#Non-host post

[br0-k3n-sch00lb01]

System update: -charlie has not come back -basil is having a fucking meltdown because charlie has not come back -sunny is having a fucking meltdown because basil is having a fucking meltdown because charlie has not come back -Aubrey has tried throwing herself into the lake precisely 1,573 times -Kel is screaming skibidi slicers in blackspace -sol is in the underground tunnels somewhere -milo has somehow conjured an entire fucking carousel -Zip somehow managed to set up a barbecue -MELLO IS DOING SOME NSFW THINGS with a bodypillow that they found in Basil's house -tryst and cosmo are being gay. Again. (In a sfw way just cuddling) -and i cannot find my fucking knife.

Any questions?

[olivers-personal-hell]

HI MY LIKE 6 FOLLOWERS

KOSA WILL CHANGE OUR ENTIRE INTERNET WORLD.

KOSA IS GOING TO SHUT DOWN FANDOM SITES PERMANENTLY. THIS APP WILL GO OBSOLETE IF YOU LET KOSA GO THROUGH.

LGBTQIA WILL GO ALMOST COMPLETELY OBSOLETE IF WE LET KOSA GO THROUGH.

THE ABILITY TO LET PEOPLE BE THEMSELVES WILL GO OBSOLETE IF WE LET KOSA HAPPEN.

FUCK KOSA SHUT THIS SHIT DOWN

FUCK KOSA FUCK ISRAEL AND HAMAS FREE PALESTINE 🇵🇸 🍉

[canon-gabriel-quotes]

Can you post the visual under the audio?

no it has to be a surprise :3

[sailorsoons]

I don't know why I put two I don't care answers I'm tired pls just indicate one of them if you do nawt care lmfao

[toelessbastard]

will prolly try backing up my art to bsky ngl does anyone know if they have a queue function over there

[pienhime]

this is old but i forgot to mention it came out! aqua is one of the more popular hololive members amongst jirai girls in japan, probably because of the total moe overload, but she recently put out a cover for this song (popular w ryousan and jirai girls since its about falling in love with a host and knowing his feelings for you are fake but wanting to be shown more affection anyway) and i thought my followers would enjoy since most of yall are either ryousan girls, jirai girls, or interested in learning about those subcultures!

[lycankeyy]

I guess even other mental illness stuff aside it sometimes gets to me on like an Existential Level the things my brain is willing to do to Survive. I can have full scale crisis level breakdowns and be fine a few hours later because my brain is so good at compartmentalizing out of Necessity. There are people who would kill for this but it's like this because it was Necessary to survive my childhood. And the extent it's actually worth anything is arguable because yeah I don't feel the emotions but the results are the same. I'm the happiest shut-in fully-dependant-on-parents neet the world has ever seen and I probably will be for the foreseeable future

[ecos-syscourse]

we've got nuance. you can tell if somebody is 'faking' their system SOMETIMES.

most of the time? absolutely no. and not on the factors that people base it off of.

You cannot tell if somebody is faking based on how decorated their profiles are, based on how cringey their alters are, based on what their fictives are like... none of that.

You can tell if somebody is 'faking' based on if you are having a conversation with them about their system. Usually, they're not faking they're system, they just don't understand correctly what a dissociative system is like vs. a non dissociative. (i think these are good defining terms...? we are not good at advising non dissociative systems)

However, there is no way to go about telling somebody/a system that they are incorrect in their thinking without them being extremely reactionary. being told that you are wrong about something you hold as truth is extremely difficult to hear.

this is especially true because you, yourself, know less than they do than they do about themselves. do not expect for you to understand their experience more than them, and even if you feel that you do, do not approach anybody as if you do.

(by non dissociative - they commonly form alters instead of splitting them. dissociative systems split alters and are more likely to use parts language than non dissociative systems. these are likely not the right terms, however we have noticed that there are these two main types of systems.)

basically? you can tell if a label is incorrect.

[br0-k3n-sch00lb01]

You, me.

GAS STATION.

-🌿

[pybun]

whats the safest place on the internet where i can write documents and no Al will scrape it?

