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sixie · 11 months

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I have drawn too much fluff today

Gotta draw some suffering next time :)

#My art is like roulette #One day art is cute and fluffy #Next day is nothing but suffering #That's just how I roll #myart #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd fanart #chuuya #dazai #soukoku

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doodlebloo · 13 days

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Nothing will ever rewire my brain like c!Schlatt screaming "Make it hurt!" at c!Tubbo's execution

#+ c!Techno saying hed try and make it as painless as possible (though he failed miserably)#like. how long did cschlatt know. do you think he was nicer to ctubbo in the days leading up to the festival to make it hurt him more #''make it hurt'' from someone who cared about next to nothing. means everything.#like. which is worse for ctubbo. cDrm seeing him as nothing but an object to use to get ctommy to comply?#or cSchlatt wanting to make him hurt! wanting to watch him suffer! eanting to see him yell for help while no one saves him!#and the thing is i dont think cSchlatt ever really wanted that!!!!!! he wanted to make the execution hurt like cTub's betrayal hurt him!!#the way BOTH cSchlatt and cDrm treat him is bc hes so ride or die for Tommy. everything all the time with cTub comes right back to cTommy.#doodle.txt

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owenthetokencishet · 2 years

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Remade an oldie of mine

#hello mutuals #there might be more arcaneposting over the next couple of days #i am sick snd have nothing better to do than watch my blorbos suffer #arcane #arcane league of lesbians #somebody put jinx on Mythbusters she'll have the time of her life #arcaneposting #Arcane league of legends

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beevean · 8 months

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vs

Only one of them comes off as an actually cool dude who cares about giving credit when it's due.

The other is just an arrogant dick :^)

#fans don't look #trevor belmont #posts that make sense to me and me only #it's just that i love trevor precisely because he's the sonic of castlevania #he will kick your whole ass one second and sing the praises of the superpower of teamwork™ the next #they're both great friends!! even with a hint of cockiness #but nooooooo sonic has to turn into a whole braggart #almost makes me glad that n!trevor is nothing like trevor so i don't have to suffer like this #just look at trevor *immediately* pointing out that he's not the only one who deserves to be remembered for killing dracula #reminds me a little of sonic thanking tails and knuckles in heroes 🥺#one day western writers will remember that sonic is polite but that day gets further away

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slutdge · 6 months

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I dont really think ive processed just how badly my dads behavior has effected me this year its really the worst it has ever been and i think im avoiding thinking too hard about it cause i know im a danger to myself if i do lol

#multiple times this year he told me that my disability is “killing mother'' on my moms behalf when she never #asked him to say that and never expressed that #like yeah my moms not great but she never said me being disabled was ''killing her''#he physically assaulted me the night before my grandmothers funeral and i had to show up and face him the next day like nothing happened #every time i was unable to do something because of my disability after my grandmothers diagnosis #he would really lean in to telling me i wasnt ''that bad'' and basically just say i wasnt allowed to suffer because my grandma was dying #like i was supposed to suddenly stop being disabled because of that #and on multiple occassions he implied that i didnt cate she was dying despite me going to see her a hundred times more #than he did after she was diagnosed #he lied to a judge and got a court order to have me arrested and institutionalized #during which i was slammed face down into concrete by police while they were ''apprehending'' me #and then i had to spend 6 hours talking to psychoatrists trying to make them understand that he is doing this maliciously #for them to just tell me to ''calm down 🙄'' like it was unreasonable to be upset #and also be mocked by the cops who arrested me the entire time i was in police custody #i hate him i hate him he deserves to kill himself not me

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fleshdyke · 8 months

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you guys remember that time my dad killed my pet and then blamed me for it lol

#i still miss jpeg so fucking much #i remember for weeks after he died i would turn on his light in the morning and forget that he wasn’t there to greet me and it was so awful #remembering he was dead every single morning #and every few days i would put a little plant food in the tank and it was such a fucking gut punch every time #bc the cycle was disrupted now. nothing was working like how it was supposed to bc he wasn’t there anymore. those plants that lived off him #for months were the only thing i had left of him #and he told me at one point after he died ‘next time you get a betta you have to take care of it’ like FUCK YOU I DID! I FUCKING DID!#i cycled the tank and i fed him and i kept tabs on the water levels and i did all his water changes and i told my dad when he started #getting sick bc i wasn’t able to get medicine myself! and he tried to fucking gaslight me into believing that i was delusional!#bc he didn’t want to admit that he was wrong! and he refused to fucking do anything about it to the point where i was scrambling for people #i knew who could drive to take me to the fish store and get medicine #and then he fucking died! he died when i was at school and my dad just flushed him down the toilet #and he told me in the most insensitive way possible #and he tried going ‘im sorry i didnt listen to you’ or whatever like sorry’s not going to fucking cut it you killed my fucking pet #and then he went right back to blaming me for it #and then after he died my brother told me that he’d asked my dad about jpeg one time and he SAID that he was pretty much a goner #he fucking KNEW he was dying and still refused to do anythign??? for what fucking reason? bc he couldn’t admit he was ever wrong? bc he #wanted to watch me suffer?#and then for weeks i was taking care of an empty tank #bc the plants in his tank were the only thing left of him #and i couldn’t let them just sit and wither away bc that’s what i did with jpeg and i couldn’t just watch him die again #and then i moved his plants into the other 40gal and i had to look at the way the other fish ignored jpeg’s favourite anubias #and i had to take down his tank and wash all the rocks and driftwood and pack it all back up and then he was gone for real #jpeg was the first thing i was really proud of and my dad had to fucking take it from me #rambles #vent #pet death

