hand, and we're gonna talk nice and quiet, okay?" I said and the man nods his head yes and I slowly remove my hand.

"Sir, where is your daughter?" Sam asked him. "It's not...it's not her anymore." the man said, shakily. "Where is she?" I asked. "Upstairs. In her bedroom." The man said. "Okay, okay, okay. Listen to me. I want you to go downstairs to the basement. Put a line of salt at the door behind you. Do you understand me?" Dean whispers but the man shakes his head. "Not without my wife." He said. "Yes, without your wife." Dean said. "No." The man said then Dean punches his lights out.

He picks him up and puts him over his shoulder and gives us a look. He then starts walking.

Moments later, Sam, Ruby and I walk upstairs, backs against the wall and as stealthy as possible, Sam is in the lead with the knife in front of him. When we get up, look around a bit and then Ruby walks to the door to our right and Sam nods at her and then she goes in, closing the door behind her.

Sam starts slowly for the door to the left while I go straight forward towards and look into a different room, but no one was in there. I looked around the third room and the bathroom then I walked out until I hear a little girl scream. I run out and into the room to see Sam standing over a bed with the girl and her mother. But Dean was also there, holding Sam's arm.

"It's not her!" Dean tells him as the girl is breathing fast and heavily from what was just about to happen. Ruby comes up behind me then we go and stand behind Sam and Dean.

"It's not in the girl anymore." Dean tells Sam as thr girl begins to cry and curl up to her mother. "Mommy!" She cries as the woman hugs her. "Mommy's here. Mommy's here. It's okay." She assures the girl while the boys and I share a look.

"Alright, no matter what you hear. You, your husband and your daughter stay in the basement." Dean tells the woman as we come down the stairs. She goes through the basement door and Dean follows. Sam, Ruby and I walk past them. "Well, I hate to be a told you so." Ruby tells us.

"Alright Ruby, where is she?" I asked as we enter the living room. "I don't know." She replied. "Could she get past the sprinklers?" Sam asked her. "Her pay grade, she ain't sweating the holy water." She said. "Ok, you win. What do we have to do?" Sam asked and she looks at him, questioningly.

"What do you mean?" she asked. "To save Dean. What do you need me and (y/n) to do?" Sam asked but then I felt a hand on my shoulder then I spin around to see Dean had come up to us.

"What the hell do you think you're doing?" Dean asked and Sam pulls loose from him. "Just shut up for a second." Sam said to him, annoyed, then he turns to Ruby. "Ruby!"

"You had your chance. You can't just flip a switch. We needed time." Ruby said. "Well, there's gotta be something. There's gotta be some way, whatever it is, Sam and I'll do it." I said and Dean comes up and grabs me. "Don't, Dean! We're not gonna let you go to hell, Dean!" I yelled at him, tears in my eyes. "Yes, you are!" Dean shouts and we look at each other for a moment.

"Yes, you are." Dean said, calmer, while Sam and I just stare at him, breathing. "I'm sorry. I mean this is all my fault, I know that. But what you and Sam are doing, it's not gonna save me. It's only gonna kill you." Dean said and I look away for a second, tears building in my eyes.

"Then, what are we supposed to do?" Sam asked. "Keep fighting. Take care of my wheels. Sam, remember what Dad taught you...okay? And remember what I taught you." Dean said and I look back at him and I could see the heartbreak in his eyes. "(Y/n)..." he whispers and I could see tears welling up in his green eyes.

I go over to him and embrace him, burying my face in his chest. He wraps his arms around me and I feel him burying his face into my hair. I began to sob as I felt him kiss the top of my head. "I love you, (y/n)." He whispers in my ear, holding me tighter. "I love you too, Dean. So much." I cried then I pulled back to look up at him. He leans in and kissed me, slowly, like he was taking his time with this kiss.

A moment later, we hear the bell of the clock, which struck midnight. We break our kiss and tears runs down my face as he and I look at each other. Then he turns his head to look at Sam, who was also crying.

"I'm sorry, Dean. I wouldn't wish this upon my worst enemy." Ruby said, genuinely. Dean looks between them then me before his face falls and turns his head to the other side. I look at him and then look in the same direction, understanding that something's up.

"Hellhound." Dean said. "Where?" Sam asked him. "There." Dean said as he nods the he takes my hand and we bolt out of the room, followed by Sam and Ruby, and the hellhound quickly behind us. We run into another room and close the doors fast.

Dean takes out the bag with goofer dust as Sam, Ruby and I stand against the doors, holding them shut while the hellhound is pounding to get in. Dean runs over and throws himself down at the floor by the door and frantically starts pouring out the dust. The pounding suddenly stops and for a second we all stand sit still, then Dean bolts for the window and pours out the dust on the windowsill.

