#MENTAL HEALTH 🩺

[tarpitbell]

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🌘🕵️‍♂️🕳️🧿 (?) & 🫧🩺

I find it weird that I became anxious when like. I saw a bit of like- the welcome home update, you know?

In the sense of like. I think, feeling like the character? I don't know though-

Like, the character is anxious. And I felt anxious like the character.

But of course! My mind and feelings are just... Weird. I use "my" and "me" a lot. Maybe to gain attention? Maybe to feel more connected to the characters?

I don't know why I'm like this (well, maybe but still)

[queers-gambit]

FX’s The Bear masterlist

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God's Plan

your boyfriend carries the worst parts of his job home, bringing to life one of your deepest-seeded insecurities. or when Carmy calls you clingy.

word count: 3.3k+

🎭 drama 🥺 hurt 🚫 no REAL comfort 🙊 general language and content warning 🍄 toxic relationship 🍑 reader with given nickname 2️⃣ written after season two

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part two: Two to Tango

the aftermath of Carmy's words seem to rattle him more than you.

word count: 5.4k+

🎭 drama ❤️‍🩹 hurt and comfort 💔 small angst 🧸 small fluff ☠️ discussion of deceased family member 🙊 general language and content warning 💣 relationship angst 🍑 reader with given nickname 🔏 barely edited 2️⃣ written after season two

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Dinner At The Homesick Restaurant

a highly-recommended 303-page novel by Anne Tyler

behind closed doors, many families have secret turmoil. you experience your boyfriend's with him one fateful Christmas. or how Carmy finally made the decision to get away.

word count: 10.4k+

🍒 author's favorite 🎭 drama 💔 angst ❤️‍🩹 hurt and small comfort ⚠️ spoilers 🐝 stand-alone 🙊 general language and content warning 🐍 toxic family / family angst 🥊 depiction of canon-typical physical violence and / or aggression 💛 requires maturity and caution ✝️ Lord's name in vain 🍑 reader with given nickname 🔏 barely edited 2️⃣ written after season two

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Opening Night and Open Hearts

opening night - a mother's fear, a locked walk-in freezer, confessions through a thick metal door, questioning what's deserved, and a proposal at The Bear after hours.

word count: 9.8k+

🍑 reader with given nickname 💍 established relationship 🙊 general language and content warning ⚠️ spoilers 🤮 depiction of physical illness 🧸 fluff 💔 angst 💣 relationship angst ❤️‍🩹 hurt and comfort 🐍 depiction of toxic family 🔏 not edited 2️⃣ written after season two

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Neon Sticky Notes

reminding your boyfriend you love him one sticky note at a time.

word count: 2.4k+

🧸 fluff 🥰 romance 🙊 probably general language warning 2️⃣ written after season two

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Affirmation King

attending university as a full-time student is hard, but your boyfriend makes some of the stress worth it.

word count: 3.1k+

🧸 fluff 🙊 general language warning 2️⃣ written after season two

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Campus Breakdown

after a hard day, at least you can come home to him.

word count: 1.6k+

🧸 fluff ❤️‍🩹 small hurt and comfort 💔 teeny tiny angst 🙊 general language warning 2️⃣ written after season two

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Silence

anxiety plays tricks on your mind, making you mistake your boyfriend's stress for anger - at you.

word count: 2.5k+

🎭 little drama (mostly tension) 💔 small angst ❤️‍🩹 hurt and comfort 🧸 small fluff 💣 small relationship angst 💍 established relationship 🐝 stand-alone / oneshot 🙊 general language warning 🥂 alcohol consumption 🫠 small depiction of self-destructing / deprecating thoughts 🧠 discussion of mental health (anxiety)

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The Business That Pays You

not all disabilities are visible. being accosted for something out of your control angers the watchdog - your boyfriend, Carmy. plus the protective Carmy request.

word count: 4.5k+

note this is a disabled female reader! INVISIBLE disability!

🎭 drama 💔 little angst ❤️‍🩹 hurt and comfort 💍 established relationship 🐝 stand-alone / oneshot 🙊 general language warning 🩺 depiction of medical phenomenon / disability ✝️ Lord's name in vain

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[honeyshiddendesire]

🤠Cowboys You Say?

Pairing: Zoro, Eustass, Sabo, Marco & Ace x fem!reader (separate or sharing doesn't affect the story)

*Old Note: Had a vacation out on 93 acres in the countryside and all I was thinking about…cowboys.*

Warnings: bondage! Dom/sub! Pet names! Praise & degradation! Vaginal penetration! Bimbofication! Rough sex! Spanking! Hair pulling! Yata yata smut lol y’all know I write nasty!breeding kink!

@votaeto @zorosdimples thought y’all might like this 

*New Author’s Note: Out of all the stories I thought I lost from my old account Honey’s World of Fanfiction THIS one was by far my favorite so to stumble upon it again makes me sooo freaky hype!!!! AHHH So excited!!!! Hope everyone still loves it just as much as me!! Don’t be alarmed I did fix some typos as well! Lol*

*cow banner*

Acres of land as far as the eye can see was before you. Majestic and overwhelming but it was now yours. Inherited from your late father, Edward, you had no choice but to return home to his prize. The ranch he loved second ONLY to you, too precious for you to just sell.

Patches of woods and forests littered with game even open fields for horses to run wild until tamed. There was a beautiful garden that stretched around the ranch, a pond with a family of ducks. A river with a strong current that only the toughest even dare swim in, flowing just along the ranch’s right side.

The terrain was intense but luckily your father made sure he left you with a great team to help you out.

*banner*

Lumberjack Ace 🪓who jumps out his pickup truck shirtless, drenched in a layer of sweat with an ax resting on his shoulder.

Lumberjack Ace 🪓 who was saddened and shocked at your father’s death but happy seeing his pretty daughter inherit the ranch.

Lumberjack Ace 🪓 who tips his hat and winks at you with a side smirk as he walks, “Mornin’ darlin’.”  The freckled face and cut abs flustering you immediately.