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helianskies · 4 months

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lol guess who has training tomorrow with a european parliament interpreter for both spanish and italian and guess who haha is like totally not mentally prepared to have to interpret four speeches tomorrow with a 6pm finish cuz they decided to schedule italian super late for some reason haha ✌️

#it's maybe 3 hours total of training #but i start at 1pm #and there is a 1.5 hour gap between sessions for no reason like there is nothing else happening #just a long ass gap #so my italian fren and i on our own (cuz not even our lecturer will b there) must suffer #worse for my fren as well bc she has to commute to the next city over during rush hour now :v #helia's ma adventure #im just. suddenly not ready for that much consec in one day..

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kuuniichi · 2 years

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so, chapter 100...

#haha yukine is better now i hope nothing else bad happens .....#mizuchi you better watch your back when you're walking alone on the street cause I'LL BE THERE #this is the day I've been fearing for years #the silver lining is that bishamon is now FINALLY becoming an active character in the manga again #I always had this headcanon that if kazu were to die he'd die as soon as he was reunited with bishamon #perhaps seeing everything he wanted to have #but now it's too late #haha i hope i am wrong #yato pls do something #until next suffering..i mean next month #noragami spoilers #noragami

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neuroticboyfriend · 10 months

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im never going to get quality healthcare am i

#im just going to keep decaying and get shucked around from specialist to specialist #and they all do the same fucking thing. next to nothing.#they blame it on my anxiety or my weight #they dont give me the time of fucking day. ive had appointments that didnt even last THREE MINTUES #they'll run a test or two and very rarely do a procedure #and when that yields jack shit they dump me saying there's nothing they can do #and they apologize and say they're so sorry and they wish they could do more #I DONT WANT YOUR APOLOGIES I WANT YOU TO FUCKING TREAT ME INSTEAD OF HALF ASSING THIS SHIT #YOU WENT TO MEDICAL SCHOOL FOR HOW LONG?? YOU CANT THINK OF ANYTHING ELSE TO DO? BUT IM THE BAD GUY FOR PLAYING DR GOOGLE?#i've SPENT HOURS TRYING TO FIGUREOUT WHATS WRONG WITH ME #YOU HAVENT EVEN SPENT ONE #FUCK YOU holy SHIT #youre just going to leave me to suffer and die. cant wait to live a totally unfulfilling life. never get the chance to live.#i know the life i want and i cant fucking have it. it's nigh impossible #i just want to be happy. but how can i be happy when almost no one takes care of me #julian rants #vent

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catastrxblues · 4 months

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great i think i’ve finally caught a hint of a cold. my question is, where the fuck were you a month ago, when i could actually afford to take a day off?????

#😭#my throat is starting to feel a bit ehhhh and then my nose is runny and i keep sneezing *sighs*#make sense considering that i spent almost the entire weekend outside and that it kept raining once i was going home so #bjt still #also that part about loving chemistry and stuff I LIED #i’m starting to get sick of her #i spent the first five days of this week (well technically last because it’s already 12:17 am but) crying and stressing over it #and then the entirety of this weekend at school studying it #AND THEN i’m going to have to spend the entirety of next week ALSO studying it #and by entirety i mean entirety!!! like i’ll be excused from all classes nrxt week (from morning to afternoon pretty sure) to study the #materials. AND THEN this guy had the audacity to still keep the chem extracurricular going after school on monday 😭#and we usually go on until five HELP ME #AND THEN after that i have extra course and GUESS WHAT. on monday we have physics and CHEM. chem again 😭#the worst thing about this is that i knoww i’m not good enough to pass the first round anyways you know #it’s like i’m suffering through this for nothing it’s just aghhhh #bismillah though i guess #*smiling through the pain*#chem tag #nadirants

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silenthillbunni · 4 months

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Why would you wish your neighbors to fkn die just because they make noise?

gosh some ppl are way too sensitive and cant handle ppl saying anything at all huh