"Give me the knife, maybe I can fight it off." Ruby said to Sam, who looks at her, a bit confused. "What?" he asked. "Come on! That dust won't last forever." She said. After a few seconds, Sam takes out the knife and starts to hand it to Ruby.

"Wait!" Dean yells and we turn to him. "You wanna die?" Ruby asked him, angrily. "Sam, that's not Ruby. It's not Ruby!" Dean said, quickly, then Sam and I turn back to Ruby who, without touching us, flings me and Sam hard up against the wall, pinning us. Sam drops the knife and it falls to the floor.

She then hits Dean, without touching him, and flings him on top of the table, pinning him. Dean grunts as he holds up his head so he can look at Ruby. Sam and I look from Dean to Ruby. "How long you been in her?" Dean asked as Ruby's entire facial expression changes and becomes childlike, which made me realized that Lilith had taken over the body Ruby possessed.

"Not long." she said as she looks down on her body as she speaks. "But I like it. It's all grown up and pretty." She said and she looks up at Dean again, her eyes turning white. "And where's Ruby?" Sam asked and Lilith's eyes turns back to normal. "She was a very bad girl, so I sent her far, far away." She said and she tilts her head step by step and I hear her neck crunch with each tilting motion.

"You know, I should have seen it before...but you all look alike to me." Dean sneers. Lilith glances at him then turns to me and Sam and she starts walking slowly towards uz. "Hello, Sam and (y/n). I've wanted to meet you two for a very long time." She said and she walks up to me. Then she grabs my face and looks me over.

"So pretty." She mutters and I try to turn my head away from her. She let's go of my face then she goes over to Sam and grabs hold of his chin, forcing him to face her. Against his will, she gives him a kiss. "Your lips are soft." She whispers and Sam moves his head up and to the side, trying to get loose from her hand.

"Right, so you have us. Let my brother go." Sam said as he looks down on her. "Silly goose. You wanna bargain, you have to have something that I want. And neither of you don't." She said. "So, is this your big plan, huh? Drag me to hell. Kill Sam and (y/n). And then what? Become queen bitch?" Dean growls and Lilith turns to him.

"I don't have to answer to puppy chow." She said as Dean tries to hold himself up against her restraint. Lilith suddenly moves from me and Sam, as she looks at Dean, and walks over to the door while Dean follows her with his eyes. She grabs hold of the doorhandle and, while looking at Dean, exclaims. "Sic 'em, boy."

Sam and I snap our heads to Dean at this and Dean looks over at us and then at the door. Lilith opens the door and the goofer dust blows away as the hellhound gets in, Lilith just laughs and smiles.

Dean was yanked off of the table by his legs and pulled down. He screamed as I could see him getting ripped apart by the invisible monster. And the worst part is that all Sam and I could do was stand against the wall, helpless, scared and panicked.

"No! Stop!" Sam and I shout as Lilith just looks over at us and then down at Dean who's struggling on the floor. The hound has already slashed his right leg and is now attacking his chest as he screams in pain. He turns over onto his stomach. "STOP IT!" I screamed at Lilith but she just watches with a little smile on her face. The hound slashes Dean on his back and his shoulder.

"No!" Sam and I shout as Dean flips over and it slashes him over his chest, blood gushing out; Sam and I just watch in horror. "No. Stop it." Sam shouts as Dean takes his last breaths now. "STOP IT!" I screamed in anger as the blood pours out of Dean's chest; he's not screaming anymore, but still not dead.

"NO!" Sam and I exclaimed while Lilith smiles at us. "Yes." She said, a bit of a pleasure tone in her voice, then She holds out her hand and suddenly white light erupts from it. As it builds up Sam and I turn our head, eyes closed ready for death....but nothing came.

The white light fades and I open my eyes to see that Sam and I were on the floor, huddled up together in a corner next to a cabinet, holding pur hands up in front of our faces. When we noticed nothing happened, and the light was gone, Sam and I slowly take down our hands, look up at Lilith and rise up to a standing position.

She looks at the floor, afraid, then she holds out her hand and looks at us. "Back." She said as I take a breath and start walking towards her, Sam by my side. "I said, back." She ordered, holding her hand out. Sam bends down and picks up Ruby's knife while Lilith looks very afraid of us now.

I grab her wrist then raised my other fist and said, with a growl. "I don't think so."

But before Sam and I could do anything, Lilith exits Ruby's body, the black smoke goes out of her body and into the ventilation in the roof. "COWARD!!" I screamed, angrily, as Ruby's body collapses.,

I take a few deep breathes then look over to see Dean's body laying on the floor. Dean wasn't moving, his eyes opened, no life behind those green eyes that I fell in love with. With tears building up quickly, Sam and I slowly walk over to Dean and I begin to cry as we bend down next to him.