Lumberjack Ace 🪓 who pours a bucket of water over his head before taking the sweet tea you offered after hours of chopping firewood.

Lumberjack Ace 🪓 who cleans the chimney for you in your freakish city that gets snow storms mid summer. The grand line farmland a whirlwind of weather.

Lumberjack Ace 🪓 flirts the entire time with winks and smirks. “Don’t worry babydoll I’ll have this house as hot as you in no time.” Tossing the wood he chopped inside with a dramatic sigh.

Lumberjack Ace 🪓 who ax throws intruders wanting to harm you

Lumberjack Ace 🪓 who makes you wear his hat when you ride him cause you’re his pretty cowgirl princess. “Aren’t you just a spitfire?” His moans drawn out all nice and sweet for ya.

Lumberjack Ace 🪓 who fucks you hard against the trees he plans on chopping. Using you to see if they’re sturdy enough as your back rubs against the rough bark.

“Yeah pretty girl ya like that don’t ya?” He’ll ask as he nips at your bottom lip making you whimper, pussy clenching. His cock will destroy your insides as the harsh tree rubs your skin raw. “Want my seed deep in that cute lil pussy of yours? I bet you do baby girl. Take every drop alright darlin’.”

Fucking your cunt hard in the forest as your screams bounced off the tall trees making him grunt as he paints that pussy white. “That’s my pretty girl.” 🪓

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Doctor Marco 🩺 who rode in on a fucking horse with flowers in his hands to show his condolences.

Doctor Marco 🩺 who even studied animals in order to help your father when he stressed over his prized horse, Whitebeard, growing sick.

Doctor Marco 🩺 who made it a point to stop by everyday on his gorgeous marbled stallion, saying it was important for your mental health on such a secluded land.

Doctor Marco 🩺 who comes to your aid during the harsh heat when you almost had a heat stroke. “Wow there birdie~ can’t have you getting dehydrated on me.”

And !!

The treacherous winter when he finds you passed out in the house shaking still not used to a single fire heating up such a big house. “Sweet bird what would you do without me~” He’ll coo at you.

Doctor Marco 🩺  who sheds his clothes to warm you up the fastest way you can in the countryside. “Come here birdie I’ll keep you warm.” 

Cock plunging deep into your pussy to make you sweat. Your gasps and moans make him shiver, back arching off the bed as you claw at his skin. “D-doctor~ M-Marco ah~ you feels so warm.” You whimper as he leans over pushing his weight on his hands.

“I know dove~ let me keep taking good~ care of you. Make sure you stay nice and warm inside and out.” Marco’s thrust would be deep and really rough to make you sweaty and gasping. “I reckon I’ll have you feeling peachy in no time birdie.”

Doctor Marco 🩺 who even checks your gag reflex with his cock buried snug in your wet throat.

“Take a little more pretty thing.” Hand brushing your hair back with a gentle smile. Your eyes watery as you looked up at him in your pretty sundress soaked in your drool.

“There ya go dove doin just~ fine.” Marco would grunt out as he shallowly thrusts into your throat. Cumming deeply into your tight mouth making you moan softly at the taste. Semen dripping down the sides making you whine and even messier for his greedy eyes.

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Horse Tamer Sabo 🐎 who picked the prettiest mustangs for your father.

Horse Tamer Sabo 🐎 who supplies all the best horses in town. Even trains them too.

Horse Tamer Sabo 🐎 who washes your horses and loves watching you braid their hair afterwards in different styles. “I think that's one of my favorites sweet pea.” He’ll say coming up behind you all close.

Horse Tamer Sabo 🐎 who holds you tightly when a horse passes because he too knows your pain of losing a stallion.

Horse Tamer Sabo 🐎 who gets to train ladies all week but still doesn’t get behind them for a lesson, opting for his own stallion but insists on doing it for you. Saying you need the best.

Horse Tamer Sabo 🐎 who teaches you to ride. Thick cock brushing up against you as he wraps his arms around you. Breath heavy from the close proximity, “Doing great doll~” Voice raspy after a long ride of his cock brushing against your pretty self.

Horse Tamer Sabo 🐎 who buys you matching gloves for riding saying they’re the best and they’ll last the longest because of the quality but it’s actually because he likes you matching.

Horse Tamer Sabo 🐎 who wins all the horse racing championships

“Looking good doll.” Sabo drew out as he leaned against the railing where you were sitting in the front row. All the other women were jealous, wanting his attention too.

“How’s about I take a pretty lady like you out to a fancy dinner and a nice ride?” He winks at the last part hinting at a night of mystery that you so said ‘yes’ to.

Horse Tamer Sabo 🐎 who also makes you wear his hat when you ride him cause that’s just what cowboys do.

Eyes rolling back as he tugged on the knots you were bound by, “Just like that sweet pea move’em nice and slow fa me.” Sabo groaned out, voice raspy making you whine.  Fat cockhead pushing past your cervix making you choke out moans.

“Ooooooowweee doll listen to you howl. Go head and cum on me ‘kay sweetheart.” Sabo’s cocky when he fucks his fat cock up into your dripping pussy. His blue hat bouncing with his powerful thrusts, pussy squirting making his ego grow more. “Now that’s a prize winning stallion! Fuck~!! I’m gonna have to breed you full after that ride.”

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Butcher Zoro! 🔪 Who brought you the biggest cow in the shop to show his condolences.

Butcher Zoro! 🔪 who still delivers fresh meats weekly even though you’re not sick like your father and very capable of doing it yourself.

Butcher Zoro! 🔪 who always offers to sharpen your kitchenware when he delivers the meats to ensure you the best.

Butcher Zoro! 🔪 who loves pulling up to you grilling or smoking some meats and seeing your proud smile when you used his ingredients. “Please Zoro! You just have to join me for dinner! I think you’re gonna love how the steaks turned out! It's a great cut.”

Butcher Zoro! 🔪 who can hog tie the fastest in the countryside. Seeing him wrangle up that boar with his cocky smirk made your thighs press together. Feeling like a sinner in church needing a sip of sweet tea with the way he wiped the sweat off his brow.