[jtl-fics]

PJO CROSSOVER??? also andrews memory would absolutely dominate the amazing race

The PJO one is mostly how I handle that when I'm driving into work I like to listen to what I affectionately call 'Punching music' (Lose Control by Hedley has been a favorite recently. I can't describe punching music but like...I know it when I hear it.) and think about fight scenes. There is a plot but 90% of what I've written is Neil doing some wild fight stuff. The 10% of plot written is Kevin Day wanting to know the extent that Neil has to hold back on the Courts because otherwise he'd be snapping racquets left, right, and center. There may be a part where they see how far Neil can accurately shoot an arrow after they all find out. (Imagine any trick shot video except it's the Foxes all crafting increasingly elaborate shots for Neil and Neil just being like "YA DONE?" and nailing it first try with the camera cutting to Andrew doing the horny grip.)

Andrew and Neil are purpose built to just obliterate the Amazing Race competition. They only have a few race related weaknesses.

Andrew hates flying still. This adventure does not improve that but he does become infinitely more okay with just crawling into Neil's lap and ignoring flight attendants.

They both are the most anti-social fucks on the planet. There is no alliance no matter what other teams offer. All of their 'drama' is other people trying to start shit with them but it's just like... you piss off Neil and Andrew? You're out the next round. They are super vengeful (only for each other one group commented about Neil's scars and Andrew went scorched earth to get them out next round. One group made Andrew and Neil go back and do the other challenge at a pitstop that involved heights because Andrew crawling into Neil's lap every flight was hardly subtle and Neil took care of Andrew during that challenge and then TOOK CARE of the team that did it.)

Sometimes Neil runs into familiar faces that make the race SUPER awkward / kind of dangerous depending on the face. (Neil's cousin in the middle of scoping out a hit but has to come over and say hey / the guy him and his mom stole guns from in Germany).

They don't have any real drama going on between them so like the editors have to basically misconstrue one of their conversations super hard to even make it look like they're fighting one episode (making it seem like Andrew is mad at Neil for getting them in 2nd place during the last leg when in fact Andrew thinks it's hilarious because it was the only meal that Kevin would have approved of).

[heliosphere-underthesky]

Once we reach a milestone here, would you be interested in a DTIYS event? I have no monetary prizes, but I'm thinking of drawing something for the winners.

*(DTIYS = Draw This In Your Style)

[melodymonger]

i dont think ill ever figure out what to call my gender identity to be honest. i identify as a man, but our host is a trans girl on hrt. what the fuck does that make me? i definitely experience gender dysphoria about a lot of the effects of hrt, but im still technically amab? i dont even know if calling me a trans guy or a cis guy is more accutate

[ne0nwithazero]

Every time someone he/hims Host, they get more femme

How many more feminine terms do I need to give them until people get that this TV is transgender /lh 💕😭📺

[therealcallmekd]

Crazy how I never post OC content on here.

But alas, Tumblr isn't ready for this guy.

[furiousgoldfish]

Damn i was not expecting the "#tw extreme abuse", thank you very much for your words though

I might be able to help the person who asked about healthy relationships though, ive made a lot of good relationships despite my family:

Communication

•above all else, communicate. Tell them about yourself. Learn about them. Get to know eachother! Likes, dislikes. Boundaries especially! Check in on them. Just a quick hi once in a while can do wonders (lots of relationships fail due to lack of communication or miscommunication)

•listen to eachother

Arguements

•if something happens you can always walk away, make sure the other person understands that they can as well. Take time to collect yourselves and explain later why your upset

•be clear and ask for clarification where you need it

•fights can be scary but dont think that someone will leave you after one

•try to steer clear of insults/threats/blackmail if your angry, thats hard to repair after

Trust

•i know its hard to trust and you can take all the time you need to learn how, but making healthy relationships is a good way to learn trust.

•Dont lie to them or you will get caught up in trying to keep it under wraps (unless its to protect your safety, in that case maybe being around this person is not a good idea), not only will they not trust you but you wont give yourself the opportunity to trust them

Kindness

•be nice. Its simple. Good people, the people that will make for great friends/support/family will be kind back! Go out and meet people! Youll make friends! Just give yourself a chance!