Sam picks up Dean, holding his head close to him. "No...no...Dean..." Sam cries and I sob then lean my head against Dean's shoulder. "Dean...no..no...no...please, no..." I cried.

*3rd Person POV*

Chains were hanging everywhere, stretched from place to place, thunder roars and lightning flashes. And in the middle of it, screaming in pain, was Dean Winchester. Dean was in the middle of the chains, hooked up by his arms and legs.

One of the hooks was attached through his right shoulder, he's bloody and sweaty. There's blood in his mouth and he looks completely terrified. "HELP! NO! SOMEBODY HELP ME!" He screams as he looks around. "Sam! (y/n)!" He screams in terror but neither Sam or (y/n) are around to help him.

"SAAAAAAAM! (YYYY/NNNN)!"

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thirtecnth · 6 months

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@huntsvillestarter / open to all / lilith blair setting: pop & lock soda shop

Lilith sipped away on one of her favorite sodas, her mind stuck on the tarot cards in front of her. She was working on cleansing them, dangling one of her favorite pendulums over the deck while focusing on the thought of what she wanted to know. It was good practice, especially since it helped her feel much more connected to her loved ones in guidance.

When it was finished circling, she glanced up through her eyelashes, noticing someone's eyes on her. It definitely wouldn't have been the first time this had happened.

"Are we curious or just staring?" She asked, tilting her head.

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afledglings-guideto-witchcraft · 2 years

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Welcome to A Fledgling's Guide to Witchcraft!

If you've been looking for a beginner's guide to witchcraft (non-religious based) then this blog (and linked discord) is for you! All posts are written and edited by several non-religious witches from around Tumblr and discord.

Below is a Master List of every post found on this blog ↓↓↓

Appropriation in Witchcraft:

Auras and Chakras

Lilith and Judaism

Magick vs Magic (Aleister Crowley)

Smudging and Spirit Animals (Native American)

Spirit Guides vs. Spirit Animals

People To Avoid While Researching Witchcraft

Astral Realm:

Astral Projection

Astrology:

Astrology Breakdown

Celtic Witchcraft:

Fairies AKA The Fae

Fairies AKA The Fae PT. 2

Fae Gift or Deity?

Death Witchcraft

A Beginner's Guide to Death

Deities and Altars

A Beginners Guide to Altars

The Green Man

"The" Triple Goddess

Working With Deities

Forming relationships with deities

Divination

Forms of Divination

Pendulums

Sticks in Place of Bones

Ouija Boards

Dream Work

Energy Work

Energy Work + Spoonie Tips

Energy Vampires + Veiling

Veil Alternatives

How to Start Veiling

Grounding

Magic Circle

Manifestation

Spellwork

Spellcraft

Spellcasting

Warding

Hexes, Curses, and Jinxes

Baneful Magic

Return to Sender Magic

Tag locks

Programming Items

Sigils + How I Craft Sigils

Runes Vs. Sigils

What to do if your spell backfires

Herb Safety

Safe Herbs to Burn + Deadly Herbs

Mundane Vs Magic

Mundane vs. Magic

Modern Day Witchcraft

Types of Witches

Satanism Vs. Witchcraft

Wicca Vs. Witchcraft

Cults Vs. Covens

Satan Vs. Baphomet

Magical Workings

Magical Weekdays

Magic Waters

Moonphase Magic

Wheel of the Year

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the seventh angel is one of the angels in the rebuilds that doesn't resemble any angel from the original anime. dubbed "clockiel" by some fans, this angel appears as a giant clockwork mechanical angel with two long legs, a swinging pendulum that houses it's core, and Sachiel-like heads that move much like clock hands. it attacks by shooting large cross shaped explosions. because of its massive size, Unit 02 must be equipped with flight capabilities and a magnetic crossbow in order to defeat it.

https://wiki.evageeks.org/Seventh_Angel

Kaworu Nagisa is very similar to Rei, in the fact that he is a seed of life inhabiting a human body. while Rei is from Lilith, Kaworu is from Adam. despite his human form, he doesn't consider himself to be human. he also frequently refers to humans as "Lilin". he was secretly sent by SEELE to reach Adam and cause the third impact, but NERV was told that he would be a replacement pilot for unit 02. he immediately achieved perfect sync rates during his first test. despite being sent to destroy humanity, he takes an interest in them and their loneliness, especially Shinji. Kaworu takes great interest in Shinji, which initially makes Shinji uncomfortable as he has trouble trusting or emotionally connecting with people, but eventually they become close. later Kaworu takes control of unit 02 and descends to central dogma containing the body of Lilith. as he fights with Shinji, Shinji is emotional distraught and says that Kaworu betrayed him just as Gendo had. Kaworu then begs for Shinji to kill him, which he does reluctantly. in end of evangelion, he is part of the massive Rei/Lilith/Adam being, and appears to help calm Shinji and bring down his AT field.