Butcher Zoro! 🔪 who always winks at you and tips his hat after winning the hog tying contest making everyone jealous.

Butcher Zoro! 🔪 who puts you in gorgeous knots and suspended ropes to stretch you out in.

“Dammit woman look at you suckin’ in this cock like a champion.” Zoro grunted as he watched his cock disappear down your sloppy throat. Spit and cum from an earlier load dripping all over your front. Pulling away he ripped your top open and latched his hungry mouth onto your breast. Your arms above you in ropes as you hung like a butchered pig ripe for his taking.

“Prettiest little piggy to ever be eaten by me, I tell you what.” Zoro smirked as he left mark after amazing mark all over your sweaty skin.

Tying your legs up and spread out so he can slide that fat ass cock all the way in with no interruptions. “Fuck yeah piggy lemme hear you squeal for this cock just butchering your insides.” He was definitely merciless in all the things he did but you weren’t about to complain.

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Farmer Eustass 🤠 who still tends to your 100+ acres of land cause, “Ain’t no way in hell I’ll be able to sleep at night knowing a pretty lamb like you is doin all the work.”

Farmer Eustass 🤠 who calls you almost every farm/animal he can possibly think of.  Lamb, pig, mouse, bunny, chickie, calf, heifer,etc

Farmer Eustass 🤠 who comes to your aid whenever you need repairs around the house, but only does them shirtless.

Farmer Eustass 🤠 who drives the tracker shirtless in his overalls with a piece of straw in his mouth, hat tipped real low. Winking at you when you give him a cool glass of lemonade for his hard work plowing the fields, though you couldn’t help but desire that he was plowing something else.

“Thanks lil calf but I think I might wanna drink on somethin’ else you can gimme me. Maybe some milk?”

Farmer Eustass 🤠 who buys you the prettiest dresses and shoes cause he’ll be doin all the hard labor anyways.

Farmer Eustass 🤠 who gets handsy the fastest cause he can’t help but want to let out all his stress on you. Looking like a sweet lil belle that he wanted nothing more than to corrupt into his pretty bimbo after a long day.

Farmer Eustass 🤠 who’s a total stereotype. Wanting a beer and his dick sucked the second he steps foot in the door. Don’t worry he always returns the favor 😉

“Been thinkin’ bout these lips wrapped around my cock all damn day out on that field. Fuck~ that’s it chick, slobber all over me.”

Farmer Eustass 🤠 who roughly shoves your face in the hay as he fucks you ass up in the barn. Spanking you and pulling you back by your pigtails.

“Good fuckin’ calf. Letting me breed you full till you’re swollen wit my kids, tits drippin with milk for me.” Hips rocking into your cunt with a mission to fill you full. Stuffing your womb full of his children to run and play on the farm.“Fuck-my little cow being so good. Stay just like that babe.” Spanking you as he grabs both your pigtails in one large hand. “Sweet little heifer letting me breed her like she’s supposed ta wit outta fight. Come on moo for your owner baby.”  Voice raspy as he’ll grip your ass, fucking you hard on his heavy cock. Hay scratching into your face as you cream around his dick with a shaky scream. “Soundin’ so pretty when you get loud like that fa me.”

[khaire-traveler]

🩺 Subtle Asklepios Worship⚕️

Take your medications, if any; take medications if you need to (headaches, stomaches, etc.)

Try herbal teas as remedies for MINOR health issues (nausea, stomaches, etc.)

Try to visit the doctor when needed and if able

Take care of your physical health

Exercise; get some movement throughout your day, even just stretching

Have a candle that reminds you of him (no altar needed)

Keep a picture of him in your wallet

Wear jewelry that reminds you of him

Have a stuffed animal snake or horse (potentially a rooster; doesn't seem to be a confirmed sacred animal; horse is due to Chiron)

Have symbols of his medical staff (a single snake wrapped around a stick), centaurs, stars (specifically his constellation Ophiochus), or healing (anything you associate with it) around

Take regular breaks from screens

Take a walk/hike outside, especially under the sun when you can get some Vitamin D

Try to eat healthy if you can; eat fruits and veggies, drink milk or calcium-rich drinks, eat fish or protein-rich meats, etc.

Drink herbal teas or natural juices

Try to take care of your hygiene; take regular showers, brush your teeth, wash your hands, use moisturizer, etc.

Eat three meals a day

Try to work on maintaining a regular sleep schedule

Engage in relaxing or calming activities before bed or when you're stressed

Have a morning and night self-care routine

Be gentle with yourself, especially when you're having a difficult time

Practice mindfulness; try meditation if you can

Keep your space clean; make it comfortable and physically safe for yourself

Remind yourself that healing, especially mentally, is rarely a linear path

Look into healthy coping skills for any anxiety, depression, trauma, etc. - anything that can improve your mental/emotional well-being

Prioritize your own well-being

Practice compassion, especially toward yourself

Spend time with loved ones and pets

Try to feed your pet healthy foods; make sure to keep any pets healthy (measure their food intake, give them regular exercise, groom them regularly, etc.)

Support others who are going through a difficult time IF YOU CAN; sometimes we're not well enough to help, and that's ok!!!

Keep a self-care/self-love journal

Take a self-care bath/shower, especially with herbs

Try eating healthy snacks, such as nuts, seeds, berries, or granola

Learn about healthcare, anatomy, or any medical conditions you or loved ones have

Learn your rights when it comes to healthcare as well as your options; educate yourself on HIPPA (if in US)

Support healthcare, humanitarian, or homeless shelter organizations

Cook a meal for someone in need

Cook a meal for a loved one or pet

Donate clothes, food, hygiene kits to homeless shelters; donate warm clothes in the winter

Sit outside, especially in sunlight, for a while; meditate if you're able or do something relaxing, such as playing an instrument or drawing

Feed neighborhood cats, dogs, birds, etc.

