#Mourning a loss

[makoto-kaiser-blog]

🎃WHY ARE YOU LEAKING?🩸

A DRAWING I MADE BEFORE BED OF JACK WONDERING WHY BLOODY IS LEAKING FROM HIS EYES.

CONTEXT: I'VE BEEN DRAWING JACK A LOT AND KNOW HE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND EMOTIONS VERY WELL SINCE HE'S STILL LEARNING. I WANTED TO SEE WHAT IT WOULD BE LIKE IF HE SAW BLOODMOON (THE EMOTIONAL TWIN) MOURNING OVER THEIR FALLEN TWIN(THE SMART ONE)

I DREW THE OTHER TWIN AS A SMALL ANGEL/DEMON?? SEEING HIS BROTHER CRYING FOR HIM. SOLAR KNOWS JACK DOESN'T UNDERSTAND AND HE HIMSELF DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO FEEL ABOUT THE BLOOD TWINS, BUT HE'S GLAD JACK IS TRYING.

SHOULD I MAKE A SHORT STORY ABOUT THIS???

[turtles-hurtles-with-gurtles]

I just realized I can’t get over the death of my rabbit Walnut, he literally kept my mental state together and he always comforted me during my panic attacks and mental breakdowns, soon is his 3rd year death mark… I miss him everyday and I keep sobbing thinking of him…

Don’t know how to cope…

Here are some photos of my fat potato

[rocktheholygrail]

1x08 || 2x10

[3lostyears]

until i recently read posts on here about how there is an inherent queerness to the doctor and rose's relationship in how it's unspoken and filled with yearning that i'd never really considered that element, despite knowing for ages that RTD is gay but. man. it's just reframed a lot of the series for me, like the idea that you have this lonely man who's just watched his people die and is self-destructive and misanthropic and traumatised and he can love again and he wants to but it has so many risks.

but especially S3 and how it adds even more weight to the doctor's grieving widower status. how he tells martha that he and rose were together but martha refers to rose as a friend to tallulah; the fact that he can only say they were together once she is gone; how the only other person that both can feel how he feels but also understands the depth of his feelings is jack, a queer man himself. and I've been thinking to myself lately oh, it's ok, the doctor and rose probably accidentally got married on at least one planet or something but also the point is that there was no official title that could convey to people the extent that they meant to each other, that the doctor can really only tell donna that rose was his friend even though it is so wholly inadequate and she comes to see that by the end of the episode (and martha too of course). how people who saw the doctor and rose together assumed they were a couple, like on krop tor, but once there's no more physical evidence of the relationship it becomes more vague (and simultaneously clearer).

anyway something about how christopher eccleston said he based his portrayal of nine on RTD and something about RTD saying that his husband is "in every good man i write now" and how the doctor and ruby seeing each other in the club mimics his first meeting with his husband aka the one moment he would use a time machine to go back to hmmm

[introspectivememories]

buggy who turns to shanks one night after they've reunited and says softly, with indecipherable look in his eyes and says, "i'm not in love with you anymore." and shanks, shocked beyond belief, heart aching with a want he didn't even know he had, with a need he hadn't even realized was there, thinks quietly to himself, i didn't know you ever were

[dovewingkinnie]

i have dark history with this man that goes back years

[darkpoetrynprose]

“Grief, I’ve learned, is really just love. It’s all the love you want to give, but cannot. All that unspent love gathers up in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat, and in that hollow part of your chest. Grief is just love with no place to go.”

― Jamie Anderson

[leopardmuffinxo]

elevator eyes my beloved

[suntails]

fallen

[lukasadss]

Honestly, missed opportunity for them to have had Zuko find the scarf after Katara got rid of it and bring that to June to help find the gaang, since Kat didn't loose her necklace in this version and they put so much focus on the scarf

[crawley-fell]

Aziraphale not picking up Crowley in 1827 when he was small and cooing at him mockingly will always be a missed opportunity

[alexa-crowe]

BRIDGERTON 1.02 | "Shock and Delight"

[tawaifeddiediaz]

do you ever think about how much it hurts eddie when chris expresses how much of his mother he's beginning to lose. because we know that he does his best to keep her memory alive, that they go to her grave and they talk openly about her. but there are things that eddie will never be able to replicate for him - her voice, the way she smelled, the way she'd walk towards him, how she felt when she held him close, etc - and chris will continue to lose those details even if eddie talked about shannon 24/7 for the rest of his life.

that is a sort of helplessness that i don't think anyone talks about enough, and that makes eddie's expression when he overhears chris talking to buck all the more wounded

[navy-leader]

A softer beginning

[logicalbookthief]

The decision to have the people at Orange Town held captive as the crowd in the circus tent, made to be a part of the spectacle by the very pirates who destroyed their home, forced to laugh through their terror and despair, was actually a stroke of genius. Because it so perfectly captures the core tenet of One Piece, which is that robbing someone of their essential freedoms, such as the freedom to laugh when they want, is the worst crime anybody can commit.

[roses-by-other-names]

Thought I could do it alone

Like I had something to prove

But Austin sunsets,

Won’t let me say goodbye to you

So I’ll get fucked up

Say goodbye to sobriety

Til I’m so numb

But then I hear it quietly

Your voice in my head

“What the fuck are you doing?”

And I’ll tell you

im fighting a battle im gonna lose

Then you’ll tell me

“Don’t you dare use me as a your excuse”

And of course, you’re right

Like you alway were

When it wasn’t about you

but now I’m faded

Crying on the floor

Just fucking wasted

And the cops are at the door

I’m so sick of

being a burden to you all

Can’t stop thinking

It should’ve been me

With fentanyl in my veins

Drifting off to sleep

and you should be here,

You should be here.

22, so much life to live,

Smoking a joint under the eclipse