•treat other how you deserve to be treated, with all the love and kindess you should have gotten! They will pay it back, they will love you!

Other notes

•express interest in their interests. You dont have to be a big fan, people will want to show you what they like when they like you. They're sharing something special to them. So ask about it! You dont have to engage much with it, but show them their interests have value. It will make them really happy, and they should be open to yours as well.

•do fun shit together! Something you both enjoy! If there isnt anything that overlaps you can do your own stuff in eachothers company. Just hanging out with them is enough.

•being able to love someone else, is to love yourself. You're filled with so much compassion and care for this person, and they will feel the same. They will be their to love you when life hits the fan.

•again take your time, it can be hard to get right. If it doesn't work out thats an experience you can carry into the next relationship, something to learn from.

Caution:

-make sure they actually make you happy and treat you well, not that theyre just the first person you could latch onto

-make sure you both have personal freedoms, your loyalty to eachother should not come at that cost

-keep yourself safe, safety comes first

Finding good people is a very important one as well, if anyone needs i could try explaining that too. Hope this helps.

Hey thank you for sending this manual!

Yeah your situation is extreme, I'm thinking about you and hoping that you get to experience freedom.

Your manual sounds really nice and is filled with common sense, and I've been following these types of guidelines for most of my life, but still had absolutely no luck. The thing is, this would work if you're surrounded with kind, understanding, non-abusive, friendly people who also just wanted to be friends with you and reciprocate and earn your trust and keep you in your life.

However a lot of people will see your friendly, kind, compassionate and communicative nature and decide to make use of it. It's been the hardest thing for me to realize when the other person is just pretending to be friendly back, in order to exploit me. It's really difficult to take distance from someone when they make you feel guilty for it and attack you for it, and it's hard to not feel guilty and betrayed when it happens. Manipulative people make great use of trust and communication you give them! Treating them with love and kindness will often get you in a situation where love and kindness will be expected, or demanded out of you, while you find yourself unable to ask even for some patience and space for yourself. And I'm worried that this is the situation for most abused people, we're often trying so hard to be kind, communicative, trusting, interested, loyal, patient, giving, caring, compassionate, and they zero in on that and eat it up, taking some time to make us let our guard down, before they start banking on us being in their service.

I have been trying to find good people all of my life, and fell unsuccessful, and I've tried hundreds of people, created a system of red flags that make me drop them, and had to drop pretty much everyone. And it's not as if this manual is generally bad, or I've just sucked so much at communicating and building boundaries, it's just, really difficult after abuse to feel okay around people, and to not be bothered by some of their manipulative nature - it hurts us more than it hurts others.

So even as I'm really bad with people, I can't recommend being very kind, trusting or communicative, of course it's nice if you can be that and not get hurt for it, but I absolutely cannot. It never happened once in my life, that someone returned the same kindness, love and care I gave them, and it often broke my heart. I would have to be very naive to still believe that I just haven't done it for the right person - hundreds of people reacted similarly, took what they could, then either turned on me, hurt me and pretended it was okay and I should stop being sensitive, or abandoned me altogether if I ever stood up to them.

This all is not your fault, and I can completely understand how you sent in these instructions with best of intentions, sincerely believing that this is the key to healthy relationships. It seemed like that to me too, when I was younger! I fully believed this would work, kind people would see me and return the kindness, it would be okay. The only thing I can recommend is the stuff you have under caution - if someone fails to reciprocate, or reciprocates at first and then stops reciprocating, get distance. If your freedom around this person is limited, get away, get distance. If they start treating you worse at any point, get distance. It's not worth ending up in another abusive, neglected or scary situation just for the hope of human connection. And it's also really difficult for an abused person tell when they're being neglected, treated badly or their kindness is not reciprocated, just because we've already been used to so much worse, so anyone not outright threatening to kill us seems like a nice enough person who deserves our whole heart. They often do not.