Grow your own herbs or produce

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This is my list of discreet ways to worship Asklepios! I hope it helps someone out. I may add more later on. Take care! 💚

Link to Subtle Worship Master list

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

WIBTA for letting my job think my disability is only/mostly physical?

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i am currently on ssi/ssdi for mental illnesses i have (namely severe depression, though i have other diagnosed/medically recognized issues that contribute), and i have many other physical issues that have not been diagnosed (im hypermobile and suspect i may have POTS). my job knows im on disability, but i havent told them what im on it for.

i started working there as a seasonal worker in december and decided to stay on because they assured me that they could accommodate me in terms of disability. i work three 4hr shifts a week on the same days every week.

recently i have been rapidly approaching burnout. when i get burnt out, im unable to take care of myself and the space i live in. i also have a history of ending up in psych hospitals because of overworking myself. i emailed my manager and told them that because of my disability i will need to cut back to two shifts a week. i mentioned this was something my social worker and i agreed on. they have yet to give me a response.

im honestly expecting the worst because of how shitty jobs are about recognizing mental health as a valid reason to be disabled, however they also know of my physical issues as well. ive told them about my rapid heart rate and bad joints, and theyve been accommodating enough.

my physical issues suck, but are not nearly as disabling as my mental issues. i dont want to minimize or piggyback off of other physically disabled peoples problems when im not nearly as affected by them.

WIBTA if i conveniently left out the fact that my disability was related to mental health and played up the physical issues to hopefully get my week cut down?

What are these acronyms?

[multidimensionalguidance]

🌟🩺 Chiron Observations #2 🩻🌟

Here’s a continuation to my previous post of Chiron in strong (conjunction, square, opposition) or soft (sextile and trines) aspects to planetary bodies.

🧠 Mercury 🧠: there is a pain that stems from your communication skills. During early life you might have been silenced and misunderstood. You were not allowed to express freely or felt like you were inadequate at it. There could literally be a difficulty or impediment in speech or thought process. A mental wound that only you understand. Since words were probably used as daggers to hurt you, there might be a tendency of you doing the same when triggered. Any time someone makes you feel inadequate, words will seek to cause the pain you’ve previously experienced. This might hurt you and your relationships a lot until you become aware of this tendency. There could also be wounds formed by siblings or painful interactions with them throughout your lives. This can make interactions with people younger or the same age as you feel like a tedious task. There could be a fear of not being mentally agile enough or as if you aren’t clever enough, which paradoxically could make you focus on it so much that you develop a very sharp mind. If you know several languages, there might be embarrassment associated with how you sound in one of them, and probably because it doesn’t allow you to express yourself as well as you know you could. You might feel like a brother or sister to those around you. You are not behind anyone on a mental level. Your mind is here to heal itself and allow others to do the same just by hearing you speak. Your power is in your voice, and once you’re comfortable with discussing topics related to mental health those that need healing or help will be very thankful for your insights. They will see you as someone who can guide them on a mental level to get rid of any blocks that might not be allowing them to be their best version.

💌 Venus 💌: relationships of all kinds, but specifically romantic ones create many wounds. You might have grown up feeling uncomfortable in your own feminine energy (regardless of gender), values, creativity, and mannerisms. As if nothing seems to be fit for you, and nothing felt right. Dealing with love and feminine relationships was very difficult for you growing up. You never felt fully loved by others nor felt girly or womanly enough when next to your feminine friends. You might have decided to reject these themes all together. Maybe even avoiding all Venusian things, as simple as not wearing the color pink or disliking anything that seemed hyper feminine. You are here to understand that feminine and masculine energy exists within all of us, and it is our gift to express them as freely as we want without feeling stuck or shackled by one or the other. Work on your Venus traits (including those associated to your sign) by trying out bright colors, enjoying self care nights, playing with your style, and indulging into everything that makes you feel empowered in your own feminine energy. As for relationships, this might be a bit more difficult to navigate until you are 25+ and your Venus matures. Love does not have to be a source of pain. Chasing or seeking for someone to love you will only bring more pain, for you are telling yourself that you do not inherently deserve love just by existing, and can only receive it once you seek it outwardly. The more you focus on empowering your Venus, the more relationships will heal. Romance is important, but the love you feel for yourself is far more relevant, and it will dictate the love you’re willing to accept from others. Once you integrate these lessons, being loved by you will heal others. Your love will feel unforgettable to others. They will seek to be close to you just to experience how strong your feminine energy has become, and sit down to wonder how they can learn from you. It will be like going from “I have no idea what makeup is..” to “Everyone keeps on asking me to do their makeup and style them all the time”. That’s Venus and Chirons gift to you on a very superficial level.

🧨 Mars 💥: the painful lessons come from understanding the weight and importance of your action and physical drive. You might be harsh when it comes to these aspects with others, and most likely because its a harshness you’ve experienced from others. Masculine energy in general is difficult to embody due to possible traumatic wounds that have been associated with it. Interacting with individuals who had a lot of it wounded you at some point in your life, either physically, mentally or spiritually. Perhaps in all ways previously mentioned. Learning to heal this energy within you will be a source of strong healing and power. Once you empower yourself in the ways that you use your drive, motivation, and more harsh aspects to achieve your goals, it will motivate and help others heal this within themselves. Life will keep on testing the way you channel this energy to aid you on your evolution, and awake the forces that will let you harbor your spiritual gifts. There might be a likelihood in getting burned and experiencing physical wounds. If you’re someone who embodies a lot of feminine energy, be extra careful when dealing with toxic masculinity. This is something to be mindful in all situations outside of astrology, but I’ve noticed a probability of it being a tad more dangerous for these natives. There is powerful physical healing that comes natural and can be developed, such as Reiki or anything that works towards aiding physical wounds, etc. Might even be really good Doctors if they ever choose to do so, or might be naturally attract or be attracted to being healers.

[dwarf-hat-enjoyer]

Howdy! Hope you're having a good day😁

Could you please write a comfort story where a reader who feels unattractive due to her body weight, who struggles to take care of herself due to her mental health, finally feels loved romantically & comforted by Harvey?