in the rebuilds, he appears on the moon during the construction of Eva-06 before becoming it's pilot in 2.0. he, inside 06, stops Eva-01 from activating the third impact. post time skip, he plays a much larger role. as Shinji reaches the now nearly destroyed NERV hq, he meets Kaworu he teaches him to play the piano, and the two become very close. Kaworu shows him the ruins of the near third impact, and Shinji is distraught saying that he only wanted to save Rei, but Kaworu says that humanity does not see it that way. Kaworu tells him that they can save the world again by pulling the spears of longinus and cassius from Mark.06. he then takes Shinji's choker and claims that he will bare the wait of Shinji's punishment. as they descend and during the battle, Kaworu notices that something is wrong, and begs Shinji not to pull the spears. but Shinji doesn't listen and the twelfth angel is released. because of this, Kaworu becomes the thirteen angel. unit 13 then begins to awaken as the forth impact starts. Kaworu apologizes to Shinji and says that it was his own fault. he says that they will meet again before the choker explodes and decapitates him. although Mari manages to eject Shinji, he is absolutely fucking traumatized. during the additional impact in 3.0+1.0, Kaworu appears as a vision and explains that he has written Shinji's name in the book of life, which allows them to meet in all cycles after every time the universe is reset. after the would is rebuilt again without evangelions ever existing, Kaworu is seen as an adult, alongside the other children now also adults.

https://wiki.evageeks.org/Kaworu_Nagisa

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apsara-apothecary · 1 year

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dyed-red · 1 year

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phyn! happy wincest wednesday! I am thinking about how Sam and Dean are both not great at sharing their feelings. they're inconsistent and bottle everything up until they blow up at each other. do you have anything to share about FEELINGS and the ways the brothers are similar, and different, in how they handle theirs? not sure where I'm going with this but have at 'er

mmmmmmm feelings. they taste so good when they're all suppressed and thorny. this is all opinion and initial thoughts and a super long post but here we go:

Similarities

Compartmentalization is the big one, to me. Although there are some differences in what and how they compartmentalize, both of them are masters at it. Dean is a bit more blunt about this, especially early on, although I'd argue the pendulum sort of swings at a certain point and we've got Sam with more boxes of unacknowledged shit he's placed in carefully organized rows down in the depths somewhere.

they're also both far more likely to use problem-focused coping, sam especially in the early seasons despite how he tries to get others to acknowledge their emotions. from seasons 1-4, at least, possibly including s5, sam's main (only?) coping skill is to Solve The Problem. this often looks like identifying the issue, researching it, finding a solution, committee 200% to that solution no matter how insane it might be, and putting that plan in motion.

(see: driving the impala into a derelict house in the pilot, the entire episode of Faith, the way he throws himself at finding dad and then at the yellow-eyed demon all to the detriment of saving others and his own life until dean pulls him back from whichever ledge it happens to be this week, the way he approaches the special kids stuff, then the entirety of season 3, and especially how this manifests in both mystery spot and the period we see in 'i know what you did last summer' when dean was dead, and it's part of what makes him so susceptible to ruby who promises solutions, and part of how he ends up rationalizing blood drinking and the kill lilith at all costs attitude)

and i put this under similarities because while dean is actually honestly genuinely better at emotion-focused coping than sam is in those early seasons, he is very solution-oriented in how he tries to approach feelings and emotional issues. this is most especially true for the big things as well: he wants to solve sam's grief in season 1 and he wants to do it by throwing him at women, he decides to solve sam's death by selling his own soul, he even attempts to (re)solve dad's orders to kill sam if needed by trying to convince sam that they should maybe give up hunting early in s2 (it's a weak and half-hearted attempt but worth noting).

and then of course there is just straight-up suppression. play through the pain, push it down and let it come out through bouts of alcoholism and violence, Do Not Talk About It even if you acknowledge its impact on you (sam and his grief over jess, both of them over john's death, dean eventually and his time in hell). this is different than compartmentalization in that it's there on the surface in a huge way and it's plain as day and you know it and acknowledge it but there's nothing you can do about it so you just sort of ignore it and refuse to sit with it or talk about it and just... continue existing with this wound bleeding inward or outward.

(see: getting angry and breaking things, being reckless or self-destructive and endangering self and others, etc. this is not a tactic that works. this is bottle up and explode.)

distractions is one i should mention here too, as one of their core (more healthy and adaptive) emotion-focused coping strategy, but i'm tempted to talk about it more under differences because they have really different distraction methods except for one. they both use fresh/new hunts to distract themselves from whatever it is that is causing them stress or pain.

