#Love that for me

[industrations]

Can i just flex my iPad case real quick:

[glowsticcc]

ik he didn’t immediately notice missas bed when he first woke up but a fella can dream

[tooshnado]

CLOWN FIZZ. CLOWN FIZZ. CLOWN FIZZ. I swear he at least has to own ONE primary colour themed hat.

[currentlyfandomobsessed]

did we as a fandom just collectively forget how Kaz Brekker swallowed and regurgitated a bomb? I can't tell if I should be surprised or not tbh.

[oftenlyshitposting]

i think its so funny that our current big three mandos all sit so exquisitely gay

din is the only one who just look like a retired war vet dad; sabine and bo-katan are just sitting like they're out here attracting women and i love that for them

[flashbastardsramblings]

The Fall of the House of Usher is full of horrible, absolutely terrible, morally corrupt bisexuals and I'm so here for it

[grippysockgangg]

Whiplash between suicidal, homicidal, and horny

[heartbreakprincewille]

My favorite detail about this poster is probably Wilhelm and Simon's sitting positions. Wilhelm is sitting with his back to Simon, his body facing forward, but his face and his eyes are seeking Simon. Something about Wilhelm facing what's to come with all genuineness, but his attention and gaze is towards Simon, who showed him what that genuineness means in the first place.

On the other hand, we have Simon, completely facing Wille. His undivided attention is on Wille. Which is VERY interesting if we think about the S2 posters where it was Wilhelm who was looking at Simon intently. It's like their emotional dynamic will take sort of a turn in this season, and I am here for Simon to be so utterly, irrevocably lovestruck by Wilhelm that any sort of conflict in the story heightens incredibly because both Wilhelm and Simon are too deep in their love for each other.

Something about them sitting in broad daylight, everything illuminated in a crisp, clear hue. Also the shade of their uniforms in the sunlight, something something about both of them having their own scarlet letters- again, probably a major theme of the season.

[belltari]

just a lil 🧼 & 💀

they lookin at each other 

[handsomegentlebutch]

Dykes I'm curious... what do you sleep in?? I usually sleep in boxers and a t shirt. But if it's cold I throw on pj pants

[borderlinebelle]

🗣️🧠

Has anyone ever taken a stimulant for ADHD and it cured your manic mess but simultaneously erased your creative joyful childlike wonder at the world and your interest in the people you share it with?

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Am I cured or broken indefinitely to better suit “adulthood”?

🙃

As I wade through the vibrant and manic mess that was the BEFORE STIMULANTS and I look out onto the starkly dull and muted tones of the AFTERS STIMULANTS… the pendulum swings and I violently and obediently bend with it.

🫡

I can balance my budget now. Proficient in punctuality and productivity. Finishing work projects that used to take weeks? EASY. Calculating and efficient, I am almost unemotional as I smash through barriers that once kept me at a stand still for weeks.

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The counter balance to these super abilities is glaring:

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1. I find it difficult to produce an ounce of creativity.

2. I am colder, more calculating.

3. I find empathy over other people’s emotions a far off tingle of familiarity I reach for and only brush.

4. I find even accessing my own emotions to be difficult.

5. I find little pleasure from completing tasks just a dull and far off ✅ that reminds me of pleasure but has none of the organic material.

6. I lack spark behind my eyes.

🗣️🧠

In conclusion, the video I filmed for today’s YOUTUBE launch felt… soulless and lacking. It felt disingenuous. I wasn’t talking to YOU, my mental health friends. I was just … talking.

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TO BE BRUTALLY HONEST: I’m unsure how to proceed with the channel, with my content… with my identity outside of MANIC PIXIE DREAM GIRL … I feel really really defeated if I’m honest. I’ve spent my entire adult life in survival mode and for the first time, on this new medication, I can see dozens of strategies to LEAVE SURVIVAL and CHASE AFTER THRIVE… but I didn’t think it would COST ME… my personality, my creativity, my identity.

🔎🤷🏽‍♀️

Idk but, I guess .. that’s the way with these things. Mental health, medication, stabilization…

🫥

Mental health isn’t “pretty and punctual” so said my producer tonight. It can ALSO be “imperfect and valuable”. Nothing is a perfect science, everyone is just doing their best I guess.

😮‍💨

Fighting your own brain 🧠 daily, hourly, weekly, monthly, yearly is exhausting work. I’m so deeply proud of everyone out there choosing to fight another day. I hope to continue being as brave and resilient as you all are.

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It’s 12:00am. I’ve officially missed the “NEW VIDEO EVERY SUNDAY” standard I set for myself and I have to admit I’m taking it very poorly and I feel pretty defeated, but I had to come let the few who support my cross platform… that I’m sorry I couldn’t get there today.

🫀

Returning to YouTube after being run off by a parasocial making very real threats years ago, has been a delicious dream of mine for so long.

💭

I just deactivated both my Instagram and Facebook as they were both just reminding me of this missed deadline, of this empty channel, of what feels like a failure. In the age of comparison and competition, TO BE A HUMAN IS NOT EASY.

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So I’ll regroup, recoup, lean into coping mechanisms, touch base with my therapist + psychiatrist… and keep trying to find a way through.

💙

Thank you for your interest in my content.

🥸

I appreciate you deeply.

🫶🏽

I anticipate that this hopefully … won’t be the end.

🖊️ xoxo borderlinebelle

[crazywolf828]

Actually I think that we should stop questioning other people's sexuality based on how they present, and I mean everyone. This includes straight cis people. If a straight woman wants to dress more masc she should be able to! If a straight cis man wants to dress more feminine he should be able to! You shouldn't automatically assume someone's sexuality because of how they dress and act.

[amesliu]

[aphelion-i-c]

more cookie doodles

[hawkeyedflame]

so are we going to talk about how SSRIs, even taken for short periods of time, cause long term sexual dysfunction that can, and for many people does, persist for decades after they stop taking the medication? were we ever going to talk about that? were any of my doctors ever going to warn me that taking this medication could damage my sex life permanently? are we going to talk about this in the context of the frankly alarming number of young people who are put on these medications as teenagers? or the sudden sharp rise in people id'ing as asexual? no?

[casmick-consequences]

i thought this scene reminded me of something