#bc im angry and they are RUINING MY DAY EVERY SINGLE DAY #bc they make noise that wouldnt be heard if they didnt live in next to empty apartments #bc im extremely nosie sensitive and get sensory overload very easily and noise makes me suicidal and homicidal #good for you that you dont care!!!! you are FORTUNATE for not being this heavily affected by noise. you're not better than me. ur lucky #grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr it makes me so annoyed that ppl like u just cant handle mentally ill ppl VENTING.#am i sending them death threats? no. am i beating them up? no. am i sending complaints to them? no. i am enduring my suffering #bc we live in a world where nobody cares abt ppl who arent normal. i am in genuine physical pain bc of this everyday #do u think this is fun for me???? do u think i want to be like this? no! i'd kille to be like u who can walk unaffected thru life!!!!!!#do u think i enjoy spending my days in agony just bc noise upsets me? i cant fkn focus on my school work!!!!!!! or anything else!!!!!!!!!#do u know that there is NOTHING i can do? i have to accept a life of daily torment bc im noise sensitive #if society allowed me i'd live in specific apartments designed for noise sensitive ppl. or in a cottage on the countryside #but society dont give a fuck abt ppl who diverge from being normal #also omfg just bc i vent and say i wish they died dont mean i actually genuinely want them to die #why are y'all so black and white?????? why is it so hard to understand that just bc u express smth in anger dont mean u ACTUALLY want it #tbh y'all are too much. and fkn unfair. ppl are actually allowed to vent in anger and let out steam and not suppress their emotions #i have never done anything to cause another person harm. i even have high blood pressure bc im so stressed out yet i never do anything #i have done NOTHING to harm my neighbors. the only thing i do is vent on my blog #do u really think theyre magically gonna die just bc i vent abt it???????#bro fuck off you made me even angrier like if u cant handle ppl expressing ugly thoughts #u and i are not compatible bc *i* know that u need to express things u might not even mean #but u clearly dont and need everyone to be uwu peace and love and perfect so just leave me alone go awayyyyyyyyyyy

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valleyfthdolls · 11 months

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But god if I’m not thinking about the fact that Cassidy was abandoned in that fucking storage closet

#onyx talks too much #I think about that a lot #when did someone find him? when did William realize he was gone?#how long did it take him to care?#he must have been so fucking scared in there. alone and cold all fucking night with nothing but those horrible animatronics #and the memories of what happened to Elizabeth keeping him company #as soon as someone found him he clung to the first semblance of safety he had #and fell asleep in the arms of his abusive father #did he have to stay there overnight? how long did he sleep the next day? how tired and scared must he have been?#enough to give up and collapse into William’s arms #and sleep as long as he could buried under his blanket the second he got home #no matter the kinds of nightmares he might have been suffering #all he wanted #all he had in that moment was his bed and his stuffed animals #and the one part of the whole world that had even the possibility of being safe to him #because the world outside of his bed sure as hell was never going to be safe #no matter how bad his dreams might be #and he was right #it never was

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frybolg · 11 months

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Probably once a month I think back to one dnd game I dm'd where the party (not the players, please let me clarify) had an orgy before they went to fight a literal world ending construct and that maybe resulted in the Gith becoming eggnant?

The delirious dnd we play at 2am is undefeatable.

#also i was massively suffering from heat exhaustion so the next day went to shit because i couldnt think #and i wanted to run a fun high level combat for everyone even though i absolutely hateeeee combat #the roleplay aspects of the weekend were good #as was the other game boss fight we did #dnd #sometimes feels like no matter how much i plan or prepare or test things #nothing works #I've been playing some other systems which are fun though so i might persuade friends to play a oneshot with one of those #maybe #the group is currently :/#its not ideal but i wish we could all play together again #i wish it was as simple as too many egos but i think my mouth is too big and i dont shut up enough #and some others have massively differing ideas about how to run games and character arcs #i just want to play #im past caring #just let me play dnd with my friends #dungeons and dragons #d&d

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the-mighty-glow-cloud · 1 year

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woke up sick so i stayed home and graded an entire section's lab reports bc i would rather gnaw my own arms off than have to grade 42 lab reports AND 42 exams all in one week :')

#grades are due next friday and i'm already suffering #the exams are what's going to kill me #i can skim the lab reports relatively quickly bc they all basically say the same thing and i have a rubric #but my god the midterms took me three days of doing NOTHING but grading to finish #i'm so SO ready to go on this grant so i can have a break from teaching #i do enjoy teaching but this class has been WAY too demanding

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inkubye · 1 year

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kms kms kms actually kms for being a deliriously mentally ill moron and submitting the wrong fucking document for my assessment worth 50% of the module grade and then getting a 0

#i worked for like 9+ days constantly on that piece of work during a horrific depressive period... all for nothing...#all bc i fucked up heroically at the last step and genuinely dont even remember what exactly went wrong i was tiredand unwell #i am begging the uni to actually have mercy and let the correct essay actually be marked 😭😭😭 kms #once again i am asking god how much more do i have to repent and suffer to be rid of the constant debt of bad karma that im paying back #og post #personal #irls dw im not actually gonna kms. sertraline is pulling through in these trying times. but i will be Suffering for the next month #until i get a response from the uni

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