❤️‍🩹 One Of Those Days 🩺

synopsis: A farmer already troubled by insecurity seems to be having -you guessed it- one of those days. When even their reflection in the mirror seems to be laughing at them, it'll take some grit, spit and a shoulder to lean on to help them out of their funk. Luckily, their boyfriend Dr. Harvey has two of those. <3 Insecure+Fem!Farmer X Harvey, 2nd person POV, romance, hurt+comfort, SFW, mild angst.

w.c.: 2k words!

content warnings: Body image issues, spiraling, mental health issues, struggles to take care of oneself, hurt/comfort, mild-to-moderate angst.

A.N.: YOWZA, this hit a little close to home 😭 But I'm grateful for the request!!!! It was really comforting and even healing to write the things that some people need to hear, myself included :,) enjoy!!!

Some days, the mirror was nothing but a silver prison.

Guilt pricked at your conscience for how vain others would think you were, helplessly enraptured by your own reflection. The only reason for it could be vulgar self-adoration, after all, with the way your eyes would wander to even the faintest counterimage in a passing window. In fairness to yourself, you knew that most wouldn't think twice of the gesture. Everyone indulged in a little modest grooming from time to time, whether it be to fix a stray hair or touch up a wrinkled collar. Oftentimes, though mostly in public, you hardly thought of it, yourself.

If only it were the case in private. Instead, here you stood before the mirror of the farmhouse bathroom, kept company by only the old buzzing lights above and the reflection before you.

What a flawed human being.

Your outfit from the earlier Flower Dance lay crumpled in a neglected plastic laundry basket, and you stared at yourself in the pajamas you had just changed into. It was your second year of attending the event, and somehow, even when you were nothing but a greenhorn with grass-stained knees and nary a friend in town, it seemed easier your first time around.

They seemed distant, once upon a time. Strangers, those townsfolk were, acquaintances at best and at worst, mildly unfriendly. You didn't think about them so deeply, but time had a way of dribbling salt into weathered wounds. Wounds that had been opened long ago, but stung at the sight of these young, thin, healthy and beautiful people prancing about in their suits and dresses in a scene that belonged on the cover of a spring magazine.

If the mirror was a prison, then your mind was the warden. And if your mind was the warden, then it was a cruel one.

You could tolerate not being the most beautiful person on the field. You could appreciate how lovely the others all looked, but the worst part of it all was the slithering voice in the back of your head and the nasty things it told you. Why bother trying if you'll never be as pretty, it whispered, why bother with anything at all, when you'll never be as smart? As successful? As lovable and worthwhile?

Just that morning, you'd nearly given in to that very voice. It constricted your thoughts and mind as you woke up alone in a too-empty bed. Why bother going to the Flower Dance if you'll only look and feel like a dirt-stained joke?

In the midst of your spiral, you slowed. Reality seemed to become real again, if even just a tiny bit. Even the mirror in front of you was a mite less intimidating than before as you recalled the note Harvey left on your nightstand. The one that prompted you to crawl out from under the suffocatingly warm sheets at the break of six in the morning to read it.

Oftentimes, you were the one leaving notes instead. But you remembered what he wrote to you that morning; something about getting out early to help with the festival setup, although your sleep-addled brain drunk with self-deprecation felt stung by his absence.

Even then, in a quick, scribbled and hasty note, Harvey was loving. He called you his love. He sternly reminded you to eat the breakfast he'd left for you and to take a shower and brush your teeth, and even doodled a few hearts around the paper scrap he'd written on.

He loved you. He adored you. Why did being loved feel so numb? Did you even love him the way he deserved?

"Honey? Are you alright in there?"

A knock on the bathroom door startled a sniffle out of you. When did you begin crying? You cleared your throat with a small cough and mumbled a meek reply about feeling sick.

He didn't sound convinced.

"I'm- I'm a bit worried," he admitted. You remained silent, giving him time to elaborate, "At the Flower Dance, you seemed pretty out of it. If you need some space, it's perfectly healthy to take some time to recollect your thoughts, but..."

He paused. It was just a moment, a brief crack in the conversation.

"But I'd hate to leave you alone at a time you need somebody."

Those words, those damn words finally got you to choke out a sob. It was a miracle he'd stuck with you this long. Even getting him to move in was the kind of good fortune you'd never earned, neither with your body or personality.

"Come in," you beckoned him quietly, against your better judgement.

When the door creaked open, you had already been readied by the rapid-fire insults spat by the voice to expect the worst. He would sneer at you for being weak. A crybaby, too- maybe he would even be disgusted by your dishevelled appearance. Or Yoba forbid, disappointed in you for letting one bad day bother you so deeply.

Oddly enough, he didn't seem any of that. His jacket from the dance earlier had already been doffed along with his bowtie, leaving him in the gentle blues of his button-up and suit slacks. The worst thing he regarded you with was worry.

In the very back of his eyes, you saw his love.

"Let me guess," he sighed sympathetically, "one of those days?"

You nodded with a weak, wry smile, wiping tears unshed from your eyes. How did he always seem to know?

When you raised your arms wordlessly, the silent signal was quickly recognized. You felt his arms close around you in a gentle, enveloping hug, muffling the thoughts that clouded your harried mind. The steady rise and fall of his breathing as you rested your head on his shoulders brought you softly to your senses, and slowly, you tried to match his rhythm.

In, two, three, four...Out, two, three, four.

In, two, three, four, out, two, three, four.

The thoughts grew duller. They weren't gone, but you didn't feel so suffocated and trapped by them.

You didn't feel alone.

Another smile played at your features; a genuine one, as you felt the slight tickle of his mustache when he pressed his lips to your forehead. The habit normally came out in times like these, when you needed a little soothing. It wasn't quite a kiss, but his affection was clear in the way that he kept you as close as he did.

"Do you want to talk?" Harvey asked earnestly. "It's alright if not. Distraction can also be a healthy way to cope with or recover from unpleasant thoughts. We can watch some TV, have a snack...?"

