#Not an excuse

[ask-the-colony-tree-siblings]

hey artificer, gonna be honest here dude i think you're kind of a meanie 3:

Arti: I know! I’m a horrible person! I didn’t even realize what I was doing until Gourmand pulled me off, and now I’ve fucked everything up again! I thought I was getting better. I feel so bad about it now, but I don’t know how I could ever apologize for that. He already hates me so much, there’s no way he’ll ever forgive me for this.

(She’s realized the error of her ways guys)

[ewanmitchellcrumbs]

I have been off of Tumblr all day. But I am saddened and sickened to see what I’ve returned to.

I have a genuine love for the people I interact with here. While I have had my differences in the past with people, most have been resolved by talking it out like mature adults in private, so that we can move past it and resume our friendship. As it should be.

I will admit, I have been unkind about people I have had mutual enmity with, where a resolution was not possible and there was ill feeling on both sides. But who is not guilty of that? The post circulated today contains a blend of genuine screenshots, and a lot of ones that have been doctored. For those that converse with me on a regular basis, you’ll be aware of my use of syntax, turns of phrase and general mannerisms of speech. To quote a good friend “this Ange feels very ooc to me.”

To further address the racism, I will hold my hands up and apologise for not speaking out sooner. I have never excused it, simply been avoidant of it because I did not feel safe to speak out. When someone repeatedly uses the p-slur, laughs at your discomfort and continues to do it, claiming it’s fine because they are of mixed race, it’s difficult to know how to respond beyond simply pulling away quietly and hoping it stops.

I didn’t feel safe to speak on it sooner. To be honest, what forced my hand was finding out that I had been doxxed. That was frightening to me, and has very real life consequences. I have since learned that further illegal action has been taken against other users. That’s not something I want to be a part of. No, I can’t excuse racism, and I can’t excuse doxxing and cyberstalking either. If you felt there was a genuine concern for your safety, wouldn’t you want to act on it? Everything that has transpired since is utterly bewildering to me. The level of hatred is atonishing.

I don’t care what happens to me or this blog, if I’m being perfectly honest, but I do care about the feelings of others, and I appreciate that my inaction has hurt people. If your space feels safer without me in it, please feel free to do what you need to do to remedy that.

All I have ever wanted is to write, and to encourage others to contribute towards the community. I genuinely love this fandom and the friends I have made within it, but sometimes when you love stuff you have to let it go. And I am willing to do that if it means people can move on and continue to be creative.

[i-am-trans-gwender]

How I realized I'm a furry.

I was mildly upset that all the trans artist I liked no longer made relatable comics and instead only made animal hrt. I made a post where I said I didn't like animal hrt and asked for relatable trans comic recommendations. I did NOT mean that people should stop making animal hrt but the post was so poorly worded it made it sound like that's what I meant.

@rey-skye told me this and I deleted the post. I felt bad about the post so I made a post saying I even though I'm not a furry I think it will be cool when gene slicing advances enough that people can become there fursonas irl and I would consider becoming a catgirl. The post was supposed to be an apology.

@ariathelamia said I smelled like a furry in denial. So I talked to both her and @rey-skye to figure out if I'm a furry.

The more I thought about it the more I realized I liked anthropomorphic animals.

Self reflection made me realize my thoughts on animal hrt were caused by internalized transphobia. My transphobic parents like to compare me being trans to furries identifying as animals (I know that not all furries are therians but my parents don't know that.) This gave me a dislike of furries because I blamed them for my parents transphobia. (This is an explanation NOT an excuse).

I shouldn't blame furries for my parents transphobia and I was stupid for playing into respectability politics.

I spent a couple days saying I'm not 100% sure if I'm a furry followed by the most furry statement ever.

I'm now 100% sure I'm a furry and I love animal hrt.

Thank you for everyone who helped me accept I'm a furry and I'm sorry for all the stupid things I said about furries in the past.

[mia-martian]

I wish there was a way to tell minors to be careful and back off of some content.

I know how it is- literally my whole generation has experienced growing up with the internet to some capacity. I grew up with completely uncensored internet, and the reality is that it traumatized me. Because the things I liked had adults interacting with it and making adult content.

And now, there are adults and content farms making traumatizing content diRECTLY targeting kids. Which has happened before, but now I feel like it has increased. I worry a lot for the kids and teens online nowadays.

To any young people that might be reading;

It doesn't matter if "gore doesn't scare you" or how desensitized you may be. When you put yourself in an online space that isn't made with you or your best intentions in mind, you are going to get hurt. You are going to get scrutinized. You're going to see things you aren't meant to and shouldn't see. Being desensitized isn't a strength, it's a result of repeated trauma.

Interact with people your age. If you are not the target demographic for something, tread with caution or just don't interact with it at all.

If you see ANYTHING or ANYONE that makes you uncomfortable, it's okay to just report it, block them, and move on. Don't linger on what makes you uncomfortable or disturbs you. Not for ANY reason.

You don't always have to be an advocate. It's okay to curate your own online experience and focus on what brings you joy. You don't have to constantly think about every issue going on in the world or online. You have to rest before you can act. It's not immoral to choose your mental health over whatever internet drama or controversies or real-world issues may be going on. When things are out of your control, doing your best is more than enough, and stepping away isn't a crime.

Take breaks. For the love of god, try to take breaks. It's hard enough being young as is.

And pLEASE do NOT follow me. Everything else I post is with an adult audience in mind. I'm just some dumbass in my 20's, and I'm still figuring out whatever the hell IM supposed to be about.

Just heed my warnings, and may our paths cross in a later date. Or something cheese like that.