Differences

continuing on the thread of distractions, dean uses media and escapism through narrative in a way sam simply Does Not. dean watches scooby-doo and horror movies and explicitly says he enjoys the escape and knowing that the bad guy is going to lose in the end. he references books and quotes them far more frequently than sam, everything from aesop to vonnegut, and we know that he loves music quite a bit, probably part of how he drowns out reality or escapes from it when he needs to.

in general, i think dean also dissociates more than sam does. this is integral in some of that 'dean as object' stuff. he separates himself from his physical body and steps behind it and away, so that what is happening to his body isn't happening to him, often when a monster or demon is threatening and implying some sexual violence.

conversely i think sam rationalizes and medicalizes a fair amount. he wants to understand and be able to explain (at least to himself) what his emotions are and what he's going through, because / as if the ability to understand and explain it provides a degree of power over it. sam craves control, and rationalizing affords illusory control over his emotions, allowing him to convince himself he has mastery over those feelings even when he's in fact very off the rails and being dragged around by his emotions like a dog on a leash.

this tends to mean that sam is up in his head explaining and re-explaining his own shit to himself until he's got a handle on it, and dean is out of his head escaping.

sam uses distractions as well, as i said with a new hunt, and with reading the lore. the lore thing is two-fold though -- it provides a sense of control over things again, illusory or real, because that knowledge can help in a pinch, even if it's not related to a current case. so he can kind of convince himself he's reading for work or for a present problem or that it will be helpful, even when he's using it as a distraction.

sam also somatizes more, i think, which is when your psychological stresses manifest in your physical body. we're dipping a little into headcanon territory here but i picture him as someone more prone to headaches and stomach aches than dean as a result of stress and anxiety (dean's stomach aches are earned through eating food he shouldn't have).

i connect this partly to sam's clean living/eating/exercising more as time goes on, although that is also about control. much like reading the lore 'just in case' and developing encyclopedic knowledge of things they may encounter no matter how far-fetched, eating well and exercising affords a small advantage against monsters.

exercising as a coping mechanism more general can also be a way to distract oneself and is a good emotion-focused coping mechanism when used to get restless energy out and improve one's mood. i think sam does use exercise adaptively and healthily like this and it's generally good for him, but yeah that it can and does tend toward obsessive control/coping sometimes.

something i think they do in different ways is also their problem- and emotion-focused approach to 'tend and befriend'. we can cope with our own shit sometimes by getting out of our own heads and focusing on others instead -- helping them with their problems or giving them stuff or just generally socially connecting with laughter and fun.

on this, sam likes to find a person experiencing a problem, get them to open up, provide empathy or offer words of support, and in so doing, stop focusing or worrying so much about his own shit. he does this with dean but also with victims on cases and gets more out of hearing about their issues and offering them advice/support than dean does. dean will engage in the practice too, but it doesn't emotionally feed him the way it does with sam, who processes his own emotions through empathizes with others, and dean does it out of necessity more than anything.

in contrast, dean likes to solve another person's problems for them (see: trying to throw sam at women) or distract himself by hearing about what is going on with others (see: asking cas to distract him when crowley and gadreel are co-possessing sam). solving their shit allows him to stop worrying about it or allows him space to process his stuff, potentially by hearing about theirs and having his own churn themselves along alongside the other person's, or in the meantime.

relatedly, dean also tends to mother hen others, and in so doing he uses caretaking as a means of coping with his own shit. this is part of dean's illusory control methods, because it affords him the sense that he's doing a job and if he does it right then things will be okay. he engages in caretaking by identifying and meeting the needs of others, and this is distinct from him trying to solve their problems only in how it tends to be more emotional, whether that's being 4 or 5 years old telling his mom things will be okay, as an adult pointing out bobby's drinking and later giving him whatever speeches he needs after he's become paralyzed from the waist down, and manifests in so many ways with john and with sam it's not worth counting.

tl;dr

while both brothers use compartmentalization, suppression, helping others, and distractions at a broad level, at a more specific level, both sam and dean have very different emotion-focused coping mechanisms, and different ways their problem-focused coping manifests.

sam hits his head against a problem until it cracks open, and does so rigidly and to his own (and the planet's) detriment until he is forced to learn some more emotion-focused coping mechanisms after the cage. he is always seeking a sense of control so he reads lore, eats well, pushes his body, and rationalizes/medicalizes until he can gain a sense of control. some of this is adaptive. eventually he learns to sit with his emotions enough to process them as they arise and threaten to overwhelm or overtake him, which allows him to compartmentalize them more effectively as needed.