Talking would've been a tempting offer, if calming down hadn't been such a chore already. It would've dragged you back down to dredge all your self-doubt back up, and although you saw that Harvey was trying his best to give you the ultimate choice, the both of you knew well enough which one would be the healthier option.

Soon enough, you found yourself under a thick knitted blanket (a thank-you gift from Granny Evelyn for your regular leek deliveries throughout the spring) and curled up your couch, a movie set on low volume playing on your ancient television set. It wasn't a great movie, perhaps not even a good movie, but it was just the right amount of familiar to ease you into a more comfortable state of mind. The soft humming of the microwave buzzed behind you, dotted with the occasional pop of a popcorn kernel. The rest of Harvey's suit from the Flower Dance lay draped over the back of the couch, traded in for some more suitable nightclothes.

Harvey eventually arrived with a bowl of popcorn in hand. Sitting beside you, he draped an arm over your shoulder and gave your temple a quick yet meaningful peck. Awkwardly, you absorbed him under your blanket in an amoebaesque fashion, giving him just enough time to put the bowl on the coffee table before engulfing him to near completion. The corners of his mustache curled upwards in that endearing smile of his.

Time passed. Perhaps too much, perhaps too little. Scene by repetitive scene, the movie passed itself by, leaving you both in a comfortable silence. Your mind was calm. The thoughts had passed, for the most part. Like jellyfish in a reef, troublesome feelings floated through you still, but you knew that they were temporary. They would always come and go, but by the night's end, jellyfish were still bound to the current. They'd drift away. The reef had been there long before, and the reef would be there long after. Scars would always fade. Life would carry on.

"...You're right, Harvey," you chuckled softly. "I was having one of those days."

He shifted curiously to face you. Your mind was clear. You were ready.

You told him about the Flower Dance today. You told him about the countless times before that where you'd felt unhappy, unattractive unworthy and unloved. There were times as you spoke where your voice faltered or cracked, but you carried on, not because you felt the need to be strong, but because you felt safe enough to be vulnerable. Harvey listened quietly and intently, your every word committing deeply to his mind. All the time you spoke, he held your hand, giving you encouraging squeezes where you stumbled and holding it closer where you grew silent.

He understood.

Your eyes finally met with his as you finished your explanation. He wasn't sneering, disgusted or disappointed- Harvey was concerned. And still just as in love with you as you were with him.

"I've...Had a lot of these issues too," he admitted tenderly. "I don't want to draw attention away from your issues. I just want you to know that I understand where you're coming from, love. Feeling like your body isn't good enough, feeling like your efforts aren't good enough, just feeling like you yourself aren't good enough."

"But you are," Harvey affirmed you. "For one, I've never looked at you and thought that there was something wrong with you or the way you look. Your body is your own and that's why I love it- scars, cellulite, rolls and all. The flaws you think you have don't make you unattractive. Every little detail you look at in the mirror and feel insecure about, I could write a love poem about the exact same thing."

You snorted a little. "Alright, Elliott. Might as well grow out your hair and move onto the beach."

Harvey rolled his eyes at your comment. After a playful pinch to your side, he continued, "And secondly, the only thing we can ever do in life is our best. Judging your own accomplishments by those of other people is just going to get you down. Just because your life doesn't look like someone else's doesn't mean you're not living it as well as you can. I'm proud of you for all that you're putting forward, even if it's just to get out of bed and do your chores on the farm. When you struggle with this feeling of inadequacy on a daily basis, it's important to focus on what you can do instead of what you can't, you know?"

"Someone dabbled in psychology," you teased him.

"That and I have a good therapist," he shrugged, smiling guiltily. "Something you could benefit from, yourself. We can talk about it when you're ready?"

It was a start. You nodded in agreement.

A startling noise from the television caught your attention. The movie had ended.

However you felt, you couldn't describe it. You still carried the weight of your feelings with you, but it didn't feel as heavy as before. It wasn't quite numb, nor did those feelings go away, but you felt more ready to carry the load, knowing that you wouldn't be doing it alone. You had Harvey. You had your friends in town. Even your farm animals and their antics, they were reason enough to keep pushing forward.

"I love you, Harvey."

It wasn't a grand declaration or something that had to be said, but you wanted to say it, if only to see the pink tinge in his cheeks when you did. You stifled a laugh at his shocked expression. Just by looking at him, anyone else would think that it was the first and not the thousandth time you'd told him.

He couldn't even look you in the eye when he said it back, the sweetheart.

"I...I love you too."

~FIN~

[megumi-fm]

this week fortnight on megumi.fm ▸ the last leg

is that a pun referring to my aching ankle? yes. is resting at home for another week gonna ruin my mental health? yes. but am I exaggerating and throwing a tantrum for something that's probably not a big deal? also yes.

📋 Tasks

💻 Internship // progress tracker ↳ biopython model replication ✅ ↳ code for obtaining single fasta from overlapping sequences ✅ ↳ running HMMer and superfamily script✅ ↳ output analysis 🔁 ↳ literature review on transport proteins 🔁 ↳ transport protein family analysis 🔁 🎓 Uni ↳ our paper is finally out! there's a doi and everything now <3 it's not open access though :/// I might do some totally legal things to ensure more people can read it ↳ collected the hardcopy of my LOR ↳ collected my gradecard ↳ visited my advisor and updated her on stuff 🩺Radiomics Project ↳ radiomic features finalized✅ ↳ data cleanup 🔁

📅 Daily-s

🛌 consistent sleep [14/14] 💧 good water intake [14/14] 👟 exercise [/14] just basic stuff to maintain ankle mobility