[mariposas8494]

I’m sick, 🫶🏻 but it’s okay.

[cuckoo-on-a-string]

Does anyone else hesitate to reblog because of the usual childhood traumas, or is that just me?

After decades of conditioning to not engage unless I was 105% sure someone wanted me to interact (or be mocked, called "annoying," etc.), I'm so used to quietly leaving likes and moving on that the idea of reblogging is still a little terrifying.

Like, this shit still happens on Facebook. With people I know. Let alone strangers.

So it's really, really okay to just reblog? I know the logical answer, but the conditioning is SCREAMING.

[ariiiiilynn]

Being in a bad mood isn’t an excuse to be an asshole. It can explain why you said/did something impulsively but you still need to be accountable for hurting someone else

[justanamesstuff]

A note to all my friends and mutuals, sorry for being the worst at texting/talking/keeping or starting conversations…I adore you all 💙

[tay0la]

My top 10 / ESC 2024

There isn't a specific ranking of these ten because my favourites really depended on my mood. (Also Moldova, sweetie, I am so sorry you were robbed)

Ukraine 🇺🇦

It came to my attention that people don't like the song and I'm like???? Have you seen the staging??? Also they did really well on the final besides starting second. Ukraine is just really good at serving in this contest.

Armenia 🇦🇲

In my humble opinion one of the best ethnic pop representation this year. I enjoyed every moment of it and I got really scared in the semifinal that they wouldn't make it but they did and slayed.

Netherlands 🇳🇱

Well, sadly, we didn't get the opportunity to enjoy this song in the Grand Final. But it was the first Eurovision song that I listened to this year and I really enjoyed it. It would have come far in the final.

Croatia 🇭🇷

This one was the winner of the Televote, unsurprisingly. It isn't my favourite genre but I like songs I can scream to and just like Europapa, this was an early listening of mine and yeah.

Switzerland 🇨🇭

My beloved. Truly an artwork and, in my opinion, a deserved winner of this contest. Is it the best song? Juries voted so. (And I voted so) A very sympathetic artist and very talented.

Ireland 🇮🇪

HONESTLY HOW POETIC WOULD IT HAVE BEEN OF IRELAND TO WIN IN SWEDEN AND CLAIM THE THRON AGAIN? Also I had no idea what happened on stage but I liked the vibe so I voted for it. :)

France 🇫🇷

Where was the French flag? NO but honestly, this was a really great song and I thought that he would do better in the Jury voting. Maybe even take the trophy home. Would have been as deserved as Switzerland.

Norway 🇳🇴

Norway's result is really sad. The problem is that the Eurovision audience is highly unpredictable and that this wouldn't to well in the Juries wasn't a surprise. I LIKE THE SONG. (Otherwise it wouldn't have been in the top ten) But I just realised we could've had KEIINO and now I feel a really tiny bit robbed.

Germany 🇩🇪

I AM SO HAPPY that this didn't end up last and that he got recognised by the Juries because his voice really didn't deserved the last place AT ALL. Also the more you listen to it, the better it gets (which is actually the case for most German entries). And he got criticised because of his appearance and that wasn't really cool, so I am happy he shut their mouths.

Austria 🇦🇹

Well. I've seen the result coming because her vocals didn't quite turned out well in the semifinal and it got better in the final but she had to perform after France, who delivered.

[deltajuli]

it's all "be yourself" or "don't let other people get in the way of your dreams" until the person is non-white, queer, disabled, (mostly the victims of this are low-functioning) neurodivergents, non-American/European, anything that's not Christian, non traditionalist or if someone's dream is """stupid"""

Then it's always "Why can't you be more like others?" "You'll repent eventually and realize the error of your ways." "You want to do ["weird" hobby] as a job? How stupid! Wouldn't you want something normal instead"

Kinda contradicts the moral, doesn't it?

[monkeygirl727]

Me: *fucks something up*

Me: *tries to explain why I fucked up the thing, cause ya know my brain is a little full of ADHD*

Somebody: "I don't need excuses"

Me: am...am I high???? I wasn't giving an excuse????? I'm trying to explain???? The intricacies of my mind???? And how trauma leads to me avoiding things???? I'm trying to give you the reasoning??? Which yes in someway I guess counts as an excuse but is also reasoning???

[lifblogs]

Deleted my reblog with my commentary. Gotta make my life easier for myself and not be a drama queen.

[i-am-trans-gwender]

I may or may not be a furry.

I will be experimenting with being a furry and see where it goes.

I try to be open minded but I have said things about furries in the past that came across as insensitive. I did not intend any harm but that does not excuse my actions.

Also I'm starting to worry that my past thoughts on animal hrt was caused by internalized transphobia and I would also like to apologize about that.

Expect to see some more furry posts and maybe if I'm brave enough I'll post my own artwork.

Worse case scenario I'm not a furry but I respect furries more as a result.

Wish me luck.

Edit: I'm a furry now

[recently-reanimated]

Listen, staning politicians is bad. We must remain critical of people in power.

However it is funny to watch Republicans act like this man is the devil incarnate.

This is democratic vice presidential nominee Tim Walz Gov. Of Minnesota. This man looks like if a capybara was a person. He looks like he'd pull over on the side of the road and help you change a flat tire. He looks like he'd offer you hot coco from his thermos if you were out ice fishing with him.

[1-800-dreamgirl]

this is what everyone has been saying!! no one is looking at celebrities for political statements, but they should and must use their platform to amplify the voices of those who need and most importantly be against this genocide!!

[twodeeweaver]

No good boys allowed, only Great Papyrus allowed.