dean copes with a similar sense of helplessness by distracting himself from the issue through hunting and the job, and sometimes through narrative transportation and by taking care of others, all of which can be adaptive for the smaller issues or one-off hurts, but causes him a lot more pain with the big stuff like his betrayal over sam going to stanford or his emotions about his father (john's death and his treatment of dean and their messed up dynamic all included) or what hell wrought on him. when bigger hurts stack up, much like sam, he is eventually forced to learn more adaptive or flexible ways to navigate overwhelming feelings, which i tend to think involves sitting with them and acknowledging them and allowing himself to think about them, something i don't think he did when he was younger except when he lost control over his compartmentalizing, but that allows him to go over them and then set them aside better, when ready.

for both of them, when circumstances demand or emotions overwhelm, they will open up and talk out or acknowledge the emotion. this tends to manifest in distressed sadness from dean and in distressed anger from sam, when they're at their wits' end, with dean expressing shame but seldom guilt, and sam expressing guilt but seldom shame. exceptions include how dean expresses guilt over ways he's hurt sam or others and how sam expresses shame over actions taken related to victimized aspects of himself. at the end of the day though, they both get better and more adaptive and healthy as time goes on at sitting with their feelings instead of trying to control or ignore them.

#characterization #long post #long post for ts #sam #dean #emotions #my meta #wincest wednesday #but no wincest to speak of sorry #also this is of course opinion #and if i thought about it a bit deeper i might come to different conclusions on some of these #so if you anyone feels differently and wants to point out or share why please feel free to rebagel and discuss!#right on queue

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Morality, Redemption & Mirrors in 'Under the Pendulum Sun'

My stream of consciousness after I read this book {it'll make more sense if you've read it, which i 1000% recommend with the caveat of the tw}

full spoilers

tw: [consensual between adults] incest

From an Amazon review - "Under the Pendulum Sun is the story of sinners, pressed into a world where maybe those sins don't count the same way, among creatures who may or may not even have souls to save". I'm trying to pick apart the book's ambiguous ending.... It seems like in the world of the story, whatever is between the Helstones is genuine love, is consensual, and is their truest true nature {as revealed by the trickery of the fae, that's kind of the whole point}. And whether or not they choose to live together as a couple.... their love now is revealed as what it is; it can't be taken back.

Now given the foundational texts of THIS world {with Adam rejecting his equal 'sibling' Lilith for an even more incest-y Eve & this causing the outcasting of the fae}, the Helstones' love should be good as Mab says, and should be a redemptive recapitulation of that original act - especially given that they are called to fairyland/hell. By lies & trickery Mab has given them the truth of love, rather than their living a false life in the human world. They in their forbidden nature & desires belong more to the fae order, so that it is the fae who have first redeemed them - a humility that makes them in turn the perfect missionaries. {It won't be this prideful holier-than-thou colonialism. With the translation of the Enochian book that places the fae within Christianity, the Helstones can offer the fae's own story back to them - just as the fae have offered Cathy & Laon's own hearts to them. It is an equal exchange of gifts.}

From the perspective of the fae, they've given these humans the redemptive gift of a new Eden. To the humans, they've committed the worst sin. And both parties agree that it is this action that makes the Helstones suited to bring the fae into Christianity. It is both sin and redemption, like Christ dying accursed {except this 'cross' is about the love of two rather than the death of one, which *chef's kiss*}. Because this is the harrowing of a new hell, and to bring in the margins always requires scandalising, challenging and changing the ways of the centre.

The Helstones are juxtaposed with the Roches. The Roches were a clean, straight cishet Christian couple on the outside - and yet the spirit of their love was about power, abuse, secrets & [corrupting] knowledge. He lured her to Arcadia, used her and drove her mad, so she killed him. They failed the test of Arcadia. {p.s. this was patently the husband's fault, what a dick} Cath & Laon are a sinful and scandalous kind of couple on the outside, yet their love is pure and honest so that they pass the test of Arcadia. The Roches saw the mirror and tore each other apart; Cathy and Leon see the mirror and love.

#gotta say this book respects christianity/religion wayy better than a book written by an actual christian #bc it's not afraid to use the symbolism in different ways #notes du coeur #under the pendulum sun #jeannette ng #catherine helstone #laon helstone #cathy helstone #gothic romance #gothic novel #book review

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gctchell · 4 months

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i'm not saying lilith has been imprisoned and encapsulated within that pendulum, but i'm not not saying it, either. break that damn pendulum open.