Fun Stuff this week

💗i went to uni to watch one of my friends present something to the juniors! then I spent the afternoon chatting with my guide and later on went window shopping with my best friends (in retrospect i should not have done this because my ankle got infinitely worse the next day and now I'm stuck resting at home for an additional two weeks) 🎮playing undertale with @muakrrr 📺 ongoing: Marry my Husband, Cherry Magic Th, Perfect Propose, Doctor Slump, Flex X Cop 📺 binged: Blueming, Roommates of Poongduck 304 📹 Started watching Going Seventeen // so I've been listening to SVT for a while now and I did watch their Don't Lie II eps like two years ago but I never really checked anything else... however, considering that I'm stuck at home and that @zzzzzestforlife (who has impeccable taste) has mentioned it often on their posts, I decided to check out GoSe properly and. wow. I started with their mystery episodes [fav scenes under cut] and now I'm watching GoSe2020 in chronological order and !!!!!! The concepts, the storylines, the acting, the humour, the editing, even the subtitles are all so so good. I've been watching this show for two weeks now and I am now officially a cubic <3

📻 This week's soundtrack

Wk1: The Best of ATEEZ // I've been real obsessed since their 2024 world tour clips started showing up on social media; I was a casual enjoyer up to this point and then I went and checked them out and it's all so dystopian and immersive. My favourites would be Intro: Long Journey (which makes me feel like I'm in Pirates of the Caribbean), the Symphony version of Wonderland (for its musicality and Jungho hitting those notes), MATZ (that is insane in it's the visual storytelling in the MV) and Wake Up (whose performance choreo ended me) Wk2: The Best of BTS // in an attempt to revive a project I abandoned a year ago, I spent wayy too much time curating this playlist to get the most satisfying BTS transitions ever and I can confidently say that I'm nowhere close to my goal T-T but I kind of like the way it is now so I am simply going to give up

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[Feb 12 to Feb 25 ; week 7+8/52 || this was not supposed to be one post but then... idk what happened... I feel very dull lately because of my ankle and just when I thought it was getting better it's become painful again... my friends and parents keep chastising me (and fairly so) for trying to move around even before I fully heal but patience has never been my strong suit. sitting still is really the biggest punishment for a hyperactive ADHD kid like me... i'm sure plenty others have it worse but... yeah... GoSe really carrying my mental health right now ]

my fav GoSe scenes

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[fyodorloveclub]

Also the thing is, that in theory I don't want to any interaction, especially romantic or sexual, with my favourite men, if they are suddenly, in some crazy isekai scenario or something, become real. If they are also, in theory, by somd miracle, become interested in me, which will made me highly uncomfortable. Like, no Mr.Gojo, I don't want hugs or kisses or ANYTHING from you, I want to be left alone, no I don't want to talk thankyouverymuchaaaaaa- ! Maybe it's because of my poor mental health and not having even an ounce of self love, but whatever, stay in your box and be fictional pal.

~🩺

LMAO in some crazy isekai where they become real is so funny. but i totally understand that, from an asexual point of view. i might be interested in an IRL fyodor or toji or oda but i can see why you wouldn't have any interest in any irl men at all. stay as pixels or words on a page pls!!

[queers-gambit]

Saltburn masterlist

requesting rules and masterlist

requests are CLOSED where to watch: Amazon Prime / Prime Video

I Solemnly Swear That I Am Up To No Good

basking in the sunshine, breathing fresh air, bare skin tickled by tall grass, and Felix, who can't focus on the Half Blood Prince when his girl's got his full blooded attention.

word count: 2.3k+

🍒 author's favorite 🙊 general language and content warning 🚬 illicit material use 🧸 fluff 🥰 romance 💍 established relationship 🔥 gentle NSFW 🐝 stand-alone / oneshot

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kinda-sorta Felix Catton headcanons

I see Felix as the kinda guy who is laid back but with his girl at Saltburn because she’s shy he’d be the one who would pick out her dresses for dinner, put his hand on her throat or up her skirt whenever he wants and even just to get her attention, always pulling her on his lap even if there is an open seat next to him, and maybe he’d make her call him daddy.

🧸 fluff 🥰 romance 💍 established relationship 🙊 general language and content warning

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Lost and Found

you're just friends, but on your first night at Saltburn, you get lost in the vast halls and accidentally walk in on lover boy after a bath. he wants you to stay.

word count: 3.6k+

🍒 author's favorite 🧸 fluff 🥰 romance 🐑 filler 🙊 general language and content warning ✝️ Lord's name in vain 🧠 depiction of mental health (anxiety)

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Simple, Easy, Effortless

from across the dance floor, Felix locks eyes with you and is instantly smitten. is it love at first sight? lust? he's determined to know.

word count: 5.1k+

🍒 author's favorite 🥰 romance 🙊 general language and content warning ❄️ mention of illicit material use [cocaine] 🥂 alcohol consumption ✝️ Lord's name in vain 🔏 barely edited

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Midsummer Night(mare)'s Dream

when Oliver's obsession reaches new heights, you fear Felix might return the affection - resulting in bloody flower petals suffocating you.

word count: 12.9k+

🍒 author's favorite 🌸 Hanahaki Disease AU 🤮 depiction of physical illness 🩺 depiction of medical phenomenon 🩸 depiction of blood / injury 🫠 depiction of self-destruction ⏳ alternate timeline ✝️ Lord's name in vain 🥂 alcohol consumption 🚬 brief illicit material use 🥊 brief depiction of physical aggression 🙊 general language and content warning 💔 angst 🎭 drama ❤️‍🩹 hurt and comfort ⚠️ spoilers ♻️ "friends to 'strangers' to lovers" kinda 🧂 Fix It Felix 👯‍♀️ "best friends" trope 🐍 dead parents / family angst 💛 requires maturity and caution

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kinda-sorta wedding AU HCs

write-in regarding what a Saltburn wedding would look like

word count: 1.4k+

no warnings which is suspicious as hell

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But You Without Me Ain't Nice

deciding to surprise your boyfriend for Christmas after studying abroad, only to discover him in the arms of another. when you return to Oxford, so does his desire. or the request: felix cheats and tries to win reader back

word count: 5.7k+

⏳ AU timeline 🧸 very little fluff at the end 🎭 drama 💔 angst ❤️‍🩹 hurt and comfort 💣 relationship angst 💍 established relationship 🐝 stand-alone / oneshot 🙊 general language and content warning 🍄 small toxic relationship ? 🥂 depiction of alcohol consumption 🧂 Fix It, Felix

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requesting rules and masterlist

[sug4rfre3]

⋆.sug4fre3 presentation .ᐟ

hello !⭑

• im sugar free , im turning 17 and im french. i can speak english , spanish , russian and french ofc 🤟🏻.

• i have ed’s since i’m 7 years old , i get into an0rexi4 , bul1m14 and hyp3rf4gi4. ( yup )

• i already got hospitalised in a mental health hospital for a few times. 😧

• i am actually seeing a psychologist, a psychiatrist , a psychomotor therapist , nurses , and a doctor. it does help me !

• i have depression and im taking medecines 🩺( sertraline . atarax . tercian )

• my lowest weight atm was 54kg/110lbs and my highest was 68kg/149lbs 💀 ( help.)

• i am 155cm / 5'1

• i am a musicien !! i play drum 🥁🤍 , and i really enjoy it (:

• i like anime , reading , smelling good , makeup , my friends , coffee , having good grades , and i like to lose weight .

• im a student at college and im preparing myself to be a english teacher ( my dream ! )

-> i am not encouraging anyone who doesn’t have a ed to st⭐️ve , restrict etc .

im just sharing my weight loss progress here , my eatings habits .. my victories and my defeat.

hope you like my blog

XOXO (๑>؂•̀๑)

[medicineinside]

Improve your memory 🧠

Be physically active every day 🏃🏽‍♀️

- Physical activity raises blood flow to the whole body, including the brain. This might help keep your memory sharp

Stay mentally active and spend time with others 🍿

- Do crossword puzzles. Read. Play games. Learn to play a musical instrument. Try a new hobby. Look for opportunities to get together with loved ones, friends and other people, especially if you live alone

Stay organized 🗂️

- Keep to-do lists up to date. Check off items you've finished. Try grouping similar concepts and terms together, or make an outline of your notes and textbook readings to help group related concepts

Sleep well 🛌

- Make getting enough healthy sleep a priority. Adults should sleep 7 to 9 hours a night on a regular basis

Eat a healthy diet 🥦

- Eat fruits, vegetables and whole grains

Manage chronic health problems 🩺

- The better you take care of yourself, the better your memory is likely to be

Relate new information to things you’re already aware of 🔗

- If you establish a connection between the new information and something you already know and remember, then it can improve the likelihood of remembering the new information

Read out loud 🗣️

- There is research that has found that when something is read out loud, it helps to memorise the materials better

[faepunkprince]

🦾🩺 !! :3

🦾- Johnny Silverhand

Ohkay buckle up! As you know, Johnny was actually Valentine's bisexual awakening in his teens. He latched on to Johnny and to Samurai and their music got him through a whole hell of a lot, and they're still his favorite band. So, fast forward to waking up with him stuck in his head and him being a total prick- which he expected to some degree but like, damn dude. It's a uniquely shitty experience to have the same voice that kept you from ending it telling you to. Johnny’s not kind to him, and he knows Valentine will pretty much just take it, but for a while his mental health absolutely tanks, before Johnny’s got a realization- Valentine adores him and he can use that, so at first when he starts acting like he wants to be civil, it's probably straight up manipulation, it's purely to make him do what Johnny wants, and it works.

Valentine can't hold a grudge against him, even when he's being the literal worst, so when he's nice it brings out the people pleaser in Valentine, it brings out just how much he needs connection, and oh, how he's already fallen for Johnny all over again. And Johnny gets to watch it happen. Great for the plan. A little sad, though, wanting this bad for someone like him to?? Be halfway decent to him?

He realizes partway through a nasty depressive spiral that hey, hey, don't be stupid, don't fuckin joke like that, Valentine- the way he could feel his chest ache at the thought of something happening to Valentine. Of losing Valentine. But he is. He is losing Valentine, and now he can see it. And now he cares.

He doesn't know when he fell for Valentine, but he can remember the fear and sickening taste in their mouth- in Valentine's mouth, the first time he said I love you. Almost too late. And even in that moment, the joy he felt at hearing it was overwhelming.

I haven't decided on a game canon ending but hc eventually they get Johnny's body back so they and Kerry can be happy

🩺- Viktor Vektor

Probably the closest thing Valentine's ever had to a father figure, he's pretty much the only ripper Valentine is comfortable going to. Vik knows about his anxiety, about his mental health struggles (and his Guest), and his past, and he's so patient when Valentine needs it but he's also firm with him when he has to be.

Non-chipped Valentine still probably only goes to Vik, honestly.

[unisex-muffin]

Stealing this from myself (original on my dA)

Send me a Character and an Emoji and I'll try my best to come up with a headcanon.

🍱 Food and Drink

🧠 Mental Health

🩺 Physical Health

🛏️ Sleep

🛑 Stress

🌡️Sickness

🖍️ Hobbies

👪 Family

🤝 Friends

👕 Style

📎 Work or School

🌧️ Sadness

🔥 Anger

🌈 Happiness

👻 Fear and Phobias

🧸 Comfort

💖 Love and Affection

🎫 Traveling

🐵 Random

You can use this too, either reblog this or copy the list from here or the dA page. Tag your fandom, go wild.

[zombieunicornzeal]

RECOVER IF YOU CAN. I SUPPORT YOU. 💗💖💗

24yrs old. Minors DNI.

Mental health blog. Rants and random posts, frequent.

Mixed Personality Disorder. C-PTSD. Atypical Ana. And ADHD. 🍭🫐🍒🧊🍬🍭

Have a cat named Zany. He is the light in my life. I love him so much. 😺

Finally got back on track with becoming a doctor/surgeon. Thinking something in cardiology and Emergency Medicine. 🫀🫁💊🩻🩺🩼🧬🥼🥽

Wellcome to moots who are friendly and wanna chat in the comments (if at all). Always here if you need to vent. You are not alone. I am here for you. 👑🛍🎒🩴👑💝💗💝