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chaotic-gremlin-27 · 4 months

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DNI: Bigots, Nazis, Non-Jewish “Lilith” Workers/Worshippers(thats not Lilith and your appropriating my religion and culture), Shifters, Anti-Pop Culture Witchcraft, Zionists, Pro-Jk Rowling

☽Basic Info☾

Name ~ River/Gremlin

Pronouns ~ Mainly They/Them but I’m gender-fluid so they sometimes change

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I mainly will be posting about my photos, current hyperfixations, and about witchcraft.

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Experience ~ Hereditary Witch with the last 4ish years focusing on my own practice. I am an advanced witch.

Basic Tags of My Practice ~ Demons, Pop Culture Magic, Chaos, Fire, Deity/Entity Work, Familiar Work, Crystals, Divination, Tarot, Pendulum, Energy Work, Astral, Primordials

Beings I work with ~ Apollo, Dabi, Hermes, Aziraphale, Crowley, Lucifer, Lilith (I’m Jewish), The Primordial Magma, Primordial Fear, Familiars

☽Fun Facts About Me☾

- I have a pet snake, guinea pig, and 3 bunnies

- I make my own pendulums

- I love taking photos and have even won awards for my photos

- I read a lot but tend to get caught up in reading fanfics

- My current hyperfixations are crocheting, the marauders, Bob’s Burgers, DnD, Hazbin Hotel, and reading

- I’ve been reading tarot since I was 6 years old

- I have 6 partners 🫡

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mythicaldemigoddess-of-deltarune · 1 year

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Hazbin Hotel x Helluva Boss Theory: Why The Elevator Doesn't Go To The 8th & 9th Rings

[Note: Reading This Post Is Optional, but please Don’t Reblog Without Permission.]

we know that there are the Seven Rings, the Pride Ring, Wrath Ring, Lust Ring, Envy Ring, Sloth Ring, Greed Ring and Gluttony Ring...

and then there is the 8th and 9th rings, The Melancholy Ring and The Vanity Ring...maybe it be like Encanto, "we don't talk about bruno"...(by the way I do love that movie) but instead of "Bruno"...it's "we don't talk about Melancholy & Vanity." Lucifer rules the Pride Ring, Sathanas rules the Wrath Ring, Asmodeus rules the Lust Ring, Leviathan rules the Envy Ring, Beelzebub rules the Gluttony Ring, Belphegor rules the Sloth ring and Mammon rules the Greed ring...

but the queston is, who are the two who would be ruling the Melancholy Ring & Vanity Ring...?

also I want to say this, that if Asmodeus (not talking about the one from the show who goes by the nickname Ozzie.) if he is said to have been like a cambian born from a Succubus and King David.... wouldn't that make Asmodeus my Grunkle...? should I be calling him "Grunkle Ozzie" XD

and wouldn't that mean that he is like the big brother of King Solomon...?, which I don't think it's really a bad thing I'm a descendant of Solomon, I mean I know that I'm from the line that can't take that throne, and I'm also a descendant of his son Rehoboam.

but not being able to to take that throne, is more of a blessing rather than a curse.

so play the song "The Joke Is On You" by Niki Watkins. yeah I'm weird and a Earth Angel who thinks it's a blessing to be a descendant of that line. plus there is that whole having ethereal things that go into "flame mode" when I get really mad, and the whole habit of them hugging around me whenever I'm upset or nervous.

which of course I got that info from asking about it by using my pendulum, and I'm still making sure not to use the pendulum too much. I know half of the time my pendulum can pull pranks on me or give me like half-truths... I'm not really sure about the whole having a ethereal lion tail and deer antlers is true or not, I mean maybe those two were pranks...? but I guess having ethereal wings, lion tail and deer antlers, could be a trait that some Earth Angels have.

plus it might be possible I don't have some form of ethereal flowers in my hair, maybe I can try using my pendulum and try to ask one of the Archeia about it. I mean I could try, but it is possible a prank answer can end up replying instead....so maybe I will wait a while to do that... plus for all I know, my soul name being "Small Lilith" could be a prank, I guess I can try to ask one of the Archeia about that as well.

anyway back to the whole 8th and 9th rings, in theory those two rings could have their own rulers but they aren't really famous or popular, because they aren't very well known, not even by those who are Hellborns who live in the other rings. even if Sinners can't really go to the other rings and have to stay in the Pride Ring, in theory they could probably find a loophole that can let them go to Melancholy Ring and Vanity Ring.

so the only rings they would be able to go to and live in, would be Pride, Melancholy and Vanity...

I guess Astaroth would be the Duke from the Melancholy Ring, but it could turn out that they aren't the top ruler of the Melancholy Ring. it might be possible that Melancholy is run by Duke Astaroth, while Vanity is ruled by a President.

the current President of the Vanity Ring, could be Haagenti. it could turn out the roles of being the ones who run both the Melancholy and Vanity Rings are temporary, like it turning out that both Astaroth and Haagenti could be substitute until the true embodiment of Vanity and Melancholy appear and become the Kings of those rings....or Queens.

but when the true embodiment of Vanity appear, they would possibly end up co-ruling the Vanity Ring with a President.

of course this would possibly stay in the Fanon Timeline of Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss, meaning the Melancholy Ring and Vanity Ring would just be in the Fanon.

and the reasons why the elevator doesn't go to the Melancholy and Vanity Rings, is because it can't....like it use to, but it doesn't anymore. if some do want to go to one of those two rings, they would have to use the other ways to get there.

for all we know, those two rings could be under quarantine because both rings have fairies, pixies and unicorns in them... and well in a Fanon Timeline, it could turn out that those rings were taken back by the Feminine Angel Princesses that had ruled them before those Fallen Princes took over the rings when they fell and changing them from what they were once were. yeah one of my theories is that the rings use to be a type of Matriarchy, because ya know "Earth-Feminine" and "Heaven-Masculine"..... but when Lucifer and the others fell, they had taken those rings over and had corrupted them.

for all we know, it could turn out those rings were taken back by their original Princesses, but the Other Princesses have yet to take back their rings.

yeah it might be a weird and crazy theory, but I think it could be true, but it's okay that not everyone agrees that it might be true.

and I guess in a Fanon Timeline, the Princesses would have to co-rule with the embodiment of Melancholy and Vanity, maybe like a Yin and Yang relationship.

it might be possible that the Melancholy and Vanity Rings wouldn't be canon in both Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss, they would only be in the Fanon.

but fans can think of reasons why the elevator, doesn't go to the 8th and 9th rings, but in a Fanon Theory way.

a Fanon Theory, can explain some things that wouldn't be canon in the main timeline, and could be fanon but some can be semi-canon but still fall under the fanon.

Sans from Undertale being the future self of Steven from Steven Universe, could be seen as semi-canon and fanon. Sari from TFA (Transformers Animated) being the daughter of Megatron, could be seen as both semi-canon and fanon as well. there being a Reaper Queen in Mass Effect, but never got to appear, that would be semi-canon and fanon...

the Reaper Queen being part of the fanon, because even though she didn't get to appear in the game, fans can still try to do fan arts of her and maybe some fan fics. so she would be Semi-Canon, even if she didn't get to appear in the game but was plan to be in it.

and I believe that Sari might have two human parents that she got her DNA from, which happens to be Isaac Sumdac and Marissa Faireborn... me thinking that Marissa might also be Sari's Human Parent, has to do with the Red Hair, plus Isaac was wearing rubber gloves when he touched the protoform,and there is no way that the protoform that use to be Sari, could get enough DNA from that or any at all because of those gloves.

so it is possible that when Isaac was shocked and went out cold, some of his hair from the top of his head or mustache had fell off and got on the protoform, but it wasn't enough for the protoform, so it might be possible it need more DNA, so Marissa may have came into the lab and saw Isaac out cold and even touched the protoform like he did, and it may have shocked her as well and even made her go unconscious like Isaac. so if it were true, this would mean that Sari would have three parents, and not just two.

even if the Melancholy and Vanity Rings that are the 8th and 9th rings wont appear in the two shows, fans can still view them as rings that only appear in the Fanon.

but all the other rings, are still being ruled by Eon-Boomers...who are ficto-counterparts of ones who didn't really do anything to fix the imbalance that had to do with toxic-masculinity...

and we also have a problem with toxic-femininity, but lucky it isn't as high as the toxic-masculinity one...but doesn't mean it isn't still a problem. why is it that some masculine angels (even the fallen ones) think violence solves everything...?

anyway even if the Vanity Ring and Melancholy Ring wont be in the show, and even if they were, the elevator might not be able to go to those two rings.

those two rings might be closed off from the elevators, like they do have their own elevator, but it only goes from Vanity to Melancholy and vice-versa and it could of turned out it could go to the other rings, but no longer can.

I know it is really not likely that Melancholy and Vanity will not likely be in Helluva Boss or Hazbin Hotel, and even if they aren’t, they can always be in the Fanon and no one can get there by the elevator, because the elevator that can take those from the rings to those two rings, doesn’t work and you would probably have to go the other way to get to those two...

and the only elevator that does work, is the one that is only connected to the Melancholy and Vanity rings...

plus we could view that those two rings are under some kind of quarantine.

maybe to make sense as to why they don’t appear or are mention in the canon, even if they would be just in the fanon.

#hazbin hotel theory #helluva boss theory #pride #wrath #greed #lust #gluttony #sloth #envy #melancholy #vanity #seven deadly sins #canon #noncanon #fanon #headcanon #not for kids #don't reblog #do not reblog without permission

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